#in which sam talks about a time when

[symbiotic-slime]

it’s so funny going into monsterfucker spaces and seeing people argue about whether Venom is a tame monster crush or not and I think I figured out why ppl argue about it. I think there’s two separate levels to liking Venom and people just don’t specify which one they’re talking about

the first is what most people think of: you want Venom when they’re in a separate host and in their more humanoid form. they look like just a really tall guy, and you’ve got some monster traits involved but not quite as many as level two. this is the tame level.

the second level is when you want to be their host. you’re pulling an eddie brock— you’re fucking the slime that lives inside of you and cannot take on a humanoid form outside of yourself. it’s just a mass of black goop that lives in your organs and speaks to you in your head. this is why some people would consider Venom a more extreme monster crush

#or it could just be that the people who call them extreme are cowards #but yeah #I’ve been thinking about this a lot with the ‘craziest hear me out’ trend on tiktok #because every time it happens people debate whether venom truly counts as a ‘hear me out’ character #which I think to any sane person would be deranged because either way ur still fucking the slime monster #but I love spending stupid amounts of time thinking about the silliest internet beef I can find #and as someone who falls in the second level!! I get annoyed when ppl call venom an entry level monster crush lmao #sam’s ramblings #venom #sam talks about venom #monsterfucker #monster lover #please tell me this makes sense to other people

[raaorqtpbpdy]

Okay I’m thriving on all the Marie/Jordan posting, it is absolutely deserved, they’re amazing together, but I wish there was a little more love for Emma/Sam too because “I don’t remember you, but I do believe you” fucking broke me.

Imagine you’ve spent years questioning reality, surrounded by people who constantly remind you that you can’t believe your own eyes. You finally meet someone outside of that group and you’re convinced she’s a hallucination, except she passes your test, and she’s sweet, and she laughs at your jokes even though you have a really off-beat sense of humor, and she matches it, and you love her like you’ve never loved anyone. And she promises to stay with you after everyone else you’ve ever loved has abandoned you, whether intentionally or not. And then you start to freak out and you know your scaring her, because she’s seen you rip people apart with your bare hands, but she’s not running. She’s not even trying to make you calm down or be rational or stop. Instead she asks “How can I help you?” She wants to help you. And you run. And she saves you. She stops you from doing something you’ll regret. She’s the first one who’s done that without violating your mind.

And then she loses all her memories of you. She looks at you without an ounce of recognition, and you think you’ve lost her, even if you swear to get her her memories back. And you’re alone again, and you’re hallucinating. You’re hallucinating her. You can’t trust reality. You can’t trust yourself. You can’t believe what you see or hear or touch. Then she comes back again, but this time she’s real and you ask if she remembers you and she says no. “I don’t remember you, but I do believe you.”

I can’t even, okay, I’m losing my mind over here.

#gen v #sam riordan #emma myers #gen v spoilers #I could do a whole post from Emma’s side too #the way they both effortlessly validated and comforted each other #the way she broke her promise to her mom and got big for the first time in years just to save him #the way he only got the courage to leave because of her #the way they talk to each other and care for each other and naturally click #the way she went to find him based on a t-shirt and a half-remembered conversation even when she had no idea who he was #I can’t okay I just can’t #I’ve seen people talk about the ‘i don’t remember you but I do believe you line’ #but no one has brought up ‘how can I help you’ #which hit me SO hard ngl #anyway #I’m normal I’m normal about them (lying)

[velvetjune]

the chapter songs in Alan Wake 2,, flawless

#they deserve more love and discussion #saying this while also not knowing what to say other than they’re so fucking good #alan wake 2 #i think it’s partially because poets of the fall’s tracks are iconic so of course they’re in the spotlight (as deserved) #but also the CHAPTER SONGS. them being made for a given chatacter(s) with the help of Sam lakes poetry #the changes with ‘this road’ by Poe with every Alan chapter. becoming more distorted and revealing lyrics and the spiral #the scratch song being 1) hilarious and 2) similar to Zane’s poetry in the aw1 arg #the emotion in superhero when saga feels lost at the story making it so Logan was gone #the lines of her feeling like a ghost in this story forming around her.. how she feels guilty and absent for both what the story’s doing #and being away from Logan because of her job. ashdhhhhjhh my heart #AND. follow you into the dark HAS to be alice. which kills me because at for at I thought of Alan #but no. Alice jumped in the dark place after him. it’s so !!!!!!!!!!! #the rabbit hole line. Alice spiraling deeper and deeper into a dream—into wonderland #the Lost at Sea one is also good. intrigues me. the Bowie and Lynch references are blatantly aw2 Zane #but it’s so similar to diver Zane and the ‘originals’ death. being lost in the dark place with illusions of escape #and losing any sense of identity. whether he’s real at all or the monster of this sea or just a lost soul. #the soft and calm vocals / instrumental really makes the whole thing #NEED to stop typing more tags because this is a Lot. however. #‘no one left to love’ is also a phenomenal song and one of my favorites from the album. GORGEOUS vocals and how it all flows together. #such a powerful and beautiful way to end a chapter #anyway that’s all I had to say :) #god. I’ve started to watch a few playthroughs of the game and 90% of people have skipped the chapter songs and every time im #that’s fair but my brain and soul might implode if I don’t see anyone else talking about how good these songs are

[stupid-sloot-headcanons]

Wonder Egg Priority shitting itself at the end makes more sense when you view the creator as the Japanese equivalent of Sam Levinson when it comes to misogynist men making deep 2edgy4u content disguised as having depth. Like the instant I saw his comments about how when guys kill themselves from bullying it's logical, but when girls do it it's usually emotional and went "OHHHH, this is why my hatred feels so familiar"

#like the melodrama and inability to stay consistent while looking aesthetically nice (when it had time to be animated properly) suddenly #clicked. this is if you took Serial Experiments Lain (which is ALSO pretentious as fuck) and threw in a scoop of Euphoria and The Idol's #writing and blatant sexism. also much like Sam Levinson i want WEP's creator to either have his hard drive investigated asap #that and/or he should belly flop off a rooftop and finally do smth of value 👍 #sloot bitches about things #see Utena is made by a dude but he at least had women there to bounce ideas and themes off of #that's imo why Utena is one of the few times i will listen to a man talk about womanhood and girlhood thru his work #but if it aint Utena? hit the bricks!

[samsupernaturalpussy]

Thinking about how a lot of the Supernatural Disc Horse could be resolved if people just realized that both Sam and Dean were violent men living on the edge of society doing bad things and trying to argue that "X is better because he killed fewer people and only did things in the name of family" or "X is better because he's less misogynistic" is an utterly pointless discussion.

Compelling is what these guys are, not good

#Supernatural #Spn #Fandom wank #Ig #Discourse #Think it speaks to media literacy as a whole #Like you get that Dean is aggressively misogynistic right #And has beaten Sam when he was either possessed or not in control of himself #And that his demon deal at the end of S2 which was amazing is technically selfish (or were you not watching him agonize for all of s2 #Over the deal his dad made?) #And that Sam both wittingly and unwittingly killed people #The nurse who everyone talks about (but it's hard to say if she was actually in control of herself) and God knows how many people #By letting Lucifer out #He didn't break the first seal and was heavily manipulated the entire time yes of course #Not downplaying that #Nor the torture dean underwent to break the first one #Idk there are a lot of people who blatantly flatten canon here and that would be fine if they admitted they did #Because it's fun #But they don't #And it's frustrating as hell

[arsenicflame]

i really liked my tags on this post so i wanted to touch them up and post them as a stand alone! i ended up adding quite a bit to this ''':)

What artistic skill does Izzy possess?

I think he has a lot of 'practical' artsy skills. he’s decent at sewing (mending your own clothes isn't just useful, it's almost a requirement at sea with limited possessions and resources) he's probably decent at braiding hair from having to splice rope- simply anything with roots in being useful I think he has done enough to be decent at by this point in his life.

Singing comes into this as well, holding a rhythm is important for certain sailing tasks, and while I think he can sing in ways that don't translate to shanties, I don't think he has utilised this in a long long time (so excited that we are apparently getting an Izzy singing scene in s2!!!! I need him to know he can have fun)

Another thing is I think he was a really good tattoo artist! I don't actually see him as having the creativity to come up with interesting and unique designs but I do think he is excellent at the act itself, and at copying requested designs. you need a swallow? an anchor? a ship? any common sailors tattoo? he can absolutely do it and it will probably be the best tattoo you have. it was always a mark of honour if you could convince him to do yours on the Queen Anne- he was very busy and didn't often do them, and definitely wouldn't do them if he didn't respect you. He's done a lot of Ed's 'quality' tattoos (though I think Ed also does a lot on himself), he's done tattoos for Fang, and Ivan, and he will do them for the rest of the kraken crew in the future. (he will even do one for Lucius one day, one of his own pieces of art as long as its not an Ed face or a dick. They understand each other now)

anything else? I don't know, I see him very much as, he won't let himself do things if they aren't practical. his canon whittling is as close as he gets and that's more of a 'thing to do with your hands while watching the deck' kind of thing. have knife will whittle

I think ultimately, Izzy doesn't let himself do things for himself. if you love something, if you have a soft spot, it can be targeted, taken away.

I do think he maybe dances though. He always plays it off as something Ed forces him to do when they're drunk/on shore but... he loves it- the motion; the reliance on another partner and the intimate understanding of exactly what they're gonna do next? I think he would love that actually.

I think dancing might be the one thing he always does for fun. He never lets himself have it, but if Ed demands a partner? Yes, of course, anything for his Captain.

(Ed always demands a partner. he likes dancing well enough but he likes seeing Izzy do it more- he knows Izzy will never do it on his own, he understands why, but Ed is Blackbeard. Nobody fucks with Blackbeard- and if he wants to dance? if he wants his first mate to dance? they're fucking dancing.)

but that's not the truth of the situation, really.

It always takes him a second to let his guard down, but he relaxes into it. He lets himself loose in a way Ed only sees when he's deep into the rhythm of a swordfight. And perhaps it's the same, to him- finding the flow of the battle, of the music. Feeling his partner, understanding them and being understood in return? It's all the same- but dancing is safe. Dancing is fun. In a swordfight there are stakes- and he loves the stakes, he loves that this thing that means everything to him matters, but sometimes, just sometimes, it really is nice to move like that in a way that doesn't matter.

And when they really get going- all twirls and jumps and frankly being a little ridiculous, Izzy laughs. A deep belly laugh, a kind of joy you didn't think was possible from him. But here he is, letting go at last. He laughs and he smiles and he feels such joy, the rest of the world melts away, and it is just him and his partner, dancing.

(later- much, much later, a man will play a battle song over their raids, a jaunty little tune that throws off everyone they fight against, and Izzy gets to dance, and fight, and feel free, unburdened by the weight that he's carried with him his whole life. They'll dance after too, and he will have finally found a place where he completely belongs)

(if you liked this, can I recommend Talking Bodies by ItsClydeBitches, i feel like that fic fits the themes of dancing incredibly well)

#I didnt want to clog up ops post but Izzy dancing is everything to me actually #I hadnt reread that fic in months but I did just now to make sure it was the one I was thinking of #and yeah I can definitely see its influence in this post #once again the autistic Izzy headcanons thread themselves through this post I cant help it its canon to me #I specifically think that the whittling could be a stim thing for him. hes had too many comments made about his hand movements #when he was younger and has learnt that 'doing something' is seen as far more acceptable. its repetitive and soothing and safe #also heres a fun little gift for my bellhands friends. I think Sam taught him how to dance. like proper dances. #and it was at the same time as he was learning to swordfight which is partly why theyre so similar for him #Ed and Jack came across them dancing in port; not long after they started talking to Izzy properly (hed known Sam a while by this point) #and like. Jack thinks its kinda funny but Ed? oh hes jealous. for the first time he Wants #Izzy and Sam are so close; and they have been for a while but this is Different. its one thing knowing that its Izzy&Sam and Ed&Jack #and its another thing to see them like this. its intimate and personal and for the first time Ed regrets not seeing izzy first #(this is heavily influenced by my personal pirate school headcanons jfgjfhnv) #makes a post to deal with out of hand tags; tags on that post get out of hand #nyxtalks #ofmd #our flag means death #ofmd s2 spoilers #izzy hands #israel hands #edizzy #blackhands #frenchie ofmd #references to him; anyway. i felt it fit to keep him vaguely defined but it is obviously him. my favourite lil guy #this should probably have been broken up into a couple of posts but NO take this behemoth #if youre curious the post is like 844 words long and with the tags its 1220 ish. i am so sorry #references to vague time periods pre canon and post canon idk put them whenever you want. when edizzy was happy. when they will be again #I cut the bit about weaving because it was just a silly little thing and didnt slot into this but know Izzy with a loom is everything to me #im also sorry the tone is all over the place this is half 'i thinks' and half like. semi narrative things? idk idk i have no sense of order #this is as good as it gets for me

[sammygender]

YALL ARE NOT SERIOUS PEOPLE no way i’m looking at the tumblr tag for spn 7x03 aka the sam centric flashback episode dealing with his childhood trauma and how he feels like he’s a freak and everyone is just posting about DEAN. dean and his stupid fucking pie. dean winchester used to be my guy! genuinely! s2-3 i truly thought i was a deangirl! But you people (plus this show atp lmfao) are making me hate him😭

#he was cute witn his silly pie. and i care for him and understand he’s grieving cas and thinks he’s about to lose sam and is therefore copin #Awfully and doing things like resorting to black and white john winchester embedded monster racism to do so #But thing is i’m actually getting pretty fucking sick of him coping awfully #he never learns he never grows he just gets angrier. he’s incapable of seeing sammy as someone whose decisions can be respected despite the #fact sam literally SAVED THE WORLD by SACRIFICING HIMSELF. #he just sits around and drinks and tries to become his father and avoid becoming his father in equal amounts #he’s actually awful!! sam goes off to do a case something totally justified (tho sure he could’ve asked) and dean fucking punches him in the #face… and somehow it just Doesn’t feel haha funny because its forceful and it’s serious and this is like the 3rd time he’s done this shit #and it’s also in the same ep where we see sams fraught relationship w john (Bc Duh) which is paralleled to the relationship amy has with her #mom where her mom fucking hits her. like. #dean winchester!!! when i find you!!!!!!!! stop recreating ur trauma!!!!!!!! stop taking shit out on sam :( #he cares sooooooooo deeply and it affects every fucking thing he does that’s why he’s so awful and why he cant cope #But guess what the same can be said about john winchezter the same can be said about a LOT of people. doesn’t excuse anything dean. GET YOUR #SHIT TOGETHER. #i love dean he’s vividly compelling to me. But. :/ #oliver talks #sam winchester

[munamania]

i won’t screenshot the dms bc i don’t feel like opening the latest message but EYE posted on my story abt the tiktok pictured below basically about how i got horny thinking abt someone working through a difficult math problem lol don’t worry abt that anyway sam slides up bc i cut part of it out so as to avoid insta censors and my slight embarrassment lol and was like does that say c*m and i was like well yes and then he was like haha what you’re into math… girl u have to walk w the thought process 😑 which i know you’re incapable of anyway so i vaguely responded like ah yeah what being away from stem for so long will do to u and he responds with like ten messages. including. ‘you gotta do it yourself’ that’s not the point 🙄 ‘you know how i’m terrible at talking to women’ wow really ‘so i realized i can calculate the speed of cum’ ‘bc i have some data’ DID I ASK?????!???!?!!!?!!!!! hello there’s oversharing and then there’s this… does the girl you’re having sex with know you share to this extent. and then he said how he accidentally brought this up to someone irl to be like haha awk whoops and i was like yeah well there r times where perhaps we need to self censor. and then i also get a message that’s like ‘hang on im doing the math’ IM NEVER EVER EVER GONNA BE ATTRACTED TO U I HOPE U KNOW THAT SCREAAMMMMM (and u need to know bc he’s genderfluid. im only using one set of pronouns for clarity on here ok i promise im not a dick. but he thinks he’s like. an exception for lesbians basically… like he doesn’t Count…. and like look im no essentialist im all for like freaky gender sex but also at so many other turns you do take advantage of being seen as a white male so. i don’t. yeah.) he’s kind of like the creepy dude at the edge of the friend group in high school named matt who would constantly harass me and my ex but like tried to be so lowk abt it. and it’s so bad basically. ‘17mph is crazy’ i hope you fall in an intersection sorry i can’t do this anymore 😵‍💫😵‍💫😵‍💫😵‍💫😵‍💫😵‍💫😵‍💫😵‍💫😵‍💫😵‍💫 so pissed i have to see him tmrw i should be able to watch mmxxl w scully in peace

#like. WHAT possesses a person to say all this #it’s not like i’ve never talked abt sex stuff w sam or friends i mean look at my major and shit we’re watching we’re all adults here #but like HUUUUHHHHH???? on my silly little story about wanting to watch someone do calc or some shit… shut up… #it’s actually insufferable and i need u all to know. it has not always been to #like. this egregiously bad. certainly there are some flags i missed over time even when we first met maybe but he was significantly #more chill last year.. at least as far as i interacted w him. this is like. yeah idk #and just any time we’re together in person now he launches into whatever is on his mind or he’s up to at that moment what happened to hello #how are you etc. not that i can even like stand conversation esp like. dude we haven’t talked since the day we recorded the podcast #assignment which was also egregious. why would you start off like this. hello #abby talks #i hope his other roommate like beats him up or something. wont happen but well #AND more importantly. do i wear a mini skirt tmrw if i’m seeing roommate #we’re supposed to but we were also hoping to hang outside and now it’s gonna rainnnn but we’ll see #i don’t usually go for a cunty little fit on a monday. but i could. AND i get to go to class a half hour late

[bisaster-energy]

um cas should've been meaner actually "oh he was so bitchy here" he could have been bitchier do u have any idea what those blue steel lookin therapy needing ass boys put him through....he should've gone rabid on them. "early seasons cas was like this" IT WASN'T. ENOUGH.

#dean put a gun to his child's head #and then that same child was killed by his literal dad and his ''family'' was like ''get over it already '' #he should've blew baby up and wrecked the bunker and blasted theur ear drums out are u kidding me #even before jack was even around he should've been fucking them up more like #dean and sam see cas and they're like hey it's our little guy...our dorky dude haha #which like #yeah he is their little guy but he should also be allowed to bite them whenever he wants #for the transgressions #i can't remember where i was going with this but yeah cas went through so much shit thta #sam and dean just couldn't be bothered to try to understand or didn't notice #the one time was in s8 when dean actually wanted cas to talk to him about his feelings and shit #cas admitted to suicidal thoughts but the conversation never got picked back up iirc

[suncaptor]

"You’re still in my cell. You’re my bunkmate, buddy. You’re my little bitch, in every sense of the term," really does go to show the underlying implications of when Lucifer says "bunk buddy" especially in combination with "top or bottom or do you want to share" as a threat huh.

#S.a #Tw abuse #Tw implied noncon #Tw rape #Ask to tag #One of the things I cannot stop thinking about is the way Lucifer casually degrades Sam and the way in which he like... #Talks to him what he's attempting to Do To Sam when he does. it's playing if an unimaginable amount of time during which #Various intense forms of abuse were happening and also based off the fact he wants to and knows how to get to Sam best. #Might be a bit off topic this specifically but casually degrading him due to s.a. is a very significant way he verbally abuses Sam #spn #incoherents #sammy #supernatural #sam winchester #Sorry about this post. #O brother where art thou #S7 #S11 #Hello cruel world

[alittlebitofrainbyyourside]

feeling extremely emo about the incredibly emo poetry I used to write.

#I don't remember all the stanzas #and I don't remember the exact write.. pretty wording but... #but #When we yawn- we force a tiny bit of oxygen directly to the brain- allowing us to stay awake a split second longer #With enough air- it is possible to play a note on a trumpet so loud- and so brash- that it will splatter brain matter against skull wall. #In africa- there is a tribe that drills holes in their skulls in order to talk to God- isn't it amazing what a little bit of oxygen can do #insert stanza that was almost definitely about shooting myself in the head #'She asks me what I'm thinking about- I yawn and say 'nothing''. #I think about death the way other people think about dinner menus #which is to say... on and off throughout the day- every day. #.... truly loved to get on a stage and just be The Worst. #all my poems were about mental illness- sex- or death... and tbh half the ones about sex were about mental illness #I wrote about about bi polar once that basically like- depression was a familiar boyfriend who was terrible for you... kept you home #who never wanted you to do anything. but meant that you would never be alone. and then Mania was this exciting temptrest of a woman. #'WIth her I was all lips and fingertips' #about knowing it was wrong but still being unable to stop myself from courting her- knowing I was cheating. #and then in the end- the poem ends with a bipolar diagnosis #and I just remember Sam... looking at me and being like ???? was that about bi polar the whole time. #yes Sam. Yes Sam. I wrote about making out with mental illness whatcha gonna do about it.

[vi-v-iv]

re: ep 5: i have some hesitations about how/why they chose to make Sam Deaf (which is a departure from the game) but it’s really not my area of expertise. i am curious abt how members of the Deaf community feel abt it.

#(this is an invitation to give thoughts in RBs and replies and such but don’t get nasty pls) #tlou hbo #the last of us #the last of us spoilers #i saw an article talking abt how henry was really bad at keeping sam involved in conversations but like #imo henry is not supposed to be the perfect ally/big brother. he’s flawed as shit #we know this #i think it’s fitting that he filters conversations for sam and lets sam kind of just do his own thing when they’re having down time #especially bc like. sam is 8. what insight is he gonna bring to the table re: escaping the city. #that being said i do think sam being Deaf partly comes off as trying to make things more dramatic #and also by making sam Deaf they knew they were going to have to kill him which raises other concerns about appropriate representation #i will say i think it’s very cool that they had a Deaf actor play a Deaf role #kind of a basic move but still good/right of them that they did that #ok i’m done

[thewingedwolf]

having a group of gay friends where this is their first group of gay friends apparently means they don’t find my “our one token straight friend is like a little gay” jokes funny apparently aksjsjs or when i bitch specifically about the gay dating scene near chicago being dominated by annoying white ex theater gays, they immediately get into like “well there are messy gay poc” yeah i’m aware of that, i’m talking about a really specific issue with the gays in this area pls keep up

#it is a well accepted fact that the gay scene in chicago has a large annoying white gay section who are the Messiest & Cringiest bitches #that have ever lived and every gay scene has A Group that annoys the shit out of everyone else in the scene okay aksjsns #all the lesbians in my area are either married with kids or constantly at a club and i know this bc i have dated lesbians in this area #half the stereotypes about gay people in illinois are about the ex theater gays or party gays in boystown like aksjdjdj come on #i cannot be the only one in tune with the Community here #also if u don’t agree that our straight friend who is always mentioning female celebs she’d go gay for wouldn’t fall in love with some #lady version of sam heughan when she wears an outlander mask to work every day u r just factually incorrect okay #rani makes text posts no one will read #but we were talking about these really specific messy white gay people we know & it’s like yeah so one of them already having a committed #partner 2 weeks after filing for divorce & all of them being like high powered lawyers that spend their free time taking their kids to see #wicked at the oriental theater is just a really specific type of gay person that i’ve dated a lot aksksjsj #and also they’ve been in my friend groups. they’re the only ones with cars everyone else takes the train everywhere & they refuse to go on #dates outside of chicago city limits like they’re gonna get hate crimed the moment they step off the el #which is double funny bc like do u think i live in fucking waukegan do i look like i make that much money no ur not gonna get hate crimes in #this democratic stronghold area like every other person that walks in has a pride pin or pink hair ur good buddy.

[adammilligan]

COULD adam overpower michael like sam did to lucifer? in theory yes i think he could the problem is adam doesn't really have the willpower for it anymore. i mean the end of 15x08 kind of established him as a bit of a wreck with the whole "since when do we get what we deserve" thing because yknow. he was in a cage for a thousand years and he's tired in a hopeless sort of way. if it happens it happens. not to mention michael's his friend! so his willpower would be weakened by that as well. but at the same time i can't see any sort of scenario popping up where adam WOULD have to suppress michael because there is no situation in which michael would be fighting tooth and nail to be in complete control like lucifer was. he respects adam too much to do that and is extraordinarily gentle with him to boot. so in theory yes he could but in practice? michael just hands him control the second adam wants it

#i'm thinking about this one time that jabel said that adam's reached the point where he'd just sort of sit back and let shit happen to him #and i've always sort of thought along the same lines in a way? that the way michael brought up lucifer being freed while adam sat in hell #specifically was like. a breaking point for him. and that's when that sort of bleak state of mind started to set in #and it isn't like adam is incapable of being hopeful anymore! he was hopeful for the future in the diner! #but there is just a bone-deep weariness about him at the end of the episode. which could be explained by the fact that they just got #the god bomb dropped on them. but also it was in response to him being called a good man and being told that he didn't deserve what #happened to him. so yes it's about the cage and yes it's about the silent sense of hopelessness he sits in #i think if something like that ever came up in conversation. maybe in the cage or something #if they're talking about control and how sam did it. or whatever. and adam's just like what does it matter. if you wanted control #i couldn't stop you anyway. and you just know michael would disagree with him about it and say that adam more than has the mental #capacity to suppress him if needed. but adam's not really listening because he's just so resigned to the idea of it happening #like there really is such a power imbalance between them and when building a relationship like theirs that's not something they can really. #ignore. and i think a lot of it at first would be adam resigning himself to the fact that if michael wanted the body he'd have the body #and he couldn't do anything about it. and it doesn't even matter anyway. and then michael's on the other side like #no it DOES matter. i DO respect you. i DON'T want to put you in that sort of position ever. i need you to believe me #like yes michael has issues the size of ten galaxies combined. but honestly so does adam #and even though adam has a tendency to brush talk of his feelings off like they're nothing in 15x08 #michael does reach out! more than once! so there's no reason to assume he wouldn't about this as well #kate rambles #we came to an agreement #michael #adam milligan #midam

[aroaessidhe]

2023 reads // twitter thread

Azura Ghost

multiverse space opera, sequel to Nophek Gloss

Caiden has been on the run with his rare ship and pet alien monster for 10 years, but is lured back when the childhood friend he thought was dead reappeared

m/f friendship, found families, no romance

#Azura Ghost #nophek gloss #i enjoyed this a lot! I think more than the first one #but possibly that's just bc I wasn't going into a completely new unfamiliar thing #kinda doesnt feel lik it’s been 10 years. i do think the time/age skip stuff is weir #truly the first part i was just like doggy………baby creature. little boy. baby. #accurate pet ownership and also i appreciate a Creature as a reader. #i feel like i don’t quite have a grasp on all the characters and wider plot stuff #but like. whatever lol i dont need to #also i appreciate a m/f friendship with a scene explicitly discussing that #which also include specifying the MC is aspec in the VAGUEST of terms - I feel like that could have been a little clearer #or slash. it only really discussed/referenced romance; when the author has only said he's ace & not talked about aromanticism #i know some people are non-SAM ace but idk #asexual books #no romance #aroaessidhe 2023 reads

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Sam and I would be the couple to date for an incredibly short amount of time before eloping and getting married

#ship.txt #🩵🩺 #our story🩵🩺 #(?) I think #listen I've been tempted to call him my husband since day 1 #but I feel like I would be betraying(?) Henry if I got married to Sam before him #which I don't plan on celebrating a 'wedding' until the end of this month #my brain is so weird when it comes to this stuff #anyway Sam and I have definitely talked about going on a road trip to Vegas and getting married #and I've tried to convince him to let an Elvis impersonator officiate (he shuts me down every time lol)