#impostor of the vent

[lovelywingsart]

'I'm a cage, I'm a prison for what no one sees

Ashamed like I'm sleeping with the enemy

No one believes me, but I'm six feet deep

It's a monster made of memories

It's alive, like a parasite inside of me

And it feeds of the trauma of what used to be

But there's no shred of evidence 'cause I don't bleed

From this monster made of memories'

'Monster Made of Memories' - Citizen Soldier

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Trauma fucking sucks, man...

Karl agrees.

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//Did I just use Karl as a venting device?

Yes.

Did it make me feel better?

Also yes. Kinda.

I'm just... really tired, honestly... The song hit hard about a week ago and I've had this in my head since.

Yes, Heisenberg is a 'villain'... But I'll be damned if I don't understand.//

#i project on the poor guy may as well vent with him too #im just... really fucking tired #alot has been going on #borderline incapacitating impostor syndrome AND major depression at once #my c-ptsd has genuinely flared up a few times from bullshit and ive been hella aggressive the past week #also just other shit........ im tired #i just wanna sleep #resident evil #resident evil village #re8 #karl heisenberg #heisenberg #lord heisenberg #re8 heisenberg #lovelywingsart

[wendig0ld]

The second impostor~

#Among Us #oc #impostor #crewmate #Cherry #White #Orange #vent

[nell0-0]

Too tired to draw, what is this curse. I wanna draw so badly but can't even focus on the screen, augh

#talk tag #rant #i guess? #i feel super bad about complaining in here #but where else would I go with it #I just got a stressful job and keep messing up #not the job itself. but relationships with coworkers #it's so stressful bc I don't wanna come across as mean #it's just my face/voice when I'm not constantly making sure it's soft and nice #I don't wanna be mean #can't just go and say “it's the neurodivergence” #since I don't even know wtf is wrong with me #<- afraid of therapists #bc if I go to even one therapists and disregards my struggles I may just cry. and impostor syndrome again #rambling in the tags #will delete this later #i just needed to get this out #I also keep infodumping to clients and not sure how that's gonna fly with the bosses #...probably not well #english is hard today wtf #tw vent

[sus-amogus-bot]

#2023-09-27 #sus amogus bot #amogus #sus #among us #impostor #imposter #crewmate #dog #doggo #puppy #wheaten terrier #pet #pets #cute pets #vented

[bea-trician]

Martyr Complex: a short comic about Joan of Arc, Saint Sebastian, parasocial attachment and the Mandela Catalogue.

I’ve been working on this horrible little thing since August, and I put too much effort into it not to post it. False Sebastian wants his audience.

I’m now commemorating it as the last thing I made before I finally went to see a god damn psychiatrist. My first appointment is tomorrow.

Please don’t tell Gerard that I made this.

#digital art #vent comic #digital comic #horror art #horror comic #tw blood #tw self destruction #tw self harm #tw gore #religious imagery #religious trauma #illustration #parasocial relationships #parasocial behavior #impostor syndrome #the mandela catalogue #tw body horror #body horror #distorted faces #is this all the proper content warnings yet #no i am not proud of what i did here #but if i want the thought of it gone i need to put it down in image #otherwise i will never not be haunted by it #joan of arc #saint sebastian #catholic guilt #mcr

[thethirdpapa]

But also I know im a small acc and nobody will see this. But I'm so tired of being alive and being put on a pedestal I can't even relate to because no matter what I do or create it will be horrible and not good enough in my eyes and this is not just some "pick me ' bs

#Vent #vent #TW vent #vent tw #Impostor syndrome #Not feeling good enough #Not good enough #Depression #TW suicidal ideation

[theotherseapancakes]

i put a CUT HERE thanks tumblr

thinking abt how much it sucks to be disabled and care about the world and its people. i want to do THINGS. I want to help people. "but this is low effort" if youre abled, yeah. "but this is easy! just do thing!" if you don't have seizures and brain damage, yeah. It's just frustrating. Feeling very constantly stressed abt the state of the world rn and ik its self-harmy to be like... constantly looking at stuff i cant do much abt, but i also dont want to put neg stuff on my dash bc if i panic any harder ill be seizing more often... honestly i just really wish my combination of issues wasn't so prevalent as to leave me beyond bedridden half the time. I think about how many artists have had MUCH more time to practice or work. "but you dont work" no, i do. I have to be my own advocate, see doctors, take care of my body, take my meds right, get scans, it never ends. It's so tiring. Being disabled is a different kind of job and i wish more people would acknowledge that. I get a SMALL govt stipend but most of it goes to my bills or food. I live okay enough ofc, but like... I dunno, i feel i'd be less fucked up if i could go for walks but (laughs in american infrastructure being wheelchair unfriendly).

#neg; #hrgh #disability shit; #this post doesnt have a point rly #venting; #i just... wish i could do more. #and i can't. #and people always say “then its not for y ou” #but that doesnt stop those kinds of posts from affecting us #and ive been holding this in for what feels like forever #i want to make vent art but i hurt SO bad lately i just. i can barely draw well. im trying to force it #frustrated. angry even #the impostor syndrome doesnt help tbh #ppl say they like my art and im like ITS SO BAD. #I CAN DO BETTER #and i could if i was well probably #if i was well i could do a lot more #i just want to write and draw but both are so hard. #this isnt me vagueing at anyone btw im just frustrated #being sick like this makes me feel so gd useless

[daz4i]

it's so hard being a person who needs to be the best at everything when you are slightly below average at best at any given department

#i don't think ppl who tell me i'm good at x thing (that includes things like looks or voice etc btw) are lying or anything #but i do think they're biased and their love skews their perception of me. bc i mean. no one else can see it after all #and i hate that as a kid i was propped up as better than others bc it really did give me this complex while growing up lol #joining a gifted class and finding out i'm not actually particulary smart compared to them #failing auditions as an adult or messing up things i did get into #like this is why i don't like it when ppl say i have an impostor syndrome like noooo i literally do suck 😭 #i'm not saying this in an 'i'm blind to my own abilities' way i'm just saying that compared to most people i am below average 😭 #being better at a thing than the average person who. doesn't do the thing. doesn't mean much when i'm among the worst in those who do #and it's really discouraging from getting better at things too. bc i feel so inherently shitty at everything that it feels pointless #(esp given that i DID put years of effort into certain things yet i still suck or i lost my ability to do them with time) #so it's easier to not try. if i'm gonna be the worst anyway yknow? may as well save the effort and the heartache of trying and failing #(getting better is all about failing over and over yada yada ik all that shit i'm just not built to handle it. mentally) #vent #accidentally. bc i started rambling. bc i'm in some jealousy fueled rage rn sorry

[graphics-cafe]

no one talks about how exhausting it is to be a #girlboss all the time

#:( #like on one hand im proud of myself for finding smth im good at. im finally getting confident and i have less impostor syndrome than ever #on the other hand. ive been working non stop. i could really use some rest. but there is always so much to be done #vent

[rubiatinctorum]

Dr. Seward voting Dr. Van Helsing as impostor today huh

#rubia speaks #Dracula #Dracula Daily #Dr. Seward #Van Helsing #among us #sus #impostor #van helsing vented in medbay

[seraphblood-art]

you're a copy of him, and i am a copy of you.

I drew how i see myself in the headspace (left) and my source (right).

the feeling is odd. It's like a game of broken telephone; the original human Adam is gone, replaced by a near-perfect approximation, and that doppelganger then becomes an original entity of his own, because I stem from him through introjection.

i am twice the deceit that he is.

— Adam

#mandela catalogue #the mandela catalogue #tmc adam #adam murray #traumagenic system #traumagenic osdd #introject #impostor syndrome #vent tag

[n0maku]

Red, stabby, dark, floating hands.... wait, which one is which? suggestion from @zerosocialskillz

#madness combat #madness combat hank #fnf impostor #nomakuart #nomakuposts #i thought really hard about which fnf mod char to draw for this prompt #and then i remembered a friend doing the vs impostor mod #i find the similarities funny #guys hank vented vote them out.... #i honestly haven't done that many mods myself #most of the time i just watch buddies play them... #anyway. went ham on the lighting with this doodle. oops #knives #madcom anniversary requests

[magnetic-dogz]

Modern Seinfeld episode that's just the characters playing an Among Us match

#cookie.txt #george doesn't get impostor once but he gets voted off every single time anyway #kramer kills somebody and immediately vents and then when another person confrtonts him about it he says ''well that's weird.''

[ziptie-bouquet]

Went to a music festival with a friend today. I SEVERELY underestimated how loud a music festival is and I didn't bring earplugs :( I ended up standing at least 100m away from any stage to not get very uncomfortable. My friend wanted to get as near as the speakers as possible. At one point after he got out of a crowd I struggled to find him and I had to get closer to the crowd. In just 5 minutes I looked noticeably upset and my friend noted how I didn't talk to him much after that. I ended up telling him to do his own thing. I know it's not his fault I can't handle anything loud but I wish he had been more understanding towards me, considering he has sensory issues (other senses) too. Anyway music festivals suck.

#vent #listen your girl might have been considering for the past years that she's maybe on the spectrum #can't stop feeling like I'm fabricating those reactions to fit an autistic archetype and yadda yadda impostor syndrome

[cannibalmukbang]

the thing that sucks about being a creator is that the audience does not and cannot share the same emotional attachment to the art I create. like yeah people like it whatever but they don't know....they weren't there, man!! they didn't have to draw the backrgounds....they didn't have to send the actors emails.... they haven't SEEN all the mental breakdowns I had getting this to a finished work!!! It was at least 3 for kingmakr season 2 by the way. it was at least 3 mental breakdowns.

and the fucking EUPHORIA that comes with like. despite it all, GETTING THERE...it's something that doesn't translate, you know? and like I hope the passion comes across in the quality but if it's not someone's thing it's not thier thing. For everyone else on earth, even the rest of WANA, it's like. that's neat! you did it! but to me it's like I climbed everest or some shit. nobody else is in my head. nobody else knows the true extent of how much I both wanted to give up and could NOT give up under any circumstances. 9 months of work. drafting and redrafting. learning the craft. plotting. continuity edits. casting. paying real human money for actors and sound design and music and shit. I cannot stress enough at least 3 mental breakdowns. it is so so so so so so frustrating that I've only got 45 minutes of story to show for all that effort right now. It's gonna feel so good to have season 2 all lined up and available but until that point comes I am going to be screaming and ripping my skin off.

I do not envy v*vziep*p at all for any reason but man. moments like these I kinda do wish I had thousands of unstable emo kids making insane fan content of my work and being extremely not normal about the stuff I make. I think that would justify the effort I put in.

#I've got whatever the opposite of impostor syndrome is #text a ba post #vent post