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hanafubukki · 4 months
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😈anon here and I see new stuff! That poor accountant. At least MC is nice enough to someone technically under their employ...
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Hello 😈Anonie 🌺🌻
YN knows the pain of the poor spider accountant. They had to deal with Dire Crowley and having practically nothing but the clothes on their backs in Twisted Wonderland.
So if there’s anyone’s woes YN would relate to, it’s the poor spider accountant 😔
Why not brighten his day with some bribes and making sure he’s alive and healthy, and mentally sane? 🤣🤣
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disturbedheart · 27 days
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hi, i'm 13 almost 14. i don't follow you because i understand you probably don't want minors following you, but i have looked at your blog and for the past 2 years i've heavily suspected i might have bpd. i know self diagnosis is like, bad, so i'm not trying to do it but it's really hard. i feel like i'm crazy and that nothing i ever do is right or good enough and sometimes it just feels like i would be better off dead. i have no idea what to do and i just had a conflict with someone i'm really close to and i'm so fucking scared and i don't understand why i'm reacting like this and i just want help. it's fine, if you don't want to reply to this, too. i won't mind i just am so scared and confused and angry and i don't know why
I'm so sorry you're going through this. Bpd sucks ass and I'm really so sorry 😔 I don't mind if minors follow me honestly, I think having an adult to look up to or learn from, or just relate to in situations like is important because I needed someone when I was your age to help me understand wtf was going on.
First and foremost, I wanna say that self diagnosis is absolutely valid. Does that mean you should go around telling people you're officially diagnosed with something? Eh, probably not, but nobody that's asking online is probably a cop, nor has the right to discredit what you suspect to be a genuine issue. People who self diagnose are just looking for an answer and common ground with others. So even if you're wrong, it does not hurt to suspect and seek help for your symptoms in the way someone who is officially diagnosed also would. If you suspect you have something going on, there likely IS something going on. So self diagnosis is not and never will be "bad." I encourage you to keep interacting with those you relate to no matter what.
Second, it's gonna be okay, I promise. I'm so sorry you're dealing with this kind of pain. I'd like to preface that at your age and even now at my ripe old age of 21....I used to cry when getting into the most minor disagreements. I have learned that people who genuinely care about you or want you around will not let the friendship or relationship fall flat over something minor or even major. It's so so important to have self compassion for yourself, even when you act out or start arguments. You need to understand that with bpd, you're triggered by a lot of things people are not and that certain circumstances have led you to react the way you do. And while you're possibly not able to help the fact that you're triggered, apologizing to someone when you do act out IS something you must do to hold on to your relationships. You may also consider whether the conflict is something you're personally okay with mending? Because you should not keep forgiving people who hurt you without considering your feelings or thoughts at all. It will lead to you being more and more triggered.
Give the other person space, is what I'd say. Even if it's scary? I had this issue where I'd force myself to resolve an issue that wasn't ready to be brought back up again ....because I had this urgency of needing to know whether or not they were gonna leave. But it only made things worse unfortunately. You're gonna be okay, I know it fucking stings and hurts like you're gonna die when you don't have the answer to all your questions right away, but giving someone time to think results in an outcome that's better for both(?)
You're also going to be okay if that person decides to leave. I know that sounds so scary and painful, but one person is not your end all be all, even though it absolutely feels like it will be. You learn, you grow, and you WILL meet new people. I never thought I would, and as painful as it is, you DO move on and feel better eventually. You are not better off dead, you just need people around you that'll support you and understand you're struggling. I'm so sorry you're dealing with it all, this young too. It's good that you already suspect something might be up though, the younger you learn about yourself the better. If you can, I'd look into dbt? Or therapy? IF possible (literally sometimes impossible, I know) but you'll be okay.
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fuckyeahdindjarin · 6 months
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alright i’m trying this again because tumblr’s an ah
you reblogged a gifset a few days ago (that scene where joel asks for tommy’s gun because “maria took mine you know 😔” and it gave me a few ideas over joel and maria’a relationship.
it’s definitely a very complex one, they’re both very wary of one another and they have strong personalities so it’s an issue when they both want to impose what they think is right. but either way, they try, they’re civil towards each other for the sake of tommy.
also i feel like they’re both respectful just because they know how much the other means to tommy. maria has her reasons not to trust joel but she’s heard from countless stories that it’s always been joel and tommy against the world whether it was before the o it break or right after. and joel can’t deny how happy his brother looks with his wife.
so yeah, a lot of respect but it will never go over cordiality. but then they both have one very important thing in common which i feel like it would lead them to bond at some point: they both know the pain of losing your own child. of course everyone in the post-outbreak world has a sense of loss, everyone has lost somebody but it’s different. tommy and ellie can relate on some level because they’ve lost people too but even if tommy mourns for sarah, it’s always gonna be different than the way joel mourns for her. and it’s something maria can understand a little bit more. yes, she has never known sarah and has no connection to her apart from the stories she’s heard but she knows all too well the pain of a parent having their own child taken from them so violently.
so maybe joel’s depressed because sarah’s death anniversary (or whatever) is coming around and neither ellie or tommy can do anything. there’s nothing to say, nothing to do so they just…try to give him space (and knowing joel, he’s probably shutting himself off even more during that time). of course, he tries to power through, act all tough and drown his sorrows in alcohol. and tommy’s worried, he knows joel, he’s still traumatized from the events that followed sarah’s death and it ends up reaching maria. he shares his worries, tells her that joel acts tough and like he’s handling it even when he’s falling apart. he doesn’t say all that thinking maria would do something about it, it’s more a “this is really worrying me and i need to vent a little”
but maria finds joel one night. maybe they all had dinner together, joel stepped outside while tommy and ellie got out some board game and maria prepared some coffee for everyone. she goes to joel, just to give him the coffee but instead of leaving she stays, she’s unsure and it’s a little bit awkward because what is she supposed to say?
but still, she finds a way to introduce the topic. she talks about kevin and joel can see that pain he feels reflecting in her eyes. it’s a shock, something unexpected because it’s the first time since tess that he feels truly understood.
she isn’t just maria—his sister-in-law he pretty much tolerated—she’s a mother who lost her child just as violently as he lost his and she knows, she understands that suffering he can’t put words on because no words in any language ever are enough to describe it.
it’s pretty quiet, the kind of moment where two people are comforting one another just by being here. but it definitely changes things. they both soften, realizing that they’re not the walls they put up in order to survive and they can somehow rely on the other to understand the pain.
from that one night, it evolves. probably more quiet nights, some where they talk a little— maria mentions her fears as a new mother, joel shares how terrified he is that ellie ends up like sarah— and although they’re not best friends by the end of it, they still care immensely about one another. they’re family after all 🥹
Sweet anon, did you just - drop a heartachingly gentle and brilliant incisive look into Joel and Maria's relationship with no warning at all? Not even a peep of a warning??
This was so beautifully thought out and analysed. I am in awe and I have no notes - you captured that antagonism and complexity between those two so well. Thank you for sharing this, I haven't written much of Maria into Seams so far, and when I do, I can only hope I'll be able to capture the dynamics half as well as you did ❤️
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harryhandstan · 9 months
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lindseyyyyyy
SUPER BELATED HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!! 🎉🎉🎉🎊🎊🎊🧁🧁🧁🧁🧁😽😽🥳🥳🥳🥳
(im sorry that was super late)
its crazy how fast a year goes by. i hope youre doing better now after the accident :(( what happened?? you dont have to answer if u dont want to ofc!!
i honestly have no words. im sorry you had to go through all that :(( i wish i could take away the pain ❤️‍🩹❤️‍🩹
i am soooo happy and excited for you! you and your family deserve to live a peaceful life!! i honestly have no idea what its like in georgia but i hope you find somewhere safe!! maybe you could try to find a remote job if you wanted to stay in the area?? and honestly f*** your dad. you don’t deserve any kind of negativity im so proud of u for sticking up for yourself and your family!
ive got one year left!!! and it’s finally over!! school’s been ehh. its still difficult for me to make new friends but i’ll get over it. i got nosebleeds to see taylor 😭😭 but its still better than nothing & thank u!!
PLEASE tell me about stevie nicks and your roadtrip!! i cant wait to hear about it
im soooo proud of u!! im always here for u and im always wishing you the best! 🩷🩷🩷🩷🩷🩷youuuu
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ahh thank you baby!!! no it's okay I didn't make a big deal about my birthday this year so it's fine 😊 it was the day after we got back from our road trip and I stayed with my sister for a few days and just hung out with her! she got me some cute lil harry coded fruit hair clips and made me dinner and we had cake and ice cream and watched a movie with her roommate!
oh no I don't mind saying what happened! I honestly thought I had already said, I'm sorry! my mom and I were leaving to go grocery shopping and I got kicked by a horse. I am doing better I've made a TON of progress but still feel like I have a long way to go. like doing simple things still takes a lot of my energy sometimes! like I said I was supposed to start a new job working at a daycare as a lead teacher and I think I'm gonna have to give that up now, because I can't imagine being able to work a full shift doing something like that 😔 which just kind of makes me feel lost rn as to what to do for income because I so had my heart set on working there!
thank you thank you for all the love, I'm sitting here with tears in my eyes as I type this because it means so much coming from you! you'll never know how much I appreciate it ❤ it was honestly one of the most insane experiences I've ever had to go through, but as horrific as it was I feel like it's helped me appreciate life a lot more than I did before and realize the impact I have on people and how important I am to them! like my little brother said he cried when he found out and he's just not someone who shows his emotions a lot so it made me very 🥺🥺
I'm so sooooo excited for a new place like I'm already looking at things for my room and I'm looking forward to being able to put up so many harry related things and the big nakey™ poster that all the other harries have and like I said just a nice, clean, peaceful place I can heal and grow in!! and honestly we're in an area of GA that's superrr rural there's literally nothing here lol. I think we're gonna try to get an apartment in the same place where my little sister lives though so that would be perfect! I already feel at home there when I stay and it's a good little area. I probably will have to end up either getting back into selling crafty things or a remote job until I can build up my stamina again to be able to do more and get an in-person job!
yeah fuck phil all my homies hate phil!! he's done nothing but cause us trauma and stress and we'll all be better off away from him. thank you for your pride in me!!! it's never been easy for me to speak up for myself so I'm surprised I've been able to so much with him. he and I had a confrontation in 2021 where he just flat out asked me what was wrong and why I was upset with him and when I told him he basically gaslit me and in the end when I was standing in front of him crying after pouring my heart out, I was told “it’s been that way for a long time, you just need to get over it 🤷🏼‍♂️” so that’s what I’m gonna do, move out and get over it!!
ahhhh only a year left that’s amazing!! my heart is so full of pride for you I know how much hard work it takes to do that and it’s not easy. I hope you treat yourself when it’s all over to a big fat gift or some other sort of treat!! you deserve it 🫶🏻 and nosebleeds for taylor is okay!! I went to see her on the Red tour and we were in nosebleeds and it was still an amazing show. be careful and have a great time!
seeing stevie live was magical like I cannot even describe the good energy I felt while being there ✨ it was my first big outing after my accident and we had seats so I was able to sit down when I needed to (which was a lot more than I wanted to but it’s okay).
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our road trip was only a few hours away but it was to see my little brother who we hadn’t see since december of 2021! we spent 4 days there and didn’t get to do a lot, but it was still great to visit him and his girlfriend. we hung out by the pool, ate at some cute little restaurants, saw the new little mermaid movie, and did some shopping 😊
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again I’ll never be able to thank you enough for your pride in me!! I’m always here if you need me or whenever you wanna stop by to hear me ramble lol
all my love to you!!! 🩷🩵🩷🩵
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enibly · 2 years
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some songs of summer 2022
looks like i’ll survive yet another summer, and i get some new songs as souvenirs at least
New (to me) Stuff
fromis_9 :: Stay This Way :: ok, fromis has me in their pocket- this song is clearly just average and doesn’t stand out, but it’s the fromis formula and so it got me. beyond just the airy, feminine vibe, I think I like their voices? which is not the usual way I approach music
Apink CHOBOM :: Copycat :: I was pleasantly surprised by how much I liked this track. Usually I don’t like tempo changes like this, nor do I especially like mellow tracks. But this one I like (kinda has Kiss Me More vibes? is that why?) It’s also the “sexy weird” vibe that I most relate to as late 20s/early 30s person
aespa :: Girls :: my friends thought this one was mediocre but I really liked it from the start- there are riffs and hooks in it that hit me ok?
1team :: Vibe :: saw it on kpop tv and clicked with the song. sorry to hear about the group’s disbandment :(
CZARFACE, Lion Eye :: Big em Up :: I’m back home so that means radio in the car (shoutout to 90.5 KSJS, still my fav). This is from there
Peaches :: Fuck the Pain Away :: tumblr memes make a real difference it seems. thanks guys
L'Impératrice :: Agitations tropicales :: I like it, but listening to this one makes me feel my age, in the “oh god i’ve mellowed into lame territory” sense you get when you find yourself listening to overly predictable soft house and not minding it. it’s the just-as-lame modern equivalent of being an adult alternative music fan, and i’m sorry to see this tendency showing up in me
Good Charlotte :: Lifestyles of the Rich and Famous :: I was watching Rock Block on MTV Classic and look, you can go a while without eating a potato chip, but then you have one and suddenly you’re craving them the next couple of afternoons. pop punk is like that and if you were infected with the bug young, you can’t ever escape it
Not Quite Gone (from earlier in summer)
Winner :: I Love U :: I’m gonna forget this song in like 2 weeks, but it’s here now, and as usual, no one makes Winner songs except Winner, so I’ll accept it
Loona :: Flip That :: it ended up growing on me, but I still haven’t integrated it into my life. might end up being a fall song for me? we shall see
KARD :: Ring The Alarm :: nothing much to say except, I actually seek this song out once in a while, which is more than I can say for the last several Kard songs. and I feel weird about praising her, cause of her whole bullying scandal, but Somin’s gotten even better at her job somehow? looks like she spent that “time reflecting” in the practice room... hm
Returning Guys
Beck :: Loser :: i’ve only been working and sleeping and doing nothing with my time- it’s obvious why this one made a comeback in my rotation and in my head
Winner :: Hold :: thank god for this one- it’s one of my most positive coping mechanisms
Jeon Soyeon :: Beam Beam :: damn, I did not expect to get as attached to this song or Jeon Soyeon as I did... it was very slow growing but she finally got me
Cupido :: Todas Menos Tú :: this is a song I tried listening to in spring, but it captures the mood of summer better. it’s like, life is boring and I’m lying too still but I guess it’s fine or whatever when the guitars come in
Weezer :: Beverly Hills :: my 14 year old student told me that weezer is a meme with the kids around her these days, which i find so funny. (she also said there are teens she knows who listen to Slipknot, and now I just wanna know what 90s bands are being discovered by the zoomers, and which ones are still under the radar. Apparently Smashing Pumpkins are not having a comeback btw). Anyways, Beverly Hills is... well it’s not the song most representative of Weezer but it’s the one I can actually chill to without feeling Rivers Cuomo’s secondhand anxiety (ok fine I’m also a sucker for daytime chilling parties, even one at the playboy mansion 😔)
Still in Rotation
Hoody ft. Gray :: Adios :: as always, this song is keeping me alive, just like everyone else in the industrialized world (even if they don’t know it)
Jade :: Don’t Walk Away :: I’ve been trying to listen to this less because I love it too much (does that make sense?) but I just can’t stay away. what a gem 💎
Special Shoutout: Turnstile Love Connection
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akane171 · 2 years
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Yuup, I can only agree with your assessment😁 Blessed be fanfics😍
Ahh, yes... The chosen one trope does get VERY old VERY fast... Esp. if it never really gets explained...🙈 I just like to take Anakin's story as a slave boy  being taken from his mother and "freed" only for him to be told to surpress his feelings until he finally snaps and decides to tell EVERYONE (even innocents) "FU" 🙈 Like, if the focus is less on "being the chosen one" and more on the way his surroundings affect his actions, I feel like he's much more relatable🤔 (Like, who the fuck had the idea of NO EMOTIONS anyway, like, guys, Jedi, Jedi-Masters, THAT'S NOT HOW THE PSYCHE WORKS AND IT'S EITHER GONNA BACKFIRE BY EMOTIONAL EXPLOSIONS OR YOU RAISING A BUNCH OF MEGA-POWERED SOCIOPATHS!🤦🏻‍♀️🤦🏻‍♀️🤦🏻‍♀️) But HAHAHA, well, a full movie just about Obi? I'd be in, tho I'd still love early Master!Obi and Padawan!Ani most, just cause of all that psychological potential😍😍
Yeah, 99% of the time the main heroes kinda suck...🙈😰 Esp. nowadays...🙈 Side characters are usually SO MUCH MORE interesting and relatable😍
(Ohhh, a new song?😍 Thanks for the info, I totally need to check it out😍☺)
Ohh, what kind of tea?🤔😁
They won't, cause I did nothing wrong😁😏😌
My head is a very weird place and I have no controll of that one either, so nope, still won't take any blame😂🤣 (😫I really wanna do that, but I know I can't😭😔😖)
Aww, it was your first, too? Same!☺ And yeah, it WAS kinda weird and the fact you couldn't eaxtly choose all characters as tags was weird, e.g. charmed fanfics about Chris Halliwell were tagged with Eloise early on cause Chris wasn't a tag you could choose til later on 😅🙈
 Funny you ask now, I just finished reading Chapter 20 of Survivor a few hours ago 😍😭🙈 I knew it was coming, but uff, reading about the 75th Game's style and everyone's reactions to it was painful😭🙈
Ohhh, real life demons?😍😍😍😍
Yeaaah, it's a very weird scene thinning back now...😅😕
Haha 😂 But, aww, no, if their hermitness keeps them happy and safe, better not come out🙈🙈
Oh..Huh, okay🤔🤔 
Haha, omg, I didn't even realize it was that time of the year til I saw you post about it and I've been hooked on the giving the wolf a banana song ever since😂😂😂 IT'S SO CATCHY!
Thanks, you too! And have fun watching ESC!😁
XXX
Well, I guess, because I'm not that into the whole SW lore, that the no emotion rule were taken from buddhism aka the you can feel emotions, but you just let them go through you and let them go immediatelly. I don't remember 'how to deal with feelings' was ever explained in the movies? It was just like, feelings bad, don't have them, I think, but I'm not sure if I'm not murdering SW canon now xD
I feel like having emotions in the Jedi order was the biggest crime, while it should be dunno: shit, I had them, I acted beacause of them, did shit, damn, next time I will be better instead of FEELINGS BAD, SHAME! SHAME! SHAME! *kicks out of the order*
What can I say, i have a soft spot for stories when guys need to take care of kids and act like step dads.
Also, dunno, a thousands of years old order where a lot of intelligent, smart people were and they had no idea how to deal with a boy and his emotions? Like? Hire a fucking therapist or something?
And the villains are even better than the side characters. Also, sometimes I think the side characters are much better than the main heroes, because how not developed they are aka they are not screwed by too much author's attention.
Green tea!
This is your line of defence? ...
And still it's your head aka you are responsible (DO IT! even if you won't publish it! Do it! For soul cleaning!)
Yep. I didn;t have that problem, because like I read Gundam SEED fics and there were not that many, so i checked everything just to see if my ship was there xD On the other hand reading and searching Naruto fics was an... experience.
Yeah, this fic is a cold blood murderer. I just hope PP is going to finish it TT
Not demons, ONE specific, very powerful one.
Anything what amke sthem happy, I guess TT
GIVE THE WOLF A BANANA!!!!! I freaking love them xD
i had fun, as always xD Nothing funnier than complaining about ballads, pianos not set on fire and confusing usamericans xD
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You’re an analyst, right? What division are you from? Who are you? What’s your name?
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fullmetalneverland · 2 years
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🗡️SPOILERS PLS DONT READ UNLESS YOU KNOW THEM🗡️
(also its a very long post and I dont know how to put the continue reading thing so bear with me)
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First impression on the cover: lovely. My fave colour.
Also awesome dragon
Also all I know about this is that its high epic fantasy and its lesbian
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Im so confused about the places
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Okay Im figuring shit out
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I think I start to like Tané and also NiClays is such a coward wtf
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Ead saving Sabrans life and then sabran being like yeah, the saints
Like gurl
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Got the maps. Things are clearer.
Also I think I will reread this at some point cause its honestly wow.
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We all know Ead doesnt want to leave because she starts having a crush 🥰
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Okay so Loth is kind of in the middle pf a conspiracy that definitely endangers his life. Also the princess is pretty (from Carscaro)
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"It was strange, but she was almost sorry that she was here, and not with the queen."
😏 I bet
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Oooooooh
So Truyde is related to Jannart who is Niclays ex lover. Thats why Niclays is so protective of her. I see
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And so it begins
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Im kind of conflicted because I like Tané as a character (she fucking badass aND rides dragons) but nothing interesting is happening in her perspective. Meanwhile the only interesting thing in the east is Niclays who is kind of a douche. But then, in the west the big stuff is happening and is so entertaining.
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Ooooohhh
So the sister form the orange tree that found that something and went missing (that Ead found out about) came back in the story. And the princess from Carscaro found her and took the object. And now its given to Loth.
I love how the story connects itself. You wouldn't expect it at first, but in reality they are all connected by some string of fate and they all play a role in it.
Amazing.
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What the fuck
I cant believe kit just...died.
It felt so unnecessary
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Woah. Such interesting detail about their ways.
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Im not going to lie. Sabrans wedding and dress is bomb 👀👀👀
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I have a feeling you wont hold up to your word queen 🙂
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👀👀👀👀👀😏😏😏😏
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Imagine seeing a giant mongoose in the fucking mountains
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I would laugh so hard that I would die right there on the spot. What are the odds
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Imagine being so angry that you are not pregnant that the whole palace would keep distance and your new husband runs in the forest to hunt
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"She thought of Sabran’s cool touch on her hand. When she slept, she dreamed of a bloodred rose against her lips."
Damn. Its starting 👀👀
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I have to say this
I didnt realize it bothered me this much, but the fact that she is with someone else is painful. Like, right when I was about to say that its not the worst, they kissed in front of the Ead and I-
I felt it too Ead. I felt it too.
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Katryne complaing about losing her secret admirer 😔 rip Kit
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Uuuuuuuu Tané met Niclays
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I swear Tané is so badass
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Im so jealous of Tané and Nayimathun 😔 I wish I had what they have
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Im crying what is this tenderness 🥺🥺🥺
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Truyde, darling, wHAT THE FUCK
You did WHAT
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Tané flying with Nayimathun reminds me of that scene from Spirited Away
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"He took in the unfamiliar bed, piled with bolsters and corncockle silk, and wanted nothing but to sleep.
Instead, he went to his knees beside the window, and he wept for Kitston Glade."
😔😔😔😔
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Tané walking to the jailhouse with her chin raised 👏👏👏
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*Susa dies*
Me: 👁️👄👁️
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“Ead,” the Queen of Inys said, “you will be my bedfellow this night.”
Uuuuu
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Great. Nayimathun is gone. Tané lost her title and is exiled on the other side of the continent on a goddamn forsaken island
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Okay so poor Loth found out the truth. He doesnt believe it obviously, but he is also stuck in the Priory. And ALSO he found out about Ead.
I feel bad for him but in the same time I genuinely think he is exaggerating
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“I’m no explorer.”
“You could be, Clay. You could be anything, and you should never think otherwise.” Jannart rolled a thumb over Niclays’s cheekbone. “If I had convinced myself I was no sinner, I would never have kissed the lips I longed to kiss. The lips of a man with rose-gold hair, whose birth, by the laws of a long-dead knight, made him unworthy of my love.”
I-
I have no idea how to react to so much tenderness. I cant believe this.
I love their relationship, but not so much Niclays himself.
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Hmmmmmmm.....what if Jannart is not dead and is stuck in the Priory???? 🤔🤔🤔🤔🤔
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“Be at my side for the birth. And onward,” Sabran murmured. “You must always stay with me, Ead Duryan.”
I want her to say yes but I know she cant and this is just sad 😔 I bet that when Sabran will find out the truth she will be broken
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I swear to god Ead is fucking crazy. She wants to fight Fyredel
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FUCKKK
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"Sabran smiled in a way that broke her heart."
What is this. This is so sad. She lost everything. And she will keep losing.
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IMS CREAMING THEY KISSED OH MYGFUCKING GOD
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"The silence of the Great Bedchamber was vast. Vast as night and all its stars. Ead heard each rustle of silk, each brush of hand on skin on sheets. Their breaths were hushed, held in anticipation of a knock on the door, a key in the lock, and a torch to bare their union. It would light a flame of scandal, and the fire would rise until it scorched them both.
But Ead called fire her friend, and she would plunge into the furnace for Sabran Berethnet, for just one night with her. Let them come with their swords and their torches.
Let them come."
YOU DONT UNDERSTAND HOW LOUD IM SCREAMING
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This will end so badly Im already crying for it 🥲
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Holy shit wtf they already know about them
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I cant believe Ead has been back in the Priory for like a whole week and she doesnt know about Loth yet. I feel betrayed for her 😑
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Woah woah woah
Hold up
Kalyba gurl wants a kiss from Ead? Jesus wtf
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Fuck I forgot Loth doesnt know the truth about Ead :)))))) well then thats going to be interesting
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HOLY FUCKING SHIT TANÉ
She literally had a magical jewel inside her, fought a dragon with it and then started stiching herself up
Like
Gurl 🥲
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I swear this Mita Prioress is such a bitch like wtf. Im glad Ead is leaving
As you should gurl
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Loth hearing for the first time the giant mongoose talking is so funny
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Tané is in love with her dragon as much as Ead is with Sabran
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☹️☹️ God
I didnt particularly likes Truyde but seeing her head on a spike doesnt sit well with me
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Meg and Captain Lintley ❤️❤️
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“Do you think me a tyrant?”
“I think you a self-righteous fool whose head is harder than a rock. And I would not change you for the world.”
“Tell me, Eadaz uq-Nāra,” she said softly, “am I a greater fool to want you still?”
Sabran finally looked at her.
Ead crossed the space between them. “No more a fool than I,” she said, “to love you as I do.”
❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️
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The fact that Niclays doesnt know about Truyde 💀
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Ascalon being a badass sword 🗡️
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Holy fucking shit
First queen is Kalyba? Tf
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Oh my god
So basically both versions of the story of Cleolind are true but not really. What we didnt knew was that Kalyba played a role in them
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EXcUSE YOU
KALYBA IS THE A HIGH WESTERN.??
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Ead wrapped her cloak around them both. “Perhaps then I can steal you away.”
“Where?”
Ead kissed her temple. “Somewhere.”
:')
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I swear to god that right before Ead was poisoned I was thinking that she will die. And then BOOM
Like give me a break
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“Good evening, Captain—”
“Hush.” Harlowe was a statue. “Listen.”
The song drifted over the black waves. A chill slithered through Loth. “What is that?”
“Syrens.”
“Will they not lure us to our death?”
“Only in the stories.” Smoke plumed from his mouth. “Watch the sea. It’s the sea they call.”
At first, all Loth saw was the void. Then a flower of light bloomed in the water, illuminating its surface. Suddenly he could see fish, tens of thousands of them, each full of a rainbow glow.
He had heard tales of the sky lights of Hróth. Never had he thought to see them underwater.
“You see, my lord,” Harlowe murmured. The light feathered in his eyes. “You can find beauty anywhere.”
By far my favorite scene
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Loth becoming a pirate is something I didnt knew I needed 👀👀
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Im so excited
Loth is on the same island as Tané
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Lol
Funny how the guys from Feather Island know how to reach the Mulberry Tree without even trying and the other have to brainstorm for centuries
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Loth and Tané? Wow. Definitely not something I knew I would like
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Listen, Tané is awesome
Powerful and all
But fighting the Golden Empress for that key?
💀💀😔💀💀
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I swear to god Niclays is so petty and mean :))))))) he is like "oh I bet this will upset Sabran" or "just wait and see how Ill find the elixir of life and not give it to Sabran"
Like child
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Niclays= rat
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TANÉÉ
SO HAPPY TO SEE HER LIFT THE SWORD TO THE GOLDEN EMPRESS
BE CAREFUL HONEY 🌼🌼🌼
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What a pussy
Gets his arm cut off and is like "Im dying. Bye"
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I love how Tané's dragon is so understanding
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Tané having a dragons heart ❤️
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It just hit me that Ead is a dragon slayer and Tané a dragon rider and lover 🤡
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FUCK
The sister of the priory found her
Of all ppl
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Pls dont tell me Kalyba found Tané
Imagine the luck
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Okay so she didnt 🤡🤡
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Okay wait
Kalyba actually found her
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Yay
Chassars bird
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Mission accomplished Tané ❤️❤️
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"Who in the world wears white on their wedding day?”
Yeah Meg, imagine that
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I wonder how they will defeat the nameless one
Like I have less than 100 pages left
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I wonder what is the point of Niclays in this story besides being an old fart
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Oh my fucking god
Niclays and Kalyba sound like a bad combination
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Ooooh
I think this might Seiiki emperor had an affair with the Golden Empress *wiggles eyebrows*
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What in the fuck are you doing here Niclays
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Pfffff
He wants to kill Ead :))))))))))))
Like please
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The nerve this guy has
He just thinks killing Ead is so easy
Like EXCUSE YOU
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I swear to god Tané is as done with Niclays as me 😌
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Okay so this guys at least respects Jannart.
Good
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Fuck
I wish Tané had at her that sidden thing Niclays brought
Then she would have a chance at Kalyba
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Imagine sleeping through the end of the world :))))))
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“I will teach my heart to beat again.” is such a raw line I want to die
I dont even like Niclays
He is undeserving of it
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I seriously dont think Niclays deserves this kindness from Jannarts wife
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Excuse me wtf what do you mean her side was damp in blood?
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Okay
Time for final review
The conclusion:
So
This book
This journey
It made me feel like I read a whole series, but I didnt because it was just one and its soooooo gooood
Definitely a re read and going to buy a copy
Also I loved all the details about the world and it was so well built its incredible but its to be expected since it took almost 6 years for the author do write it
A masterpiece
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kittyandco · 2 years
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⭐ Bc I like your little ships and enjoy hearing about them :D
THANK YOU FOR CONDONING MY LITTLE SHIPS! MY SILLY, FUNKY LITTLE SHIPS! the choice picker very gracefully chose elizabeth (the evil one 😔) so let's go and hope my mood isn't shot because of this because we THRIVE off the angst, especially because the details of this ship is very reminiscent of my real life experience, much more closely than a lot of my other ships, that i have yet to heal from -
so, my s/i comes from a devoutly religious background... and while there's nothing wrong with that in theory, her upbringing was right out of those cult documentaries (or if you've ever seen carrie? or read the book? yeah. one of many reasons i relate to her, because i know what that kind of community is like). her church, which was essentially the crux of her existence, excommunicates her and outs her in front of everyone when she confided in a friend about her sexuality. having nowhere to turn and already destined for hell, so she believes, she runs away from home. now, if you have any experience with fundamentalism, leaving the church you chose to be in/grew up in is usually a HUGE no-no unless you've cleared it with the higher-ups that you're moving with your spouse into a church of the same caliber.
so, we head from the east to the west, all the way to los angeles. she didn't mean to go that far, but the further she got, the freer she felt. then, she finds herself in the hotel cortez, where elizabeth lives. she's a vampire who dwells in the hotel, lurking for new blood (literally and figuratively). there's more to it as to why she stays there, but we'll leave that for another time.
she's good at sniffing out the burdens people carry, and i was no exception. she understands, being bisexual herself and suffering from unfulfillment. she takes me under her wing, promises me that my destiny is not to suffer, but to live. i'm so enchanted with her, i begin to listen. my faith, my entire world has been shaken. and she's like an angel coming down to speak to me, telling me everything i need to hear but don't want to.
she promises me freedom... so long as i be her eternal companion. i don't want to die, but i also don't want to live forever as she does. but i love her... and she's the only one who has ever understood and loved me unconditionally. she teaches me to be unapologetically myself and to love infinitely. she helps me unlearn everything i had to hold myself to... all the pain and the shame. she helps me become better, and ultimately different. and it feels so good.
send me a “⭐️” and i’ll use a random thing picker to choose one of my f/os, and i’ll reply to the ask with a small infodump about my ship with them!
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TANABATA
Today is almost the End of the another Campaign Period in Captain Tsubasa: Dream Team - my favorite Mobile Game at present and I cannot help sharing this with my friends, especially since our two favorite bachelor girls -Yayoi & Yoshiko- are beautifully featured in the official banner of Tanabata Campaign which currently runs from July 5 to July 14 this year 2019. 😊💞💞💞💞💞
**TANABATA, also known as the Star Festival, is held yearly on the 7th day of the 7th lunar month to commemorate the reunion of two star-crossed lovers who are separated by cruel circumstance and only allowed to meet ONCE every year under a clear blue sky. 😢😢
While we may feel relatively safe with Hikaru x Yoshiko as these two lovebirds are prompt to become husband and wife after Yoshiko's University Graduation, recent events in CT Manga Rising Sun have offered us fans nothing but increasing worry n frustration over the future prospects of Jun x Yayoi when the Prince of Japanese Football is determined to fight n die with HONOR rather than live with regret n humiliation, regardless of the consequences and the devastating pain he may cause to his beloved Yayoi. 😒💔💔💔💔💔😔
There are as many nights as days, and one is just as long as the other in a year's course. Even a happy life cannot be without a measure of darkness and the word 'happy' would lose its meaning if it were not balanced by sadness.
And so, on such a special occasion, let us wish this beautiful couple ALL THE BEST, and trust that Takahashi-sensei would give them the Super Happy Ending they have long deserved after so many years of absolute Love & Devotion. 😢😢🍀🍀🍀☔️☔️☔️🌈🌈🌈🌈🌈❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️😍😍😆😆❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️ 
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cruelsister-moved · 4 years
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thots on leonard cohen 😔
he's dead that sounds really unhygenic :/
but my serious answer is i think like bob dylan sometimes the very singular character of his voice as well as frankly some genuinely goofy arrangements obscures the real beauty and power of his words. and sometimes when it's all peeled away you're taken aback by their power.
musically I really can't say i would enjoy him at all if he wasn't such a wordsmith and generally i think music needs to also be musical otherwise it might as well be poetry. some of his songs are served excellently by this character but speak-singing is just not particularly versatile which means he does some things like no one else could, but he also undersells some really brilliant songs.
i like him best with just a guitar and an expressive voice that sways from tender to fierce to morose. i hate him with backing singers and weird out of place brass and cliched strings and a strained voice. in modern music critique the importance of melody is constantly underestimated but you can really do so much if you have a pleasant melody - and i think the real tell in when i enjoy him and when i don't is when he has melodic conviction and when he is meandering directionlessly between half formed themes.
ok and the interesting part that you probably wanted to ask? is like. i increasingly despise a lot of the 60s/70s songwriter crowd as i become more interested in the foundations of actual folk music that these people came out of because it feels so hollow and selfish. i don't like individualism in music- id get all long winded about collective musical traditions here but instead I'll just say that when leonard writes it always feels like he is speaking to and from something much wider than himself.
whereas others, no matter how "deep" and sensitive it is - nick drake, nick cave, dylan at his worst (sorry I don't have many examples of the top of my head bc i. dont listen to the worst offenders)- are writing from these personal bubbles that are increasingly revealed to me as just spiritualized self-deprecating arrogance.
there is nothing more musically unappealing to me than "now listen to my song about me" and having personal experiences be as 'relatable' as possible becoming the new musical yardstick is painful for me ngl. i DONT always relate to him which is why i enjoy him, the same as I wouldn't read a book about an autistic lesbian university student because i already know that. i understand the desire to have your own feelings echoed back to you, I think it's a very human one and I don't look down on people who need it, but to me that's what tweets are for not music.
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