#in my defence two things

[somegrumpynerd]

This little interaction made me so happy! Killer really fought through Dream to give Cross his necklace back

Asjlkhdkgkd I'm so glad you liked it!! I had fun putting a little story into that one ^^

And, because I am normal and don't think about these guys for hours every day, here's some backstory:

When Cross first joined, Killer actually took to him pretty quickly (Dust and Horror did not get warm welcomes). Which is to say he immediately started flocking to Cross to annoy him and compete with him on missions. Cross didn't have the benefit of knowing Killer already to see these were affectionate annoyances, so to him Killer was just some guy who had a problem and wouldn't leave him alone.

During that mission, Nightmare was calling a retreat when he put a hand to his chest and realised the heart locket was gone. Killer saw him looking all around frantically and had a good idea what was lost, since it was the one thing Cross would absolutely not part with since he joined. So, Killer ran back out towards the stars to look for it, because why learn self preservation now. It was the first thing to convince Cross that Killer actually was being (relatively) friendly, despite all the annoyances.

And also, a doodle of the afterwards of that picture

because it's probably the only time he's managed to get Killer to shut up lol

#Ask #blinddreams24 #Truce au #Thank you!!! I'm really genuinely so happy people like my silly little comic ^^ #Sorry you got a whole dissertation in response I just like thinking about these two in particular lol #Cross's locket is very important to him he Does Not mess around when it comes to that thing #It also goes with my hc that Killer is lowkey touchstarved as hell #He has not had many hugs in his lifetime as Killer so the casual affection without having to taunt someone into a fight was game changing #Cross kind of became second in charge of watching for Killer's stages as they became friends #Also in Dream's defence he thought Killer was charging back in for round 2 #When he just scooped up a necklace and ran off Dream felt bad for shooting but it was partly on Killer for searching with a knife out #Oh my god this is like an essay I'm so sorry I can't shut up about these guys #UTDR #UTMV

[cometnoodle]

thought itd be fun to put edelgard in (vaguely) historical outfits from 1180s-ish, byzantine-ish and the holy roman emperors' coronation regalia lol

#fire emblem #fire emblem three houses #fe3h #edelgard von hresvelg #fe edelgard #fire emblem art #digital art #art #fanart #my art #artist on tumblr #k so like the reason why i use these specifically because i rarely or never see her in these #i know the 1180s one doesn't look like it fits her lmao #i chose it because TECHNICALLY speaking thats when three houses took place #byzantine because literally adrestia is modeled after the byzantines from fashion and some architecture #and yet most people never bothered to put the two together #the regalia because idk her first name is german and germany is one of the nations that still use the two headed eagle #also it looks so ridiculous and gaudy like look it up and you'll understand #yeah i know the first two are not super accurate but in MY defence sources are pretty iffy about things

[mediapen]

T H E E X T E N D E D M E T A P H O R .

agustín gómez-acros, the carnivorous lamb (trans. william rodarmor) // [x] // sam sax, ‘RIBS’ // [x] // [x] // louise glück, ‘persephone the wanderer’ // louise erdrich, 'fooling god' // [x] // b: william bearhart, ‘at the dinner table with god and my father’ // richard siken, ‘dr. jones, magical thinking, and the divine’ // margaret atwood, ‘half-hanged mary’ // jenny xie, ‘postmemory’ // akwaeke emezi, freshwater // connie voisine, '“the altar” by george herbert’ // traci brimhall, rookery // richard siken, 'hansel,' in kate bernheimer (ed.) brothers and beasts // ted hughes, 'being christlike.'

#GOD AS FATHER AS GOD AS FATHER AS GOD AS FATHER AS GOD AS FATHER AS GOD AS FATHER AS GOD AS FATHER AS GOD AS FATHER AS GOD AS FATHER AS GOD #web weaving #carlos sainz jr #carlos sainz sr #cs #m #z #sorry for self plagiarising.🤙. in my defence i was never done talking about this #been waiting for it to brew for six months and it birthed itself in two hours. baddabing baddaboom #another month another one of these things. Sorry 🤪

[dawningfairytale]

noel and mischa watch the eurovision song contest together no i will not be taking criticism at this time

#rtc #ride the cyclone #mischa bachinski #noel gruber #nischa #because #it reminds mischa of home and his family #and noel loves doing two things: #being there there for mischa #and The Drama #yes i am projecting that’s the point of this blog #eurovision headcanon #this post was inspired by: talia reminding me of eurovision #and me thinking “wow ukraine’s entries are either eurotrash chaos or beautifully complex and tragic” #and mischa is both #rip mischa you would have loved stefania by kalush orchestra #thank you for coming to my ted talk #my apologies to my three followers who had no idea this would be my latest obsession #in my defence: neither did i

[limelocked]

So they followed through with those threats huh

Al-shifa is iirc the biggest hospital in gaza

How long til Israel tweets that they killed a Hamas operative, of course not mentioning the civilian lives offered for that theoretical militant

#palestine #al jazeera #it’s al-shifa and Al-quds I think and I can’t remember which is which at the moment but it also literally is not important #it’s a fucking hospital #you don’t bomb those! #self defence my ass #gnashing my teeth because calling my reps to tell them that I support Palestine will only get them to maybe call for a ceasefire #and calling for a ceasefire and a ceasefire happening are two entirely different things #not like Netanyahu is gonna respect calls for ceasefire when the momentum on his genocide is going so well and America is still behind him #saw videos of the attack against my will :)

[nobody-expects-the-inquisitorius]

You know when you don’t realise how much something was affecting you until it’s over? Yeah

#i can breathe again #it’s just. #i’ve gotten so much better at it #but my defence mechanism is still to back down and placate people #even when they’re in the wrong #idk if that’s from my family or secondary school or both #but like. oof #i can’t be the therapist friend right now i can’t #i have to deal with everyone else’s bullshit and then i feel like the bad one for not helping them #this is ridiculous #but at least i have two less things to worry about now. i’m free from those thank fuck

[zozo-01]

To Love the Sun (To Be Stuck in the Dark)

Originally, 'To Fight So Hard (To Lose So Quietly)' was going to be just one part. Buttttt @ejunkiet unintentionally gave me the idea for a part two, so here we are!

This is the complete work for the last WIP Wednesday and I apologize to everyone who found that really lil piece of writing cute. It was never going to be happy with me.

CW: Mentions of Major Character Death, Hurt/No Comfort, Angst 

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Sam was making chocolate chip pancakes, just the way they liked them. With extra chocolate chips and the sweetest whip cream to top it all off. Darlin’ claims that they never had problems at the dentist, but Sam loves to call bullshit on them. 

“What? I swear I was never shit on by the dentist! In fact, they always complimented me on my teeth.” Darlin’ waltzed over to Sam, wrapping their arms around his neck. They tilted their head to the side with a saccharine grin, mock gasping at the accusation. “Samuel Collins. Are you calling me a liar?,” Darlin’ teased. Sam sighed before holding his Darlin’ by their waist. 

“My name isn’t short for Samuel, Darlin’, it’s just Sam. And why yes, I am calling you a liar, you menace. I refuse to believe with all the junk food you eat, your teeth aren’t rotting like a corpse. If I was your dentist, I’d charge you extra for every sweet treat you eat.”

Darlin’ gave a giggle that Sam swears were the sounds from the harps in heaven. “Well, maybe it’s more fun to say ‘Samuel Collins’ instead of just ‘Sam Collins’,” replied cheekily, with a smirk to match. “But, I promise that the dentist has never said anything about my teeth. Now can you pretty please make me pancakes.”

Sam rolled his eyes at Darlin’ pout. Who knew with the reputation Darlin’ held, that they can be so… adorable. He much prefers the puppy dog look they have over their usual wolf glare.

He went off to the kitchen to make Darlin’s beloved pancakes, with Darlin’ trailing close behind him. Once Sam started to gather the ingredients onto the counter, they hugged him from behind and started to gently kiss his shoulders and neck.

Sam let out a low chuckle before saying, “maybe I should start calling you ‘sugar’ for that sweet tooth you have.” Darlin’ stopped what they were doing and let out a scoff. They squeezed tighter before responding, “no, I like Darlin’ much better. I might think you’re angry at me if you don’t call me Darlin’.”

Sam squeezed an arm they had wrapped around his waist. A silent affirmation that he won’t be mad at them. “Sammy?,” Darlin' called out, their voice muffled due to their face buried in his back. Sam let out a quiet sound that prompted Darlin’ to continue. “Thank you for the pancakes.” 

Sam knew it wasn’t just the pancakes. It was for the fact that he was willing to help and heal a complete stranger. It was for the fact that he cared for them in times when they didn’t even care about themselves. For how he became a beacon of comfort. A place for Darlin’ to put down their weapons and armour. 

Sam turned around in Darlin’s arms and held their face in his hands, looking at them in their eyes. “Darlin’, you never have to thank me for anything, alright? I’ll always be here for you.”

“Forever and always?”

“Forever and always.”

Sam smiled to himself after replaying that memory. Happiness and excitement filled his body in a way only his wolf can do to him. He became elated when he remembers that Darlin’ was supposed to come by today. Hence why he was making chocolate chip pancakes.

Sam questioned if he has ever been this happy about anything. He thought about memories on his family’s ranch, his acceptance at D.A.M.N. and the friends he has made along the way, and nothing he has experienced can compare to how he felt about them. 

Who would have thought that a shifter trespassing on clan territory would make him feel like everything was worth it? Like it was destiny for him to be turned and meet Darlin’ later in life?

The world has put Sam Collins through a lot, but the one thing he will forever be grateful for is being able to feel the light of the sun again. 

A knock on the door shook Sam out of his thoughts. ‘Finally, they decided to show up. I was starting to get worried about them.’ Sam left the pancakes to cook on the stove and went to the door to open it. The closer he got to the door, the quicker his heart pounded. That was something he needed to get in control of before Darlin’ started to tease him for it. “Aren’t you supposed to be undead? How the hell do you still have a heartbeat?” he imagines them saying.

Sam stood in front of the door, with one thought going through his head.

‘The love of my life, my mate, my eternal sunshine, is standing behind the door. And I have the honour and privilege to have my house become a home for them. Our home.’

Sam opened the door.

It was not Darlin’ on the other side.

“David? What are you doing here?” Darlin’s Alpha was standing on his porch. His hair is messy and his eyes are bloodshot. David’s hands, usually firm and steady, were fidgeting. Like he didn’t know what to do with them. On his face was not his usual frown, the one that the majority of the public would see on a good day. Sam had seen this frown once before, and that was when the official death count from the Inversion was released to the public.

And that was a day of mourning.

With a raspy voice, David responded, “hello Sam. Is it alright if I come inside?” Sam moved to the side, gesturing to the Alpha to come in and make himself at home.

David walked in and sat down on the couch. He put his elbows on his knees and hands on his face, unable to look the vampire in the eye. “I assume that you were waiting for my packmate to come over, correct?” The way David asked the question unnerved Sam. His voice was shaky and his eyes were shining with tears. ‘What the hell happened to Darlin’ that made David Shaw about to cry?’ 

David was a man who seldom showed emotions. The last time he cried in front of another person that wasn’t his mate or late father was when his best friend was dying in his arms.

‘No, no, no! Darlin’ was tough. Fuck, they’re nickname growing up was ‘Tank’ for God’s sake!’

‘They can’t… there’s no way…’

David Shaw broke into sobs and Sam’s heart stopped.

His voice stuttered as he forced himself to say the next few sentences. “Fuck, I’m so sorry Sam. Quinn got to them on the way here and by the time we got there, they were already gone and there was no saving them.” The tears wouldn’t stop falling from David’s face, no matter how much he tried to stop them. No matter how much he wished this was another dream.

The smell of burnt chocolate wafted across the room as a realization occurred.

Sam Collins had the world he loves so very much ripped away from him again.

And for the second time in his life, Sam Collins was forbidden from feeling (his) sunlight on him again.

#i did ittttt #i got the angst out of my system (for nowww) #ironically the day that i posted the original fic #jason spezza retired #so you can argue that i wrote this because the leafs broke my heart (again) #but i digressss #also thank ejunkiet for giving me the idea and encouragement to make a part two #although you did this unintentionally #in your defence it doesnt take much to get me going on an angst train #maybeeeee ill write an actual fluff thing #but thats a hugeee maybe #zo writes tingz #this is zo speaking #redacted sam #redacted david #redacted asmr

[pioneer-over-c]

Emblem Ike bonus week? No. BOOK 1 BONUS WEEK. NO IKES ALLOWED

I was originally using a fun defence team and hoping to see some creativity in the replays, but then people kept just throwing Ike in unsupported and ending turn, so I revoked their fun privileges with this (still beatable) theme team. Kind of sad no-one experienced the warping Valter jumpscare behind Lyon... maybe he'll have his turn next Chaos season... (also I forgot to change Vigarde's defensive special when I changed the rest of his build, it was supposed to be ready after one attack lol)

Music: Cosmic Fragmentation - Sparxe vs. takeherotei

#feh #shout out to the last defence match for breaking my perfect winstreak against ike on both offence and defence lol. they played v well #this valter team is the jankiest thing ever but it's literally the most fun i've ever had in ar #i actually used him today in light season cause his hp is so high that he still gets below 75% with two light mythic bonuses #got one team with arcane luin+bonfire (for tanks) and one with his prf+no quarter (for aoe nukes - his prf has no minimum hp requirement) #it's like. not optimal in the slightest esp cause i don't have many mythics to choose from in the first place #but MAN is it fun to do. valtersweep real again

[picnokinesis]

Oh my god its only three weeks and then Campervan Part 6 is finished, it feel like yesterday when I read the first chapter :D

augh MOOD i'm like. sat here side-eyeing part 7 nervously (it's gonna be a while until that one's posting, kids, sorry!) but aaahhhh I am really really excited to post these last three chapters!

#i had an entire SIX MONTHS to write and i did like....10k #it's PITIFUL #but. in my defence i have written a few things in that time #it's just two of those things were scripts rip #we'll seeeeeeee how the script call goes #i will most likely not get past stage one but yknow. that's how she goes #still worth it #taka replies #anon #campervan au

[dandyshucks]

I've been so focused on the robot/human romance in this audiobook I've been listening to that I.... forgot about the whole plot where they have to rescue the grandfather... 😭

#they finally kiss and i looked at the time left in the audiobook and was confused why there were three more hours SBHDDKL #im so .... #IN MY DEFENCE (if i may defend myself at all LMAO) . this romance is like... specifically catered to me i swear to god #everything about it .... its making me want to make an OC just so i can have the same thing going on w a robot BDHFKDL #like. spoilers for the unnamed book - the robot was built to kill all humans #and then he fought back against his programming and just barely escaped being scrapped #and then lost all his memories bc that all got corrupted when he was put into a junkyard #and then the MC human found him and patched him up and brought him ''back to life'' so to speak #and now the robot is SOOO devoted to him and super protective and also so strong 😭 #and also SO grumpy fhfjdlsl #and man. i am a sucker for that shit 😭 DONT LOOK AT MEEEE (i say as i write this all out on a public blog post) #this book btw was so badly written at the beginning that i almost gave up on it but i was intrigued enough to suffer through #it was like two hours of ''oh my god this sucks so bad. i hate every second of this but i want to see where it goes'' #AND THANK GOODNESS I SAT THROUGH IT. i am almost irritated by how much i enjoy it now SBDJDL #dandy.cmd

[salcreus]

More Than FantaSea

Apollo Justice had only two things in mind while booking a seven-day cruise along the Pacific Coast—rest and relaxation. However, when the details of his upcoming adventure include a compatibility test designed to help match him with that “perfect someone,” his peace is shattered.

With one email, Apollo realizes he’s made a huge mistake, and the fee he’ll have to pay to cancel means he can’t turn back now.

Hello! Super excited to share the thing me , u3pxx (u3px.x on insta) , and Leave_the_cravat have been working on for the 2022 klapollo bomb! > > LINK TO FANFIC < <

My specific artworks will be posted whenever the chapters where they are used are out!

#klapollomb22 #klapollo minibang 2022 #apollo justice #klavier gavin #god den drew so much and cait wrote so much and here i am like >:))) i drew two whole things!!!! #ghdgh in my defence i was busy w work ^-^ ! #ok jokes aside this was really fun and man i cant wait for all of it to be launched and out there and ouuuuggghh this was so much funn #i wanna do it again NOW #also so much i can read now im so happy #scheduled post :) <3 #also if you see any mistakes in the chapters posted spare cait they were editing til 5 am gdfgn <3

[juice-boxy]

Skipping class so I can study for the exam I have tomorrow #what the fuck are priorities

#IN MY DEFENCE #i stayed up til 2 am stressing about it #IM STILL STRESSED ABOIT IT #and i HAVE LIKE. 3 ANNOTATED BIBLIOGRAPHIES AND RESEARCH PROPOSALS AND TWO ESSAYS DUE SOON #YAY COLLEGE💀 #but im hoping to study early today so i can do spooky things later in the evening fjfkfjb #juiceboxy speaks

[who-the-fuck-is-sennalye]

hang on— hang on— how has this just occurred to me— the guys who made Wednesday, they know Goody was a title, right? I read The Crucible and if there's one thing I got from that book it's that Goody was just what pagans called women. Like no your ancestor's name was in all likelihood not Goody Addams that's just what everyone called her cause everyone was called Goody Something.

#if they mentioned this at all in the show i missed it completely #in my defence i didn't see the first or last two episodes and i wasn't really paying attention to what i did watch #but considering i don't even think they tried to give her a name other than Goody i don't think they did mention it #and yes this is the one problem i choose to have with the show out of all of them #I've seen two episodes of the addams family bite me (or whatever) #anyway not tagging this with fandom tags cause fandoms tend to get annoyed when you do shit like that #and i don't feel like ruining the show for people who do enjoy it that's just not my thing #yes this was spurred on by the will wood wednesday rant why else do you think I'd bother thinking critically about media #i don't think critically about media that's not my thing either #(that's kind of a joke. i only really bother thinking critically about media I'm really into #i don't think about one of Netflix series why do you think this tag list is so long) #hm. that's probably what they want now that i think about it. #oh well i guess that's why you pirate things #text post #stch

[born-to-lose]

How did House of 1000 Corpses traumatize me lmao

#i watched it 10 months ago and was like *chuckles nervously* what the fuck #can't even see bunny costumes without thinking of that movie rip the things you do for love #in my defence i couldn't ruin my first date like that so i sat through it and pretended to like it but. what was that. #anyways i'd rather stick with the classics or ghosts shit or fun slashers #it was NIGHT and i was ALONE. for the last two thirds of the movie. basically. because he fell asleep. and i couldn't sleep afterwards #it's just uhhh no offence to fans of the movie but i sometimes still get nightmares inspired by that #welp good thing it ended before i had to watch the rest of the trilogy i guess #my sister and mom always say it was the first red flag 💀 #they were like oh fuck at house of wax (which we collectively like now) and i was like girlies you ain't seen nothing yet #how can that movie be 'pivotal to who you are as a person'?? it was gross and disturbing #from now on people gotta pass the romcom test before i watch disgusting horror movies with them smh #mel talks

[grimark]

man i basically haven't drawn or written anything since like. october.

#in my defence i've been busy but surely not THAT busy #i need to actually commit to making time for my creative hobbies #otherwise i'm gonna stagnate and backslide #like. drawing STILL hasn't gone back to feeling as natural as it used to after i stopped doing it for like a year or two there #but i'd made a bit of progress on getting the magic back and i don't wanna lose it all again #and obviously there isn't any 'magic' it only ever came from hard work and commitment and making drawing a regular habit #it takes a lot of effort to get to the point where things feel effortless!

[heffrondriving]

first big time rush drops a new song, then young royals shows up with some season 2 photos, then omar rudberg also premieres his latest single + music video, and now the whole news about kendall just to put the cherry on top of this disaster crockpot......we really out here risking our lives and losing our fucking gourds today a whole lot folks!!!!!

#my mind has entirely shut down and i'm not even kidding there's absolutely nothing in my head but a rattling plinko ball #defence mechanisms i suppose. although that doesn't stop my anxiety levels from also going full blast and making me wanna chew my skin away #what is this behaviour @ self. i just think you need to fuck off to sleep forever at this point yet we're still in this discussion table? #i promise all of the aforementioned are good things that should make me lots happy but unfortunately my synapses don't work right so just #rawrtgrhrgahagwgwhahahrgrhrhahw *goes feral on main and has to be sedated and put down* #cw blood? #do pretty girl don't speak #will delete #i'll get back in business after i chill tf out. whenever that may be #might be a day. might be another month. again i am so sorry ;-; #idk anyone else who likes big time rush and young royals so unfortunately everyone gets the brunt of my mania whoops #titled: my top two current hyperfixations violently taking out my kneecaps and wiping the floor with my bitch dumbass.exe