#inner pressure

[positivelyadhd]

i have been reading through the diary I kept from ages 14-17 and realising how helpful it can be to keep a record of how you're feeling at different moments.

not only is it helpful to write down and process how your feeling and give yourself time to truly think about it, it's nice to have something to look back on. to not just remember how you felt about a certain situation but to actually have yourself from that time tell you.

and also, from an adhd perspective, it's really lovely to have reminders of things I'd almost entirely forgotten. it's easy to think that your life right now isn't interesting, but in 5 years time? to know what songs you were listening to or book you were reading or even that Thing that you were so worried about but now you can't even remember the details. it's nice to have a physical reminder that time passes and things really can get better.

#i think part of whats makes it so special to me is that (like it is for a lot of people) those ages where so *much* #and i was so stuck in my head and socially anxious and i feel like those years of school rly shaped who i am now ect #but id kind of forgotten? its become a blur emotions over time and its nice to see it clearer #but also how i changed? and to read into it and see what i did or didn't write #im also a big fan of the inner child and doing things for your younger self and its a lovely gift to have her speaking to me directly #also if you want to journal i highly recommend doing it in a normal notebook rather than a pre planned one #it gives you the freedom for it to be whatever you want with none of the pressure #recovery #tips

[sweepingboy]

sweeping general

#giving my qing’s inner child a strong warm hug #he deserves everything #the pressure he was under must be insane #he never told anyone how bad it was not even his mother #she was already sad that her little boy had to work hard to provide them both #learning that he was over going through abuse daily? that would kill her #really wish he had some adult to rely on in his childhood but he only had himself #mu qing #tgcf #tgcf mu qing #mxtx tgcf

[sleepychaika]

hobbies include: sketching phos (particularly not having a great time). yeah this is just a sketch dump pretty much!.

the last 3 were done while listening to the most phos-core song ive ever heard: Low – More (discovered thanks to @punpuncake) (no seriously, google the lyrics. mind-blowingly accurate. angst.mp3.)

aaand a bonus sketch from an aggie.io session with friends – blindingly white next to the previous pics, so im putting it under the cut:

#phos #phos hnk #phosphophyllite #houseki no kuni #land of the lustrous #.txt #hnk #i honestly really am just. #a big fan of how it (phos). crumbles under all the pressure. literally. self-destructs is how i read it being described today #like it cant handle all of this #so it crumbles and melts away sometimes with a big pow in an explosion and sometimes kind of quietly #just letting its hands lose their form letting the alloy drip through the cracks #it scratches my brain like nothing else #for some reason #maybe it's how it isn't being addressed in the manga directly.... nobody says a thing about it it doesn't get acknowledged verbally iirc #but it very much happens regularly and no explanation is even needed yoy just understand #;_; #i want to hold phos #oh lmao *you #yoy is such a funny typo i instantly hear my inner reading voice's speech being reversed like in a ytp

[nicollekidman]

as an enormous fan. one of the worst things about taylor swift is how deeply cowardly she is when it comes to Avoiding Upset and how this + the vacuum of her life makes every interview/public appearance just. devoid of any real meaning. just absolute crafted nothingness.

#as she gets more calculated in her movements and her appearances and her Life her songs get worse #can i say that #like sOMETHING has to be genuine and it's certainly not midnights #everytime she speaks it's like me when im self absorbedly peach posting at 2am bc im anxious about something that isnt real #this is not entirely her fault obviously like she's basically been heavily pressurized into a diamond but at every step she has played into #is she capable of having thoughts that aren't self referrential and self policing #like i love her #i really deeply do #but i cannot imagine an inner life more isolating and out of whack than hers

[imminent-danger-came]

Why would they do this

#Claudia feeling pressure to save her dad. Ezran feeling pressure to save the world #Something something ''I'm beholden to my inner circle not some silly kingdom'' something something ''You'll grow up weird'' something #tdp #the dragon prince #tdp parallels #tdp s4 #tdp s5 #tdp claudia #tdp ezran #If I had a nickle for every time a character used the dragon button as a table I'd have 2 nickles. But it's weird that it happened twice

[pudgybun]

Slow motion ass jiggles in ABUNDANCE via the ol' OF

#check it out if u want #the recoil. . the wobbling... the way my inner thighs clap together and place pressure against my 😺... yes #babbles

[gehtsis]

haunted woman and the thing haunting her

#pmd #oc: erida #tfw youre in your late 40s and the guy who absolutely ruined your entire life mentally starts reappearing in your nightmares with said guy #being the person you trusted the most. aint that a funny thing to experience #also for the record the dusknoir isnt THE dusknoir. its an illusion produced by darkrai who was created specifically to feed off of erida's #inner turmor and such. also the reason darkrai started doing the nightmare stuff now is because he decided to lurk in the shadows and see #how much erida and gaia will crack under the pressure of everything instead of just going on the pull right after the temporal tower biz #pmd oc

[dnangelic]

sometimes i think abt towa and argentine in the very last manga chapter n cry

#*･ﾟ⊰ 𝐎𝐔𝐓 𝐎𝐅 𝐂𝐀𝐑𝐃𝐒. ⊱ ✦ › OUT. #waaaa waaaa my lucifer my boy-king and the respect and power he doesn't even want but deserves sm #dark wouldnt want towa n argentine's help if he could go without it!! all his theft has been bc he cared #n its the fact he n dai care tht they genuinely deserve the sort of trust respect n acknowledgement from the niwa fam #that the rest of the world who doesnt properly or intimately know the likes of dark n dai doesnt afford them #i justttt wooooughhhh towa argentine gratefully graciously bowing themselves with fealty #to dark who's always been bearing all this insane burden and self-expectation alone #all by himself #afraid even of that solitude but nevertheless doing everything he could for the sake of #what he felt was right saving the artworks saving precious things even if he had to steal them away and disparage himself #more and more (the more he succeeds the more he disgraces himself as a villain and a criminal) #aaaa waaaa INNER NIWA FAM CHARAS r just so special.... THEY GET TO SEE IT ALL... #how heavy the pressure is on dark n dai both actually despite the superficial layers like elmroot says #the 'outer self' that enjoys being a phantom thief and then the inner that 'hunts his own kind' #how tired dark is sometimes... #well. w/e. point is niwa fam chara writers who ever take this into account ill kiss u forever #dark can be annoying or behave in spoiled/lazy/belligerent ways sometimes but it rlly makes him and dai more like the #rebel angel leader / boy king example i try to write them as. they still care ofc they doooo #it's just they're the equivalent of the highest seat holding together their little country #their miniature empire that dark n the niwa have built up over yrs n yrs n yrs!! #dark never claims himself a king or a prince he doesn't throw his weight or titles around like that #but between paradise lost and POTO's occasional angel of darkness/PRINCE of darkness #the vibes are there in between the lines. they r right there. this dude has so much hes taking responsibility for #even though he doesn't even Have To. but in doing so- he is. and SHOULD rightly be supported #in the manner of someone in service demonstrating loyalty to him #ok. ramble over

[halfyearsqueen]

her education as a child was ? extensive, to say the least. as the only child of the heir apparent’s heir, at the time of her birth, she was ? 4th in line to the throne. though it was assumed that viserys would sire a male child and would have a son to succeed him. she was taught things like music, social graces - how to walk, how to present herself at court. how to read, how to write . but her greatest education when it came to court was through exposure. it’s ? said that viserys took her everywhere with him and he encouraged her to ‘ watch and listen closely ‘ . and we know that it was because she was so visible around court that she got the name ‘ the realm’s delight ‘ in the first place

#she was only his cupbearer for a few months before she became his heir apparent #she’s never really been without eyes on her like she’s always been very VISIBLE when it comes to courtiers like #and before the questions started it wasn’t quite as pressing as it was afterward #she didn’t quite feel the weight of it and the pressure of needing to perform for them and try and put the image of ? #strength out there for them so they didn’t circle around her weakness #and I don’t think she would’ve gone much of a chance to play with other children save for laena and laenor because ? #*gotten not gone 😭 #she was being ? the eye was turning to her as more and more at court started to ? not want daemon to inherit the iron throne #and like she would play her harp for viserys’ inner circle every so often

[phoenixyfriend]

Things I'm very happy to have done: bought a tube of concealer at the CVS across the street to keep at work.

Breakouts? When you've had little enough sleep to bit do your makeup in the morning? Bad.

#I know I know societal pressures to look pretty etc. I get it. #i just don't like how I look when I'm wearing a dress and heels #but have red spots on my face. just clashes. #personal #adulthood #makeup #concealer #I also got a tube of eyeliner but that's for touchups when I DO do my makeup (itchy eyes = rubbing off the inner corners)

[sadieshavingsex]

It sucks being raised in an evangelical setting because I feel like sex has so much weight to it.

Even not having it doesn’t feel like something I can just do on a whim, because “I don’t feel like having sex right now” usually actually means something more like “I’m mentally exhausted and don’t feel like unpacking all that trauma today.”

Everything to do with sex just feels like such a big decision, such a non-decision (a reaction, really!), because of the baggage attached to it. Like, sex is rarely just fun—it feels like such a life changing event, dealing with it entails so much emotional and physical and psychological labor, and not doing it isn’t often really a choice either… it’s just a fear thing, a strategy for avoiding that immense difficulty and all the work needed just to get to a basic healthy relationship with the idea & act of sex.

#exvangelical #sexually repressed #mine #purity culture #relationship anxiety #ex christian #ex fundie #religious trauma #ex fundamentalist #acorsexual #eriscarnal #sex therapy #idk if this makes sense but I was thinking the other day that I just want to get to a place where my decisions about sex are MY OWN!!! #instead of coming from a place of fear uncertainty and pressure #sheeeeesh #like hearing the sex therapist talk I realized I really don’t want her to tell me stuff. I just want a space to work out my own inner thots #like I want to know how I feel about it not how everyone else feels #christian purity culture

[dad-dumpster]

he could present us with his art of viktor vampire sucking his blood. being able to choose the place he will bite.😏😏😏

vamp!vik has intimate knowledge abt anatomy, blood vessels and youuuuu ★彡

#he is evil bloodsucking beast #but hes kinda cute #ok i did some research and apparently there is like a vien right there in ur inner thigh #but veins carry oxygen poor blood back to the heart so i dont know how yummy that would be for him #BUT also veins r easier to puncture and have lower blood pressure so u dont bleed out so quick #im not a healthcare professional so this all might be bullshit #but i like the idea of viktor being v hungies but still worrying abt ur safety snd having the knowledge to do so #viktor #arcane viktor #viktor x reader #viktor fanart #mdni #nsft #my art #ask★彡

[marchleader]

nice fancy new look amane! but i fear something is missing... (grants you a cat tail and ears, for 6 posts) ~have fun!

Amane looks away from. This is a bit too far even for the anons. Making her wear something like this.

(That wasn't specified in the ask, her mind helpfully informs her. But this outfit couldn't of come from no where could it? Really what it did was just reveal how much More she has to go to become a good girl.) She paws at the bracelets. Their tight, constricting her wrist. (They look really pretty.) She shakes her head. (The new ears showing to everyone who knows how much she really is Enjoying this, it's disgusting, she's disgusting. What is Wrong with her? What is wrong with Them?)

One of them breaks, the beads scatter on the floor.

(4 left for her new look and 6 for cat ears lets go!)

#(dear wise one) #(am i worthy?) #(even i have hope) #ooc: amane is getting ALL her inner feelings (want to be a cat and liking cute things) exposed today #I am Trying my best to remember how it felt like to be ten and have horrific religious guilt #while also remembering how Amane Usually Acts #bit of a trouble since we havent actually Seen Amane be put in a position where something she finds so personally disgusting about herself #gets shown to people #the most we get is her being Pressured into that position but never actually in it #since shes the most repressed 12 year old you will ever see in your life

[kdsburneraccount]

Oh it’s joever actually

#well. at least there was a little bit of that post bye resurgence #but if he was still injured then like why play 🧍 #i get the pressure of a big contract and stuff but it is not a good look to play hurt #a ligament involved? hm. #well in any case jake browning i hope you channel your inner ryan finley iykyk #nfl #cincinnati bengals #joe burrow

[okaycoffees]

several deadlines are rapidly approaching HOWEVER the sun is out so i'm going to spend the afternoon by the window playing sudoku and my phone and listening to the same two songs on repeat THANK YOU VERY MUCH

#those two songs are leggy blonde and inner city pressure #cant make me work with vibes like this #sudoku #proudly in my old man era #mine

[sorryimananti-romantic]

omg i dont think u remember but yk how i mentioned in an ask that i was better than some smart dude (who i had a rivalry with) at physics?? so the "physics girl" title has been given to me (word got out that i got the highest physics exam score in my grade??) BUTTT this semester i have NOT been focusing in class, i havent attended 50% of our classes (mostly due to practicing for plays, attending school club meetings, falling ill once or twice), and 2nd semester topics are much harder than 1st 😭 AND this exam isnt gna be prepared by our teachers which means i gotta revise EVERYTHING we've covered?? 😭😭😭😭

im fearing that if i score low ppl will think im a fraud/will be disappointed in me/will think i cheated on the other exams ESPPP the physics teacher like omg he has so much faith in me its so overwhelminggggg i think i told you he prepared a physics question in our grade quiz and he said he knew i'd get it correct DUDEEE imagine if i score a 60 when my prev exam scores were 85/92 like he'd be soooo disappointed 😭😭😭😭😭😨😨😨 "anon what happened to you? you used to be so good at physics, UNLESS.... you used to cheat?? 😧" I CAN ALREADY HEAR THE CONVERSATION NOOO 😭😭😭

and dont even get me STARTED on maths like im literally becoming worse with time BROTHERRR the only topic i understand is geometry bro i think im failing this year 😭😭 BUT its fine bc i wanna fail either way (story for another time?)

omg i do remember you the one that made me think academic rivals AHAHAH

okay okay i hear you, this situation sounds all too familiar but listen--

you really don't need to worry about what other ppl will think, it happens! i hope your grade doesn't fall that much if at all, but don't be so worried about what other ppl or your teacher will think. nobody will think you're a fraud or you cheated just bc you didn't do as well (and this hasn't even happened yet!) it happens to the best of us!

i hope you have enough time to plan out how you're gonna revise everything, and since you're good in physics, i believe you will ace it this time too. it doesn't even have to be as good as last time, but around that grade should be fine! (manifesting you score even better tho). but don't let the worry eat you you'll only be wasting your time stressing about scenarios like these bruh 😭 just study hard and you'll be absolutely fine, no matter the outcome! and don't forget to have fun too- you know what they say all day work and no play makes jack a dull boy or sth JKHFSDKJGHJKDFHG

as for maths, NOW THAT'S RELATABLE ASF 😭 if it makes you feel better, i was the maths ace in school until i almost failed 2 times in a row bc i didn't like the teacher and then was very average another 2 times in a row until i finally got my shit together and earned my maths ace status back (i literally wasn't the maths ace anymore but who cares) BUT YOU WANT TO FAIL? ON PURPOSE? i'm waiting to hear all about it

#once you genuinely stop caring about how ppl will react or what ppl will think #life becomes so easy you start winning you achieve inner peace TRUST ME ON THAT #literally cannot stress this enough #all the best to you! #hope you beat that dude again AHAHAH no pressure #physics anon #yumi.asks