good morning, your unprompted dot shitpost of the week is the REAL reason this man could never legally be allowed to be Keeper is that I’d absolutely kill for him without batting an eye as soon as he struck this pose and it’d be the ruin of the Dark Council absolutely unstoppable, if you can’t beat them, look better than them or smth idk
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sometimes u just gotta listen to the music u listened to when u were 15, yknow, to feel something
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couple folks let me know they think i'm hot lately. my brain chemistry is changed. it helps that it's easy to have a crush on them. but it's chill im totally normal about it though. anyway it's been a while but i'm still thinking about it but im really cool about it and also different.
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Moral purity OCD ever send u into a spiral so bad at work u nearly miss lunch and don't do ur literal job
Instead u spend literally hours reading critical book reviews and working yourself up because oh god oh no someone said something was problematic about a book/show/etc that you love deeply and now ur brain is convinced ur a terrible bad demon person? For consuming the Problematic Content? Even tho in your saner moments you realize this is stupid and the internet has NO capacity for nuance and SURELY there's a middle ground between "I said this was problematic (without basis) and youre morally impure for enjoying it" and "there's is no such thing as privilege or racism or appropriation" SURELY
I also have to stop letting my flight or fight send me into obsessive spirals it's like. Who tf cares if this internet person with poorly formed opinions thinks [thing you love] is problematic! 1) they're probably not correct, but formed out of bad faith internet discourse 2) even if they are correct, problematic isn't contagious and you aren't morally impure for reading smthn supposedly problematic 3) your OCD is morphing a genuine concern about cultural and racial issues into self flagellation because ur white, the same way it takes minor tenents of Christianity and spins them into ways for you to punish and/or damn yourself. 4) disagreement doesn't need to be conflict or mean your bad and wrong. The internet has no nuance and treast disagreement as moral impurity. You were raised in a dysfunctional family where you still live and were trained to see the slightest disagreement or tone of voice as a danger so that is also making the obsessions and fear worse. It's a brain disease.
But also WHAT IF???
Tldr My specific neuroses feed on and magnify the internets lack of nuance or ability to think critically making me convinced I'm a terrible bad person for believing in my ideals and my heart and duty and Goodness, and this leads to a existential pessimism spiral where everything is meaningless and I have no purpose but ALSO I have to punish myself and go to great lengths to prove I'm not A Bad Person because nothing is worse than being a Bad Person (defined by what metrics? Oh that would be too easy, it changes every OCD episode)
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