#irrational anxiety

[ravenkings]

#making big purchases on my phone gives me anxiety ngl #i think i find it less trustworthy for some bizarre and irrational reason #twitter

[merbear25]

Mentally preparing for the recording my company is forcing me to do tomorrow.

#merbear rambles #if it's in fancy text will it make me feel better? #outsourcing teachers to record audio for proficiency exams #low key hate them for it #I had to do it last year too #dont mind me just passing through #irrational anxiety

[viridian-bones]

Huh, apparently it’s been a hard couple of days for everyone. My dash has been flooded with “I’m sad” memes.

#damn bitch #so many sadness #finals week #in #irrational anxiety #can’t even stim in my own gourdamn house #sad #anxiety #fuck school

[goodgrammaritan]

For a long time there was nothing, and she considered that anxiety was irrational, and listening to it was like listening to a child. It's not that they are never right. It's that the correct info is mixed in with a lot of imaginary things, and, like a child, anxiety can't tell the difference between the two.

Alice Isn't Dead by Joseph Fink

#joseph fink #alice isn't dead #anxiety #irrational anxiety

[dayvan]

he calls that opener the "cum gambit"

#furry #my art #pyotr #drazan #aleksey #calhoun #my ocs #trying to get over my irrational anxiety over sharing oc art

[brainrotisseriechicken]

(unfinished)

not something id usually post but i just realized i could post things i wouldnt normally now that ive discovered the art of (forgetting about it and deleting in the morning) so yeah. this was supposed to be a companion piece to that draki drawing i did the other day but i started getting rlly anxious about not matching the brush size w the other one so here we are lol

#scp #scp fanart #dr clef #clefdraki #dr kondraki #by technicality #scp foundation #unfinished art #dont ask about the caption im incredibly irrational sometimes #ehhh not much fo say ill see if this stays up #yall r probably getting tired of me not liking my art but its not too bad i just have rlly high standards and anxiety is a strange thing #in general #sorry about that #shouldnt have posted that to hashtag general #rugi dong #yang bener aja #oh shit #illustration #forgor

[canisalbus]

I love how Vittorio looks! As you said he really seems to mirror Machete, and it’s funny to picture how while machete has that general paranoia that he’s one moment from disaster, Vittorio’s nervous outlook while in employ might more be from how his boss looks ready to fall apart like a house of cards at a moments notice from said paranoia x3

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#thank you for noticing! #I wonder if Vittorio was always like that or is Machete making him more restless #I've made this comparison before but I tend to think Vittorio's nervousness has a saneness to it #it's the reasonable type of worry and usually leads to sane reasonable and appropriate actions #whereas Machete's anxiety is often vague and irrational and he ends up hurting himself and others trying to manage it #panicked animal that will gnaw off it's own foot to escape the trap sort of feel #answered #rikuredo #I feel sorry for Vittorio #I hope he's coping with stress better than what it looks from the outside

[soundlessdragon]

On for a sec to update but probably going to uninstall again soon ✨️ Baby girl is doing great at 39+1 but she has been stubbornly transverse for almost a week now. If she can turn cephalic again, our perinatologist believes she is strong enough for a vaginal delivery attempt so we will be able to try that, but if she remains transverse we are going to have to do a C-section. Please pray that what is best for her will happen ♡

#prayer request #thank you friends ♡ #I am very excited to meet her but also starting to experience a slow building of irrational emotional swings... #so I probably need to be on guard for postpartum depression/anxiety/etc. no idea what to expect this time #it's entirely in God's hands. every bit of it. #baby girl

[mazzystar24]

Am I the only one who low-key loved that they showed:

1. Lucy’s anxiety induced blabber and Tim’s 😳 in the background - because I feel like while ppl were being like “oh that rant was so annoying and over the top” but in reality that rant is literally so accurate as a stream of thought of anxiety and overthinking , not only that I think the fact that this rant was included is so telling of their relationship because as someone with anxiety I can confirm that those types of thoughts STAY inside thoughts unless we are super comfortable with the person because WE ARE AWARE HOW UNHINGED AND IRRATIONAL WE SOUND

2. The chenford fight- when you have two mentally ill people in a relationship spoiler alert they will sometimes say shit they don’t mean and will sometimes screw up AND THATS OKAY AND REALISTIC like any mentally ill person will tell you that when they are spiralling, almost always they will unintentionally take it out on the person closest to them or who is supporting them the most and that’s not because they actually want to it’s more so that their brain subconsciously knows that that’s a safe target that they can be a bit of a screw up with them and they won’t stop loving them, this is literally the most common example of displacement (trust me I’m a psych student🤓,jk jk fr tho this is an actual thing)

Like when I heard initially that chenford would have issues this season I was so worried the writers would pull that old cliche of making stupid out of character drama that made no sense and felt inorganic but THIS this is so good to see how anxiety can affect a relationship and eventually how they get over that obstacle and it came out in a way that felt very realistic and in character

#chenford #lucy chen #tim bradford #the rookie #the lucy haters are just a bunch of mentally well adjusted people who haven’t had or dated someone with anxiety #Lucky bastards😔 #but alas the girlies who get it FELT THIS EPISODE SM #like I said this on someone’s post already but like the girlies with anxiety have all been Lucy in one situation or another #so we completely see both sides and understand how real this is to have as a relationship obstacle #like seriously tho this wasn’t exaggerated or like stupid it was just how anxiety is and yes it’s irrational and bad but guess what #THATS LITERALLY WHAT ANXIETY IS #like it wouldn’t be anxiety if it was nice and rational and calm #anyways as others said go stream afterglow

[rapidhighway]

girl help i had a positive social interaction but i feel like i made everyone uncomfortable and behaved like shit the whole time

#I KNOW I KNOWWWWW its the most irrational stuff but im still so upset by it WHYYYY #social anxiety evil and bad

[ndcultureis]

anxiety culture is thinking "hmm i'll submit something to the culture blog (but only on anon and with 'neurodivergent culture is' because what if it's not from the disorder i think it is?)" and going to submit it then thinking "what if this isn't a neurodivergent thing tho. what if the mods decide to find my main and tell everyone to block me cause i'm wrong and stupid" and thinking about this ask for 4 days, formatting it perfectly so it doesn't look formatted but is still coherent and legible, then throwing this word vomit in your ask box. then getting stressed because it's all one long paragraph and that's not grammatically correct. sorry.

(the original ask basically summed up to "anxiety culture is over-apologising because i'm scared of crossing boundaries i didn't know about.")

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#neurodivergent culture #mod milo #I know that anxiety can be irrational and nothing I can say will make that better #but I want you to know that we will never do that. #if it’s offensive/too repetitive/etc. then we’ll simply delete it #you are completely safe 💕

[aahsoka]

this ex fiancee plot is like. aggravating for no reason. we already need to contend with him not admitting he might die in ten years we dont uhhhh need this?

#its so bizarrely plotted lmfao #jordan talks #marry my husband #i just feel like theres enough going on with the dying still being a possibility and the cancer going to her friend etc etc etc #i get what ji won is feeling rn but i hope shes gonna work through it #bc it is an irrational response based on anxiety. this man did everything right to be in a relationship with her #and this ex fiancee is just annoying like no wonder he doesnt like u girl #tbh like she could have had these kinds of relationship anxiety issues to work through Without ~another woman~ #I did. so #but i guess its a drama so FINE ill suffer through the annoying ex fiancee . just promise me more cute shit and epiphany later

[raincamp]

anyone else with sm ever get that thing after you finally open up and speak a few words somewhere you finally feel comfortable, or after putting all your effort into masking, where you go home and have this sinking feeling of intense dread and hatred for yourself, where you want to throw up or punch a wall or punish yourself, because what you said was so embarrassing and shameful that you want to eradicate yourself from the face of the earth, or never talk or show your face anywhere ever again

#like i could've literally just said “hi” or introduced myself or was able to say “see ya” at the end of a social event #and i would still want to blow myself clear out of this dimension from the amount of shame and embarassment #its so irrational but it happens everytime i force myself to talk for exposure therapy etc #sm #selective mutism #situational mutism #semiverbal #anxiety #autism

[geddy-leesbian]

at long last, I present my headcanon about Luis's education/career timeline + why he kept working for Umbrella while knowing how fucked all of it was

First off there's enough 16 and younger high up Umbrella scientists that it's easy to just accept that shit in the RE world is just Like That and a 12 year old Luis rocking up to enroll in university just makes sense within the logic of the world, but my personal headcanon is way more expansive than that. I like to imagine him actually going to a school operated by Umbrella. The Umbrella boarding school in the Arklay Mountains was shut down, but I headcanon that it wasn't the only one. Umbrella having boarding schools for child prodigies just makes perfect sense- I mean just read a file about the Executive Training School. 

Going after/investing in younger kids is a logical thing to do because they're so much easier to manipulate and brainwash into being exactly what Umbrella wants. 

And since Umbrella Europe had that rivalry where they were always trying to compete with their sister branch, I can imagine them seeing what happened to the Executive Training School as an opportunity: Umbrella US fucked up the concept, so they can outdo them by simply running their own competently, without it completely falling apart.

Now you're probably thinking there's a hole in my headcanon, the fact that Hunnigan's report mentions Luis enrolling in university and working for Umbrella after graduating. 

My counterpoint is that Umbrella is sketchy as fuck. The whole "James Marcus being a crazy person and performing fucked up experiments on his own students" shit show happened when Luis was just a toddler. So I like to think that inspired them to get a little more cautious when it came to their fucked up child prodigy shenanigans, in time for them to have a solid system worked out by the time Luis is orphaned. And by that I mean they'd find a university to bribe into giving them cover. A new child prodigy graduates from the Umbrella school, Umbrella coughs up some cash, and suddenly that kid attended a university they never actually stepped foot in, and has a diploma with no direct ties to Umbrella. They 100% had the resources and pull to swing some type of arrangement like that. 

And Luis is literally the most perfect target for a school like this. He's not just young, he's from an extremely isolated place, making him even easier to manipulate. He also has nothing. They can single him out and crack the whip and push him harder than any of his peers, and he'll just accept it, because what else can he do?

It's Umbrella, or the streets for him.

And I think he probably caught on to the fact that he had made a deal with the devil pretty quickly after starting on the Nemesis Project, but he had made his bed and had to lie in it. Because even after he graduates/becomes a legal adult, they have him completely locked in. There's literally no paper trail or anything official supporting the fact that he's a person who exists. The only thing is the university records Umbrella paid for. Umbrella can hand over some chump change and make those go away too. He wouldn't even be able to start from scratch without a degree, because they could go after him for fraud too. Claim he showed them his degree when they hired him, but discovered it must have been a fake, because the university has no records of him. Who would the courts side with, the kid without a birth certificate, or the pharmaceutical giant that can afford an army of lawyers? It's probably not enough to be all that life ruining, but threats don't necessarily have to be true to work. With Luis's unique life, he's most likely going to be scared of any threat like that, he just doesn't have any experience or context to help him get a grip and really think about it, he's just scared shitless at the thought of going to prison.

And ending this with a point that's independent of my other headcanons in the post and can work on its own. When discussing why Luis stayed for years, we can't forget about Rockfort Island.

On the island, there is also a prison camp and an airport. The prison camp especially, represents an especially dark side of Umbrella. Potential industrial saboteurs and traitors to Umbrella are captured and sent there to be used as human guinea pigs in biological experiments. Once inside, prisoners are held there indefinitely.

(emphasis mine)

I think the common assumption is that Luis fucked off back to Valdelobos because of Raccoon City and being afraid of governments/law enforcement coming after Umbrella, but I really think it was actually Umbrella he was running from. Umbrella would have seemed untouchable at this point, they had the blessing of the government to do what they did in Raccoon City, I doubt anyone there genuinely thought there would ever be legal consequences for any of that. Legal consequences were maybe a far-off possibility that wasn't guaranteed, while Umbrella was very much a real, present, active danger.

But if he got to a point where he couldn't handle the guilt of what he was doing anymore, his options were to disappear completely, or risk being captured and taken to a concentration camp. (Even just resigning normally, without taking any actions against Umbrella, would leave him terrified. A well-liked rising star like him just suddenly resigning, and offering no explanation, likely would have seemed suspicious, and given that Rockfort inmates were a resource for experiments, I can't imagine the bar for what makes someone a "traitor to Umbrella" is very high.)

#luis serra #my headcanons #also one more thing is that i imagine him being extremely hesitant to tell leon about it #like objectively he should want to bc the fact umbrella got their claws into him so young supports the fact he wasn't a shitty person #just someone who was manipulated into doing shitty things #but i imagine he gets this irrational anxiety that leon will think umbrella getting into luis's head at such a young age #means that the brainwashing must have been deep and some day it might resurface and luis would do something shitty again #and tbh now that im typing this i can see luis genuinely believing that himself #not just being afraid it's what leon would think #⛓𝓛𝓮𝓸𝓷𝓼 𝓟𝓻𝓲𝓷𝓬𝓮𝓼𝓼⛓

[bullet-ant]

i still think about this comment i found daily

DO NOT ACCEPT THE SHAME OTHERS WISH YOU TO FEEL. Don't give anyone else that power over you anymore.

#course its easier said than done but its a start #its really been helping me rationalize my irrational shame #avpd #talk #avoidant personality disorder #social anxiety #social phobia #shame #toxic shame

[starfilled-galaxy]

guys. guys.. not to be like. the crazy one, but like

i dont fucking care that there was "news" about the rps at vidcon

actually kinda scared for the rps to come back??

Like, idk after I learned a LOT about issues with Mystreet, it's not very exciting anymore. Plus I have this whole story in my head now, a rewrite, my version, and I dont want a new season of Mys to remind me that my little version of this story is extremely not canon. Also that canon is worse.

Oh and I actually despise the remake of MCD. I hate it so much. Like maybe I'd be more excited if she was continuing the og MCD, but no it's going to be the remake of course because she abandoned the original.

#dont even get me started on MID #not saying that if you like these or are excited for it that you're wrong or smth btw #aphblr #im not gonna put much aphmau tags just because of my irrational fear of jess seeing this post #mystreet #hot take ig? #......just in case i'll just say if you're gonna respond especially arguing against my post pls do so kindly (and maybe with tone tags) #my anxiety may not be able to take it so??? pls be nice #i mean im kinda a small blog so i dont really expect anyone to care about this post but ya know just playing it safe #niko.txt