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imjustalluring · 4 days

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Sometimes I stop and think about where I am now and how I got here.

I went through so much fighting to be exactly where I am now.

I wasted tears, time and energy on people who didn't deserve any of it,

I had my heart broken, used and bruised to points I didn't think of ever recover from,

I had lost all hope.

But then I found him.

He was everything I ever hoped I would find and more.

He is the man I dreamed of.

He is the man I had waited for.

And he is worth it.

He gave me hope I thought I had lost.

It never worked with anyone else because it was always meant to be him.

Everything I had been through led me to him, and I'd go through it all again if it meant I'd find him at the end of the tunnel.

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imjustalluring · 2 years

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When I Say I'm Done, I Mean It

You said you didn't love me,

So you broke up with me.

You came back a few weeks later,

Said you loved me,

And you lied because you were scared.

You broke up with me again,

Said you weren't ready.

You came back saying sorry,

Said I was too good to be true ,

That you didn't want to get hurt.

You broke up with me again,

Once you got to Guam,

Said you didn't want me.

You came back again,

Telling me you missed me,

That you need me.

After a few weeks,

Of all the back and forth,

After all the heartbreak,

You put me through,

I broke up with you.

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imjustalluring · 2 years

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It doesn't matter

It doesn't matter what I do or say or try

Because

At the end of the day

It's never going to be me.

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imjustalluring · 2 years

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I think Ive reached my limit...

I've been pushed down and gotten back up more times than I can count.

I've heard all the lies that could be told.

I've had my heart broken time and time again.

I've been let down.

I've been disappointed.

I've reached my limit.

I've lost hope.

I've given up on love.

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imjustalluring · 3 years

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My mind is a labyrinth.

It is full of twists and turns and dead-ends,

All meant to deter thieves that wish to steal my most precious gift.

I had faced countless villains,

Each falling away with a roll of the eye or a click of the tongue,

Losing themselves in the darkness of a wrong turn.

But you were not like the others.

You were different.

You walked into the labyrinth as if it were a familiar place,

You met each twist and turn with one of your own.

You were not frightened by the darkness,

No, it was a deep caress that willed you forward and guided you rightly.

You did not wish to steal what wasn't yours,

Rather, you wished to help guard it.

You wished to learn it, admire it, and cherish it.

As soon as your eyes finally met that which you sought,

The darkness was swept out by its long hidden glow as it began to beat once more.

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imjustalluring · 2 years

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I miss you like crazy and it is utterly heartbreaking.

I wish I didn't feel this way because all you ever did was throw me away.

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imjustalluring · 2 years

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My head and my heart can't seem to stop arguing over the words versus the actions.

"He said he cares," my heart cries out.

"But he hasn't done anything about it," my head shouts back.

I am utterly torn.

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imjustalluring · 3 years

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I took a deep breath, looked up, smiled, and said, "it's ok."

As soon as your back was turned, I was hit with this ache in my chest. I looked down to see a hole where my heart should be.

I fell to my knees as I weakly cried out, "what have you done?"

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imjustalluring · 3 years

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I want to love you.

Why won't you let me?

Is my love not enough?

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imjustalluring · 3 years

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I didn't realize I was on a high until you walked away and I came crashing down.

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imjustalluring · 4 years

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They say that you usually find someone when you least expect it and I didn't believe that could happen to me.

But.. then you happened to me

I never in a million years expected you. You came out of left field- caught me totally off guard, and you continue to surprise me every day.

You.. you just.. surprise me.

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imjustalluring · 4 years

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At first, I was angry and hurt.

Now, I look back and laugh.

How did someone as narcissistic as you, ever cause me such trouble?

#number 4 #spilled poetry #spilled heart #spilled words #spilled thoughts #spilled emotions #spilled tears #spilled quotes #spilled feelings #the one that got away #the best thing i never had #thank god you blew it #lovers #love #i almost loved you #i almost lost my shit #ImJustAlluring

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imjustalluring · 4 years

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Its frustrating, isn't it?

Wanting so badly to just get over someone and finding that you're not. You're just not.

It makes me angry. I don't get angry very often but this.. this really upsets me.

You had this hold on me and I put your dumbass on a pedestal for reasons I no longer believe in. I thought you were the one. I was convinced you were the love of my life, my forever, my happy ever after.

I was wrong.

You did NOT deserve to be on that damn pedestal and you most certainly did fucking NOT deserve any of the love that I gave you.

I saw clarity. I made my decision on Friday February 14th 2020 when I saw you post about a new girl. Which is ironic because your empty promises still rung fresh in my ears, your touch still lingered on my skin, our relationship wasn't even cold and yet you found someone else to give all the things you promised me but never gave me.

Thats when I knew that I was better off and I felt free. I removed you from my life and everything seemed to be getting better.

But you still creep into my mind and I would rather you left me the fuck alone.

It is incredibly frustrating to finally know the truth and still be held hostage by the lies.

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imjustalluring · 4 years

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My mind is a mess and my heart is constantly in pieces. I am figuratively and sometimes literally torn between my head and my heart. I couldn't take it any more.

I was alone, I was okay with it. I was content with it. I had decided that the only way for me to heal was for me to build my walls up higher and to never let anyone in- they would only leave anyway.

Then you showed up at my door step, and you somehow got past my walls.

"How did you do it," I wondered, "how did you get in?"

Then it hit me:

You never left.

#blue eyes #healing #heartbreaking #heartbreak #heartbroken #broken #i still think about you #i love him #i miss you #i loved you #spilled poetry #love poem #overcoming #ImJustAlluring

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imjustalluring · 4 years

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You are water,

Ever changing.

Never in the same state.

Some days,

You are hard,

Cold as ice.

And other days,

You disappear,

Vanish into thin air.

But most days,

You surround me,

In you, I drown.

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imjustalluring · 4 years

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You let me down again, I hate to say it, but, I'm not surprised.

#number 4 #you thought #you totally played me #spilled thoughts #spilled emotions #spilled poetry #spilled heart #spilled words #spilled everything #no tears for you #no tears today #no surprise really #no surprise there #you'll be back #they always come back #ImJustAlluring

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