#intense aspects

[sexy-sapphic-sorcerer]

BBC Merlin being about 'magic' for 7 minutes gay

#not to be all autistic about media analysis again but i think fandom tends to overlook the symbolic/metaphorical aspect of queer subtext #a show can be queer coded because two same sex characters have an intense relationship with homoerotic undertones #or it can be queer coded because it conveys themes of alienation. repressed identity. oppression. internalised shame #Merlin does both. several times over #gay ass wizard show #bbc merlin #merlin #merthur #magic is gay #magic as a metaphor #flashing #flashing lights #< thanks to photosensitive-despair for advising me to change the tags

[togaki-kun]

Gojo “No one is allowed to take youth from young people” Satoru and Nanami “Being a child is not a sin” Kento can actually be so personal.

#nanago #i genuinely forgot gojo had that line but hot damn does it make me consider just how similar he and nanami are in that aspect #like. they both had life ripped away from them young. #gojo with himself and riko and then nanami with haibara. #they were each only 16/17 and the realities of sorcery caught up to them faster than it should have. #so yeah they’re pretty intense about their beliefs. they fucking had it stolen from them #which is why they’re adamant on others not experiencing the same thing they went through. #i adore them both So so much. #and i wish they could have fulfilled their dreams #jjk spoilers #tagging this with that last thing just in case anybody comes across these tags and shouldn’t have

[sheryl-lee]

idk if this makes sense. but i kind of love that the last of us makes me cry and viscerally FEEL true emotions on a weekly basis. like i cant remember the last tv show i watched that had me consistently bawling my eyes out and so immersed in a show because of the characters, the story, the incredibly strong writing, etc. and it doesn't feel manipulative. it just feels profound and beautiful and poetic but also tragic and... human.

#it's a whole spectrum of emotion!!! it's beautifully tragically human!!!! is that not what it is to exist!!!! #and it's therapeutic honestly. to spend like an hour in a world that isnt real but that you can relate aspects of your life to. #and you can just connect to these characters and their experiences and release the emotions that have been building up inside. #i'm sure that if you've played the game you feel this all the more strongly #but as someone who hasn't and went into tlou without prior knowledge #i'm just very pleased with it and idk i love watching a show that can elicit such a strong reaction from me #granted i AM what people would call 'sensitive' and 'emotional' or whatever #but even for me i dont think i've felt quite this intensely about a show - especially not right away during a first season #these are just my half baked thoughts and i definitely could say so much more but i'll leave it here for now #sameera.txt #the last of us

[hairtusk]

incredibly confused by modern hookup culture and the idea that you can enhance your own sexual pleasure by never committing / being emotionally involved with a partner and sleeping with lots of different people. sure, you get the thrill of sleeping with a new/ish person. but nothing will ever come close to the levels of pleasure you get when you and your lover both trust each other entirely, and know each other's bodies like they were your own. why would you deny yourself that level of pleasure by never forming a connection. truly fucking bizarre to me.

#like not to be crude. but my partner and I have been together for the best part of four years #and everything about our lovemaking is infinitely enhanced by our trust and knowledge of each other. #we have much more intense and passionate and pleasurable sex now than we did when we first met. #which is really saying something because our sex life has always been really wonderful right from the start #but now it is so much more ... everything. every single aspect is enhanced and heightened #just truly do not understand .............

[patriamrealm]

the thing about Ingo’s chest cracking and how that would be a terrible wound…

now I can’t stop thinking about Beni… Ingo trying to save Akari… but getting badly wounded in the process… the ramifications Beni and Kamado would face… and… is there an infinite amount of fire in Ingo’s chest? Does it’s intensity reflect his physical and/or mental state?

sorry for the many questions your aspects AU has me by the throat (pos) and the art you draw! Is amazing!

The consiquences that Kamado faces for his actions and what they caused were far greater than he ever anticipated though he should have expected what happened after.

#pokemon!aspects #submas #ingo #akari #that is a devastating wound #and ingo only makes it worse by pushing himself too far and fighting with such a wound #he can never run out of fire in his chest #however the intensity of the flames do reflect his health and mental state as well as his emotional state #it can also reflect when he has devoured souls or parts of souls too

[aroaessidhe]

2023 reads

The Deep Sky

scifi mystery thriller

on a deep space mission traveling from an environmentally devastated earth with hope to restart humanity elsewhere

when they’re halfway, an explosion kills 3 crew and pushes them off course

the only witness is the Alternate who has no specific role, and she has to figure out who caused it & if they might continue to sabotage, while they're figuring out a way to get back on course with limited resources

flips between present and the past: of her childhood and training for the mission, her identity struggles, and relationship with her mother

questions the ethics of ‘restarting’ humanity elsewhere vs putting resources into fixing earth

#the deep sky #yume kitasei #aroaessidhe 2023 reads #i really loved this!!!!! #very intense but also a lot of interesting character introspection #love the virtual reality AI aspect!!!! though I do feel like. in the end I was expecting it to go way further with it? #(basically like instead of seeing the inside of the ship all the time they can 'be' in forests or aquariums or whatever) #no romance #(there’s side lesbians; and one flashback scene where she briefly wonders about kissing a random person; that's it) #emotional core about her mother and brother and best friend !! #i like that it gets into the flaws of 'humanity's last hope on another planet' bc like. yeah in real life things....don't work like that... #why is there zero acknowledgement that the concept of every one of them being expected to give birth being extremely fucked up? #like obviously everyone on board is there because they agreed with that but there’s not a single flashback of #when they found out that information; or mention of someone questioning it... #(for example a character mentions that they hid their mental health/use of a therapy animal bc they wouldn't have been let in and the - #eugenics around that is iffy to say the least) #but to me. pregnancy is horrifying and nobody questioning that was weird. #also there’s supposedly 80 people on board but we get to know less than 10 of them which felt a bit strange at points #Also! I love the cover. I can’t find the designer (the book info only credits the internal lllustrator..) #also: bird facts!

[carnivalcarriondiscarded]

I'm very excited for more content of your lights out au, I'm so eager to see just how good you can get at writing/creating angst!

oh babey. thats where i Shine.

#i have gotten many a fic comment where people curse me out and/or say that they cried #sometimes i get someone saying i made them sob #its a compliment every time and i strive for it! #i dont fuck around with my fics i Do Not Hold Back and that is a Warning #this is the only aspect of my creations that im confident in #and hopefully soon you'll all See! you will see. #just a little taste its nothing too intense really. #id label it more hurt/comfort than straight up angst #but yeah if people arent crying im doing it wrong #i rarely do it wrong. #JESTING JESTING im not That good. now im just exaggerating for a Humorous Touch #rambles from the bog #i might. miiiiiight. might might might maybe mayhaps might #write a certain scene from lights out that everyone already knows will happen #so... might as well dust off my hurt / no comfort skills #could be fun. i want to hurt people again #in a good safe 'you Chose to read this' way #theres a certain feeling that comes with being someone who enjoys writing angst #the happiness i get from people telling me my writing hurt them. Yes <3 #so so validating. so fulfilling. #just read through some old fic comments on my better works and mmmmm talk about an ego boost....

[gideonisms]

I do think that not being allowed to be a little grumpy and unreasonable in private without someone noticing would give me new unique kinds of neuroses though. I have always wished the imperial radch books examined breq's surveillance of her crew more in the later books because the common radchaii habit of being intentionally oblique/people from other places being more oblique and unreadable when talking to someone from the radch irritates breq frequently but seems to me to be the natural result of constantly being monitored. breq may be causing some of her own interpersonal issues here

#that aspect of the books has really aged. hmm i don't know if i can say well? because i wish it wasn't as relevant #but it was well observed #i think we see breq reckon with it more on the level of mourning something she's lost because it's her nature as a ship #but i'd love to hear maybe seivarden's take on constantly being monitored for emotional upheaval as someone recovering from addiction #it seems like the lack of privacy would be a major roadblock to recovering from a drug that #specifically limits your emotions (therefore your emotions won't stand out as being too intense and you'll avoid that level of scrutiny) #imperial radch

[mister13eyond]

talking to a friend about getting back into art and i think the #1 most important piece of art advice i could ever get or give is just "figure out what is FUN to you"

like i think there is sooooo much emphasis on how to build SKILL in art but a lot of it really treats art like a job or like video game grinding, like it's this thankless job that you have to work at in order to reach a Threshold and i know it's not EASY to make yourself have fun but like

imo a solid 70% of the reason i create art is because the Act of Drawing is fun to me. it's fun problem-solving and planning and putting down lines and playing with colors and tools. it's fun to depict little scenes in my head or to create outfits or to find ways to fill the canvas. never forget that creating can be fun. sometimes it's hard and sometimes you have to battle through your own blockades to get there but the ultimate goal should always be to ENJOY it, to find what you enjoy doing and then do it forever. improvement will follow enjoyment.

i think especially with all the debate about ML image generation it's more important than ever to embrace FUN. if you're only focused on the end result it's so easy to get in your own head- to think about what doesn't look good or what skills you don't have yet or to compare yourself to other artists. but photography didn't kill the art of drawing and AI won't either because, simply put, there will always be people who want to do the physical act of making art because it's fun to do! using paints and markers, splashing colors around, doing shitty pen doodles, using the symmetry tool in your art program to do abstract mandalas that are just squiggles formed into patterns. do art like you're 5 and you've been handed markers to pass the time. do art like you're bored in class and you're keeping your brain entertained by drawing stick figure comics in the margins. do art like an absent thing, do art because it satisfies your brain. the goal is not to make something beautiful and perfect, the goal is to make something because your hands need to make and your body needs to make.

#i know and love so many people who have intense anxiety about their ability to create art and who are so hard on themselves about the result #and i think that's a REALLY easy thing to feel because creating is also vulnerable & physically difficult and there is SOOOO much to master #but i think for me the people who churn out 300 colored pencil front facing hands behind their backs oc doodles on lined notebook paper- #are the ones with the right idea. they're the ones i aspire to be like #i'm not saying i never struggle either bc tbh #as someone with depression and adhd there are times where the Act of Having Fun is simply not possible #sometimes i CAN'T enjoy things because my ability to feel joy is locked behind a barrier of my mental illness #so i don't think it's an Easy thing to do by far and I don't think you can just Magically Make Yourself Happy And Having Fun #but i DO think that experimenting in a low-stakes low-pressure manner until you find something that clicks in your brain helps #doing things for the sake of doing them is the only way to figure out which ones WILL be fun to you #not all of them will. some things will feel like a slog #but i think you have to look for the passion before you're able to face the slog #if you jump right into the parts that are Hard and Challenge Your Limits it's easy to spin your wheels and get stuck #but if you focus on the super small stakes and the things that are thoughtless and focused more on Sensation- #the sensory experience of mixing paint or the scratch of pencil on paper or the smooth way a specific pen makes lines- #then you can lose yourself in the physical aspect of it FIRST #and then once you've started really ENJOYING those sensations you can start learning new ways to use them #because now you have the drive to want to do more #now you have the desire to find new ways to apply this thing you like doing #long post #even longer tags #art #drawing #artists #art advice

[liebgotts-lovergirl]

Aphrodite Areia ~ Aphrodite the Warlike

"I can be feminine in all my rage.

I can be girl and woman, and claws with teeth."

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#people always seem to forget that one of the epithets of Aphrodite references her as a warrior goddess so here 💖 #There is NOTHING weak about Aphrodite & I will personally fight anyone who says otherwise #Love Beauty Sexuality & Charm are all INTENSE & TERRIFYING THINGS #Aphrodite aesthetic #Aphrodite Areia #Greek epithets #Greek mythology #aspects of Greek gods #ancient Greek mythology #Aphrodite #Venus #Aphrodite Cabin Pride #daughter of Aphrodite #daughter of Aphrodite Areia #ancient Greece #hellenic polytheism #priestess of aphrodite #lady of doves #goddess of love and beauty #aphrodite goddess #dark aphrodite #Greek myths #classical mythology #I am so proud to be a daughter of Aphrodite Areia tbh #there is a Reason Ares fell in love with Aphrodite #Not just her gentleness & her beauty but her passion + ferocity as well #She was born out of a literal murder okay there is something INTENSE about her rage #Cabin 10 #Cabin 10 Pride #myboards

[strangerwheelerthings]

The Snowball Dance

Unfortunately, it took me a while before Nancy became my favorite character, but one of the most important scenes towards that jump in ranking was the Snowball Dance, when she asked Dustin to dance with her. First off, it's already kind of sweet that she was willing to be a chaperone at the dance in the first place. However, it’s that simple act of kindness that really lets her character shine.

Nancy was friends with the party, sometime before season one. She has genuine relationships with all the boys, even though insecurity and other teenager-doms have distanced them. Even though she no longer talks to them much, she still cares a lot. She notices them, and pays attention to their feelings. When Nancy caught sight of Dustin’s dejection, she didn’t just smile encouragingly, or go over to give him some sort of pep talk. She had far too much empathy for the reality of his situation for that. Nancy was a social outcast without many friends herself. She genuinely felt for him in that moment, and understood. It wasn’t pity that moved her, but compassion. 

Still, sitting and comforting him would have been an act of compassion in and of itself. Nancy asked him to dance instead. She kept in mind how it might have looked to his peers, and decided to attempt to use that in his favor instead of invoking pity; a pretty older girl wanted to dance with him. 

It's such a simple scene with no real hidden layers, which makes it hard to really dissect. But that same concept could have been handled in a hundred different ways without it being so pure and good as it was. Nancy could have come across as kind of uncomfortable with it, instead of being so focused on him. She didn’t have to be so sweet as she gently taught him on how to dance with a girl more naturally and less awkwardly. She wasn’t exactly sure what to say to make him feel better, but everything she did say was genuine. She kept it lighthearted, but I think she really believed everything she said; he was her favorite of Mike's friends, and he really would capture some girls hearts when he grew up.

She then proceeded to make sure he had a genuinely good time, laughing and joking with him.

The Heart of Nancy Wheeler Masterpost

#No matter how much he annoys her sometimes I don’t doubt that Dustin really was her favorite #and not just because of his little crush #Nancy could relate to him far more than I think he’ll ever know #He’s so smart but so bullheaded and blunt sometimes #He’s passionate and curious but in a way that can put people off sometimes with the intensity and tunnel vision aspect of it #He’s a social outcast too but he’s so much more willing to ignore that and be who he is at that age than Nancy was #I think she admires that about him #i have so many feelings about this scene #but its so difficult to put into any kind of comprehensible words #nancy wheeler #dustin henderson #stranger things #the heart of nancy wheeler #nancy & the party

[m-arnie-xx]

AU where everything is the same but Apollo did allstar cheer before TOA so he can join Meg in her tumbling and cartwheeling on rooftops

#why? because I do allstar cheer #which is like sideline cheer without pom-poms and also competitive #for anyone who hasn’t heard of allstar before #/j #but also /srs #also I could totally see Apollo enjoying the performance aspect of it #and the guy who beat Hermes in a foot race could totally keep up with the high intensity tumbling and dance #alternatively Apollo decides to take it up after his trials after betting Meg that he can learn how to do a cartwheel faster than she did #and then really ends up enjoying it #trials of apollo #lester papadopoulos #pjo hoo toa #please don’t take this seriously #marnie’s posts #riordanverse

[thefanciestborrower]

I think it’s so interesting how we as a community really like exploring this soft, beautifully poetic quality of vore, but only ever seem to do so in writing. I’ve seen so many lovely poems and short stories waxing on in beautiful prose about the beautiful inner workings of the human body and the intimacy and trust that comes with having another person literally inside you, but when it comes to art you almost never see that. Sure art often focuses on those same qualities as well but...they’re never emphasized as beautiful in quite the same way I think. And maybe that’s why my art is so soft and almost like...classical feeling? Because every time I draw I want to capture that poetic beauty in a visual format. Something that, while painting a visual picture, also evokes a very special sense of awe. Even in the silly little scenarios I draw or the spookier pieces I post every once in a while I find myself trying to integrate older styles of poetry and artistry I don’t see much now. And maybe...maybe that’s why my art feels so nostalgic...

Who knows

Perhaps I’m just a hopeless romantic

#to be clear I’m not saying anyone doesn’t do this or that it’s bad people like drawing in different ways to capture different feelings #I was just musing about how you don’t see many pieces that focus on this very specific feeling of common #yet abstract beauty you see in older artwork #and if my quest to capture that style is what makes my art feel as soft and nostalgic as people have described it before #because I think we focus too much on the OMG TEETH AND STOMACH AND INSTINCTS AAA aspect of vore in a lot of art #which isn’t bad lmao I do that all the time and I don’t plan on stopping #but we focus so much on the intensely...visceral? aspects of vore that we loose something special #safe fatal doesn’t matter #they all are capable of having this quality and idk I just #I wanna see it more #soft vore #safe vore #vore mention #vore thoughts #Cj speaks #don’t mind me just getting philosophical #this post was brought to you by me drawing classic lit vore

[callixton]

i really don’t know how to explain the like. yeah he’s queer he’s been out as bi for like 15+ years it’s not something New and it’s also not like i haven’t been a fan of queer actors in the past so it really shouldn’t be a big deal but like. every time i remember it it sort of bowls me over. i think maybe it’s bc i haven’t had this sort of hyperfixation on a real queer person before or maybe it is just something about him but. god he’s SO important to me and he’s wanted and loved men and he’s bi and jokes aside that is a part of himself which Does find a way into almost all of the roles he plays and he is out there living as a queer man and idek what i’m trying to say. if i think about it for too long i get emotional.

#i am trying to think about it and i think that all of my hyperfixations on real people have been straight. at least the intense ones #i don’t tend to get them on people that often is the thing #i guess there’s some aspects of britcom but that was much broader and the people who i was really dedicated to never selfidentified as queer #yeah maybe it has just been him. wow that would make sense #i don’t have to keep like. dig for something that is an important part of my identity he just is and it’s a part of the things he creates #and it matters to me! #i am legitimately so bad at sleeping too oh my god. there is genuinely something wrong with me #ted talks #raúl esparza

[birdmitosis]

uploading this at 1am and scurrying away, like a gremlin

Most of the way through Chapter 5 of my fic, I started writing this. I only worked on it for like two hours and then finished Chapter 5, then went back to this... It ballooned up to 7,000 gd words somehow. Girls, please.

All of them are still dealing with their time in the Construct, and the various ways they've been affected by the Princess. After a bout of sleep paralysis, Paranoid unexpectedly finds herself... bonding with Cold over it all. Yeah, let's just say "bonding."

(This one does turn into outright smut, so, uh. Be aware of that!) (Also also, thank you @phospolipid-bilayer for pointing out that Paranoid probably wouldn't take being separated from the others well psychologically/emotionally because I think you have just irrevocably changed how I interpret that character in the context of having her own body -- that ended up being a key part of this fic when I hadn't even been intending it!)

#i can write practically nothing but these two #and i can't write these two as anything other than intense #This Fic Is A Lot and not even in a smut way i mean literally every other aspect of it #slay the princess #fanfic #fanfiction #shipping #voice of the paranoid #voice of the cold #paracold #YURI REAL 🎉 THIS IS NOT A DRILL

[uncanny-tranny]

Sometimes, the things that make you gender euphoric now might not always, and I think it's important to recognize this. I don't mean this in a "dysphoria can make the things you find euphoric now dysphoric later" way, but that does happen. I mean this in the way that gender euphoria can lose the "novelty" of it and become another aspect of life that you grow accustomed to.

I used to feel very euphoric when people referred to me as male, because that wasn't always my reality. But now, it's just another aspect of life. People have regarded me in the way I do, and now it's life. Obviously, this isn't always the case, but it has been for many instances.

I think sometimes people assume gender euphoria is something that you will always experience no matter how many times an event that makes you euphoric occurs. For me, I think the euphoria came from being treated like an equal - and now that other people have started treating me like an equal, I've been more assertive. Now that I know what it's like to be treated like a person people see as a peer, I really don't feel euphoric about it so much - I mostly feel normal about it. That's not to say that going against a trans person's wishes is a morally correct move - it isn't. It'll never be.

I think this is important to recognize because part of me felt as though I was almost losing a sense of being trans because I started to feel this way. But I don't think it's accurate to describe that experience in that way. I think it's more accurate to recognize it as a growth or an evolution of one's transness.

#trans #transgender #lgbt #lgbtq #ftm #mtf #nonbinary #i still do experience gender euphoria personally #but i found that an aspect of my euphoria stemmed from the happiness that occurs when you're treated like a person for once... #...maybe euphoria isn't the right term for it but i felt it in much the same way and in the same intensity that i felt with other things... #...i definitely don't think my experiences are universal but i also don't believe and cannot believe they are uniquely different