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bartxnhood · 8 months

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complete mess | a.f.i

ashton irwin x reader

summary: based on this request

warnings: mentions of bad relationships, alcohol, some language.

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you stood alone, abandoned at the bar. lucas, your boyfriend, was nowhere to be seen. on the verge of tears, you began to feel very frustrated with his actions.

sure, you expected this from him, but on your birthday? did he not care about you at all? you looked over the sea of people, dancing, talking, drinking, and eating in an attempt to find your boyfriend but, nothing. your eyes landed on ashton, he saw the sadness in your eyes and knew.

this sadness has been lurking in your eyes for months now. no matter how badly you tried to hide it and put on a facade, ashton saw right through it.

you had become so insecure because of lucas, and ashton was tired of it. you deserved someone worth your time, you deserved someone who would look at you like you were the only thing good in this world. you deserved someone to treat you like you were the most delicate person on the face of the earth.

you deserved someone better.

he wished you wanted him.

to ashton, you were the best thing in his life. you had such a beautiful smile, the way you lit up as if he had done something stupid and you couldn’t help but laugh. you were the brightest star in the night sky. you made ashton a better person. and to see lucas belittle you, seeing you lose the light in your eyes, watching you slowly creep into a shell of made him angry. this wasn’t supposed to happen to you. not his y/n. not ashton best girl.

pushing past the crowd of people, peter was determined to be by your side. “y/n.” ashton emerged,. “ash” you sighed, feeling weight being lifted from your shoulders. “he left me.” you finally blurted, you felt a pang in your chest knowing tears would soon follow. ashton wrapped his arms around you, letting your head rest on his chest. “i know” he sighed, rubbing your back gingerly. “ash, your shirt” you huffed, looking up at him. afraid of ruining it with your makeup. “shh it’s fine” he shook his head, wiping away your tears with his callused thumb. he held you for a minute, but it felt like forever to you. “cmon, im taking you home.” he suggested, pulling away and reaching for your hand. “you don’t need to be here.” you nodded, following behind him and out the large doors.

exiting the building, ashton’s touch never left the small of your back. “he had no right to do that to you, y/n/n” he huffed. you knew he was upset, and so were you. thinking you could get over your feelings for ashton but you only got hurt in return.

oh, foolish heart.

you had been swooning after ashton since high school. always liked him from a distance, even if the two of you were the best of friends.

you weren’t good with confrontation, let alone rejection. because what if he rejected you? how could the two of you possibly stay friends after something like that?

but when you had got with lucas just a few years out of high school, ashton was the first to tell you his feelings.

even if it was a little too late.

“i can’t believe he would be that stupid to leave you alone. if i see him, i’m gonna-“ you were quick to grab his hand, cutting him off. “ash. don’t. just relax.”

ashton had accepted that lucas was your boyfriend but he’d still do everything he could to be in your life, as long as you were happy, he was happy. but seeing you so broken, and being used. he couldn’t let it continue.

“promise me something, y/n?” your eyes met with his. both of you stopping in your tracks. “end it with him. you don’t need someone like that in your life.”

“i will.”

ashton had suggested he take you back to his place, to avoid seeing lucas when he came back later that evening.

you sat on the edge of ashtons bed, still in your dress while ashton had gotten you some water and advil to help with your growing headache. your eyes stared out the window, the night illuminated by only the stars. “i brought you some extra clothes, in case you wanted to change.” he entered the room, some folded clothes in hand, and laid them next to you. your eyes followed him, “thank you.” he nodded, “it’s no problem” he shot you a sympathetic smile and handed you the medicine and bottle.

“you’re always saving me, ash. thank you” you sniffled as you took the two painkillers and downed them with a swig of water.

ashton only hummed, watching you take the clothes in hand and making your way to the bathroom.

and when you returned, ashton had changed as well. you tossed the blaxl dress on the floor and went back to ashton’s bed.

“feel better?” he looked up at you, only getting a shrug from you. “can you help me take my hair down? there’s a lot of pins” he patted the spot in front of him which you scooted over and he proceeded to pick the pins out of your hair. “you know” ashton started, “lucas has no idea what he’s missing out on.” you simply shrugged, you couldn’t stomach talking about him again.

“i don’t know what i was thinking, i thought i could get my mind off someone else, but i only got hurt worse. i’m so stupid” a dry laugh escapes your lips. ashton paused, now knowing why you had started dating lucas. but his shoulders dropped knowing you probably liked someone else. “stop. stop blaming yourself.” he hummed.

his scratchy voice sending chills down your spine. you only let your shoulders drop. looking down at your hands. soon enough he had gotten a majority of the pins out. and with that, you finally let your hair down letting up the stress on the scalp.

ashton got a whiff of the scent of your shampoo and he couldn’t help but look away. you still haven’t changed it all these years. that familiar floral smell filled his nostrils. it was still the same kind you used in high school, he wishes he could smell forever.

it was obvious you liked someone else. you discarded the hairpins, and sat next to ashton again. “if it wasn’t for you, i’d be so lost. i’m so glad you came into my life” you smiled sadly, and he placed a comforting hand on your shoulder. “you’ll always have me in your corner. id do anything for you, you know that.” you nodded. you did know, hell, if you didn’t have him you’d still be miserable. he was always there for you. no matter what.

you were now curled up on ashtons chest, your eyes still glued to the window. not saying anything, you thought he had fallen asleep by now. but when you looked up at him, he was looking down at you. “i thought you were asleep.” he laughed, a simple shake of his head. you smiled, the dim light of his lamp made his skin look so beautiful, the way his hair lay in his eyes, and how he looked at you. you could stare at him for ages.

you felt your heart beating, feeling as if it would beat out of your chest. you wondered if this was the moment you’d tell ashton how you felt for the past decade.

“what’s on your mind?” he asks softly, you hum. thinking if this was the right moment and if the words that were about to spill from your lips were a good idea. your eyes flicked from his hazel eyes to your fingers, picking at your cuticles.

“do you remember a while back when you confessed to me and i had just gotten with lucas?” you ask. when you look up you see him studying you. he nods slowly, “yeah?”.

you puff your cheeks then release the air, sighing. “i liked you too at the time, and i still..well..i love you. i was with lucas simply because i thought you didn’t like me like that..” you groaned quietly, realizing how stupid it sounded.

you saw his face contort, trying to process your words. you can’t seem to read his expression. he falls silent for a moment, replaying his confession over and over again. it was all making sense.

“ash?” you say, hoping he wouldn’t be so upset with you. “i wish you would’ve told me sooner..” he says, followed by a sigh. you frown, assuming you have missed your opportunity with your best friend.

“but..” he continued, “i still love you, y/n. i have since we were teenagers. i don’t think id ever be able to get over you. you have me wrapped around your finger and i’d do anything for you.”

you feel your heart racing, your cheeks flushed pink, and you feel like you were back in high school.

“ashton, will you kiss me?”

the brown-haired boy stared at you, hazel eyes wide. his lips parted, “did you just ask if i’d-“ “kiss me” you interrupted him. this time begging him. “please” you whispered. ashton sat up, his eyes not leaving yours once as he brought his hand to your cheek and then pressed his lips on yours ever so lightly. afraid he would hurt you in any way. his lips felt so soft against yours. pure bliss engulfed your body. this was what you imagined your kiss with ashton to be like. when he pulled away, eyes meeting with yours his cheeks were flushed. having such a huge crush on you, he never thought he would have this moment with you.

your hands on his neck, you leaned in again connecting your lips. this time this kiss was longer and more intimate. your hands tangled in his brown curls while he was resting on your lower back, occasionally pulling you in. when you pulled away, catching your breath you couldn’t help but stare at him. his hand ran over your waist, playing with the hem of your shirt as the two of you watched the other, breathing each other in. ashton’s smiles, his calloused thumb tracing your cheekbone. “you make me complete, y/n.”

maybe this birthday wasn’t so bad after all.

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reverieaa · 1 year

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To long

Longing is a concept people in this community are very familiar with.

It eats away and tires you out it breeds doubt and fear, fear of delusion, fear of failure, fear of rejection, even if it's it coming from ourselves.

You entered this community, and you were told what to do, what to think, and how to act. You were told that as God, you could make your own decisions, and you made the decision of not being that God, not until you've consumed enough info, not until all your desires show up in the 3d.

Like me, you went into imagination whenever you're hungry and leave starved. When this happened, i would spiral. It felt like I would see the food in front of me, but im unable to eatit. There was always a barrier between me and my desires. I'm sure this is how u feel, too.

I learned that I spiral only when I push myself to do something when I do something I'm not meant to do. Like changing things in the 3d or worrying about time.

Seeing a lot of loa blogs when I entered this community, I looked back at the info I consumed and realized what was making me spiral. People would talk about keeping track of your thoughts, making sure you feel it right, and make sure you persist. But all that teaches us is how to beat yourself down even more. That's because you're not meant to micromanage your life. You're not meant to make sure everything is perfect and you're not meant to make your desires happen.

One day, I gave up and told myself I couldn't manifest, and it ended up being one of the greatest things I did. Because it made me realize that manifesting has absolutely nothing to do with the 3D, I cannot make things show up here as it is not my job.

The only thing you and I can do is accept and imagine. Accept your imagination as true because it is, it's where u lie, and it's who you are, that is all you can be.

You're not a desperate person dreaming of a better future. You're not a sad human making things come out of thin air by thinking about them, you're literal imagination, and once you accept that you'll feel free to imagine and feel what you wish. That's literally all manifesting is.

You can only fully feel in your imagination. You can only experience there, and you can only be imagination.

I told myself that I, as I am, can do nothing. I can't fly here in the 3d, but I can in imagination, I can't wake up in a different place in the 3d, but I can in imagination. This what loa bloggers mean when they say you can manifest absolutely anything.

When we say assume, we mean k the inner world, and that's all you need because that's all there is. Reality can only live through you. It can only thrive through your attention, your gaze, and approval. That is your power.

Whatever you do, do not make the 3d your enemy. You'll be turning yourself against yourself, and that will make you spiral. Pay attention to the deepest, most vulnerable parts of yourself. They lie in your imagination to the outer, and they are absolutely beautiful.

Loa is about taking care of those parts about learning that forcing and pushing will only result in you being forced and pushed, that focusing on the wrong will make life itself focus on the wrong, because it is only a reflection, it is you.

Perfecting loa is not about how fast you can manifest and how good your self-concept is. It's about revealing who you are. Beyond religious scriptures and materialistic objects. Have a day where you have fun in your 4D, get to k ow yourself and who you are in there, I assure you, you won't care for the 3d, not when you realize it can't bring you the joy you can bring yourself.

The only way for your state to change is to admit your current one and realize it can only live through you, give yourself that power, and shamless permission to move on. Let intrusive and doubtful thoughts pass, the only way for them to stop bothering you is to not identify with them.

You want to manifest a new house in the blink of an eye? You did now, you want a brand new self? You did just now. They all showed up in your imagination because that's your only responsibility and power, yourself.

This is why a relationship with yourself is the base of loa, when I accepted I can only work in the 4d, my self concept sky rocketed.

Did I spiral after that? Yes, it's only natural when you live your life differently for a long time and you're learning somthing new.

But I still managed to come back up to a good self concept because all the loa lessons you read all come to one thing, there is nothing to change but self because there is nothing in this reality but self.

After you learn this, if there's one thing in this whole law rather is impossible in your mind, it's to long.

#loa #law of assumption

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ddejavvu · 2 years

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I'm probably going to spam you with requests so buckle up.

Okay so what if on a very hot and humid summer night, Reader is feeling grumpy because of the weather and Hotch casually tries to cuddle with her (because he always does that in order to fall asleep) but she tells him to stay away and hotch gets all pouty and sad until reader gives in (but reader does not give in easily, im sorry but hotch is a furnace! Can you imagine cuddling with him during the summer?)

@sunflowermotel and i were just talking about this in the dms the other day because i don't care if it's 20000 degrees i'm clinging onto that man and suffocating him but now the tables have turned

You were on fire. The sheets were sticking to your skin, your shorts were sweat-slicked to your legs, and your tank top was growing damp spots.

The humidity was running rampant within your little apartment, the air conditioning unit having broken two days ago. You had been entirely confident that your fans would get you through, that all you needed was the little rotating desk fan that you'd stolen from Aaron's home office, but you were wrong.

The fan was weak, and left you sweating through your sheets. You'd even suffered through a cold shower, but nothing helped.

Aaron was laying beside you, his black-framed reading glasses perched on his nose as he scrolled through the news app on his phone. He was the only person under 70 you knew that looked at the news on their phone, but he looked adorably concentrated while scrolling, so you didn't tease him.

Eventually he got tired of reading through the various daily occurrences, and locked his phone, slipping his glasses off of his face and setting his phone on his nightstand. He turned to face you, wrapping his arms around you before you could stop him.

"Aaron, no!" You tried fruitlessly to wriggle out of his grip, sweat already moistening your skin, "You're a furnace."

"Hey," He frowned as you finally slipped from between his arms, "What's wrong with you?"

"It's sweltering in here," You panted, a grimace staining your expression as you tried ridding yourself of the residual heat that Aaron's embrace had inflicted upon you, "You are not allowed to touch me for the rest of the night."

Maybe you'd snapped at him too hard. Maybe you were being unfair, extra grumpy from the sticky air around you. But you weren't going to take it back, not even as his confused frown fell into a petty one and he huffed softly through his nose.

"Fine," He grumbled, turning away from you so that all you saw was his bare back, "Set am alarm before you go to sleep."

Though you felt slightly bad for upsetting him, your physical discomfort was more important. You shifted your legs where they were laying on top of the blankets, wishing that they didn't come off with a sticky sheen of sweat on them, and trying to wipe some of the sweat off of your hairline too.

It was hopeless, nothing was working.

You fell asleep only an hour later than Aaron did, but the prolonged silence without any skin-on-skin contact was new to you. If you hadn't been so damn hot you'd have crawled under the covers and latched yourself onto him like a leech, but you felt like your skin was cooking your insides alive, so you didn't.

Instead you fell into a restless sleep, the sheets clinging to your moistened skin.

You had set an alarm as requested, but you didn't wake up to it. What you woke up to was Aaron shuffling around at the foot of the bed, struggling to get his tie adjusted right in the dim bedroom light. You weren't sure why he wasn't shutting himself in the bathroom and turning on the lights there to see, but it gave you more time to admire him before he had to leave, and you watched him with a hazy, fond smile.

He tugged too hard on the tail, jerking the knot to one side. He let out a frustrated huff, a grumbled, "Son of a-" reaching your ears before he was giving up, his tie lopsided while he fumbled around for his briefcase.

You'd had enough.

You sat up, shimmying to the edge of the bed and flicking on the lamp on your bedside table. It illuminated the room in a soft yellow glow, and he froze for a second, turning back to face you.

"I'm sorry for waking you up." He spoke, his voice strained and withdrawn, "Go back to sleep."

"No," You groaned, standing and stepping in front of him, "I can't, in good conscience, let you go outside with your tie looking like that."

Your fingers quickly found purchase in the silky material around his neck, loosening the knot gently so that you could slide it over to the middle of his chest rather than hidden under one of the folds of his collar. You felt him tense under your touch, but the longer you worked with his tie, the more relaxed he got.

"Oh, so it's not too hot to adjust my tie?" He muttered, resentment clear in his voice.

"Come on," You scoffed, "It was like four hundred degrees last night, Aaron!"

"We always cuddle." He frowned, evading eye contact and instead glancing disdainfully at the disheveled bed you'd just gotten out of.

"We always have air conditioning too," You reminded him, keeping him stationary by gripping his tie and holding him in place.

"It just didn't feel right."

"I'm sorry," You hummed, your head slumping forwards to rest on his chest, "The repairman is supposed to be coming today. Hopefully it's fixed by tonight."

"And if it's not?"

"Then I'm sleeping in the freezer."

He let out an exasperated groan, slipping out of your grip and grabbing his briefcase. You watched him slip his shoes on, the leather shining softly under the low lights of the bedroom, and you stood between him and the door.

"I need to get to work." He stood in front of you, his expression stoic.

"You need to stop being so grumpy."

You watched something shift in his eyes, but he stayed still. You took the lead once more, and pressed on.

"Wouldn't you rather me live through this heat wave? If you cuddle me, I'll suffocate and roast alive."

The muscles in his jaw shifted, and you knew you were getting through to him.

"I'll make sure the AC guy fixes it today." You promised, "And tonight, we can snuggle."

"Don't call it that," He sighed, his shoulders finally relaxing, "That sounds stupid."

Your mouth fell open indignantly, "Then I won't do it with you!"

You turned with a huff, intent on storming out to the kitchen to make yourself coffee for the morning. But you weren't able to take a single step before you felt Aaron's hand close around your wrist, yanking you back into his broad chest.

"No!" He urged, panic slipping into his usually-controlled voice, "No, it's not stupid."

"You're on thin ice," You warned, though you leaned back into his chest, "You're lucky I'm miserable, or I'd make you wait to fix the air conditioner."

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xaytried · 11 months

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Dan Heng x Depressed Reader

self-Indulgent idk what im doing bro. first fanfic ever??

not proofread!! 1.4k words

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The day you had begun as it usually does. Being woken up by your cat at 6 in the morning, even though you had gone to bed at 3 am. You should have learned your lesson by now. Why do you still choose to go to bed so late, knowing damn well your cat would wake you up with the sun.

It was hopeless trying to go back to sleep after getting up to feed the cat, so it might as well be productive right?

Your idea of productivity was different from others. For most people that meant maybe checking their email or cleaning up a little. For you though, it meant feeding yourself and taking your medication. Things most people don't think twice about, but the hardest part of your day. Your boyfriend knew this. He usually got up around 6, not because of the cat. He’s always been a productive and curious man. He gets up early and takes care of himself without any issues. That's not to say that he doesn't have his problems, but even he can admit that he doesn't have it nearly as difficult as you do.

You get up and don’t even bother getting dressed, it was impressive enough that you even got up in the first place. It’s just another extra chore. You’re not going anywhere today anyway. The only thing you have today is online, and surely your psychiatrist won’t be able to tell you don't have pants on while on the video call.

You make your way downstairs and on arrival, your lovely boyfriend, Dan Heng, greets you with a gentle smile, as he does every morning.

“Good morning, darling.” He looks at your exhausted expression, a little worried that you look so worn out despite having just woken up. But he knows how awful your sleep schedule is. You honestly don't know why he still even wastes his worries on you.

“Good morning.” You reply.

You make your way across the living you into the kitchen. The medication you take requires food before you can take it. Supposedly you'd get sick if you missed this vital step, but you have never risked it. The last thing you wanted was to puke all your expensive medication down the toilet. Unfortunately though, you never really found anything appetizing, not ever.

“I made you a breakfast taco, it should be in the fridge.” Dan Heng's voice startled you.

“Oh, okay… Thanks.” You make your way over to the refrigerator.

Dan Heng watches you. He watches through concerned eyes. It makes him sad that you always seem to wake up feeling absolutely nothing. No motivation or anything. And it's not like your sad or anything like that. It just hurts his hurt seeing you suffer.

Ever since you first met him you've been very open to him about your depression, but once he moved in with you it's been more apparent. It's just not fair. It's not fair that a beautiful and kind-hearted individual such as yourself struggled so fiercely to function. You never had energy, you were always tired and your body constantly ached.

He watches you take your pills every morning. This has got to be the fifth anti-depressant you've tried and it makes his heart ache to see you get absolutely no relief. It's like you're immune to everything you try. All he can do is be here for you, but he wishes so deeply that he could do more.

You slowly eat your breakfast and take your pills, standing in the kitchen for about 5 extra minutes just to stare at the remaining water in your glass. When you were little you used to always drink chocolate milk with your breakfast. That was too much effort now. You zone out, staring at your water, thinking about how much things have changed.

Your mother used to call you a “ray of sunshine”, her “sweet baby”. You never lost that kindness from your mother but it seems you certainly lost yourself. These are things that only Dan Heng can see in you now though. And no matter how hard you tried you could never see it in yourself. If it was the middle of the night and the sun wasn’t awake to mock you, this certainly is something that would make you tear up. But you physically couldn't cry right now.

Your thoughts are interrupted by your boyfriend's arms wrapping around your waist.

“You okay?” He asks, chin pressing against your shoulder as he speaks.

“Yeah.” You reply. Which is the truth. Nothing is ever exactly wrong, it's just never right. This is just how things always are. The cause of your depression was a chemical imbalance, there was nothing that could be fixed. So overall you’d say you’re pretty okay.

“Are you sure?” He lets out a breathy laugh. “You’ve been staring at that water for quite a while.”

You give him a soft smile. It’s not often your serious boyfriend lets out a laugh, but it seems even he knows the power his joy has over you. Coming over here and letting out a laugh into your ear, it’s enough to help you push forward for today.

You turn around, now facing Dan Heng, his hands now resting on your hips while you lean against the counter. Before you started dating him you would never have guessed how important physical touch was for him, he had always been so distant, wanting nothing more than to lock himself in another room and isolate himself for hours.

Dan Heng certainly preferred to be alone, but ever since he met you he realized her much more enjoys being alone with you. Moments like this, when the world is still and it’s just the two of you, with some peace and quiet. That’s what he lives for.

You were tempted to speak but then Dan Heng let out a sigh and rested his head on your shoulder. You let your concern show by moving your hand to his back, but you knew that if he wanted to talk he would. Perhaps right now all he needed was some quiet.

After a minute or two of silently rubbing Dan Heng’s back, he spoke. “You know you can talk to me right?”

You have nothing to talk about.

“I love you, I would love to listen, I would love to support you.”

“You’re already my biggest supporter.” You let out a giggle, hoping it would soften the mood a little more.

“I want to help.” He’s more serious than ever.

“You do help, baby. More than you’ll ever know.” Your comforting words also help to comfort you. It was true. Even before you started dating Dan Heng had been your best friend and biggest supporter. Honestly, without him, you don’t even know if you’d still be here. But you don’t tell him that. He doesn’t need to know that you ever think of not being here.

He stands straight up again to brush his hand across your cheek and that's when you can see it. His tears. There aren't many but he is without a doubt crying.

“Hey, what's wrong?” You ask him, no longer leaning against to counter, hands cupping his face, deep concern wavering in your voice.

“Y/N, you’re the most loving, kind, most perfect soul I’ve ever met, so why is the world doing you so wrong? You deserve to wake up every day full of excitement, full of energy, ready to take on the day. You deserve to smile, to laugh, genuine ones. Genuine smiles and genuine laughs.” Your eyes start to water, you continue to hold onto his face as tears roll down his cheeks and onto your fingers. “You deserve to be happy, Y/N. It’s not fair. You do so much good for so many people, for me. You make me smile, you make me happy, you make me feel alive. I don’t feel like I need to run anymore because I have you. So why must the world put you through so much pain?”

You had never seen him like this.

“Shhhh…” you hush him and he looks at you, no longer breaking eye contact to speak. “I’m happier than I’ve ever been because of you Dan Heng,” you promise him. “I finally feel loved.”

After a moment of looking at you, he kisses you. Its soft and warm, a kiss to tell you that he’s not going anywhere and that he’ll be with you forever.

With him… you’ll get through this.

#dan heng #honkai star rail #dan heng x reader #hsr x y/n #hsr dan heng #star rail

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khoipyan · 1 year

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shaken and stirred!

(GI) diona!like reader x octavinelle trio

(diona is a character from genshin impact. for more information, you refer to this wiki page.)

warnings; gn!reader, reader is not diona herself, just similar. READER WILL NOT BE A CHILD LIKE DIONA! can be seen as platonic or romantic, im not writing about diona!reader's daddy issues im sorry :sob: reader is not stated to have cat features in this (ears, tail), sorry :( i can write for a partial cat reader sometime else though ^_^

notes; im very tired and sleepy skull BUT I LIKED THIS IDEA TOO MUCH TO PASS IT UP LMKODHIUHD i got a bit too self indulgent in azul’s whoopsies ALSO THERES AN OMORI REFERENCE IN ONE OF THE PARTS!! see if you can find it >:)

azul ashengrotto

you can... mix anything into a drink and it'll still taste good? even butterflies, conches and lizard tails..? well, you know... if you need a job—

first thing he does once he hears about this is try to get you to do a contract with him, of course! you don't want your magic, and he can give you something you actually want. however you just narrow your eyes at him, cross your arms and sigh. this isn't magic; it's actually a curse.

is appalled at the fact you could call such an ability, a skill! a curse. he would die to have that skill. however, he softens just a bit when he hears your story.

"when i was younger, i believed in the spring fairy. i spoke my feelings and poured out my soul to the moon reflected on the water's surface... on my seventh birthday, i heard a voice talk to me. surprise surprise, it was the fairy herself! that was the day i received the blessi— i mean, curse." you explained.

it was silent for a few seconds.

"you don't have to believe me, but you're the one who aske— STOP LOOKING AT ME LIKE THAT!"

besides your curse of making the best drinks ever, your tsundere-like personality really confuses him. VERY.

you offered to walk him to his dorm one time while you both were hanging out in the library, fearing that he may get lost or something of sorts. when he told you that he was fine by himself, you shot him with a:

"whatever! i wasn't worried at all, i just wanted to make sure nothing happened to you so that you wouldn't blame me."

...????././??

azul has yet to understand by what you mean with your confusing and contradicting sentences, but he's willing to try! after all, you seem to care for him with actions, not words.

jade leech

you picked the wrong guy to be a tsun-tsun with, i'm telling you that.

picks up an interest with you right away, but keeps it confidential to himself for a week or two before approaching you to learn more.

the first time you two met is when he caught you scheming how to take down the wine industry... in which you told him to leave immediately.

“oh? what do we have here?”

"H-HUH? DON'T LOOK AT MY PLANS! AAAGHH, GET OUT-"

although he knows it’s probably not possible, jade has to admit that he admires your burning rage passion in taking down the wine industry.

haha, remember what i said about him being the wrong guy to be a tsundere with? well, he teases you SO much and pretends to be a complete saint about it. you absolutely CANNOT catch a break from him but hey, you brought this upon yourself!

(not really, but we all know how jade is…)

he notices very quickly under all the light slaps to his arm and the ‘cross arms and turn away’ motions that you seem to care about him very deeply. how interesting.

and for this, this must be what he loves the most about you.

…

oh well, it’s a shame that the show must go on. after realizing this (which doesn’t take too long), he uses it as even MORE material to tease you with.

jade feigns sadness, but it’s getting hard not to crack a smile at your exasperated expression. “i thought you were concerned about me getting hurt just now, were you not?”

“SCREW. YOU! I HOPE A PIANO FALLS ON YOU!”

“ouch. so hurtful… at least you didn’t wish that i had fallen down the stairs.”

floyd leech

just like his twin brother, floyd's interest with you is almost instant. you can make beverages out of anything? even the most nastiest things to ever exist? and your personality makes you even BETTER for him to target you.

when he heard about your ability, he absolutely convinced you to make drinks with him and give it to the people at mostro lounge. one, he wanted to see if it was true. two, MAYBE he needed an excuse to slack off from work.

to floyd’s surprise, it was true; anything you made into a drink was surprisingly delicious. floyd even had to try it for himself, because even he doubted you for a second.

tries convincing you to join mostro lounge. aww, why not?? come ooon! you can make money, make delicious drinks for customers AND he gets to mess around with you on shifts!

he laughs when you tell him about your plans to destroy the wine industry.

what’s so funny, floyd? stop laughing! this is a serious matter—

so playful yet teasing with you, especially seeing how annoyed and frustrated you get when he does something that even slightly inconveniences you.

“give me my textbook back!” you’re chasing after floyd in the halls. it’s bad to run, but you need your book back!

“when you catch me!” floyd responds, running at a fast pace.

ultimately thinks it’s so cute to see you deny how you care for him. floyd is smarter than he makes out to be, he knows. he acknowledges the times you get flustered when he compliments you, or the worried glances you spare him when he’s having a bad day.

he appreciates you so much! even if you do punch him a bit hard sometimes, he’ll always be sure to playfully bite back (but be more gentler, of course).

— due to be edited at anytime —

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islandofsages · 2 years

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hi! if your requests are open, can i request traveler meeting a reader who they used to know in another world again in teyvat? basically likr a reunion😁 also who do you main? have a nice day!

summary: in which you reunite. well...you two at least.

characters: traveler x gn!reader

tags: platonic, canon compliant, fluff, the abyss twin and paimon are mentioned, hc + scenario format

warnings: none

author's notes: this can be read as either aether or lumine !! also im a zhongli main through and through hehe i love him too much <3 but i did recently pull for yoimiya and she is so fun to play!! other charas i consider myself a main of are xinyan and yelan :) hope you like this anon ^_^

you always couldn’t help but wonder - do those twins really have any purpose in their journey? traversing many, many worlds without settling for home…does it not get tiring? but even as you got to know them a long time ago, you could tell the smile on their face is genuine. they are happy.

and yet here you are. you walked across the boundaries of your homeworld as teyvat’s stars extended their hands to you, pulling you in. you are just like them now: a traveler. and you pride yourself on that, though lost and confused you may be.

you journeyed on yourself and surveyed if the world was a suitable place to settle down. you have seen many sights, met many people, eaten meals galore. you were welcome wherever you went, the people fascinated by yet another world-trotter.

hm? what’s that, you hear? another world-trotter? the fact that you aren’t the first piqued your interest. you ask the people who else has traversed this land from another. but before they can answer, a familiar voice calls out to you.

“(y/n)? you…you’re here?”

you turn your head towards the direction of the voice and sure enough, there they are. one of the twins. you find this very strange indeed - the two of them are pretty much inseparable, yet only one presents themself to you.

“hehe, i am. i never thought i would find you here too. though shouldn’t there be…?”

you respond, a bit hesitant to say the other twin’s name, seeing the twin’s sad smile. they only shake their head and sit down in the seat next to you. knowing what you’re in for, you prepare for them to speak.

“it’s a long story…”

they tell you the tale of their separation, leading you to wish you could’ve reunited on better terms. at random intervals, their flying companion would chime in and add quirky little comments of her own which at least make you laugh. once they finish talking, you only sigh and you throw your gaze to the ceiling, deep in thought.

“what are you thinking of?”

you take the time to search for the right words and form the right sentences. they have been through what the faint-hearted could never and you admire them for that. you keep those feelings of admiration in your chest, let them bubble up and then you tell them.

“i’m thinking of joining you on your journey.”

when you turn to look at them, you indulge in the surprised expression on both their and their flying companion’s face. then they offer you a smile - that same smile you recognise from the world over. you silently thank whatever divine being is up there for one unchanging thing.

“you are more than welcome to.”

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lume-nosity · 2 years

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‘it’s that day of the month, isn’t it?’

characters: tanjiro, zenitsu, inosuke, kanao

pronouns: they/them (afab!reader, but im gonna label it as gn!reader + gn!pronouns since i didn’t use she/her pronouns for the reader here)

style: comfort, crack

notes: blood mention, periods, mini shinobu interaction in zenitsu’s part, petnames: love, dear, not proofread, maybe ooc???

tanjiro

this man can smell it from miles away (not in a weird way but yk what i mean)

he’s experienced, seeing as he has dealt with his sisters being on their periods as well (especially nezuko)

so he’s got you covered! + nezuko :)

you want snacks? he’s got your favorites. you want cuddles? he’s ready with open arms. pads/tampons? got boxes of them ready. cramps? he’s got the best massages. if you stained the bedsheets, tanjiro already changed them. stained clothes? he’ll wash them for you.

where can we get a tanjiro

he’s used to your mood swings as well. it’s like a daily routine he’s grown accustomed to once a month

this time, you just happened to eat lots of candy. very late.

“love, you should get some rest okay? i don’t think staying up this late eating...sweets, would be good for you right before bed.”

“but tanjjjj i like eating sweets..”

“yes yes i know, but they will keep you up at night. you wouldn’t want to go on a sugar high running around with those cramps, do you?”

this boy.

“yeah, i guess you’re right..”

“ah!- it’s okay, how about i’ll grab you something cool/warm to drink to settle you down before bed, and then we can cuddle to help you sleep faster!”

(okay where can we get a tanjiro frfr)

“yeah, that sounds good to me. just be quick with the drink before i become moody again.”

“consider it done!”

he planted a kiss on your forehead and adjusted your blanket a little before leaving to get the drink

when he comes back with the drink, you and him shared a lovely conversation with you sipping on the drink every once in a while

which would make you feel a little tired from the chatting plus the drink

so once you finished it, you and tanjiro settled in bed together and cuddled each other :)

tanjiro’s petting your head while you were peacefully sleeping in his arms so he took the opportunity to plant another kiss on your forehead and whispered:

“sweet dreams, y/n.”

zenitsu

oh man

where do i begin

first of all, when he noticed a blood stain on your pants/shorts/whatever, he panicked and thought you were going to die of blood loss

you were about to explain to him what it meant but nah he carried you bridal style and ran at mach 20 to the butterfly mansion. and boom boom goes the doors.

“HELLO!!! CAN SOMEONE HELP???? MY LOVELY S/O HERE IS BLEEDING AND GOING TO DIE OF BLOOD LOSS!!!!!”

you were just chilling in his arms like “damn. okay, didn’t let me explain”

shinobu came over to take a quick look of you and told zenitsu: “they are starting their period today, this is completely normal. unfortunately you’ll have to see it again every month and you’ll see their cramps, mood swings, and other symptoms occur during the month. for now, i’ll go get some painkillers and period necessities for you both to stock up on in case that day comes again.” shinobu turns around to get the stuff

zenitsu was relieved, but you having to deal with this every month? he feels sad, knowing there’s nothing he could do to actually stop the bleeding and pain you’ll feel.

“babe? you have to deal with this, every month? im sorry i didn’t know you’d have to go through this every month.. i wish i could do something to stop it.”

you smiled and him and said: “it’s not your fault, zen. this is normal, it won’t kill me. you being right here with me is enough. plus, you’re just learning, so that’s okay.”

wholesome 100

shinobu comes back with the things and gave zenitsu a lesson about periods with you chilling on a pillow with your snacks watching the whole ordeal

you could see him trying to take notes and ask questions, and you found it rather adorable.

he’s learning!!

though once you get moody he gets a lil scared and just gets you anything you want

well, he will get used to your mood swings, it’s just once he’ll hear your screams and whines he’ll flinch and be like “oh no” he’s terrified

so he runs to you to literally be on his knees, trembling, and asked: “is there anything you need???? i-i can get it for you!!! just please stop screaming..”

when you told him what you wanted he runs like his thunder clap and flash form and back

happi

zenitsu’s scared a lil but he’s happi too :) he has learned, so that’s what matters

inosuke

he saw your red stained clothing so quickly you yourself didn’t know in the first place

and immediately he goes up to you and asks you who hurt you because mans about to throw hands

“[MISPRONOUNCED NAME]!!! WHO HURT YOU??!?! YOU’RE BLEEDING!!! WHO DARED TO HURT THE GREAT INOSUKE’S MATE????”

after hearing the word “bleeding” you realized your day of the month has arrived and you groaned mentally

while he was ranting you managed to shut him up by holding up an index finger

just: ☝️

and mans went silent

you told him that you were on your period and he went

“what’s a period? is that something i can fight?!”

man you wish

so you proceeded to explain what periods are in a way inosuke could understand

he kinda got a grasp of it but he’ll just ask the most out of pocket questions

“so you just bleed out of… there, every month? THEN HOW ARE YOU STILL ALIVE????!!!?!”

inosuke please

“and these pads/tampons, they can absorb the blood? THEN THEY’LL BE USEFUL WHENEVER YOU BLEED IN BATTLE”

inosuke that’s not how it works but okay :sob:

*another hour or so of health tutoring*

and even though he gets it (in his own way) he still wants to fight your period cramps

so you told him “okay since you want to fight my period cramps so much while i do appreciate it, how about you get a pad/tampon then cuddle with me afterwards?”

*insert that one scene where inosuke is standing there in a pink background and bubbles float around*

“just that? EASY!!! LET’S GO THEN!!!!”

he doesn’t know where to get a pad or a tampon

so before he does anything dumb you led him to a store to grab a box of said period necessities to which of course have him grows sparkles around him because of it

timeskip to when you’re now in a fresh pair of pants/shorts/whatever, you and inosuke are cuddled up together

when he’s kinda squeezing you since he’s snoring

at least he knows what periods are, until mood swings happens to which he takes seriously. asking you for a fight, and all that, it’ll descend into chaos.

“HA??????!!!! ARE YOU ASKING FOR A FIGHT???”

so tanjiro had to step in to stop the ordeal before anything else happens

basically inosuke understands what periods are, in his own way at least.

kanao

the one who understands you and your period pain

since she also gets hers too (twinning)

while you were chilling with kanao outside the butterfly mansion, you figured it’s that time of the month since you could feel it.

so you gave her the signal to which she lightly gasped, led you to a shelf of pads/tampons, gave the ones you wanted to you, and led you to the bathroom while she patiently waited outside, guarding the door

once you’re done you opened the door

she turned around with her hands on her chest and a worried look plastered on her face

“are you okay, y/n? is there anything else you need? i can go get it for you.”

she care you. even though she quiet she care you. she love you <3

“ah- im alright, there’s nothing i want right now, but thanks for giving me the stuff i need for my period. oh, and your coin? i’ve noticed you didn’t use it back when we were outside.”

she shook her head and told you: “i don’t need that coin now that im with you. and this is a serious matter to be dealt with, so there’s no need to make a decision on your period.”

(pardon me im trying to not cry on my phone screen)

kanao :(

i mean she is right why would you need to stop and flip a coin deciding if she should help with your period or not

kinda weird ngl

but yeah if you need something she’s immediately on it

she got you <3

she’ll let you know when your periods going to come

she can predict it pretty well

smart kanao

you and her watching the butterflies fly around at night <3

“how’re you feeling, any pain?”

you smiled: “nope, nothing at all. you did so much for me today! having to care for me and do my missions for me,”

she clasped her hands against yours intertwining your fingers together

“it’s nothing, im just happy you’re alright.”

she kissed you on the nose

“im here for you. should you need anything else, don’t hesitate to ask.”

an: i felt like writing about period headcanons because man do periods suck. also im finally writing something for demon slayer again!! been a hot minute. i enjoy writing for the main trio + kanao :)

#✏️ lume writes #demon slayer #kny #kimetsu no yaiba #demon slayer x reader #kimetsu no yaiba x reader #kny x you #kny x reader #tanjiro x reader #zenitsu x reader #inosuke x reader #kanao x reader #tanjiro x you #zenitsu x you #inosuke x you #kanao x you #demon slayer comfort #demon slayer crack

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deadghosy · 2 years

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i don’t know if you write for griffin stagg but can you write an imagine where the reader is his sister and when he goes missing she announces it to the school but ends up breaking down? I’m sorry if this one is too detailed lmao.

Sure! Don’t worry about it being too detailed!

Lone Around

Paring: Griffin x sister!Reader

(Tw:Depression, panic attack, paranoia, social anxiety)

You wished to have been there with him…

You wished that you should’ve have protected him..

You should’ve have been the one missing and not him…

You couldn’t believe that he was missing. Why didn’t you just went with him outside. You could’ve saved him..but you didn’t.

FLASHBACK

“Y/N! I’m going to the library for some books!” Griffin yelled downstairs. Do you want some new comics!?” He waited for a few minutes. “Yeah! I’d like that very much, thanks griffy!” He smiled at your response and was about to walk out the door when he heard you call for him again. “WAIT, do you want me to come with you?” You asked. Griffin shook his head no with sad eyes. If people saw you with him, they’d probably pick on you too. Griffin was very much a outcast and loner. He loved to read mystery stories and novels. You were different. You were loud and funny. You were known for being very out going. He didn’t want to ruin your reputation, he loved you very much. “Oh..ok.” You said sadly, you were really trying to not sound sad but you guess it slipped out. Griffin frowns in the sound of your voice. “Sorry sissy, love you” he last said as he walked out the door. And that was the last time you seen him…

FLASH BACK ENDED

You couldn’t sleep, you couldn’t eat, you could even think. You were so lonely without him. You just wanted him to be safe. Why couldn’t you just go with him even if he said no…why.

You shake your head to get away from those thoughts as you were now walking to school. You needed to tell everyone about your missing brother. They needed to know how it feels, to have a loved one missing. You felt like you were being watched…

You turned around to see nothing. You walked again. ‘Maybe im just being paranoid’ you thought as you kept walking. Suddenly you felt like someone was behind you. Now that made you walk faster. You turned around quick to see a very big black shadow figure behind you. Your eyes widened as your mouth felt dry. You started to run as fast as you can. You ran as if your life depended on it, which it did.

You were suddenly in front of the school building as the school’s bell rang out loud. You turned around and looked around to see that there was no one there. A thousand thoughts went through your head.

‘Was i hallucinating, was there even a man or a person behind me, was it even a man?”

A couple of kids voices made you snap back into reality. ‘Right, the announcement. I need to make it happen.’ You walked inside, it seemed like time stopped as everyone looked at you, or as you felt like as if everyone was looking at you. You hid your face from the stares. Most of the kids were whispering things you couldn’t hear but kinda made out.

“Did she kill her brother?”

“You mean the outcast loser?”

“Wow I never seen her like that before.”

“She really let herself go.”

Your eyes were beginning to become teary.

‘stop talking. Stop talking. Stop talking. Stop talking. Stop talking. Stop talking. Stop talking. Stop talking. Stop talking. Stop talking stop talking stop talking stop talking stop talking.’

You thought as you closed your eyes trying to stop the tears trying to fall down your cheeks. You tried to clear you thoughts, you really tired but couldn’t.

You couldn’t take the comments and started running towards a private spot, the janitor’s closet. You just couldn’t do it alone..

But part of you knows that you have to be strong for griffin. You have too. You soon collected your thoughts together and walked towards the door. You slowly left the closet, looking around to see if anyone saw you coming out of the closet.

You have to make that announcement. For him….

Part 2 coming soon…

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silviakundera · 3 months

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Empresses in the Palace ep 13

I really like bestie Meizhuang's practicality and no-nonsense style. Too bad she's definitely gonna die (since her name isn't Zhen Huan). Honestly, she and ZH should be the perfect team: ZH is the right amount of paranoid and distrusting, bestie is more pessimistic and calculating. But I think the flaw is, they're too permissive of each other. I mean, they give advice but aren't adamant and demanding about it. If you're really gonna say you're sisters, BE BOSSY ABOUT IT. smh

Tapping in Ling Rong was smart. I never agreed with them not keeping her close.

Poor Fourth Prince. It's both a terrible idea to get associated with a kid the emperor hates... and I wish Zhen Huan could afford to openly care about him. Seems like a good kid.

ZH loosening up when she thinks no one is watching and being playful with her maid is THE SADDEST THING because you are struck that this is the real her. And she has to hide this person at all times and walk a tightrope in the proper concubine act. Even with Meizhuang she is all politeness, isn't so free & easy.

Meet cute with the real Prince Guo. Except this is a horror story, so no such thing. "You must not tell this to anyone. Otherwise, I'll have no burial ground for my body."

I love the old consort. She just straight up leaves the party all, 'I've seen enough drama in my day. Too tired for all this bullshit.'

If she can see it clearly, why can't the emperor? tbh I think he can too. It just doesnt threaten or affect him so he doesn't care.

Hell workplace dinner where everyone is drinking bored, so they've ganged on someone for entertainment. Everyone is salivating at the spectacle of the protagonist embarassing themselves. So of COURSE protagonist will shock everyone with their Secret Special Skills™. It's a very cliche trope but I think most viewers would have to admit that WE LOVE IT. We all eat this shit up with a spoon.

Ep 14

IM SCREAMING. Hua Fei, I pledge fealty. Marry me. "Consort Fleur, what is the matter with you?" Wavering, coughing, making indigestion faces: "I have no greviance over anything. I lost my composure because I was overcome with emotions watching Lady Sourire's performance." The emperor keeps being like, oh REALLY babe but you're basic. When did you start liking poetry? and babygirl puts her whole pussy into it. 👏👏 Girlboss gaslight gatekeep.

ZH really out here eager to co-parent with Meizhuang and ready to rush back from kissing the emperor's ass. I know she legit was into him (why??) at the start but I feel like reality has set in and she's just playing the part now. She's drawing her and Meizhuang's names together with a heart in her Lisa Frank notebook and planning how to spend their golden years together after they pop out a couple kids.

Hua Fei, the light of my life, breaks down the politics of it all. She's very savvy and will be a near impossible opponent to defeat - unless, of course, you have the protagonist halo. or if bro starts losing battles.

Empress pops in to remind us that being the CFO also sucks. Endless, tireless smiling and benevolence. You can't even throw a coquettish tantrum or two for the luz.

The ghost of the empresses's sister that the emperor loved most lingers yet again. Did the empress kill her sister? The thunder & lightening say yes.

The mess with Ling Rong's dad and the pull of Hua Fei's brother great examples of how the harem struggles aren't really about 'a bunch of sad women fighting over a man'. Being in the harem is entering a circle of power and influence. Yes, the concubines aren't supposed to 'discuss state affairs' but that's a rule made to be circumvented. Pleasing the emperor can make him reward your noble family and factions of the harem are connections within powerful noble families. Because Ling Rong is there, even though the emperor doesn't remember her name she has strings to pull. Whether it works out this time for her, it's a recourse she wouldn't have otherwise. And Meizhuang is able to go straight to the emperor's residence and get an update on the situation and counsel from the head eunuch. They have influence and control beyond what other citizens have.

[of course, we can't forget the prize for this hunger games is the biggest of them all -- NO, not some royal dick, but having your kid be the next emperor. Putting your family in the history books forever as part of the dynasty. Potentially changing history.]

[that's why I don't mentally categorise Story of Yanxi Palace as a harem drama. That's the setting, true, but Yingluo enters of her own will and it's due to her revenge quest. She isn't advocating for or protecting her clan and has zero intent to climb the ladder, but is acting in revenge of her sister, then her sworn sister empress, then her bestie. Then she inadvertently falls in love with her frenemy emperor (of all things!) and wants to accompany him, despite her terror of childbirth. She has no interest in the throne for herself, her clan, or her kids. She's playing the game all the wrong way, because she's not playing it at all - her goals aren't aligned to anyone else's. That is the delight of Yanxi Palace; she's dropped into everyone else's harem drama with a metaphorical sword on her back, the unpredictable engine of chaos in this carefully choreographed dance of waxing and waning power & influence.]

Empress really shows off her skills in this episode. No one actually knows how hard she tried for Ling Rong's dad but she has the position to get away with advocating, without losing much. And she gets their gratitude and steers them towards fighting my gf Hua Fei in her stead. Empress was the biggest winner in this incident.

ZH on her way there, as she expertly manipulates the emperor by commenting on state affairs without actually directly discussing them. She's smart to be hiding the depth of her education and only bringing it out when necessary.

Damn she's really playing the "you're my ✨husband✨" card for all it's worth. And we can see that, for now, it's worth a lot.

The maid making the play for the emperor's interest with the lotus blossoms is the Soon to be Evil half-sister, right?

#cdrama #empresses in the palace

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footygirl114 · 2 years

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Compañeras de equipo (Mapi Leon x Reader)

“Were a team” prompt is from @grapefruit-personified Hopefully this doesn't distract you from the important needle work you are doing

Working in an ER was very hard but very rewarding. Doing 24 hour shifts that turned into 30 hours was very hard on you. You loved being able to help people and ensure that anyone who came into your ER felt safe and you knew you could offer them that. It was hard but rewarding work. The worst part was how you missed many games that your love played in.

You had met Mapi Leon when you were just finishing up med school. She has been with you through the worst. She knew what she was getting into when you started dating but you cant help but feel like you hold her back.

She never made you feel bad for missing games or events, but you always felt like she could do better than someone who couldn’t put her first. Thats why when ever you have the chance you are at every one of her games. It helped that you loved football so having to watch her games was never an issue for you. You knew all her teammates well and loved to watch them succeed.

Knowing you couldn’t get out of the double shift for the UWCL final was heartbreaking. Luckily your ER had a tv you could at least have it on to keep up with the score and the game. It started well you watched the first 10 minutes, then a trauma came in and the ER was a mess for the next several hours. You barley had a second to breath before you were pulled in another direction.

You found out they lost, but didn’t have a chance to get to your phone until a few hours after the game ended. You saw the texts from friends and family in regards to the game, but you only had eyes for the messages from you love. She had told you that the team was having a low key night in to wallow and to call if you had a second.

You immediately stepped into the staff room and face timed your love. She picked up and you could see her on a bed with Leila on one shoulder and Alexia leaning on the other shoulder. “Hi baby” you say quietly when you notice Alexia’s eyes were closed.

“Hola mi amor, you look tired” she says immediately, you laugh at her worrying about you when she’s the one who needed to be looked after right now.

Leila looks over at her screen and sees you and chimes in “Hola Y/N, we missed you today”

You had become like a sister to almost everyone of Mapi’s teammates and you were generally the one who was able to keep them calm under stress. Working in an environment like the ER meant you were a calm person and some of the girls seeked that before big games. Leila being one of the players who was like a little sister to you. “Im sorry chica, I couldn’t get out of this double” you respond with a sad smile.

“Y/N you never have to apologise for saving lives, please don’t feel guilty” Alexia adds in, she was probably who you would consider your best friend on the team (other than Mapi) and knew that you struggled with not being enough for people.

“Hermosa, You didn’t need to see the disaster of the day today was, I’m glad you were doing something meaningful” Mapi chimes in with a small smile.

You shake your head knowing there’s no use in arguing “Well are you all doing okay then? I wish I could give you all a hug” you tell them.

Mapi looks around the room off camera and says to you “We have each other, were a team and we win as a team and lose as a team. We will come back stronger”

Your heart swells for your girl and how much she cares for her team, then your pager goes off on your hip and you know you have to go. “Im sorry, I have to cut this short. Get home safe you guys, I love you all” as you blow them a kiss and sign off.

Over the next few days you are barley home, the ER is overrun and short staffed. Mapi has stopped by a few times to drop you off clean clothes, food and coffee. Your heart swells every time she shows up for you. You hated that you missed the Cup semis for them after the loss but you couldn’t get away.

When you finally get a chance to leave and get a few days off you are mentally fried. You make it home, and barley have the energy to shower before you pass out. You know Mapi was at training and wouldn’t be home for a few hours.

When you wake up a few hours later you are confused but remember you made it home and were not in an on call room. You can hear Mapi moving around and smell some amazing food being cooked. You get up and go to grab a sweater and notice that all your laundry was clean, folded and put away. Mapi must have done it for you, you grab one of her sweaters and head down stairs.

In the kitchen she’s prepping your favourite dinner and you burst into tears. She turns immediately and wraps you in her arms, she tucks you under her chin and rubs your back as you cry it out.

When you calm down and pull back from her she reaches up and places her thumbs under your eyes to wipe your tears as says “you’re okay babe I got you”

You shake your head and say “You’ve done way too much for me, I couldn’t even be at the biggest game of your career for you” you try to pull away but she doesn’t let you go far.

“Hermosa, look at me” she says softly, you look up at her as she grabs your hands “I love you, we are a team you and I, when you need me I am always going to be there for you. Just like when I need you, you will be there for me. That game sucked but I had my other team there for me, the team that I needed to experience that with. You needed to be here, and you needed me here to support you”

You shake your head and say to her “You deserve someone who can be there for you all the time, not just when they’re free”

“babe, listen to me. I do not want someone else, I fell in love with you for you. I love the fact that you are saving lives, and that you are so passionate about what you do. The other day when I was there I saw the way you take care of every single patient, I’m in awe of you and how you have such a big heart. You know how I feel about my team, but this team” she points at you then back to her “is the most important team I am on, I love you and I wouldn’t want to do this with anyone else”

You surge forward and press your lips to hers hard, she responds eagerly and deepens the kiss, you both break apart when the oven timer goes off. Before you let her attend to the food you pull her towards you and say “You are my favourite teammate too, I love you so much”

#woso imagine #woso x reader #woso #mapi leon x reader #mapi leon imagine #mapi leon

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IT’S CELESTIEFAN3000 i have to say i like tumblr way more than ao3 so i’ll be using this to comment from now on 😋 But i would like to personally thank you for writing chapter 9, your author voice is genuinely so appealing and HONESTLY you could pass off as a literal professional author if I didn’t know this was fanfiction!

Now for the uglier feelings: (please ignore typos or other mistakes i wrote a lot. I am very normal about kickoff, obviously)

I SOBBED LIKE A BABY MIDWAY AND BECAME A CRYING SOUND EFFECT AT THE END OK OK OKAYYYYYYY 😭😭💫💫 I’m still dizzy and lightheaded from the effect ur writing gives me (THIS IS A GOOD THING) it’s so addicting i need more😭‼️ UGHHHH the way you build that exact RIGHT amount of comfort to compensate for the suffering you’ve but us through but still managed to EDGE US AT THE END . I WISH YOU WEREN’T SO GOOD AT THIS FANFICTION THING, BECAUSE DAMN! 😭😭😭😭

The scenes were so fucking beautiful, I love the peaceful atmosphere that rain gives and how you were able to contrast that as an escape from that horrible loud and noisy bar to just a horrible man!!!!! You really know how to direct scenes and i can not express in words how much they mean to me 🥹🥹😭😭😭

I feel like I’ve overused the crying face emoji too much in my ask BUT I ACTUALLY MEAN IT HERE EVERY TIME I can fill an entire glass up of my tears that kickoff caused me to shed alone 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭

Everything was just great vegetables, this chapter will definitely be haunting me while I sleep but it ended with an amazing scenario to build off of and dream about RIGHT?☺️ Anyway, my last words here are that I admire how you’ve been working on this project for around a couple months now nonstop, but the quality has not dropped and has instead improved despite it getting really tiring the more you carry on with it! Maybe that’s just how I feel about finishing what I’ve started LMAO but it’s so impressive every time I see someone able to pull that off, I’ve seen some fics succumb to the tragedy of “i-just-want-to-get-this-over-with-because-the-concept-no-longer-interests-me-anymore”-ness 😔 BUT WITH KICKOFF! I’m so happy that the author is as passionate about the characters and plot in their fanfiction as I am, and hard work really does pay off! (for the reader, hard work is waiting 3 weeks for a new fic— but the read’s always better the longer you wait 😉)

My ADHD really came out here I deeply apologize but my ACTUAL final words are: I wish I had a bf like gojo, Oh My God You Are A Legend Ellie, You are most deserving person of meeting Gojo Satoru FIRST if he ever comes to life, it is 1am haha so i’m sleeping now ☺️🤍 Celestiefan300 out!

MY SWEET ANGEL BB CELESTIEFAN3000 😭🫶🏼💕💕 HI DEAR

UMM CAN I JUST SAY IM AB TO SOB ALR JUST FROM HOW LONG THIS ASK IS ??? PLS FORGIVE MY URGE TO RESPOND TO EVERY ASPECT OF IT

thank you sm for the compliments on the writinf omg i rly feel comin into my own now n finding my voice as i continue to write more so seeing u say that esp as a long term reader is just ssooo dhddldfk 🥺💕 brb gonna cry

PLS IM SO SORRY FOR THE SAD EMOTIONSS aaa yes the baby steps to build their relationship has been……baby stepping indeed LOL but it was so nice to write the scene at rhe end where gojo comforts her 😭💕 so excited to write lovey dovey gojo now

OMG STOPPP w the nice words i will literally eat u for breakfast🧍🏻‍♀️the contrast w the soothing rain & hectic bar scene 😭 u pointing that out just made me soooo freaking happyy and wahh im so glad the scenes resonate w you :””) <33

ME TOO I FEEL IM HOLDING BACK ALL THE 😭😭😭 WMOJIS I COULD USE READING THIS ASK

awhh thanks darling im so happy kickoff has ur continued interest and AW to hear its improving means sm to me 🥺💕 im so passionate ab it, it has been so cathartic to write, and although its also hard to write sometimes bc of the personal aspects, it’s so joyous to me and i look forward to seeing it thru to the end w the same amt of passion. HAHAHA its hard work to read tho damn 😮‍💨 ur not wrong!! and also yes i too will be daydreaming of what happens next 🤣

my final words: i love u sm, YOU deserve a satoru (but i will gladly have him too if u say so🙈), so blessed to have u as a reader, and please get some good sleep my love <33

eeeeeee 🫶🏼💕

#celestiefan3000 #my love my life #kickoff #asks #anon

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goddamnosamu · 2 years

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[12:49am]

Writing songs is not easy

Pairing: idol!asahi x reader

Words: 1.9k+

a/n: i suggest reading this fic with any sad song you know for extra emotional damage. THIS WAS SO FUN TO WRITE so i hope you enjoy this fic that destroyed me. This is the official opening?? or start of my page and i decided with sharing angst YEY! stay tuned for more fics and i will create my carrd asap so you would know more about what im about to do with my acc here in tumblr so enjoy this fic for now! feedback would be very much appreciated :DD

Writing was hard — something asahi was very familiar with. The constant wracking of his brain to write lyrics that people would love. Working at ungodly hours to write 3 lines of lyrics that were all over the place which, most of the time, ended up with multiple pieces of crumpled paper, or even ended up sleeping on his desk with multiple scribbles on different sheets of paper. Despite the numerous love songs under his belt as a producer, asahi never really understood the concept of love. He felt like he was missing a specific emotion or feeling to add more essence to the songs.

Until he met you.

With you, writing came so much easier. It was easier to put his feelings into his writings — expressing the love he wished to express towards you. You knew this, of course. The subtle eye contact, soft whines of protest, and the delicate touches he leaves on your skin. You knew he was trying on his own ways, and you absolutely adored his ways of showing love to you.

But it was never easy.

It may seem like a walk in the park for others, or even romanticizing these subtle acts of expressing love. But loving another person was never easy, especially if expressing it was not their forte. He always wished to meet someone where he may be able to express himself without having to worry about his frustrating hesitance toward love. Though he may be infatuated with different people from his whole lifetime, or even have friends that he knows would stick by him, he never really tried to meet his person because of the fear that they might grow tired of his antics. He just convinced himself, basically. Platonic may be the only thing that he could have, and he’d have to rely on cheesy romance films or anime for him to know how a relationship happens.

“You think a relationship is hard?” he got asked by one of the members when they were trying to write lyrics for their upcoming album. He didn’t have an answer back then. Every bit of knowledge he had with relationships came from films, never really having the experience because of the hectic idol life he has now. He was contented, to an extent. But he remembered how much he smiles whenever he’s with you. How he finally experienced what it's like for his day to seemingly be better just by thinking about you. How he blushes when a member brings you up. How he unconsciously brings you to whatever conversation he was having; always wanting to connect his story about you. How he really tried his best to keep the relationship despite all the shame, hate, doubt, and every negative feeling there is.

He could never forget how hard he tried to get you to be his in the first place. A simple flower with a note: I wish to see you smile like that every day because you shine the brightest in my eyes. I hope you will allow me to be with you more, just like the orange sun. Having to find the right timing with you, to make sure you were comfortable and in a great mood. Constantly thinking about what happens then if you said yes, then worrying too much if ever you said no.

He felt like the happiest man alive when you said yes. Though he doesn’t really know what’s the next step in a relationship, he chooses to revel in the feeling of love? no, that’s not it. He doesn’t really know if it was the love he was feeling. But he didn’t mind it. He’s got you, he thinks. He’ll soon figure out his feelings for you eventually, he hopes. So, there were days that were long, days where he wanted to stay in it forever, and days that will hold a special place in his heart.

He remembers the way you hold his figure whenever he gets stressed about his work. The sweet nothings he hears while he lays his head on your figure as if melting in your embrace. It was the most comforting thing. Being with you erases the negative thoughts he has throughout the day. He hides his emotions, as he usually does. He doesn’t really know what to do with it, and he sometimes wished someone would instantly know how he was feeling whenever it started to get tough. But you always seemed to know his emotions. You were reading him like an open book, yet other people struggle with the simplest emotions he feels. Even his members sometimes didn’t understand his emotions. You were always there when you needed him.

He was the happiest. He always had the motivation to write songs because he finally found his inspiration. He finally found someone he could confine himself to without worrying about forcing himself. He knows you were there, you always were, in whatever situation there was.

But, he wasn’t there for you.

He didn’t know what to do on your off-days. He didn’t know what makes you happy. You’re holding him, but he isn’t holding you – That was the hardest part of your relationship. He was content with your treatment, but he doesn’t reciprocate it back to you. Yet, you kept quiet. Despite all the constant neglect, late-night calls that leave you unsatisfied, tears in the other room while he’s busy being happy. Even the I love you’s that holds the deepest meaning in your relationship felt empty. Even the way he says it was empty. It honestly felt like a slap in the face, when you realize your relationship is different now.

He couldn't understand it at first, the sudden change in your relationship. He was doing fine, you’re doing fine, he thinks. He might just be overthinking things again, just like what he used to do before he got into a relationship with you. You were always there for him whenever he had his off-days. Ever since he saw you with a frown on your face every time you were there to comfort him against his own demons, he swore to himself that he’d try a bit harder to remove those thoughts so you wouldn’t have to worry again. Plus, it’s a way for him to see you with a smile on your face, just like how he wanted to see you.

But one thing led to another, and you both were at your tipping point with each other. The moment you walked out of his life was the moment he never wanted to relive ever again. The eerily silence in the room when you asked him for a talk. The monotonous voice that held much more weight every time he remembered your words to him. He notices the slight tremble in your voice as the words you were releasing start to frustrate you. The amount of emotion in your voice when you told him you were tired snapped him back to reality. He didn’t know what to say. What else could he tell you that could at least help calm you down? The only indicator he had of time was the sun setting on the window of his studio.

“What am I in your life, asahi?” you asked, with so much exhaustion and desperation in your voice. You wanted to know what you were in his life.

“You’re my girlfriend, obviously!” he said with frustration that almost seemed like he wanted to get away from the situation and just wanted to lie in your arms — forgetting the whole thing ever happened.

“Well, it doesn’t seem like it anymore.” You exclaimed. You were tired of all of it. As you were still telling him about all the frustrations in the relationship. Asahi was constantly telling himself that everything was going to be okay. He wanted to tell you that, but he felt like he was convincing himself more than you that the relationship was okay, even if it was in its final steps.

You couldn’t even look at him anymore, at that point. Too tired about the whole ordeal, you broke it off. As much as he hated the whole situation and himself, he couldn’t help but stare at the setting shining sun that always reminded him of you. He knew he tried, but he wished he could’ve tried harder for you.

The wave of emotion hit him, finally coming back to his senses and realizing that you were actually gone. He couldn’t even stare at his desk because it was full of trinkets that came from you. A drawing of you was also on his wall, almost taunting him about the way he handled the relationship. A picture frame then came into view — it was a photo booth print you both went to on his birthday. Both of you were smiling so wide for the camera as if nothing was wrong with the relationship. He smiled a bit, remembering how thankful he was that you went out of your schedule just to be with him the entire day.

A snap from his member brought him back to reality. Repeating the question to him again, and waiting for his answer. “No one writes songs about the ones that come easy.” Asahi said, a bit of falter in his tone as if on the verge of breaking down the more he thinks about it. He doesn’t know how long he was keeping it together until he heard a soft click of the door and his member not in the room with him – assuming he left to leave him alone with his thoughts. To help relieve the pain for a bit, asahi went back to writing music but without the lyrics. He felt like he just needed to get lost in his own little world without any thoughts bothering him.

He doesn’t really know what time it is, but he assumes that he stayed up again in the studio for another time. But he did get a good beat out of it. Immediately opening his phone and quickly going to your contact to tell you about his beat, he instantly had a frown on his face.

09:27 pm will you come home for the night?

10:56 pm asahi?

12:17 am well, good luck in the studio for today!!

12:18 am i love you!!! <3 <3 <3 seen

It was the last text he got from you before you broke up with him. He hadn’t realized that he left you on read that time, he couldn’t even remember what he was doing that day for him to forget to reply to you. And just like that, he realized that when was the last time he replied instantly just like you did for him? When was the last time that he did something great for you? When was the last time that he even had to comfort you, despite him hearing you complain about your workspace and difficulties in life? Every single insecurity and guilt came crashing back down to him, the guilt eating him up that he felt like he couldn’t even breathe properly. He knew what to do – at least he convinced himself he knew what to do in a relationship. He just didn’t know how to express it. His harsh breathing racked his body while he tried to calm his mind from the frustration, trying to stop his thoughts from consuming his already tired night at the studio.. He’s done it multiple times ever since you left. But just for tonight, he allows himself to fully come to terms with his feelings and it was evident from the way he sobbed that night, scribbles of words and phrases he wished to tell you all forgotten.

Writing was easy for him, yes. But writing about love will never be the same because he knows what love is now – it was everything he never was.

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cl0udsbl0g · 1 year

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The pretty encounter

3rd person pov

She closed her eyes but her heart was still thumping out of her chest the doc rushed into the room and checked "she lost too much blood her face have gotten pale take her to emergency room before its too late!! " the nurses rushed and took her half dead body to emergency room

🅃🄸🄼🄴🅂🄺🄸🄿

They all slept around her grabbing her hands or some sleeping on her lap, She slowly opened her eyes to see "what happened? " they all woke up and looked at "Did anyone did anything to you?! Why did you- how did you lost this much blood?! " katsuki asked y/n cupping her face she began to sob slowly tears rolling down her face, everyone became worried they gave her time to ans it and so she did " it was my family.... " everyone looked at her with sadness and questions on their face "honey, finish it say what happened, who did you what!? " kiri asked her slightly loud, she kinda flinched " kiri calm tf down" katsuki spoke in a low voice, everyone looked at y/n "i was mentally torchered by my parents and the family and it led me to cut myself and bleed the pain away… looks down crying” they were all shocked and y/n went inside the covers and started sobbing softly until kiri grabbed her arm and took her into a warm hug " look at me baby shark she looks you are with us now, noone can hurt you noone hugs her even tighter you are safe with me now baby, you can come to me these arms are always open for you no matter what situation we are in, look at me she looks, eyes filled with tears i love you okay? and noone can hurt you not now not ever, we are here for you-" they all comforted her and keeps reminding her how much they love her, she soon enough felt safe and slept

in the morning

eijiro: heyy pebble good morning

y/n: g-good morning

izuku: aha what’s with that weird nickname

eijiro: it’s not that bad is it pebble~

y/n: um well-

shoto: you guys expected her to act normal after we literally kidnapped her yesterday ahaha

izuku: oh right, dol- puppy you don’t need to be afraid of us we kidnapped you for your own safety and i promise i’ll keep you safer than ever i promise love

y/n walked back to her room without responding back

katsuki: i’ll go talk to her katsuki walked behind her just to see she was having a breakdown, he rushed back in the room to update the others , all of them grew worried and rushed to y/n. “y/n? luv? are you okay my love” asked shoto, “i’m more than just fine don’t worry” y/n replied with a smile yet crying state which made everyone a little less concerned “these are just happy tears because i never thought i could ever have someone like u and just the thought of u guys returning back to me made me so much happy im glad im very thankful, thank you” y/n chimed, “oh my dear, u made us all worried for a moment come here luv get a hug” katsuki opened his arms for her to get in.

y/n pov

he asked me for a hug and that’s everything i would ever want, his love for me is more than enough for me i would fight on the world rather see them sad i’ve loved them since the beginning i’m very thankful for these people i don’t know what i did for me to be treated this well i wish we met a bit earlier so incould give them everything i still can but idk i feel like i don’t deserve this but i know they won’t like it when i get these bad thoughts i’m gonna talk about this with them later- “are u okay whatca thinking ~” katsuki broke into my thoughts, he was so close to my face i felt my cheeks burning a bit but i shrugged it off saying just a little tired

#theencounter #mha x reader #poly relationship #todobakudekukiri #yourloved #comfort #love #they love you.#you are not alone

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lightlycareless · 11 months

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OUGH CHAPTER 33,, this ones RICH theres so much here all of y/ns letters,, i wonder how hinata would feel if she actually got to read them?? not that she'd get through all of them before trying to break in there herself to get y/n out i imagine

NAOAKI,, calling y/n cute straight up now?? we're just straight into it there's no denying anything anymore. full on flirting out there-- good for them. and the GRAPE,, feeding her the grape,, im obsessed. hinata turning naoaki away bc of his resemblance to naoya-- i get why girl but also MAN you are missing out on the sweetest man in the world. n also the possibility of the zenin's getting pissy over hinata and naoaki talking to each other?? they are DERANGED for real its unbelievable.

mariya and tatsuro,,, i really do think she COULD tell hitomi i like to think she'd understand. and also backing herself into a corner w lying about to everyone i just can not imagine that ending well at ALL somewhere down the line

THE BOXES FULL OF RECORDS MY GODDD,,, naoya is going to give y/n a HEART ATTACK. its a thoughtful gesture but she is so (understandably!!) put off anything to do with him she just finds it creepy as fuck. it is so funny tho "there has to be another reason for his actions,, but what,," girl,,, hes trying to be nice for once this is not a murder attempt,,

and the idea that naoya's gonna eventually try to ask how she liked the gift oh MAN-- he's already gonna be torn up beyond belief over that last chapter ending (must be why we don't see him this time he's too busy crying) and to see her respond cold to like... what's probably the first real big thoughtful gift he's tried to get her?? devastating. obliterated.

this chapter is driving me insane and up the walls (in a good way) i am SO ready to see whats coming.. ur setting up for somethin big i know it,,,

Hello!!!! I’m glad you liked the bit of… lore I guess? I don’t know how to call it lol regarding Y/N’s letters! I only went through them briefly, in the aspect of what she must write and what not to keep a low profile, but never really showed what she was writing… and boy, was it sad.

Hinata would be very, very sad. Definitely. She’d first be upset, angry, quickly identifying that her letters are to set up a façade that everything is right, when it’s not. She’ll also be able to find some traces of Y/N being genuine whenever she speaks of the twins or her staff… perhaps. But overall, those clues end up being irrelevant to the fact that Y/N is in danger and needs to be taken out of there as soon as possible.

And her not caring for Naoaki…. Hahahahahah it made me laugh and a bit frustrated tbh, but how is she supposed to know?! yet OMG he's RIGHT THERE.

I did think on various occasions that her acting that way with him might’ve been... reckless, like it could’ve raised some red flags from him and be like “Hinata is acting weird” subsequentially, leading the clan to be further vigilant of her. However, Naoaki doesn’t know what’s up with his clan, and his priority is to help Y/N above anything else so… yeah. I wish she would’ve given him the benefit of the doubt and approached him, doing so on any other occasion I think, when she isn’t there for work and isn’t overworked either lol.

But yeah, she’s tired of all she’s been put through and couldn’t care less of engaging with other people as of right now. To Naoaki’s defense… Hinata didn’t talk to anyone else either, so there’s that 🤭

I’m still surprised the Zen’in weren’t lil bitches about it, they probably didn’t consider their interaction to be that important anyway—since their secrets are safely guarded… at least for now. Kind of. Hinata is still not out of their radar. Hmm. They’re probably thinking on how to not get involved in the crisis since they think so little of non-sorcerers lol.

Now onto Mariya…. I just love causing conflicts with her lmao. You could argue that she’s not doing anything… wrong per se, but man, lies and lack of communication can lead to some pretty terrible misunderstandings and that’s the least of the things I want happening between Y/N’s staff 😭 But essentially Mariya is afraid that speaking out loud of this situation might lead other members of the staff overhearing this, rumors begin to circulate around the house, and she loses her job 💀 It’s not that she doesn’t trust Hitomi, but she’d rather keep it hidden from everyone to avoid these risks. (also, the pain of having disappointed her is too much for her to even contemplate 😭 she cares too much for the sisters, and already gone through something like that with Y/N... no, I can't have her suffering 😭😭)

As for Naoaki… that freaking scene with the grape was like omg…………………………………………………… I wanted to go heavier on the subtle implications, but I was like no ma’am, Y/N pulled away from that one and I don’t think Naoaki would insist after seeing her reject his advancements sooooo maybe for another time 😊 This was also a way to show just how… bold the two had become after the whole Naobito/Naoya/Y/N thing went down, had this been before that, Naoaki would’ve never done something like that.

I can imagine Ranta watching the two from some undisclosed corner frantically hoping that Naoya won’t come out and see them lmao.

Finally… the mystery of whatever Naoya was shoving inside his pocket the chapter before is revealed!

Guess he was listening to what Y/N was telling him, however, for him to suddenly go out and buy them implies another motive behind them… or at least that’s what I intended to write 🤭 Naoya is trying something, to be nicer I guess, but without him taking accountability I don’t think there’s going to be any advancements soon. 😫 He’s still out there having some kind of war with Naoaki, when he should be focusing on Y/N and his marriage!!!!! Well, best wishes to him I guess lol.

Now… I won’t say much outside of that hehe because it will be expanded on the next chapter, it's a Naoya-centric one where we'll see what he was doing while this went down, as well as a bit of—

Anyways, thank you so much for tuning in for a new update!! The build up for the next chapter has me at edge, nervous… but excited too and I can’t wait to show you!!! (let the hype be appropriate) But for now, I shall take it easy, I got my birthday to enjoy (and this annoying cold out of the goddamn nowhere!!! To overcome)

Have a wonderful weekend, take care, and hope to see you soon!!!

#ask #ask series: first it hurts—#naoya zenin #naoya zen'in #naoya x reader #naoya zenin x reader #naoya zenin x your #jjk naoya #naoya zen'in x reader

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kitjosten13 · 8 months

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10 ships and lyrics you associate with them

Tagged by @disasterpenguin

1) Andriel: Look After You-The Fray, Just one yesterday- Fall Out Boy, St. Patrick- PVRIS

"It's always have and never hold,You've begun to feel like home"

"I know I'm bad news, i saved it all for you"

"I need a miracle to bring me back to you, i know youre gone now but i still wait for you"

2) LaurKier: No matter what- Papa Roach, Arms- Christina Perri

"We're indestructible, we are untouchable, Nothing can take us down tonight" "No matter what,I got your back, I'll take a bullet for you if it comes to that, I swear to god ,That in the bitter end, We're gonna be the last ones standing."

"I tried my best to never let you in to see the truth, And I've never opened up, I've never truly loved 'till you put your arms around me, And I believe that it's easier for you to let me go" "You put your arms around me and I'm home" "The world is coming down on me, And I can't find a reason to be loved, I never wanna leave you, But I can't make you bleed if I'm alone"

3) SoRiku: Kiss me slowly-Parachute, Vanilla Twilight- Owl City, Love like you- Rebecca Sugar

"Well, I'm not sure what this is gonna be, But with my eyes closed all I see. Is the skyline, through the window, The moon above you and the streets below. Hold my breath as you're moving in, Taste your lips and feel your skin. When the time comes, baby don't run, just kiss me slowly." "Stay with me, baby stay with me, Tonight don't leave me alone."

"The silence isn't so bad 'Til I look at my hands and feel sad 'Cause the spaces between my fingers Are right where yours fit perfectly" "Waist deep in thought because when I think of you, I don't feel so alone, I don't feel so alone, I don't feel so alone, As many times as I blink I'll think of you tonight"

"I always thought I might be bad Now I'm sure that it's true 'Cause I think you're so good And I'm nothing like you" "look at you go i just adore you, i wish that i knew, what made you think im so special"

4) Soukoku: Turbulent- Waterparks, I cant get high- Royal and the serpent, Like Real People Do- Hozier

"Id unfuck you if could, id unlove you like i should've, months before i did, in the months before i split its turbulent"

"It fucking hurts, these drugs don't work, I don't know why, Excuse me if I overdose, It happens every time you go,Hard as I try, I can't get high"

"So I will not ask you Why you were creeping In some sad way I already know I will not ask you where you came from I will not ask you and neither would you" "Honey just put your sweet lips on my lips, We should just kiss like real people do"

5) Shin Soukoku: Love like you- Rebecca Sugar, Video Games- The Young professionals

"I always thought I might be bad Now I'm sure that it's true'Cause I think you're so good And I'm nothing like you" "Love like you Love me like you"

"I tell you all the time, heaven is a place on earth with you"

6)VanXi: prove you wrong-He is We, When he sees me- Kimiko Glenn, King- Lauren Aquillina

"Give me your heart, I don't want a piece or a part, I want it all. I want you to fall,Just a little bit." "Take that leap of faith, If you want to, Don't let that broken heart haunt you. Can you let me try?" "I can be that part of you, Let me be that part of you. I see that you're breaking, Your heart is breaking. Here's my hand if you'll take it, We can make it out, Of all this mess." Are you giving up and done? "Are you through with all this? Are you tired of the pain? Torn to pieces." "Can you let me try? Tell me it's all right, Just for one night. Show you how to feel like, What it feels like. To be hugged, to be kissed. Yes I can be that part of you. I'll try my best."

"Or even worse, he could be very nice, have lovely eyes, And make me laugh, come out of hiding What do I do with that?" "What if when he sees me I like him and he knows it? What if he opens up a door And I can't close it? What happens then? If when he holds me My heart is set in motion, I'm not prepared for that,I'm scared of breaking open, But still I can't help from hoping, To find someone to talk to Who likes the way I am Someone who when he sees me Wants to again"

"You've got it all You lost your mind in the sound There's so much more, you can reclaim your crown You're in control Rid of the monsters inside your head Put all your faults to bed You can be king again"

7) Thiam: Hatef--ck- The Bravery, Fuck about it- Waterparks

"If I put my hands around your wrists, would you fight them? If I put my fingers in your mouth, would you bite them? So many things that I would do if I had my way with you"

"sometimes, when we fight It's like scars on my wrist When I think about the shit that we did to one another," "We can fuck about it later, if you want Because we never fix the problems that we've got, baby You don't seem to like it when we talk I guess I'll see you later" "But when we fight, it's like a marathon" "I like you but I need some space I like you kinda far away It's not hard to kill a day Lookin' at your face"

8) Sterek: Sleepwalking- All Time Low, Love bites- Ice nine kills, The edge of tonight- All Time Low

"Feel like I'm sleepwalking when you're gone, Wide awake but it just feels wrong, stay in bed til the whole years gone"

"You bit off more than you could chew But you taste too good to be true Safe in my arms you will lay, 'cause every dog has its day" "So howl at the moon, oh how can it be? (Oh how can it be?) The softer the skin the sharper the teeth With nowhere to go, nothing to believe, I'm counting on beauty to kill off the beast, So just put me down"

"It's a long way home When you're on your own And your only friends Are traffic lights Speaking in morse code... Yeah, the road is long And I am tired... But with you on my horizon I will drive until it all breaks down... 'Cause I can't breathe Without you near... You keep me safe Keep me sane Keep me honest, yeah... You keep me alive On the edge of tonight!"

9) SnowBaz: Flaws-Bastille, Dirty Laundry-All Time Low, I wouldnt mind-He is we

"All of your flaws and all of my flaws Are laid out one by one Look at the wonderful mess that we made" "You have always worn your flaws upon your sleeve And I have always buried them deep beneath the ground Dig them up; let's finish what we've started Dig them up, so nothing's left untouched" "There's a hole in my soul I can't fill it, I can't fill it There's a hole in my soul Can you fill it? Can you fill it?"

"Her closet's such a mess Filled up with all the skeletons she's kept Nobody's perfect I confess But she's perfect enough without ever dressing up, yeah" "Dirty laundry is piling in her room She's got her secrets, yeah I got mine too I don't care about what you did Only care about what we do Dirty laundry Looks good on you"

"Carefully we'll place for our destiny You came and you took this heart and set it free Every word you write and sing is so warm to me So warm to me, I'm torn, I'm torn, To be right where you are I'm not afraid anymore I'm not afraid"

10) Fax: Pompeii- Bastille, Distance-Christina Perri, Home- Phillip Phillips

"But if you close your eyes Does it almost feel like nothing changed at all? And if you close your eyes Does it almost feel like you've been here before? How am I gonna be an optimist about this? How am I gonna be an optimist about this?"

"I wish we would just give up, 'Cause the best part is falling. Call it anything but love. And I will make sure to keep my distance, Say I love you when you're not listening, How long, can we keep this up, up, up?" "Please don't stand so close to me I'm having trouble breathing. I'm afraid of what you'll see, right now." "I'll give you everything I am, All my broken heartbeats. Until I know you'll understand." "And I will make sure to keep my distance, Say I love you when you're not listening, How long, can we keep this up, up, up?"

"Settle down, it'll all be clear Don't pay no mind to the demons They fill you with fear The trouble, it might drag you down If you get lost, you can always be found Just know you're not alone 'Cause I'm gonna make this place your home"

I have no one to tag lmao i just wanted to do it so anyone who wants to can

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