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fandomfuntimem · 3 months

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Im gonna be mean for a hot second and I apologize in advance.

I've seen a lot of "Redisigning [insert character here]" posts across multiple platforms. The art itself is always great, a lot of magnificent artists, but the designes are not it tbh. Because they aren't a redesigne, they're completely overhauling the og designe.

I am being as nice as possible, I do not hate these people or their art, but like, thats not a redesigne! This is probably just my opinion but a redesigne should improve upon the original. Yes sertant things will be different but they aren't crazy. Maybe like an extra accessory, a bit of a color change, or maybe a change in physical build, but thats about it. The biggest change would be a change in style I guess.

I've seen redesignes like mlp ones were people will take a character like Pinkie Pie and completely throw out the original designe except for the poofy hair. Like, so many i have seen where she isn't even pink anymore. Another thing is Rainbow Dash, sometimes those redesignes look like the artist whent "how dull can I get it while still being a rainbow?" The really good redesignes I've seen add things from actual myths like the unicorns being skinnier, with more fleshy tails, and a beard. Or pegadi having more feathers. Or earth ponies being built more like strong horses. They dont throw out the original designe, they improve on it. Maybe a few colour changes here and there, but you can still tell who it is.

Tho, at the end of the day I'm not a professional character artist. This is all just kinda how I feel. Don't go onto people's posts and bully them for their designes. If you really want to point out how you feel be as polite as possible and make it clear there is no hostility. Maybe even frame it as a question, like "why did you choose those colours/designe themes?" Just don't bully.

Side note: under those posts I see a lot of "I love this! Why couldn't the show do designes like these!😍😍😍" heres why! Its not animation friendly. Too much in a character can be bad for animation studios. Too complex and would probably take up budget. Never get mad at studios for the current designes they have, you are allowed to dislike the genuinly bad designes tho. I'm not saying you can't. I'm just saying have respect for the character artists and what they are able to make with what they have.

#funtime speaketh #not a fandom #text post #rant?#idk #it came to mind after i saw a redesigne video that gave me whiplash #they took a twink extreme and make him a big bulky guy #took up over half the screen #i was NOT ready for that #no hate #just was not expecting the twink to get untwinked

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starboundsingularities · 1 year

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Question 1: Imagine if Dimentio and Reformed Discord became friends. What do you think would they do together?

Q2: Imagine if Reformed Dimentio and Evil/Past Discord became friends. What do you think would they do together?

Q3: Imagine if Reformed Dimentio and Reformed Discord became friends. What do you think would they do together?

Q4: Imagine if Dimentio and Past/Evil Discord became friends. What do you think would they do together?

gosh its super hard to imagine a reformed dimentio for me tbh and i feel like NONE of these would end super well but i feel like in any scenario where they arent BOTH reformed the world would end somehow. if anything though i feel like a reformed discord would be more likely to fight against dimentio than a reformed dimentio would be to fight against discord cuz dimentios goal is ultimately to destroy all worlds n create perfect new ones where discords goal is just kind of like. chaos and mayhem. and a reformed dimentio could enjoy chaos and mayhem but a reformed discord would probably not super enjoy the void lol a reformed dimentio would probably still be on board with discords brand of evil though bc even though it would be a reformed dimentio hed be reformed from like. completely destroy all worlds and recreate them however he wants as opposed to discord having been reformed from cause chaos and destruction so i feel like even a reformed dimentio would be like ok yeah this is fun. i love chocolate milk rain if they were both reformed i wouldnt let them in a room with each other because it would be mayhem bc even reformed theyd both be super chaotic and you KNOW theyre gonna aim that at someone. the kind of guys to put a harmonica in a vacuum. i can honestly. almost see discord fighting against dimentio in the scenario where neither are reformed in a way of like "hey you cant destroy the world im using this. i taught the grass how to scream you cant just destroy that" like not out of like the goodness of his heart but because if the world gets destroyed he cant rlly mess around with it anymore?? and also cuz like if all worlds got destroyed that probably includes him lol i kinda answered more as generic interactions than outright friendship i think for outright friendship it would end bad lol. either the world ends (void), the world ends (chaos), or the world doesnt really END but it also like never gets a break i also havent watched mlp in like years except i did watch a little but i didnt get to season 2 so i absolutely dont have a super fresh memory of discord i just know hes like. the original chaos entity. the very first one (this is a joke i know some other guy existed first probably) didnt discord have some like pocket dimension or something?? in one episode?? do you think theyd visit each others dimensions. theyd be like oh no my friends coming over i totally forgot 2 clean my dimension. except i feel like dimensions probably dont really get super dusty and messy if yr not using them. idk im not the dimension expert thats a different guy lol

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kiroons-hyperfixtations · 1 year

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🍊📙🍐🌀🍇🌸 for Fate?

🍊 What is your OC’s favourite meal? Snack? Dessert? Drink? Any reasons behind this besides liking how it tastes? What is your OC’s most hated food? Stuff they can’t stand to eat or drink?

She would probably really enjoy sweet foods. Probably things like fruits, candies and smoothies. She’s not really one for meat but she’ll still eat it, she just doesn’t like most meats. She prefers more fruit or vegetables. She’ll eat most what you put in front of her unless she really really hates it. She doesn’t really have any reason though other than ‘this taste nice :)’

She doesn’t like spicy or bitter foods like chili, brussel sprouts or peppers.

📙 What kind of subjects (of conversation, of discussion, in school or whatever) does your OC find interesting or engaging or that they can talk for hours about? What kind of stuff do they just find fun? What things bore your OC to tears and they couldn’t care less about? Why?

Fate is really interested in history and different cultures! She could listen too others talk about their culture/history for hours, or talk about her own. She also became really interested in Pokemon when coming to Aevium, they kinda reminded her of the Familiars from her own home but they were also different.

Math really bores her, it mainly stress her though she was never good at it. She also finds things that require a lot of patience/stillness boring. Such as fishing, meditation, chess, etc… She just can’t handle it, it’s the under stimulation.

🍐 What is your OC’s mentality? Are they overall positive? Negative? A bit of both? Describe their thought patterns and reasoning behind their choice making!

Positive to a fault, Fate doesn’t like to be sad or upset. She hates seeing those she cares about be upset or anything negative. She also doesn’t like to think nothing but the best is going to happen. However she doesn’t want others to worry for her or annoy others with her problems. This leads her to thinking her problems aren’t as bad as others. She’s basically gaslighting herself. She hates seeing her friends upset, she doesn’t want to put them through that. Even if it negatively affects her.

🌀 Where is your OC from? Where were they born? Do they still live there, if not why did they move? If they still live in the area how has it changed since their childhood? How many places has your OC lived in and where has been their favourite?

Fate’s actually from the world of my original story! She nor Calamity are not tied in anyway to said story tho aside from being from the world. I was too lazy to think of a new world lol. I don’t have a name for the specific world (I need to get on that), but I call the story Strange World (for now I want to change it but I can’t find a better name that fits rn). I don’t know exactly where they fit into the timeline but tbh it really doesn’t matter. Given it’s a chill found family story, and Fate lived in a completely different area than from the Strange World cast. Closet thing Fate shares with them is that she too got eeby deebied like the main character, Allie lmao.

I shall now stop talking about my other ocs and actually answer the questions. Fate lived out in the country in a small village / town out in the forest. It was a very magical area, where the magic could be quite unstable at times so not many people lived there. Fate- uh obviously doesn’t live there anymore. It was pretty much where she lived her entire life though and she always wanted to explore outside of her tiny town. She however didn’t expect said ‘seeing new sights’ to involve getting sent to a whole different world.

🍇 Day or Night? Sun or Rain? Summer or Winter?

Night, sun and summer!

🌸 What does your OC’s voice sound like? Their laugh? Are they good at singing? Do they have an accent?

I could literally not tell you why but I’ve always thought of Fate’s voice being a weird mix between Twilight Sparkle and Pinkie Pie from MLP. Something upbeat and energetic but also soothing? She is a horrible singer though, loves singing but she is tone deaf as fuck she just s c r e a m s.

Honestly though, she would probably have an accent. However no one in Aevium can place her accent give she kinda from a whole different world. Fate literally had to research different regions and their voices to find the closest sounding one because people kept asking her. So she can have something to say it isn’t a good idea to say you’re from another world when someone asks.

#sorry I answered this a bit late #I went out with my family and then fell asleep when I got home #oc; fate

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spookfished · 2 years

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ok its time for keeping up with the blorbos where i talk about my feelings towards all of the past characters that i can remember that i used to be really into (semi chronological) and YOU my dear reader get a glimpse into my psyche or another opportunity to j/k scroll

twilight sparkle: when i watched mlp i thought she was in high school but now i think shes actually in her 20s which honestly makes the show funnier. the perfect time for learning about the magic of friendship. i think its too bad that she didnt get as many opportunities to be like dorky n stuff in the later seasons like she got all character developed out.. like a distant fondness ritsu kageyama: this guy is the emotional blueprint for how i feel about alphinaud ffxiv lol. like in middle school i was like damn im just like im just like him fr but now its like aww my little scrunklydoo.. its like this wave of affection for my little fictional guy. i want to see him get self destructively embroiled in a mess beyond his control and also hes 13 years old... ruffles his hair dirk strider/hal: he is the moment. etc or i mean he was the moment several years ago. actually i was thinking about this post because yesterday bc of neils post i was like wow dirk strider and i spent 30 minutes thinking about him instead of going to sleep. anyways like yk how across act 6 his solution to like everything is to kill himself like he literally invented kill herself disease..to the point where its literally a meme but its still true. i dont think i like resonate with that as much as i did when i was originally reading it, and i have even more mixed feelings about all of the epilogues/hs2 stuff but its still like omg. one of the only times his suicide by proxy didnt work was with hal was bc hal was not just a proxy but also a Whole Nother Person and he was scared to die..arent you.. no way.. anyways i keep him in a little box terezi pyrope: i still really like her but i think the alpha kids are more easily removable from the context of hs’ plot yk theyre so self contained. terezi on the other hand is very connected to remembering what happens in hs, which i definitely dont. sotp was really good though. in some hypothetical future where i reread hs i think i would try and pay more attention to her interactions w other kids in the context of her rship with vriska instead of taking them standalone.i think i also just personally connect less with her themes n whatever but like truly nobody else has done it like her ouma: surprisingly even though i still have this guy as a pfp on another email i dont feel that much about him anymore. its like ah ndrv3 was pretty bad huh. theres other fish in the sea.. when lovepoints posts art of him its like :] though. glad to have danganronpa start to leech out of my psyche tbh it was fun while it lasted goro akechi: surprisingly i still really like this guy. i think part of it is that p5r ended up being such a serve like yeah persona 5s writing is usually bad but i think its really great that he did get to be a grumpy bitch. hmm not a lot of actual thoughts about him but a delight to have in class kim dokja: ahhhh *explode*

#txt #mutuals do this? or dont... who can say #great talk everybody time to hit the showers. im going on a walk

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atomicsuperrobot · 1 year

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Hey, you know what trend I’ve been noticing recently? Reimagining modern properties as dark 80′s live action fantasy films. Very specifically that genre, too. And while that’s great and all, and conceptually would be pretty fun to play around with if explored through legitimate means, most of what I see done with it is image compilations on YouTube of AI prompt-generated content. I keep getting recommendations for this shit, and I don’t know why. Maybe bc an image set came up on my dashboard that One Time for a Shrek reimagining in the same vein? But I didn’t even interact with that post bc there wasn’t any credit attributed to it- and now I know why, since it was likely generated through AI and therefore doesn’t deserve any accreditation, nor any views for that matter. So, idk why I keep seeing this shit; I don’t want it near me.

(Also, I saw an MLP:FiM reimagining thumbnail, once, which is funny to me, bc in regards to at least a couple of the old MLP movies, those are already dark 80′s fantasy films; just animated instead of live-action, which tbh I vastly prefer anymore, especially since nobody uses practical effects very much these days.)

#Mun Post

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casstration · 10 months

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im just gonna ramble here ab all the shit going on in the fandom rn…feel free to ignore me lmao

to start, i am not a “big” or “known” author, and i haven’t personally received any hate/rude messages/pressure/etc so i’m well aware my opinion is not needed and is probably not wanted tbh. i just have a lot of thoughts as someone on the outside looking in, and i appreciate how u can just kind of yell into the void here (and maybe i like to hear myself talk)

i also don’t really know anyone here besides my mutuals (who i love ofc) and i dont have any friends in the fandom so I’m not privy to any of the stuff behind the scenes or the really horrible things being said to and about creators, however, it is not difficult to imagine that it’s all shitty due to the fact that so many creators need to take a break.

the marauders fandom is the first fandom in a very long time that i have been an active participant in, the only other being mlp in like 2014-16. the last time i was active in fandom, i was 11-13 years old and even then I had better fandom etiquette than most people i’ve seen in the marauders fandom. To put it quite frankly, that’s fucking pathetic. fanfic writers, artists, and creators in general should not need a fucking break from fandom and interaction—the whole point is to be a community where we support each other and our transformative works etc etc

(and if they do need a break, for literally any reason, you should be nothing but fucking supportive. there are other fics to read if your favorite author decides being here isn't healthy for them anymore.)

creators are people, not machines. It’s so fucking simple. No one here is making a profit or creating with the intention of earning anything for their work—they are creating simply because they want to create. when you don’t pay someone for a product or a service, you have absolutely no right to demand absolutely anything from the creator. fanfiction and fandom are meant to bring fans together and have fun, and yet here we are, doing the exact opposite of that. if you want to be able to post shitty reviews and opinions that no one gives a fuck about, read actual published books. ones authors are actually being paid to write. don’t give your dumbass opinion about a piece of writing someone makes as their hobby in their free time. like...it’s just so lame. disliking a fanfic/author/etc and making it your personality isn’t something to be proud of.

i think a lot of the issues in this fandom stem from the insane rise in popularity atyd got in 2020/2021. so many people were essentially “advertising” the fic on tik tok, to the point that it was reaching people far outside the marauders fandom—both people involved in other fandoms and just normal people. i was on hp tik tok during that time, but very removed from the marauders, and even i could’ve told you way too many unnecessary details about atyd just because it was literally everywhere.

a lot of people who didn’t know anything about fandom or fanfiction before learned how incredible it was through atyd. which, while can be good, has led to a lot of bad in the fandom.

there’s also the issue of the “book-ification” of fanfiction which i do think largely started with atyd (at least here). there was a huge influx of people printing and binding it, and comparing it to published novels. that shouldn’t be happening—with any fic. there’s no need to say a fic “is better than the classics” or “should be published” or “is better than all the real books I’ve read” that is all just incredibly unnecessary and unwanted comparison. fanfiction should not be treated like published books. in any way. for any reason. and in the same vein, fanfic authors should not be treated like published authors. Not only does it put fanfiction at risk legally, but it also puts creators on a pedestal, and i promise they don’t want to be there.

fanfic authors are just normal people—please treat them as such. it’s just not that hard to be a decent person.

#idk why i felt the need to do this #i guess i just had a lot of thoughts #anyways #cass chatters #and rants for far too long

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ask-flux-chord · 3 years

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“I’m sorry. I wish I had known sooner.”

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((Howdy! It’s Mod again. It’s been way too freakin’ long and I’m sorry about that. I got a new computer built last month, and had to adjust to a few things. I also bought a new car because my old one fell apart, adjusted to COVID times, all that jazz. From now on, I think I’ll be doing colorless pages as a baseline, and coloring in if I think I have enough time. I’d like to get these out slightly more timely, because I have a real story I want out before it no longer matters. Thanks all, I really appreciate you.))

#Flux Chord #changelings #changeling #digital painting #mlp #fim #my little pony #is this even mlp anymore tbh #it's just changelings in a world entirely of my own #idk how id define it #story

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zombiepatch · 5 years

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Its just, super weird that they’d leave after 1 reblog tho? Like they hate it that much?? A children’s show? Like dang

i think some ppl smash the follow button w/o looking through the blog v much sometimes and just expect one kind of content, so then when there’s suddenly children’s cartoon content they’re like “well this is wildly different than what i followed for” and smash the unfollow [big shrug]

im out here flexing in my corner w/ my love for thos colorful horses lol

#ask #i take unfollowing ppl very seriously like. i continue following ppl when they dont even post anything i like anymore #if /i/ unfollow somebody it's bc they DID something #but other ppl aren't like that lol. smash the follow and smash the unfollow [SHRUG]#it took me a long time to get that through my head tbH ;w; i used to take unfollows very personally #like i'd wonder what i did wrong when rly maybe the person just doesn't wanna see any mlp nvldkfnvkjnfdv

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pandaren · 2 years

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That one post going around talking about there being few to no butch lesbian characters is really bothering me. I wish OP would clarify why they believe the listed characters cannot be interpreted as butch, or even just as lesbians. Do they object to the list because some of the shows the characters originate are "cringe" to a lot of people? It's a little confusing.

For starters, Rainbow Dash and Applejack were married in the FiM finale. I definitely interpret them both as butch myself, but regardless of your opinion on that, it's pretty safe to say that they can be considered lesbians in my opinion. I also believe Catra and Adora became a couple at the end of the newer She-Ra. Again, whether or not she is butch in your eyes, it seems reasonable to assume Catra is also a lesbian.

The thing I want to criticize the list for is citing Jasper from Steven Universe as one of the characters. I actually really love her but keep in mind that her main character traits involve being aggressive, hot headed, and violent; she is a villain for the bulk of the series after all! Of course you're allowed to interpret her as butch too, but keeping in mind who she is as a character, I don't think it's a good look to cite her for an example. Rather, I would cite Bismuth and Pearl as being candidates for SU's butch line up.

Bismuth is similarly built to Jasper, but in personality the total opposite, a gentle and compassionate soul with a sense of humor. To me, she embodies the spirit of how most butches are much better than Jasper ever could! But Pearl is probably the best choice to cite in this case, because you can point to specifics in the show to build a case for her being considered butch; both in Mr.Greg and for Ruby & Sapphire's wedding, she's all dressed up in a tuxedo for the events. She's also known for being the chivalrous type, especially wrt Rose; to the point where she literally considers herself a knight. And also, she has three separate love interests that are all women (or women coded, for lack of a better term for Leia Pearl™️). I definitely think Pearl would relate to the butch label in this case.

I can also understand the frustration that all of the characters cited are from cartoons aimed at all ages and not from regular kinds of TV shows. A lot of folks say things like, "go watch something that isn't a kids' show for once!" and can feel left out when those shows are the only ones that seem to have characters that are lesbian or even sapphic in general. That isn't to say having lesbian or any LGBT characters in kids' media is ever a bad thing, quite the opposite is true, but in no way should they only appear in kids' media. Adults deserve to feel seen too!

I've looked at the comments on the post, and a lot of people seem to be genuinely baffled as to why somebody may see a My Little Pony or any cartoon character really as a lesbian, or as butch specifically. For me, I cannot see why this is an odd concept. Especially since the MLP show writers are well aware that it has an audience that isn't solely little kids anymore and want to try & keep the attention of older fans as well as the young ones. It all just feels...I dunno, tbh! It just feels off to me.

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notjacinclay · 2 years

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for the character thing do the kinney siblings and jacinter 😏

Liam Kinney

First impression: boring, Jacin and cinder if they were merged together as one being, don’t give a shit about him tbh

Impression now: I like him way more than I used to, still kind of an asshole but yknow <33

Favorite moment: probably when he killed Jerrico tbh I would’ve threw myself at him after that 😩😩

Idea for a story: Kinney x Thorne smut 😍

Unpopular opinion: him and iko have 0 romantic chemistry

Favorite relationship: him and Tressa have a good bond and Kinney x Cinder brotp is great

Favorite headcanon: his ringtone is toxic by Britney Spears

Tressa Kinney:

First impression: happy girl, similar to Iko she’s okay ig

Impression now: girlboss girlboss girlboss literally bosses around her queen?? Anyway we Stan 🥰🥰

Favorite moment: when she flicked Kinney in the head I love her <3

Idea for a story: her making fun of Kinney more and just being a girlboss in general. Also I want to see her and scarlet interact they would be good friends

Unpopular opinion: have no idea if this is a popular opinion or not but mtf Tressa has become a thing I am now obsessed with

Favorite relationship: Iko x Tressa brotp Cinder x Tressa brotp and Tressa and Kinney have a great relationship

Favorite headcanon: mtf Tressa and she has an obsession with mlp (either past or present)

Jacin Clay

First impression: robot dude, asshole piece of shit, hated him but idk he’s hot so?? (Stop I used to think he was rly hot leave me alone)

Impression now: piece of shit who’s actually has feelings?? He actually cares about people omg <33 anyway I have a very complicated relationship with him 😔

Favorite moment: when he was making that bouquet in something old something new (also when Thorne punched him jk… jk?)

Idea for a story: Jacin goes to therapy

Unpopular opinion: him and cress’s friendship … I can’t see the platonic chemistry guys I’m sorry don’t come at me pls-

Favorite relationship: Winter x Jacin brotp and otp, Jacin x Cinder brotp also Jacin x wolf brotp is something I’m currently obsessed with

Favorite headcanon: oh god I have so many … but mainly he has a severe phobia of horses

Winter hayle

First impression: oh ok crazy girl we get it your creepy, seemed like an interesting character tho

Impression now: I love her even tho she’s fundamentally a rich kid, love her character arc and everything that happened in the story my girl isn’t schizophrenic anymore <33

Favorite moment: Pretty much everything in wires and nerve cause she was so happy <33

Idea for a story: gets a puppy and names it ryu :’)

Unpopular opinion: I don’t think this is unpopular but she should have used her lunar powers to like change her hair or something?? This is what annoyed me the most about her

Favorite relationship: Jacin x winter platonic and romantic is my otp but winter x scarlet is a great brotp and otp as well

Favorite headcanon: she’s actually a really fast eater. Like she tries to be proper and polite but in reality she just shoves food down her throat

#tlc #lunar chronicles #jacin clay #winter hayle #liam kinney #Tressa Kinney #angie<33 #thanks for the ask <3

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mooglesorts · 3 years

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man. it's weird, because there's a lot of things about me that are Very Badger Primary, to the point where i would probably pick it with a strong bird model over anything else at this point... except that i hate dehumanization. i saw primaries described recently as 'things you wouldn't be you anymore if you went against,' and more than just about anything else that's it. even when i think people are monsters, i can't see them as not human; i'd be hard put to define exactly what i consider a 'monster,' but it's more about like. good faith than personhood, i suppose?

it's not necessarily a permanent status to be one--people can change--but my deeply held instinct is that once you have done something monstrous you will always be a person who has been a monster by your own choices, and that it's your duty to learn how to accept that while still living your life, and act accordingly from thereon out. you have to reconcile that you are a person with the fact that some doors are closed to you now, and it's up to you to decide what you do from there.

just. like. even when i hate someone and as far as i'm concerned they can go fuck themself, even in the multiple Heavily Badger social environments i've been in over the course of my life--church, progressive circles, the way the structure of the internet kind of just affects you in general--even on occasions where i've gotten swept away and given in to the pressure to dehumanize (or perform it) for a minute, there's always, always been a voice in the back of my head saying this is a person. this is a person. this is a person. this isn't right.

unintentional dehumanization sets off my '...should we really be doing this? we are getting into not good territory here, it's time to pull up and start questioning' alarms. explicit, intentional, purposeful dehumanization sets off the whole ass tornado sirens. if people on my side are doing it it's enough to throw me into a system-destabilizing crisis, because NO NO NO I WANT TO GET OFF THIS RIDE, I WANT NO PART OF THESE PEOPLE'S MORAL SYSTEM, I FEEL UNCLEAN. it's a good way to make sure i will never, ever, ever trust someone again.

things that are Really Really Badger, off the top of my head (after the cut because Long and trauma talk):

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-i've always loved playing adoptable games, pet simulators, etc? any game with randomly generated characters that are Yours Now and a Community, in a deeply badgery way. including games where they can die (the satisfying part is making sure they don't). except that, no matter how much fun the gameplay is, if it gets to the point where they start feeling disposable, and the only way to really keep playing is to stop humanizing them, i lose interest. it's super fucking depressing. it feels like part of me dying inside a little. i don't like it at all.

-i've always been drawn to fandoms and roleplaying communities. i was fiercely loyal to, and proud of, my first rp community on dragoncave as a 13-year-old. when my abusive mom found out about it and completely isolated me for half a year, the promise of being able to make it back to them--just sneakier this time--kept me going; when i finally got back and the group had drifted apart in my absence, it.... was absolutely devastating. i never really recovered from it. even then, i spent years trying to get the group back together every now and then, until i finally gave up.

-i am always keenly, painfully aware of the life cycle of a community. every time i hear the sentiment 'you guys are all great and i love this group' my stomach drops, because i know it's only a matter of time before things go sour or the group dissolves. rp groups, skype chats/discord servers, fandoms, you name it, i am always bracing myself or staying away entirely to avoid the inevitable and it hurts. and it hurts to see people taking part in a community i don't dare be part of, which makes lurking in fandoms... really rough. frankly, it takes me a lot of courage every time i express my appreciation for the shc community because i've been burned so many times.

-on that note: i went through some really traumatic stuff at the end of 2020 that completely turned my life upside down, and i was doing bad until i stumbled across the shc community. the moment i started engaging, it was a huge boost to my mental health, and my ability to cope with circumstances under which i was about to break down spectacularly. and it has been ever since! contributing to The Group Project and seeing other folks being friendly with each other gives me the happy feelings.

-i used to go out of my way to build and run spaces, mainly fandom and rp spaces, and took a lot of pride in engineering them so that they Functioned Well. unfortunately it wore me the hell down over the years for Burnt Badger Reasons, and now i'm too jaded, bitter, and exhausted to give a shit about being a mod/community leader anymore because of it lmao

-among those burnt badger things i relate HARD to the Red Ledger narrative. hoo boy.

-i wish i could find it again, but there was an mlp comic i saw once which went into luna's observations of what each element of harmony Means. with the element of friendship, she says that twilight has a massive amount of love to give; right now it's all focused on celestia, but when she learns to expand it outward she'll have grown into her full potential as a person, and she'll change the world. that struck a chord with how i used to feel, hard, and it's really stuck with me ever since. (hello, unhealthy snake model)

-emphasis on 'used to feel,' lmao

-got super invested in a really toxic '''mental health''' community at a low point in my life; exploded HARD trying to help everyone i could; got into vicious, protracted fights with the shitty mods for years about the harmful way they ran their community until i finally managed to go 'fuck this it's not getting better' and leave.

-had to numb myself emotionally to the people around me for a long time once i really started learning about mental health and trauma stuff, because now i was seeing signs of their pain and baggage everywhere i looked, and i couldn't handle not being able to help.

-the imagery with which i think about my bird primary is overwhelmingly negative. whether it's my actual primary or a model, i uh. i feel like a healthy relationship to one's primary doesn't involve associating it with gore.

-i saw a conversation recently about how birds think of morality in terms of 'if you can, you should,' and how that's scary for badgers because their definition of 'can' involves destroying yourself for the sake of that 'should,' and... yeah, that's a mood. that's a BIG mood. thinking about bird primary stuff is hard--and i had to pick up my lion model to deal with it--because it's so easy for me to spiral into a self-shredding spiral of other people are counting on you to do the right thing, how dare you pull back for your own health and sanity. how dare you turn your back for even a minute. how dare you rest. the work is never done.

which is... a very exploded badger approach to exploded bird morality. whoops.

-fix-it and time travel fiction in which Everything Went Right This Time and It's Going to Be Okay are one of my very favorite self-indulgent fantasies. i will enjoy putting characters through the wringer in all kinds of creatively horrific ways which may or may not end on a downer note, certainly, i love that shit, but i will also 90% of the time have a backup version of the arc or dynamic that's softer and lighter and Actually Healthy This Time. it's the dichotomy there that really gets me tbh, a story where Everything Ends Happily by default will mmmaybe pull me in? but stories where there's the constant shadow of this could end horribly, it's supposed to end horribly, and we got a happy fucking ending anyway are just... that shit will make me cry, man.

it's also why i kind of really hate stable time loop stories where it initially looks like this is going to be The Good Timeline this time around, but OOPSIE everything went to shit anyway! we're right back where we started, just like it was meant to be all along! it's a tired cliche by this point and an unsatisfying one for me, and it makes me roll my eyes every time.

-this is relevant to the bird vs. badger because like... my gut instinct is to prioritize people over systems. when shit hits the fan, when someone's fallen into the machinery and is about to get hurt, i don't feel right about it if i just let it happen. i'll break the machinery if i have to to keep it away from them; i won't feel great about that, and it might cause problems, but fuck it, we'll figure it out later. throwing people into the gears of a system when i'm convinced it's the only option makes me feel Awful.

-related to the above, another trope that really speaks to me in fiction is when a character defies the rules of reality through sheer force of will. no, this is not happening, i don't give a shit what the limits are supposed to be. i refuse to let this be the way things are. (there's that lion model.)

-i've just kind of... always wanted to be an Everyone Badger. it makes me sad how much of that i've lost over the years as i've gotten more cynical, but it's what i wish i could be.

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doubtless i'll think of more the moment i hit send, and there are just as many things about me that are Super Bird Primary, but like... mamma mia that's some spicy badger. the main thing stopping me is the Can't and Refuse to Dehumanize bit. i also... hm. i think i can function okay without a community? they just help a lot, and it sucks when i'm confronted with one i don't have a (stable) place in. any thoughts? is it possible for a bird system's foundation to run so deep that eventually it overrides the bird?

#shc #sortinghatchats #sorting hat chats #badger primary #bird primary #burned badger primary #exploded badger primary #exploded bird primary #burned houses #exploded houses #abuse cw #gore implied cw #moogle hat talks

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friendofthecrows · 3 years

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Posting a way more in-depth description of my alters than any of you want or need because why not

Keiko: friendliest, nicest, cutest, acts the youngest. Used to front a lot when we were hanging out with friends. Still essentially like the rest of us in that she has the same personality disorders (pointing this out because you wouldn’t guess she has ASPD but we all do. No, none of us are “more of a psychopath” or evil vs good or whatever compared to one another). She just seems more able to feel/express the positive spectrum of emotions, she hasn’t repressed it or detached herself from it as much. She/her pronouns. Aroace. Current fave thing: either MLP or stimboards

Miyuki: calm, collected, responsible, acts like a gatekeeper of the system a lot as in she’s the only one we can actually trust to moderate the rules objectively. Also has pulled people out or put people in control before. Less “control panel” access than say Jokul or I though, but probably only due to lack of practice. THE most sane one (idk how that works either) and the one with the least emotional turmoil. Used to wonder if 1. She was capable of caring about people and 2. If she actually felt any emotions at all. The answer is yes she does, she just Bottles Them Up Completely. We are taking it in faith that she feels stuff because the body cried once while she was in control. Pronouns: she/her. Sexuality: ???? when it comes to romance, but definitely ace. Current fave thing: tea, specifically a nice warming oolong like Da Hong Pao.

Yahto: (me!) people are suggesting ways to describe me and it is mean. For most of my knowledge of my own existence as a separate alter, I’ve kind of assigned myself the role of protector. I was very functional as well! Confident (bordering on insufferably arrogant), and with the level of detachment from my emotions I had at the time as well as my complete lack of fear, perfectly suited to deal with a wide variety of situations. Only if we were okay with other people thinking we’re weird because I used to have a worse filter than I have now. I experienced fear for the first time 3.5 years ago right alongside the strongest emotions I’ve ever felt and my mental health has been spiraling downwards ever since :) Also I am literally the most stubborn person you will ever meet. He/him pronouns. Anything having to do with orientation is a big question mark right now, I just know I’m probably not interested in men. I HAVE dated women but tbh I’m no longer sure if I’m even interested in them. Current fave thing: yahto.exe stopped working 38 hours of being awake ago. Uh,,,,idk sorry How about reading fzanfic to pass the time fnafic fanfic

Jezebeth (Jez): (headspace bestie! Great at writing horror poems!) Does Not Care About People but also surprisingly extremely chill. When she’s enthusiastic about something, she’s REALLY ENTHUSIASTIC ABOUT IT but otherwise mostly just stays quiet and has a nice time Observing. People either find her really fun to be around or creepy. No in between. She went through a phase where she thought it was funny to creep people out by saying really messed up things so that probably didn’t help. Actually, DURING said phase, she single-handedly made and maintained the best in-school friendship we ever had for 4 years. Literally none of us talked to her except for Jez. She just had endless “creepy” conversation topics and Robin thought it was *amazing. * She/her pronouns, I have no idea sexuality wise simply because she does not talk about that kind of thing. Current fave thing: inking pens :)

Jokul: (sworn enemy, tried to kill myself once to take him down with us) Perfectly reasonable person realistically. Nothing particularly wrong with him. I just Do Not Like Him. Especially since for as long as I can remember, we’ve made it a game to torment each other. You see, we both hate boredom more than anything else, or at least we did when we were even younger and more naive and we’re not actually malicious, and yet foolishly prided ourselves on not being nice and also our ability to manipulate people. No, little kid me was probably not actually an expert on manipulation, we just thought we were at the time. This all resulted in us taking our boredom, pent up malice, and desire to prove we were better than one another on each other. Such a great idea (sarcastic). We did in fact get better at emotionally wounding people after years of practice, and predictably (if we had any foresight on this matter at all) it backfired! I did in fact turn this skill against the one person I cared about in an effort to push them away during one of my breakdowns and it resulted in 6 suicide attempts, not including my own. Jokul has been trying to manipulate me positively since (both of us have been ordered to be nice to each other by Miyuki because we were causing too many problems) and it has Not Worked. If he was a separate person, I would skin him. The only person I’ve hated so much. We’ve been on relatively good terms lately. Been capable of having casual conversations. Things are okay, I guess. His personality is entirely fake, so I don’t know how to describe it except for how he acts when we’re trying to hurt each other, which might be him dropping his mask or it might be a whole different act just for that. Pronouns: He/him. Sexuality: He can change it at will? I think default is aroace though? Current fave thing: *Jokul imitation* “My purple silk dress I wear when I’m meeting people and am desperate for them to worship my beauty. I look so irresistibly elegant in it, it makes everyone like me automatically.” His actual answer is Death Note (cringe) (I’ve been yelled at for calling Death Note cringe)

Gracelynn: (headspace ex-bestie) Everyone thinks she’s the nicest person ever and super loyal and so on. She is to other people but apparently not to me anymore. Still finds it difficult to empathize with people and care about them, but apparently decided to be nice anyways. Like she doesn’t get the fuss about friends but she’s here for them anyways. Spends as much time daydreaming as possible these days, used to front A TON a few years ago. Extremely shy and full of social anxiety and anxiety in general. Goes nonverbal in a plethora of social situations. Freakishly good memory. Has way less memory gaps than I do and I have no idea why. She/her pronouns, probably aroace Current fave thing: brace yourself for no surprises, a tie between horseback riding and the Chronicles of Amber.

Ryo: (the alter of many names: Ryo, Rachel, Ry, Rei, R) The newest. Noticed a new voice and behavior that did not match any of ours a while after the events of 3.5 years ago. Might be coincidence, might not be, I don’t care. Kind of down to earth and practical and normal compared to the rest of us. Despite him being here for years now I don’t know that much about him partially because I don’t care and haven’t been paying attention, and partially because system communication hasn’t been that great (I’ve also been getting way more memory gaps! Whole days lost! Isn’t that great? (sarcastic)). Pronouns: varies, any are fine. (Despite us, in general, identifying as gender fluid so we don’t have to explain, Ryo is the only ACTUALLY gender fluid alter in our system) Aroace. Current fave thing: He said sleep, he wants us to go to sleep. (refuses to answer the fun question genuinely) Well Ryo, you have just failed my vibe check. Your reward is uh,,,AT LEAST 13 more hours of being awake. Yayyy

(I did colors here but the all green theme will stay in other posts <3 Really if I had to describe our auras it would be different shades of blue anyways.)

#if you actually read all this thank you and why #alters #system #headspace #DID #headmates #dissociative identity disorder #hal rambles #mental illness #long post

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arcade-on-the-pier · 3 years

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Aight so here is my kandi tour! This is gonna be kinda long cause I've got a lot of kandi and I am gonna explain what they are/what they mean. I make new peices on the regular so I might post about kandi more

Anyways into the kandi stuff

First up my misc peices!

My rainbow kandi mask, it is a bit small so I don't wear it often, I'm gonna make a new mask soon

Then there is my crown, it has 2 blue and black peices and the rest are green and pink

Then my ufo cuffs!

The purple and pink one is based off Octavia from MLP, it was for my sister to wear with her costume on Halloween, my sis also make all the pearler bead charms. The letter beads say "❤octi❤"

The pink and blue one is based of Vinyl Scratch from MLP, its my match for my sister's cuff since we had matching costumes. The letter beads say "vinyl❤ scratch"

The red and blue one is based off Markiplier and CrankGameplays with their signature red and blue colors, a yellow gear, a pink mustache, and a black/white/gray hourglass for unus annus

The purple and white one was my first ufo cuff, I made it with whatever beads I could get to match. It was kinda inspired by the Twitch colors with the eye representing views

Next my flat cuffs!

The top left cuff is based off the rainbow road tracks from mariocart, mainly a mix of the N64 and SNES tracks. The star charm kinda covers it but there is a rainbow section that the star is attached to.

Top right was my first flat cuff, it is kinda small and has one green bead that doesn't match the others. Tbh I'm eager to trade it but I don't want to give it away and don't trade with people often.

Bottom left was my first x based cuff, it was supposed to become a princess peach themed ufo cuff but I didn't have enough matching beads so it ended up being too small to become a ufo cuff

Bottom right is just something I did randomly, I didn't know what to make and I had an excess of black and white beads and I saw a fun tutorial on how to make bone charms (I put the red in to make it look bl**dy)

My necklaces!

The red one with the star says "edgy scemo" and its basically me taking the fact people call me edgy and making it a literal badge to wear.

The green one is striped black and green and has a lizard on it. The lizard used to be on a rainbow necklace but then the rainbow necklace decided to break for no reason.

My "identity" bracelets! (thats what I call em)

The "shsl" "gonta" and "gokuhara" bracelets are a broken up version of my cosplay accounts @ but also it just represents how big of a Gonta kinnie I am

The "scemo bugs" one is another one for my @ for this account

The "he they" one is just for my pronouns cause I thought I needed more clarification since sometimes its not quite obvious

The "cosplay" one is just cause I care about cosplay a lot and its a big part of who I am

Then there are my 2 pride flags, my ace flag and my trans flag, the trans flag one is the first bracelet I ever made

My Unus Annus stuff!

The one on the left is just a black and white single, its inspired by unus annus but I didn't put a lot of detail on it

Then the ones on the left are my "unus" and "annus" charecter bracelets and they have hearts on the bracelets that match the signature color of Mark and Ethan

My Sanders Sides collection!

They are pretty self explanatory tbh, its just the charecters and their colors and names

My random singles!

Even tho I make some singles to give away I do put thought into them all (cause otherwise they have no emotion in them)

The red and white one represents a knight, those colors are just what I think of when I think of a noble knight

The rainbow one with the pink charms was kinda kidcore inspired

The "hello kitty" one is just cause I watched hello kitty a lot as a kid and its blue to kinda show how I've changed since I watched hello kitty on the regular

The black and rainbow one is from the rainbow checkered stuff that I've seen, it seems much more fun than normal checkers, like a colorful chess board, and kinda like colorful intelligence I guess

The all blue one is kinda small so its another one I'm kinda eager to trade, its just one my sister made

The other blue one with the planet charms is a galaxy themed one cause space is cool

Anyways thats my kandi!

I really like my kandi but since I don't go out to places much anymore I don't wear my kandi as much and people can't really see it

Anyways have a good day! >w< Luv u /pla

#kandi kid #kandi #my kandi #kandi making #kandi singles #kandi necklace #sanders sides

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