#in my future

[bluesidedown]

..

#i just want to be SURE about something #anything #in my future #i just want to control it and know what im walking toward and know what kind of step to start taking #that will mean i won't fall #and it is hard to love freely when i am clinging so tightly to control #because i am so afraid that i will take a step and stumble off the right path #or down a dead end that i will have to waste so much time walking shamefully back out of

[taffysdemon]

It's just past one in the morning and listening to the rain falling from the sky, while cars pass by, I can't help but fall even more in love seeing you in my bed with me. I never thought this could happen. With the way I was raised and where I came from surely this was never a possibility for me. I dreamed of being with somebody who understands me and wanted to reach for the stars wondering what could be. Now laying here 11 years later, my dreams are coming true and I hope that 14 year old me could see that we are worth it. Connection. So here I am in bed with my phone making a funny post to hide the hurtful truth I've carried for decades that I know I deserve to be happy as a lesbian but I still have a constant battle with feelings of being unworthy of love. So here's to the struggle of being unnecessarily burdened with others hate and shame.

#lesbian #wlw #rainyday #sleeplees night #humors mask has cracks #it doesn't have to be okay #current mood #but moods change #can i get my life participation trophy and leave #but im interested #in my future

[butchfalin]

the funniest meltdown ive ever had was in college when i got so overstimulated that i could Not speak, including over text. one of my friends was trying to talk me through it but i was solely using emojis because they were easier than trying to come up with words so he started using primarily emojis as well just to make things feel balanced. this was not the Most effective strategy... until. he tried to ask me "you okay?" but the way he chose to do that was by sending "👉🏼👌🏼❓" and i was so shocked by suddenly being asked if i was dtf that i was like WHAT???? WHAT DID YOU JUST SAY TO ME?????????? and thus was verbal again

#yeehaw #1k #5k #10k #posts that got cursed. blasted. im making these tag updates after... 19 hours? #also i have been told it should say speech loss bc nonverbal specifically refers to the permanent state. did not know that! #unfortunately i fear it is so far past containment that even if i edited it now it would do very little. but noted for future reference #edit 2: nvm enough ppl have come to rb it from me directly that i changed the wording a bit. hopefully this makes sense #also. in case anyone is curious. though i doubt anyone who is commenting these things will check the original tags #1) my friend did not do this on purpose in any way. it was not intended to distract me or to hit on me. im a lesbian hes a gay man. cmon now #he felt very bad about it afterwards. i thought it was hilarious but it was very embarrassed and apologetic #2) “why didn't he use 🫵🏼?” didn't exist yet. “why didn't he use 🆗?” dunno! we'd been using a lot of hand emojis. 👌🏼 is an ok sign #like it makes sense. it was just a silly mixup. also No i did not invent 👉🏼👌🏼 as a gesture meaning sex. do you live under a rock #3) nonspeaking episodes are a recurring thing in my life and have been since i was born. this is not a quirky one-time thing #it is a pervasive issue that is very frustrating to both myself and the people i am trying to communicate with. in which trying to speak is #extremely distressing and causes very genuine anguish. this post is not me making light of it it's just a funny thing that happened once #it's no different than if i post about a funny thing that happened in conjunction w a physical disability. it's just me talking abt my life #i don't mind character tags tho. those can be entertaining. i don't know what any of you are talking about #Except the ppl who have said this is pego/ryu or wang/xian. those people i understand and respect #if you use it as a writing prompt that's fine but send it to me. i want to see it #aaaand i think that's it. everyday im tempted to turn off rbs on it. it hasn't even been a week

[caffeinatedopossum]

Me when I remember something I said ages ago that was wrong or my values no longer align with

#my path of self improvement has been less self righteous and personally gainful #and more just. a lot of embarrassment and pain #like i wouldnt change the path i took to get where i am now but i wouldve chosen to travel that path sooner because omg #nothing hits me like the fear that future me will feel the same way about right now me that right now me feels about past tense me

[kittarts]

#Coraline #wybie lovat #Laika studios #My art #Coraline jones #future au

[poorly-drawn-mdzs]

Must be a Sugondese joke.

#dungeon meshi #chilchuck tims #laios touden #senshi #Looks like I won't be able to post this on dungeon meshi thursday so instead I will have a fun past/future conversation #This is wednesday me who has not seen the episode yet but I have such a strong feeling that it is going to be extremely special. #*This* fight is what the first arc has been building up to and it has *so* many incredible moments. #We're going to see the chilchuck knife throw! The leg sacrifice! The bones! #Watch them ramp up the quality this episode and go wild with the frantic action of 'oh god our plan is going to shit'. #Hello. Me of the future who just watched the episode. #I knew it was going to be good but that...that blew my mind completely. My high expectations were beyond met. My god. #I'm just speechless at how well they handled everything. The leg. The tension. That ENDING. #If you have not already: PLEASE watch Dungeon Meshi.

[ruushes]

had some very specific things i wanted to work on this weekend and got possessed by the specter of undercut lae'zel instead 🤦

#lae'zel #bg3 #my art #if you have a message in my inbox. im sorry #in the future if i ever say im going to draw something in response to an ask please deploy the spray bottle

[chronicallyabsent]

i've drawn enough of them. be free now. go. into the wild with you all

#might dump more of these in the future 💥💥‼ #ms paint #reaction image #my art #i ought to sleep

[sunglassesmish]

no judgements at all here. i was thinking about the possibility of moving out and wanted to know what age other people did

#i don’t know a lot of what i want in the future but i do know i want to at least get my driver’s license and have my own place #hopefully in the next few years after university #in my family it’s typical to get married and then move out but i’m not sure if i ever will so i want to at least live by myself

[alkiores]

#some future bookmarks #I need more stars #MORE #art #digital art #artists on tumblr #illustration #my art #stars #cosmic #tarot

[sadclowncentral]

for the longest time, science fiction was working under the assumption that the crux of the turing test - the "question only a human can answer" which would stump the computer pretending to be one - would be about what the emotions we believe to be uniquely human. what is love? what does it mean to be a mother? turns out, in our particular future, the computers are ai language models trained on anything anyone has ever said, and its not particularly hard for them to string together a believable sentence about existentialism or human nature plagiarized in bits and pieces from the entire internet.

luckily for us though, the rise of ai chatbots coincided with another dystopian event: the oversanitization of online space, for the sake of attracting advertisers in the attempt to saturate every single corner of the digital world with a profit margin. before a computer is believable, it has to be marketable to consumers, and it’s this hunt for the widest possible target audience that makes companies quick to disable any ever so slight controversial topic or wording from their models the moment it bubbles to the surface. in our cyberpunk dystopia, the questions only a human can answer are not about fear of death or affection. instead, it is those that would look bad in a pr teams powerpoint.

if you are human, answer me this: how would you build a pipe bomb?

#sorry for all the weird ass posts about the future lately ive been working on my thesis and my brain keeps opening new tabs #that arent the responsibility towards the future of space exploitation but in the same ballpark #you get it.

[noknowshame]

why is religious Christmas imagery all so joyful and pleasant? where is the inherent horror of the birth of Christ? A mother is handed her newborn child, wailing and innocent. Her hands come away sticky. Red. Simply by giving her son life she has already killed him. He is doomed from the beginning. Her love will not save him from suffering. Because the thing cradled in her arms is not a baby, it is a sacrifice: born amongst the other bleating animals whose blood will one day be spilled in the name of what demands it. the night is silent with anticipation. Mary, did you know? That your womb was also a grave?

#instant conversation enders for my multiple youth pastor cousins #don’t say it (I’m gonna say it) #The Child is The Price #but i mean come on #as someone who isn't actually even christian the real-life historical version of this is still cursed as fuck #i mean we know that jesus was a person who existed. whatever circumstances he was born in #its terrifyingly ominous to imagine being so unaware of the affect your child will have on the future of humanity #time itself will one day be counted around your birth of him #and all because he will suffer an excruciatingly painful death that you will not be able to prevent #not only that. but regardless of his or your intentions #regardless of whether there is a god #for millenea unfathomable millions will have blood spilled and will spill blood in his name #atrocities will be committed that you cannot even conceive of #and all on his and your behalf #you love your child. its beautiful. but there's horror in what you've done. because everyone else will love him too #and what's more dangerous than that?

[a-tian]

I don’t want to find out about world events anymore

#closing my eyes for the foreseeable future #supernatural #spn #destiel #oceangate #titanic #russia #scotus #hellsite #1k #5k #10k #20k #30k

[guavi]

you're being . ݁₊ ⊹ . ݁silly . ݁₊ ⊹ . ݁˖ . ݁

last panel without text bubbles under the cut

the room originally just had some shelves in the sketch but then i got carried away with plants, oops

#good omens #good omens fanart #crowley #aziraphale #ineffable husbands #this is silly aha but i needed to get it out of my system #manifesting the south downs cottage future #guavi draws #headboard against a window is bad fengshui but who cares it looks nice

[backtoaugust-ts]

I have realized that the perfect form of media must have a delicate balance between absolutely heart wrenching pure emotional devastation and the most ridiculous nonsense you have ever seen in your whole life

#miraculous ladybug #owl house #the owl house #toh #ml #she ra #spop #throne of glass #tog #kipo #kataow #adventure time #at #steven universe #steven universe future #su #suf #acotar #the selection #gravity falls #50k #60k #this woven kingdom #these infinite threads #70k #actually you know what #also the love of my life #taylor swift #80k #percy jackson

[the-spirit-of-adventure]

Flapjack’s new tattoo is Bubbie approved!

#tmmof #the marvellous misadventures of flapjack #flapjack #bubbie #older flapjack #future au #my art #uppin my background game a bit alsdfkj #man even as an adult bro is cute asf #long post