#im the second to last today hbu

[cocospoetrybook]

please text me back - an original poem about my bpd and experiencing having a favourite person

i’m so sorry to any person who i have ever found myself attached to.

i apologise for burdening you with my affection.

being loved by me must be exhausting.

but i hope you know that it’s just as exhausting if not more actually being me.

let me quickly explain every thought going through my head over the course of any conversation we have ever had through dms.

the second i wake up i text you it takes me 5 minutes to decide how to word it.

good morning,

exclamation mark!

no to open you might not feel the need to respond.

good morning how are you smiley face.

get rid of the smiley face

you may be sad or mad and the happy nature might make it worse

maybe i shouldn’t say good morning just morning.

okay

morning how are you

do i add a question mark or does that seem too formal?

i’m just going to send it.

it takes you 3 minutes to open the message

i know because i say moving my eye from the dm to the time at the top of my phone until i watched the delivered turn to seen.

it takes you 14 seconds exactly to type out your response

i counted them.

“hi i’m good.”

you didn’t ask how i was back.

i’m now wondering if you care about me at all.

you don’t do you?

you hate me don’t you?

if you despise me just tell me!

if you are annoyed i messaged you could just say that!

you only replied out of obligation and we both know it!

fine!

whatever!

it was stupid anyway!

you’re stupid anyway!

i don’t care anyway!

“hbu”

oh.

okay.

it’s fine.

im fine.

we’re fine.

still you only typed out 3 letters not the full sentence.

you put as little energy as you possibly could into acknowledging my existence but i’m choosing to ignore that.

i reply with

i’m good thank you do you have any plans for today.

it takes you half an hour to see the message and you tell me you have work.

i see the notification but i don’t open it i don’t want to seem to eger.

instead i set a timer for 60 minutes then i can message you back.

oh cool

exclamation point

i hope you have a good shift

heart emoji

how long is it going to be

question mark

also sorry i didn’t respond until now i hadn’t seen the message.

it’s now been an hour of me checking my phone every 2 minutes just incase i missed your message.

but you didn’t reply.

you didn’t even open it.

because you hate me…

you despise me.

you are actively trying to find ways to cut me out your life!

well fine i can make it easier!

i could block you right now so you don’t have too i’m sure you would just love that!

or better yet i could die right now so you never have to say another word to me and you never run the risk of pumping into me in the street when we both know you hate me so much!

and maybe it would make you respond quicker if you knew this is what i was thinking right now!

you might even feel guilty for how much you cant stand to be around me!

but equally i then wouldn’t be able to see your response if you did then reply.

so i guess maybe i shouldn’t.

and it occurs to me only then that maybe i was being a little bit silly.

maybe that was semi irrational.

maybe i have somewhat lost my mind.

but i don’t have time to think of that while i’m still counting the minutes it takes for you to open my fucking message like i’m meant to be counting my breaths.

when you reply it’s 8 hours later,

and i am emotionally drained from repeating that last step several times over.

“Hey, just got back from work.

I’m Ok.”

that was it.

that was all that i had drove myself crazy to receive.

you didn’t even ask how i was.

and i don’t get why you just don’t care.

and on the inside i’m going insane.

i am filled with anger but i don’t want to scare you away so instead i type out

hey i missed you,

exclamation mark!

i hope you had a good day

smiley face emoji,

back track

i hope you are had an amazing day!

also not to sound annoying but i noticed in your last message you put ok instead of okay also you capitalised the o normally you only use lower case are we still cool?

tears are streaming down my face and you don’t know that.

my breathing is uneven and you are unaware of that

so when you reply with

“my day was good thank you.

also obviously we’re still cool why wouldn’t we be

laughing face emoji”

i once again notice you still haven’t asked me about my day.

and now you are laughing at my insecurity while i have been crying for hours.

but im too tired to fight so if you say we’re fine im sure we are.

so i just say

sorry it doesn’t matter just had a bad day is all i was probably just reading into things you know how i can be.

it takes you 30 seconds to see it.

and it takes you a minute to reply.

i counted.

stop apologising we have been over this it’s getting really annoying constantly having to give you so much reassurance sometimes being around you is just so draining.

this time i don’t reply.

i just sit and sob.

because yeah it is so fucking draining.

and i already know that

and i don’t ever get to take a break.

#bpd things #bpd favorite person #bpd stuff #actually bpd #poemsociety #my poem #poem by me #poems on tumblr #poetblr #poet corner #poets corner

[hematomes]

naos

so last night i was like “alright boys let’s go do the abyss idk maybe we can clear it this time” and dragged my team kicking and screaming (except childe probably) into floor eleven and twelve. floor eleven i cleared 8/9 just brute forcing my way with barely any technique bc my stupid ass was having trouble aiming venti’s ult sobs

then i get to floor 12. first chamber half im using my electrocharged comp ft venti for easy grouping + ER help. easy. bam. second half. WHY IS MY CHILDE COMP STRUGGLING THEYRE USUALLY FASTER?? runs through it like 4 times but things keep happening, damage isn’t high, keep dying as a result. blinks. realizes kazuha is on like level 5 pieces cause i never fixed his build after messing with it. so therefore all the usual buffs i get from his EM ARE LIKE NON-EXISTENT AND HES DOING NO DAMAGE

poor guy was working so damn hard ;-;

so i fixed his build and hopefully today’s attempt will go better,,, could also try switching it up so that the electrocharged team is on that side? but then electro lector. evil. annoying rrr

anyways how are u doing this morning <3

ZBDKZ KAZUHA KEEPS TAKING Ls TODAY....... poor little dude. he deserves a break, on a warm rock, w a bit of naku weed

im good!! everyone left im chilling alone like a fool, and i need to start working on my last assignments but alas im watching umbrella academy

hbu?

#♡.— hara

[thispabulum-blog]

Break the Ice: pt 2

Fuck it Friday

Today we'll check out the responses to the "icebreaker" questions I sent out last weekend. I've given it most of a week to collect responses, and I guess at this point I've gotten all I'm going to.

Let's see how it went, yes?

What's the weirdest food combination you enjoy?

I sent this message to 4 guys, and received 2 responses. The first told me he'd have to think about it, and eventually came up with

Probably eggs and syrup if im bein real

The second was

Oh geez. Zero idea. Give me yours.

Okay so honestly. If you're not going to bother answering the question, don't respond. This really bugs me.

If you had to give a TED Talk right now, what would it be on?

I sent this message to 9 guys; received 3 responses.

How important it is for me to get my dick sucked

He gets half a point because he did technically answer the question, but not in a way that made me want to have any continued conversation with him.

I never did think about that🤣🤣🤣 What would u talk about

Yawn.

…interesting….hmm…Why you should consider just hiring someone to do that home renovation you’re thinking of doing yourself.

I did talk to this guy for a bit. Presumably he does home renovation stuff professionally.

Would you rather take a trip to outer space, or in the deep seas?

I sent this message to 5 guys; received 1 response which was an underwhelming

tbh idk lol

So I definitely won't be using that one again.

What's an unpopular opinion that you secretly agree with?

I sent this message to 7 guys, received 4 responses.

I don’t secretly agree with anything. Open book on that. Politics is Fugazi

Sometimes you can just tell someone is going to be exhausting to talk to and it's better not to interact with them at all.

The man is head of the house hold

I mean, I asked for that, I guess. I didn't engage him too much because I didn't feel like arguing and I don't think it's fair to ask someone for a hot take and then attack them about it. But also...not really a person I want to continue talking to.

Uhhhhh, bullying can be a good thing and fat shaming can work. *shrug* hbu

I had actually talked to this guy a bit before and continued to do so, though I disagree.

And then one that was so aggressive I'm including a screenshot because I want you to know that this is a thing someone actually said. I'm leaving his name because screw that guy.

What's the most nonsensical item you own?

I sent this message to 5 guys, and got 2 responses.

I would say I have a glass keyboard that I have yet to use and I bought it some time ago. What about you?

This just sounds so unbelievably impractical.

Probably the strap on that I got from a white elephant gift exchange. But if I think of another I will let you know. What about you?

I talked to both of these guys for a while. I like this question.

What's your favorite conspiracy theory?

I sent this message to 6 guys, got 5 responses!

Oof idk lol I guess it depends on what would be considered conspiracy. I think we have contacted by aliens and our government covers it up. Ghosts are real not sure if that’s considered conspiracy lol

Got to talk to this guy about ghosts for a while, so that was nice.

The theory that the lottery is just a trap for time travelers

I had talked to this guy a bit before, and this was enough to get us back into conversation. I might meet up with him, question mark? I'm not 100% sold on it, but we'll call him T-Mobile.

Where do you live

Swing and a miss.

I'll be honest, I haven't thought too much about conspiracy theories but I do find it find it hard to believe that our government isn't making some kind of communication with extraterrestrial species

That's valid. I talked to this guy for a while and then blocked him for shallow reasons; I'm sorry I'm a terrible person sometimes.

Idk I think landing on the moon was fake I think the corona shot is actually a micro chip Wat bout urs

This is a lot like asking for hot takes in that I don't wanna argue with this guy, and I don't think he was joking.

What's the most ridiculous thing you believed as a child?

I sent this message to 6 guys, received one response.

That everyone finds love.

I know I love a good Sad Boy, but that was tough even for me. I did respond, though, because of course I did.

What's the strangest nickname you've ever been given and how did you earn it?

I sent this message to 5 guys, received 2 responses.

Haha Hmm I only have 1 nickname

Mmmm the truth is they only call me [redacted] and [redacted]

What have you ever chickened out of doing that you'd like to do now?

I sent this message to 5 guys, received one response.

I haven't. The only time I've stopped myself is when there's a moral qualm but 99% of the time if I want to, I'll just do or say it. Better to be honest about your intentions and desires than to throttle yourself and your interactions. What about you? Regret not doing something?

I have talked to this guy before, and to be honest he's really cute and sweet and genuine and interesting.

BUT I worry he's too serious, and that's such a turn-off.

What's something that you didn't enjoy at the time, but you look back on fondly?

I sent this message to 6 guys, received one response.

I'm not gonna include it here because it was kinda personal about his parents divorce, but we talked for a bit after that.

Anyway, that was an interesting experiment. What did I learn?

Asking people about unpopular opinions is a minefield and not the best way to start out a conversation.

It's easier to re-start abandoned conversations than to start new ones.

Ask people about conspiracy theories!

Have a good weekend! :D

#okcupid #dating #poly #online dating #dating app #tinder #men are trash #dating apps suck #Spotify

[oswlld]

—  the ‘halfway to ep12’ check in, how we feelin’?

#bad buddy #bad buddy the series #patpran #ohm pawat #love pattranite #nanon korapat #badbuddyedit #mine: edits #im the second to last today hbu #*bbcaps

[woozi]

the thirst tweets yza 😭😭😭 i cannot. as much as fun this was, we were so close to getting jaebs with cats <//3

headlocking sk 😭😭 DJJDSKSK i would stand there like wonu clapping in the soop, for you <3. it's hindi ( actually it's my 2nd language but i speak in it the most w ppl outside of family djdjdjk ) my mother tongue is almost dwording djdjdkdk </3 i think im last gen who still speaks it, kids these days only know hindi or english.

ALSO!!! the footwork in senses choreo???? i liked it sm <3 yugyeom makes it look so easy to move like that?!?

same jdjdkddk godddd sometimes it takes a month to complete a drama which i like and started on my own will and sometimes it only takes 3 days. it doesn't matter how much i love something if i won't watch it, then I won't watch or consume it at all 💀.

ohhh, i've known jamie as an after school club mc first and singer second. like there was this time i was suddenly obsessed w eric nam's before we begin album i think around that time i first listened to one or two songs of jamie ( it was all spotify's doing jddjks) but then i forgot abt both and went back to listening to my regular ones. honestly i feel like i've gotten to know and appreciate jype artists ( those i know ) more, only after they've changed agencies it could just be me or my timing tho djdjdjh. have you listened to hanbin's solo album? honestly it's been no.1 album from 1st half of 2021 for me. i was not even looking forward to it or even knew djdjsk but i'm so glad i did i really like the songs & lyrics.

almost whatever jackson has released after mirrors has been to my taste leaving few bsides here and there. i love lmly <3 idk why for some reason i tend to mix pretty please and lmly up a lot djdjsk maybe it's bc of white tee and jeans. both mvs concept and songs are fantastic but if i have to pick one w/ mv & only considering the song, i do love lmly a little bit more then pretty please. wbu? <3

mark kept saying ' when we go back ' during the live so i got more confused each time, went on twt and got to know djdjdk. twt list of both svt & got7 of update accounts is like my newspaper, in free time i open it to see what is going on, sometimes jdjddk.

and of course i know abt woozi's cover <3 i've listened to it a lot jdjdksk he's so <//3

i could listen to his voice all day.

there is one cover of 10 cm hoshi dropped last year i like it sm <3 it made me so happy!!, around that i was obsessed with some of 10 cm's songs. help is one of my most favorite.

i really really wish for dokyeom to cover more day6 songs or just any songs </3 would really appreciate one from mr. joshu_acoustic too 😿.

did you see the way dokyeom woke up with a smile on his face in 5th in the sopp ep <//3 he's so precious 😭 (i'll try to link next time idk links go through asks tho djjddj sometimes tumblr eats it up). i don't even know what a smile is for first 2 hours after i've woken up. also i think i like this (sk coming and karaoke one - 5th) ep a lil more bc of that half minute of singer cheol it served us. i need him to sing more omg <//3

the soop song tho it's so sweet 😭💕. i love love how they brainstorm and make songs it's such an interesting process. i love what going seventeen is now but i miss watching the song making & recording process (even rho they do show it in inse after cb but jdjdks). the one where they made gose song, recorded it and made choreo/mv i love. it's still remains as one of my most favorite ep. they compose & write songs so smoothly & make it look so effortless <3

thank you for letting me ramble abt silly little things and responding to them, yza <3 love hanging out w/ you. i hope you're also having fun djjddj (i'll try to keep these short fr 😭 djdkdk i feel a bit bad for making you read so much nonsense :3)

take care of yourself, yza <3 sending good week wishes. - 🪂🪂🪂

I STILL CAN'T BELIEVE I GOT TO SEE JAEBEOM READ THIRST TWEETS BEFORE MY VERY EYES WHICH ALTERNATE AU IS THIS 😭

also mood tbh we could've gotten something like jacks' puppy vid </3

LIKE WONU CLAPPING FJKDJKFDJFD in true infj fashion <3 wait naurr that's so sad </3 do they not teach it in schools?

ALSO YES OH MY GODDDDDDDDD house king show us ur fancy moves <3 as a fellow dancer i am throwing him my shoe rn <3 also i literally have never seen smth like this in kpop how did people fucking sleep on this icb it..

I FULLY RELATE HELLO????????????????? what dramas have u been watching? and which genres are u into? <3 i also just finished vincenzo today it was so good 😭 took me like.. a week, i think (?), though bc svt has SO MUCH content and i dont like being behind on svt shit esp bc i also run an update blog lmaooo 😭

WAIT I FORGOT SHE ALSO DID EMCEEING 😭 she's such a fun person </3 AND ERIC NAM FDKJDFJK i have one-sided beef w him lmao when he was still new to the scene he would reply to everyone's @s but he never replied to me so i felt v .. </3 (also this is what.. 13 year old me speaking so this def does not reflect how i feel abt him now JKJKFJKDFF) i also get that </3 i feel like jype doesn't manage them well (i dont know shit behind the scenes and shit abt the industry in-depth but u know... it Kind Of Shows esp w how the artists themselves speak abt the agency lol). and i have not!! i am truly a svtpoppie 😭 i will though bc u recommended it to me <3 i also have been seeing him frequently on tiktok lol, ALSO BC OF LEE HI!!

honestly i haven't been keeping up w his albums anymore just the title tracks so i cant say much 😭 i also def prefer lmly over pretty please i was actually obsessed w it for a while!! i love jackson's vision so much though, the cinematography is EVERYTHING

literally reading abt what our boys have been up to like reading the morning paper KJDSFKJDSJKSJKD

V GOOD FOR U TO HAVE COME ACROSS THE COVER... I JUST DISCOVERED IT BY ACCIDENT 😭 also i have to agree although i definitely do not want to admit that i am more than willing to listen to some man sing to me all day 😭😭😭😭😭 jihoon's voice is just... different to me for some reason. i have a hard time picking between him & seokmin tbh </3 hbu, who's ur fave svt vocalist?

ALSO YES THAT WAS SO CUTE OF HIM!! AND V ON BRAND TOO </3 the way u listen to 10cm..... im giving u an award rn <3 im guessing you listen to k-indie too?

DK THOUGH... I'M VERY MUCH WILLING TO ADMIT THAT I'D LISTEN TO HIM ALL DAY.... something about him... AND NOT THE JOSHU_ACOUSTIC FJDJFDJKFD 😭😭😭 i hate his username so much- why... WHY...

I DID!!!!!!!!! and i was so surprised too bc.. who wakes up smiling?????? what'd he dream of???????????? he's such a happy person i cant imagine what thats like 😭 the first thing i do when i wake up is make the >:| face JFJKFDKJFD also oh my god i just read that you're experiencing the same thing 😭😭 bestie trait!! KJJKFDKJFD ALSO YOU COULDN'T BE MORE RIGHT?????????? im always campaigning for vocalist coups im SOOO glad u feel the same way <3 his voice is just so comforting to me </3 idk i just really like his timbre

and v true omg i'm always fascinated to see how they actually work all this out!! the bts recording/choreo making vids are also my favorite gfkjdfkjdfj HOW ARE WE SO SIMILAR WE MIGHT AS WELL BE THE SAME PERSON 😭also jihoon in that gose behind vid........... in universe factory............... i still think about that Look from time to time... 😭this is also why i respect the boys sm tbh. everyone in the industry undeniably works so hard but to actually get this much creative freedom and to basically lead the group and their direction music and performance-wise is so insane to me... no wonder jihoon's always in his studio. i couldnt be happier that they get to live off of doing what they like im also so so proud of them they must work so hard <3 esp w all the content they're giving us.. icb it's always like this in caratland im so used to being an ahgase that gets like.... 1 cb a year😭

AND NOOO OMG DON'T BE SORRY I REALLY LOOOVE GETTING UR MESSAGES </3 and i love how lengthy they are makes me feel like ur just not making small talk (i hate small talk sm 😭) and that you're actually interested <3 i genuinely love bonding w u through these little asks i can never thank u enough for sending them <3 i hope ur having a lovely week as well!! u can always talk to me even if it's not kpop related and u just want to talk abt life or when u need some cheering up <3

#🪂 anon #anon #y.ask #long post

[phansprings]

special edition

rating: ga

tags on ao3: pinof 10, fluff and angst, reminiscing on the past. 

a/n: im emotional rn hbu

word count: 907

summary:   pinof 10 is the final pinof and the fans don't know it yet. dan and phil look forward to the future while reminiscing on the past.

“This year had felt different than the previous. They had accomplished and shared so much of themselves with the people who supported them.”

[read on ao3]

rbs comments and kudos are so appreciated!

full fic under the cut

“So, that’s really it then,” Dan said looking at Phil who was sat on the sofa across the living room of their flat.

He had just received the twitter notification telling him Phil had tweeted the new Phil Is Not On Fire video to all their fans.

“It is,” He replied looking down at his phone.

Dan assumed he was going through some tweets, looking to reply to a few fans. This year had felt different than the previous. They had accomplished and shared so much of themselves with the people who supported them. They both knew it was time to pull back, move on to bigger and better things.

“Remember the first time we wiped the cat whiskers off in the tiny bathroom of your flat?” Dan asked.

Phil chuckled, “God, how many subscribers did I even have back then?”

“I’m not sure anymore. Remember that night though? Laying in your bed after we filmed the first one?” Dan reminisced.

He no longer felt comfortable with the distance between them. So, Dan stood up and moved to join Phil on the sofa. Phil adjusted so Dan could curl into his side. He wrapped his arm around the younger man to provide comfort. A comfort they felt they both needed at that moment. Dan watched as Phil continued scrolling through his twitter mentions as the tidal wave of excitement came in. The moment so many fans had been waiting for and asking about had arrived. The tsunami of thoughts came with it.

“Dan, how could I ever forget that night? Your nose and cheeks were red as a tomato from trying to wipe the sharpie off. It was the night I knew we had started something good that was going to last,” Phil spoke softly.

He sighed and pressed a gentle kiss to Dan’s head. He then squished them a little closer together as he needed to write our replies to fans still. Dan didn’t mind though. He liked to see what was being written. He still wanted to talk about that night though, today was the finale but that didn’t mean he couldn’t reminisce their beginnings.

“Do you remember what we talked about that night?” Dan asked.

“Some,” Phil replied.

“I asked you if you’d show me the world. I asked if we would be all in for the future,” Dan felt embarrassed trying to jog Phil’s memory.

“And I promised you I didn’t want it any other way,”

“I never thanked you,” Dan said nearly interrupting Phil.

“Never thanked me for what, Dan?” Phil laughed.

With Dan and Phil, serious conversations were always a business thing. Even then they liked to keep it light, but today felt different.

“I never thanked you for keeping your promise. We created our own universe and the world came with it,” Dan said sniffling a bit.

“Was it the most fun you’ve ever had?” Phil joked putting his phone down to pull Dan into a hug.

“You’re an idiot, you know?” Dan smiled a few tears still making their way out of his eyes.

“I know. I can tell you I never thought we’d end up here. I can’t believe it’s been ten years,” Phil said

They had had a lot of discussion of when the perfect time to pull back would be. They needed to go out with a bang that only they and the ones close to them knew would be the grand finale. A second tour seemed fit. A second tour closed off with a final tribute to the place where it all began. In a bedroom answering questions from the people that brought them to where they were.

It was sad in a lot of ways. They had so many great accomplishments behind them and so many lives they impacted lying in all corners of the globe. And this one video would reach them all. An unknowing thank you to the person behind the computer screen for the years they had all spent together.

They both knew that the future was uncertain, and it was their turn to slow things down. It was time for Dan and Phil to build a home and move forward with a life away from YouTube. It was time to use the momentum the years had given them and create projects that would change the way people saw them. They wanted to build a life and now seemed like a good time.

“One last question Phil. Then we can just really enjoy the wave of content everyone is creating,” Dan spoke after a brief silence.

“What is it, Dan?”

“Back in 2009, did you ever think we’d end up here?” He asked quietly. Not much above a whisper.

“Not in a hundred lifetimes,” Phil stated sincerely.

“I’m so glad that this is life one hundred and one then,” Dan smiled

Phil Is Not On Fire had a good run. Both boys knew it was time to say goodbye. The series had become so much more than a pair of cat whiskers and a Q&A and they couldn’t be prouder. Life had so much in store coming up for them though, and now seemed like the perfect time to give their final bow.

Not even they really knew it yet, but this marked the end of a book in their life and a sequel was in the works.

Ten years and it was really the most fun they’ve ever had.

#phanfiction #pinof10 fic #phanfic #phan fiction #phan fluff #phan angst #this universe #my fic #claire writes #drabble #fan fic #fan fiction #fanfic

[the-council-of-new-york-vampires]

Omg SHOW US WHAT HAPPENDS AFTER PRIYA SAIS FUCK YEAH

Out of Character:

After Priya agreed, the two obviously became a couple. The first thing I wondered is: How would people even react to that? And that’s what I explored in the fic!

It doesn’t only feature Amy and Priya, but the whole Council, especially Adrian, Lester and Vega, and it’s not sutty.

Enjoy! ^^

Amy had never been so happy about seeing her boss. Immediately after the start of her shift, she had entered his office, approached him, to talk.

“Amy.” He smiled when seeing her. “What can I do for you?”

She smiled back at him. Both of their expressions had the same reason: They were thinking of the person they loved. “I wanted to ask you for a favor.”

He agreed without actually considering her request. “Of course.”

“Can I… be at the Council meeting today?”

He really did seem a bit surprised. “…Any special reason why?”

“There’s someone…” Her smile widened. “…Someone I’d like to see today.”

Adrian was quiet. He just looked her in the eyes.

“…Would that-”

“It’s Vega, isn’t it?”

Amy gaped. “What? No.”

“…No?”

She chuckled. “I promise you it’s not.”

Slowly, he nodded. “Okay… Then, who is it?”

The young woman swallowed. She knew he’d be surprised. “It’s Priya.”

Adrian’s eyes widened. “Priya? What could you possibly want from Priya?”

“Her company.”

“Why?”

She faced the floor. Amy had warned herself not to be nervous about this, but apparently, it wasn’t as easily done as it was thought. Adrian wouldn’t understand. Actually, no one would understand.

It was then that he scowled. “Did she threaten you? Abuse you? I swear-”

Amy was serious when she looked him in the eyes. “No. No, she didn’t. She would never.”

“I’m sure she wo-”

“No. I’ve… been meeting her.”

Adrian gaped.

“She’s so special. I’ve spent the most wonderful moments with her. We’ve talked… A lot. About things I can’t tell you. I promised her I wouldn’t.”

He just faced her in silence. Then he said, in a way that was determined, “That’s her usual strategy in order to make you her slave! Priya is a cold-hearted murderer.”

Amy had nothing against her boss, but she felt the anger coming up. Defensively, she answered, “Don’t call her that! She isn’t one!”

“She is. I know it. You know it. The whole vampire world knows it.”

Amy shook her head. She was honestly disappointed.“No one knows the real her.”

Adrian sighed. “Whatever she told you isn’t true, Amy.”

She couldn’t help but feel offended. The first part of her answer was spoken out in a surprised tone… "How could you judge her?“ …The second part in anger, "You don’t know her!”

“I’ve been knowing her for 94 years, Amy,” he said.

“But not the way I know her.”

Adrian was seemingly struggling. “Amy, I… I don’t want you to see her more than specifically needed. I don’t want you to get hurt.”

“I appreciate that, I really do. But… it’s just a meeting, nothing more.”

“It puts you in danger. It shows her you’re available and willing. And that’s why I don’t want you to be there. The Council is dangerous. Priya is dangerous. You’re getting too close.”

Amy honestly wondered how he’d react knowing they dated. But the fact that everyone was against them as a couple made her sadder than she thought. “Please,” she said. “Just give us this one night. And if she tries anything… I will never look at her again.” The last part… It wasn’t true. Amy knew it wasn’t.

Adrian sighed, faced his papers.

“Do it for me. Please. It’s what makes me happy.”

“…Fine, you can stay. But I will have an eye on you.”

It was then that she smiled. “Thank you, Adrian! I knew I could count on you!”

He forced himself to smile back at her. After watching Amy leave his office, Adrian stared at the wall. He didn’t know what Priya had told Amy. He only knew that he had to protect her from falling in love.

-

Amy cursed herself when stepping into the elevator, an eye on her watch. It was 0:23 am. Having spend too much time at her coffee break, she was now late to the Council meeting. It would be so embarrassing to enter the conference room, causing a silence, six pairs of eyes focused only on her…

But that wasn’t the case. When stepping in, she tried not to blush, unsure if it actually worked. Turning around after closing the door, she saw that only Lester and Vega had even noticed her entering. Amy breathed a sigh of relief.

Scanning the room for chairs, she found three options: One next to Lester who was eying her hungrily, grinning, his sweaty hand motioning her to take the seat next to him… A free seat next to The Baron who was facing Adrian, who was talking about his issue in the debate, in anger, the smell of sausage that surrounded him worse than it was usually… Lastly, a seat next to the Senator who looked as groomed as always, smelling of cologne, his eyes on no one in particular, seemingly not at all emotionally invested in the discussion.

Obviously, Amy chose the third option. Sitting down, she looked for Priya… who was sitting on the other side of the room, eyes on her phone mid-discussion. Amy couldn’t help but smile at that.

The Baron interrupted Adrian angrily, causing even Kamilah to get involved in the debate, but Amy didn’t listen. Her eyes were on Priya. Seeing that she hadn’t looked up from her phone in minutes, she sent her a text: ‘Hey.’

Within seconds, Priya answered. 'hey babe’

Amy grinned, asked her, 'What are you doing?’

'im at a meeting,’ Priya replied. 'boring af. hbu?’

Amy couldn’t help but smile when sending her, 'I’m looking at the most beautiful woman ever.’

'rude’

Amy chuckled.

'is she hot’

She shook her head, smiling. Priya… Typically Priya. 'Super hot. She’s wearing a red dress and… that cleavage!!’

Priya looked down at her red dress.

Amy grinned. 'Look up.’

It was then that Priya faced her. Immediately, she grinned.

Amy noticed that this smile wasn’t one bit predatory. It was… happy.

The women grinned at each other for a few moments, until Kamilah ended the debate and with it, the whole meeting. Priya was the first to get up, approaching her new girlfriend.

With a loudly beating heart, Amy stood up and embraced her. Pulling away, they kissed as if it was natural.

The Senator coughed… choked.

Amy turned around to him.

Immediately, he smiled.

“Have you met my new girlfriend?” Priya grinned.

He raised his eyebrows, but kept the smile on. “Girlfriend?”

“Yep,” Priya said, happy and… proud?

“Oooh, that’s nice to hear.”

Amy couldn’t help but wonder if he really meant that, how he felt… Was he surprised? Sad? Angry? Jealous? She remembered the blowjob story Priya had told her… and shook her head to quickly forget it.

Vega smiled. “Congrats, you two!”

“Imma treat her real well,” Priya stated.

Amy smiled.

“I didn’t expect anything else of you, Priya,” he claimed, grinning. “Amy is one lucky girl!”

She tried to keep it professional; “Thank you,” Amy just said. This time, she didn’t doubt his words - she was insanely happy to have found her.

“Well.” he got up from his seat. “I’ll be on my way then. I have a Clan meeting at 1.”

Priya grinned. “See ya.”

He turned around to them, presented the women a last dazzling smile. “You too! And have fun!” He winked, specifically at Priya.

“Thanks!” Amy replied, actually wondering if it was a hint, for Priya to ‘have fun’ with her…? As soon as he had left the room, she turned to her girlfriend, asked, “Do you think he’s jealous?”

Priya laughed hysterically.

Amy realized how even her laugh made Priya unique.

“No way!”

“Well… I think he was surprised when you told him we’re… you know…”

“He’s chill. Most vamps just don’t date mortals,” Priya said.

“Oh! Yeah… That makes sense.”

“I’m making an exception for you, darling…” Priya kissed her again, this time a bit more passionate.

Having watched them, Lester grinned, licked his lips. “Mhm… Nice cleavage, Priya. Can I touch?”

Priya’s expression was neutral. “Spare me your crap.”

Amy grinned. She was dating a badass.

“What crap?” Lester was seemingly insulted.

Suddenly, Amy thought of the things Priya had told her… And realized that the last thing she needed was another old man fetishizing her. Angrily, she snapped, “Stop staring at her, you pervert! It’s creepy and disgusting!”

“What’s your problem?” he snapped back.“Can’t a man look at a beautiful woman?”

“You weren’t looking at her, you were objectifying her. You’re disrespectful and nasty!”

“Woah, not cool, Amy,” he complained.

“Your behavior isn’t cool. Women aren’t sexual objects for you to get off on! You’re making both of us uncomfortable. You shouldn’t be out in public if you have no decent manners!”

“…Way to ruin the mood!” Angrily, he left the room.

Priya grinned at her girlfriend, whose eyes were narrowed, still on Lester as he left. "Naww, Amy…“

Just then Amy realized what she had done, how worked up the thought of Priya’s past had gotten her. "He can’t treat you like that. It’s men like that who-”

“I know.”

…Priya knew. She could never not think of her past. And that was what made Amy so sad.

Priya grinned. “I’m proud to have a badass girlfriend.”

It was as if a switch inside Amy’s mind was being pulled. Without thinking, she took Priya’s hand. The two walked towards the door, stopping in front of Adrian, Kamilah and The Baron, whose debate had apparently provoked a fight. In front of them, Amy kissed Priya a third time. She wanted them to see. She wanted everyone to know.

The vampires said nothing, but they were clearly facing them.

Amy wrapped her arm around Priya’s. Confidently but in a way that was determined, she said, “I love her.”

Priya just grinned.

Adrian’s voice was in a way sad, in another way angry. “Amy…”

“And,” Amy added, “I’m proud as hell of that.”

It was a silence that followed. A silence that made her feel as powerful as ever.

#priya lacroix #bloodbound #choices #choices: stories you play #priyamy

[changji]

Wow you really went off the other day but at least it was worth it 😪 I normally look at the scenery when I’m on a road trip, but then I get bored of it and decide to sleep bc there’s nothing else to do. Motion sickness must suck :(( do you take gravol or something to help with it? Coffee literally drains the life out of my funds it hurts me

Yes omg pls make me cookies I love them. Maybe you can even open a bakery with pastries and sell some good /cheap/ coffee. Ilyt my dear baker 🥺 ye I’m not the biggest fan of my bday either but gotta celebrate anyway!! One year closer to death woohoo 🎉🎉 your birthday is the most important day of the year!!! You can’t fight me on this I’m right

Pearls are so good. Like most places I go to don’t add anything to the pearls so it’s just bland squishy balls but the place I frequent adds I think honey to sweeten them. It gives the pearls life istg. It tastes so good 🤤 hollering is a funny word. For some reason I always associate it with yodelling which makes me laugh

Ksks you must be op if you can make a joke in the wall with a door slam. I can’t relate my arms are literally sticks and I have no strength in me. Chrome books are terrible in general. Add my schools terrible wifi and you get one big recipe for disaster. I’d never fight u either (unless it’s for your bday) ily too much for that 🥺🥺🥺

Hahah I think it’s me. I haven’t heard anyone say “go ham” except for the people who go to my school. I find it really funny tho so I try to incorporate it whenever I can LOL easily burnt? Can’t relate but apparently I easily tan. There’s this one diagonal stripe on my shoulder that separates pale me and tan me which ??? How did that happen and what was I wearing for that to happen??

It’s all fun and games until you go outside and see a mountain of snow waiting for you to be shovelled. But there are some good aspects to winter, like skating and skiing and all that fun stuff. Snow is so heavy?? Or maybe I’m just weak but after I finish shovelling I’m beat. Gardening is not my thing. There’s too many bugs involved flying around 🥴

Kind of? I always thought it was short for cappuccino but I could be wrong. They don’t taste like fraps tho, they’re sm better. I was always a frap hoe until I discovered lattes. My old elementary school was close to a Starbucks so whenever frappy hour was happening, my friends and I would go almost every day LOL

I heard that dunkin coffee is really good. Oof there’s so many things that the us have that Canada doesn’t. But apparently you guys don’t have ketchup chips?? How can one live without them? You know that’s what soulmates are, we’re stuck together forever and I don’t mind that. I’d never leave you 😌😌

YES OMG LATTES ARE SO EXPENSIVE. I pay around the same amount and my wallet cries every time. If you ever yeet yourself off a bridge I’d come visit u in hell and bring u iced coffee 💖 we really are soulmates wtf I get almond milk in my lattes as well!! I used to get normal milk and was like “I’m a bad bitch milk can’t hurt me” but that didn’t really work out. Sigh what we do for coffee 😔

Washing dishes is disgusting. I hate doing them but yk someone’s gotta do it and that someone is me 😤 I’m acc lazy when it comes to smoothies, I usually ask my mom to make them LMAO. Pancakes are pretty much made of flour if you think about it so technically when u eat one plain ur eating cooked flour,, how barbaric. Waffles are Built. Like. They have a 20 pack 😪😪

I love angst personally so pls go ham but not too ham I’d like to keep my heart. Honestly at this point my last brain cell has given up on me. But yes I love angst and I love torturing myself with heart wrenching angst that leaves me crying into my pillow at 3am (I’m talking about this one haikyuu fic that I forgot the name of. I was literally dying inside jalsjwo)

Pls do send me peet’s I’ll send you an iced capp in a cooler so it’ll be somewhat melted and probably spilt everywhere 🤪 tumblrs probably gonna block me again, I’m looking at how much I’ve typed rn and it’s a lot lmaoo. Yes I managed to save myself. I redid the whole last with less detail bc I was not Having It but it turned out better?? How is ur drawing now?

I start after labour day in September. But starting in 3 weeks?????? On a Thursday?? I could never wtf. When do you end? I’m so confused with these ap and honours thing, like there’s none offered in my school nor majority of the school district. Are they just advanced classes or something? It is 7 classes a semester or the whole year?

Stan talent i think you meant yourself??? Jsjsksk I am not only ur coffee soulmate I’m not #1 fan as well and I support u bc ily 🥺🥺 the read more tag had me laughing for a hot minute. Like we really could make an essay out of all of our replies. I don’t have any pets (besides fish does that count?) unfortunately bc my moms allergic to fur 🥺 hbu?? (I can’t believe tumblr blocked me again they can fight me)

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i didn’t even pay LOL i freeloaded off my cousin 🤧 i like to look @ scenery sometimes but like i can’t bc my head hurts LOL and the scenery is always the same for me, mountains and fields with cows. i try to take dramamine but it makes me so drowsy that i’m just basically dead,,, i live off of my cousins money so i’m okay 🤪

tbh i use nestle toll house pre made cookie dough, like that shit actually slaps. it’s the best it’s so good omg, perfect for lazy hoes 🤧 death here we go ! the order is ur bday, then skz debut date, and then christmas i don’t make the rules sorry sis 😤

pearls are Dangerous, i once drank a smoothie and there were pearls in it and i couldn’t see them bc there were like. only 3 and they were Buried under the smoothie but i choked and almost died but i chewed one of them and it’s like. so weird. HOLLERING AND YODELING IM- i once went to some public yodeling class and left in 2 seconds bc it was a bunch of white boys dressed like the kid from walmart 😪

it’s not even strength i’m actually rly weak,, i always think the doors are closed but they’re not and so i like slam them open and the walls are thin so it’s just. a sad hole. terrible wifi,, my school has pretty good wifi tbh but we have like three connections, one for the chrome books only, one for the teachers & staff, and one for students and guests. like it works rly good but everyone has a VPN bc of stupid social media restrictions 😤 & ilyt 🥺 u would probably win in a fight tho LOL

go ham is so interesting. the first time i heard it i thought it meant go pig and i was so confused but ig,,, i live lathered in sun screen whenever i go somewhere with the sun. ppl are like “i smell sun screen” and im just there like 🙃 it’s me u got a problem u burnt chicken nugget ??? i wish i tanned easily, i have a tan friend and when i showed her when my legs got tan she was so confused. i thought i was tan tho? bc during marching band season my sock tan becomes So Bad i’m basically white. she said she was blinded when she saw me pull my sock down and i laughed so hard LOL & i hate those dumb random tan lines like. where u @ bro? where u come from??

snow is fun for like a day and then i get tired LOL i csn only handle wet socks and a red nose for so long 😔 i tried skiing one time and i did so bad that the instructor had to hold me down and walk with me down the slope. i fell so many times i think he hated me 😳 i’m also rly bad at skating? i went w my friends once and i held both of their hands and still managed to bring both of them down when i fell. a cute guy once helped me when i was struggling to walk so 🥴 not my brightest moment tbh,, trying to walk in skates while on ice. do u enjoy skiing/skating? also gardening is. gross. worms and dirt and the sun i’m not here for it.

u: cappuccinos! me: ...ice bergs,,, now that i think about it fraps kinda suck,,, i used to think i was So Cool for drinking starbucks but now i’m like. wow. i used to think there was coffee in a frap but it’s just. sugar and ice LOL also speaking of tmrw is bogo fraps here,, idk if it’s all over the world but myb u should check it out 😪

dunkins okay it depends on what you get, i once got an iced latte and it was good but my dad got an iced coffee and he like. hated it so we had to switch and it was so bad like. it was coffee crime. it was horrible and not strong it was basically milk 😤 also,, ketchup chip? i just googled what that was and. that’s literally so weird. fun fact i hate ketchup and all other condiments i can only eat bbq sauce and i tolerate steak sauce

UR LITERALLY SO CUTE OKAY UR MINE NOW HHHH

i mentioned this in the other ask but. we going broke bitches club 😪 when u come visit me it’ll be old town road the one w mason ramsey on a loop. nothing will top the og remix but no, i’ll be stuck listening to some 5 year old rap for all of eternity

I USED TO BE SUCH A GOOD KID AND DRINK MILK EVERY MORNING ever since i got to middle school i preferred sleep over waffles and milk and i hardly drink milk but when i do. my stomach does not have it.

my mom made me wash dishes today and she just stared at me when i put ziploc bags on my hands bc we didn’t have gloves but i just painted my nails and i’m not abt to put myself thru chipped nails. not yet 😤 waffles are so good like i love waffles and lattes only 🤧

well i’ll go very ham (am i doing it right LOL) 😤 the angst ending is a lot better than the open ended or happy ones LOL i’m so excited for it 🥺 i’m rly tryna get it out before the end of this month bc the edit says july and it’ll make me Mad if i don’t get it out before the end of this month

i wanna start in september ��� and i usually end in the first week of june. also on a wednesday LOL it’s gross. stupid. ap means advanced placement so it’s just. a college level class. lowkey mad bc i’m taking ap euro (as a sophomore 😒) and other schools take it in their senior years? apparently this is normal? and honors are just faster paced classes with more weighting so,, idrk oops 😬 some people take 7 classes in a semester but i took it for the whole year! this year i’m dropping orchestra i’m Not for that spit in the carpet life

the only talent in this house goes by ada and jisung. i don’t make the rules. i’m ur #1 fan 🥺 as soon as u post anything i automatically smash that rb button LOL also put a read more here bc like. we’re really out here writing a whole ass essay. i’ll look @ all our convos bet it’ll be like. a lot. i don’t wanna say smth and be off so i’ll just not. i have a dog! he’s the cutest in the world and i love him sm 🥺 tumblr can fight me first like. what’s this ask limit bull hhhhh

#read more... again #we can write a whole fic w our convos LOL #queen ada 💞 #mutuals #asks

[xiaojusaur]

Exchange (Hoseok x Reader Fanfic)

Part II

You arrived home later after your second and last class for the day. You took a shower and relaxed a little by watching Netflix. (Y/bf/n) went directly to sleep so you were kinda bored.

Suddenly you remember the piece of paper with Hoseok number. Maybe you could text him and you wouldn't be so bored.

*Hoseok POV*

I was at the apartment with the boys just chilling, I was at my room thinking about today. Suddenly (y/n) came to my mind. She is really pretty, she just looks so cold, so mysterious I want to know her. That (h/c) hair, those eyes... 

Jungkook enters the room and sees me in space "Hey! what are you doing?" 

"Eh... nothing?"

"Why are you on the clouds? Are you thinking about (y/n)?" he says jiggling his brows and laughing.

"No..." i said laughing, stating the obvious.

"Did she texted?"

"No... I think she wont do it"

"Dont say that, she can't be that evil"

"Well, she kinda looks hard to get"

"Yah! Probably she's trying to look like that, remember she's new, but I know deep inside she'll like you"

"You think?"

"Of course, you're Hobi!"

"Well, Im the least likeable in the group"

"That's not true"

"All of you guys always get the girls and none of them gets close to me"

"Nah, you'll get this one, I'm pretty sure"

*Your POV*

I decided I was too bored and I texted him

To: Hoseok

Hello?

From: Hoseok

Who is it?

You decided to have some fun

To: Hoseok

Your worst nightmare >:3

From: Hoseok

Okay? That's creepy... no, really, who is it?

To: Hoseok

Hahaha! It's (y/n), didn't you gave me your number?

From: Hoseok

Oh... hi!

To: Hoseok

Im sorry, Im kinda bored

From: Hoseok

Its fine, I can entertain you =w=

To: Hoseok

Sure... what's up?

From: Hoseok

The cealing xD Okay no. Not much, just here chilling, hbu?

To: Hoseok

That was so bad omg... Im laughing so much because it was so bad xD But that's cool, Im just here bored watching Netflix.

From: Hoseok

That's cool. 

To: Hoseok

So are you a popular someone at the university?

From: Hoseok

Well... I dont consider myself as that. Hey, can I call you?

#hoseok fanfic #hoseok #jung hoseok #j hope #j hope fanfic #bts #bts fanfic #bts imagines