#it all feels weird and unsatisfying ???

[writhe]

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#a friend just dropped dead yesterday #and today the ex friend who did all that fucking insane shit in november #(or like arguably has continued to do all that shit) fucking reached out #& offered an apology in a way that felt like. idk #deeply insincere. or i think more accurately as a ploy #& i responded ‘eat shit’ #(and i’m feeling weird about that but to have someone absolutely rip apart years of friendship in an extremely traumatic way is just like) #(not gonna fly for me) #but idfk how to grieve these unsatisfying endings #(& i’ve felt so haunted bc we just passed the 6 month mark of hearing from another friend who just fucked off and dropped everyone #)

[haunted-xander]

Fontaine, as a whole, is a nation I feel was so nearly perfect, but also just... somewhat unsatisfying.

Like, the exploration is nice, the puzzles and mechanics are fun, but... it's so easy. I have the entire map 100%. I didn't use a guide for most of it (only for Special Stuff like the treasure maps and foggy branches), nor did I have the treasure compass. All I had to help me was the hydroculus resonance gadget. The only regions in the game I got to 100% without any guides before was Galesong Hill (which, tbh, most ppl probably have at 100% or close %), and Hypostyle Desert (simply bc the underground ruins were so much fun to explore). Everywhere else I used a guide for at some point. During 4.0 I literally felt like I had to hold back on exploring just to not finish it too quickly. Yeah.

The world quests have a lot of interesting stuff going for them, especially the Narzissenkreuz questline and the ones in/around Merusea Village. But... they feel like they're missing something. I don't feel like I'm properly done with any of them, even though there isn't really anything more to add. The Narzissenkreuz quests had a very strong start, I cared about the characters involved and the lore they're a part of, and having it be 3 questlines that combine into one comprehensive story was really fun, but the ending feels... unceremonious almost. I can't pinpoint what's wrong with it, it answered what it needed to and it made it clear what everyone was doing going forward, but... it feels off. Anticlimatic, almost, despite it having the climax it needed. The world quest I was most satisfied with was the Questioning Melusine And Answering Machine quests, and it's a largely self-contained one. Everything else feels... unfinished, almost. But also not.

And the Archon Quests are so so good, but also... weird at parts. First of all, Childe's out-of-nowhere traumadump early on is jarring, especially since... they didn't really follow up with it properly? Like yes, the Narwhal and Skirk ended up relevant but... not to him, for the most part. The important questions this conversation prompted wasn't elaborated or followed up on, which is what could've justified including it at all. We still have no more clues as to why the Narwhal connected with him, we don't know what caused his restlessness or why his vision messed up, and Skirk was kinda just... there. She loredumped and that was that.

There's other oddities too, like Traveler getting upset at the twins for hiding their Fatui affiliation. Traveler has every right to be upset with them in that moment but... not for that. They should be upset because they lied about the magic show, not about being Fatui. Like, you literally called Childe you're friend just the other day! And he's literally tried to kill you (well, okay, not "kill", but he was still an enemy)! And later on you're suddenly fine with Arlecchino, a person we have seen time and time again is an absolutely terrible person? Because, what, she cared about this one specific problem that affected innocent lives? Really?

Furina and Childe not getting checked up on by basically anyone at the end of 4.2s AQ feels not only out of character (you're gonna tell me Traveler isn't gonna check on them after all that happened? Really?) but also just... very shitty. The only one who seemed to even care was Neuvillette, everyone else just kinda... forgot about those two. Despite the fact that 1) Furina was a well liked public figure who, even after the truth was revealed, people very much still cared about, and 2) Childe literally saved the entire nation but stalling the Narwhal for over a month. Even Neuvillette couldn't so much as deter that thing until he got his full powers back, and you're telling me nobody, not even the people who where directly saved by him, even wondered what became of him? Really?

The characters are fantastic here, don't get me wrong, everyone is lovely and I adore them all, but the way the story handled certain things is just... not great. It's unsatisfying. It feels like there were things they wanted to do but either chickened out of or simply didn't get to include. It's so jarring.

#i didnt mean for it to get so long but oh well #fontaine is so so good but just. somewhat off. and unsatisfying #also when i was going through the narzissenkreuz line #during 4.0 i felt like the cut-off for the next stage(s) of the quest for 4.1 was this... awkward cliffhanger #like yes ofc i understood they had to cut it off so they could continue in another patch #but the way they did it felt so weird and odd #and the cut-off for 4.1 to 4.2 was even worse #because not much even happened there other than caterpillar getting introduced and included #the story didnt really... progress #and then when it did conclude in 4.2 it didnt feel good #it was odd and unsatisfying #even though i dont know whats missing #i realize i used unsatisfying to describe it a lot but #that is what it is #unsatisfying #maybe the interlude chapter will help improve it #or maybe it wont #sigh. i miss sumeru. it had its own issues but the writing and exploration was peak #and the lore! the lore was amazing! #i miss sand. i want to explore the desert all over again it was so much fun #4.2 spoilers #childe #tartaglia #ajax #genshin impact #xander rambles

[movedtodykedvonte]

Something about Spamton still being self loathing during the snowgrave boss fight makes me believe that despite his delusions of grandeur and the belief he is finally big again, he is still unhappy with the outcome.

He believes he’s won but it means nothing still, there is no one for him to personally reap vengeance on, no one to rule, nothing due to his and your hand. It’s not even a bittersweet victory cause nothing about has brought him concrete happiness

#team snowgrave/weird route is not canon and is like the worst outcome #cause it’s just really weird and off putting and I feel like Kris would fight harder #also how unsatisfying the ending is for all like Kris is full of guilt noelle is traumatized and the cyber world has been devastated #team neo is some sort of final point for the allegory of a deal with the devil story Spamton has going on #with spam taking the role as a false Angel or devil and how that’s not right to his proper ending #spamton #utdr #deltarune #spamton g spamton #undertale #deltarune analysis

[chryzure]

whew, people get heated over their fav booktok book.

#memorie.txt #once you’ve read more you’re more willing to admit that you love a kinda poorly written book #by god i love jackaby. the writing style is a solid 3/5 and the plot stuff is cheesy as hell. #you get a better frame of reference for ‘this book requires an award’ style of good #and a ‘god this is so my dumb little niche that scratches all those weird little itches nobody else has’ style of good #one of my fav series is the ghost and the goth!! is it good?? i don’t know if i’d go that far!! #is it fun and does it make me think of trysi / chryzure stuff??? yes :) #i’m beginning to wonder abt ppl rabid abt their fav books. anyway this one person was losing their shit over ppl liking apollo #and aurora and i’m an aurora shooter but i digress #they were foaming at the mouth and im like Well. its a little not that serious . #he is letters on a page. and also mostly irrelevant to the story as a whole so im kinda confused as to why ppl feel so strongly abt him #it’s funny because most of my complaints stem from an outside pov #where i critique the worldbuilding / plot work / character writing and its inconsistencies #whereas ppl assume im encouraging villainy irl. it is quite seriously more that the villainy is unmotivated #or otherwise poorly done. i love to hate a good villain if the proper legwork is put into it #because i like observing how others work their craft!!! #but my irritation with stephanie is that she doesn’t work her craft well. it’s shoddy craftsmanship full of retcons or #convenience required for plot that otherwise hold no reasoning in the story #and i can admit that i find the series unsatisfying because it’s marketed as a romance (the romance had little chemistry that could be #understood by anyone that’s not straight. straight romances are always laziest because it’s the ‘norm’ so that equates to chem) #and also it was marketed as having plot when rlly the ‘plot’ was trying to put these characters in weird chemistry-less situations together #so yeah i’ll complain abt the villains being jealous shallow archetypes when it could’ve had depth. #i’ll complain abt a lot. but in the end it’s a silly basic ya romance series that isn’t anything unique #most unique stories will not be found on booktok. i’m sorry #i can show you the beautiful world of horror novels though! #or weird lil 80s fantasy novels that are actually quite long that my dad likes showing me #truly no romance novel will be better than the darkangel trilogy though.. that is what stephanie wanted to write. #but that’s lightning in a bottle ithink. #okay anyway. good night. i worked a long day and i have appts in the morning

[arthur-r]

getting distracted lecturing mean old men about language in instagram comments sections instead of writing my linguistics paper. if only the topic of my paper were “improper” use of language i have written a thousand words already. but instead i have to write about stupid accents i’m so bored

#it’s weird because i love history i love linguistics and broadly speaking i love historical linguistics #but it’s annoying having that be limited to 20th and 21st century english. i don’t care about that part #and we’re so focused on phonology it’s getting exhausting. can we get a little modernist in here please???? shdhdf #i dont know. i want to talk about the sociology of it all. the stigma and associations. the mutability of identity #but instead i am studying the monophthongal ‘‘o’’. is it that hard to explain?? minnesota used to be full of norwegians- done!! #i dont know. just feeling a little bit unsatisfied. and physically ill which isn’t helping #my roommate gets back today so i have to clean so that he doesn’t hate me for being a normal fucking person #his FROG is on my side of the room. he can’t be mad at me for having a cardboard box next to my bed #idk. wish me luck hope you all are well. i’ll be vaguely around plenty throughout the night i hope #me. my post. mine. #delete later

[mansplainmanipulatemalewife]

Having a normal one

#might fuck around and cry about trant #i am. emotionally unstable perhaps #i have extremely deep and complex feelings about him and it's making me so normal #but like sometimes you just see a character and go ''this is the worst version of what i could become'' and it's a whole thing y'know #like. i don't think he's a good person but my obsession with him is kind of personal rather than just like... enjoying him as a character #and that's why i find 90% of fan depictions of him deeply unsatisfying I need to see him at his worst #the hypocrisy and lack of backbone and the weird relationship to empathy and human suffering is all kind of cathartic to me #... for some reason tired brain feels like im gonna get hate for trant kin (derogatory) but alas 😔 #i don't actually know what kinning is really am i using that right

[graham--folger]

hi um,, i don't know if anyone who follows me cares about moon knight, but um,,, this show,,,, holy fuck

#this may seem like a weird thing to say but this show. feels nothing like marvel at all #it feels so original and it actually feels like its making an honest effort to address mental health #and more specifically DID #(not that i'm an authority on that as a person who does not have DID) #in a really poignant way #also oscar isaac's performance is PHENOMONAL #alex's inane ramblings #um yeah i don't know if this makes any sense but consider this a warning for me reblogging a lot of moon knight stuff real quick #episode 5 yall. that shit was intense #i spent the majority of that ep with my head in my hands like holy fuck the soundtrack the acting the flow of the episode what the fuck #you're telling me that marvel did this. that DISNEY did this #(i mean not really. more credit to the creators of this show than mother fucking disney) #jesus christ this show is ridiculously good and i'm really hoping they keep this momentum and don't end the show on a really weird #or unsatisfying note #also PLEASE never incorporate marc and steven into the larger mcu. they deserve better #fuck sorry guys i'll stop rambling now

[esoraluco]

my fav mons 💖

#thats a post i made! #i forgot my pkmn tag do i have one #i love you ultra beasts i love you regis i love you weird pkmn #ignore spectile though idk why it's there. i like it but it's not rly a fav #regular rotom isnt a fav but grass mower one is. love it love it #i love all regis except regidrago.. and regigigas is. unsatisfying #in the sense that there's good ideas in its design (the regi eyes in the yellow part- its six side eyes and arm and legs) #but its colors just feel wrong to me. same for its shiny #i think itd look like more like the other regis if its main body color was a darker color #keep the moss legs but make the green look like luminescent moss #and the sigyls on the arms white or cyan to look like ancient glowing runes #pokemon

[blujayonthewing]

the problem with having a longtime special interest in bushcraft/ wilderness survival but only ever actually going camping in the most casual, ‘pitch a tent at A Campground that you just drive to and park’ context and not really even doing that very often is that I am very bad at prepping to go camping in a way that is remotely pragmatic in any direction

#trying to decide what kind of gear to bring and what additional gear we might need and trying to balance #what's EFFICIENT what's the MOST PRACTICAL what's MULTI USE vs like... our car is gonna be right there. #we don't actually need to worry about gathering and carrying and purifying larger quantities of water because there are... water pumps there #I don't need The Best Knife cause we're packing A CAR I can have multiple tools for multiple purposes!! #cosplaying bushcraft because Actual Wilderness in this country is 99% privately owned and not accessible to me :') #anyway trying to meal plan is weird because the (for nerd reasons) Prepper in me is thinking like #'what to bring that's shelf stable and filling and nutritious in case I can't forage or fish very successfully' #and the practical side of me is like 'you don't have to... do that... that's stupid' #but also if you google camp meals it's a lot of like 'bring all the stuff for a normal meal but cook it on a camp grill' #which feels weird and deeply unsatisfying lmao #having to go to the grocery store for more Normal Fresh Meat every two days while camping feels lame :\ #anyway tl;dr for a theoretically outdoorsy person I am distressingly bad at it thanks to lack of practice and I hate that lol #about me

[scaryhaven]

some people dont seem to realize that as long as a movie is interesting/engaging to most viewers, it doesnt have to have a "point", or a moral lesson, and the "bad guy" doesnt always need to be punished, it is a movie, some movies are just a means for character study, and you dont have to like that kind of film, but i assure you, a lot of people do.

#this reviewer i like shat all over one of my favorite films and one of the reasons was because the girl did a crime and was barely punished #and i get how that could be unsatisfying but i mean really? do you want all of your movies to be the same? i dont get that at all #i want to go for a ride by the writer and director like yeah man where are we going?? oh i wasnt expecting this #i do feel like movies rarely surprise me because ive seen some pretty weird stuff but when it happens im usually pleasantly surprised #MORE WEIRD FILMS PLEASE! MORE UNIQUE VISION AND VOICES PLEASE! MORE PASSION AND INDIVIDULISM PLEASE! #film

[theloveinc]

really only have abt ... five little edits left to finish the dabi fic, but i don't wanna rush the process so it might be another day or so!

#i would actually try to finish but i have to see someone i dont want to see tomorrow #so i'd rather not be any more grumpy than i already am about it #by not going to bed on time-ish #men are so annoying lmao #this is the guy who confessed to me and i rejected #and like. i really did want to stay friends but i just feel very unsatisfied by the friendship #like last time we hung out i didnt feel good and kept trying to go home and he didnt catch the hint at all #and then admitted he's been letting me OVER pay him back for food he's bought when he hasnt even cared if i did #and like. i noticed that and just thought it was unconscious #but he admitted to keeping more money than he needed to? even tho he didn't even want it? #like it was just weird #cuz he was like 'oh u know it's more money for me and u offer.. so...' #but like... when he was ... 'courting' me ig ... he never actually like ... offered to pay for any food or do anything really chivalrous #hence why im not in love with him or thought he liked me. not that i expect that treatment but it helps to .. show signs #oh and another thing he did last time i saw him.. spent the whole time essentially berating me for being stressed abt school #and told me i was thinking abt the whole thing wrong. without actually like. listening or responding to the problems i was having? #we're in the same cohort blab lbal blah #idk it's just been kind of a downer for me and i have to drive an hour to get to where we're meeting and see a movie i dont want to see #and possibly get a dinner i don't want to spend money on #just for him to not let me go home when i want to #AND THEN DRIVE ANOTHER HOUR HOME IN THE DARK #i feel sick lowkey but like #im hoping i'll have fun when im there you know? #dabi where are u when i need u #anyway wish me luck lol #caitie blabs #rant tw

[beeapocalypse]

AUGH karins orphanage dialogue where she says if anyone does you wrong you have to retaliate swiftly + violently. girl you have gotten into so many fist fights for sure

#if her day was just two percent worse the moment daan started teasing her when the train stopped she wouldve tackled him like a dog lol #her backstory of getting kidnapped and living unknowingly With her kidnapper for years in a country she didnt know the language of is-- #--so much man there is no way she feels safe around anyone unless shes seen them at their worst / has grilled them for hours with deeply-- #--uncomfortable questions. unsatisfied to be anything but the one in charge bc if she isnt shes in danger. the sheer DISGUST that comes-- #--thru in her anger! gah ! #shes so interesting. she feels awkward around children bc her only frame of reference of childhood herself is a deeply uncomfortable-- #--and unsettling period of time where nobody believed her about anything but it is SO hard for her to put aside her own-- #--roughness to get down on their level. an entire lifetime where authority figures failed her so now shes-- #--got to fight for every single inch of ground gained #GAH. contrasting that with daans tendency to mold himself into the shape that authority wants from him. they make me SICK !!!!! #daan teasing her abt her bremen unethical experiments theory + his being a doctor putting him in a position of Opposing Authority in her-- #--head that makes her feel like shes touching a hot stove or some shit for a while jsut looking at him when rlly they both have the same-- #--exact issues and have just learned to cope w them differently. the moment karin swallows down that trigger finger anger and has a real-- #--conversation with him just makes being around him all the more uncomfortable bc she is forced to acknowledge he is just a man and not an- #--enemy. constantly going after him and all her snappy anger was directed at this weird + sad victim of the war. like ummmmm oops. but she- #--never apologizes .

[sweetsosos]

huh

#the sofa talks! #its weird #i spent so long thinking that i should be skinnier that my body wasnt good enough that other people wouldnt like it #etc etc etc ad infinitum- #except not. i thought i would always look at my body and find it strange and unwieldy and unsatisfying. #i cant speak on its attractiveness- far too subjective. #but. #i looked in the mirror. really looked. #i put on a corset and instead of thinking it made me hotter i just felt weird. it was a sense of wrongness- what i can only imagine to be #dysphoria. and it almost knocked me over the head. huh? dysphoria? but bwing skinnier is all i had ever wanted. #and i took off the corset and looked and it wasnt an unwieldy ugly or strange body #it was mine. not perfect but so mine that i felt that i belonged in it truly and to change it forcibly would be to try and make myself into #soemthing i am not. #its so weird. so so weird. when did this happen? when did the shift from bad to right happen? #i so rarely look at myself in the mirror so i didnt even notice. #sometimes in pictures i see it and still think it but cameras arent the most objective either. it changes from one to the other and ive #accepted that. #but the mirror? i looked in all the large mirrors in the house and it didnt change. no amount of topical warping in them changed it. #when did my body stop feeling wrong? #its a relief. to know that maybe a specific item of clothing might not be the best but that in the end the body is right for me. #its a relief. to know thay when i look at myself in the mirror i wont cringe away. that my dissatisfaction at my human imperfection wont #weigh on me so constantly. #when did i change? #its like being pushed back. i looked in the mirror and something has changed and the shackles have fallen off my wrist my mind and #i can just exist. #maybe others will see it differently. but my body is just mine. and it fits. #god. i never thought id feel this way.

[favroitecrime]

anyway thinking back to riley though. she was done incredibly dirty by the writers in a lot of ways. like i know we discussed at length the 'maya became riley' storyline (which.... another day) but we don't discuss how they belittled riley so, so much and never offered her a chance to grow in the eyes of those around her. her parents weren't even good parents to her lmao and a lot of their dismissive nature is brushed off for gags and giggles which is crazy. peak riley moments that come to mind were her in girl meets stem. in stem she's the brilliant riley who's top of the class right next to farkle and we can see why. she's brave, loud, proud, and refuses to be belittled and i needed more of that. anyway fuck you michael jacobs

#see everyone coddled riley so much that when she finally went out into the world and didn't immediately shed the persona she crafted during #that time she was insufferable and as lucas would say 'too much' #the world was sunshine and rainbows and no one allowed her to think otherwise because they had a whole thing to stunt her growth!!!! #you're telling me a caring and intelligent person would be like that? she wasn't even topanga weird at times it was just like get a grip! #a lot of the lessons she kept learning were things she'd already learned and it was o #nvm season 3 lowkey being a mess with storylines left and right cause they made up so much and allowed that damned triangle to consume the #show #realistically with their friendship maya and riley would've ditched the triangle AGES ago and focused on something else #it'd be a long time before they'd address it again and by that point their feelings for him would've either grown or faded which would've #been a great indicator because maya and riley would not have let themselves do that!!1 #topanga should not have allowed her daughter (and riley bc it's a joke to even call riley topanga's daughter at this point) to be in that #situation for as long as she was! feelings are complicated but hello your daughter's pride and feelings shouldn't be messed with like that #and it clearly negatively influenced everyone involved or not so what did we end up with!! they were to cocky and thought they would get s4 #which would've helped them continue to flatten the triangle discourse as they had attempted those last few episodes #and instead we're left with an ambiguous and unsatisfying ending #and riley not growing much at all!!!!!!!!!! #i'm screaming!!!! #realistically we would've seen riley try to rise and stay on top right with smackle and farkle but we didn't and ugh #tag: i speakth

[aberooski]

The problem is that I've only been writing when I've gotten really depressed lately which thankfully hasn't happened in a little while now but now I can't find it in me to write much anymore. I'm also just suffering through a major creative block and I can't really do much of anything, and when I manage to try and write or draw something new I hate it and delete it. How do you guys break through blocks like this? Could really use some ideas 🥲

#redrawing the SoTS wardrobe has been kinda helping I think but I still feel just as stuck as I've been #I've got so many fics on the table rn and I can't get anywhere with anything 😭 #I really didn't wanna end up hibernating for a long time between fics again but so far that's happening and it sucks it feels really bad #I also just wanna draw more but I hate everything I try to do #not that I ever really thought I was that good at drawing anyway. I mean I am and I'm not at the same time #it's weird and it makes me hate almost everything I draw. most of my stuff is crap and then there's the ocassional banger it's exhausting #this block is killing me too I hate everything more than usual and just can't come up with anything to draw or write #and if I can come up with something I'm unsatisfied or it's legit not good. equates to getting nothing done at all #help 😭 #abby's fanfic writer power hour #abby attempts to draw #abby's having a crisis

[sorcerersandskillusers]

*SPOILER WARNING CHAPTER 112*

Something is really off about Fyodor's death in the manga

Having just read the latest chapter, I noticed something really weird with Fyodor death scene. It all comes down to Dazai's reaction.

Before Fyodor "death" we see Dazai being all smug and gloating about what Fyodor missed, very typical of his character in general.

But then his mood suddenly shifts completely

He suddenly becomes very sombre, no triumph or gloating, this could be him regretting having to kill Fyodor, but the next few panels make me think there's more too it then that.

Look at Dazai's expression here, the way he seems so suspicious of the hand

I don't think we've ever seen Dazai's eyes like this, they are blank white, it's almost like his mafia eyes but colour inverted. This is not the face of someone who just beat their greatest enemy, or someone mourning their loss, It looks like Dazai is unsatisfied, I can't quite describe it, but there is something more in those eyes.

After Fyodors death Dazai is uncharacteristically quiet and Chuuya even points it out, again, nothing about this says "we won!" it feels like we still lost somehow.

So why would Dazai not want Fyodor dead? While it could be because he was sad to lose the only person who thought like him, while that's possible, I want to explore another idea.

Death did not stop Fyodor.

Dazai could have killed Fyodor when he had him cornered in the cafe if he wanted to, or have someone else kill him so he doesn't break his promise to Oda.

But he didn't, he let Ango arrest him instead, even though Dazai knew what a threat he was, why?

It all comes down to this.

The only way Dazai can counter Dostoyevsky is when he's right there in front of him. So now he's dead, Dazai can't read his actions any more. It's like he's fighting a ghost, all the plans Fyodor will have laid in case he died will be 10x harder to uncover and stop since it's much harder to fight an invisible enemy.

Remember that Dazai did not order the piolet to kill Fyodor, Bram did, and Dazai admitted to not having any say in that deal

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I don't have any final point here, I just wanted to vent these thoughts. Does Fyodor quoting jesus on the cross mean he's going to come back in three days? What's going on with Sigma? I have way more questions than answers and it's driving me nuts

#bsd #bungou stray dogs #bungo stray dogs #bungou stray dogs dazai #dazai #bsd analysis #bungou stray dogs theory #fyodor bsd #fyodor dostoyevsky bsd #bungou stray dogs fyodor #bsd theory #bsd theories #bsd manga spoilers #bsd spoilers #bsd chapter 112