#inpatient psych

[neuroticboyfriend]

not that people who've been to the ward are immune from being pro-psych, but if you've never been to a psych ward*, i sincerely don't want to hear about how psychiatry/psychology is good because you've had such a good experience with X provider, or X medication saved your life. *i also don't want to hear about how the forced treatment was what you needed or how the ward you went to let you have your cellphone etc. etc. i genuinely do not want to hear it.

like. the first hospitalization traumatized me so bad, i became dangerously delusional, was re-hospitalized, and sent to state. when they transferred me, i was strapped down into a gurney at all points on my body, *head and neck included*, and loaded onto an ambulance. my parents lost most of their parental rights; i was a ward of the state and had near zero rights. when i got there, they made me choose if, "if necessary," if i wanted to be wrangled down and forcibly injected with a sedative... or wrangled down and locked in a padded room all by myself (but at least i had a choice, right?). i signed consents and paperwork that i did not fucking understand. then i was told i'd be locked inside for 2 straight weeks (which yes, they followed through with). the psych ward was remote, nothing but barbed fences and trees around us. cant even see the sun through the heavily tinted windows. that was the *start* of the stay. i'm sure you can imagine nothing good came after.

so like. if you walk out of a place like that thinking it was good for you, then i can only imagine how traumatized you are and i hope you heal someday. but if you've never faced the destruction of your autonomy like that and go around being like "oh this is good actually" then shut the ever living fuck up.

#julian rants #this is okay to rb but im mainly venting #psych ward #psych survivor #psych ward tw #abuse tw #sanism #ableism #antipsychiatry #antipsychology #antipsych #psychiatric abuse #psychiatric trauma #trauma #psych abolition #psych hospital #psychiatric hospital #inpatient

[dogwisdoms]

This time ten years ago I was hospitalised for the first time (of three, all for psychosis) and didn’t really know who I was or if my life would ever improve.

Today I sat on my back doorstep with the sun on my face as I watched my dog (my very own dog that I have dreamt about for years) have zoomies around the garden and… at last, everything has turned out ok, actually.

#in case anyone needs to hear that things can get better #dogblr #dog #dogs #psychosis #pseriouslypsychosis #inpatient #psych ward

[bpdarlingx]

this user is tired…

#ed not ed sheeran #bpd problems #actually mentally ill #bpd vent #actually cptsd #bipolar disorder #chronic mental illness #actually borderline #bipolar 1 #bpd thoughts #tw sh related #sh addict #cptsd vent #inpatient #psych meds #psych ward

[shattered-yet-whole]

me: I keep getting urges to go back to my abuser... but I know it's bad for me. I just end up more traumatized every time.

my abuser:

#no but really... i keep having urges to go to a psych ward because they taught me that taking me seriously means they make decisions for me #even if they actually dont take me seriously and just make the decisions #to be clear i dont need inpatient (not even by their shit standards bc no one needs control wrested away from them) #im not suicidal anymore (no thanks to them)... theyve just done something to my brain where i want to go back to my stupid abuser #psych survivor #psych survivor meme #psychiatric abuse #psychiatric hospital #anti psych #antipsychiatry

[feralthembo]

imagine if you could choose to check yourself into a psychiatric ward for an amount of time you choose for free and it wasnt just a carceral thing but like. a medical establishment meant to care for people.

#if u dont know what im talking about here this post isnt for u its for my fellow psychiatric abuse survivors #some of us find some stability in the environment of a psych ward that can help when evrythings topsy turvy #i just wish i could do that kinda thing without getting restraints and drugs used on me yknow? #but i have triggers doctors tend to get to in inpatient that make me super violent and like #god i just wish they knew how to talk to people #and also the bill. #a bitch doesnt have insurance #but yeah i could do with a week of observation and assembly of a care team #could you fucking imagine

[dashing-hyphen]

I'm struggling so bad with OCD. I've done compulsions probably like. 60+ times today. It's EXHAUSTING.

#and like #the inpatient psych program i really want to go to #says i have to be doing exposure therapy already #but like??? why? #their modality is exposure therapy #so like #what? #actually ocd #actuallyocd #sighs! #emmetts typing

[dosiadove]

3/15/24

tommorow I will most likely be going to an inpatient mental facility. as a disabled person this is very scary for me but I will try my best to advocate for myself and try to get help.

things I'm worried about

-telling my pcp and asking for help

- that i will not be able to use my own wheelchair (my parents may not give it to me after I call)

- if I do get it to the hospital that the hospital will not let me use it ( but if so they must have one for me to use there)

- that my health will not be properly taken care of or respected, or my symptoms and concerns won't be taken seriously

- that I won't have autonomy due to being in a wheelchair

- that my chronic pain will make sleeping there worse (they aren't very comfy)

- that this is will be my first time in an adult psych hospital ( adults are scary)

-thay they wont take how bad it is at home seriously

- that I won't be able to grt a social worker and helping escaping home

- that's the food will make me sick and there won't be good vegetarian options

- that my spd won't be taken seriously and accommodations won't be made

- also the fact I'm doing this going behind my parents (they will be furious)

d.d

#mental health #anxitey #mental illness #sleep deprived thoughts #depression #sleep deprived #insomnia #mental hospital #psych ward #inpatient #disabilities #disability #disabled #chronic pain #chronic illness #chronically ill #sick #fibromyalgia #arthritis #hypermobility #hypermobile joints #spd #sensory processing disorder #sensory processing issues #sensory issues #wheelchair #ambulatory mobility aid user #ambulatory wheelchair user

[dromaeocore]

I know I talk a lot about issues within inpatient psychiatry and how they affect the patients (and this should frankly be the #1 priority), but I think how these issues affect the staff is important too. This paper goes into moral injury amongst psychiatric hospital staff in depth, and is the only systemic analysis I've been able to find on the topic.

Some quotes from staff members that I found particularly striking:

"The medicalisation approach of care for psychiatric patients has overlooked the principles of “care” in the context of nursing, and consequently the emphasis seems to have shifted more towards safety management. . ."

"What stops me from acting was I am part of a team . . . if I intervene in these situations I’m interfering with primary nursing, and I think I would be seen as splitting the team by taking the side of the patient."

"When I expressed my concern over what seemed like a blatant error in diagnosis, my instructor . . . who I held in really high esteem . . . just said “Docs don’t misdiagnose . . . there’s no misdiagnosing here,” and I was thinking, “Are you kidding me? Like, isn’t that against everything we’ve ever learned about critical thinking and looking at the specifics and questioning. . .?”"

"It’s not to be taken lightly when you put your hands on somebody. It’s wrong really. It’s like the opposite of therapeutic touch."

"I run to another ward when we hear the assault alarm and find a half-naked woman lying on the floor. As I understand it, the patient has “moved into top gear” and will be given an injection. . .. I’m distressed about the woman lying there half naked (why didn’t anyone think of covering her with a blanket?)"

Most of what the article discussed in the "implications for practice" section is about giving psychiatric healthcare workers more avenues to report immoral acts, along with trainings on how to deal with moral injury, but I have another takeaway. Both patients and staff are traumatized by this system. Why aren't we fundamentally changing something?

(Additionally, this system is perfect for burning out staff that have strong ethics and leaving the abusive staff to run things. So there's issues on both a systemic and individual level.)

#psychiatry #mental healthcare #inpatient psychiatry #moral injury #psychiatric abuse #abuse cw #public health #psychiatry critical #psychiatric nurse #psychiatric staff #mental health nurse #psych ward #psych hospital #tfw a cool epic paper came out JUST A FEW MONTHS AGO WOOOO #why is everyone not clambering over themselves to give this post notes. Surely there is something wrong with them and not me

[neuroticboyfriend]

massive trigger warning for abuse/suicide on this one, but for anyone who thinks psych wards are about protecting people:

1. my friend was trying to choke herself. i begged the staff to help her, and they said she was only looking for attention. minutes later, they call a code, wrangled her to the ground, and forcibly sedated her.

2. a girl was upset because she couldnt call her dad past a certain time. she started screaming, and crying, messing up the front desk. 8 security guards took her down. they broke her arm and sprained her wrist.

3. i came back to my unit in shambles because the staff on hand did nothing to stop a fight. i had to remedy the situation myself. things like this happened often.

4. i was having a trauma meltdown during "quiet time." the youngest patient tried to comfort me, and staff told her to stop and go back to her room because i was "a big girl who can handle herself." i was an out trans guy. the staff member didnt speak to me at all.

5. they separate roommates if they become friends. but they put me and my friend together for the sole purpose of putting us on constant observation together. we had zero privacy, even in the bathroom (which they took the door off of). at state, if you're on C.O, they take away your clothes, possessions, and "privileges."

6. im a CSA survivor. i was forced to regularly occupy the same space as a rapist, no matter how many flashbacks it caused me. they even roomed him next to me.

7. i am intersex. at state, doctors forced me onto an anti-androgen. i refused at first; they labeled me noncompliant, extended my stay, and took away my "privileges" (ex: snacks, going outside, doing fun activities, socializing).

8. they left my friend in a padded room strapped to a table for hours. they then let her off the table and left her in the padded room overnight. she had to wait hours in the morning to be let out.

9. at state, kids have to choose between being forcibly injected with a sedative, or being locked in a padded room if deemed "necessary." your parents have to sign away most of their parental rights, and if they want to sign you out, they need to go to court. for months. the state owns you.

we were all children. none of what i said is a "bad apples" situation. things like this happened every. single. day. it happened at multiple hospitals. these places are made to control mentally ill and other marginalized people. they exist to abuse us into conformity, take away our autonomy, and keep us away from polite society. psych wards should not exist.

#softspoonie #disabled #disability #abuse #psychiatric abuse #psych hospital #psych ward #psych survivor #hospital #inpatient #mentally ill #mental illness #suicide #child abuse #physical abuse #emotional abuse #neglect #child neglect #antipsych #antipsychiatry #anti psych #anti psychiatry #psychiatry #intersex #trans #transphobia #intersexism #queerphobia #queer #lgbt

[bartonbones]

i do quite honestly spend a lot of time thinking abt what's best for carmy berzatto. i worry about him like a son. i worry about him like i am his primary care provider and i am legally held responsible for any decisions i make lest i be sued for medical malpractice

#when i write fic i need u guys to know im thinking like this always #i JOKE about inpatient psychiatry services but WOULD that be the best thing for him?? #i think forcing him to take a break from the kitchen is the only way you'll get anywhere with him #and i think inpatient or at least a day program would provide that defined reason why he can't be in the kitchen #like it's an issue you'd have to force w him #but also NOT force in a way that would aggravate more issues #like if his break from the kitchen is just richie guarding the door i think it'd just make things worse #he's getting kicked out again; mikey was right not to start a restaurant w him; ect #so it needs to be something he either radically chooses or is something that is no one's direct choice #i.e. an inpatient hospital stay #whether for psych issues or something else #anyway. i want to write an eighty page care plan regarding carmy berzatto's mental and physical health #i am crazy. i am insane.

[try-and-try-and-try-again]

Another anorexic patient got admitted last night and I’m feeling incredibly triggered/in constant comparison mode. Help.

#personal #thoughts #ed recovery #mental health #inpatient #psych ward

[bpdarlingx]

packing for summer vacation ~ packing for the p$ych ward

this is my 10th admission in the past 3 years... send help

#bpd problems #actually mentally ill #psych ward #bipolar disorder #summertime sadness #inpatient

[drowsyanddazed]

got a package from my parents today and it was just a full size cake ahha. so i’ll be spending my birthday this weekend studying for finals and eating an entire cake to myself 👍🏻

#summer birthdays are no longer fun when you get older :\ #last year i had a final on my birthday and the year before that i was working a double shift at the inpatient psych unit i used to work at #the summer before my program started #took all my school age birthdays for granted :( #edit:​WAIT IM SORRY ITS not my brithday ~today. it’s in a couple of days. ahah my bad but thanks layla & brynn for the wishes <33

[im-enoch]

That feeling when "if you keep it up like this, you'll most likely go into psychosis"

That moment when "you would really benefit from inpatient care"

#enoch speaks #actually psychotic #mental illness #schizoaffective #actually schizospec #schizo spectrum #psychosis #schizophrenic disorder #actually schizophrenic #schizospec #actually delusional #actually mentally ill #inpatient care #tw psychosis #psychotic disorders #psych ward

[starblaster]

i hate the way ‘higher functioning’ neurodivergents will gaslight psychiatric survivors like “what do you mean? psychiatry is awesome, it helps me so much! i think you’re either exaggerating or lying about the psychiatric system being inherently traumatic because that hasn’t been my experience at all. my psychiatrist is a great person who would never hurt anyone. and when i was hospitalized for suicidal ideation, my upper-middle-class white body was never mistreated or medicated without consent, and all the other people in the hospital with me needed to be there even if they said they didn’t want to be, because it was for their own good!”

like, do you just think the world fucking revolves around you? do you think your privileged experience is universal? are you that incapable of comprehending, let alone having compassion for, the suffering of others?

#i'm not going to start naming off diagnostic labels but like #the physically abled people who rarely struggle at all #and aren't forced into involuntary inpatient care or conservatorships by their families #who don't show symptoms in public and get fucking arrested for it #if you've never experienced this stuff then take my advice and STOP commenting on it in favor of psychiatry #because you CLEARLY aren't even aware of the reality. the full picture. #if you think this shit is done/gone/in the past and/or exaggerated/fabricated you're simply not correct. #so stop fucking endorsing psychiatry like you owe it something. #the same psychiatrist who treats YOU well treats OTHERS like garbage #and yeah honestly if you've said this shit in the past i do think you need to feel guilty #antipsychiatry #psych abolition #psychiatric abuse #gaslighting

[naamahdarling]

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#controversial take but families should not have more influence over mental health policy than the actual patients #yet again i see another initiative pushed by loved ones that will make things less safe for patients #sorry bad shit happened to your loved one but you can't call for worse treatment of psych patients and call it right #the only people who should have a voice in this are actual patients #not doctors not families not legislators nobody but patients #everyone else get out because it isn't your well-being at risk #so much seems to be about preventing families from suffering #so thay nobody will have to go through what they did #that's...not how you help patients #you can only help patients only by listening to patients #anything pushed by other parties that does good does it mostly by accident #because they sure aren't looking at what WE go through and what we say is best for US #wards are prisons and prisons are inherently violent and surveillance meant to increase interventions that funnel patients into wards #is a form of violence and abuse #abolishing prisons means abolishing psych wards as well so make a note of that #and don't EVER support ANY measure that increases ANY scrutiny of patients because it puts patients in danger of wrongful incarceration #based on the whim of what may be one trainee therapist a school counselor or Christ help you a fucking COP #increasing access to mental health care should not ever involve a mechanism making it easier to send patients inpatient for their own good #starting to think the whole thing isn't worth keeping as it is #doctors and psychs are primarily gatekeepers and cops anymore and it's ridiculous that I should have to walk on eggshells #to access second-rate care #the lunatics SHOULD be running the asylum because they're the only people a fellow lunatic can trust #takes that will get you burned at the stake