#is he really myv?

[pumpkinsy0]

twttin characters (and rusty james from rumble fish lol) in my early 2000s au :3

cathy: im gonna tell yall RIGHT now, she goes by “cat”, i cannot explain it to u but she just DOES to me, nobody rlly knows her as cathy shes just,,,cat, shes that kind of girl that always has a camera in her hand just taking pics of whatever and she posts it on flickr, she loves photography, shes always wearing those milkmaid tops or big sweaters with bell bottom jeans, and her hair is short, think of those teen movies w that “down to earth pretty chill w her walkman” girl and thats her, she was prolly watching those mlp tribute vids on her family computer, she thinks its cute, she loves collecting pins n stuff, she loves friends (the show)

m&m: gonna b so honest w u, m&m just seems so timeless to me i dont rlly have much to say for him bc i think he’d act the exact same way no matter the time period, BUT some things i can add is that he really likes the teenage mutant ninja turtles and loves comic books so theres that, hes a bit of a collector of just about anything and so cathy takes pics of his room a lot and post it on flickr so theres that, he’d be in the family computer quite a bit and since in the early 2000s barely any adult knew how to use the computer he was just on there goin crazy in chatrooms on some odd ass forum talking about figurines or somethin, god bless his soul, always has cathy’s walkman and gameboy she never gets to use them but its ok, she lives her bro, he loves pokemon and has a card collection in his binder

mark: he makes fun of ppl who use the internet (in the early 2000s the internet was seen as a more of a niche interest and it was associated with like geeks/nerds n stuff) and video games (cough cough m&m cough), literally all he watches is adult swim if not, he loves wwe, that guy whos always in a skatepark despite never??? skating???? he just has a bit of friends there and hangs out w them a but, BUT he does have a bike he uses as transportation and can actually do some pretty cool tricks like my god i cant even hate, has 1 snapback hat he wears religiously, has a bunch of posters of half naked women on his side of the room

bryon: he has so many things from abercrombie and fitch, hollister, american eagle, hes THAT guy good lord, he would be a bit into basketball, i could see that, watches myv just to be judgey but also bc pretty girls on tv, watches jackass w mark, has a playstation 1 he just NEVER touches, has THE SMALLEST interest in video games like halo and grand theft auto, action movies are his thing, if u wanna see an action movie hes the guy

rusty james: thinks hes sooooo grown for watching adult swim, he and “thinks its for losers”, hes that guy thats into bmx sports, steals a ton of magazines on it, HATES boy bands but is like “if i was in one the girls would LOVE me”

#that was then this is now #bryon douglas #mark jennings #cathy carlson #m&m carlson #rusty james #rumble fish

[siyeonjisoo]

It is finally here! My month of pure madness! 6 concerts, 3 in one week and one is a 2 day festival. Starts with Miyavi so let's go!

Tour started from DC and you bet your ass I was there. It was full circle cuz the last show of last tour was in DC for me too. It was so nice to be back!

I did GA for this show so I knew I needed to get there early. Rocked up at 10:30. There was one other person in line who had been there for 2 hours at that point. And that started a bit of a pattern I think cuz the next people didn't show up till like 12.

Right after they showed up, Miyavi's tour bus showed up! Drove past us with its really cool decals but we were all distracted and almost fully missed it. But it kept going past us and we thought it was gonna come back around to try and pull in to the parking lot of the venue. But it didn't. We waited for like another hour or 2. Rest of the band started to trickle in but no Myv. One of the people I was waiting with needed to go back to her hotel and she barely got out of sight before this fancy looking black car rolls up and stops right in front of us at a red light. We recognize Miyavi's manager in the front seat but can't see the back until it's moved and we see a person with a hoodie on and go OH DUH he's with his manager. Car pulled around the building to drop him off and we (3 of us) waved at him and said hi and then combusted cuz he blew us a kiss (and I think he was making eye contact with me at that moment). He prolly was laughing at us when he got inside but it made me happy regardless.

More folks showed up slowly and then all my friends were there and it felt right/real. The CoMiyavi team put together a bouquet of flowers and some messages to pass to him since this is his 20th anniversary tour!

I was first for GA so we got center 3rd row. Even behind 2 mighty tall people, the crowd was pretty chill and I actually had the space to move around and could still see pretty much the whole show!

I've got this kind of bucket list kinda of songs I wanna hear at concerts and I was telling people about that while we waited. Number 1 on that list was Girls Be Ambitious. Number 2 was Dear My Friend. Number 3 was Freedom Fighters. And we got all of them. I don't know what to do with myself now lol.

Notable funny moments:

Myv flew in last night and the first place they went was an Aldi, a place he'd never been to before apparently. He was very confused by it. They have all the carts chained together and you have to insert a coin to remove it and you get it back after you connect it back at the end of your trip. Miyavi saw the chains and stood there trying to separate it, not knowing how. So now we're all just imagining him, jetlagged AF, yanking on this little chain. Until an older lady came up and explained it to him and lent him a quarter so he could get his cart.

Also, Aldis has no mineral water. He was mighty offended about that lmao.

I shouted to Dolly that I think she's really pretty and Miyavi said "what about Anthony?" And then set off on this story. I officially got Myv on a tangent like we all tried to get the teachers to and I felt proud. Story went "at a show he did a while back, the CEO of this company was in the audience. Comes backstage after and is full of compliments for the show. 'Tell me more about that drummer of yours, she's pretty' and ensuing comotion of laughter over that" drummer being Anthony, a rather hairy man lol. He does have rather gorgeous curls though.

Miyavi fumbled the lyrics a little bit in at least Senor Senora Senorita and maybe Selfish Love because it's been so damn long since he's played them lol

He looked at the set list at one point toward the end of the main set. Up till then, he would say "fricking" or "freaking" cuz he doesn't cuss much when doing MCs but at this point he just said "this set is fucking long" and stared at his tablet in what I can only describe as self reflection. Realization that he put himself in that situation lmao.

The other setlist standout is the cover of Get Wild from the anime City Hunter. I've never seen it but I was a Nami Tamaki fan for a while so I already knew that. Myv announced it and was very surprised that the audience knew the anime it was from. "City Hunter, not HunterxHunter. You know it?!" It was cute.

Dolly came back along with DJ Johnny and Anthony but to replace Gabi, we got to meet Chloe! And she is soooo talented and sweet! She gets a really nice dance piece during Secret and my GOODNESS am I falling in love with her. At the time I'm writing this, I've seen her 4 times so I can fully say she is so fucking amazing!!

He played twenty songs in the main set. Went off and changed before playing 4 more songs. He had us pull out our phone lights to sway with him for Me & The Moonlight. Chloe and Dolly each sang a verse of that solo and they sounded like freaking ANGELS.

And before long, it was over. We went hard for about 2 and a half hours but it still felt really fast at the same time. Got my merch, saw someone who got a setlist that I could take a picture of (didn't realize it was blurry until after, unfortunately), and waved Myv off as he got on the bus. Got to tell him I'd see him again in NYC and then it was back to my hotel to try and sleep.

Final thoughts - this tour is such an undertaking but also amazing!! I'm so glad I was at this show and that I have 3 more to experience!!

#myv #miyavi tour 2022 #miyavi 20th anniversary tour #tour fam #best days and memories #tour life

[ladyizunia]

Speak to me... I'm listening.

Pic by @thebigbadwolven 🖤🖤🖤

#cyberpunk 2077 #screenshots #photomode #cyberpunk #v cyberpunk #trace #MyV #Really feel like kissin him today #Happy day need to post some Trace! #He's got the most beautiful eyes #Could stare for hours

[yvningshowers]

And upon further inspection Bakugou and I have the EXACT same handwriting. Just heavy handed as shit. Why son? Why do you write like that???? Just angry at the page????? How many pencils have you snapped in two Bakugou? Please I'm crying

#it's bc of his hero design draft. he can't draw for shit. his handwriting is so heavy. I'm crying. we're really the same #I mean I write like that bc I can't see the writing if I don't bc I'm blind but #I realize that with Bakugou we travel in different vehicles but always arrive at the same place #he does something that I also do but we do the things for different reasons #but we just. are the exact same as a result it's so WEIRD QODJQIJDIQJ #myv hero

[grannygerd]

Lynn’s “Teenage Kicks” playlist

"Music was a pretty personal thing when I was a teen! I was weirdly secretive about sharing music, so I don't have any fun friend stories around the songs."

Lykke Li - I Follow Rivers I forget how I discovered Lykke Li but her first two albums were on repeat for me as a teen. I took pottery my last two years of high school and would always play this while I was sculpting. The Weeknd - The Morning The Weeknd is one of my favourite artists of all time... I've been a fan since his early days, and he has been a big inspiration for me as an artist. 'The Morning' was the first song I'd heard of The Weeknd, and I was immediately obsessed. Been a huge fan since. Vampire Weekend - Run I'd blast this every day on the bus home from softball practice. This album and song especially was my springtime soundtrack my senior year. I remember it made me so excited to be in warm weather. Daughter - Youth A boy I had a crush on in high school made me a mix CD my senior year of high school. This song was on it; it was the first time I'd ever heard Daughter or music like them. Since then it's been a big influence on some of PVRIS's music/guitar tones. Moving Mountains - Full Circle This whole album was one of my favourites as a teen, but this song in particular really spoke to me. I remember discovering Moving Mountains the spring of my junior year of high school; I have a really vivid memory of playing this album in my room at night with the windows open... with this playing, it was magic! Florence + The Machine - Rabbit Heart One of my classmates gave me a book of burned CDs in class one day. One of the albums was 'Lungs'. When I got home, I remember playing each of the CDs while I was doing my homework, when I played 'Lungs' I had to stop everything I was doing and just be immersed. I'd never heard anything like it, 'Rabbit Heart' was one of my favourites. Emery - Studying Politics I was SO excited to buy this song on iTunes when I found it. I was obsessed with pre-game playlists when I played ice hockey as a teen, this was on heavy rotation. It always got me so pumped; it was so catchy. Alexisonfire - This Could Be Anywhere In The World I remember seeing the video for this on Fuse or MYV on a Friday afternoon before a high school football game. I remember downloading it and playing it in my headphones whenever I could while I was at the game, that's how excited I was about the song, haha.

September 10th, 2020

#upset magazine #lynn gunn #lynn gvnn #lyndsey gunnulfsen #pvris

[comiyaviww]

🎉[HAPPY NEWS]🎉 #JewelieBday2020⠀

Dear Jewelie, following your amazing “Happy News” reports, this year we also want to celebrate your special day by sharing our “Happy News” back to you!  📰

WISHING YOU THE HAPPIEST BIRTHDAY!  🍰 🎈

- Your worldwide Co-MYV family from Planet Earth.

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From: Aunty Ku Country: Malaysia Dear my lovely Jewelie~ I have a son one year younger than you, thus, seeing you grow healthy and happily makes me happy. Like a cotton flower, you bloom beautifully and continue to bring happiness to my heart as I wait for the flower to turn into a boll, and then into a bur that reveals the cotton fiber.  

You probably didn't know this, but Malaysia is not a country where people believe the cotton plant can grow commercially. My country focuses more on rubber tree and palm oil tree. Therefore, planting cotton trees is a little bit strange to Malaysians, especially on layman's side. However, the cotton tree is a quite a resilient type of plant. At my home, given enough nutrition and water and suitable soil, it can live all year long and bear fruits with lots of quantity twice a year! And they have lived in my garden for almost two years now! I watch them grow, learn about their sicknesses, and learn most of the insects and critters that visited them, eat them or made them as their nesting ground or home. Discovering new things, seeing new creatures is also my own kind of happiness.

You see Jewelie, sometimes happiness doesn’t come instantly. Sometimes you have to wait for it patiently, invest your time, your energy and your financial resources to make your dreams come true. However, there will be times when happiness doesn’t come, when though you have achieved something, sometimes it came when you have some sense of relief and security. Your heart is at ease, as some people would say.

However! Some happiness can also be bought thru shopping. Like this one here:

This is takli. It is used as a tool to spin fiber into yarn. From the yarn thread, we can either crochet it, or knit it, or weave it to turn the yarn into fabric for clothing items or household items like a blanket, cushion cover, and other stuff. I couldn't find it anywhere in my country as spinning the cotton fiber and turn them into yarn is also a strange practice in my country. I've been waiting for this little guy for almost two months since I last ordered it. Due to covid19, postage has been delayed. And finally 2 days ago (14/10/2020) it arrived safely at my home 

That is all I wanted to share with you today. Happy birthday Jewelie.

May you grow into an amazing person, whom love and cherish her parents until the end of their lives, and achieve all of your dreams. May life is kind to you and provide you enough.

Sincerely yours,  - Ku Shairah Jazahanim -16 Oct 2020

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From: Hyunjeong Country: Korea

안녕 쥬에리

Hello Jewelie!

I am Hyunjeong from Korea.  First, Happy Birthday to you 생일 축하해 쥬에리~~

I wish All lucky & beautiful things with you, and I will let you know my happy news. I hope my happy news will make you happy! 

A week ago, my second nephew was born. He's still small and looks like a monkey or a little bird, but he’s adorable. How this precious creature is made and born, it’s amazing. I want to leave a lot of kisses to him, but I'm really sad that I can't meet him these days because of COVID-19

I will pray that the virus will disappear as soon as possible, meet my nephews, and meet you and your daddy, MIYAVI. 

Love from Korean Aunt Hyunjeong

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From: Raira Country: Japan

🎈 HAPPY NEWS 🎈

Hello, princess!

"ありがとう" is a universal word that brings people a little happiness. 

In the shop an old woman said to me, "I want that item there." 

I handed it to her and she happily said "ありがとう" over and over again. It made me smile too. 

When a kind little action makes someone else happy, it makes me happy too. It's always in our lives. And we can all be happy if we don't forget to say "ありがとう(Thank you)" to each other. 

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From: Kyoko Country: Japan

Happy Birthday, Jewelie❣️ May happiness and joy come to you My Happy News is that I managed to come to your daddy’s live show in September. I was able to have a short trip, see my favorite persons（←including you & your daddy🥰）, and have  a good time! Thanks to all of you, I enjoyed myself🤩 ありがとう❣️and おめでとう from Kyoko: takeshiorin, JAPAN

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From: Becca Country: USA

Jewelie,

Hello Jewelie! My name is Becca and I am from Tucson, Arizona. I am 21 years old and am a senior here at my local university, the University of Arizona! I am also part of our school’s marching band, which we traditionally play at our home football games. Sadly, this year though, we are not allowed to play at any of our games because of COVID-19 and our sports conferences not allowing us or fans to enter the stadium. 

This being said though, one bit of ‘good news’ that I would like to share with you is that we have been able to schedule our 67th Annual Band Day virtually AND have it available for people nation-wide since it’s online! Band Day is an event we traditionally hold in-person at our football stadium and have around 40 high school marching bands from around the state compete. This year will be a little different, seeing as it will be held virtually and they cannot compete, however it will be equally as exciting! Especially seeing as we can still share our passion for music and the marching arts.

I hope this finds you very well, and I hope you have a wonderful birthday! You deserve the best birthday ever, and the love you receive every day! <3 <3

Becca Soto

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From: Maura Country: USA

Happy Birthday Jewelie! Since I know that the environment is important to you, I wanted to share some HAPPPPY NEWWWWWS about the environment in honor of your birthday!

“Singaporean Government Plans to Plant One Million Trees by 2030”

The government of Singapore has announced a plan to plant one million native trees by the year 2030, with the goal of helping endangered species thrive and ensuring that every resident of Singapore lives, “no more than ten minutes from a park”. Although Singapore is a small nation, their ecosystem is rich and precious. By planting these trees, they will provide habitats for “numerous birds, reptiles and plants” which may face extinction. These trees will also help fight pollution and improve air quality for Singapore.

I think that the Singaporean government has a great idea, and I hope that other governments follow suit, and create even more plans to help our planet!

Wishing you a joyful birthday full of happiness and love! From your CoMiyavi Auntie, Maura (News Source: https://www.goodnewsnetwork.org/singapore-to-plant-1-million-trees-bringing-parks-to-people/)

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From: Betty Country: Italy/Ethiopia

Hello Jewelie, 

Here is a CoMYV aunty writing to you from Italy, but the happy news I want to share with you is from my home-country Ethiopia (somewhere  in the Horn of Africa). 

I also did some research like you & this news was something that made me happy in this past weeks. Following sustainable development & clean energy, Ethiopia is now on the final stage of the long awaited start of “The Grand Ethiopian Renaissance Dam" on the Blue Nile.

It is set to become the largest hydropower plant in Africa, providing renewable energy for many people, and helping them to greatly improve their daily life. This made me really happy and hopeful for the future of my country. It was big celebration in Ethiopia too, also because the rainy season this year helped this first stage to be completed in a shorter amount of time. They saw it as a good sign from Mother Nature!  

Once we will be able to travel again safely, I hope you will keep visiting many places around the world, noticing the beautiful diversity that also connects us. Remember that you have all of us, a bunch of comyv family ready to welcome you.

Happy Happy Birthday to you, wishing you just happiness. መልካም ልደት 

CoMYV love from Betty/Kanmisa 

(News Source: https://www.washingtonpost.com/world/interactive/2020/grand-ethiopian-renaissance-dam-egypt-nile/) -------------------------------------------------------- From: Sarah Country: USA

Dear Jewelie,

I want to wish you the happiest of birthdays. Thank you for participating in the Ishihara family lives, and for always sharing such HAPPY NEWS with us! Your heart is so big and you are such bright light in this world, bringing so much joy to all of us! 

I have a bit of personal “happy news” that I wanted to share with you, and hope it puts a smile on your face - recently, my family adopted a puppy! She is a sweet girl we named “Lucky”, because we are lucky to have her, and she is lucky to have a home now. Every day she is growing big and strong, and she is a super smart dog! We enjoy teaching her tricks like “sit” and “paw”, and she really likes to play fetch with her ball. 

Some interesting facts about American Pit Bull Terriers: they are super friendly and have a goofy personality; they’re great as therapy and emotional wellness dogs; they have a great sense of smell and are often used for search & rescue and other sniffing jobs; they are very muscular and athletic and can jump very high; they are wonderful family dogs and used to be known as “nanny” dogs because they love children so much. 

She is bringing lots of joy to our family since we are all working and learning from home this year. I think we also bring her lots of happiness by giving her a warm and loving home.  

I’m thankful for the virtual connections we all have in these times, and I look forward to the day that friends and family can celebrate and enjoy time together again. Please take care, stay safe, and keep smiling! Remember, we are always under the same beautiful sky! 

Happy Birthday Jewelie! ❣️ 

Much love from your CoMYV Aunty, Sarah --------------------------------------------------------

We hope you keep looking for HAPPY NEWS every day! 

HAPPY BIRTHDAY JEWELIE!

#HAPPYNEWS #MIYAVI #JewelieBday2020⠀ #JewelieIshihara #comiyaviww #happybirthday #birthday2020 #birthday

[lovesickdrug]

(warning: there are text in Japanese and English, as there was no room for this huge text in 3 different languages) 🇯🇵今日は (今はもう27日けどまだ１時から心の中にまだ26日だよ）、サンパウロに、@miyavi_ishihara のライブだった!彼は本当に本当に本当に本当に大好きーーーーーーーーーーーーなアーチスト! その絵良く頑張っていたから、MIYAVIさんは、私の人生にもう10年ぐらい、影響がある。 絵の全部がポストできないからインスタグラムのフォームに入れない　笑笑 実は、私がその絵を描いて、meet&greetでMIYAVIさんにプレゼントをあげるつもり。MIYAVIさんの手であげなかったけど、スタッフの原田さんにあげた。 良かったらその絵の事を好きになるよ。 meet&greetは早過ぎたけど、ライブはとても素晴らしかった!楽し過ぎた!大好きだったよ! MIYAVIさんやBOBOさんやサポートの歌手やスタッフ達も、心から感謝しているよ!あなた達のおかげで夢を叶えた! 今日の事、お疲れ様ですよ!それで、来てくれてって、素晴らしかったライブをしたって、本当にありがとうございました! 🇬🇧Today was Miyavi's live in São Paulo (already the 27th, but in my heart is still the 26th)! He is one of my favourite musicians EVER! I gave my best doing this drawing because Miyavi has been influencing my life for abt 10 years now. (Listen his music since 2008) U can't see the whole picture because Instagram format doesn't allowed it. (Too long I guess) lol Honestly, I made this with intention of giving him it as a gift during the meet and greet. I wasn't able to give it on his hands, personally, but I was able to deliver the gift thanks to Mr. Harada, a staff that was collecting all the gifts. (I wished to see Miyavi's reaction to the drawing, tho) Hopefully the drawing will meet Miyavi's taste :v Meet and greet as bloody fast, but the live performance was amazing! Had plenty of fun! And I really loved it! To Miyavi, Bobo, the support singers and the staff, I'm grateful from the bottom of my heart! Because of you I was able to see one of my dreams come true! About today, thanks for your efforts! Also, for coming here and making this wonderful live, THANKS A LOT! #miyavi #miyaviday2worldtour2018 #fanart #digitalart #artistsoftumblr #artistoninstagram #artistsonig #miyavileeishihara #gift #guitar #samuraiguitarrist #MYV #Bobo #bobodrums #saopaulo #day2worldtour #day2worldtourbrazil

#fanart #guitar #digitalart #artistsonig #bobodrums #saopaulo #samuraiguitarrist #day2worldtourbrazil #artistoninstagram #gift #myv #miyavi #bobo #miyavileeishihara #artistsoftumblr #day2worldtour #miyaviday2worldtour2018

[taemsthetic]

This Tuesday, I travelled from Copenhagen to Hamburg to see MIYAVI live. I got up at four in the morning and rode the train for around five hours and arrived at the venue at one. Already then, I was so exhausted that I did not think I would last until the concert. A few hours later, MYV himself actually stepped out of his tour bus, waved and said hi before entering the venue. Cue me screeching to myself as the fangirl I am. 

But, this concert was so incredible, I think at one point I felt my soul being cleansed lol. He was ever bit as amazing as I thought he would - even more so. He’s so kindhearted and he really wants to just share his music with everyone and help people. It was genuine, I was bawling my eyes out during his cover of ‘Youth of the Nation’. Not to mention, I was completely devastated when the show was over. Usually I’m just glad to get the hell out there because I have a lot of social anxiety and my personal space being invaded so violently for so many hours in a row is not something I deal well with. I even had a cruel ass panic attack while I was waiting in the queue, an hour before the door opened. I just couldn’t breathe and everything around me was spinning, but damn it if I wasn’t going to fight my way through it. I don’t take queueing lightly if it means I actually have a chance of being in the front - and I did. I got to the very front and it was awesome.

I can’t even remember the last time I had so much fun at a concert. I swear, usually it’s like 60% nodding along to the music and 40% trying to keep my anxiety under control and I just think it says a lot about what MIYAVI’s music can do and how much he actually means to people. I was dancing and singing along, it was as if I had been freed from a cage, even if it was just for a couple hours. 

So thank you.

THANK YOU SO MUCH, MIYAVI. 

#miyavi #myv #myv382 #myv 382 tokyo #tokyo #japan #jrock #j rock #music #band #rock #gruenspan #hamburg #review #sort of #i guess? #guitar samurai #samurai guitarist #firebird #firebird tour #firedbird 2017 #concert #live #live music #gig #gigs #new beat new future #slap the world #love #thankful

[opheliamblackwood]

I loved a girl once. The sun rose and set for her. I’d walk past her house, which was a few blocks from mine and I’d catch her in the window sometimes doing something or other. I was obsessed with her and I never really knew why. She didn’t have the best home life and we had a lot in common. She had a little brother that was my brother’s age. She is the reason I ever got into photography to begin with. When I saw how beautiful things could be behind a lens, how beautiful she could make it, I picked up a crappy camera and I began. 

I owe her so many things. I hated her for a very long time for a multitude of reasons. But, I don’t hate her anymore. In a way, I understand. I don’t excuse the things she’s said or done to hurt me or that were fucked up. But, I’m not innocent either. I’ve done some fucked up shit to her and said some horrible things to her. She represents this part of my life that will always be over. Thinking about her reminds me of being busy all day and stopping to take notice of the sky turning a brilliant orange mixed with pink as it sets. Sometimes, you’ll take a moment and really look at something. I really loved her.

I thought she really loved me, but I don’t think she ever did.Then again, I don’t really know. I’m not her. I made love to her once, just once. I remembered feeling weird about it and questioning myself. I remembered walking to work afterwards and not knowing how to place what I was feeling, only that I was curious about doing it again. I loved making her feel good. 

The thing is, it never really worked out. I couldn’t give her a child, which she so desperately wanted and because of that, I hated myself and her. I had all of these feelings I didn’t understand and couldn’t process. I didn’t have anyone to talk to about it. Sometimes, I’d talk to my best friend, but I’m sure he rolled his eyes at it more than a few times. I was alone a lot of my life, especially in my teens. But, I figured it out as time went on. I know who I am now and I wish, I wish I could tell me that it would be alright. I don’t know why I thought of her today, only that it leaves me a little displaced, with this feeling that is a far distant cousin to sadness with a smile.

MYV

11.14.18

#writing #my poetry

[ladyizunia]

Trace and Ev.

While playing I really got fond of how complementary they were to each other in terms of looks. Not my usual pairing tho, more like a happy accident which most likely won’t repeat. Love Ev and her expressions, tho. That woman is LOVE.

#cyberpunk 2077 #screenshots #photomode #MyV #Trace #Trace and Ev #evelyn parker #accidental cool shots #trace would probably never get involved with her canonically #but a girl can dream #he can be such a bore when he’s already in love #they still look beautiful together if u ask me #Evelyn is so fucking cool #was one of the first chars I really started to love

[cydarizard]

More video posts! Because I have no free time for media lately (except Diablo III apparently...that’s a long story) so I just listen to Youtube videos in the background at work. 

Anyway, going to see Miyavi on Saturday and I hope it’s awesome! I’m honestly more familiar with his stuff from back when he was a little more visual kei and I was in high school (so like 2006, jeez I’m old.) But he always had that funky guitar riff thing going, and his new stuff seems to have  that even more and it’s catchy as hell so I’m sure I’ll have a good time, even if he only plays new stuff. 

Ahhh, I really hope he plays some older stuff though. I loved MYV*POPS and would die happy if he played a super old single like Girl Be Ambitious or Jibun Kakumei. Maybe he’ll play that one with the really long title he did with Sugizo Hi no Hikari Sae Todokanai Kono Basho De. (Yes I had to look  that up, I’m half just pasting all these titles so I remember to listen to them again before Saturday, cause they are all GREAT songs.)

#music related rambling that turn into a live journal this is my tag for that thing

[ladyizunia]

There'll be days

When I'll stray

I may appear to be

Constantly out of reach

I give in to sin

Because I like to practice what I preach

#cyberpunk 2077 #cyberpunk photomode #photomode #Trace #MyV #edits #getting better #Trace makes me goddamn patient don’t know why #he’s so much fun #he’s really my comfort corpo #love him so goddamn much

[siyeonjisoo]

I went to see Miyavi today and it was absolutely one of the hottest days I have intentionally spent outside without being at the beach or pool or something like that.  I woke up at 6 and left my house by 7:15 so I could line up early.  I only had GA so I wanted to make sure I was gonna have a good spot in the line but I also wanted to be up close with my friends who also usually camp out all day. 

Got there at like...9-ish and was the actual fourth person in line.  Among the folks who had GA tickets, I was actually second cuz half were VIP and half were GA. This was the first time Miyavi had performed in NYC but not at Irving Plaza or at a special event somewhere else so I was joking around that maybe the rest of the line was actually there by mistake lol.

Another 2 people showed up over the next 3 hours before Miyavi got to the venue.  So he got out of the van and he came over. Almost didn't stop to greet all of us individually. Like we were right next to the door and he looked like he was gonna say hi while walking in but then he recognized at least 2 of the people in the line and thought better of it. Shook everyones hand and had something slightly different to say to each of us before heading inside.  All in the spirit of thanking us for being here or asking if we were ready to rock and what not. Like 10 minutes later, the next few folks joined the line and we were screaming over him coming by still and they were so upset they missed him.

I spent the rest of my day just chatting and catching up with my friends that I really only end up seeing like once a year at Miyavi shows and seriously hate it. I need to see y'all more often!  I honestly almost cried on the train ride home thinking about how I'm gonna miss y'all. </3

The girl who got in line directly behind me ended up being one of the most amazing human beings I could have met that day.  Her friend bailed on her after she had bought two VIP tickets so she had an extra one. WHICH SHE GAVE TO ME. So I got to go inside and have the meet and greet experience before the show!  I kind of was so much in shock that I didn't really tell him much of anything other than thanking him and telling him I look forward to rocking with him.  We were told by security that we weren't allowed to touch him but he extended his hand before I could even say hi.  And he like put his arm around my shoulder and pulled me flush against his side for the pictures.  I had ZERO space between me and him in that picture and it was done by him, not me creeping on his personal space.  lol.

It wasn't until this afternoon that the full weight of HAVING MET HIM AND BEING ABLE TO SPEAK TO HIM FOR LIKE A FULL MINUTE is a THING THAT HAPPENED crashed on me and I just started crying while sitting on my couch.  I just remember the first time I saw him and it was just overwhelming to be in the same room as him with hundreds of other fans.  This time, it was literally me, Miyavi, two photographers, and maybe a manager and security staff somewhere behind the lights that I couldn't see.  I couldn't quite get out the words I wanted to.  I couldn't get up the nerve to thank him for giving me something to pull myself out of my depression when I was a teenager.  I couldn't get up the nerve to tell him he is going to be the inspiration for my next tattoo that is going to be a companion to my the GazettE tattoo.  So I'm a little bit bummed at myself for that but I still got the pictures and the as-close-to one-on-one time I will ever get with him unless I run into him on his free time and I am thankful for that and will choose to focus on that instead.

Leave the m&g and walked in a daze up to the barricade where my friends are waiting.  looked at the pictures and they both turned out surprisingly good.  I went to check out getting merch but the line for that was WAY too long and there was only one person behind the table selling stuff so I gave up when I saw the people I recognized to be the front of the GA line coming in.  I knew it meant I might have trouble getting back to my friends who were saving my place at the barricade and I don't need to be buying merch, I'm okay without it.

Stood around chatting with folks and making even more new friends for the next 2 hours but it seemed to FLY by.  Almost.  When the show started I expected to get crushed against the barricade but I didn't.  I actually had a few inches to move on all sides around me so I was able to keep my feet from growing numb like usual.  I had stashed my bag in a friends hotel room nearby so I didn't have to worry about stepping on that or anything and my phone was secured in another friend's bag so I was completely free to enjoy as much as I wanted.

And enjoy I did.  I was positioned on the drum side of center but still 3 people off of the dead center.  I was on the barricade. I screamed and cheered and sung my heart out.  I headbanged when I could.  I have the bruises on the back of my upper arms to prove I was on the barricade and resting my arms on it throughout.  Miyavi kept teasing us with his sexiness that somehow only gets stronger the more times I see him.  I can't explain it.

We taught him some English slang, you're the sauce. He was so confused "s.a.u.c.e. sauce?" Spelling it out. Asking DJ johnny. Said he would Google it later since he still didnt fully trust us to be honest with the meaning we gave him lol.  Someone in the crowd shouted about wanting pizza and Takamasa Lee Ishihara replied "pizza? no, I prefer Whole Foods" and I almost peed myself from laughter.

He also is so sexy I actually went weak at the knees when he did some shit.

In the chats I had with my friends before, I convinced them to help me get Bobo (the drummer)'s attention.  So when he came out we all screamed like crazy for him instead of Miyavi.  And we were right in front of his drum set so they knew we were there.  Every time it was quiet enough after songs, I started a Bobo-call. First two times it happened Bobo sat there with zero emotion on his face, staring at the wall across from him.  Miyavi was watching it unfold with amusement and would say something to Bobo but not into his microphone so no clue what it was but he would say something and then laugh.  I had kinda given up hope that I would get properly acknowledged until the very end of the show.  After they all bowed after encore, I kept calling him instead of Myv and giving him hearts and he noticed and looked so cute and embarrassed and like nodded/hands together bowed at me. He is just the most precious.   

My friend got a copy of the setlist so that's attached here. This man is a fucking beast and I love him so much.

I also love all of my friends who were there.  Thank you all for loving me and accepting me into our lovely #concertfam 

#miyavi #under the same sky #no sleep till tokyo #nyc #sony theater #janjan's face

[drkreviews]

Miyavi - The Finger-Slapping Ace

Here I am with the week-end’s special in “Focusing on”! Today’s subject is the most subversive Japanese rock artist ever seen, because of his unexpected and poliedric musical evolution. He is known as Takemasa Ishihara, or Miyavi, born on 14th September 1981 in Konohana-ku, Osaka prefecture. Son of Korean father and Japanese mother, he started his musical path when he was 15, after that his dream of becoming a football player has been struck down by an injury. So he debuted on high school with the visual kei band Loop, but he became famous on 1999, when he joined the famous old-school visual band Duè le Quartz, which will disband on 2003. Then on the same year, he signed under the label known as PS Company and started his solo career. His musical genre is not so easy to define, as it ranges from pop, to rock, passing for acoustic, blues, a customized hip-hop, funk, techno and soul, where there’s a strong attention to the personal image, united to his rebellious and charismatic personality and he is famous especially for his style of playing guitar, known as finger-slapping. He debuted as solo artist with the first album Gagaku (Elegant music/Miyavi’s music), which I reviewed here, followed up by the singles Shindemo Boogie-woogie (Boogie-woogie though you are dead), Pop is dead, Jingle Bell and Jibun kakumei (My revolution).

The title-track has a fast rhythm, closer to a dance-rock sound, with fierce vocals and energetic guitar playing; the song is about an extreme desire of changing our own life. It has been followed by the singles Tariraritaratara and Coo quark cluck -ku ku ru-, the second album Galyuu (Self-taught), reviewed here, the singles Ashita, genki ni naare. (Tomorrow will be fine.), Rock no gyakushuu -Super Star no jouken-/21 sekikei koushinkyoku (Rock counterattack -Terms of a superstar-/21st century march) and Freedom Fighters -Ice cream wo motta hadashi no megami to, kikanjuu wo motta hadaka no ousama- (Freedom fighters -Barefoot goddesses who hold ice creams and naked kings who hold machineguns), the third album Miyavizm and the single Kekkonshiki no uta (Wedding song)/Are you ready to rock?.

The second title-track is probably the most famous song by Miyavi and expresses the talent of this incredible musician at the best, with a beating rhythm, strong vocals and piercing touches of guitar; the song is about the beauty and the energy which only rock music can really give. It has been followed by the single Señor, señora, señorita/Gigpig boogie.

The first title-track has an exotic touch, where Miyavi shows off his sensual and romantic side; the song is about a vampire who is courting his loved one. It has been followed by the singles Dear my friend/Itoshii hito (Beloved person) and Kimi ni negai wo (Wishing to you), the fourth album Myv☆Pops, the acoustic album Miyaviuta -Dokusou- (Miyavi’s songs -Acoustic-), the single Sakihokoru hana no you ni/Kabuki danshi (Like a flower in full bloom/Kabuki boys), the self-cover EP 7 Samurai Sessions -We’re Kavki Boiz- and the singles Subarashiki kana, kono sekai -What a wonderful world- and Hi no hikari sae todokanai kono basho de (In this place where neither the sun can reach).

The title-track, made in collaboration with the known musician Sugizo (who he will work with even in the project S.K.I.N.), shows off the softest side of Miyavi, with a slow-paced melody and deep vocals, for a really efficient ballad; the song is about a journey for searching the hope, represented by the sunlight. It has been followed by the fifth album Miyavi -This iz the Japanese Kabuki Rock-, the compilation Victory Road to the King of Neo Visual Rock and the single Survive.

In this song we assist to a sort of change for Miyavi’s music, which has become grittier and more extreme, exalting the energy of his guitar playing; the song is about a wolf who is hungry of love. It has been followed by the compilation Fan’s Best, the single Torture, the sixth album What’s My Name?, the EP with the same title, the singles Strong (Miyavi vs Kreva), Day 1 (Miyavi vs Yuksek) and Silent Anger (Miyavi vs Takeshi Hosomi), the first mini-album Samurai Sessions vol.1 and the single Ahead of the Light.

The title-track sees a stronger influence of Western music, in particular electronic and techno, with a catchy and fresh sound; the song is about a freaking dance, full of light and life. It has been followed by the seventh album Miyavi.

One of the lead-tracks, named Guard You, has a slower melody, closer to soul and ballad, accompained by a tender guitar and warm vocals; the song is about protecting who we love as ultimate goal of life. It has been followed by the singles Real? and Let Go, the eighth album The Others, the singles Mission:Impossible Theme and Afraid to be Cool/Raise Me Up and the ninth album Fire Bird.

Miyavi is surely one of the most acclaimed musicians of Japanese rock scene, one of the few who managed to kick off in the international stage, arriving even to change his own style for it. His fierce and raging rock music, which receives new and thrilling contaminations each time, has always been his trademark, incredibly helped by his eccentric image, characterized by freaking outfits in his visual era and going to not-so-causal wearing in recent times. Even if his latest releases seemed to lack of that bit of particularity which always characterized his works, Miyavi never stopped to be appealing in its own way, also in his mainstream approach. So even if most people don’t enjoy the works of the last two years, his musical past is always object of interest and entertainment for any Japanese rock fan and if you enjoy Takemasa Ishihara’s rebel sound, you should check out his latest compilation, entitled All Time Best “Day 2″, containing all his recent songs, plus a new one, named Live to Die Another Day.

Who might enjoy: who wants to listen to unpredictable rock melodies, filled by a fiery and rebel energy.

Recommended songs: Jibun Kakumei, Are you ready to rock?, Señor, señora, señorita, Itoshii hito, Hi no hikari sae todokanai kono basho de, Survive, Day 1, Ahead of the Light, Horizon and Guard You.

That’s all folks! See you on Tuesday for the first part of April’s themed week in “Lyrical Love”!

Thanks for the reading!

*Sorry for the delay*

#miyavi #jrock #visual kei #pop-rock #blues #groove #electronic #takemasa ishihara #382 #duè le quartz #finger-slapping #guitarist #ecleptic #focusing on

[opheliamblackwood]

Empty Spaces

Sa stared at herself from across a dark space she couldn't understand. The mirror stared coldly back at her and she had nothing to say. In a way, she'd been going on for days, and for what? She didn't know. Was the pay worth all the extra hours she was suddenly putting in? Was skipping class even worth it anymore? Somehow, she didn't know but in a way she couldn't understand, it helped. The children lit up her day and they reminded her of a part of herself she felt she'd lost, years ago. She wished she could curl up into herself, find that child that could sit by her parent's bedroom window and write silly poems about leaves all day. Sa couldn't remember a time when she was happy. When she was in love, she was happy but something grew inside of her, something that changed her forever. It was dark and masked, it never showed it's face but she could feel it from inside, it was a hole in the center of her chest and it pulled her deeper inside of herself until she couldn't see who it was that was staring back at her in the mirror. The knife shook in her hand, it was something like curiosity and fear, all blended into one. No one cared anymore. Yeah, maybe her friends, maybe her immediate family but all she ever wanted, all she ever believed, was gone. It left her behind. Like a passenger at the greyhound station and it pulled off without her, as if she was never important to begin with. She felt abandoned, like something precious you lose when you're caught up in life. It worked that way with her. It was an impact, it was a scar and it was a reminder. Some days, she was weak and other days she could carry on. But, before she knew it, it always brought her down again. It's an empty feeling. Nothing seems to matter because the meds won't work and the therapists, well, they never really do get you. You try to find the answers, you try to help yourself but it all seems so blank, it all seems so fucking empty. The streets welcomed her but she wasn't looking for sin. She remembered his hand in hers as he promised, he promise. Just like that he left, taking the biggest trusting part of her with him again...Somehow, she always found herself forgiving him and she didn't know why. But this time, he went too far, this time, he just didn't care.

It was interesting, she wanted to believe a lie and found hatred when her knife was shaking, trying to carve his name into her thigh. She wanted to believe, she wanted to believe this time around things would be different. She wanted to believe so fucking much and it hurt. To be left out in the cold again, to be abandoned, again.  Sa wanted to disappear, but she didn't know how. Daily she felt like just another part of the herd, migrating to a class that was supposed to entice her. Knowledge always welcomed her and she was fond of it but lately, her capabilities diminished, making her sink even farther then who she was, who she used to be. There was blood leaking down her hand. She didn't care. It's hard, she was underestimated, she was overwhelmed and there was no room for empathy, no time for remorse. All she wanted to believe was in one thing, one person, him and now he took that belief away from her without even realizing it. Everyone tried to get close, to ask her what's wrong, to fill the spaces he left behind but they just couldn't in the end. She was set free, she was isolated, no one cared, no one loved her, never like he had and no one ever would. So his name ached on her thigh and her nerves were shot to hell. Sa spent half an hour in the bathroom throwing up breakfast, lunch and dinner. She was having an anxiety attack. There was no one there to hold her, as usual. She dealt with it on her own as he parents lay asleep just down the hall. Sa tried to remember a time, a time when she was happy. Whenever she got sick, she used to call for her mother and her mother would rub her shoulders as she fought "the battle of her life" and though her mother couldn't always directly take the pain away, she could make it easier, she made it...bearable. In a way, she was victimized and apprehension filled her frame. She leaned into a deeper side of herself until she couldn't see the surface and the smoke never seemed clear enough. Her nights felt like days and work felt like dreaming, it felt like some interrupted part of life. It's easy that way. Her checking account held more than enough substantial money but she never used it, she never even touched it. All that money she had planned to save and use on the trip to see him but things just sunk and disappeared so now she had no one. Loneliness did not go hand in hand with her and it was getting harder just to stay focused. She didn't have goals anymore and it took a lot more than just him for her to get this way. It was the repetition of pain and emotional abuse she endured. But she could never let anyone in, not even if she tried. Suddenly, the world just stopped one day. She wrote him a note. She made her choice. The next day it was raining just lightly. The wind was gently howling through the trees and raindrops hit her windowsill. There were posters all over her wall filled with things others probably wouldn't understand. There were two main paintings that hung by her desk.  They were from her childhood and all over the desk were pictures of her from when she was younger, when she was--happy. Far off in the corner, her closet door sighed, creaking open. Her cat padded into the room and lightly jumped onto the windowsill. It was a good day. Somehow, it was different. She lay still, staring up at the glow in the dark stars on her ceiling. They made her feel young and there were so many words echoing in her mind. She used to know who she was, a long time ago. She was different. Somewhere along the lines, something intruded and took every part of her away so that she could reinvent a mistake, a failure. It'd been 4 days since she'd sent the letter out. He should be getting it by now. That's what she thought. She took a deep breath, staring over at the wall where his picture was. His eyes were beautiful and seemed different today, like everything else. The rain was softening the earth outside, her computer was making noises and the house settled. There was silence for a moment. and then... BANG! Halfway across the country, he got the letter. 2 days later, he was saying goodbye.

4.14.18

myv

#tw:suicide #depression #pain #mywriting #writersoftumblr #mine

[opheliamblackwood]

Static in the background

She stood there feeling uncomfortable to be herself as he talked to yet another person that recognized them from high school. Another random guy whose name she didn't remember started talking to her boyfriend and as usual she faded into the background. He talked on, laughing over some last minute remark and she just stared around at the lights lighting an obelisk-like structure which water was smoothly flowing down the side of. It's amazing. She was out of highschool for at least 2 years now and it seemed like nothing ever changed except her relationship status. "Honey.?" he said with the smile on his face threatening to disappear. "Yeah?" she said turning to look at him. She realized the guy he was talking to had waved at both of them as he turned and left with some girl beside him. "What's wrong?" her boyfriend asked looking concerned. His blue eyes bunched up with curiousity. "Nothing." she said as was her usual response. It was always total, complete bullshit. "Honey.." he said knowing better. "It's just, I don't know, I guess I feel like, no one ever really notices me you know?" she said feeling hopelessly stupid. "That's not true. I notice you." he said smirking. "Well, duh, we've known each other for how long now? 3 years? So, yeah. And we were the minorities at our high school so it's no suprise we sided together." she said feeling validated. "Honey, I love you. I PAY attention to you. And anyway, people pay attention to you. What about all those sites you're on?" he said trying to lighten the mood. "Yeah, some people pay attention and that's every once in a while. Otherwise I'm just background static. I don't feel so special or anywhere near remotely unique. I just don't get it. I feel like, sometimes, you have it all you know? And I'm just, this thing, floating by with all these thoughts and feelings that just aren't as big as yours when it comes down to it. You know all these people everywhere and everyone knows you and I'm just, this girl. And the only reason the people who know you know me, is because of you. So I'm nowhere near remotely useful in the social scene. I feel like I'll never matter." she said shrugging her shoulders and looking down. "Baby.." he said lifting her chin up so that he could look into her eyes and make her get the full effect of what he was saying, " shut up. you are well known, you just don't know it. And people value you. You've helped alot of people and some people are just..busy. I'm sorry you feel this way. But I love you and please believe me when I tell you that you DO matter." he said pulling her into him. As usual, she breathed him in as she nestled her head into his chest. He placed his head on top of hers since she was so much shorter than him. There were too many jokes about it. That's what seperated them from normality sometimes. They were different from the world or so it seemed. They could be best friends and lovers. It was never hard for them. They never had to seperate the two. Even when they weren't together. They could never be away from each other for too long. No matter who they were with, they always came back to one another. She couldn't figure out why. After about 2 minutes of being held, she pulled away from him and as he kissed her quickly on the lips, he held her hand tightly and they walked closely side by side making their way upstairs. She stared at him trying to figure it out. She hated her skin sometimes. Sometimes she couldn't stand to be her but it's all she could be. He was the one who always cared the most she felt. Outside of her family. They sat on benches on the second floor overlooking the mini obelisk fountain structure. just stared. She stared at the water and wondered about the world. It wasn't unlike her. "Babe..?" 

myv

written 10 years ago and never finished. 

#personal #writing #writersoftumblr