#is my fast broken now

[spacedlexi]

people dont talk enough about how heartbreaking the marlon betrayal mustve been for clem too,,

this dude saves the life of her and her kid. takes them in has them patched up gives them their first hot meal in who knows how long. gives them a safe place to stay. possibly permanently. confides in her that hes trying to be a good leader but feels like and fears that hes failing. asks her to help him take care of the rest of the group. helps her get over her fear of dogs by asking her to trust him. and things go well. she feels safe. like this place could really finally be the home shes been looking for

but as soon as she finds out what happened to the twins. that marlon planned on giving up her and aj too. she immediately becomes a liability to him and he attempts to kill her for it. locks her in the basement to die by walker. then tries to turn the group against her so he can shoot her instead when the first method fails. and he nearly succeeds

then a majority of the group turn against clem the minute aj kills marlon. ignoring marlons mistakes but condemning aj for his. like clem wasnt betrayed by marlon in the exact same way he betrayed the twins. like she literally wasnt almost killed twice? and how long had he been considering giving her up? was it always some contingency he planned? did he truly want to keep them around and things only changed when he feared the raiders had returned? she'll never know

#i think about this a lot... the betrayal... clems deep trust issues... then they all want to kick her out (except vi aasim and tenn 💕) #when she was just as impacted if not more so than the rest of them. since she was the only one with her Life on the line #thats why violet fighting so hard for them to stay is so important imo and would MEAN SO MUCH to clem too #vi and aasim are the only ones who can see past the bullshit and realize that theyre safer with clem around #while the rest would rather kick her out so they dont have to acknowledge their confused feelings about marlon #like first marlon betrays her then the rest of the group tell her to get fucked and die. dont come back. we never want to see you again #but she does. and she saves them #personally i do think marlon had 'good' intentions but he was a scared and fucked up kid who made bad decisions #and continued to make bad decisions to cover for his previous fuck ups #but that just makes him interesting :) #and i like teaching aj the difference between people like marlon and people like lilly #all of clems 'wow i feel so safe here :) and these guys seem smart :)' personal dialogue around ericsons makes me 😭 #she was so happy to be at ericsons. and they turn against her so fast when she was more of a victim than any of them #aj is a literal baby. do not treat him like an adult who can make fully rationalized decisions. hes a baby and he only knows survival #at least they slowly get over it after clem comes back (some take longer than others...) #but the lack of compassion in voting to kick them out is heartbreaking. she was heartbroken #and thats not acknowledged as much as it should be #posting this old drafted post now cuz it expands my feelings on clems broken heartedness about the marlon situation #it speaks #twdg

[spearxwind]

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[mettywiththenotes]

What it looked like from both pov's at the time

What they were both thinking at the time

#tomura: that kid is fast...! 🫢 who said that. not me. anyway im gonna kill him #izuku: my bones are broken! anyway now to take down this kurogiri guy #never fails to make me laugh that izuku thought tomura was the least dangerous at that moment so he decided to focus on kurogiri #while tomura was like 'i don't care about this brat. but he's fast! gotta tell sensei how notable he was' #they're so funny #bnha #bnha manga spoilers #bnha 415 #shigaraki and midoriya #mettys posts #metty posts

[amethystina]

Hello, I hope you're doing better.

I just wanted to tell you that since I read the latest chapter of Who Holds The Devil you have revived in me some ideas and scenarios I had in mind about the show.

Like what if everything worked out for Yohan's plans after episode 12 (when Gaon left Yohan and Elijah) without K or Soohyun dying? What would happen then?

Yohan will definitely leave after some point to Switzerland with Elijah because he already planned it for her treatment, even if he is not a criminal in Korea or presumed dead. But how long will it take him to leave?

And what will Gaon do? Will he start dating Soohyun or keep whatever they have between them as it is? If he dates her, will they work out or realise they were better together as friends and family but nothing more? ( I personally believe that when they start dating at the beginning, everything will seem perfect. But as time goes on, they will realise that it won't work out between them as they took a very long time to get to this point, and that it was too late.)

Will Gaon stay in contact with Elijah? (Maybe.) Or Yohan? ( I doubt it.)

Will Gaon miss them? Will he ever realise that Yohan loved him or that he had some kind of feelings for Yohan?

Basically, what would've happened if all the baggage from the last episodes never occurred. After the rejection on Gaon's part in episode 12, I believe Yohan will want to stay away from Gaon but I could be wrong.

The latest chapter reminded me of all these ideas and questions I had, but now we have a lot more baggage and issues to work through which makes me even more excited to explore what will happen next.

I trust your storytelling abilities as they have not once failed me for all this time I was following this fic.

Take care of your self, and when you feel better come back with a new amazing chapter as always.

I'm doing better, thank you 💜

Wow. Yeah, that's a lot of thoughts! And very interesting ones! And I think some of it depends on exactly how Yo Han decides to finish his plans. Like, killing people on national television would still make him a criminal, so I'm guessing that's not what he does? But he still gets his revenge somehow?

But yeah, he'd definitely still go to Switzerland since that has clearly been a part of his plan for years. And I think he'd actually go as soon as possible. Maybe he'd give Elijah time to say goodbye to Ga On, but that depends on what terms he and Ga On are, I'd say. If we assume that none of the baggage happened (including Soo Hyun dying, Ga On attempting to murder Yo Han, etc.) I think that Yo Han would keep his distance from Ga On, yes. Out of sheer pride and self-preservation, if nothing else. And Ga On has Soo Hyun so he wouldn't seek Yo Han out, since he knows that Soo Hyun doesn't like Yo Han and he wouldn't want to upset her.

So, sadly enough, I think Yo Han and Ga On would drift apart. Maybe they'd still cooperate somehow to take down the baddies, but, as horrible as it may sound, Soo Hyun's death actually brought them closer together. Even Ga On trying to kill Yo Han did in some ways since, from that point on, they're forever tied together what with Yo Han carrying the scar Ga On gave him. And without that? With Soo Hyun there to plead with Ga On not to do something dangerous? Ga On wouldn't chase after Yo Han. And Yo Han wouldn't chase after Ga On since he's already been rejected and is too prideful.

So I think that Yo Han would leave for Switzerland with Elijah and Ga On would stay in touch with her, yes, but not Yo Han. Maybe he'd try a couple of times, but Yo Han wouldn't respond. And, eventually, Ga On will stop trying because who is Yo Han to him anyway? Just his weird boss who he lived with for a while — and kind of wanted to take care of because he seemed so lonely — who was also a terrible influence on him. So, clearly, it might be for the better that they don't talk anymore.

(You keep telling yourself that, Ga On)

As for Ga On and Soo Hyun, I think they would start dating, yes, and I think they'd be pretty happy there at the beginning. If in a pretty boring and uneventful way. Like, there's not really much passion between them, is there? But they'd be content. It'd be safe and sweet.

I'm not sure if they'd notice that there's something wrong, though. I think that both of them have been waiting for this for so long that they'd be determined to make it work, even if that means ignoring the warning signs. I honestly think they'd both pretend everything was fine long after the point where it's not. And that both of them would silence the niggling doubts by saying that this is just how all relationships are — there will be dips. Nothing is perfect all the time. And it's not like they're arguing or anything.

It's just a little dull, that's all.

In short, I think they'd be stuck. Not in a way that makes them genuinely unhappy, but they certainly wouldn't be honest with themselves or each other, either. Which isn't the worst way to live, but it's also not the best one.

And I think that Ga On would miss Elijah and Yo Han, yes, though he wouldn't be honest about why he does. He'd just say it's because he cares about them and it's sad that he can't talk to them as often — or at all, in Yo Han's case. And, in a similar vein, I don't think Ga On would try to explore his feelings for Yo Han, or Yo Han's feelings for him. Because Ga On would be able to tell that danger lies in that direction and he'd rather remain in denial.

But he would think about Yo Han a lot. And probably do a doubletake every time they mention Yo Han or show his picture in the media. And he'd ask Elijah about how Yo Han is doing. He'd find himself cooking Yo Han's favourite food, even if he's not there to eat it. He'd miss the house. He'd miss the quiet nights reading.

He'd still wear the watch.

And all that longing would only make Ga On double down and be even more determined to make things work with Soo Hyun. Because the alternative is just too scary. He doesn't want there to be another explanation as to why he misses Yo Han. He wants his safe and happy life with Soo Hyun.

Everything else is shoved aside, pushed down, and ignored.

And, eventually, I think Soo Hyun would notice that something is wrong. But she doesn't know what and, even if she kind of hates herself for it, she's too afraid of the answer to ask. Because she doesn't want to lose Ga On and, deep down, she can tell that he is slipping away from her, slowly but surely. Just from the fact that his smiles are a little too hollow sometimes, and he's often staring off into space, lost in thought. So she tries her best to help him, as always, but, for some reason, it doesn't seem to work as well as it usually would.

But of course it'd eventually come crumbling down. And — since I'm a dramatic bitch — I suggest it'll do so when Yo Han and Elijah eventually drop by for a visit (mostly Elijah's doing, of course, with Yo Han reluctantly agreeing). More specifically the moment when Ga On comes face to face with Yo Han again for the first time in months — maybe even a year? — and everything he's been trying to suppress rushes to the surface and hits him like a freight train.

Because he's been living comfortably with Soo Hyun, sure, and he loves her dearly, but there's not much of a spark. But the one he had with Yo Han? That's been just a softly glowing ember since they parted ways?

Turns out that seeing Yo Han again — and being faced with all that intensity and enticing hint of danger once more — is all it takes to ignite it again. To turn it into a wildfire.

All of a sudden, Ga On is reminded of what real attraction feels like.

And the fact that it's not aimed at his girlfriend is definitely going to be a bit of a problem.

... aaaaaand maybe I should stop now. Because I'm not sure if you actually wanted me to answer what I think x'D

Anyway! Yes, very interesting things to ponder! And I think there are several ways to go, depending on what angle one wants to take and what happened during those last episodes. Like, if Yo Han and Ga On reconciled after their breakup, I think some parts would obviously play out differently. But, if they didn't? I'd go with something like what I said above.

But, again, that depends entirely on what you want to accomplish. Trust me when I say that there are always ways to tweak what happens to your liking but still make it feel in character and realistic. I'm somewhat of an expert on that, I've been told xD

Thank you so much for sharing, anyway! It was a very fun thought experiment! And I do hope to be able to get back to writing sometime soon. I'm actually feeling better than I have in a long time, but I think I'm going to make a separate post about that. We'll see.

I hope you have a great day! Take care 💜

#Amethystina Replies #Anonymous #The Devil Judge #For real though #I don't need much to get going #I got this ask 23 hours ago according to Tumblr #And I'm not lying when I say that I already have a vague outline for a possible story #That starts around the point where Yo Han and Elijah return to Korea #Mainly focused on how Ga On will have to navigate the extremely gay feelings he suddenly has for Yo Han #While also coming to terms with the ones he DOESN'T have for Soo Hyun #My brain works fast and doesn't stop for anyone #Not even me #My favourite scene is one after Ga On has put on his big-boy pants and actually broken up with Soo Hyun #And has no idea how to say that to Yo Han in a natural way #(because he's secretly hoping that Yo Han will be interested in him now but he can't just SAY that) #And eventually just ends up blurting it out without any context whatsoever #And Yo Han just looks at him #And with an INCREDIBLY deadpan voice goes: 'My condolences?' #Because Yo Han is NOT going to be easy to approach #(until he is because it's Ga On and he's a big softie for Ga On)

[opens-up-4-nobody]

...

#i walked into a situation today where my mom was effectively already dead. effectively bc her body was and is still alive. still breathing #painful groaning purrs. but her mind was gone yesterday. my dad said he showed her a picture of the mountains i took that day and told her #i loved her and she smiled. thats what he said. maybe he was just being nice. or maybe thats the last time she thought of me. i dunno. but #the human body is an incredible thing. shes got a heart still powering a broken body. too full of tumors to function anymore. stomach #streched like a pregnant mother. it happed really fast and now its happening very slow #im somehow probably better off than the rest of them. i only got here for the aftermath of a downslide. my daily life will b least effected #i only really saw her twice a year living so far away and she didnt text much. didnt call often. so life wont change much ill just kno shes #not there. which is sad. but theres nothing to b done abt it. life goes on. it hasnt been all bad tho. its nice to talk to my family abt her #how incredible she was. bc she was. wish her mom wasnt here tho. she doesn't deserve to b here. my mom wouldnt want her here. she didnt want #her here. but anyway. i wish her body would just let her go now. so we can sleep. so this can be over. so she can rest #but even like this shes stubborn and resilient. they say it could go on for days but i hope not. may the universe let her rest shes gotta b #so tired after 10 years of this. but i have no regrets. she knew how i felt abt her. and i dont think she had regrets either. she did so #much up to the very end. went out on a high note without the burdon of knowing it was coming #i dunno. its just such a strange experience to watch the empty shell of your mother sleeping like a gurgling baby #unrelated

[funkbun]

i've been looking at this map from Alegander's notes for some ancient grump lore stuff and oh my god i just realized what the "Stone Grump Passages" are supposed to be. Like the connection between Boiling Bay and Sizzlin' Sands found in the game... it's a stone grump passage that didn't collapse

i looove finding lil details like this lol

#there was a direct connection between frosted peak n flavor falls dude. imagine if that ended up being in game #like yea u can just fast-travel cause Video Game. but imagine there being a lil puzzle you'll have to solve in those areas #like u have to do in Sizzlin n Boiling #also with the passage in Boiling to Broken Tooth. that technically exists again but in Simmering Springs instead #my ancient grumpus history crumbs n treats #bug game #NOW im gonna be thinking about How those passages broke down #the compass is fucked up btw lol

[monster-noises]

Forever thinking about TCAF 2019

Where I Fully sprained my ankles about 2 days before

And proceeded to;

-Not go to a doctor

-Put some ice on it over night then ride the train to Toronto

-Go Immediately to a Furry Dance Party

-Walk on it All Day at TCAF (In heels if i remember correct. Not Tall heels mind, but i was not Flat Footed)

-Be absolutely Mystyfied about why i felt Naseaus all day and proceeded to throw up the next morning before my train home,, for the next Several Years

(the pain, it was the pain, i threw up because of how bad my ankle hurt)

And when i came back I Still didn't take time off work or go to the hospital or anything!! How I still have a perfectly functional ankle is Beyond me!

#monster noises #every Now and Again it gives me a bit of Guff #but really it went right back to normal! #it was so swollen though oh my God #it filled the collar of my little Boots #I sprained it in the first place by stepping off a curb wrong and rolled it #fell right over onto the pavement pretty hard #got right back up and hobbled through the intersection fast as i could manage #when i had determined i wasn't bleeding and wasn't in enough pain to indicate i'd Broken something i just... kept going on my errand #lmao #(i was getting my money for TCAF from the bank) #literally 0 self preservation instincts and really wonky pain tolerance #where /I/ don't feel that much pain #but my Body does #if that makes sense? #hence the Vomitting #my body was in pain but i couldn't really feel how Bad it was

[leclerced]

.

#my thoughts #this is so dumb its all going in tags #sometimes i forget an actor has died and then i look them up and find out and im just fucking #broken over it #saw fast and furious edit talking ab paul walker dying and i swear #mandela effect or whatever #he should not be dead in my universe ??? like i feel like a timeline just diverged when i saw that tiktok #and i was moved to one where hes dead #but also i completely remember it happening now like i saw the edit and like the see you again tribute song came flying to my mind #but like its not real 😭

[thedreadvampy]

I'm like. 99.5% ok about the breakup but boy that 0.5% sneaks up on ya

#red said #i just. i want to Tell Everyone for some reason. like that will help somehow. #there isn't anything to tell except 'we broke up' and i am not enjoying followup questions like 'are you ok' #bc again like. kinda yeah. also no. but mostly yeah #had a nice time with my friend Monday night cause they skated over the 'are you ok' fairly fast and we were able to Actually Talk About It #but like. there isn't. a good story. i don't know what to do with this feeling. #i don't want a shoulder to cry on cause I'm not that kind of sad #i don't want to be like I WANT THEM BACK cause i recognise that this was the right decision #I'm not. angry at them. and i don't particularly want to be. and that's tricky #cause this is the first time I've broken up with someone I've not felt a particular need to be angry at #i still like them i still want to be friends i think they fucked up in some places but i also don't think it was them being shitty #and we've closed it out we've done what needed done so it doesn't need dissecting angrily #but like if i don't want sympathy and i don't want anger i don't know what i DO want? #other than. i want to talk to them. i want to fastforward to the point where we can be friends #and that's not a want that can or should be met just now #so. ????????????.

[solradguy]

I need to draw Frederick Guilty Gear Begin

#textpost #I've typed Frederick so many times because of Interlude I can type it with fast with one hand like some kind of cyberpunk hacker freak #Useless skills that are funny to laugh at when no one else is around #My last laptop had a broken keyboard so I had to use a wireless one and I'd sometimes just kinda like #hold it like a guitar and type that way because there wasn't enough room on my desk while working or whatever #I got really good at it. Literally never going to get to use that skill ever again but it's there in my hands' muscle memory now

[yeyayeya]

Whenever I finish building a unit (rarely happens) I would not stay satisfied for long even tho I painstakingly put time and effort to get good and premium skills for the characters I like

But then new skills are added and the skill set I have for them are outdated super fast and ahhhhh-

#yeyarants #fire emblem #FE #feh #fe heroes #fire emblem heroes #I swear #I not long ago finished building Scáthach and Altena and now i want new skills for them #like sure their skills are good but #I need them to be more broken #also painstakingly saving up orbs for good fodder #and the Gacha gods just do not want to bless me that day #fuck this #sorry for this rant #this is my opinion on the current units I’m building #like hello I just gave them all I had but then NEW skills come out #fuck off IntSys let me be in peace #also stop because they keep releasing new skills like pretty fast recently #other skills got outdated real quick #ALSO REFINES TOO #HOLY FUCK #ok I’m done

[jimalim]

I've recently come to realize I'm pretty sure I probably fractured my elbow in college and just didn't realize it, but now, like 5 years later it randomly hurts and it's super annoying

#i hit my funny bone on the press handle during a print session #i had the oressure way too high so when my grip slipped #the handle started spinning super fast on its own and it hit me #my body def went into shock but after i recovered there wasnt any sign i had broken anything #but i bet it hit hard enough to hairline fracture and it healed on its own #but since i never got it properly looked at or cared for it set weird #its been aggrivated ever since we got Stella #when we play tug of war thats when it hurts most #i noticed it hurt occasionally through the years when i carry 3 screens in my hand at work cause it engages the same muscles #but i never thought anytbing of it until now #because the pain is more consistent than ever #especially when its cold #so yeah idk if this makes sense or if im just reaching #its the only thing i can think it could possibly be

[spaceagebachelormann]

. everyone ignore this i just need to scream at myslef in the tags for a sec

probably gonna delete later

#IGNORE RHIS I JUST NEED TI SCTEAM FIR A SECOND #im so stressed but idk why #well actually it’s mainly because my phones broken and it’s stressing me out cause the battery goes down really fast #and like i can’t go on it for 5 mins without it dying #also i have AO MUCH schoolwork and it’s basically being thrown at me and that’s not helping #and like. i KNOW in everyone’s eyes i’m just the childish friend and everytime i try to be serious #they assume i’m joking and start laughing #and they kinda suck as friends rn in general #and i’m not happy in my house and i’m not happy at school and like i can’t be happy anywhere now and idk why #and like it’s terrifying 😭😭 #i hate not being able to feel at ease anywhere #i just wanna go into a coma and wake up in a world where everything’s fine #anyways uh #if i’m sad or not as active don’t be worried </3 #tw vent #ziggy fucking screams 🌷

[willowfey]

what do u do on days u wake up feeling empty and the only things that stir smth up in ur brain and body are memories of times/places that are long gone…. like what am i supposed to do with that….. i don’t feel like a person today i just wanna wake up in my childhood bedroom and smell the way it smelled in winter but i can’t do that so i just go through my day feeling vaguely nauseously unsettled and untethered…. and that doesn’t feel fair but i don’t know what can be done about it

#i know i sound like a broken record but i miss my trees. i miss feeling like i’m home. i miss feeling safe in my body. #i miss the owls and doves that fill the morning by my grandma’s old house and the smell of the co-op and the river #and the way the mountains look surrounding the valley. protecting me. #i miss the feeling of my hands on the window in winter and reading my favourite books for the first time i miss chris i miss my old bed #i miss myself. i feel like i’ve been lost for years #sometimes i wake up distracted and i fill my brain with anything i can find and i cheat the system and i feel things #for a little while. if i keep moving fast enough i forget that i’m lonely. i forget that i’m lost #but sometimes i stop and it catches up to me and i have to sit on the floor #sometimes i realise how far from home i am in every sense of the word and i feel like a child lost in a supermarket #except this time no one is coming to find me if i just stand still #i wake up and everything i can think of that would make me happy is a mirage #i wake up and the music isn’t enough and i want to start pedalling backwards and i feel like i’m floating very fast downstream #and there’s a waterfall looming somewhere in the distance and i can’t grab a log #im not gonna fall off. nothing is ever bad enough for anyone to worry about me drowning. but i am still very wet and very far from home #so what. do. i. do. ? #when i was a kid we lived in a house that had a very large oak tree out front (this was before the house with the willow tree) #at the base of the oak tree was a small fairy pond. we moved in during winter and it was frozen solid and u couldn’t see anything in it #but come spring it melted and we discovered the fairy pool was chock full of marbles of all colours and sizes. hundreds of them. #it was so thrilling to know they’d been waiting for me all winter to find them in the warmth. where are the marbles now #is anything waiting for me? is anything hiding in the frozen pond? #@the universe: i need a little help now pls. pls send me something small and colourful i wasn’t expecting. hundreds of them. or just one. #i am open to it all #because i can’t go back in time and smell my childhood bedroom in winter. and i will not go over the waterfall. so bring me marbles #~ signed yours truly. ps tell the trees i’m still the same

[threadsun]

Update: I sneezed and my jaw went back into place, but in the process I subluxated a rib. I have clown joints. My body is a temple to the god of slapstick comedy. I'm lucky I'm so hot and funny and good at writing because I've got nothing going for me in the health department

#sunshine #I'm the sickly victorian woman your mother warned you about #I'm the man with glass bones and paper skin #I'm a cursed doll that's been broken one too many times and now the limbs keep falling off spontaneously #if I stand up too fast my heart rate spikes to 220 bpm and I go temporarily deaf and blind #and yet somehow I'm the sexiest and coolest motherfucker on the planet

[sleepless-crows]

does anyone have any book recommendations? please share

#text #okay so genre is most probably ya fantasy #but i read contemporary too sometimes #my favorite ya fantasy currently is six of crows and once upon a broken heart #they do not have anything in common but i love found family and fast paced and fairytales and romance and humor #if it has at least two of those for fantasy #my other favorite books are pjo the lunar chronicles and keeper of the lost cities #if you find a trend in there and have a book rec #please send me an ask or a reply or something #i've also read all marissa meyer's books except gilded so you don't have to recommend them to me #now i want to make a book recs post #OH I MEANT TO SAY CURSED I HAVE READ GILDED #also if you have read cursed please tell me if you liked it! #i know i will but like still #uhm this took a turn #anyway i accept any book recs at all!!! #my favorite contemporary books are better than the movies and the summer of broken rules #there #okay #also anything like six of crows please #or king of scars too #okay i'll stop it here