#im very gay today

[carnivuar]

I just want to be like those cool and funky, hip doodle artists that can zoom content and still make it look good. This is my attempt, please be gentle.

#venturiantale #venturiantale pie #p.i.e #johnny ghost #johnny toast #taleblr #doodling is hard #im very gay today #also i want what they have

[inkskinned]

but they don't care about the burnout. everyone is burnt out, they tell me. who isn't burnt out!

the good news is they don't say depression is a choice as much anymore, but the symptoms for burn out and depression are so hand-in-hand that they are mirror images of each other. but depression is serious. you're not depressed, you're just whiny. they barely change the script - don't be lazy! burn out is for people with real problems. burn out can be resolved with some fun candles and a day off work. burn out only happens in adults - no kid can be burnt out, after all; they've barely even had a life to live!

do you have a roof over your head and a steady job? you're not burnt out. so what if every night you wake up with a panic attack frothing inside your chest. you're lucky your problems are small. get back into plants or into yoga. shut up about it.

rich people get burnt out and go to fancy places. they get burnt out in their fancy offices with their real-people problems. they get burnt out and hire an assistant to help them never burn out again. you don't have the money to burn out. you don't have the two weeks to recover in a local spa. the job you come back to will still be stressful and hard.

you find yourself often wondering - does nobody remember about the pandemic? it seems almost like a joke or a punchline. being burnt-out was okay "during" the pandemic. now that people are back to ignoring covid, burnout is just-an-excuse again.

you google how to know if it's seasonal affective disorder or burnout. you google how to know if it's anxiety or it's burnout from working. you google how to know if my depression is back or i'm burning out badly.

coming back from burnout just leaves you covered in ashes, not new growth. you struggle to get back basics, and then - you're just supposed to get back up and keep going. every day the amount of tasks you are able to do seems to dwindle even further - where does the time go? why is everything moving so-fast-and-yet-so-slow?

my therapist and i were talking about how many people had latent mental illnesses that were triggered by the pandemic. how depression can be environmental and situational. i am annoyingly logic-driven about my own recovery - i like to be sure i'm working on the "right" thing. i tell her i feel like i'm lying. that it just might be burnout, and i need to stop complaining. she asks me what words come to mind when i think of burning.

oh, i guess i see.

we casually ignore the violence of being left empty.

#employers for 2 weeks during the pandemic: we know it's gonna be so so hard and we're here for you #week 3 day 1: now that we have been nice to you fucking get over it you weakling #do not worry this is not me romantically recalling the ''we're here for u'' overhead announcements #this is the opposite #side note #the new options to post????????? huh #gonna go write something VERY gay just to test it #(eventually. i skipped my meds by accident today so im nowhere)

[skitskatdacat63]

"Fernando" S1E4 - Fernando Alonso & Carlos Sainz Sr.

#im sorry i also thought i qas done gifing this season #but then i was rewatching it today and remembered this scene existed #ive talked abt this before but ahhhh theyre very cute to me #like how theyre both older drivers but act very young with each other and tease each other #but in this ep especially nando is so so so cheeky with him #but the mood lighting and the camera angles my god #its filmed like a gay romance drama i swear #'do you think two old racing drivers can fall in love? 🥺' #fernando alonso #carlos sainz sr #what's their ship name?? #carnando #??? is that it??? #f1 #formula 1 #fernando(show) #we do a little bit of f1 #fernando s1e4

[alterousuggestion]

because the truth is. i do want to be held and i do want to be loved. and i want to hold and love too. find me someone who will understand this and choose to be with me anyways. let me pour myself into them.

#text #admin post #alterous #alterous attraction #aro #aromantic #tertiary attraction #aroace #queer platonic partner #txt #IM SUFFERING TREMENDOUSLY #VERY GAY FEELINGS TODAY

[proudsnackeezowner]

Space phil and ground control dan finished! This is based on the fic I read a while ago, Never Fade Away by @parentaladvisorybullshitcontent ! Which I discovered through a rec list from @tarotphil ! It's a super cute, pretty short fic and I totally recommend!

(Click for much better quality jesus)

#im gonna tryyyyy my best to make art on the fics i read #unless theyre angst bc i CANNOT make angst art for the life of me 😭 #im about to (literally last chapter) finish Strictly Come Dancing but make it GAY soon!! #sooo look out for that perhaps?? im really struggling trying to think of their outfits tho #i also may have made a very sparce playlist based on this fic bc i have no self control 😔🖕 #and everytime i get into something i need a playlist to go along with it 🤞 #enough rambling !! #todays phan post #phan #dan and phil #dnp #dip and pip #dan howell #phil lester #phanart #dan and phil fanart #daniel howell #also drawing 2016(?) dan is WAYY harder than 2016 phil 😭 #a truly humbling experience

[smilebug]

posted this on twitter already but uhh here's a very rare drawing from yours truly

#this was a bday gift for @enden-agolor !! go wish them a happy bday 👊 #also just posting this because ive been going thru a rough art block as usual and im finally gettin back in my groove of drawing em #sorry tho its very gay #and 🫵 it is also my girlfriend's birthday today so everyone better wish her a very happy birthday as well 😤 #mcsm #minecraft story mode #mcsm lukas #mcsm jesse #jesskas #lukesse #arts

[crynghost]

Boom sonadow? Anyone?

Also here have this song because i can't listen to anything but hollywood undead it seems

#cry draws #my art #sonadow #sonic the hedgehog #shadow the hedgehog #sth #sth fanart #i love them so much #also i adopted my very own cat today and i drew this waiting for him to come out of hiding #and after 6 hours he just poked his little head in my door im so happy #…anyway #gay hedgehogs #am i rite #Spotify

[starchaserdreams]

In case anyone thought I was kidding about printing out AO3 comments and sticking them on my fridge, I WAS NOT.

#ive commented before on the order of the marauders being wrong and i stand by it #moony HAS to be next to padfoot #it is a CRIME AGAINST NATURE for them to be split up #especially by wormtail....sirius would not put up with that #just one more thing jkr got wrong #anyway i guess im in an all caps mood today #i had a GREAT mail day today obviously #being an adult with no kids is the best #highly recommend it #i was gonna take off the street art pictures but it was such a moment in nyc in 2020 and i refuse to forget it #anyway it all mostly fits and theres more space on the sides #moony wormtail padfoot and prongs #wormtail moony padfoot prongs and regulus #marauders #marauders era #dead gay wizards #magnets on my very red fridge

[poems-of-a-lover]

boys who give tight hugs and refuse to pull away until the other person does first. they have my whole heart.

#i havent had a solid hug in so long u guys i need it like i need air #agh. todays such a day. #idk im very tired i have a lot of thoughts today #mlm #mlm yearning #mlm post #mlm love #gay mlm #trans mlm #mlm blog #t4t #mlm thoughts #t4t yearning

[very-gay-poet]

okay but we as a fandom need to sit down and have a chat

so we have the ‘marauders’ BEAUTIFUL WONDERFUL IMAGINATIVE! then we have the ~Slytherin skittles~ LIKE HUH?! Like no those motherfuckers would name themselves “The Poltergeists” JUST to fuck with them after finding out that James, Sirius, Remus and Peter call themselves the Marauders

then James finds out about this (cuz jegulus or smth) and he would be like “Omg they like us they were inspired by us!” And somehow convinced Sirius and Peter the same (not Remus cuz let’s be honest he’s in on it and laughing at his idiots). To conclude, Slytherin Skittles is stupid and I hate it and it’s much more accurate for them to be making fun of Dorky Gryffindors good day

#marauders #slytherin skittles #Regulus fucking with Sirius from a far #We love brotherly love/hatred #mini rant #Jegulus #marauders are dumb loveable boys #(But still very dumb) #dead gay wizards #today on tumblr #im a dumbass

[pansyfemme]

idk why but i still continue to be shocked when women are attracted to me

#i think bc im a very loud queer man it tends to not happeb #but it happened today irl and that was interesting #im just generally queer so i just like people and dont rlly id as strictly bi or gay bc i dont rlly care at all tbh #but more of the people who express attraction to me tend to be men or nonbinary transmasc people #not always true but the majority

[lunarharp]

rare small post of Few images of witch

#witch hat tag #orufrey #i want todays scribbles out of the way. Move im gay. i want to shift into a new stage... please #not even posting/finishing up anything thats what i consider a Main Proper Planned Out Drawing...whatever that is #i think i am using fictional characters as a vehicle for expressing emotion once more laddies so that's why i draw the same manga man a lot. #BUT i am not getting out what REALLY must be gotten Out because my skill is Not satisfactory to me . Need to... Advance #i think there are factors keeping me from advancing to be frank. Such as The Metnal Illness. but qifrey is fighting so i too shall do such #i am writing orufrey lately actually. i am getting a lot more out that way. maybe i need to draw Less i can get VERY loopy by the end of it #i dont get loopy from writing. loopy goes in #Anyway bye

[scover-va]

Coughs loudly. Hey guys

#google says the line is ‘lay my curses out to rest’ but i just cant hear it like that at all im sorree #also it just sounds weird compared to ‘all to rest’ #scov.art #henry emily #william afton #willry #IT COUNTS IT COUNTS its the homoeroticism in being irreparably #whoops. irreparably tied together despite both of your actions and despite your very different paths. or something #its gay TO ME. and therefore it gets the willry tag #fnaf: hauntings of the past au #two song ref posts today…hm. odd #ive had this one in mind forever and just decided today to wing the composition #it doesnt look quite how i want it but im just happy to get the idea out #fnaf #fnaf 6 pizza simulator #look at my post boy

[suffarustuffaru]

if i wrote a comprehensive analysis of reading into otto's character from a queer lens (with extensive text citations) would you read it bc ive thought way too much about this for the sake of my silly anime fanfiction okay. i know too much about this topic now and i gotta let the energy out <33

#my thesis is that otto is so into subaru and all the animators keep shipping ottosuba (says the rz ottosuba shipper blog) and then #tappei goes “....huh did i just write otto being gay for subaru bc fans keep asking if ottos gay for subaru. huh. ........maaaybe” #the other part of my thesis is that otto is transphobic towards subaru-as-natsumi despite subaru being his crush for Reasons and that #otto cant be normal about relationships bc of *insert psychological analysis about his life* #theres just sooooo sooooo much subtext from ottos end that i just gotta ok i gotta. i gotta. when. when i got time. i prommys </3 if no one #else will i will <3 #i started posting my more polished analysis stuff on rz reddit a little while ago but i think if i posted an otto queer subtext analysis id #speedrun myself into getting banned LJDFLJD oh well. very worth it. #listen today i got commplimented by my writing professor for having great writing and analysis and inside i was thinking #ah yes bc i write #anime meta in my free time LDSFJ but im flattered i just let the adhd take over!!!! #and once again if youre someone whos sent me an ask that i havent answered yet ill get to it eventually HAH <3 #suffaru post

[napping-sapphic]

Reason of the week for why i need a gf/partner: take bath with me after work to make sure i don’t fall asleep and drown

#also to lovingly rub my scalp as they wash my hair #wlw #wlw mood #sapphic #sapphism #lesbian #was very close today #i think ive said it before but i usually am not the type of person who likes being cared for #BUT work has got me NEEDING that #never wanted to be held so badly before i s2g #criminal that i feel THIS single during PRIDE month smh #suggestive #cw suggestive #i guess?? #i don’t mean it that way but tbh i also don’t NOT mean it that way so if anyone wants any tags lmk #im always happy to add them #and if my future gf/partner/etc is out there: wtf why are you not here so we can cuddle so rude honestly :( #im gay and i like sleeping

[cycle-hit]

more "muu is just rly gay" posting bc im insane

pretty gay to put on "makeup" to hide your "heart", muu. heart? like the thing that loves? are you hiding your homosexuality? ok. OKKKKKK

also something interesting about the white chrysanthemums on rei's desk is that they can symbolise two things. one is wishing death upon another student as a form of bullying (its a funeral/mourner's flower), the second is-

and one of the sentences on the chalkboard are:

im not proficient enough in handwriting to tell if its in muu's handwriting,

but sometimes i wonder if muu was the one who gave rei the flowers- plus the fact she's holding one at the end of after pain. likely just to symbolise the fact that rei is now dead but i think about. the double meaning. a lot. plus theres the other flower that muu is associated with in her birthday art- the ramanas rose.

this is flower of the greek/roman goddesses of love! its meant to symbolise love and passion etc etc! muu why is that your flower! I KNOW WHAT YOU ARE. MUU

#thats enough original muu posting for today. i miss kotoko nd mahiru im getting withdrawals #i love muu. muu my son i think he is gay. as knives poetically said. very real #milgram #muu kusunoki #kusunoki muu #milgram analysis #<- IS. IT??? IM NOT SURE. IM NOT EVER SURE