#it just feels so disrespectful tbh

[sergle]

s3 of witcher is so bad but i DO black out during every scene with mahesh jadu in it so at least it can do that for me

#i stopped watching bc i just couldn't do it anymore but i do still have a sickness looking at that motherfucker #sergle.txt #NO disrespect to our boy henry of course but ppl focus too much on him as eye candy in this show. when mahesh is there #looking. fucking. crazy. #granted s2 had problems but i was still like. i was prepared to keep vibing #in particular it just wasn't as tight and the special effects were just Worse #and the girl who plays siri was Acting Too Hard and it got a little distracting. like i could feel her acting #but she's older now so it makes sense that she would want to try and like... show her acting chops #anyway yeah. that man. that fucking man #please don't be mad at me if you liked s3 btw i promise that it does not matter.. #they DID fix geralt's contacts in s3. but I liked his neelix eyes tbh

[cheekblush]

i'd rather be friendless than to constantly have my boundaries disrespected

#i am so frustrated and annoyed rn #at the beginning of this year my ex best friend reached out to me and i cautiously let her back into my life #things were going great but now she turned a harmless topic into a full blown discussion even though i told her multiple times that i no.. #.. longer want to discuss this matter but she kept going & then accusing me of continuing the discussion as well #and tbh i really should've stopped engaging with her messages much sooner but it's so annoying when someone sends you lots of messages with #their opinion although i mentioned several times that i want to drop the topic & then i'm just expected to shut up lol #she didn't respect my wish to move and made a huge fuss about nothing #i stopped replying to her since yesterday bc i really had enough & i should've just left her on read much sooner #but her messages were truly annoying me #her last message now says that we often have different opinions & she thinks she's more optimistic than me & that makes it hard for her to.. #talk to me..... i was so dumbfounded when i read that this morning #our initial conversation was about whether a song is more pop or rnb....... & she twisted that into me being negative lmao #she was so obsessed with being right that she couldn't drop the topic even though i told her how exhausting the convo was for me #and like it's such an irrelevant topic... imagine being that obsessed with always being right 😭 #idc anymore i'd rather be a negative bitch than someone who disrespects others' boundaries <3 #i thought she changed for the better but she's so self-righteous opinionated & stubborn it's awful #i calmly told her that her behavior is bothering me & we easily could've just moved on but she kept going on and on #and she herself admitted that it's one of her flaws that she always has to be right & she's being petty & yet she didn't stop 🤡 #even writing all this down feels so silly to me bc the initial topic was sooooo trivial #am i supposed to feel sorry for thinking a song was rnb rather than pop???? like go touch some grass please #she even sent me a screenshot of the wikipedia page of the song to prove that it's rnb & it literally said synth pop & rnb lol #but i wasn't even mad about that her not respecting my wish to drop the topic & move on even though i said it multiple times really pissed.. #me off though.... like girl just let it go it's not that deep!!! #but apparently i'm negative & pessimistic for having a different opinion than her 🤷🏼‍♀️ #like imagine starting a fight over smth SO IRRELEVANT but i'm the negative one sure lmao #okay i just needed to get this off my chest bc i don't have anyone to talk to about this & it's just ridiculous to me #☁️

[toxictranny]

hey sisters, i know u (my fans) were wondering what i’m gonna wear to my ex stepdad’s wedding because i’m best man and there’s gonna be 200 ppl there who haven’t seen me since i was single digits so it’s a rly big event BUT i’ve got no clue what the fit will be because the dress code he gave me: wear whatever you want. GDNKE.???ATFJJF...!!! ARE YOU OH-FUCKING-KAY???? WHATZVER I WANT ??????THEY WONT EVEN GIVE ME A COLOUR SCHEME WHAT THE FLCUKC ALso no i can’t wear a wedding dress it was the first thing i thought of but i asked my mom and she said that would b mean :/

#his estranged brother’s gonna be part of the wedding party so i’m ?! not sure how this will go. #they’re estranged because his brother has some sort of religious belief that lead to him hating me/my mom for having a kid with another guy. #stepdad met me when i was nearly 3 and his brother met me+my mom 4 years after that #the brother’s thing was that my mom/me are devilish or whatever #he also said shit about us stealinh my stepdad’s money but my mom was the breadwinner #tbh i don’t really understand this stance but it’s very common. he just Doesn’t Like Me. we’re not #biologically related and that’s literally the only reason #he thinks it’s disrespectful for a woman to divorce her husband first of all but second to let another man raise her kid #yawn. gross asf. BJT LIKE HOW DO THEY FEEL ABOUT ME BEING LIKE THIS?! #everyone knew i had a Condition ™️ but i didn’t uh #do anything? lol #i was seen and treated as A Little Weird. not like a third gender #we could all tell i was going with the sex and pronouns assigned to me simply because that’s what i had #so i THINK i’m gonna be valid but rly truly if someone tries to explain why there are only two genders to me i’m going toLOSE ITTTTTT #ooh i can wear a wedding dress to the rehearsal dinner lol #my stepmom got me a neon green suit jacket .? so #maybe that’ll come out #toxictranny

[organized-chaotic-disaster]

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#personal #ask to tag #I posted on a subreddit asking for opinions/input for something I’m thinking of doing soon #and the mods removed the post without clear explanation #when I messaged them asking why it was removed they were like #did you read our links? #and in fact I did #so they’re like #what would you do if xyz happened? #so I answer honestly #and now they go okay go back read the links and tell us why that plan would be awful #like???? #am I crazy or is this just. kinda wild?? #idk I feel like they’re being very patronizing to me 😅 #I’m genuinely asking a question and it feels like they’re telling me to go fuck myself basically #idk am I crazy?? is feeling disrespected a fair response bc that’s how I feel?? #me: communicates clearly what I’m thinking and asking #them: vague answer #also them: solve my riddle— wrong answer reread the things you’ve already read and tell me why you’re stupid and wrong #and like. I asked ‘was it bc of how what I said (x) could be interpreted as y? bc I didn’t mean y #I meant x #and they just. don’t answer #idk I’m kind of buggin tbh

[cangrellesteponme]

she took gaslight gatekeep girlboss to the next level, stan her for that

#we've reached a point where i do not look at references to draw kuro characters anymore #because i know i'll disrespect canon anyway #so here. have very long-haired hannah. i'm aware it should be shorter. but i feel in my soul that she's made for length. #and yes i know her hair should be bluer- again i feel in my soul that this is right just for this piece. #i should draw her more tbh #kuroshitsuji #black butler #kuroshitsuji fanart #black butler fanart #hannah annafellows #my art

[handfulofmuses]

When you dislike their kid but they are alright

#;deceitful cobra (ushari) #i forgot about that #and honestly? #makes sense I guess #they just wanna chill and do their own thing #Ushari just wants to nap and do his own thing #i can’t see him having beef with these two personally #and tbh even though it’s just a little scene #that confirms to me #grouchy is not a standard emotion with Ushari #he just doesn’t like getting disrespected or trampled on etc #however #i feel like the two of them would have words with him if they found out it was Ushari‘s idea to bring back Scar #was he bullied by Bunga and he finally had enough? #absolutely and Bunga never really faced the consequences for his actions towards Ushari #Bunga is a kid but honestly he gets away with…a lot #but that doesn’t excuse bringing Scar back and dooming everyone else in the process #Timon vs Ushari would have been interesting because #meerkats are immune to venom #and also eat snakes #…omg uncle max vs Ushari tho #grumpy old man vs grumpy old man #granted most of bunga‘s and ushari‘s encounter are accidentally rather than bullying #but also #since my headcanon is Ushari used to complain towards Simba before he took matters for himself #just Timon putting Bunga aside to talk with him like his mom used to do #mainly because Bunga‘s and Ushari‘s encounters kinda remind him of himself and his uncle #so he kinda understands where Bunga is coming from

[chaddicus]

see the longer I play with my understanding of my transmasc experience and dysphoria, the more I grapple with the conflict between mocking fragile masculinity for refusing to allow the use of 'feminine' things vs knowing more and more keenly how much dysphoria I would and do get whenever someone associates something I do or use or wear with femininity. and no amount of people insisting that using "feminine" things doesn't invalidate someone's gender, man or otherwise, seems to have any impact on that dysphoria

we do need to untangle cultural perceptions of masculine vs feminine and respect for a person's gender, manhood in particular in this discussion, but I almost feel like knowing that means it's my responsibility to refuse to engage with those ideas for my own gender — and the problem is that knowing this is not the common understanding means knowing that other people *will* associate my use of feminine things as some sort of contradiction with any masculinity I may wish to express or identify with, and no amount of understanding the concepts and holding the principles can erase the revulsion and pain and fear I feel at the thought of people associating me with some concept of womanhood that I adamantly *do not experience or identify with.* fuck.

#I don't think I can be free of the trappings of fragile masculinity #until such a time that flouting them *won't* directly result in my transmasc identity & experience being disrespected #and especially as I cannot medically transition the way I want to #my expression and presentation is the *only* way to give people any impression of masculinity about me #and so choosing to incorporate things consider unmasculine into those just. fucks me up I guess #all this brought about bc I've decided I want some sort of bag to carry a notebook +pencils etc around in #but I am not willing to carry a purse. and so the thought occurred to me to look up masculine messenger bags or something #immediately triggering a mocking thought about fragile masculinity #followed by. all of this. #this sucks. I hate it here. #can we fix masculinity so I don't have to be afraid of people misgendering me more for carrying a purse or something #tbh making it alt has allowed me to feel comfortable with stuff like makeup & jewelry bc alt fashion is often tied to gender nonconformity #but for the life of me I can't figure out how to make a purse definitively alt. so I want to look up stupid masculine bags #the thing is I don't *want* a huge backpack! a mid-sized purse type would suit the practical need! #I just will throw up if people see me carrying a purse and form any sort of association with nonmasculinity because of it!! fuck!!! #x: axel talks #I'm sorry y'all I just keep having more and more feelings about this and I have no fucking clue where else to go with it #well I guess I have my queer support group this week actually that might be the perfect place for it #I just. need to excise it sooner than that. I will burst if I have to suppress it much longer

[artsy-dreamer]

For the fictional friendships ask: Asahi and Nishinoya; 1, 3, 5, and 13?

My boys!! I love them 💛💛 Thanks so much for the ask!! And sorry it took me so long to answer ;-; I kinda had a lot going on…

…ok I’m still very behind on Haikyuu, so I don’t know a whole lot about them yet… won’t stop me from making an attempt though XD Their friendship makes me happy 😊

When I think they became friends (if canon already hasn't showed how they became friends)

I’m kinda leaning toward them meeting at volleyball club in Noya’s first year of high school- simple as that, a libero and his ace bonding over their shared interests and becoming a powerful team together 😊 I have to wonder if maybe Noya was drawn to Asahi because he saw a bit of himself in the guy- from what I’ve heard, Noya himself was quite the anxious little guy when he was younger, so I can definitely see him wanting to be the kind of friend he needed back then 🥺 And with Noya’s friendly demeanor and his efforts to include Asahi in conversations and invite him to hang out on weekends, show interest in his other hobbies and nudge him out of his comfort zone and all that, it’s only natural that they’d grow closer and develop the strong bond they have now- I love how despite their age difference, they seem to treat each other as equals and look up to each other, it’s really sweet :’)

3. A random headcanon I have of them

Somehow I ended up with the headcanon that Noya is prone to headaches, and I just love the idea of Asahi being a good comfort to Noya when he’s not feeling well- gives him temple massages, makes sure he’s getting enough water to drink and all that :’) And one time, there was some construction taking place close to where Noya lives, and it was giving him headaches and making them harder to get rid of, so sometimes Asahi would let Noya stay over at his place where it was quieter and rest until he felt better- maybe he even cuddled with Noya until he fell asleep :’) I love the idea of Noya learning that cuddling has scientifically proven health benefits, and just latching onto that fact and constantly using it as an excuse because the dude LOVES him some cuddles XD

5. A scene I wish we had of them

…tfw I don’t know all their scenes yet XD But judging from these questions, I’m guessing canon hasn’t shown how they met, so I’d love to see that… but other than that? I love me a good hug scene, so I’ll go with that XD if they had a canon hug scene i probably would’ve seen dozens of redraws already lol

I just wanna see Noya make a running start and jump up to hug his buddy, and Asahi is standing there with his arms wrapped around Noya while his tiny little legs dangle off the ground XD That’d be so cute, lol

13. What I think would have happened if they never met

From what I’ve heard, they don’t seem to have *quite* as much of a deep fated connection as some other pairs in Haikyuu? Like, they’re in each other’s lives and they care a lot about each other but they’re not completely floundering on their own either :’D So I guess their friendship is kind of like that one post about double chocolate chip cookies- it may not be necessary for them to exist, but I sure wouldn’t want to live in a world without them! 😊💕💕 I suppose they’d be fine, but their lives just wouldn’t be as enriched as they could be? I mean, Noya does have other good buddies that he has a lot of fun with, but like… since he had more anxiety when he was younger, maybe Asahi would get him in a way that others might not, and if they’d never met, Noya might not have that connection with someone he could relate to in his life 😔 Same with Asahi- while he has other good friends in the volleyball club too, Noya seems to be the one he clicks with the most :’) And without him around, maybe it would’ve taken a bit longer for Asahi to come back to volleyball club- I just love how the reason Noya so adamantly refused to play without Asahi is because he didn’t want the guy thinking they could get by without him 🥺 It warms my heart how well Noya understands Asahi and how supportive he is of him!! Always pushing him to do his best because he knows he has it in him!! I’m just really glad they DID meet, because they have such a wonderful friendship and they make each other’s lives brighter… they are a package deal your honor 💛

ok that was a lot… can you tell I’ve been itching to gush about Haikyuu or XD So thanks for the excuse! 💕

#haikyuu #haikyuu!! #yuu nishinoya #asahi azumane #brotp #oh gosh if all this ends up being horribly inaccurate I will be SO embarrassed 😂 already am tbh :’D #plz I had to go find the recaps of asahi’s debut cuz I could barely remember half of what happened I’m a fraud- 🙈 #listen my knowledge of haikyuu may still be sparse but my love for it is not ok :’D #anyway funny story the last time I posted about these boys I was feeling a bit indignant cuz I saw a post saying #that noya deserves better than asahi and I was like >:o that is RUDE???? #pretty sure noya would dropkick you for disrespecting asahi like that tbh :p can’t change my mind lol #listen they love each other and they’re important to each other ok :’) #noya doesn’t WANT better than asahi because asahi already IS the best thank you very much ✨😌✨ #anyway XD guess I had a lot to say about these bois :’) they’re just so good I love em

[rivalsilveryuri]

Tbh most variations on the whole specific.. two of the johtrio being in a relationship and the third still being like. A Good Friend and sometimes living with them is so funny to me. Like i have way too thoughts on their dynamic as a whole, to the point where if i explained any of it in detail 2 anyonr id be senr to a doctor, but its just really amusing to me whenever theres a post about like, gold/crys and silver is Also There and eats from their fridge sometimes . He's just their guy. He lives with them sometimes . They always have their door open for him. Or crys/silver cause . Well. Crystal takes silver out to restaurants for dates, (he doesnt pick any because he worries too much about Getting It Right) and gold is Also at the table and he eats their chips when theyre not looking and they dont even mind . And tbh i coulr also see gold/silver being like. Whenever gold wants to go out travelling he also Always invites crystal . And she was probably apprehensive about essentially coming along with them 4 their honeymoons or whatever, but silver ALSO invites her and she eventually caves and tags along since they both want her there . Though gold wouldnt be as obvious about it as silver would be tbh. Something about them all still being a trio anyways .

#SENTCALLS #idk its funny how theyre so joined at the hip that its like. the third is still usually just as involved . idkkk idkk maybe im crazy #tbh gold/silver + crystal is likr. the most common variation of this . and im always so mixed on it causr... #its . certainly ... a VERSION . idk i hate when crystals left out. do NOT disrespect her !!! 👊👊👊👊👊👊👊👊👊💥💥💥👊💥👊👊👊💥👊👊💥💥💥 #what was i talking about #sorry . sorry im like. pokespe posting #guys nobody look at me . im unwell #LIKE AAUGHH . i have so many thoughts and i feel so silly posting them bur. yeah

[sonknuxadow]

the whole "omg the sonic movie redesign thing was totally fake it was just a publicity stunt" stuff gives me such a headache that was literally debunked such a long time ago but i still see people spreading it to this day SHUT UPPPP

#its ridiculous how much misinformation about sonic in general gets spread around. it frustrates me a lot #tbh it just kind of feels disrespectful to the people who actually had to put the work in to change sonics design #to just dismiss it and go ''oh it wasnt real it was a publicity stunt'' #and it also just feels like. refusal to accept that any aspect of sonic media could be good? if that makes sense #like ''oh they made this chnage that i literally asked for but sonic is bad so it must have been done with malicious intentions''

[sateurn]

😵‍💫😵‍💫😵‍💫

These sobs really limited my tags?????

I have so many more thoughts this is so so much less than 1/2. Broski. Big dislike

#its ‘i watched a tv show and i need to talk about it in the tags of this site im not on anymore’ time #ty to the void for always accepting my thoughts <3 #so honestly its just me thinking about the andromeda tv show. i just finished it and it left me destitute bc i clung onto the first 2 season #s as a basis and had ten thousand questions i *assumed* would be resolved. spoiler alert: they were nto #not*. and the coda addition helps but like. not enough. it explains some of the #oh fyi if anyone is reading or cared there will be spoilers #anyways it explained some of them ex for the cosmic engine bit. seemed pretty relevant and then was never mentioned again #i also MUCH prefer that version of trance — i had speculation she was a sun avatar which i took as confirmation when i finally noticed her #tattoo when harper used it to remind himself he put that data in the sun etc etc but i much prefer the sun-as-consciousness-astral-poject- #ing-slash-dreamjng-itself-a-body / being a little devil. i think that feels much more true to what we got in worldbuilding early on and tbh #the bar is on the floor bc any explanation would be better than what we got. also im sorry but s5 i trusted SO hard that that whole virgil #vox bit in the finale was insulting. couldnt even tie up the loose end you invented at the last minute????? MY god. i understand getting you #r budget halved but like. broski. it would have been better to ignore it at that point imo. #anywhoodle. i also have just ISSUES w the lack of resolution & not doing justice to literally any character #listen. why would you sink SO much effort into tyr just to have honestly what i feel is a disrespectful end to that character. like #tyr required me to do a LOT of thinking bc i sympathized with his position in exile etc while thinking also bro thats real fucked up. bro #stop thats fuckinng e*genics again dude. tbh with the entire species (im not looking up how to spell that rn) bc like the foundation of #their entire race is e*ugenics. (sorry censoring bc im in the tags just venting about tv) which obviously is a terrible idea but i think the #so it was like i am fundamentally against the concept but in show universe theg obviously did it etc but for me provided such a huge like #context to the universe. i fundamentally am not on board with all the commonwealth stuff like yeah i get it the magog are bad and scary but #like the neitzcheans (sp??? idc) are also Right There bein scary. then theres the ‘enhanced’ debate re dylan beka etc that like. is the same #but ‘’different’’ i guess. 🙄 anyways that is just to point out like. the level of thinking this show put me through just to blindside me w/ #no resolution. i had SO much hope. tyr selling iut to the abyss is disrespectful to all of the established work the actor did for him and #to the character as well even if i think the ideology is icky. he was shown to be even less and less self-centric survival guy as it went on #and also tbh i didnt understand the him stealing his kids dna thing. i really thought that was gonna gi in a different less bs direction #okay also while im here can i just say. that tyr and dylan had THE most romantic tension to me. everyone else felt very friendshipy and i am #NOT one to usually fall into a ‘they obviously should be together’ pipeline that the writers dont make themselves. but the back and forth ( #and intense eye contact) had me sitting there like. it was made in 2000 i know they wont do it but for not doing it they sure did! not that #i think they’d make a good couple (they would not) but that there was definitely something there on the dl you know? something more than #‘mutual respect’ you feel? and tbh! they also ruined the tyr beka thing by making her the matriarch. big ew huge ick.

[perenlop]

 really gotta get around to drawing widow some more bc im getting ideas for her (sad)

#specifically abt sectonia's corruption bc like... oh what if she witnesses sectonia consuming someone else for their beauty #and shes HORRIFIED bc this is not the sectonia she knows and fell in love with.... #idk if taranza will know abt that bc tbh... idk him knowing abt that but only fighting against sectonia once she lashes out at him #feels kinda odd to me #but i dont wanna be like ''oh he was an innocent baby who never knew how bad it was'' either #my perception of him is like. he was very very deeply in denial for a lot of it and helped her out still #because like. hey shes the queen! the queen is always right! and shes my friend. my closest friend who i grew up with #she wouldnt act this way without a reason right? #i cant go against her; shes my friend; i love her; she wouldn't do that; if she did then she probably had a good reason #oh sure its not GREAT that she wants me to kidnap this guy but he was going to meddle with her! hes only here bc of those fairies! #and those fairies are just being disobedient and disrespectful to her! shes our queen! you cant go against her! #so they deserve to be locked up and this guy needs to be taken care of so she isnt disturbed!! we're right!! #basically hes a doormat and not good with his moral backbone when it comes to ppl he cares abt #echoed voice

[dreamkidddream]

What’s going on are you in drama

I’m not gonna clog up my dash with this but long story short- some people were upset with me bc I write SFW content of aged-up Miles. I’m not gonna invalidate their feelings but I’m also not about to be disrespected and called names over fictional characters lol.

That’s why I say to block me/dni if you’re uncomfortable with that and that it’s not an issue if you do! Genuinely curate your own online experience- it’s suppose to be fun and relaxing, not stressful 🫶🏾

#I wouldn’t even call it drama tbh 😭 #plus- it’s in my rules that I age up characters and that it’s not for NSFW/NSFT purposes #I know everyone won’t feel the same way about it which is why I said to block/dni if you aren’t #so it’s no hard feelings on my end #just don’t want to be disrespected 😬 #and please block/dni if you’re not okay with it 👍🏾 #dream answers 🌤

[antimony-ore]

Gosh I just want him out faster 😤

I am frankly embarrassed by how my [redacted] keeps treating me and the person I've allowed myself to be tip toeing around him.

I am annoyed I have to evict him (his words) and he won't just leave with notice when he literally has a place lined up and all I want is notice so I can get a new roommate.

I've been living the same fight every day which is currently him saying:

1. I won't get a job (not looking as hard as I should be at the moment, because I'm focused on making other big changes to aleviate stress while my focus can be on me, something I am unable to do when I have a job)

2. that all the new connections I'm trying to make with people will fall through because I am inherently hard to love

3. I kid you not, that it smells weird like I has someone over 🙄 and he also keeps trying to pish me into another relationship because he thinks no one else will allow me to have boundaries either for some reason

and

4. That I either need to stop the household chore I started because I'm not hanging out with him/am needed to do something he doesn't want to do for himself, or that I need to stop sitting/relaxing immediately because I never do anything (false and also because he doesn't want to do something himself)

ALSO boyzes need to stop writing me rn trying to get laid because I mentioned he's leaving. I don't hook up when I'm unemployed and I feel like nobody is hearing that I am not having a good time at the moment

#I am almost out #BUT #in the meantime it's really hard to not lose focus and motivation #when someone I am kicking out because I've had enough of them not respecting me #is still being disrespectful and taking advantage of my inability to maintain boundaries #for anyone who doesn't understand my side still #I am too kind hearted and easily attached and [redacted] has got a hynotists pendulum hold on me #so sure we can keep blaming me #but I am asking for help and I just feel like we could also do that #TBH I don't want a roommate at all #really want to do the solo thing for a long while and just make art just can't afford to

[ask-artsy-oncie]

very few people want to be told how to write a story they’re working on - even less so when it’s by someone who just doesn’t utilize reading comprehension skills.

#rant #vent #I'd love to nail a list of rules to the blog like Luther nailing his qualms with the church to their door tbh #but I also feel like it ruins the mood and the spirit for the literal hundreds of people who enjoy the comic respectfully #for the sake of a vocal and disrespectful minority. #but fr some people. Seem to just not know how to fucking Act. and it's getting tiring. #Do not tell us how to write the story #do not pester us about updates #and for the love of god like. DON'T expect the story to automatically be for you because it has DT17 characters in it!!! #it might not have your favorites!!! It might not focus on your favorites!! It's not going to explore the canons of other shows to the degree #that it explores Talespin!!!!!! #real moral of the story is to watch Talespin or gtfo lmao #I don't know where else to mention it but I'm real deep in the tags so I'm sure very few people will read this far #but also??? the server is for the comic and not a generic DT17 server. #there are people in there who have not spoken a goddamned word about the comic or the characters specific to the comic #why are you here #there are other DT17 servers #I'm sure #Even if there aren't you don't have to explore your love for the show purely through discord servers #anyways sorry I'm tired and bitter #I love working on the comic!! It's been refreshing to do so after such a long break!!! #but it feels sometimes that people don't even really care #and like just want us to be dancing monkeys that do whatever the fuck they want

[sparklyslug]

Okay I know you’ve talked about Eddie as Faramir but let’s TALK about STEVE as EOWYN…….decides after having seen battle that he wants something completely different with his life than what he’s been told is the path of glory…..”I do not love the bright sword for its sharpness, nor the arrow for its swiftness, nor the warrior for his glory. I love only that which they defend”……adopts a hobbit wholesale and brings him into battle…….puts himself between his loved ones and the danger, always…..literally his entire character arc is just him taking off his helmet and being all “I am no douchebag!!!!!”

Anyway “let us dwell in fair ithilien” jogged my brain cells and I digress. Just a lot of feels going on over here!!!!!

OH BUDDY OH MAN YOU HAVE SO TOTALLY GOT ME WE ABSOLUTELY NEED TO TALK ABOUT THIS!!!!

Because you are absolutely right and correct and i'm obsessed with this now. Everything you say here!!! Fucking amazing and phenomenal!!! HE DOES NOT LOVE THE NAIL STUDDED BAT FOR ITS SHARPNESS. HE LOVES ONLY THAT WHICH IT DEFENDS. I AM NO DOUCHEBAG!!

OKAY SO LIKE LETS GO INNNNNNN. How Eowyn is stuck at the beginning of Two Towers, trapped taking care of her ailing uncle in the gathering dark, all alone. A morning of pale spring still clinging to winter's chill. Kind of stuck, waiting, not sure what the future is gonna be for her and her brother but knowing shit is bAD SHIT HAS GOTTEN VERY BAD AND SHIT IS LIKELY TO GET WORSE. But what can she do? Who is around that she can turn to? A wacky gang crash lands into her life to suck her into their epic crusade, and that kickstarts her journey but ultimately her path is her own, and her heroism is her own, it comes from her. STEVE HARRINGTON!!! STEEEEEVE!!! HARRINGTONNNN!!!! Is so loyal, will not be left at home to wait and watch when the people he loves is in danger. He doesn't crave glory the way Eowyn does, but he will absolutely put his body on the line again and again between the forces of evil and those who need his protection, and that is absolutely an Eowyn trait.

And also like, to take it there. What does Steve fear? A cage. To spend his life behind bars the way that his parents did, until use and age just make him accustomed to it and he forgets what else he wanted. I don't know if Steve initially fears the cage so much as he is already inside it, kind of clinging to it even. Nancy understands the pattern they're falling into waaaay before Steve does, because to Steve his cage of parties and fun and status isn't unwelcome yet, is something I think he is sort of not always actively trying to get back but certainly something he's kind of trying to hold on to in some ways even into Season 3 with his Scoops Ahoy Strikeout Steve woes haha.

Or, to frame it a different way, maybe he's chasing the dream of that life the way that Eowyn is chasing the dream of dying gloriously in battle. His life and his parents' lives aren't the cage--in some ways they're the goal for him. Domesticity, middle class suburban living, kind of what he's had but also with a happiness and contentment and love he's never experienced. But, like with Eowyn, it's a shallow understanding of what that life actually involves and requires and actually looks like in reality. And ultimately neither of them are necessarily suited for this dream that they're carrying. For her, of valor and death in battle, for him, of a white picket fence life of heternormative bliss. Eowyn IS a warrior and Steve IS loved and someone's future husband but like. They can't seem to recognize that they already HAVE the essential elements of the dream they want for themselves, they don't need to chase it to its furthest (unattainable, deadly) extent and consider anything less than that to be a failure.

And also! Like! Does Eowyn really love Aragorn? She sees his qualities and she admires him, and even more than that, she's captivated by what he represents: a leader of men, a noble warrior, a hero. A representative of the kind of life she wants to have, the kind of person she really wants to be. Isn't that what Nancy is to Steve? A leader, someone smart, someone who is kind and good when everyone else around him is largely uninterested in being either. She represents the kind of life he wants to have too: the six kids in the Winnebago, the big happy family. And represents the kind of person he wants to be, in how she leads the Party and is so so smart and capable, never the babysitter but the badass in charge. Eowyn clings to Aragorn as a symbol, perhaps more than she does to him as a person. It's not THE reason they don't work out, but damn it's absolutely A reason. DOES THIS SOUND FAMILIAR AT ALL.

I HAVE SO MANY EOWYN EMOTIONS AND AM RUNNING ON TWO HOURS OF SLEEP SO I NEED TO CUT IT SOMEWHERE but also like.

Eddie as Faramir and the two of them sharing custody of hobbits and sharing a love that's not about ideals and not about pity and not about anything other than seeing each other so clearly and finding that beautiful, fuck me up fuck me up.

#stranger rings #bLESS U FOR THIS IT'S SO FUN #steve harrington #lotr #stranger things meta #eowyn #asks #mop #i've loved stancy in my time no disrespect i just think i was happy with how it ended in season 2 tbh i don't feel compelled by it anymore #ALSO CAN I TELL YOU HOW I LOVE THIS FRAMING OF NANCY AS ARAGORN TOO mmmmm juicy gonna stew on that one for a minute. #fair ithilien verse