#inspired by the current state

[30-3am]

just imagining james helping you when you're going through a hard time, especially if it was a depressive episode. he'd noticed you'd been staying in bed longer, rarely leaving your shared bedroom and you really hadn't been yourself. and he'd become increasingly concerned the next day when your mood hadn't seemed to improve. he'd understand completely and one morning, he'd come in the bedroom and just sit down, his heart aching as he saw you curled up, staring at the wall. he'd run a hand through your hair and a small, "you okay?" would pass his lips. and the question would make everything worse and he'd watch as you screwed your face up, your lip quivering and tears filling your eyes.

he'd silently sit you up and hold you against his chest, letting you cry and holding the back of your head with his hand. and his own heart would ache and a part of him would feel angry at nothing and everything all at once because his girl should not be feeling such a way.

"shhh, honey, it's okay. i've got you." and when you eventually stopped crying and pulled away from his chest he'd hold your face in his hands. "what's wrong?" "i just feel like shit," you'd sniffle and he'd brush a stray tear away with his thumb. "i don't know what i'm doing anymore."

his heart would be breaking but he'd stay strong for you and listen as you ranted, telling him how horrible the past couple of days have been. and once you'd spoken through your problems he'd get you in a bath, running a hand up and down your back as you sat in the water.

he'd silently wash your hair, his sleeves rolled up as he leaned over the edge of the bathtub. and once you were clean he'd wrap you up in a towel and kiss you softly on the forehead, bringing you in for another hug.

"what do you wanna do now?" you'd have that strange, numb feeling inside of you but his comfort was making you feel better, keeping you grounded in reality.

"i don't know."

"you wanna eat?" you'd nod and he'd mutter a small, "okay." pulling away from you and smiling. "you get dressed and come downstairs, okay?"

so, you'd get dressed and when you got downstairs, he'd be making your food putting it in front of you as you sat down at the table. and it'd be hard to eat, like it always is, but he'd sit down beside you, a hand on your back and he'd even make you laugh a couple times.

"thank you," you'd say once you were finished, because somehow, even if you weren't crying for help, he'd still give it to you. you could be masking your emotions so well and he'd still know if you were sad. he could read you like a book and he'd be damned if he'd let you stay in such a state. "i love you."

he'd smile and press a soft kiss to the top of your head, his hand in your hair.

"i love you too, sweet girl." he'd hold you close against his chest. "you can always talk to me, you know that don't you? i'm not going anywhere."

and for the first time in a long time, you'd genuinely smile, pressing yourself into his body, forever grateful that he was yours.

#alana's thoughts #james hetfield #metallica #james hetfield x reader #james hetfield fluff #james hetfield blurb #james my beloved #metal #80s metal #i guess i'm back #this is inspired by my current state #but i'm getting better each day

[marinecorvid]

2.5.24 - some weird bird sketches I did instead of sleeping

#my art #pokemon #yveltal #lugia #articuno #zapdos #moltres #vhagar is an oc of mine #inspired if you could imagine by vhagar of asoiaf fame #they are both old and grumpy and extremely violent #my vhagar spends most of her time napping in remote sea floor trenches #and killing anything that bothers her #also her spikes glow like godzillas when she’s charging up her signature super powered aeroblast #her backstory lore is ‘got blasted with insane amounts of light energy from a space time rift/wormhole a few thousand years ago #and it supercharged her so now she’s massive and op and will probably outlive us for countless more generations #also I’m still tryna figure out her colors #cuz the idea is she’s lived so long that most other lugia have evolved (scientifically) to their current state but she’s so old #that she looks like how all lugia looked like that far back #maybe to the point of being classified as a different species

[spotsupstuff]

What is your take on how The Cycle works in Rain World?

Because I was reading the most recent post of Sparrow and it said that she died and came back, but then in other post it said she reincarnated as someone else??? It left me a little bit confused

i gotchu, good fellow, doncha worry (reminder to the lore nerds out there that this is Specifically my take on this with which i am Not tryin to stick to the canon lore with teeth n nails. this is my very own bog to trudge through)

SO in my for-the-serotonin take that we constantly poke at here, there are Actual Gods present (based off of the existence of the Void Worms, spun a lil more wildly outwards into world-building). they had been forgotten or forsaken by a lot of the population in favor of their little man-made gods aka the Iterators

the only places where the faith in them survives are the ones where the folk culture persists still. so Sparrows is technically a pagan! this whole eradication of the original local believes happened as a result of religious colonization of the whole world by a culture originating in The Wellspring. think what happened in Europe with pagan believes and christianity

this came to me when i realized how fuckin weird it is that the ENTIRE planet went through with the Mass Ascension. where's the cultural variety? Somebody would have resisted, somebody would have stayed- some branch of culture and belief would have looked at that n wouldve gone "are you stupid what the fuck, that's not how That spiritual aspect Works. get lost with that" because the religions just wouldn't match

either way- the existence of the Folk OG Gods is important to know, because this whole "die, but come back to life again the next day" kush was a gift from one of the Gods!!! one of them thought that it is unfair that a life should be cut so early, that an individual should lose all that they've developed in this life spontaneously, often because of things they couldn't even control. it was meant to be a mercy. a near bottomless bucket of second chances to pull from and keep trying living the best and happiest life one could possibly lead

The Wellspring Ancients with the belief that took gloobal control and then the Extremist of that religion however started propagating this blessing as a curse. so little haters syndrome

reincarnation as a different person happens when one is too young or too old

when kids die they don't come back as the same people because their etheric and astral bodies haven't been developed fully yet and are therefore not rooted in the smaller cycle of Respawning since they aren't whole yet when elders die they don't come back as the same people because their energy for life at that point is largely depleted and they cannot hold on to the Respawn cycle, so to speak. so granda can bitch about the younglings on his lawn as much as he wants but he better fuckin stay indoors if he wants to stay past the Respawn expiration date

that's how reincarnation that we are familiar with in real life happens in RW! some things from past life still stay with them even into the next life. Sparrows' past life consisted of studying and fucking around with technology a lot, so when she was born as the person we know her as now, she was a techie prodigy

just like in actual Buddhism, person's karma at the end of their life determines where and as what they will be born. Sparrows sucked at the religion shit in the past life as well so she was born into lower, less comfy life than her previous one. and just like in actual Buddhism, an Ancient can be reborn as an animal or a plant if they sucked with their karma REALLY badly across multiple lives

#Spot says stuff #rw #rain world #sure ill throw it into the main tag for the fun #oc tag #stating again!!! this isnt meant to be canon lore complimenting!!!! dont lecture me on this im doin my own thing #i THINK that is all the thoughts i have to it currently -squints- if anythin u can ask for more clarification as always we might end up- #-developin smth neat together at the end of it who knows #my inspirations for this are ofc buddhism and then theosophy

[maraudersoncrack1981]

All the young dude spoilers

Remus would use being sick to get out of class no matter what during his first couple years out of Hogwarts it could be something as simple as a cold and he'd still stay off. That was until Sirius made Remus 'Lectiuncula Magna', a spell made to help him read, Remus never stayed off without a fight from then on because he actually started enjoying classes.

Remus going to class even when he was sick became so often that when he was sick, James would wake up early to get Sirius and Peter out of the room as quietly as possible and he'd leave a note for Remus saying "if I see you in even one class for a second I'm dragging you back to the dorms, SLEEP MOONY -prongs" then there would be a follow up note saying "get better soon moony -pad foot & wormtail".

#seaksmoc #marauders era #marauders #the marauders #dead gay wizards #james potter #all the young dudes #atyd marauders #atyd sirius #atyd remus #atyd fandom #atyd #atyd james #atyd peter #Lectiuncula Magna #atyd wolfstar #i typed this while getting ready to go to the doctor so current inspiration is my current state of health

[canichangemyblogname]

For some 20 years, Israel has been claiming that Hamas uses civilian infrastructure to hide themselves behind children and other innocents. And I have maintained that it doesn’t matter how much they claim this, it doesn’t matter where Hamas hosts a command center, the means (carpet bombing civilians) do not justify the end (striking Hamas), and, in fact, using these such means to strike a blow against enemy combatants is expressly forbade. One war crime (hiding among civilians) does not justify another war crime: targeting and killing non-combatants.

After the 2008 Gaza War, the UN deployed a fact-finding mission to conduct an investigation into allegations that Hamas uses civilian locations to shield military activities. The UN issued the “Goldstone Report,” which said among other things that, “On the basis of the investigations it has conducted, the Mission did not find any evidence to support the allegations that hospital facilities were used by the Gaza authorities or by Palestinian armed groups to shield military activities and that ambulances were used to transport combatants or for other military purposes.”

You can read the report below:

As I have previously explained, if you target the civilian population and its infrastructure, you inevitably create a climate where the idea of self-defense is no longer considered radical, but a necessity and you hasten the radicalization of an entire population and their international allies.

#Israel #Palestine #Gaza #Israel is purposefully using tactics that will inspire military action against the state. #It is creating its own security threats #and that is why I will always maintain that the current state is a threat to Israeli Jews.

[chiropteracupola]

In honor of my day, ice, snow, and/or shovel!

from one of my various foth winter-fics:

“Does the loch ever freeze over, in the winter?” Keith had learned, in the month of travel and settling in at home again, that Ewen was often more easily drawn from a dark mood if he was asked something that concerned his land, for to inquire after Ardroy was to inquire after Ewen’s heart as well. “Oh, yes — but if you are intending to cross over to the island on the ice, I cannot say that I recommend the attempt,” said Ewen, with an odd little contemplative smile.

and from the other winter-fic:

Keith, his face well practiced in its grimness, struggled upright, all his resolve evidently focused on remaining on his feet. Ewen reached out to steady him, a pang of worry driving his grip on Keith’s forearm. “I’ve walked off worse before,” said Keith, speaking through clenched teeth, but he did not refuse Ewen’s hand as he offered it. He dusted snow from his coat, where it had collected thick and sticky in his fall, unable to hide the other consequence of his misstep so easily.

and for an immense tonal shift, from the flintlock fortress prequel set during Ansel's medical school days:

“Well? Would you like to come along?” The shovel he was attempting to hide behind his back was quite obvious.

#em writes stuff #heronposting #flintlock fortress #DOUBLE WINTER HERON LADS ATTACK! #hopefully the current snow-and-cold state of things going on right now actually inspires me to work on those two #and about the third one. Yes they are going to go dig up a body together. #best of luck with your own snowy endeavors!

[fallenwhumpee]

Apperantly, if you gave your whumpee enough coffee, your whumpee just wouldn't be sleeping that night. Not because the coffee would keep them awake. No. They would feel miserable and sleepy, but they wouldn't be able to close their tired eyes or stop the shakiness that took over their body every once in a while, tensing randomly as they sit/lay down. There would be a subtle ache just between their brows that would ease little when pressed, but it would come back again and again until whumpee could think of nothing else. Their heartbeat would be loud enough to echo in their mind. And if they drank too much, they would actually start to think if they had drank poison instead of coffee.

#definitely not inspired from my current state #i rambled a bit

[springlock-suits]

I already mentioned this before but god I love that the fnaf animatronics have a toy theme and I so wish they did more with it

#darlingsfnafau #<-so i remember to look back on this when working on designs #tho im talking about canon fnaf currently #like. man #dont quote me dont trust me ever but i believe Scott once stated freddy was a teddy bear #but even without that the toy theme is still clear in canon from fnaf 4 #the classics are plushies and the toys are action figures. n this is true for their own designs #and in the fnaf movie!! they showed us what a human character would look like with the classics and it doll! #rather than being a human like pasqually in chuck e cheese #its a human like doll! because the Freddy's animatronics are based on toys! #AUGHHHHH #<- positive #very very sadly. this quickly seemed to stop being the case #probably ended with sl or immediately after #no proof for this but i like to think of the sl animatronics as being porcelain figurines/doll inspired #if i get to redesigning them i hope to base them off of porcelain jester and clown dolls

[wainwrightjakobshammerlock]

old men who are so so crusty. crustier than an apple pie even. and tired

#my post #borderlands #artstuff #alistair hammerlock #wainwright jakobs #wainlock #bl3 #trans headcanon #this image is partially inspired by my current state (ouchy joints and tired eyes) #and partially fuelled by spite bc [redacted] #old man yaoi

[crescentmp3]

love planning out an entire video game that will take me years of learning to get started on making.

#well! you start somewhere‚ i suppose. #it's a meta game that takes inspiration from bad end theater‚ deltarune‚ there is no game and oneshot ^^ #we have stereotypical characters carrying out a stereotypical rpg when - oh no! the villainess stepped out of the generic conclusion by/ #/almost winning. that's not right! so the program has glitched. #one existential crisis later‚ the heroine‚ sidekick and villainess team up to go on an adventure within the players computer. #and what do you know‚ going on a journey with your destined enemy sure does wonders for self-reflection! #that's the basic idea‚ at least. i've written out the basic plot and am currently working on the characters. #simply‚ they will in the first part be perfectly stereotypical and generic characters that fit their archetypes. #when they begin to journey together instead of against each other‚ they will realise many things and grow as characters‚ figuring out/ #/things about themselves they were previously blind to‚ fixing their flaws and changing for the better. #how lovely. how lovely. i cannot wait to make this one day in the future #im also quite fond of the characters in their grown states when they gain a personality beyond their destined archetype #and also. heroine and villainess discover lesbianism and sidekick discovers aromanticism. peace and love on planet earth #🌙rambling #🌙farglitch

[filet-o-feelings]

okay, I opened the doc... what next?

(counting this as my inspiration Saturday... it's more of plea for inspiration but it's what I'm working with. Anyway, thanks for the tags @hippolotamus and @lemonlyman-dotcom 🥰)

#I haven't worked on this in over 2 months helppp #fuck it I'm on vacation I got a glass of wine and I'm gonna try to remember what this fic is even about #library boy #inspiration?????? saturday #maybe I need someone to beta this and give me a push #but it's so long even I don't want to read it in it's current state in order to edit so I don't want to ask anyone lmao #anyway if anyone is up to the task of reading 30k words of an unfinished disaster fic dm me I guess? #okay I'm going to force myself to at the very least look at the doc without looking at tumblr or my phone for... 15 minutes minimum #maybe something will happen? #sigh here goes I'm going really I am definitely not lingering in the tags to avoid it even longer nope not me never

[wheelie-sick]

I go to class

I get back home

I open the cripple punk tag

I bash my skull in with a brick

I close the cripple punk tag

#inspired by the tag's current state #tw suicide #<- JIC

[sodalitefully]

not to be dramatic but i would die for the gnr's gustav klimt vienna july 13 2022 poster. the logos and the guns hidden in the patterns. the alt lyrics to don't cry! and it's metallic in person

#artist is arian buhler #i think #and theres also an alt poster inspired by arnold schwarzenegger which i think is pretty funny #did i spell that right? he was only the governor of my home state for 8 years of my life... #is that something that most people know about arnold or do they just think of him as an actor? #anyway #guns n roses #gnr #gustav klimt #posters #current gnr #to be clear i don't own this poster i am not in vienna i saw it online

[alangdorf]

Actually I lied I’m just gonna do separate posts cause I’m impatient, one composite one now and then the rest (including the normal form ref, Traitor Magolor/EX, hopefully Epilogue final boss fight and maaaaaybe Manager/Shoppekeeper Magolor) later when they’re done, which will be after the legs are all finished. Anyway here’s Magolor

Now, you may be thinking: “Hey Kit, did you make our catboy a bird?” To which I say, “Read my 1.8k word essay from last week.” Albeit I don’t think canon Magolor is an actual Doomer, I just thought it would be fun; plays nicely with the wings + talons imagery of the crown, and I wasn’t sure about giving him full-on cat ears anyway (Also. Egg). I’m also weirdly committed to both staying relatively on-model and having fairly realistic continuity and am proud of how well I managed to do on those with stuff like the sleeves having the same markings as the ears of the hood so they can stand in for them in 2nd phase after the cloak gets its closure broken and falls off. Also btw the leg prosthetics (I commissioned a friend who draws mecha to design better ones than I could lol) are held together & operated by magic that Mags is always running in the background so they fall apart in 2nd phase once he’s no longer controlling his own magic. Ok that’s probably enough non-tag rambling; hasta luego!

#art #digital #kirby #magolor #kirby gijinka #sketchbook #body horror #blood #minor but it’s there in 2nd phase/soul form though if you’ve seen Magolor Soul it’s not that surprising #loosely inspired by a lot of Magolor gijinkas I’ve seen on tumblr but I can specifically call out nyaagolor and otaku553 for the hair #also something-sacriou for the pants which I did not end up using for logistical reasons #namely I felt like adding the tail (just one lol) and I was like well he keeps it under his clothes usually but #pants would be trickier for that and it would look weird just hanging out of one pant leg plus they’ll look weird without legs in em #so skirt time #hand on a bible in front of a court of law I swear I didn’t make him super feminine on purpose this time! This just happens to me!! lol #oh btw his thigh stumps are actually shorter than they look here I just drew these before that was decided (more space for the joints) #and don’t feel like editing these again #also as stated yesterday I’m not super happy with these artistically but I shrimply have got to draw. I got bit by the art bug #plus I fixed my brush settings somewhat for the one I’m working on currently so that’s good though I’d still like to experiment more #I’m just really inflexible and not really willing to put in a ton of extra brainpower rn #oh and I know the gold/silver hair presents a contrast issue but I like it conceptually so w/e #AGH I forgot alt text!! it’s there now though I hope it’s ok

[merevide]

i love music so much i love discovering new songs i love listening to albums i can’t live without music. this song is sogood it makes wanna die wowww

#this is how i feel with every song i have listened to ever #doesn’t matter how upbeat or catchy the song is. it will make me feel so good i wanna die. BUT IN A GOOD WAY. #idk how to explain this to people esp with my near constant depressive state of mind #i will say this to people with my dead eyes and off putting demeanor and personal history and alarm bells alarms alarms. #which fair but also. i just feel so happy i wanna disregard my well-being. that should be normal #the current song that inspired this post is heavy metal heart btw #my text #death mention tw #death tw

[waterfall-ambience]

"nooo auri dont start a new project" and i wont. but what if queer wizards, intellectualism, isolation, and the pain being connected/disconnected to a culture and society that simultaneously loves and hates you.

#auri rambles #i know nothing else about this story other than the broad themes a bit of worldbuilding and the protagonist being a wizard named tasia #who wears a suit for most of the story and transforms herself into a dude to try to appeal to her love's parents and for gender fun. #(she doesnt get the girl in the end) #its like (handwave) idk loosely inspired by rizal's works but its closer to ig nimona in that its the current state of things #but with fantasy elements #tasia lives in 2 worlds and one of them is much more overtly fantasy catholic & evangelical than the other