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You remember how that concept art for sw had force-sensitive padme (as a side-effect of being pregnant with the twins) with visions, and also of her showing up to mustafar with a knife?
Yeah, that fucks. But I mean, this would be a padme looking at her two great loves, both of them slipping from her grasp, and chooses… not anakin. Which is very different from my beloved vision of canon padme, which is to say - a good woman, to be sure. But not an angel. (and can we blame her for it? Perhaps from a distance.)
So Padme dies on Mustafar, choking on her husband's love.
Padme wakes in the bed of her marriage, visions of death like ash on her tongue. Her husband sleeps next to her, face soft and open in the moonlight - not for long. Anakin's always been a light sleeper.
She doesn't know what her face looks like, as he wakes. But he's asking Padme, love, what's wrong. Reaches out a hand to comfort her.
She flinches from it. From him.
She regrets it immediately, of course - her Anakin would ever hurt her. Just nightmares, she says, it was just a nightmare. Buries her face in his shoulder before that expression of surprise can be replaced by -- anything else.
She knows he's dangerous, of course, the same way any Jedi is, all power crackling just beneath the skin. But the point of being a Jedi is that they would never use it - not on anyone who didn't deserve it.
The hand cradling her shoulder is warm.
Dreams pass in time. She sends him off to the temple just before the sun rises, watches the plume of his tail lights till she loses him in the rest of Coruscant's morning traffic. Puts on her outfit for the Senate. Puts her head down and works.
She meets with her committee just after noon, the handful of delegates representing thousands sitting about her living room. If she hesitates to go the Jedi - Bail agrees as well. And the odd turning-over she feels in her gut when their committee meets with the Chancellor - well, it's not unusual for a pregnancy. She hides it with her usual grace.
It means nothing. It doesn't mean a thing. She puts her head down, tucks away her fear and her fury, and works.
And then - and then -
Smoke rises in the distance.
Padme runs. She'll never make it like this but - she crashes into Bail in the hallways of the Senatorial apartments, and then both of them are in his Tantive, speeding down the road to the temple.
There are clones. Padme is fast, and desperate, and a damn good shot when she needs to be. She doesn't - can't- look at the bodies in the hallways. She makes it to the inner chambers, ducks silent behind a doorframe, and there -
There's Anakin, 'saber a violent slice of blue in hand. In front of him there are -- children.
One hand clutched to her belly, she runs and falls to the ground between them.
"Anakin," Padme cries, "Anakin, please. Don't do this." She begs him to come with her, leave all this and raise their children, and for a second it seems as if it might work. "Come back to me -- I love you."
But love won't save her, he says.
He whips around, a bolt pinging off his 'saber, and she gets a flash of Bail's pale drawn face around the doorframe. Then she hits the wall with a crack, and she can't breathe -
Padme dies in the Jedi temple, choking on nothing.
Padme wakes in the bed of her marriage, husband sleeping next to her.
So basically, I asked myself, how do we go from canon!Padme to concept art!Padme? the tenative answer: brute force application of extreme time loop shenanigans. girl, aren't you tired of going apeshit :) don't you want to go another flavour of apeshit :)
Imagine you’re just at dinner with your friend and his parents, and all of a sudden his mother’s face just starts cracking open. I’d be horrified, too. I do love that there apparently was no reaction to a second fucking jaw? What they’re willing to accept is so funny to me.
Of course, since this is all very cartoon-y, some of the horror is lessened, but imagine if it were more realistic.
I'm not trying to start anything here but I'm genuinely curious/confused. I get shipping destiel as in oh yeah they're cute and flirty but how can you seriously ship them like they're so in love and would die for each other because I don't see it. I guess Cas would die for Dean (I also believe he would do the same for Sam or even for some random person because the guy has some seriously overblown sense of duty, not unlike Dean, except it kind of is but not the point here) but I don't think Dean would do the same for him. More importantly, I truly believe Dean is incapable of having a long-term (as in more than one hour) romantic relationship because he could never even pretend to care about anybody more than he cares about Sam. If he had to choose between saving Sam and literally anybody else, Sam would always win. (Although you might argue that in the first season or at least pre-series, John might have been more important but I don't think I have enough information to really judge that.) I'm not saying Castiel isn't his friend or that he's not important to him. I'm also not saying Dean's attracted to or in love with Sam in any way because I don't think he is, but you don't have to love somebody romantically to value their life more than somebody else's life's not that simple (or (pseudo-)romantic, this isn't Romeo and Juliet).
In other words - how can anybody seriously think destiel could ever be cannon while Sam is still breathing? And even if Sam died, Dean wouldn't just stop being Dean. He'd probably sacrifice himself (can we call it indirect suicide because that's pretty much what it would be), throw himself headfirst into some reckless fight with a vampire or some other monster and be happy to die because I don't think he even knows how to live without his brother anymore. Regardless of whether Cas was still alive or not. But if it was the other way around, I don't think Dean would deal with Castiel's death any worse than with Charlie's or Benny's or any other character's that was important to him but wasn't Sam (again John might be the exception here but there's more to it than just him being Dean's dad, it's also Dean blaming himself for his death).
Fanon is one thing, I don't care what you ship, but people are so adamanet that Dean and Castiel are in love and it's so obvious and I don't get how we can watch the same show and get such different impressions of what kind of guy Dean is and what his priorities are??? Especially because, while I'm not crazy about Castiel, he seems to be aware of what a weird, codependent relationship Sam and Dean have, and I can't even imagine him wanting to get between them. He's not blind, nor is he an idiot, I can imagine him wanting to be with Dean, but he'd know that Sam always comes first and I think he'd be cool with that (not sure I can say the same about Dean but again that's not that important right now).