#ish? im not sure anymore

[bl00doodle]

DOODELS

#my art #tryignt o do sm shit help i wanma draw and finish things so baddd #the brown sketches r me crying @ the phrase 'to be loved is to be changed' i wanna make a sad emo angsty comic abt shadows loss and pain an #still endong up with a happy life bc. 🧍‍♂️ fuck i want that for myself too #THE 2NDD... MY SKY PIRATE GRANDMA MARIA AU 🫶🫶🫶🫶 basically shes super inspired by dola from castle in thsky lol #shes putting makeup on shad bc hes going on his first date ever.... #in his 50yr immortal ish ageless life hes going on a date and maria will damn sure make sure hes gonna have a nice one #ehehehe guess whos hes going on a date w....👁👁(obvious) #uhhhh the cat is just older blaze leik burnin blaze inspired by her concept art #one of her hair styles is like fire and im like. thats fuckin cool!! #sHE GETS STRIPED AND GETS FWUFFY WHEN SHES OLDER bc i think its kyut 🫶 #makes her related to big the cat ehehehe alt dimension shit or smhtn idk im not thinking anymore #oh fuck i forgot to tag the charas #sonic the hedgehog #maria robotnik #eggman #shadow the hedgehog #blaze the cat #amy rose #sonic chao #uhhh it uink thqts it #sowowiwjekwo #sowwy its a mess

[welcometogrouchland]

[ID: four page comic of the owl house. Page 1: Eda walks past Luz, Gus and Willow, who're sat on the floor of the owl house around a box labeled "Eda's Music". Eda notices them and peeks around the corner asking "uh, hey kid- whatcha doin?". Luz says "oh hey Eda!".

Page 2: Luz says "we were just going through all your old human music!" While holding a CD case. She continues "I've been getting nostalgic listening to some old latin pop CDs, like what my mom used to play around the house! (You have a surprising amount of merengue music btw)". Gus sheds a single tear and says "I've sampled human music before but, wow, just, wow! The technique...the inspiration...Carly Rae Jepsen is a genius". Willow looks to the side and says "and I've been listening to your old breakup mixtapes!".

Page 3: Eda looks at her blankly before saying "my what?". Willow says- "your breakup music! There's a whole box of it. I'm pretty over it now but back in the day...when Amity stopped hanging out with me...it hit me hard. I kinda had a phase of only listening to angsty breakup songs for like...a month. Maybe more. It's kinda sad in retrospect".

In the background we can see a flashback of young willow sobbing in bed while summoning vines to cover photos of her and Amity on her wall. Willow continues "things are a lot better now don't get me wrong...but I still listen to that playlist every once in a while when I need a release". Eda contemplates, then grimaces, remembering breakup with Raine (who's pictured saying "it's over, eda").

Page 4: Eda looks at Willow. She eventually says "wanna trade?" And Willow looks up. Final panel shows Luz standing in the doorway concerned as she looks at Willow and Eda. willow is kneeling in front of a casette player and headphones with a shadowy expression and Eda is in the family guy death post with a phone and headphone wire next to her. Both have annotations- Willow's says "got One of Us by ABBA" and Eda's is "got Nightshift by Lucy Dacus". Luz says "you guys good?". End ID]

*slides my Eda and Willow trade angsty breakup songs on s2A hc across the table*

#the owl house #willow park #eda clawthorne #luz noceda #gus porter #(i know he's essentially a cameo in this but he has a speaking role at least i feel justified tagging him) #raeda #not really intended as amillow? more abt the experience of taking a friendship breakup hard but lacking the language to describe it #but can be interpreted as amillow if you want #anyway. every stage of this comic kicked my ass and tbh it's not my favorite but it got me drawing again and that's good #i still think the idea is funny part of me is just like. actually we can do better lets take it from the top #which is deranged bc I've already spent like 2-ish weeks on this i am not looking at this for another second #do i think enjoying angsty breakup music is wholly in character for willow? im not sure. she doesn't like dwelling on the negative #BUT like. i think you can make the argument she'd enjoy it in private. she represses a lot of feelings she needs some kind of outlet #and this is s2A in my mind (post eclipse lake where willow and Gus want to check out more human music) #so i feel like I can justify her talking about her angsty guilty pleasure to eda #also like. bby willow is DEVASTATED in the understanding willow flashbacks. maybe older willow tries to ignore things #but for at least a few months it was probably a big struggle for her coming to terms w/ why amity stopped hanging out w/ her #anyway i don't want to look at this anymore. have at thee! #i have 2 (two) more comics thumbnailed and one of them is shorter/funnier but the other one is a hc I really like #so currently a toss up between which one gets done next #it's half past midnight and i don't wanna stay awake until 2 am again so I'll probably just leave this lurk for a bit and then sleep #i hate the way this is formatted (the images are SO SMALL ON MOBILE) but i don't want this post to be more vertical than it is

[mawguai]

oc of mine

#oc art #oc #illustration #i've redesigned her so many times lol #i think this is her 6th version? #granted it was over the course of like... ermmm 6 ish years? #she used to have a name but like i don't think it's very fitting anymore so im not sure what to call her anymore #i really like the face i drew #it feels like it has a lot of depth #my art

[hyp3rfixation-h3ll]

THIS is a certified HOOD CLASSIC

im starting to slowly fixate on ghostly adventures again , so i figured while im ahead of the curve to post the (hopefully) DEFINITIVE rendition of my Sunny! due to there being no canon last name for her canonically, i've decided she gets to keep the "Suprema" surname-- Zac actually inherits it instead when they get married!! (yes this means Pacster's name is Pac Suprema) He also serves as one of my primary sonas, sunny as a character means a lot to my identity and who i am as a person teehee

I have like. years worth of lore for this guy i really need to elaborate on, i'll see if i can get a friend to help me with it since our universe is collaborative o3o

#pacman and the ghostly adventures tag ! 🟡🍒 #sunny pmatga #pacman and the ghostly adventures #pmatga #pac man #if you're wondering where the markings on his mouth and ears and tail came from-- tl;dr this bitch is an experimence gone wrong-ish #for who im sure you can figure out #ouugh im so excited #i havent really been willing 2 participate in this fandom due to some .. nasty people #but yk. im not really afraid of you-know-who anymore #so to hell with it !!! back into the world i go !! wahoo !! :D #i say this with all of my sonas but this guy really is special 2 me i genuinely love him so much #also!!! the way his ears and tail are patterned should be familiar hopefully #i want there to be Extra Lore . :3

[oscill4te]

sending good vibes to mixed race folk who have a very complicated relationship w their heritage or view of themselves, ily

#mentally i call myself a racially ambiguous american #i don't really connect with the word latino idk why.. like i was raised by an immigrant parent but #oddly feel no connection with the culture at all. not out of self prejudice even. i just wasnt close w my mom idk #like sure i know some spanish and have eaten the food but i just feel no connection anymore. i used too. its weird #again i just prefer to call myself slightly brown/ambiguous American or something lol it just feels more accurate #its not self hate i just legit dont connect... i feel like an outsider and thats okay. i think it was due to how i was raised really. #my white side was shitty too but they were more involved in my life so i guess thats why despite being brown-ish #i saw myself as white for 17 yrs of my life til i had a therapist (of color) say something like #“i bet you relate since you are also of color” and i was in shock and confusion like #i told her “uh no im white i dont know what you mean” and it caused some cognitive dissonancee #so i asked a few ppl what they saw me as and it shattered my view that i looked 100% white passing #its like how ducks imprint on who raised them. my white grandma and aunt raised me so i just saw myself as white?? idk #its still a weird feeling and nowadays i dont really like identifying my race or ethnicity to ppl idk #maybe this all sounds weird i dont know #but its how i genuinely feel; unfiltered and all #again i like mexican culture a lot i just often don't feel like its “my roots” it feels more like #im appreciating someone elses culture which makes sense bc i was raised as a gringo!! yk? #its not really “my roots” it's my moms roots but not mine #altho ngl i feel kinship with first/2nd gen latinos... #i think a lot of them have similar feelings like me minus the mix race stuff #well actually many of them r probably mix race too idk i mostly meet 1st gen ppl who have 2 immigrant parents tho #and yesss i know latinos can be any race. i know i. #im just rambling incoherently

[halinski]

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#...im like 99.9℅ sure its fine bc its a completely unrelated issue #but i told the doc who does my allergy shots (which are currently paused) that btw i kinda have iron deficiency #i mean i told the tech bc i didnt even see the doc today #bc apparently im still a fan of underplaying my symptoms and stuff #like yeah just a little bit of a deficiency idk if it matters #the tech like: um yeah its important for us to know! #me: well it's kinda heading into like anemia territory-ish #me: *ignoring that i flat out got the anemia diagnosis bc i saw my own results & i theyre borderline & the symptoms atm have gotten better* #so it could be /worse/ yknow #some other doc might not have given me the anemia add on as a diagnosis i think #or is this just me overthinking bc ive been trying to tell docs for 5 months that smth is wrong and everyone is like noooooo #and now they're like: there might be a chronic underlying issue and you gotta keep fighting to figure it out yoyrself #bc getting a gastroskopie appointment is like one of the hardest thinga and i give up #so now i'm the one pretending i'm not sick anymore hahahaha #we'll see #i'm currently just enjoying not being in pain #i have no appetite and im nauesous but thata relatively normal #it's fine #i'm very good at denial #just try me #ignore me #don't interact #i can't deal lmao #a part of me has always wished for this and i have no more energy or way to fight it

[alphalesbian]

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#................................................................................................................................. #so another update on my skin i guess . . . #about a week in and its basically everywhere on my chest and terribly on my back and legs and butt : - ( worst its gotten so far is itchy as #all hell on my side but thankfully so far thats really it....... ive maybe been tired n had a sore ish throat like when i first felt it but #not really anymore.... now its just my skin looking. awful lol everywhere #but....... i found out about this skin thing that looks Exactly The Same As Mine Looks Right Now and that ! was a major relief considering ! #its not a serious skin thing and my symptoms almost entirely align with the process so far ! ! ! #as much as i am still skeptical im just. i dont know that helped a lot i guess. everything else id found n been thinking it could be were #oretty serious things for the most part which honestly raqcking my brain about that for the past week uh #probably wasnt the best mental health decision to make OTL............... #still gonna go up the mountain for some cheap blood work tommorow..... then back to urgent care on wed/thurs to really make sure its nothing #serious which will also immediately improve my headspace regardless so. thats good too #and the help from my best friend . . . . . . . . . i am so so lucky to have him he is literally so special. i was right at the bottom and he #didnt even hesistate . crazy how that can feel so nice and hurt so much at the same time #hurt really from just honestly how immensely empty i was and how much i really needed that support #still though absolutely heated from. the initial situation and how my main support just kinda fucked off in response lmao! but #all that greif and sadness and ugly crying aside today has been a mostly good day in comparison. let alone finding out something it could #absolutely very well be and its Not Super Serious Necessarily and Pretty Common all things considered #is a big plus. . . . a lot to think about and a lot to do as always just really really gotta keep my head on my shoulders . . . . . . . . . #okay and honestly all that aside ladies it looks. so crazy. i really actually maybe am gonna take pictures of this to really document it nd #even if its a serious thing its like. so crazy looking #feels pretty ridiculous dont get me wrong it literally feels like my skin is fucked up where its raised n swollen but the pattern is #idk medically fascinating to me i guess is the best way to say it lol #how would that be for my first selfie in like 4 years teehee 😌 anyways enough of my ranting but in case anyones interested here ya go . . .

[gillgmesh]

Anyone else get FOMO when shopping? Especially when you're looking to buy an item that is kinda hard to find, and also at a good price? Anytime I find an item that looks legit and is being sold at a decent price I can't help but feel I HAvE to buy it asap bc who knows when a deal that good will come up again, y'know?

#i say this as im about to buy a figure thats going for almost 20-30 dollars cheaper... #ok yes i like just got into biying anime figures bc i finally have money but i swear to you guys so far im only investing in 3! #one is a nendo so its cheap...ish. and then im pretty sure after the one im gonna try to buy this weekend i wont be tempted to buy any more #tbh ive looked and some are nice looking but i dont feel tempted to buy them so i think ill sit happy with what i have for a good while #sky's texts #but the fomo fr cpuld be soo bad to my wallet if i am not careful so good thing im not tempted to get anymore

[astrxealis]

owhhh okay i think i'm p tired ... gn in advance y'all

#⋯ ꒰ა starry thoughts ໒꒱ *·˚ #tired not as in Sleepy i mean the other Tired but i'll be fine TvT #anyways aaa ebg ends soon !! like a day or two !! so uh :squints: to all those who have sabotaged me ily very very much and really #appreciate it sm TvT LIKE HELRPWJDJSJ ik i shld feel :(( <//3 yes but also knowing i was actually like. y'all make the game fun ... TvT #yes yes so uhhhhhh help im heating up IDHSIWJEKS (shy) #OKAY so to sam & lune esp bcs damn y'all hate me fr 💔 /nm n ofc cal lettē n that 1 anon im p sure is anoushka (embarrassed if im wrong but #yes <3 IDHSIDNS) tyvm friends TvT aaaaaaa ebg isnt over yet but im feelin a lil ack these days ehehhehehdhehdh so yeah #i feel like i havent rlly gotten much sabotages compared to my fellow mutuals who r playing JDUEWHIJWJS so ya just a rlly HUGE ty to u guys #it means a lot to me even if it prolly seems like smth small >< ✨ aaaaeeeeee #i prolly won't send sabotages as much anymore tho bcs i'm feeling tired now TvT wont elaborate but yes WHEEZEHWRWIDJSOSKAOSPAJDKANSOAO #nah idk maybe im just overhtinking again or wtvr i dunno man but just not feeling it rn again brrrrrrrrr #ill head to sleep b4 3 am !! yesterday was b4 5 so now will be b4 3 hopefully ehe #please Do Not perceive this post /nf /lh ODBWIDNWKDJSK now goodbye B) #dw later today when its actually proper morning or afternoon im sure ill be fine again B)) always am #tw vent ish #i hate feeling this way brrr i always try to focus on the good positive and happy but #yeah :') #if i start distancing myself again rirhwiwhdiehkde i'll most likely be fine so no need to worry at all abt me or wtvr ^^ #i doubt anyonr will even see or read this post (?) but if u need pls know i rlly genuinely do appreciate it jdhsjd ilysm aha :') 💖 #TvT i just bottle my feelings up a lot okay ORHRIEHEIEHKAJS and i feel like ive been doing that again for quite a long time so im just #kinda breaking rn again :') ill really be okay soon tho for sure 🫶🏼 #tw vent #im like 90% sure no one will even notice this so its fine if i just post this ya rhe

[frick-it-sugar-spice]

I fell asleep again and dreamed some shit about ocs. The one off shark asshole for one scene to show husk and niff do more than just clean and serve booze now has a backstory.

The other one i started making as a jokey thing for an anon ask for something and then gave up on bc i got shy and then just rotated in my brain for a bit has a much more extended backstory now too.

And I have a mighty need to draw them both and hammer out more details

#hazbin ocs #quit eavesdropping toots #im still workin on names but i think one is gonna be Kenneth O'Searcaigh #first name may change? wanna make sure theres no like. historical or currently living person who might have thay name n be upsetti abt it #and the other rn is just goin as Mimicry because corvids and their ability to mimic sounds and speech #and bc they currently can not speak its kind of a dick move by whoever #and im debating if Mimicry is maybe involved lowkey somehow in voxtech shit bc their life had a llllot of tech shenanigans #like. hacking and identity theft and tinkering with AI/Deepfake shit bc it helped them get what they wanted #or if they are doin their own thing or under some other techy demon shit bc why not #and part of their thing is like genuinely considering selling their soul to unfuck their ability to talk #they are VERY NEW to hell. like. within the last 5 years. #O'Searcaigh is an oldie. like. was in his late teens/20s 'round the second wave of IRA in the 1920s ish #anyway. if u felt likenu could ask shot abt them maybe help me flesh them out o: #not Kenneth anymore its gonna be Kenney

[lmitations]

potentially not having a pd that u thought u had for almost 10 years is kinda 🥴

#dont fully meet the criteria anymore (w/o rly doing a whole lot of work on it) n the criteria doesnt explain a lot of other symptoms i have #honestly its more likely i have (redacted) w (redacted) traits +my adhd and trauma bc that kinda. covers it all i think #nothing else fits quite as well while accounting for like. everything #obviously im not fully sure but i rly think so #i could def have bpd still as well as (redacted) and maybe still (redacted) traits but?? it just seems more unlikely to have 3 ish things #instead of 2 ish things #wrt pds #n e way idk if i want to get it diagnosed if i do have it... im considering it but it might not be in my best interest #if i do decide to though im gonna ask for a full pd screening so that im not boxing myself into smth wrong accidentally

[camptw1nk]

oh twitter bookmarks, facebook saved, instagram saved, tiktok bookmarks, tumblr likes, my beloveds (i will never ever open them again)

#be going 'oop ill save that for later' and then finding it in 3 yrs going 'wtf is this' #i still have bookmarks for belle parker. im not sure anyone here even remembers who that bitch is #she was my beloved my most babygirl oc in i think 2016-2018? ish? #she was the It Girl the Solo Blog the creator of the connected ocs universe #but i think the last time i wrote her was. Before Covid so its been a Hot Minute #but i still have stuff bookmarked in instagram in a little section just for her #if she ever comes back im ready for the edits #god she was the first (only?) time i edited icons to have a different hair color #but never permanently bc as we all know i never saved icons i made them as i went I'd write a reply then make the icon from scratch #awful method dont recommend it thats why i dont use icons really anymore #but i remember spending Hours editing purple hair on that bitch and the shade changed every single time #she was iconic tho. absolute queen. blueprint for every oc that came after her and im so serious #list any trait u have seen in a muse i write and i can probably trace it back 2 belle #if i looked back on her backstory im kinda convinced that she and cassie would have major crossover #belle had a twin brother. I think belle and cassie are the only time ive ever had twin ocs? #oh no wait there was my guy whos superpower was controlling glitter and his twin who could teleport and was evil #and the tweevils not ocs tho #do i have more twin ocs. genuinely no clue i am now only thinking ab 2016 era ocs i had #i think some of u may underestimate how little i remember ab my muses and blogs #if its not one of the it girl muses of the month (kurt jason cassie tate) then i can not tell u if they r on my multi or not. i dont know #obvi liam and cooper r special cases bc they technically have solo blogs rn #but at any given time u could just say i write someone that ive written in the past and I'll believe u

[angelfoodscake]

thinking about my borderlands oc again .. im not sure if i should make them more top heavy with tighter clothing to give the vibe of "they look really intimidating and mysterious but are actually really shy" or give them baggier clothing to reinforce their softness and shyness

im adament on the robot helmet and after more pinterest searching i realised i can add "ears" (to reinforce their old fox/kitsune motif) or "horns" (to reinforce their old devil / demon motif too) . i might go for more of the demon motif this time because its simply cooler and more simple but id also have to think of a reason why (symbolism). fox motif was cool but didnt really make too much sense as in symbolism foxes are more sneaky and cunning . or i can make them an artic fox since they blend in seamlessly with the background and thats also symbolic of their character and I CAN MAKE THEIR MAIN COLOUR WHITE OMG..... instead of red (unfortunatley a colour i do not like so i dont want to work with it LOL)

#just rambling so i dont forget this later #jermspeak #oc stuff #i guess i gave them different-ish clothes at first to represent how they werent from pandora #like i guess a more cultural vibe would be cool idk #also i forgot they were like a different species LMAO im not sure how much i should lean into that #they dont look too different from the others anyway besides like . limbs and ears #if ill even keep their pointed ears #still need to redesign their face #or maybe they can be like a mix idk #like meeee (im wasian so naturally all self inserts were wasian) #even though theyre not wasian anymore #are there any characters in borderlands that arent . human and robot lol

[nimomo-mo]

Vent

#for someone as fuckboy-ish as you #you sure do know how to make a girl disappointed #lmao #ugh. im not even sure i love you anymore. but every little conversation we have that doesnt end after 3 messages gives me butterflies still #i get a little rush of dopamine from seeing your name pop up #from seeing those three dots showing youre writing something #i wish you knew but i hope youll never do #thats so fucked up lmao i think im falling into a gray routine where im all alone #i thibk im getting used to never having anyone else. i dont even see myself as single. i just exist #i cant imagine myself with anyone else than you. it makes me nauseous to think about kissing or fucking someone else. #and yet I don't even know if i want your love #i thibk it might just be poison. if you even for some reason were to love me back #because of my inferiority complex and the fact that all your exes and fwbs and friends and acquaintances are gorgeous #and i want the one i have to look at me. only me. please look at me. #its embarrassing but its true. i want to be beautiful #i want to be better. i want to be better i want to be better i want to be better #im getting hopeless. im past being desperate. im past being hurt or sad or angry. im.just tired #im going to sit in this empty feeling with a big hole in it and wait for the years to pass. #what am i living for? #what do i want to live for?

[goldlightsaber]

watching taika waititi interview and giggling and kicking my feet

#he's so much more earnest than i expected #for some reason i thought he would make reflexive jokes all the time and be kind of shy and standoff-ish #ik he's not the internet's husband anymore after...im not even sure after what. having a wee bit of an open relationship moment? #i genuinely don't know lmao #he keeps mentioning his mom ohh my goddd #text

[ramonathinks]

(18+, minors/blank accounts dni)

jealous ex husband gojo who just can't keep stand seeing you with someone else. he hates that you gave up on him, hates that you don't wear your ring anymore even though he does and he wears it proudly.

"you have a date tonight, the girls tell me." busted. you cringe and eye you little daughters, only six the both of them but you told them to keep quiet about the situation.

"yes..." you reply, anxiously awaiting his response.

you could just picture his face now, nose a bit flared and lips pursed. with clenched teeth he said, "alright, have fun." but it wasn't that simple.

he always kept close watch on you and it made you nervous with how simple it left the conversation. "well, i could come pick the girls up before then. about 8-ish?" he asks and you say yes before hanging up.

gojo was always too busy which was what led to the divorce. you'd both married young, 20 and stayed together since but when the girls turned 3 you had enough and just left. he wasn't being there enough for you or the girls and it hurt.

when he pulled up you cursed yourself for getting ready so early. your hair in long curls and a knee length skirt with a small slit on the left leg. he didn't bothering knocking or waiting for you to open the door, he had keys and you knew this so you continued with your makeup.

he was standing there watching you but you ignored him. or tried to but he walked closer and closer until he was right in your face. "how beautiful, you are." he held your jaw and forced you to look at him.

"why don't you ditch this date and come with me?" he asked, bringing your lower reign to his. "don't you miss me baby?" he nipped at your skin and the memories and feelings were coming back.

you had to be strong. you swallowed and pulled his back from you. "you have to stop this, im sure you have someone out there satoru, but she isn't me." you tried to walk off but he grabbed your wrist and brought you to your bedroom.

"y/n, so you think anyone can make you feel as good as i make you feel? don't you know i love you? my feelings never left and i know yours haven't." he rubs you through your panties and kisses you on your lips.

"everything can be different now." he promises, easing his way between your legs. his heavy cock entering you slowly, it was only the tip so far but it was splitting you open. you'd been without sex for two years and now tears were in your eyes.

"you think he can fill you up like me?" he adjusts himself and enters more of his cock into you. he was still so big, you were choking. you could feel him in your tummy and in your throat.

"you're always going to be mine, so stop running." he told you as he jerked his hips. "stop trying to let this go baby?"

"satoru—"

"mommy! the door!" one of the girls yelled.

"shh," satoru brought a finger to your lips and leaned forward to make love to your mouth. it was too much and you both were drooling after just a few minutes, he pulled himself out of you and looked at his wet cock.

"think about what i said." it was hard to forget. you clenched your legs together after you cleaned yourself up, not even wanting to face your date.

not even wanting to face your ex-husband either.

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