#it is 5 am

[errorscriber]

what lies beneath the facade? an observation of kazui mukuhara's face

my attempt on trying to analyze kazui's feelings! (not sure if this has been pointed out yet im sorry if someone made a similar post. this post has very, VERY brief/minor discussion of sui btw)

im sure we all know by now that this is kazui's true feelings about his marriage; he hates it, and shows a self deprecating smile to the audience. i think, that the right side of his face where his bangs are longer is where kazui shows his true feelings to us. im gonna put some scenes where i think it's the most damning (while there are other pics I think applies, they may look like im reaching a little, so I won't share those). this is why in some scenes in half/Cat, you may notice that Kazui's expression can look unnatural where this observation is at play.

hell, even in the Cat album cover here, he covers the side of his face where his bangs are longer. this man is trying his best not to show anyone what he really feels. letting the door itself do the talking, so why should he? signifying that he at least, cannot wait what to show Milgram, to show us, what secrets are behind that door. (but also channeling an air of uncertainty doing so)

as well as in Undercover, i think it's very interesting that the creators make it a point to show both halves of kazui. when his mugshot gets taken, both of his sides are shown to us. one where he's smiling, and one where he's not. notice how his left side is where he's grinning and his right side is where he's serious?

we only catch his serious expression with one glimpse before he realizes he's being observed and quickly shows us a smile. (then during that scene where they show us which location correlates to which prisoner, the light is shining on the right side of his body. also, kazui is the only prisoner where they show both of his side profiles. the others show 3/4 of their faces)

before i continue, thank you so much for reading in advance!! >_< anyways keep marching on and keep reading this cool post of mine!

more pictures where they emphasise on his "right" being his true self in Cat, where his eyes are shown on the start and end.

half:

when I took a closer look at these images... was kazui more unhappy being around the long haired woman Vs him and his wife?

left is kazui with his wife, right is kazui with the long haired woman

this next one really gets me a lot. the most clear cut observation that tells us the other half of his face is where he expresses his true self.

he tears up for one split second, a ball of teardrop forming on his eye. what was something on that stage that made him so emotional?

then he quickly looks away to see something else catching his attention (which was the apple) after he stood up and looked forwards, kazui genuinely looks shocked/surprised.

knowing this observation can also give us a different perspective to some other scenes in half. like this one:

his wife touching his right side of his face. multiple questions pop up in my head when i see this scene.

was she ready to hear kazui out? was she catching onto him that he was hiding a secret/hiding his feelings? or was she trying to comfort that side of his face, as if she was saying "whatever it is you want to tell me, im sure i can handle it." to him?

hinako tries to understand him. tries to "grasp" his true face, his "true self". but kazui can only give a weak, depressing grin, as he gently puts her palm away, balling his fingers around hers. he doesn't know if she's actually ready for it. even though she's gentle with how she holds his "true side".

as we all know, before they zoomed in to this shot of kazui putting her hand down, their silhouettes were blurry. if you weren't close enough, you almost thought she was choking and suffocating him. not only kazui felt like the marriage made him feel like he was in a rut, he was afraid of hinako "suffocating"/disliking his true feelings (or side), even though she is holding it with care. hence why he was putting her hand down.

of course we know it didn't turn out the way he wanted it to turn out, from the next scene here.

kazui is clearly depressed towards the outcomes. at the end of half, his right side is not very happy at all, despite his left side making it look like he's grinning.

everything is all a mess now.

cat:

after finding out hinako wanted to "touch and caress", kazui genuinely seems interested in this thought and was sincere about what he was feeling here, so he pursues her in hopes those feelings are fulfilled. interestingly, the lyrics "so, it's wrong?" are on the screen when he shows the camera his right side.

when he proposes to her, he still remains looking at her in this direction, although we can't see how his expression looks like. unfortunately for hinako though, this is the last time kazui ever looks at her on this side.

during the confession scene, his right side is blocked by the cup, so we actually don't know what he was feeling completely when he asked the question.

after this scene, we can finally see his right side again, but it's well hidden by kazui blocking that side of his face with a hand and cigarette. giving us a sense of mystery of what transpired after he asked the question.

kazui is entertaining his wife with magic tricks while showing his left side to the camera. his "fake" side is what he wants to show to her and to all of us.

but his left eye squints as he realizes about his dream. his left eye squinting is telling us that his fake side is breaking apart. then, kazui drops down to his knees. take note of the rope falling down on his left lap. after getting back up (from what seems like kazui stumbling from drinking 4 cups of alcohol), he rubs the right side of his face. he is really frustrated with himself here.

with all of the information we have so far, we can interpret this as kazui desiring to remove his fake, other half of himself (this is the only object we don't see when kazui is showing off his magic tricks, and ropes can be associated with suicide). he is given a choice to remove his left side, his false side, which is why that rope fell down that direction.

as he's about to tell hinako the truth, he transitions from

> lighting a cigarette, his eyes hidden from us

> kazui facepalming himself. as a smoke in a shape of a noose is formed. remember the rope i talked about earlier?

even though the rope initially landed on his left lap, the noose is angled to his right side. he's grasping his right side of the face as well. this, here, is kazui being ashamed of his "true self". if he could, he would want to remove his true self if it meant having to keep lying to people, or if it meant making people happy. kazui is going through with telling hinako the truth, while this scene tells us he is hesitating to do so and is 100% expecting for it to hurt him and her.

> he lets down his hand.

showing hinako and us, the audience, a very unique expression where he's snide, mischievous... almost mocking, yet at the same time, really depressed and frustrated with it all. from hinako's pose in half touching kazui's "true side", this is his answer; she is not going to like it one bit.

a stark difference in feelings. kazui looks like he's going to say or do something harmful, but his other side tells us otherwise. he didn't want things to be like this. also, it contrasts with the final scene in half very well.

when he bites on the dove, he doesn't look that satisfied doing so.

in this climax, it seems like kazui himself doesn't know what's what anymore, letting the adrenaline of telling his feelings take over him. letting both his "true" feelings and his "lying" self beat him up, because at this point of no return, what difference will his fake and real self make anyway?

i really love how we can't tell if his bloodied lips are frowning because he's shocked, distressed, or if he's grinning ear to ear, happy and glad to have finally told the truth. even in this scene you can tell that the right side of his lips is less happy than his left where his mouth is more elevated and smiling.

what does he feel now after all of this chaos? well, let's look back at his right side of his face again...

the MV ends with this shot of his right eye, slowly zooming in.

empty, emotionless, forlorn, and distant...

it's almost like he's staring and watching something at the sky after something fell down.

#kazui mukuhara #yuugram log #ahghhha aughh im really proud of this post i hope it sounds coherent lol #milgram theories #milgram analysis #milgram theory #mukuhara kazui #cw sui mention #it is 5 am

[nguyenfinity]

Switch is back after their Valentine's event for White Day to bring you Magic for your special someone(s)! Show your friends and fans a little appreciation in return, whether you're sailing for a Romancing Cruise or just for lifting their spirits A little bit UP!!

art-only below the cut!

#enstars #ensemble stars #switch #enstars switch #natsume sakasaki #sora harukawa #tsumugi aoba #enseason #it is 5 am #i have been rendering. since like. 6 PM give or take #with breaks and snacks yeah #shoutout to bean for proofreading my caption #it's so silly i'm so proud of it #it's so interesting drawing units i don't normally draw #throttling mugi for his mop head tho. natsume's right. he's fluffy but at what cost. #anyways this one's for you switchPs o7 (shoutout neppy) #ngl one of the subtitles was gonna be 'that guy sure can break dance' but the lyric was cuter and evened out the spacing more #also the n in the masthead survives yey #fun facts uhhhhhh #looked up their favorite foods on the wiki to make accurate drinks for them #natsume's is a mango fruit tea (didn't make it translucent tho whoops) with strawberry popping boba since he likes 2 flavored foods #sora's is a green apple blend with crystal boba #and mugi has brown sugar milk tea with boba 'cause he likes warm and sweet things (he is a basic guy and that is fair) #see i did my homework (watch as i didn't do enough hw and like one of them hates boba or something sgdkfhjsgjdfhkj) #i have more design notes but i can put those in the outfit post hjgfgjhdfgjhg #macarons are given to someone special/a valued friend for white day :]

[ghostatas]

Baghera :(((((

THOUGHTS ON LUCIE FROM OPQ

Sweetie, queen, she was trying so hard but the dice rolls were just not on her side. Made for great angst but still ;((

Lucie, at the beginning, quarrels with Amy, calling her a brat and spoiled because she stole her water. It was boiling and this little kid just runs in front of her and steals the last of the water, like what!!! Rude!

So, lucie starts complaining to Amy and her dad. But she's not being exactly rude? She's telling the dad that he needs to teach her daughter manners and to be respectful to their elders, something I think we were all taught as a child. Right now, Lucie doesn't care about Amy at all. She's just some random bratty kid that she'll never see again OK??? Why can't she be upset?

But it's not the last time they see eachother, not even close. They get trapped together, in a very dangerous, scary environment.

Lucie is a free-spirited character. She is smart and logical, but she is curious, she likes to adventure, experience and learn new things. It's probably how she met Diego; they are similar, twin flames in a way. Diego seems to be the more timid one of the duo, but will always support and follow lucie. Lucie is a leader; she knows her self worth, her importance and she knows she is smart.

She takes the lead in investigating during most of the tasks. When she sees Amy again, the situation is too chaotic to really process her being there, but she's not just going to leave her out to die so they all go in the control room together. They don't really interact much I think, but hey, they have a mutual dislike of Benito so that's cool! Amy also almost ends up saving them too by the end of the first episode, but ends up breaking down just before they are safe. Luckily everyone was fine, Jeffrey was pushing it a little but I swear he's probably a munchkin with his epic, mysterious backstory and his power of friendship (RiP wallace) ig. So yeah everyone is fine.

Amy is still crying by the time they return to Mikhail and get new clothes. I think this is the part when Lucie truly starts to care about Amy, or at least holds herself responsible for her. This is a lot for an adult to bear, let alone a little kid who still hasn't even processed her fathers DEATH, and who knows very little about their situation because no one has the time to explain. Amy is lost and scared and sad and confused and angry and upset and so very lost-

I think Lucie empathised with her in some way. Lucie is a free spirit. She lived travelling, she lived freedom. I imagine her childhood to be similar to Amys (before that entire trauma-fest). I think they all in a way see a part of themselves in Amy, who symbolises humanity in a way.

Freedom. Passion. Peace. Joy. Recklessness.

They cannot afford to have any of that here. Lucie wants to protect any of it that is left. She wants to leave too, to preserve her own humanity and life.

When Amy leaves Mikhail, Lucie is the only one rushing out to help her. She goes immediately, not a second delay. Amy has also started to trust her, so she plays along and is quiet no matter how confused she is. Lucie dies for Amy

Lucies last thoughts are not how she is happy that the others lived. She is regretful, she is mournful, because she wanted to survive with them. She wanted to leave with them. She wanted to survive.

She has lost everything she has stood for.

She can no longer travel, or explore, or theorise, or learn new things. She is bitter that she is going to die, yet despite that she chose NOT to sacrifice Amy for herself (unlike a CERTAIN SOMEONE *cough cough* Carol *cough cough*). That speaks volumes to me.

Lucie values herself, yet she chose Amy, a kid she met only a few hours ago and disliked at first. She faced torture. She didn't even get to die quickly, no, she was in horrible, excruciating pain before she blacked out and died.

I can't put it into words correctly how it makes me feel, and how I think of Lucie. Lucie did not want to sacrifice herself. She did not want to be a hero. She wanted to live, desperately. Yet in that final moment, where she could've lived, she chose to save someone else instead. I was fully expecting her to abandon Amy at the final moment. Yet she didn't....

And THIS, LADIES, GENTLEMEN AND OTHERS, is why we stan the QUEEN, BAGHERA HOLY SHIT.

*cough* yeah I have a lot of feelings about this. I might come back to it layer if I can find the words but i doubt it. Rip Lucie, the absolute GOAT of opq (I would say MVP too but that titles reserved for Jeffrey, I mean did you see him during the final part????? Holy shit) but yeah that

#ordem paranormal quarentena #opq #opq lucie #this is just a word dump s #dont expect it to be legible lol #it is 5 am #and i have thoughts #gg cellbit for decimating my sleep schedule for the next month

[weirdstrangeandawful]

TW: medical bullshit rant (I seriously don't know how to trigger warn this, see tags I guess)

As someone who is disabled and largely undiagnosed with complex health issues, the typical team whump setup with a medic makes me want to sob my bloody heart out.

Why do they get to speak to a medic the moment something feels slightly off? Why do they get the choice whether or not to be stoic? Why do they get to build the sort of relationship where they're believed the moment they bring something up? Why do they get support between appointments? Why do they have a way of contacting the medic whenever they need?

Why don't they have to choose which health issues are most important at every appointment? Why don't they have to desperately cram their questions into a 15 minute time slot? Why don't they have to wait months between appointments? Why don't they have to worry about whether their results and chart notes will get lost? Why don't they have to worry about how much they'll have to pay if they're in a different location? Why don't they lose access to their doctor the moment they are in a different region? Why don't they have to worry whether or not they'll run out of medication before their next appointment? Why don't...

WHY ARE THEY TREATED LIKE THE FUCKING BADASS WARRIORS ON TOP OF THE BASIC HUMAN BEINGS THAT THEY ARE?!

#rant post #it is 5 am #I have an appointment today #I hate my life #whump #team whump #medical whump #medical trauma #medical gaslighting #medical ableism #if you are comparing this to my post from 2 hours ago #yes I have a mood disorder

[sleepless-crows]

guess who just had a bracket remove again hehe

#i can take a picture of it its right here #on the table #because #i am not fit for braces #it is 5 am

[plushyluke]

he caught the drumstick with such ease. they’ve rehearsed 🥺🥺

#you just know it’s not his first time… #luke hemmings #now s*ank him with it #lashtoncore #lrh #lashton #5sos #ashton irwin #afi #bottom luke #calum hood #michael clifford #cth #cinnamoroll!! #mgc #swan spams #lashton is fucking alive #i am shaking #it is 5 am #pompom and cinna

[delinquencyzine]

Earth Song

Sometimes, in my dreams,

I swear I can hear the earth before.

Before the noise around me grew so large covering my ears was normal.

Before cars and horns and planes and phones became background noise,

Even before trains.

I want to hear the earth sing the way it was meant to,

Before everyone decided to mess with it,

To cover it up.

I wonder how spiritual it would be

To be in a field

Where birds and insects that no longer roam fly and buzz.

Where there was nothing in the distance,

Not a couple miles away from a house or road.

To be sure there was no false hum in the chorus

To be able to see all the stars like we were meant to.

I love this life, as awful and cruel as it is I love it

I cannot imagine a life where I cannot tell my soulmate how much I love him as much as I’d like

But is that the issue?

Is life meant to have so much commodity?

So many choices?

So many bigger pictures?

I hope it’s not the issue.

But sometimes I wonder if my heart yearns for a village.

A type of love mostly lost.

I love the stars, but I fear somewhere in the back of my brain that we were not meant to know them up close.

I wonder if I’d be up all night with worry in a different time.

How much of who I am is synthetic?

Is it sad to hope my ancestors also struggled?

Is it sad to be jealous, when all they wanted was to be more?

Maybe they didn’t need to be more.

I don’t want to think about it.

I want to sit in a field with my soulmate. I want to plant my roots. I want to look at the stars, and listen to the song.

#weird poetry #poetry #it is 5 am #and I am having big thoughts #i need to sleep #dark academia

[kanrix]

I'm as right as I can be; I have the greatest and most righteous opinions in the world.

I'm also always right no matter what, so yeah thank you and excuse me.

Actually this is invalid, *I'm* always right and you have never given me any reason of why sans is the "sexiest" pile of bones, I mean, even with it I'd know you're still wrong. Good luck next time friend

#ask #anonymous #it is 5 am #help 😭

[dizzybutterflyanons]

hey guys sorry for being logged out for a few days what. did I miss . My tummy aches

#🦋 talks #guhhhhhhhhghrh #I’m so sleepy #it is 5 am #someone please #help me

[gessshoku]

Just finished watching Dracula on Netflix (the shows mom watch just feel me in man)

#it is 5 AM #the show honestly gives me a new perspective on death #also my girl Agatha love her fr fr

[fishbones-braineater]

Narrator for the character meme!

NARRATOR TSP MY BELOVED

DOUBLE BINGO LETS GET THIS BREAD GAMERS

#it is 5 am #help #tsp #tsp narrator #tspud narrator #tspud

[ebonysquib]

That sure is a username

#pronouncing this with an overly embellished German accent made me crack up laughing #it is 5 am

[jewishfalin]

i don't know if this is insane but hopefully it gives you something to think about but like...what pizza toppings are ed and oz having??? are they like doing a half and half and arguing??? please i need to know ;-;

If they r ordering a pizza they will absolutely argue about it and end up doing half n half but if Ed's making pizza Oswald will let his girl go wild in the kitchen

(Disclaimer I am not a pizza expert)

I think Ed would be picky about pizza toppings and probably just get cheese or perhaps a margherita pizza

Oswald my darling my beloved he deserves the best pizzas out there and so he shall get it anyways I think he would like some veggies perhaps some meats even I believe he is a deep dish pizza enjoyer

If either of these guys find a green bell pepper anywhere near their pizza someone will die

(Also they r both lactose intolerant)

#gotham #ed nygma #oswald cobblepot #uhhh i had 2 look up what pizzas exist ngl i #it is 5 am #i have not slept #I want them 2 have a pizza date so bad now #i bet if ed just ordered cheese tho oswald would b like r u sure babe u dont want any veggies no protein babe #r u sure ugh fine well im getting u a side of something #they hold hands om the toilet when they have to take a dairy shit 😔💔

[gyuncakes]

Why is this not being talked about?!?!?!?!??!?? Awwryjoyrewdibrtu

Literally scary and serious Daikoku fooling around 🥺

#Noragami #manga #anime #noragami manga #daikoku #my post #it is 5 am #sigh

[ultraluvsu]

Use your god damn words.

To quickly speak on deliber-ance. Everything I Do is deliber-ate. It is absent of cause and generous in intention; intent being the essence of all action. Actions- acts, there of. Acts. What acts, lack? What acts lack? What acts lack, are accountability. I care much for them, not. So sure, how- that they will be remembered... And recounted integrally?

Use your god damn words.

#alt lit #alt #alternative #soft goth #alt aesthetic #poetry #prose #verse #dark prose #fragments of my mind #it is 5 am #dark academia #literature #insanity #this is insanity #stop the insanity #tumblr #tumblr asf

[rosicheeks]

Is you wet

I is

#yes sir you are correct #it is 5 am #and I should go to bed #but instead I’m playing with my lush #and making audios 😇 #ask #answered