#im wanna curl up and cry

[jazzy-art-time]

my mother is going in for a big surgery tomorrow and im!!!

trying to be normal about it and not freak but i am anyways because that's who i am baby!!!!!!!!!

Im the worlds biggest worry wart!!!

worlds biggest bubble blowin baby out here!!!!!!!

#this is the second time my mother has had cancer and needed extreme surgery to remove it!!!! it fucking came back!!!!!!!! Fuck cancer!!!!! #im such a HUGE bundle of nerves right now and keep switching between being Hyper GOGOGOG and like. freaking out crying so!!11 #RAAAAAAAAAAAAA FIREBALL ATTACK!!!!!!🔥🔥🔥 🔥🔥🔥 #there are other complications and i just ougggh i just hgggg im just HGJSHGKJHDGKDKGHG GOING INSANE I DONT HANDLE THIS WELL #the first time this happened I didnt really have friends at all so they didnt have to deal with me so i was a fucking freak in private #so personal shoutout to all my current friends dealing with me as i go absolutely insane because I AM!!! I AM GOING INSANE!!!!! #personal #negative #on No Reblogs because why would i want my paranoia spread in such a manner gkshgskjgskjg #im just so tired and im so worried and i just wanna curl up in a ball and sob about it in all honesty

[monsterbisexual]

i already feel like today is gonna be hard for me :/

#p #ive been at work like 5 mins n awake less than an hour but like #i already feel like im gonna not be able to deal w anything n i struggle w that on normal days #like work is v stressful n overwhelming for me anytime #but i just woke up feeling :((( yknow #like physically its gonna be not good n stressful n then that makes me feel worse emotionally ofc #maybe ill be wrong abt this but i just feel like i wanna cry already n the only stuff so far has been #feeling bad n gross physically+being here is too bright n loud which im used to but doesnt help #wanna curl up at home but alas. can do that in 8 hrs tho :( #<= well now ive been here later (tag abt how long ive been at work) cuz i was trying to find a pic to use alsjdk

[lucyvaleheart]

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#original #gggodss i just. wanna be held #i just wanna be held so badly #i want to curl up in someones arms i want them to hold me so close i want them to pet my hair #i want them to tell me everything will be okay i want to cry with them i want to just let myself be broken #cuz i am im so fucking broken i can't. pput into words how much everything hurts sometimes #i want to say all the time but its not true #its not all the time i just feel like it is because thep ast doesn't exist and neither does the future and #hhhhhhhhhhhh #i just. i just want to be wanted as usual damnit #just want to feel desired #want to feel pretty #wish i was pretty #i dont know why im so. fixated on that recently #i just. #.....mmirrors hurt #i dont want to see myself anymore #i cant look at myself anymore #everything hurts #everything hurts.

[critterbutt]

thinking about the emperor again

#im gonna CRY why cant i hold it #just wanna cover it in smooches #wanna curl up against it while it's doing whatever like a cat #want it to pet me #want to hug it so tight #if i could just hold it for a bit i would absolutely learn to purr instantly and proceed to do so for the rest of my life #im so full of love it hurts

[ghosttownwherenoonegoes]

Anyone got any Uncle Wayne or Eddie Munson comfort? I need someone to tell me that what I'm dealing with every day without a break (a very shitty home environment I cannot afford to escape) isn't my forever and I'm going to be okay. And that I'm loved.💔

#my coworker today came to ask me how i was and i finally let myself vent a bit about home #and she said i need a break from everything and everyone #and i told her we both know i wont #ive been telling people im fine for days but cryinf in secret #and shes the first one to come find me because she knows im not #and now i just wanna curl up and cry lmao #the more i talk abt how bad home is the worse i feel

[krispiecake]

i will never forget u two <3

#tumblr wont let me reply to anyone on my posts but i wanna say thank you to the people who replied to it #skylo (the smaller one) passed away in 2021 and putting lupus down on monday is just so hard #like these are my BABIES you know they were my first real childhood pets #skylo was 13 when she passed and lupus is 15! they got so old especially for dalmations snd they had wonderful lives #they were so sweet and so caring with all my siblings as they grew from babies to toddlers to now #ive got these pictures of my youngest sister just hanging off both of their necks and climbing them #and they were always so wonderful with them #one of my sisters played connect the dots of my lupus once and it took AGES to get all the pen off him #skylo once knocked a fence panel out with her forehead because she ran so fast for a pigeon and didnt stop in time #they were each other’s best friends #and skylo would always sprawl out and take all the space so lupus had to curl up in a little ball #i remember when this started getting bad for me and i would stay home from school #when i got the house to myself or really late at night when i couldnt sleep i would let the dogs up on the sofa #even though they were never allowed on there #and i would sit in the middle witb each on one side both their heads on my lap #or i would lay on the sofa in an s shape and one would sit behind my legs and one would sit in front of my chest #god im gonna miss them both so fucking much like i grew up with these dogs #losing skylo was so hard #im gonna cry so so much #but we’re gonna take him on a walk in the woods or in the river #and we’re gonna get him pigs ears because those are his favourite treat #and im gonna sit with him all day when i go back home on sunday #and hes gonna know he is so loved and treasured just like skylo knew

[kordbot]

as the weather gets colder and the seasonal depression kicks in I learn that the depression I had throughout summer was not summer seasonal depression but in fact just regular depression

#also i might be feeling so low battery because of. all the stress HDGJFJFJF #im just so ouuuu i barely have time for anything in the last couple days #and next week will be just as bad #but at least i dont feel like crying all the time like i did the last couple days which is! an improvement #if i wasnt so so tired i might be actually feeling like i can pull through all this #but alas ! eepy #and i slept like 10 hours today..... #DONT fucking tell me i must have slept too much there is NO optimal amount of sleep hours for me. stop that. im always tired #i just love complaining. about to have another coffee but theres a 50/50 chance it will only make me more sleepy #the other 50% is that it will make me more anxious <3 #i just wanna curl up in bed and sleep ouuughhh but i must go to the stables.... #The Beast™ hasnt worked in like 3 days. she needs to move her ass lest she goes insane

[tngrace]

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#im so done #I'm tired #I'm over the rain #and i wanna curl up in a corner and cry #just gotta get thru tonight and tomorrow night #probably delete later #just ignore me #had to get this out somewhere b4 i said the wrong thing to someone #last night really fucked me over and now i cant get out of my funk

[olli-online]

idk how much i believe ill ever be able to have normal functioning friendships in my life

#like im not even saying this in a self deprecating way or whatever like there's genuinely so much wrong with me that i cant fix on my own #ughhhhh makes me wanna curl up into a ball and cry im cursed i crave friendship so much and yet im unable to experience it without serious #problems on my part #i think it hurts more that its something ive been working on since i was like 14 and i know ive made progress but i still sometimes feel #like i havent fixed the main issues like sure im better at managing shit and recognition but its still something that eats away at me #id trade anything for a mentally sound brain

[stayatsam]

ah... ok... (vent in tags i need to shoot this into the void)

tw illness/family death etc

#sam crying #i was handling it well for a whole week since i found out my mom's little brother is dying of cancer #this side of the family has already fallen apart but its really like the universe keeps digging a deeper grave for everyone #and im just. sitting here upset and not sure what to do with myself #i just wanna curl up in a ball #sorry this is a heavy thing to just say but i dont really want to broach the topic to my friends right now #ill probably delete this in an hr

[ollieollieoxenfreeee]

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#golly gee i cant wait to go back to school and develop feelings for a boy again only to get rejected for the 10th time #im not well rn #my last relationship was such a disaster and i miss being in love so bad #ive never had anyone i could hug or kiss who didnt do terrible things to me #god #i just wanna #curl up into a ball and cry

[ratvich]

sits really normal and not at all upset

#vent #dont rb #ughhhhhhhhhhh #be me . ask for math help . get toyed with and made fun of . #and now hes probably sad or whatever UGH im so upset #i thought he understood how much i dislike math and everything surrounding it and that that would mean hed actually help without being mean #but i guess not ok thanks #like . dude youve seen me cry over math so many fucking times did u really think being mean like that wouldnt affect me ??? like ? hello ? #and now my math groove thrown off -_- ill try to get back on track but i just wanna curl up with buttercup and cry #whateverrrrrr i dont care i dont care & it doesnt matter #maybe i shouldnt have left the call although in my defense i was one second away from crying #and also i did cry . i am crying #UGH whatever