#is it easier to stay?

[inkskinned]

for a second, you did the bad thing and bargained about it.

if it meant that you would never be numb like this again, what would you give up?

maybe it's the childhood stuff or the religious trauma or how your dad doesn't believe in medication, but this is how you are, right. you need to have a counterbalance. suffering has to have its own reward. there needs to be a point to it. and if you're happy - if you could just be happy, and the world could actually fill in enough space that the edges of your spirit actually meet the horizon of your body - you would need to pay for it.

your passions? that one seems fair, but how could you actually be happy without them. well, you'd never be numb again, so maybe you'd be able to find joy in the small things like you used to. gleeful, you'd make coffee and breakfast into an artform. you'd find a way to make it make sense, somehow. you'd move on. it'd be different, but it would be doable.

your lover? your friends? this would be hard. you owe so much to your community. still, you could maybe make yourself a small home in the woods. you could live a quiet life, one devoid of friendship - but also without this horrible grey mist. a life like bigfoot, then. you'd figure out how to make the most of it.

your hair. your teeth. all of it.

sometimes you are jealous of mental illness as it appears in media: a big stroke of a meltdown, a firestorm that resolves prettily in therapy. it is flashing lights and thin teenagers. you've absolutely had breakdowns that stole the show - but life after resolved into a pixel art of things you managed to piece together afterwards, not a tapestry of a heart made suddenly-beautiful. that people could pick up blades as if they weigh nothing, that the way it all appears is as a cry for help, not a slow backsliding.

you have to stop the thought: i'd give up everything.

but also - be real. you'd never give up your dog. nor your best friend. nor the way you feel walking while through deep fog. you'd never give up the last bonfire of summer, the reckless laughter of halloween. so you do still love things.

maybe that's the problem: you know it should be easier. you have everything you could possibly want. so how come you are still trapped? still yearning?

#writeblr #warm up #dlkfjsldkjf #ive been dealin w/some pretty bad [ mental illness ] for about a year now. like the kind i got at 19 #and ..................... i have everything i want. #i wish it was easier for both of us #it is easier in a lot of ways. i am glad i stayed. but ya lol i am so tired in the Very Bad No Good way

[nelkcats]

Paranormal Department

Something strange was happening in the world, something that even the League would not have prevented. It seemed that the United States government had been fighting things they didn't stand a chance with, and this almost ended in disaster if it wasn't for the kindness of what they were dealing with. The details were highly classified and encrypted so Batman didn't know the details and it was frustrating him.

All that trouble resulted in Justice League Dark working steadily with the "Paranormal Department", there wasn't much information on their members and they worked in the shadows (Bruce wasn't amused, he needed contingency plans) but Zatara claimed they were excellent allies, despite their strange use of modern technology.

Bruce didn't know what they were about, or what agreement the president had made, but he didn't trust this "new department". They could betray them at any second. That's why when Constantine informed him that they would take over the "Lazarus pits" he flatly refused. Apparently his refusal didn't matter at the end since the "Department" got jurisdiction over the case.

Team Phantom, which was now headquartered in downtown Amity Park (and had many new members like Paulina and Dash) was having fun pissing off the Bat. While Danny had made an agreement with the government to deal with threats from the Realms, one of the clauses was not to tell the heroes they existed (After years of living with the Fenton's Danny was not amused that anyone knew ways to eliminate him, Clockwork was backup enough). Sam thought it was childish but didn't stop him.

Sam handled all the legal stuff, but it seemed like they had jurisdiction over all the cases that interested them (more than JL, since they were an elite team in that field), and no one could reveal their identities, which relieved Danny greatly.

Their main job was to send the ghosts home and close the rifts, plus deal with demons, or creatures that came out of said rifts. Easy enough for them, but probably extremely risky if you were inexperienced. Honestly, since they dealt with the GIW themselves, Danny didn't trust the heroes, however JLD was fine.

#dpxdc #Basically Team Phantom dealt with the GIW #and then threatened the president about it #with a lot of legal documentation #The president who didn't even notice the passing of the anti-ghost laws accepted the blame #and the paranormal department was created #which was led by them #and had priority in all cases related to the Realms #this ended up as classified and protected information #Technus wouldn't let anyone learn it anyway #dp x dc #dc x dp #JL hate the Paranormal Department #they don't know their members #but the PD always steal their cases #and they are forbidden to investigate further #Bruce is about to pull his hair out of stress #JLD loves the PD #Their lives have never been easier #They can even tell JL to stay away from a case that they'll blow if they get involved #life was good #ghost king danny

[paper-mario-wiki]

ive exclusively been playing it by ear with the makeup (no tutorials or anything) and i somehow always end up looking like a secretary kind of so ive been practicing looking exasperated while wearing makeup cuz i figure i gotta work with what im given ya know

#image #thank you for all the kind words #i typically tend to stay away from full sincerity online because i think having a few layers between what you see and what i am is like #a reasonable safety measure for someone with a massive following to take #but i will say that im very lucky to have already accumulated a following of people so in support of *this* already #because it makes it much easier #theres still a lot of parts of it that dont feel real and probably wont for a while but right now #but while im just putting on makeup to feel pretty and posting pics for fun #before im ready to take a deep breath and fully commit to a shift of name and pronouns #just for right now #i appreciate it

[jackklinemybeloved]

zac’s “less is more” approach to comedy is always golden but it is working PERFECTLY for colin provolone from both a comedic and dramatic standpoint. everyone else I kinda get the vibe of but colin is Just Some Guy which is driving both me and raphaniel up the fucking WALL.

#it’s VERY funny but Colin what the FUCK is your deal what HAPPENED TO YOU #he’s just some guy we know nothing about his past but we KNOW he has Some Kind Of Past #what kind of past? what happened? we don’t knowwwww #and the whole story treats him as Just Some Guy which is so funny but also like. what the fuck! #but my actual point is like #I love that zac can just stay on the sidelines without anyone really thinking about it #like he doesn’t take up scenes very much #which is cool but sometimes works to his character’s detriment #but here? perfect. #much easier to keep Colin as Just Some Fucking Guy when he barely talks #anyway. zac oyama is very talented that is all. #dimension 20 #the ravening war #colin provolone #d20 spoilers #zac oyama #bishop raphaniel charlock

[fiendishartist2]

you appear familiar dear; you look just like my bathroom mirror!

#i love to just make a love letter to petscop and then disappear for a week. like hey guys :) #my art #digital art #artists on tumblr #petscop #paul leskowitz #petscop paul #carrie mark #petscop care #i downloaded the kyle webster megapack of photoshop brushes and just had so much fun trying out brushes #against all odds i am actually a watercolour bitch so i used a lot of water colour brushes for this #except this is so much easier and more enjoyable bc i could ctrl z and didnt have to wait for anything to dry lol #i adhere to the theory that paul moves back in with anna when the family takes over the channel. so paul stays in the ''guest room'' O_O; #i made this while frustrated by my homework in a library. i cant draw doorknobs but i can draw an entire room in 2 point perspective <3

[myconetted]

if you're a pixel phone user, your cropped/redacted screenshots might not be redacted

a bug called "acropalypse" has been discovered that can recover the original contents

Source: https://twitter.com/ItsSimonTime/status/1636857478263750656

More info:

This affects the built-in Markup app for all models from Pixel 3 through Pixel 7.

Images uploaded to Discord before January 2023 have not been sanitized against this.

Here's a blog post by one of the authors: https://www.da.vidbuchanan.co.uk/blog/exploiting-acropalypse.html

What you should do:

Update your phone ASAP. Update instructions here. Follow the section for security updates and ensure your Android security update is from March 2023.

Check your social media for vulnerable images you may have uploaded. You can use the demo app to test your images: https://acropalypse.app/

#my:poast #security #infosec #acropalypse #google pixel #hopefully this one is easier to read?? idk #stay safe y'all this one is a fucking doozy and a half

[seeks-for-knowledge]

The Daedric Alphabet

"I tire of all spell scrolls I come across saying Woe Upon You. Why not something nicer, like Joy Upon You?"

- Seeks-For-Knowledge

The Daedric alphabet is used by both the Dunmer and the Daedra, the Dunmer using it as a remnant from a time when they worshipped the Daedra, before the Battle of Red Mountain in the First Era.

Exceptions

The letters Xayah (X) and Yahkem (Y) are sometimes omitted in scrolls and books, leaving only a blank space where the letter would be. They appear more commonly in banners and signs.

Writing styles

Daedric is not always written from left to right. On occassion it is written from up to down instead. Some places even write it upside down or mirrored, though this is less common. However, the most interesting way to write it is the decorative way often used in signs and banners, where the letters can overlap each other and vary in size, though the starting letter tends to be the largest, and different in colour than the rest.

Traveler's advice: If you ever journey to Morrowind, learning the basics of the Daedric alphabet can really enrich your journey, and also lessen the humiliating need to ask for directions when standing right by signs written in Daedric.

#tes #the elder scrolls #important notice: my handwriting can be flawed as I am a self-taught learner #it has been a while since i journeyed in morrowind. my ability to read the daedric alphabet is growing rusty #maybe it is time to book another trip #certainly the easier way than finding my way to another daedric domain. it is more common than one might think. #daedric ruins often have inscriptions in daedric as well but i recommend not to stay and study them unless you are certain there are no #daedra approaching you.

[kogglyuffs]

sunflowers still grows at night

#digital art #my art #fanart #dead plate #dead plate game #dead plate art #dead plate fanart #it wouldve been easier to do this on 3ds but #im still learning how to use flipnote 3d aight #but finally pulled this idea that has been staying in the darkest void of my mind for a very good while #i can rest...... for now #i associate this song w rody now idc #dead plate manon #dead plate rody #manon vacher #rody lamoree #lacher

[dailydikke]

Day 25

#heyy its save #im making a google doc about how dikke speaks #its a lot... but makes writing her dialogue a bit easier #so stay tuned for that #reverse 1999 #reverse 1999 fanart #reverse 1999 dikke #dikke reverse 1999 #dikke #reverse 1999 tennant #tennant reverse 1999 #tennikke

[chazuramen]

hey dana why’d you have to add king to the traumatized kid club

#the owl house #toh #luz noceda #king clawthorne #king toh #hunter wittebane #hunter toh #fanart #artists on tumblr #messy but hey at least i got it out here #also i'm gonna try posting more of my art here than in my art blog bc i find it easier to have it all in one place #anyway the latest toh eps have been consistently obliterating my heart with each release #cant wait for next week #yes bad girl coven shirt even if hunter stays with dariu.s instead of eda i think he deserves to be in the best coven #toh spoilers #czrmArt

[snekdood]

There are genuinely people online that instead of actually bringing people to the left, at this point, would prefer that anyone who was previously not on the left but who tries to be *stays* outside of the left, because i guess its just easier to comprehend when the world is put into little shitty boxes you labeled for them instead of actually thinking for once and having the nuance to understand them. Like thats wild to me that theres people who would prefer you not be on the left or not try to be. Yall GENUINELY do not care about advocating for your side politically in any capacity. Its LITERALLY just a clique you've found yourself in. And theres nothing progressive about that or being exclusive, wtf do you think this shit is, a night club? Grow the fuck up, honestly.

#A whole lot easier to consistently point and laugh at the same person than to ever encourage them to change i guess #yall are weak #Yall wont get us anywhere and actively hurt progressive causes #And the worst part is most of the ppl like this are on tumblr and a lot of the people on tumblr absolutely suck as human beings #and never want to do anything about it either partially because they think theyre above any form of therapy 🙄 #Idk. maybe its a comfort thing. Like things have to be exactly how they remembered them the day before or else they'll idk lose their mind #Like some of yall would prefer the world stays black and white and thats sad #Lets be honest. What it really is is you dont want to have to feel any potential guilt for treating someone as if theyre just #discardable trash when they werent. #Bc ur just oooohhh soooo perfeccctttt and it just fucks with your self perception when someone even inadvertently suggests #you did something wrong lmao. #yall wont survive in this world

[naixaie]

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#svsss #scum villains self saving system #bingqiu #shen qingqiu #luo binghe #.my art #taking a little study break after finishing my first exam for the semester !! 🥳🥳 #next week is gonna be a tough cookie with 3 exams in one day ;; #buuuut then it’ll be a period of chill and rest for a bit after !! #😤😤💪💪 #anyway stay warm and cozy and take good care of urself !! the season has been more chilly and so much easier to fall ill 🤧🤧

[socialc1imb]

Majoras mask headcanon that the masks… dont actually do anything. Theyre just pieces of carved wood that Link finds/collects/makes on his adventure through Termina that he uses as “toys”. He’s a kid! He’s playing pretend! If he has to save the world again, the least he’s going to do is try and stay a child this time.

Plus, it’s easier to put himself in the shoes of someone else for some of the puzzles and whatnot. He can swim better when he pretends to be a zora! He can roll and hit harder when he pretends he’s a goron! When he wears the deku mask, it’s almost like he can float! Majora can’t be beaten by a kid, but Link can wear The Fierce Deity mask and fight because FD is a grown up!

#loz #loz majoras mask #anyways the idea that this kid is trying to stay a kid #he’s fighting for his childhood as he saves the world #playing pretend as he saves the world #because it makes it easier. and more fun!

[arsieu]

I can't believe @kayatoastkkat's DTIYS actually made me draw background?? No but seriously it was a good experience and I had lots of fun drawing it! :3

We need more people to join frfr

#kayatoastdtiys #the crow house au #tgs #the glass scientists #I know this render is soo plain bc I usually stay with base colours #kat you really couldn't give us smth easier istg /jk #my art

[erophonemic]

girl creature with a very wet head....

#mine #my face #selfies #hehe now i gotta stay like this for a few hours #partner cut my bangs! I wanted them slightly different/ miscommunication but oh well it'll turn out fine #and them being even makes future edits easier #anyways. need all the ringlets to dry without frizzing or scattering

[cloudydayjoy]

It's amazing how a career change and antidepressants can transform the squad's biggest slacker into a borderline workaholic.

...The career change itself was hell though.

#wander over yonder #woy #WOY oc #Watchdog oc #WOY watchdogs #Teddy the Watchdog #He got fired from being a soldier #And needed to find a job on the ship before he got booted for being a freeloader #Since he wanted to stay where his brother is #So why not just switch to something he's actually passionate about? #Also he likes doing the tedious part of experiments #Where they'd make the intern run the experiment 100 more times or whatever to get good data #And that's when he realized that he loves tensile testers #Btw he earned his degree online #Literal night school #It would've been far easier if he just went back to the home world to do it in person and not worry about the job #But he's stubborn #And was determined to make it work