#in the shell of a human body

[appri-dot]

I like to draw nutcracker yaoi for character reasons trust fencer(hurt fella) belongs to @ballcrusher74

#this is dumb yaoi angst but i need to get them out my system #also a wip #i wont post the final product probably because the cringe will catch up but for now i WILL gush abt how silly their contrast could be #metal body damaged wooden body worn #woody just way more emotionally driven because fencer is literally the only nutcracker he can connect with #the silly tendrils bristling as a defensive display but involuntary because hes so scared #woody talks in more broken sentences to fencer because he infers that he can understand him as is a lot better then his human crew #fencer very nonchalant because its not the first time his shits been rocked on the job #i worry this is ooc for fencer so idk how far i will finish it #but ugh i need to stop using these 2 as nutcracker behaviour dolls #SORRY BUT DAMAGE TO A METAL SHELL BEING MORE SIGNIFICANT BECAUSE THE VIOLENT VIBRATIONS #THUSLY WHY NUTCRACKERS IMMEDIATE BECOME EXTRA AGGRESSIVE WHEN HIT WITH SHOVELS #im normal im normal.... #woody mimics a human in body heat because the wood better insulates the interior of his body #tw blood #tw body horror #tw gore #lethal company

[ancientbygone]

shall we renounce

from where we've come

and who we were?

#sleep token #sleep token art #sleep token vessel #sleep token sleep #sleep token him #bygone art #blood #blood tw #the most 'itself' this thing has ever been. the most it ever will be. #held together by vengefulness alone and pretending that it's something more than that #there isn't really vessel in there anymore. nor is there sleep. #it's both and neither. a mortal shell filled with barely controlled anger constantly threatening to burst. #it still tries to make itself a god. but all it's ever been and all it'll ever be is a mockery of both godhood and humanity. #a ticking time bomb of a joke. #i finished this while all of my body was in pain after a concert last night. god help me. #quick addition: #the caption is HEALTH lyrics again. while technically from DEMIGODS this specific case is intended to be the part from DSM-V #what can i say it fits Him quite well #'do unto those that which they did to you' is pretty much the reason why it came to be

[moodyseal]

I keep trying to convince myself that MDZS had a happy ending overall but then I think about how 80% of its AO3 tag is just fix-it fics

#and it makes sense bc like #wei wuxian's core is too weak for him to live over a normal human lifespan like lan wangji #and it's too late for him to be able to make it as strong as it used to be #his body isn't even HIS it's a whole ass other person #he'll probably never fully reconcile with jiang wanyin #most people still hate him #half of the characters are just dead #lan xichen is probably just the shell of a man now #what's there to be happy about LMFAO #mdzs #mo dao zu shi #lonely thoughts

[opens-up-4-nobody]

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#i walked into a situation today where my mom was effectively already dead. effectively bc her body was and is still alive. still breathing #painful groaning purrs. but her mind was gone yesterday. my dad said he showed her a picture of the mountains i took that day and told her #i loved her and she smiled. thats what he said. maybe he was just being nice. or maybe thats the last time she thought of me. i dunno. but #the human body is an incredible thing. shes got a heart still powering a broken body. too full of tumors to function anymore. stomach #streched like a pregnant mother. it happed really fast and now its happening very slow #im somehow probably better off than the rest of them. i only got here for the aftermath of a downslide. my daily life will b least effected #i only really saw her twice a year living so far away and she didnt text much. didnt call often. so life wont change much ill just kno shes #not there. which is sad. but theres nothing to b done abt it. life goes on. it hasnt been all bad tho. its nice to talk to my family abt her #how incredible she was. bc she was. wish her mom wasnt here tho. she doesn't deserve to b here. my mom wouldnt want her here. she didnt want #her here. but anyway. i wish her body would just let her go now. so we can sleep. so this can be over. so she can rest #but even like this shes stubborn and resilient. they say it could go on for days but i hope not. may the universe let her rest shes gotta b #so tired after 10 years of this. but i have no regrets. she knew how i felt abt her. and i dont think she had regrets either. she did so #much up to the very end. went out on a high note without the burdon of knowing it was coming #i dunno. its just such a strange experience to watch the empty shell of your mother sleeping like a gurgling baby #unrelated

[dollsuguru]

i’m hyperventilating

#it just feels like i ran a marathon on GOD #dilf toji. no words #my heart is racing my soul has left my body #i’m a shell of a human in the best way possible #anyways. SMASH 🗣️🗣️🗣️ #personal

[quietwingsinthesky]

trans woman anna. that is all.

#thinking about what i want to write for a zine rn and. all my thoughts r about anna being transfem #so many thoughts like the fic is writing itself in my head rn its wild #but main thesis is. 'Anna is an angel and a woman. This should be contradictory. She won't allow it to be.' #she has such a unique perspective on gender out of all the angels fr it drives me wild #to grow up human. and then have another whole life blasted into your head. divinity she can only comprehend because it is her. #but refusing to let go of the identity she has built for herself. #do you see? do you see the vision? #something about anna looking at her siblings who take vessels. looking at herself. her vessel. her body. #seeing the differences in how they embody themselves in this flesh and blood. she can never go back to wearing it. #because that's what vessels are meant to be. shells. cast off when no longer necessary. #but that's not true for her. this body is hers. its hers. she choose it. she changed it. #and even when heaven takes her. they cannot take that away. #spn #anna milton

[ethicalitycain]

my lazy ass: my alien oc, as a symbiotic parasite, took an initial host centuries ago and is responsible for its upkeep, and he prefers being humanoid. the older or more hungy he gets the more he struggles to conceal his natural biology on his host

also me: what if he was wearing the skin like a suit and is an ephemeral being otherwise imperceptible to humans

also also me: what if he was a little amoeba on the floor the size of a lego

#the pain and suffering of being unable to draw body horror #I think he likes the ability to touch and feel things #he originates on an aquatic planet where every individual is in a hivemind that operates like a beehive #and can travel to other planets as spores or microbes on passing satellites/meteors #so there is not a lot of mobility #and they are technically governed by another species #that developed from their biology on another planet except these ones were able to make inhabitable shells #and develop government 💔 and wage war 💔 #and on earth he is a big fan of music and records and likes to dance #has a lot of control over his host as well so he can bend in weird ways and is extremely flexable #my poor little meow meow full of deception and divine knowledge of what lies beyond earth #isak after eating a human: *compresses your mass* *compresses your mass*

[weird-grrrl]

Is there a word for “normal human person with a functional, albeit lower than average sex drive but finds the idea of sex with another person absolutely horrendous and awful?”

#I fear it’s asexual but I remain hopeful #it’s just bc human bodies are nasty fleshy abominations #and we should abandon these cursed shells to achieve true freedom in the cold embrace of metal and wires #but idk

[screamsofanoutlawbrain]

Good day to shower, isn't it?

Last time you were in water, you didn't come out clean.

Of course this time is different though, you're in your own body, you've been out of it to long.

Right now, you feel warm, and at peace, though trouble is yet to come.

You walk out of the shower, and for the first time in a long time, you feel clean.

#welcome to dreamworld #wtdw #wtdw glory #wtdw alyssa #wtdw au #it's a tired day for her #oh yeah this is apart of that au where Ben and Alyssa are back in their human bodies #I like to think that while on the job the two aren't referred to by their names #Cause Litho doesn't want anyone else remembering #So their just referred to by “Janitor” or “Blue” and “Pink” #or something else more defining about them #Out of their shell AU

[appri-dot]

All my silly fucked up human mimic species should hang out

#just creechur doodles #tw body horror #tw gore #tw body gore #tw blood #its all colourful n silly but just for saftey #the one thing that is significant to shells is they tend to lack natural human deformities #because they just do not have the means of producing them like they don't got the dna to fuck up they have perfect creepy faces

[merakiui]

it would have been simply hilarious if azul's bio dad really was eaten by his mom to stay true to real life octopuses but no twst just isn't brave enough to have the non humans behave non humanely 😔🤟 /hj though if they did this his mom would have died too and he would be an orphan 💔 orphaned AND bullied??? too many Ls for this babygirl I fear

He would take so many Ls if I wrote him more like the octopus in the sea. When I learned that both male (if he isn’t killed/eaten) and female octopus defend the eggs until their deaths, I felt so bad for Azul. He really is maidenless his entire life, finds a sweetheart to mate with, and then they both die. T_T 

Orphaned and bullied... AAAA NOOO :( that’s too many Ls for my babygirl Zuzu. He needs some Ws and a loving family in his life. But I really enjoy it when there are small details that suggest he’s not as human as he looks. 

#twisted chit chat #sometimes it's fun to think about the trio but in a setting where they were never introduced to human culture #and are therefore more animalistic and instinct-driven #azul and jade bringing their new human companion pretty shells and jewels from the sea floor #meanwhile floyd's gathering the skeletal remains of fishermen and offering them to you #they're like crows except one of the crows is a little disturbed and thinks body parts make for good courting gifts

[askspidertrain]

Have You Ever Had a conductor?

#ask answered #ask charles #choochoocharles #choo choo charles #choo choo #monster charles #human charles #humanoid charles #spider train but human #spider train #blood #it's mostly flesh and the rest of his body in the train #like a shell made out of a train

[silenthillbunni]

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#idk how to even express this or put it into worlds but it is lying right under my skin and itching so i need to try #i dont feel safe in the world. anywhere. i dont wanna leave my home. i dont wanna be outside and interact w ppl #i want to minimize all interactions w ppl bc ppl are DANGEROUS and unsafe #everytime i find myself alone in a room w a man wheteher he's a doctor or physical therapist my entire body wants to flee. nd shut down #even if it's 1 in 1000 that smth will happen just then #and almost every single time it goes fine. im under so much anxiety and fear during that entire session #whenever im out for my late night walks in nature and i hear a sound im on edge the entire way home bc i can imagine a 1000 bad things that #could happen #so on so forth there are countless scenarios like these it'd take me too long to recount all of them #but also.. the knowledge that this is just how it is. this is the ways of the world. everyone knows it. nothing to be done abt it... #it's sould crushing to be aware of that. nothing to be done abt it.... nothing at all. it is what it is #it is ridiculed. enjoyed. fetishized. etc etc etc #it always ends w victims dont matter. not the feelings or trauma or opinions or voices. #all reduced to smth to get off to. merely an objects. and empty shell. that is the ways of the world. nothing to be done abt it #and nowhere is safe. ppl are either perpetrators themselves. or they are defenders of it. or contributers to the surrounding culture #no one at all in the world can be trusted. no one is safe. no one cares. no one will do anything other than #ridicule u. blame u. trigger u. defend the acts of abusers. that is the truth of humanity #the truth of the world. it's all built on this. there is no other reality nor truth #and other people are capable of accepting it so well. like they dont care. bc they dont care abt anything actually #but i just cant accept it. i'd rather die than live in this world. and why should i live when i'll always be alone because #no one. is. safe. no one can be trusted #they're all on the vicious cruel abusive side. they all are. nobody cares abt wrongdoings or abuse or pain inflicted. nobody does #nobody cares at all abt what happened to u. they'll keep upholding the abusive systems in place. #bc u dont matter. u never have and never will #i dont wanna go outside or be around ppl bc no one is safe. theyre all against your safety comfort and wellbeing. they all love suffering #i hate ppl bc they all contribute to abuse and rape and everything bad happening all the time. they do not care. no sympathy or compassion #nothing abt this world or humanity is good or kind. it is all cruel harmful venom.

[louisarmpits]

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#i feel so bleh #my life is so boring #I’m literally just a body #a shell of a human #nothing going on nothing to live for #i hate it here i really do djaldjal #I’m tired of waiting for it to get better. #how long do i have to wait ?????? #I’m impatient !!!!!!!! #i cant do this for much longer !!!! #I’m probably being too dramatic but whatever #me waiting for something to happen while doing the bare minimum to make it happen #i KNOW I’m the problem. I KNOW I AM. #but i don’t know what to do to fix it. #well. i do. in a way #but i have no ENERGY to do it #thats the worst part isnt it? knowing what needs to be done but just. not being able to do it

[whatudottu]

It’s been a while since I’ve drawn traditionally, and I’ve drawn fucked up radiative deer (prypiatosian-B) locked in combat with another significantly less opportune fucked up radiation deer being eaten by radiotrophic spider fungus: full bloom form (the colloquially named prypiatosian-C)

Yada yada that one deer found with a decapitated enemy locked antler to antler, something something my pre-established prypiatosian-B headcanon where they - in dire need - dissolve their solid radioactive bones for more energy, the skull would be the very last thing to be eaten because it is the one collection of bones that actually protects something. You know a B is desperate when you see them smash their head against another or like the zombie virus deer, against a rock, in an effort to eat up the radioactive material spilling from the seams.

#prypiatosian-b #prypiatosian-c #ben 10 #fanart #horror #body horror #graphic descriptions of violence #ask to tag #i was using my sketchbook to try and design up an appropriately spidery fungusy decomposer alien- but then i got distracted #distracted by an idea i’ve had for eons now but distracted nonetheless #if you get p’andor to play last of us and he gets far enough to see a fungus you might see him straight up tap out #because that fictional world is in part reality to prypiatos where the unsheltered (both in home and in shell) nomadic Bs are just kinda… #vulnerable- susceptible- anything really to the Cs #As probably are like humans in the sense that they’d eat funguses at the very least #but like humans- if an A finds themselves eating a spore of C well #imagine being eaten from the inside out #you can visually see a bloomed B- nothing to hide #but a bloomed A? C’s intelligence and A’s exoskeleton may convince another that they’re just as alive as before #and not another case of spidersman (spiderman made out of the millions of spiders that ate him)

[lunarflare64]

Pretty sure that whoever I am right now, I have a tail, which is an Experience. Its not our first time feeling inhuman phantom limbs, we've dealt with tails before, different types even, and through the majority of high school we had wings (haven't felt them in a long time....wonder who's wings they were), but now knowing we're a system and these limbs are actual body parts for some of us this is....its really different. We're noticing the tail's movement a lot more, and the pressure is really annoying sometimes, it makes us sit weird because our brain keeps going "wtf wtf wtf wtf wtf wtf" when our tailbone touches something and there's no resistance from a tail. Maybe this would be considered a furry's dream life when inside the headspace (WHICH IS STILL BLOCKED FOR OUR SHELL LET ME SEE GUYS) but outside this is fucking torture

#cursed to live in a human body and not be human #why do the leos get to look fully human theyre TURTLES they dont even have to deal with a shell while outside what the hell