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xenomorphicdna · 6 months

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On the string propaganda

Heeellll yeah

Bestie is an entire PLACE

I look at those guys and let me tell you the soul of that thing ain't just in the puppet, it's in all the neurons carrying the thoughts and emotions, it's in the power rails that serve as the heart. All the memories in the memory conflux and all the numbers we see flicker across displays, the flux condensers, the puppet; a little avatar.

No way these massive machines see life the same way we do. They have their own experiences and senses and things they hold dear. A world we can't imagine, a way of living we couldn't even comprehend.

I could never tear an iterator apart to be just a puppet. Who am I to decide how's life supposed to be enjoyed or perceived?

You treat your creechurs however you want- I ain't gonna dictate that. But damn, hearing the thrums and buzzes of the linear systems rail? They are alive with so much power, these mechanical beasts are exactly what they should be.

#sorry im just a really passionate on the string believer #you cant tell me that these massive structures kilometers wide capable of things we cant even image would look at something thats #thats comparable to a speck of dust and be like #yes i would like to rid myself of practically my entire body to be that tiny #this aint no “if i were a supercomputer i'd be sad i couldnt see the sky like i do now”#thats only because you have something to compare it to #if i were to suddenly loose everything to be just some microscopic creature i'd be miserable but only because i know what im loosing #id be loosing the ability to think like i do now id be loosing the ability to enjoy the things i do now #i dont know what life is like as a microscopic creature but i wouldnt be willing to give up my life as i know it now #and i think with iterators are the same #just how different is their life from ours and what things can they see that we are missing out on?#give up everything comfortable and known and for what??#to feel the sun? they absolutely have various temperature sensors #see the sky? those overseers were made to see things those visuals are in 4k #other animal comforts?? what about computer comforts??#what makes a lil creature happy may not necessary make a massive supercomputer happy #sorry big rant in the tags um just wanna say this is no hate to anyone who wants their creatures off the string #these are fictional beings and you do whatever makes you happy take them off the string set them loose yess enjoy little robots running #around be happy i love reading ya alls off the string shenanigans #rain world #iterator #drawins #oc veil of dreams #rw talk #rain world oc #iterator oc

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stuffeddeer · 6 months

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y!dazai and emotional reader..,, since he’s somewhat emotionally unavailable it’s really hard for him to understand how reader is feeling but he’ll try to act sympathetic just for the sake of them</3

YESSS okay hold on lemme just .

Dazai groaned. This was the third time you’d replied to him with the same - in his opinion - lame excuse. “He can just finish the reports on his own! They aren’t even yours to complete.”

“I offered to help Kunikida and I’m sticking by it. He deserves time to relax as well, you know? What’s wrong with lending a hand?” Your words made Dazai puff out his cheeks as he thought. Well, the main issue is that it’s taking time away from him. Shouldn’t your boyfriend be your top priority, rather than your coworker? “I’m sorry, Dazai. We can have that date tomorrow, alright? I promise.”

“Okay,” Dazai replies curtly. He doesn’t mean to be terse towards you, his beautiful and wonderful partner (his words not mine), but he just couldn’t understand where you were coming from. All he does is pawn off his work onto others, and Dazai is sure the rest of the agency would do the same if given the opportunity. And yet, here you are, staying late just to finish reports that aren’t yours.

His sudden gruff attitude caused you to frown, feeling a little guilty for leaving your boyfriend alone. “Hey,” you spun around in your chair to properly face him, discarding the pen you were working with momentarily. “We can spend time together tonight, alright? I promise, if I had known you planned something for us I wouldn’t have taken this on.”

Dazai knows that; Of course Dazai knows that. But… “Doesn’t spending time with me sound more fun?” He leans in, bumping his nose onto yours to try and entice you into joining him at home.

“One hundred percent,” you chuckle. An amused smile pulls at the edges of your lips as you lean back, turning once more to the extra paperwork you agreed to take on.

“Then why won’t you?” It’s not every day Dazai comes across something he can’t easily understand. With eyebrows stitched together, lips pursed into a small frown, he couldn’t figure out why you wouldn’t just join him. Kunikida wouldn’t be mad that you went home when you were supposed to; As much of a hard-ass as that man is, he understands the importance of a good work-life balance.

One of the reasons Dazai was always so drawn to you was your kindness and emotional side. At first you were merely a puzzle to him - a way to alleviate his boredom for a few weeks before something new came along. But even after all this time, he still hadn’t quite cracked the way you gravitate towards the illogical.

“I want to help out a friend, that’s all.”

Dazai thought back to his friend, one he’d have done anything to help out. Maybe he’s beginning to understand you.

“I’ll see you back at your apartment later, alright? I love you, Dazai.”

The brunet lets out a hum, indicating he heard you, before pressing a kiss to the crown of your head and slipping on his coat. “See you later, then.”

THE WAY DAZAI JUST ISNT YANDERE ?? i forgot LMAOO i'm sorry anon :(

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plulp · 5 months

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hey guys. remy design

#remy the farmer #dol #my art #sorry it took so long for me to make this #im watching live shows for one of my favorite music projects in the corner and i have to pause drawing to scream every 5 seconds #if i were in that crowd id be yelling. id faint. only but a dream to attend one of these #to the people that sent me another personality swap request also. i promise im not ignoring you but the one that said #''avery and eden swap would be a nightmare''#youre completely right. it is a nightmare. i cant think of anything #so if either of you have any more ideas or anyone else does then PLEASE help me im begging you all i can think of is ??? i dont know #i hope you guys like this remy though #i was worried about if it was good enough but special thanks to the people on my side account that told me it was fine #i posted fem remy there too if you want to see it #i think when i do fem vers of them all ill group them up because itll take me less time to make it since ill already have the design basis #and also i feel bad for spamming you guys #actually would you prefer i keep posting them one by one or should i post them all at once? for these designs #i feel bad posting separately because that means the people who rb my posts reblog like 10 separate design posts in a row :(#and i dont want them to spam their blogs because of me #but i do really really appreciate it when i see someone do that in my notifs :) so thank you a lot if you do #and also thank you to everyone who leaves tags i read each and every one of them obsessively like a freak #this is getting too long im going to hit the tag limit at this rate #ill try to work on the avery eden thing again #see you all later :)

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waterfallofspace · 3 months

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A Word-Filled Update

that no one's asking forrrr~

Sooooo, hiya~ ^^

Realized I kinda dropped out without much word, and wanted to give a lil update to anyone who may care, (and specifically to all the unfilled requests that have been sat in my inbox for months now T~T)

Dropping it under a cut because it gets quite long~ but I'll also TL;DR it with: been a bit burnt out, trying to get back into this, I apologize for all the unanswered asks, and I will be trying to get to the ones I can, but I'll be focusing more on trying to enjoy the process of making content~ Thank you to anyone who's stuck around <3

(Tw for brief mention of mental health/neurodivergencies~ nothing in depth or dark, but just incase anyone wants to avoid that <3)

Nothing serious has been going on, mostly just burn out and a bit of drama in main friend group, combined with free time just being a lot more limited recently~ (not a bad thing, most of it is because I'm getting to talk more with friends I've gotten closer to this past year~)

That said, I've been trying to get back into content, making it, reblogging it, etc, without letting it become all-consuming. I find, with the way my brain works, mostly to do to some wonderful neurodivergent tendencies, I tend to fall heavily into 'all of nothing' mentality.

This shows up in my day to day life, (ie: can't wash the dishes for weeks until I suddenly do them all in one day) and I've definitely noticed it with content creation. Need to write and finish a story in one go, record a wav as fast as possible, always afraid I'll lose that motivation.

But honestly? I love making content on here! And I'm not a huge blog, nor do I care if I am (at least trying not to, if I'm being painfully honest~) but I genuinely love making content. Whether it's just for me, a request that I am hoping one specific person will enjoy, or a story I write with a community in mind, I just love creating~

So, I'm trying to ease my way back into this! Bit by bit, let it be fun, and enjoyable, with less internal pressure to produce as much as I can, as fast as I can, and make it be perfect.

I won't lie and say 'numbers don't matter to me', if I'm honest, they do. But I'm learning more and more how to let it be about the content, and to just enjoy the process~ (and if people like it, that'll be a wonderful bonus!~)

Wooo this is getting so long, I apologize sincerely! Last thing, something I've mentioned a few times previously but never really let myself get into... requests~

I'm so honoured that people care about my content enough to have asked for things, and getting any ask, request, praise, ask lists, heck even just a 'hi!' is honestly the best part of this blog for me!

Buuuut, I definitely worked myself into burn-out before with a "every request needs to be filled and fast" mentality, that led to just... not filling any.

So! I'm going back through my inbox, and deleting some older ones that I don't have a clear vision/motivation for. I apologize to anyone who requested them, though by now it's possible they're long gone~ But I think this will help me not only start enjoying the creation process without feeling so overwhelmed, but also start actually getting more content made~

There are definitely a bunch that I still adore, and am thrilled to get to test out, but if there's one you remember sending, and you really want to see it completed, please feel free to send another ask saying what it is you want done, and I'll see if I can get that going <3

And if you've stuck it out to the end here- uh hi! ^^ I'm sorry this is so long, I'm such a words person, but I appreciate you so much, not just for any support you've offered, but just bothering to read this <3 I genuinely didn't expect most to make it this far, so thank you so deeply <3 and I hope to see you guys around as I start reblogging stuff more!~

#waterfalltalks #waterfallrambles #more like waterfallparagraphs im so sorry hahaha #been thinking about making this for awhile- but always felt so anxious???#idk why specifically... maybe cause i cant be short to save my life #or maybe because it feels like ive left it too long?? been promising so much and never fulfilling #but i am gonna try!! not to fulfill everything but- to start enjoying it again #i worry this comes off like i have an ego... i really dont haha~ i dont expect anyone to really interact with my blog or care #it was always meant to be for ME- and i just hoped to create things ID enjoy and that #if anyone else enjoyed it too that i could start giving back to the community thats given me so much content ive adored #anyways this is a LONNNGGG post and so are these tags hahaha~#using this blog as a journal again i think! but its mine! so okay! im gonna let myself!#gonna add here too that i might be reblogging with shorter tags for a bit- i promise its not cause im not excited!!!#just trying to make it the least overwhelming situation so i can start really getting back into ENJOYING it~#thank you to anyone who read this far and a huge thank you to all my friends from here and anyone who stuck around <3 #i appreciate and love you all so dearly <333 #not snz

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kaseyskat · 1 year

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being both a sparrow apologist and a normal enthusiast is so difficult sometimes I am sitting here imagining them bonding and crying over canon and so few people truly understand me

#kasey rambles #dndads #no you guys dont understand. sparrow is a good parent! to me!!!#which is highly ironic because i was FURIOUS at him on my first listen #BUT. theres a post that puts this into words somewhere. about how judging sparrow for saying something #when he was in a state of complete vulnerability #FEELS like thoughtshaming a bit. because like #i think sparrow has this mentality of. i dont have to be proud of someone to love them. and i will love them so hard in spite #because he gets too in his head and he worries and he doesnt want normal to be like him #and he feels like this about henry and lark too- hes not proud of them. in fact theyve both actively mistreated him. but he loves them #and that's enough #its like. we're not sitting here bashing on grant for the REALLY shitty way he inflicts his own self loathing onto link #because we know grant only says this when hes vaguely sauced #but sparrow gets SO much heat for saying hes not proud of normal when he was both drunk AND sauced simultaneously #and maybe like. if there were signs that sparrows let this mentality ruin their relationship in the past?#but theres not. the reason it hurts normal so much is because it was UNEXPECTED.#it made him doubt his own memories and his history but. as far as we know. its only doubts. sparrow loves normal so much #and sparrows always been the first one sitting there apologizing (which is another story: we love seeing him continue the oak cycle)#and loving. and accepting normals anger.#god this was such a rant im sorry for anyone actually reading my tags shdjfkdkkfvk #i just have such strong feelings about how like. in comparison? sparrow is NOT as bad of a parent as yall think he is #and i think the only reason we think otherwise is because we only see him through normal #if we got his own pov? youd forgive him just like we forgive henry #also i would kill for sparrow choosing normal over lark i feel like thats a decision hes gonna have to make pretty soon

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yuukei-yikes · 9 months

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i like that it's canon haruka is really pretty. my proof is 1. konoha getting away with being a freak just cuz he looks good (pretty privilege) 2. jin says haruka would smell really good 3. is voiced by mamoru miyano

#i will never shut up abt mamoru miyano being casted ONLY for saeru and not rly with haruka and konoha in mind #and it was 2013/2014 and it was The Thing to sell thru Sexy evil guy (shaking in anger) and it was like. on purpose #but i have got to live laugh love and focus on haruka for my well being. i hate you saeru i hate what youve done.#ok yes saeru but particularly. KUROHA #yes theyre the same #but im an old time fan and kuroha is more specifically THAT time. bad times.#I HATE IT!!! I HATE IT!! AND ANYONE WHO SAYS KOKONOSE TRIPLES OWES ME MONEY FOREVER #sorry. im normal. thats a real thing people did.#anyways. pretty guy haruka❤️ i like to think of takane meeting him for the first time #but she's probably never stopped to look at a guy in her life and its like #OK YOU KNOW SKIP AND LOAFER SKIP LAUGH LOAF #when shima asks for mitsumis contact and she's like Whoa now that i look at him hes so sparkly. all people in tokyo must be sparkly #(camera pans out and the whole classroom is like IKEMEN!!!)#something like that. except there is no class. its just takane by herself assuming haruka is totally normal looking #and hes just sparkly for no reason #and she feels weird because he's a freak #i think thats something rly funny abt takane's feelings for haruka #she feels Weird (likes someone) and attributes it to haruka being weird. like girl shes so delusional i love her #kagevinnie #does anyone read all my tags #btw im doing hw. well supposed to be doing hw. but i randomly pause to post bc im kageproing at all times and most importantly #yuukei yesterdaying at all times

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lilowoof · 17 days

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I'm so fucking excited to get all this outstanding work done, and for tax season to fuck off. I cannot wait to have more time to play games with pals, go out with friends whom I haven't seen in a few months....go to some random meetups to meet new ppl and create new connections (and perhaps snag me a new person wink wonk LMAO).

And just...have more time to live. To stop feeling as lonely as I am feeling rn. CAUSE HOO BOY, it's been hitting me hard. And I can't do too much about it CAUSE of the deadlines I need to meet!

#I have learned my lesson: no more zines. or rather. no more modding zines #as much as I love you grizz zine. the amount of work you have placed on my shoulders is too much. heck. the other mods have it worse #I dont enjoy doing overtime and coming home to work on the art for the zine that I really should have had help with :')#27 spots...thats way too much for me at least. my hands are struggling and I am getting flare ups again. and I am not including the notes #I legit havent drawn anything for me in months because of this and I just wanna draw abby n pilos cuddling!!!!!! LMAO #and I so badly want to reach out to ppl to play games with and I cant cause Im either WORKING or WORKING #I really want to stream games again too.....I REALLY want to play 999 with someone :'))))))))))) would be a fun game to share......#and the cube escape game too #AUGH I HATE BEING SO BUSY AND ALONE SOMETIMES LMAO. IDM being single but this is an instance where a partner would be nice to have to blab #but ye I am so excited for may. most things will be done and work will still be rough but more manageable!#so ye. IM so sorry if you read all this I just like talking. and I dont really have anyone to talk to rn except myself XD #(ye ye I could reach out to ppl but hm. well I am tbh LOL. but ya know. busy. haha)#also typing has been really painful lately. the only reason why these tags are ending is cause my hands are numb from typing. :')))))))))))#ok goodnight

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gibbearish · 5 months

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Yo this is a dumb way to do this but my brain is fuckin toast at the moment, so let not the medium distract.

I intend to respond to you properly, but barring the ability to string enough brain cells together to do that I just want to say: I'm sorry that my response came off as rude and condescending. It's not what I intended for it, nor how I wished it to be received.

I did take it to come from the very present context of specifically not wanting to support tumblr financially because 'the site is already there', and not as the context of capitalism is the scourge of humanity. I wish I were being reductive about that reason above, but I have very literally seen that exact take a few times. That is not what you explicitly said and it's my poor form to have presumed.

So, I will respond in full, because you took the time and I'd like to return the courtesy but I wanted to make my apologies more promptly than I'm able to engage on the topic fully

aaa thank you for sending this, i really appreciate it. to be fair i definitely made some assumptions there too, i thought ur angle was more like the "nothing can ever be free, everything must cost money forever, the free market is the lifeblood of the economy and capitalism is the nature of man" type stuff cause that's been the main response ive seen to general unhappiness with the state of the internet rn. and i will say honestly if i saw someone genuinely saying since the website has already been made there can't be any costs involved in keeping it up i would probably react the same LOL

#in turn im also sorry my response wasnt very nice‚ i did try my best to keep it objective but i know some irritation #def leaked through esp in the stuff in the tags ESP considering that that makes a lot more sense now in the context #of you thinking i meant specifically tumblr kabfksbdmsbdn #also i hope its ok to reply to this publically‚ i dont thiiiiink i have followers that would like. yell at you because of that reblog #but i wanna put this up too just to be safe #i think i have messages from anyone turned on tho so i figure if u wanted it answered privately u prolly wouldve done that #also reading it back i was definitely v vague in the og post

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inevitablestars · 4 months

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i hate being the way i am why the fuck can't i fix it

#putting this in the tags bc it's easier to be vulnerable here #but also #tw ed #things have not been good recently and i don't know why it got bad again but it did and i've been trying so god damn hard and just like #failing.#but i ordered myself dinner tonight because i couldn't get myself to cook even tho making food is usually easier because i know what i like #but i just couldn't put in the effort and it's been too long that i can't keep letting myself do this and i can't live off of #the piece of toast and maybe a banana or maybe some other small thing each day like i can't do that #so i got a full meal but of soemthing i know i like and haven't ruined for myself lately and it was good!#i enjoyed it! like yummy tasty sat here and enjoyed it! i didn't finish it but i had about half of it and that's good #but now my stomach hurts and my chest hurts and it doesn't feel any better than before i ate and i could have just like not #and that's not good either and i Know that! i just wish i could stop doing this #bc this now derails my night and didn't fix anything but i've spent money on ordering delivery and now i feel bad about that too #like what the fuck. why do i do this why am i like this #will be deleting this so soon i just needed to put this somewhere im sorry if anyone reads this #a few more just in case ->#tw food #tw eating

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krenia · 10 months

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double hit means double the oversharing @johndoe-r @officialmisterrose

- absolutely obsessed with roguelikes/lites and anything that has randomly generated ("repayable") elements most notably tboi and Hades

- my username is a name I made up for a story about elves and dragons when I was like 8, it's now stuck to me like a parasite and I can't call myself anything else online even if I try

- one day decided I'm a completionist and now every game I play is played with the intent of 100%'ing it yeah it it clashes with the roguelikes part yeah

- had an embarrassingly long warrior cats phase, yet still can't draw furries

- I have really bad social anxiety (but still for some reason cannot shut up) so sometimes it takes me like, literal 2 hours of psyching myself up to socialize in the smallest of ways

- "hates pink" to "owns pink cat ears headphones" pipeline (came with egirl fashion sense for some ungodly reason,,)

#if sludge life never went on that 100% off sale i wouldnt have heard of it probably and i wouldve been normal #but lo and behold now im drawing fanart like a printer because funny graffiti game #the completionist thing is funny because now my instinctual response to “i wanna die” is “no i cant i still have to 100% isaac”#tboi has 637 achievments for the record #yeah #checking made me realise that fucking cookie clicker and tboi have the exact same amount of achievements #yes i also intend to get all achievements in cookie clicker #it probably wont happen because the mini stock market is my nightmare and also because idler #triple the oversharing apparently krenia does not shut up #i will not open tumblr for the next 2-3h or wont check my notifications for that time #the consequences of my actions!!#overythinking will get my ass #sorry to anyone reading this in advance #yeah “in advance” in the second to last tag

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martyrbat · 1 year

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#im bout to be whiny before getting nauseated at being kimda vulnerable and end up deleting this but just #shoutout to my friend (who was the only person i ever shared my writing with for over a year)#just telling me they've always just skimmed my fics AND infodumps because they dont care. like has read at most a handful of me talking &#usually skips any rare audio message that i sent when SUPER excited and made up drama to have an excuse to change topics #again. for over a year.#then getting guilt trippy when i was hurt by it until i apologize instead which !! lmao fuck ok !#its just... very hmpth :/ bc it eas already a shitty night and week of nonstop migraine. and then this #and taking into account im someone who NEVER blocks any of my friends tags or doesnt read and invest myself in their interests #even if i dont like it; i love seeing people (even strangers) excited and talking about what they like so of course im going to #at least watch them talk on it and/or actually research into it because i want to be able to understand their happiness!#and because its whats important to them !! i dont expect the same and im not shaming anyone for not doing the same its fine I guess #but to tell me? and to say they dont read my writing or give a single shit about me talking about something #when i always put 100% into their interests? am i that shitty of a writer and that obnoxious to listen to lmao #like i feel shitty for even being hurt over it and even venting because you guys arent here for that and its mean to force it on ur dash #and i dont want to be too whiny but also. jfc man #ill stay silly starting tomorrow and post about batmans balls or whatever. sorry for the vent just. bleh.#that ‘december please bro please im begging just a break please man’ post but its me throughout this February too apparently

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monsterrae1 · 2 years

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Tagged by the sweet @adventuresofprettyboyandthekid to make a mood board with pictures from my camera roll

(I never make moodboards so pls if this is shitty don't tell me)

Tagging if they wanna give this a go @bitchfacediaz @loveyourownsmiilee @spotsandsocks @the-likesofus @bekkachaos @rogerzsteven @fearlessdiaz @daughterofbuddie @buddierights @jobairdxx @whumperific @eddiediazisascorpio @madneyandbuddie @elvensorceress

#moodboard #i tried to make it as pleasing as i could #but its just my pups #one cozy oliver cause its rainy season over here #the only aesthetic photo i have of me reading when i was at a waiting room #a cool art I use as background sometimes because I love the mountains #and my halfassed drawing I actually really like #if i forgot to tag anyone im sorry my head is still kinda pounding but this was fun

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vagueshape · 9 months

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Why does making stuff have to be so expensive hhhhhhh

#my sewing machine was made in a way that it is almost impossible to service on my own #i cant afford a new machine #but hand sewing through denim is actual hell on earth #also i have so many ideas for jewelry but getting all the supplies beads chain etc is so fucking expensive #unless i get it from amazon or smth which... no.#my weird art isnt cutting it rn because it is a physical manifestation of my current manic episode which is very very bad and awful #its all paintings of meat and religious trauma and my hallucinations #and that is not fun #its a great way of getting it all out but #im not showing that to anyone #i need something i can wear and show everyone because i love saying i made stuff to others #also i hate all of my clothes i hate the way i look in all of them and making my own is like the best way to get around that #uhhhh if youve read this far i am so so sorry #if you could see the inside of my brain it would look like one of those boards you see conspiracy theorists in shows have #yk with all the red yarn and shit #yeah #thats it thats my brain rn #all the time #these tags are a post in and of itself i am so sorry #long tags

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downfallofi · 9 months

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Nah but like I love my sister to death but like... one of the reasons I just... dont feel like people wanna hear what I have to say or why it feels like it's a hard obstacle for me to imagine talking to someone about my day is that. It's like if I talk about what I did at the dinner table. She immediately turns it into a problem solving mode. And starts saying well this is why you need to get back in school and get your bachelor's. Have you called about registration. I will look up who to talk to about financial aid right now and like fucking CHRIST I'm not looking for a complete lecture on going to college (which also makes me feel like a loser and a disappointment) just because I did a little vent about an annoying thing that happened at work, I should just not talk about work at all. And also, it's like you really didn't listen to what I was actually saying. So.

#It can be that way a lot #And I appreciate her wanting to take care of things but it is so controlling and demeaning #And fuckin she GOT me this job at this company and NOW she wants me to bail and go to school? Like #Eh #But I dont feel like subjecting anyone else to my rants either because what if they think I'm a loser too #This more and more is why I just talk to myself honestly :/#Im sorry #Long tags are long #Long post nobody read

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