Hey guys so... I've never done this, but I wrote something and I felt like I needed to share it. A year ago my best friend at the time and I stopped talking, and I wrote a little something to make me realize how far I've come. I hope you enjoy and, if you feel somehow reflected in this, please remember that you deserve so much better 💜
It's almost been a year. It almost feels surreal, like I imagined it all. One day you were there and I could count on you for everything, the next I don't even know who you are anymore. I remember the way I used to idealized our friendship, thinking that everything you did was normal. How you betrayed me and used me every single day. I remember blaming myself because for me the fact that my best friend was hurting me consciously was not possible. I remember thinking that, even if I wanted to, I could never keep away from you. And I hated myself for that. You made me feel like I had to be always available for you, yet when I needed you, you were never there. I constantly felt like I was competing for your attention. I think the worst part of it all was how I justified everything you did, how I always expected you to change one day and to value me for who I am. I've come a long way now. It's not that I don't miss you sometimes, because I do. You were one of the most important people in my life, and you will always have a spot in my life. But I don't need you anymore. They say that everything happens for a reason, and I believe that you and I were destined to meet and to show each other an important lesson: you only need yourself, everybody else is just an addition. So, overall, thank you. For showing me that I'm capable of loving the way that I loved you. For making me realize that I'm a forgiving person and that, sometimes, I should not be that forgiving. For making me realize that there was not anything wrong with me. I want you to know that now, one year later, I don't blame you. I have understood that your personality is that way and that we simply do not match. But I also want you to know that you will regret this. I don't know when, or if you would notice it, but I know you will. Because you are not going to find me in anyone else. The things I did for you, no one is ever going to do it. I was like a shooting star, but you didn't know how to keep me in your life. I hope that, at some point in your life, you realize that you are the only one on this planet. That people matter, and that even if you don't need anyone, they make your life so much better. I hope you learn to care about others and to be there for them. You made me very happy during the two years of my life, and I sincerely believe you can do better. My life will forever be marked by you but, with time, you will realize that I marked yours too.
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Watched a really good movie this morning from the 80’s called “Moonstruck” and loved this quote ❤️ @therealangel1111 Felt guided to watch it and there were lots of synchronicities like the main character (Cher’s) husband was killed by getting hit by a bus and her new lover (Nicholas Cage) has his hand chopped off. Even though it was just a movie I felt a lot more empathy with the character’s suffering after my accident even though mine wasn’t nearly as bad and I guess it made me more grateful. In fact I’ve felt a lot more empathetic towards others suffering since the accident which I guess is one good thing that’s come out of it even though I’m still in pain 😫 The strongest souls often have to go through some of the hardest challenges. Inspired by people like Frida Kahlo who was in bus accident and Sylvester Stallone who’s script for Rocky was denied 1500 times. He also was homeless, had to sell his wife’s jewelry at one point and the lowest was selling his dog which he later bought back. He never gave up though and look how well Rocky did! So fucking inspiring highly recommend searching “Sylvester Stallones Tony Robbins” on YouTube for the whole thing❤️ #inspiring #inspiration #inspirational #inspirationalquotes #quotes #movies #film #filmmaking #motivation #motivational #motivationalquotes (at The Lenox Hotel) https://www.instagram.com/p/COi0gDHBlW0/?igshid=1v8jdblp6ud9i
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