#internalstruggles

[eklavya-bhardwaj]

But even in the symphony of suffering, a defiant melody plays on, whispering of a future where healing will be my choice and hurting... my fate :)

EkB

#darkpoetry #internalstruggle #healingjourney #hopeinthedark #defianceagainstpain #chooserecovery #emotionalresilience #symphonyofsuffering #hauntinglybeautiful #scarredbutstronger #bruisedbutblooming #whispersoffreedom #phoenixfromtheashes #redemptionarc #breakingthecycle #ownthepainhealthefuture #symphonyofthornsbloomingintohope #choosinghealingoverhurtingfate #dancingwiththewoundsbutnevertotheirtune #scarswhisperofstrengthnotfailure #defiantmelodyagainstthepainfulsong

[theyellowjournal]

the mind of a manipulator

She doesn't try to push people away. Maybe no one actively tries to outcast the ones they once loved from the heart they once gave freely, but after repetition like a hamster stuck on a wheel, it can no longer be called a mistake. She doesn't try to try to push people away. After too many times leaving the same people hurt and confused, it is clear that while control may not always be there, the intention must be. How can she be so aware of her own manipulation, and yet be so at a loss as to how to stop it? Why is it okay that she can be smiling next to them and laughing with them and wanting them one day, and then completely block them out the next? Be completely unchanging in her desire to get as much space in between them as she can. Why is it that she switches back and forth? Drawing them in just enough for it to hurt when she pushes them away. Just enough for them to come running back wanting more of the good energy and sweet affection. How is it possible that she can be so genuine and sincere in both the good times and the bad? She truly loves them when she shows it. She passionately despises them when she acts like it.

Is this what it feels like to be in the head of a manipulator? Of an emotional abuser? Is it better to know what she is doing and not be able to stop it or to be blindly unaware? The ignorance would settle her fears of being the toxic one - but would it be worse if she was free of the pain?

It makes her human, maybe. To second guess every action, never knowing if she is being too selfish or not selfish enough. It makes her human that she sometimes takes her bad days out on other people, and it makes her human that she feels like a monster when someone else is sad, even if it was not because of her actions. Or was it because of her actions? She is just like everyone else in that internal struggles plague her mind. She is just uncertain if people can read hers.

#writing #writers of tumblr #internalstruggle #pain #manipulation #bullying #gaslighting

[eric-sadahire]

If being hard on yourself worked, it would have worked by now.

#internalstruggle #batman #hardonyourself #doesntwork #challenging #flomm #kunst #artwork #artoftheday #flommist #beercoaster #lowbrowart #outsiderart #painting #beermat

[in-tenebris-et-in-solitudine]

It hurts when you go through something that destroys you inside, but you have to act like it doesn't affect you at all.

#pain #masking #pretense #internalstruggle #coping #emotions

[little-rock-wellness]

In my opinion, Danielle Bernock's quote carries a lot of power. It emphasises the significance of acknowledging and validating someone's traumatic experiences. Trauma can have a significant impact on an individual's mental and emotional well-being. It's an experience that is deeply personal and can have a lasting impact.

Ignoring or invalidating trauma leads to isolation and helplessness. The individual feels their pain is unrecognised, exacerbating their trauma. This makes coping even more difficult. 

By acknowledging and validating someone's trauma, we show them that their experiences are real. We show them that they are not alone. This can be an incredibly powerful tool in the healing process.

By listening, validating, and supporting others through trauma, we help them heal and move forward in a positive direction.

#Trauma #Validation #MentalHealthAwareness #Survivor #SilentScreams #InternalStruggle #HealingJourney #EmotionalHealing #SelfCare #SelfLove #BreakingTheSilence #OvercomingTrauma #MentalHealthMatters #Recovery #Therapy #CopingMechanisms #SupportSystem #YouAreNotAlone #SpeakUp #EndTheStigma #ptsdawareness #traumarecovery #ptsd #mental health #life coaching #abuse survivor #ptsdrecovery #ptsdcommunity

[aicollider]

Poem of the week: William Blake is trying to write "Infant Sorrow"

As I sit here, ready to embark on the creation of a new poem, the words of Infant Sorrow begin to form in my mind. It is a poem that speaks to the human experience, particularly that of a newborn child entering this dangerous world. I can already visualize the scene: my mother groaning, my father weeping, as I take my first leap into the unknown. But how do I capture the essence of this moment?…

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#birth #bond #comfort #complete #complexity #confusion #creation #dependence #doubt #Emotions #essence #Fear #helplessness #humanExperience #infantsorrow #internalstruggle #life #moment #mother #newborn #poetry #potential #power #profound #quest #rawness #security #struggle #Surrender #torment

[tinaarms67]

#grace #behavior #internalstruggle

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[twistedcatmeow]

The only force that you ever need to defeat is yourself. Within you exists all of the opposition you need in order to cause you to grow or to give up. The entire struggle in your life is generated by your negative ego. You only think you struggle against outside forces.

Just for today, any time you find yourself struggling, allow yourself to be in awareness that this struggle is internally generated and has nothing to do with anything outside yourself. Your negative ego has chosen this issue as your battleground for the moment, because it is something that can distract you from true forward motion. In naming your true opponent, the battle will frequently cease.

Realize, of course, that the negative ego will do its best to convince you that this is not the case. Stick to your guns and know that nothing outside of yourself is actually in opposition to you. In knowing that, the path of true growth will often become apparent. If there is no path of obvious growth, do something revolutionary. Do nothing.

#YouAreYourOwnWorstEnemy #InternalStruggle #PersonalDevils #Growth #DoThis #PracticalSpirituality #PersonalGrowth #DailyMessage #365DaysToEnlightenment #Ayamanatara #Bonfire

[sdeangray]

Be kind. You have no idea what someone else is going through. . . . #amwriting #blameraine #snow #weather #naturesbeauty #bekind #amwritingya #kindnessmatters #kindness #internalstruggles #mentalhealth #wereallinthistogether #wereallhuman #wereonlyhuman #quotestagram #quotes #lifequotes https://www.instagram.com/p/CLuok4XDNZG/?igshid=16k065kcnedrw

#amwriting #blameraine #snow #weather #naturesbeauty #bekind #amwritingya #kindnessmatters #kindness #internalstruggles #mentalhealth #wereallinthistogether #wereallhuman #wereonlyhuman #quotestagram #quotes #lifequotes

[unlikelyredheadedsuspect]

“You cut your hair!”

I started to go back to my beloved group fitness classes (Zumba and Barre) in March after a 13 month long hiatus. A few of the women recognized me and one remarked, “you got your haircut.” Like the crazy dork I am, I couldn’t just say thank you and leave it there. I responded instead with, “yeah…you see I was diagnosed with Cancer about a year ago…” After remarking that she was sorry to hear of such news, the conversation was over - side-railed by someone who suddenly got hurt in class. I wanted to be able to say my piece.

And it didn’t stop in Zumba class. I’ve run into numerous acquaintances that don’t know my story and comment on my “haircut.” 

Needless to say these interactions have been really challenging for me. Whenever this happens my stomach immediately flips and a quick internal dialogue ensues where I decide how I am going to respond. You see, I like to have my cards on the table, or at the very least be honest….but it doesn’t always fit the situation. So more and more I have found myself simply saying thank you and moving on. I, however, don’t leave the conversation feeling satisfied.

I look “normal” now (Remember the guy at the bar who asked what was wrong with me when I had no hair. HA!) with a little pixie cut. People don’t realize what’s beneath the surface.That I don’t always feel normal…In fact sometimes I feel a bit traumatized from it all. Other times I ask myself what all the fuss was for. Regardless of my feelings, I am not the same woman as the one who walked out of Zumba class over a year ago to train for a half marathon and then suddenly found herself embarking on a whole different kind of physical journey. I wish people knew I was different. Maybe I will just need to make deeper connections and turn my acquaintances in to friends.  

[**side note: I remember learning from the Breast Surgeon (before meeting with Oncology) that I would need chemo and that I would likely lose my hair. I remember being upset at this point, not because I would be bald, but rather that people would know something was wrong...that I was sick. Now it feels a bit reversed; that I look normal but want people to know there is more to the story. It’s all a part of the journey, I suppose.***]

#internalstruggles #atleastihavehair #likemyhaircut

[eekwuhnehks]

Why do people need to regard with dread when things don’t favor them? Especially if it’s a person of advanced years, pandering themselves on the fact that age always had its advantages. Some appear to be open-minded, but few are genuine about it. It’s still a shock even though it’s been known, when a person acts differential and not in accordance to his/her age group, as what most expected and would want to see. Was it still considered anomalous and highly unacceptable to admit that there’ll be individuals who act the way they act not to defy people whom they differ in age, but simply because they have the rights of free will? For as their age go higher, their knowledge also expands; though I have no intention of giving offense to those who have disabilities in matters of mind or in regard to it. How irksome it is, that up until now, there are people who use age together with power, as an excuse for their own liking. It’s known that there’s still only one constant thing in the mortal world, hoping that they’ll embrace it with explicit contemplation. That the first days of acceptance is always bothersome.

#fear #internalstruggles #overcome #believe #optimism #crypower #somethingtoponder #tumblrtextpost #sophrosyneindites #writing #writers #writblr #thoughts

[laerika21]

Smile, even if it doesn’t hit your eyes. Trust, even if it’s an incomplete puzzle. Love yourself, because it’s the love that matters most. . . #fridayfeelings #fridayfeels #friday #feels #feelings #selfcare #selflove #internalstruggles #internalstrength #mentalwellbeing #mentalwellness #life #love #live #keeptrying #keepgoing (at Bronx, New York) https://www.instagram.com/p/B4CkTR3Fa6T/?igshid=153f7a45a2m7w

#fridayfeelings #fridayfeels #friday #feels #feelings #selfcare #selflove #internalstruggles #internalstrength #mentalwellbeing #mentalwellness #life #love #live #keeptrying #keepgoing

[vida--agridulce]

"Death's Door" (Rough draft) #poetry #poem #poetrycommunity #poemsofinstagram #internalstruggle #mywritings #blurb #grim #poema #latenightthoughts https://www.instagram.com/p/BxJqgvLDZDY/?igshid=lsoourw1b1zu

#poetry #poem #poetrycommunity #poemsofinstagram #internalstruggle #mywritings #blurb #grim #poema #latenightthoughts

[linaireylance]

Inktober Day 7: Exhausted . Internal battles always leave us the most exhausted. . #inktober #inktober2018 #exhausted #internalstruggle #battlefield #anime #manga #ink #lepen #traditionalart #art #artist https://www.instagram.com/p/BoqJVAthn5Z/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=159amsh4ututm

#inktober #inktober2018 #exhausted #internalstruggle #battlefield #anime #manga #ink #lepen #traditionalart #art #artist

[valerieullmerromanceauthor]

Finding Sarah by Aprille Canniff

Finding Sarah by Aprille Canniff

BOOK BLAST Book Title: Finding Sarah Author: Aprille Canniff Publisher: Fulton Books Release Date: August 26, 2021 Genre: Romance, F/F Romance Tropes: Trauma, New Girl in Town Themes: Internal Struggle, Relationship, Love Heat Rating: 3 flames Length: 60 000 words/ 187 pages The book ends on a cliffhanger. There is a follow-on book coming. Goodreads Buy Links Amazon US | Amazon UK The past has…

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#Romance FFRomance Trauma NewGirlinTown InternalStruggle Relationship Love @gaybookpromotions @gaybookpromo

[twistedcatmeow]

The only force that you ever need to defeat is yourself. Within you exists all of the opposition you need in order to cause you to grow or to give up. The entire struggle in your life is generated by your negative ego. You only think you struggle against outside forces.

Just for today, any time you find yourself struggling, allow yourself to be in awareness that this struggle is internally generated and has nothing to do with anything outside yourself. Your negative ego has chosen this issue as your battleground for the moment, because it is something that can distract you from true forward motion. In naming your true opponent, the battle will frequently cease.

Realize, of course, that the negative ego will do its best to convince you that this is not the case. Stick to your guns and know that nothing outside of yourself is actually in opposition to you. In knowing that, the path of true growth will often become apparent. If there is no path of obvious growth, do something revolutionary. Do nothing. 

#quote #YouAreYourOwnWorstEnemy #InternalStruggle #PersonalDevils #Growth #DoThis #PracticalSpirituality #PersonalGrowth #DailyMessage #365DaysToEnlightenment #Ayamanatara #CityView #ViewFromAbove #Trees #BlueSky