#it happened so often shouldnt i have trauma anniversary every week

[anthillkid]

 am i having a trauma anniversary for something i cant remeber??? is that why im like this??? i thought i was having a good day. I had barely thought about truama. id just been a bit paranoid about a man following me in the park after he did gross things. id even been able wto write some!. and now im just shaking and my eyes keep fgoing out of focus and im so dizzy its hard to walk it feel slike i’ll pass out and i feel so weak ad my heart wont stop beating out of my chest its been over and hour it wont stop i cant calm down. i was doing good. is my body just breaking down????? will i continye to be like this for forever nw??? did my body stop reacting by becoming nasous and now i get this instead??? i dont want to i dont

#it didnt help that so many p/rn and pr/ana blgs interacted wit one of my vent edits so i delted it #i dont like deleting my vent things #it makes me sad #im so scared i dont want any of the p/rn blogs to message me i dont want them to lok at me i blocked them butmaybe some are just looking wit #without interacting #it doesnt make sense if its bc of truama anniversary #it happened so often shouldnt i have trauma anniversary every week #maybe its with hound i dont rememberwhen it happened #maybe it was around this time of year #i dont remember #cat.exe speaks #pleasedont reblog