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ovaryacted · 26 days

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Ok ok ok, so…hear me out. (TW: death, and suicide at the end)

Let’s just say Leon’s kids (maybe they’re a teen at this point) ends up captured by some evil bioweapon lab. The ransom note is essentially ‘leave us alone to do our science or we kill your kid’

I can see this playing out two ways.

The first, Leon tears apart the world. He sees red and essentially blacks out until he’s reunited with his child/ren. He’s awake for the entire time it takes to find them. The only time he actually ‘rests’ is when his body physically crashes and passes out. Even then, he gets nightmares. What if they’re too late and his kid/s become twisted creatures? What if they’re already dead? What if he has to put a bullet in his own precious baby because they were reduced to a shambling zombie, just like RC?

He wakes up screaming. Crying. Sobbing.

Even if he gets to them in time, they’re undoubtedly traumatized. They won’t be child/Ren anymore. They would have been exposed to how fucked the world really is. He starts thinking he’s a failure. He’s failed to protect his kid/s. The ones he loved the most in the world have had their innocence ripped away.

But damnit, when he finds them, you bet your ass he’s not letting them go. He hugs them tightly. Almost too tightly. Leon starts sobbing. They’re unharmed. Untouched by evil science.

When it comes to the escape, he holds their hand. It doesn’t matter how old they are, he’s going to hold onto SOMETHING. They aren’t coming out of his sight ever again. Not after this.

Second scenario, Leon IS too late.

He sees what USED to be his kid/s. If he stared hard enough he could see them, under the shambling, the growling. They were still in there somewhere.

But he was too late. Even if they could get a cure, the damage was done. His child/ren were gone.

The world goes quiet for Leon. His only focus would be on them. All he could hear is his own heartbeat. After he ends their pain, I don’t think he’d go home.

The official report be KIA, but anyone else who was on the mission would know the truth. Leon didn’t want to live without his kid/s.

BUT THEN ITS ALL A NIGHTMARE BECAUSE I MADE MYSELF SAD TYPING THIS AHHHH IM SORRY

cw: religious imagery, mentions of gore and violence, suicide attempt

Hey, angsty anon, I know you remember sending this to me when I was at work and it fucking upset me but I said I would make it worse...well I'm making it a tad bit worse by adding my thoughts to this. Apologies in advance, and of course if you don't want to read some sad shit, don't read it. (I was half asleep writing this so my bad lolz)

I think Leon's family becoming involved in the horrors of bioterrorism, the very thing he's trying so hard to protect his loved ones from, is one of his biggest fears. In this field, he's seen people he cared about, good people, who were abandoned by those meant to protect them and had to alter their bodies to try to feel control. Although Leon does everything to ensure his family is protected, he still falls short when his child gets taken away by an enemy and is used as collateral.

The entire aspect of finally being able to have a life gets to Leon. To have a chance to settle down and have a family of his own which is now being threatened, turns Leon into this vindictive monster just motivated by revenge. On prior missions, he's usually calculated and knows what to do, where to go, and what to bring. But now that his child is involved, his own flesh and blood, yeah he blacks out for most of the mission and is going off of instinct.

He doesn't give his partner much of an explanation when he just says he's going to leave and that he knows he's going to bring his family back together. He can't promise anything, can't promise if he'll come back in one piece or at all, but he will bring his child back home. If being a federal agent working in bioterrorism has taught him anything, is that not everyone comes back. Sometimes he just gets lucky and the cycle repeats.

Leon does not sleep, does not eat, and much less gives a shit about his own safety and health. As far as he knows, he's on a witch hunt to kill the bastard that threatened his family and his happiness. The entire time he's trying to get his child back, his mind goes back to the horrors of all of his missions. He thinks back to the fear he felt in trying to save Sherry, he remembers the way his mind went all hazy on his mission to Spain and saved the president's daughter.

It's all the same. But it has to be different right?

He doesn't consider himself to be a religious person, he used to be back in his youth. But as this rogue mission goes on longer and longer and he spends more time without his child, he starts to silently pray that they're alive, that they haven't been ruined like everything else in this rotten world.

Let's say he does find his kid in one piece, scared and traumatized, probably tucked into a corner in a dingy cell in some run down lab. Leon wrapped his arms around them, apologizing over and over again, looking for forgiveness, and blaming himself for putting his child in danger simply because of the life he was forced to live.

He does get back home in one piece with his child in his arms and eliminates any other possible and future threats so he never has to worry about that again. The people who even think about hurting his family will regret ever doing so. As long as his child is safe and back at home, he thinks he's achieved the impossible and is protecting all that he holds dear.

But let's go on the opposite end of the spectrum. What will happen if Leon doesn't get there in time? If he finds his child turned into some monster as revenge? It would tear him apart, and he will consider this to be his karma for even wanting a better life for himself, a life he doesn't deserve. The person or thing in front of Leon wasn't his child anymore, it was a mess of torn-up limbs and cut skin, and he couldn't feel his child's presence anymore.

His soul is empty as he raises his gun to shoot towards the monster, putting them out of their misery, and the last bit of humanity Leon has left goes with the dead body hitting the ground. He still has a mission to complete, a society to protect, so he focuses on that and refuses to give himself a moment of grieve.

Later he says, I have time later.

He's detached from his reality throughout the remaining time he gives himself to finish off this mission, his last mission. When all the threats are eliminated, he walks around aimlessly, his spirit has run dry and he knows the gaping hole in his chest is too much of a burden to handle. He doesn't cry, he's done enough crying in his life and frankly, he doesn't have any more tears to give.

I've failed. I've failed you. I'm sorry.

The words repeat in his head and he pretends his significant other somehow gets the message that he's not coming back home. He wonders if God will come to save him from this blasphemy, but this is the price he had to pay for having too much blood on his hands, blood he did not want to have.

His hand is steady as he puts the gun to his temple, finger on the trigger and he hears it click, nothingness comes right after. He doesn't feel pain, doesn't feel much of anything, and surprisingly he feels calm...at peace.

Things can't be different. Not this time.

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biggestsimponhere · 1 year

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My beloved @kib-ble wanted a Joel bodyguard au so that’s what they’re gonna get.

Bodyguard!Joel miller x Famous!Reader AU, im sorry i couldn’t help but put a little angst between joel and ellie. it’s in my blood to make things sad. I’m also giving you famous friends from our world so don’t mind that. If you’re mad about being friends with them, idk, cry about it. (They aren’t bad people btw, just celebs i follow) I’m making you friends with the cast of the rookie. i don’t pay that much attention to celebrities but i like the rookie.

Warnings - TW! Sexual harassment/Assault (Someone grabs your ass unasked for but don’t worry joel will put him in his place) This is not tlou cannon it just has tlou characters if you don’t like it don’t read :) there are no zombies! TLOU CANNON LEVEL VIOLENCE (its really just a fist fight but yk) Sarah’s here too idgaf if she and ellie couldn’t be at the same time, don’t ask about ellie’s parents (fatal car accident 😔) (THIS IS WAY LONGER THAN I THOUGHT IT WOULD BE OR INTENDED IT TO BE PLEASE LET ME KNOW IF YOU WANT MORE OR IF YOU LIKE IT)

“You know you’re not meant to run away from the person protecting you?” A voice interrupted your silence. Not just any voice. His voice. “Well i wouldn’t have to run away if i could have five minutes to myself, miller” You replied standing up. “You know it’s for your safety right? We’re not just here to bother you” He said walking over to you. “Oh trust me i know, you only remind me everyday” You said rolling your eyes. “How did you even find me anyways?” You continued turning to him. “You’re not that hard to find princess” He remarked moving closer to you. “Come on, you’ve got a dinner to get to, and some creep was lurking out there with his camera” He said sliding his hand into yours to pull you out of the room you’d hidden away in.

“Why do I even have to go to this thing anyways” You said smiling at the feeling of his hand in yours. “Because it’s important, at least that’s what your manager said” He said continuing down the hall. “Stop here” He said letting go of your hand to grab the door. Your hand felt slightly colder without his warmth but you just shook it off. “Okay, no one’s there, move, quickly” He said ushering you out the door. Walking out the door you practically ran to the car with Joel trailing close behind. Once you were safely in the car Joel told the driver where to go. “So why do you spend all your time following me around, I mean i know it’s your job, but you hardly ever switch someone” You said turning to him.

He’s been your bodyguard for years and always seems to be around. “Well it’s my job like you said, and I only have one person to get back to” He said smiling slightly. Feeling a little dejected thinking he had a girlfriend you asked who. “Ellie. I’m like her guardian or whatever, I raised her, she lives with me in a small town, but she’s grown now, doesn’t need me hovering around her” He said looking out the window. “I’m sure she’ll always need you” You said smiling at him. “Yeah, i guess, but she spends a whole lot more time with her friends than she does me. I mean we don’t even go on walks anymore. It’s just ‘Bye Joel i’m going out with Dina and Jesse’. It’s like she doesn’t need me” He said a little dejectedly.

“Well she’s a teenager right? She needs her space and I’m sure if you just asked you could spend more time together” You said reaching over to pat his knee. You were about to remove your hand when he put his over yours and held it there. “Yeah i’m sure you’re right” He said smiling at you. That was a rarity. Joel Miller barely ever smiles so you feel pretty special when he throws one your way. After that the conversation died out but you still had your hand on his knee and his was still over yours. As the car rolled to a stop he looked down remembering your hand was there and he quickly removed his. He stepped out of the car and walked to your side to open the door.

“Miss y/l/n” He said grabbing your hand to help you out of the car. Much more professional than you two had been five minutes ago. There were photographers everywhere. They all kept shouting at you to look at them and you did your best to keep up. Eventually someone came outside and ushered you and Joel and your other guard Andrew inside. Once you were inside you were led to a table full of people you either knew or recognized. “Ahh y/n, you’re here!” Melissa cheered. “That i am!” You replied hugging here. “We wondered when we were gonna see you again.” Eric said smiling at you. You slid into your seat between the two and continued talking to all of them.

“Is he gonna keep staring at us like that?” Mekia asked looking over your shoulder. You turned around to see Joel glaring at the table but softening a bit when he caught your eye. You smiled at him and then turned back, “Joel’s always like that, but he won’t do anything unless one of you tries something” You said laughing. “He doesn’t seem like he’s always like that considering he smiled after you turned away” Nathan said raising an eyebrow at you. “Now he’s right back to glaring” Mekia said laughing. Soon the food arrived and you started eating. The whole point of this event was to make friends with other actors and actresses, but really mostly people just stuck by people they already knew.

“Are you gonna come dance with us?” Alyssa said after you’d all finished eating. “I suppose” You said pretending to be reluctant but smiling anyways. “Come on they opened the bar!” Melissa said grabbing your hand. “Well i’ll never say no to free alcohol” You said letting her pull you. After a few drinks (more like 5) you were still dancing with your friends. “Hey pretty lady” Some guy whispered in your ear as he came up behind you. This immediately caught Joel’s eye but he didn’t want to step in until it was a problem. Everything was fine, until it wasn’t. You had just silently moved away but he followed you. Once he grabbed your ass you pushed him away.

He stumbled back into a few people but came back almost immediately after he moved forward Joel was by your side. “I suggest you take a few steps back” He said pulling you behind him. “What’re you gonna do old man” The man said challenging him. Joel walked you back a little before swinging at the man. He stumbled back into the people behind him who took this opportunity to flee the dance floor leaving you, joel and the man standing in it. The man quickly threw a punch at joel which he caught and then punched the guy in the stomach. After that the man got the upperhand for a second and you were about to do something, anything but Melissa and Eric pulled you back.

“He’s okay, this what he was hired for” Melissa said to you as you continued watching them fight. Eventually after a solid punch Joel knocked the man out cold. You ran over to him grabbing his shoulders. “Fuck Joel, you’re insane, he could have killed you” You said gripping his jacket. “Probably not, but im okay, just a little sore and a few scratches” He said rubbing his hands up your arms. As you continued scolding joel security came to drag the other man out to some car to take him to the hospital. “A few scratches?! Your knuckles are bloody and scraped to hell” You said turning your attention to his hand. You were close to tears by this point.

He stopped your frantic search for more injuries by pulling you into his arms. “You hear that princess? M’hearts still beating” He whispered into your ear. You stood like that for a couple minutes before he spoke again. “Are you okay?” He said pulling you out of his chest. Of course he’s thinking of your comfort when he’s all scraped up. “Yeah, I’m okay now, let’s get you to the hospital” You said wiping your nose. “I don’t want to go to the hospital, i’ll just go home tommy and ellie can probably help me better anyways” He said shaking his head. “Joel you need to go to the hospital” You scolded him.

“Please, i don’t want to go to the hospital, just let me go home, please” He practically begged you. You’d never heard him sound like this let alone say please. “Yeah okay, but i’m coming with you” You grabbed his arm before walking over to your friends. “I’m gonna take him home, just didn’t want to leave without sayin goodbye” You said hugging your friends. Joel stood behind you while you said bye to your friends. He’s never been as fidgety as he is right now, something must be really bothering him. “Alright, let’s get you home yeah?” You said grabbing his good hand. He just nodded and wordlessly followed you out the door. Once you settled in the car and told the driver to take you to joel’s you rolled up the screen separating the back and the front.

“Joel” You said quietly unsure how to approach the problem. He hummed in response tilting his head towards you. “Are you okay?” The silence filled the car after that. You didn’t want to speak again until he said something. It took him a few minutes but he spoke again. “No, not really” He said grabbing onto your hand. You unbuckled and moved closer to him. Wrapping your arms around him you buried your face in his shoulder. Joel’s never been like this in all the years you’ve known him. You were about to speak again when you felt tears hit your chest and heard his shaky breathing. Instead of speaking you just held him tighter and let him cry into your chest.

“I’m sorry” He said finally pulling away from you. “Don’t apologize, you don’t ever have to apologize for your emotions” You said swiping his hair off his forehead. He nodded and pulled you into another hug, which you returned. “Do you wanna talk about it?” You asked quietly. “No, at least not right now” He said pulling away as the car rolled to a stop in front of joel’s. You slid out with him and stopped walking when he walked back over to the car. You didn’t hear what he said but shortly after the car pulled away leaving you both alone. “Come on, we gotta get you cleaned up” You held out your hands to him which he took. Once you both walked through the door Ellie sprung up from the couch.

She took in the both of you before speaking. “What the hell happened to you” She said scanning joel’s injuries. “It’s nothin” Joel brushed it off walking past her into the kitchen. You stood there awkwardly before joel called you into the kitchen. “I called tommy he should be here in a few minutes, would you like something to drink?” He said walking over to you. “No i’m alright” You smiled before sitting in a chair at the table. “Joel? Are you gonna tell me what happened or should i ask her?” Ellie said walking into the kitchen. “It was just a little fight, ellie i’m fine” He said brushing off her concern. “A little fight? You’re all scraped up, you haven’t had a fight in forever too” She said continuing to pester him.

You enjoyed watching the two of them interact. “Ellie i said it’s nothing” He said coming off a little harshly. She shrunk a little before stepping back. “I’m sorry kiddo, it was just a rough day” He said turning towards her. Then the door to the house opened and tommy walked in. “Joel, what the hell happened?” Tommy said walking into the kitchen. Once he stopped he spotted you. “I didn’t know you had a girlfriend?” He said turning back to joel. “Girlfriend?!” Sarah said running down the stairs. “She’s not my girlfriend, and what’re you doing here? Aren’t you meant to be at home with your family?” Joel said turning to her.

You were happy to just sit quietly and watch joel interact with the people he loves. “I told them i was gonna hang out with ellie for a little” She said brushing off his question. “Sorry to butt in but joel you’re still hurt” You said finally speaking. “Right” Tommy said reaching under the sink for the first aid kit. As tommy worked on cleaning joel in the living room, Sarah and Ellie moved to sit next to you. Joel had begrudgingly left you alone with them but not without warning them to behave. “Soooo, what’re your intentions with my dad” Sarah said first. “You can’t just ask her things like that” Ellie said cutting her off. “What do you mean?” You said finally.

“Are you together? Do you like him? Do you love him?” She said, the questions flowing out of her mouth rapidly. “No we’re not together” You we’re about to continue speaking when joel walked back in and cut you off. “Stop botherin her” He said stopping behind your chair. “We’re not bothering her, right?” Sarah said looking from her father to you. “They’re fine Joel, really.” You said looking up at him. “Did you send Drew away or is he gonna be back?” You said turning to fully face him. “He’s gone, you can stay here tonight” He said with full confidence. “But we don’t have a guest room” Ellie said looking up at him confused. “She can just sleep in my bed, i’ll sleep on the couch” Joel said sitting in the chair next to you.

“Hell no, after tonight your sleeping in your bed, i cant take that away from you” You said shaking your head. “Why don’t you just share the bed?” Sarah said looking between the two of you. “Yeah, I mean you’re both adults” Tommy said patting joel on the shoulder. “Are you okay with that?” Joel said nudging your foot with his. “Yeah, Yeah, we can handle it” You said trying not to sound to eager. “Sarah can you go to yours and grab her some clothes?” Joel turned to his daughter. “Sure!” She said standing up and leaving quickly. “Alright, i’ve gotta get back home before maria strings me up but i’ll be seeing you” Tommy said pointing to you as he left. “Can i go have a sleepover at Dina’s? I meant to ask you earlier but you weren’t home” Ellie said turning to Joel.

“Yeah go ahead” And with that Ellie got up and grabbed the bag she had apparently already packed and ran out the door. “Guess it’s just us then” Joel said chuckling awkwardly. You nodded and then the door opened again. “I only have pajama shorts, sorry, but she can borrow one of your shirts right dad?” Sarah said handing you the shorts. “Of course you can” Joel said slightly smiling. “Alright, gotta go” Sarah said turning back around and leaving. “Let’s go to bed” Joel said pulling you up and then walking you to the stairs. Once you two had reached his bedroom he walked in and pulled out a shirt for you. He handed it to you before turning around.

As you stated to take off your jewelry you remembered the zipper on the back of your dress. You tried to do it yourself but since you couldn’t even zip it yourself how did you expect to take it off. “Um, Joel?” You whispered into the room. “Yes?” He called back. “I, uh, i cant unzip it” You said too embarrassed to turn around. You heard footsteps move closer to you before stopping just behind you. You could feel his breath on your neck as he began to speak. “Do you need some help?” Your breath caught as you realized how close he is to you. You nodded and his hands moved to the zipper. His fingers brushing against your back sent sparks shooting through you.

“It’s unzipped” He said pulling you out of your thoughts. You realized he must have turned around again as you couldn’t hear his voice as clearly. You slid his shirt and the shorts on and turned back to face him. “You can look now” You said and he turned towards you. His breath caught in his throat at the sight of you in his shirt and extremely small shorts. He can’t help but think sarah did that on purpose. You both climbed into bed, as you settled in you thought to yourself how you could get used to this. Family talks, His shirts, Sleeping next to him in bed. “Joel” You said slowly. He hummed turning to look at you.

“Would you hold me?” You asked quietly. He nodded and flipped the light off before settling in behind you. He wrapped his arms around you and smiled at the feeling of finally having you in his arms even if it isn’t when he’s with you. That would be a talk for another time. “Goodnight joel” You said rolling over to face him. “Goodnight sunshine” Joel said as you snuggled into his chest. Yeah you could get used to this. And so could he.

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agaypanic · 6 months

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Benny saves reader from a zombie

When The Dead Rise (Benny Weir X Reader)

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Summary: Ethan has to take his little sister trick or treating, so of course he invites all of his friends to keep him company. Splitting up from your friends to spend time with your boyfriend ends up giving you some scares.

A/N: SO MANY THINGS TO SAY!!! 1, sorry for not posting a story in over 2 weeks, i discovered character ai messaging and became addicted to talking to josh hutcherson’s (i love that man, im so glad hes been getting more attention again, im so sad that he has a gf and is like 10+ years older than me) mike schmidt from fnaf (lowkey wondering if i should try making character chats, i think itd be fun lol). 2, thank you for 1.1k followers!!! It truly means a lot to me! 3, I still have a good handful of requests and i don’t know when they’ll all be finished, so if you’ve sent in a request that i haven't gotten to yet, im so sorry lol. 4, this feels kinda half-assed but enjoy this halloween fic even tho its fuckin november lmao

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“Ethan, hurry up!” Benny yelled up the stairs to his best friend, who was in his room getting ready. “If we wait any longer, all the good candy’s gonna be gone!”

“Calm down, Bens.” You laughed. “We’re big kids; we can buy our own candy.”

“It’s not the same.” He whined, letting you pull him towards you by the lapels of his suit jacket. You fixed his poorly tied tie and smoothed out the fabric of his outfit. Benny wanted to be a magician this year, saying it fit perfectly. He even somehow roped you into dressing up as a magician’s assistant.

Before you could reply, there was a knock at the door. Unsure of whether it was a trick-or-treater or one of your friends, you grabbed the bowl of candy near the front entrance and opened the door. But the sight before you made you jump, some pieces of candy flying out of the bowl.

“Trick or treat!” Rory snickered behind an ugly zombie mask. It looked like the mask had been melted and worn out.

“Couldn’t you have just dressed up as a vampire?” You asked, letting Rory into the house and closing the door. “You know, with you being a vampire and all.”

“Too easy.” Rory shrugged, taking off the mask. “Besides, scaring the crap out of you is worth wearing the mask.” He grinned, and you smacked his shoulder with an eye roll.

Hearing footsteps come thundering down the stairs, you all turned around. Jane came down in a princess costume while Ethan was close behind in one of his regular outfits. You all booed him and his wardrobe.

“Boring!”

“Didn’t even try.”

“Where’s your Halloween spirit, man?”

“Guys, give me a break, okay?” Ethan sighed. It was clear he didn’t really want to go out tonight. Wanting him to at least try to get into the spirit of the holiday, you grabbed a pack of fake vampire fangs from the trick-or-treating bowl.

“Here, you can be the vampire. Now let’s go, or Jane won’t get any candy.” Hearing this, Jane raced out the door, the rest of you hot on her tail.

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It was late at night when you all decided to stop trick or treating. Jane’s candy bag was practically bursting at the seams, and she was worn out to the point where Rory had to start carrying her. He only did it because, due to being a vampire, he was the only one strong enough to haul her around, and she promised to give him some of her candy.

“Wanna split?” Benny leaned down to whisper to you, the two of you slowing down and gradually being separated from your friends. Deciding that they probably wouldn’t mind your absence, you nodded. Benny grinned and squeezed your hand that he had been holding the entire evening before pulling you in the direction of his house.

As the two of you walked down the street, a chill ran up your spine. An October night in Canada probably wasn’t the best time to wear a costume that had a good amount of skin, but when you put the costume on, you had decided that it would be a problem for future you.

Future you was less than pleased.

Luckily, being the amazing and thoughtful boyfriend he was, Benny took off his magician’s cape and tied it around you. He must’ve enchanted it, because you were immediately warmed by the fabric. You clung onto his arm, not missing the proud smile he had when he looked down at you wearing something of his.

“Oh, gosh.” You murmured, slowing to a stop. Benny stumbled, looking around in confusion. Before he could ask what was wrong, you pointed to what awaited you just a few yards ahead.

If you knew that the Whitechapel cemetery would be on your route to Benny’s house, you would’ve gone another way. But here you were, looking at the fog-covered, fenced-up plot of land in front of you, the path that went through it looking less than inviting. Given you and your friends’ track records with supernatural and dead things, you were weary of spooky things, such as a cemetery at night. Tonight being Halloween didn’t help much.

“Come on, N/n, it’s okay.” Benny cooed, pulling you along. “Nothing’s gonna happen, I promise.”

“How can you be so sure?” You asked, squeezing his arm.

“I’ll protect you, babe.”

“Oh, great, so we’re both dead.” You half-joked, and Benny gave you a fake offended look.

“Rude.” You got to the fence, and you paused again. Benny looked back and sighed; it was as if he could read your mind before you protested. “Going through the cemetery instead of around is the quickest way home, Y/n. We’ll speedwalk.”

After a deep breath, you nodded, and you both ventured through the graveyard. You clung to Benny as if your life depended on it. For all you knew, it did. The aura surrounding you as you walked spooked Benny a bit, but he did his best to put on a brave face for you.

Before you knew it, you were almost at the other side of the cemetery. Relief filled you as the fog faded just enough to show you the exit.

“Come on, let’s get out of here.” You say, a pep in your step now. But for some reason, Benny pulled on his cape that was around your shoulders. You looked back in confusion.

It wasn’t Benny, you realized. Because he was standing next to you, not behind you.

Behind you was a hideous, groaning creature that looked like it had been decaying for years. You wouldn’t have been surprised if it had crawled out of one of the graves you and Benny walked by.

“Zombie!” You shouted, making Benny jump. You tried to run, but the creature’s decaying hand had a death grip on the cape you were wearing, the opposing forces almost choking you.

Benny grabbed the string that tied the cape around you and somehow ripped it apart. It was probably the sudden adrenaline that gave him the strength to do that and then pick you up when you were finally free. Tossing you over his shoulder, Benny ran out of the graveyard while you both freaked out about what you saw.

Over your squeals and shouts, you didn’t hear the laughing that came from the place you were fleeing from. The zombie dropped the cape and ripped off its face, revealing a cackling Rory. But his laughs were suddenly cut short when he heard a rustle in a nearby bush. Realizing that being alone in the cemetery was becoming too creepy for him, Rory sped away.

When you reached Benny’s house and called your friends, you told them all about the terrifying encounter you and Benny had with the dead. During your storytelling, you didn’t notice Rory having a slight grin on his face the entire time.

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jemmo · 1 year

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'the rest of the time his eyes feel so void' oh god yes this! i noticed Jaewon has always looked apathetic when he was not around Jihyun but after the accident his eyes literally looks soulless. and i'm so impressed by Lim Jisub like he conveyed Jaewon's feelings and emotions so well just with his eyes

aghhh thank you sm dear anon and thank you for bringing up lim jisub’s acting bc it really is such an incredible performance. i feel like it’s hard to portray a character with the levels of depression jaewon has, esp in episodes 7 and 8 where he feels like a walking zombie bc we ultimately can’t be in his head even if we feel scenes are from his pov, but lim jisub does it fantastically. he manages to inhabit this lifelessness while still walking and talking and doing all the stuff other people do, you feel his distance from the world and how indifferent he is to it, his drive to not care and to just retreat into nothingness. you look at him and feel his want to be invisible, to not exist, which is bleak i know, but even before when he was in social situations i always got this feeling that he hated being there, that he was trying to get out or wishing it was over, but now you don’t just see that more strongly, but you get it with jihyun too, except with him he wants to not be there, for it not to be happening bc he desperately does not want to face him and face what he’s done and face his feelings, and you see that in his body language which all comes back to (yes, this actually has to do with the ask) him avoiding eye contact. bc it’s like jihyun cuts through, he can get at the real jaewon, bc jihyun always existed for jaewon not in some fantastical dream but a feasible reality. it’s different from wishing things were different, that his parents were better, that he had better friends, that his brother were here. jihyun is a good thing that exists, that is real, and I think in jaewon’s state it’s hard to see that there’s good things in life, you either avoid them or ruin them. jaewon thought he had ruined jihyun, but now he is here, he is fine, so all he can do is avoid. avoid looking at him, acknowledging that he’s here and alive and that he can’t blame and hate himself for an accident he didn’t cause and that jihyun has now healed from. and when in that scene we see jihyun make jaewon look at him, and we see that moment of softness in jaewon’s eyes before they harden, that’s what makes me sad just as much maybe even more than what he says, and I feel like would hurt jihyun too, bc we see the mask, finally, jihyun sees the jaewon that isn’t jaewon, when he is supposed to be a place of freedom and refuge and truth. he is the person jaewon can be his real honest self with, and so to see him put that mask up hurts bc jihyun, who has always has closeness and intimacy with jaewon, suddenly feels that distance. they’re sitting next to each other but it feels like jaewon is miles away, the real him is somewhere unreachable, and it’s difficult and hurtful to know that you lost that person, that you don’t have that closeness anymore, esp when jihyun is offering so much of himself. idk anon i rambled again and kind of didn’t touch on your ask at all (sorry) but yes the fact i can get all this nuance and detail speaks to how fantastically lim jisub portrays his role and im starting the oscars campaign as we speak.

#the eighth sense #this is why I shouldn’t go on tumblr in the morning I always end up ranting #but thank you for inspiring one of my silly lil rants anon

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waxsuyaaa · 27 days

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ahato mizuta appreciation post

my gurl theyve been stuck in the metro for a very long time

long rant below!! beware.

okay so first off i honestly wish that they would stay a character that nintendo didnt expand on, i loved the sheer amount of fanon and headcanons that people came up with and that the dedf1sh tag was filled with that one post from hwkgrass or smth with ‘press A to imagine inkopolis’ like that was my favourite post and it probably still is and its also the reason i even have tumblr in the first place

and right now the tag is filled with them being a hater and just random things or saying omg nonbinary people are real? really? nonbinary octopus swag or smth and i just dont know about it.. like is everyone really that desperate to get some pronoun drop from nintendo i thought we were satisfied with the 25 bajillion headcanon pages for them. like im not mad they use they them pronouns im just saying its not a big deal and why are we so hungry for new game content it doesnt feel like something people built from the ground up anymore

and oh my god this makes me feel like someone talking for no reason which is probably true but hey i miss the character nobody knew about and that had the hugest backstory that changed on every single post about them and that had so many different sibling headcanons and got sanitized willingly because they just didnt want to think anymore

all the recent art always has haha cunty octopus or whatever where is that one zombie living in the walls who has not stopped working or slept or ate in 8 years

where is that one character who has black fingertips NOT because of them dyeing it but from the breakdown of cell tissue from generally not being alive their entire fanmade backstory just evaporated

am i sad that the canon dedf1sh is now a pasty white slacker in class who got kidnapped by tartar and just got sanitized with no reason whatsoever and nintendo didnt leave the thing up for debate? yeah

was i obsessed with this character before? yeahh

should i be dragged across one of those metal railings making a donk sound on every single pole for posting this and not getting over it? yeah

in conclusion i am still not over the release of acht side order and its stored in my brain as a different character in another splatooniverse and they are not the same person as ahato mizuta

#thanks for listening i should be thrown onto a roof and left there #wow i really do miss that one zombie with hollowed out eyes that glow in the dark and a lack of the sense of touch #ahato mizuta #dedf1sh

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sammyloomis · 7 months

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so now that ive finished the games n shit i can Finally make this post without feelin like im missing anything SO:

hcs for how ellies infection affects her

because you are Not telling me that she has a Literal invasive parasitic fungus growing in and on her Literal brain and shes just. Normal and Fine. i simply dont believe you. so lets get into it tee hee

(sorry for the wall of text, i had a lot to say apparently)

eyeshine. because it looks cool and because i say so. and because i think having ellie look just Slightly Offputting for reasons people cant immeditely explain is cool

increased pain tolerance. like, i know Every character in these games get put through the ringer, but im specifically thinking about her boss fight with abby (where abby beats the everloving Snot out of her) and im like??? she gets choked out, knee'd in the stomach, punched DIRECTLY in the face SEVERAL times and shes.... still concious, for one, coherent and able to stalk abby around the basement for another, AND yeah shes bleeding from every hole in her god damn face by the end but shes still?? talking?? and dina got hit Way Less and is knocked the fuck out immediately. so yeah fghj i stand by this one. on a related note...

increased healing time. this is kinda relating to the fact that mushrooms are.... pretty quick to grow, and the whole "you cant kill me in a way that matters" cosmic horror bullshit that comes with them. so it would stand to reason that ellies wounds heal quicker than the average person (she just keeps getting fkn injured so its hard to tell sometimes)

now this one could just be because shes got the disposition of a feral cornered alley cat, but biting people. like, idk if youve Noticed, but ellie has this weird penchant for biting the FUCK outta people whenever given the chance, and i think its fun to imagine the zombie instinct is just subtly rearing its head with that

this ones kinda sad.... but i cant stop thinkin abt it, this doesnt manifest until years later, but i imagine if the parasite is still Growing in her head, even if its not actively killing her, i cant see that doing her any fkn good. so, later in life i can see her suffering from seizures or physical tics.

developing some kind of sixth sense for when infected are nearby. kinda similar to listen mode in the game, but having it manifest more like will from stranger things, where she gets prickling on the back of her neck and can just Feel that those things are close. again, this wouldnt be til later in life i feel, as the fungus grows.

and thats all i got fghjk anyway i love ellie i think shes neat i wanna study her in a lab

#ash.txt #tlou #ellie williams #i had some more outlandish ones but they were a lil Silly and didnt make sense so im leaving em out fghjk

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clownofthetown · 7 months

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AHSOKA FINALE SPOILERS

im sorry this is so long but its my live thoughts on the ep

honestly good for you morgan elsbeth, she did great

AHHHHHH KANAN MENTION he was a little shy OH MY GOFDOGKDKKD CALEB ❤️ like me fr

Is huyang like ezras grandmaster of lightsaber construction then

HE GETS THE SAME PART THINGO AS KANAN IM DYING AND ITS BLUE AGAIN

NOOO SABINE COMES BACK ITS OKAY

uh oh ezra finding out abt sabines family

sabine and ahsoka bonding over the choices theu make thats so cute

wow okay like 3rd anakin mention this series (PLS GIVE ME A 3RD KANAN MENTION ITS ONLY FAIR)

if those ties hurt the noti. IF THEY.

bumper cars but in the sky and considerably more dangerous how fun

AY NOTI AND HUYANG COLLAB

thats four anakin mentions are you kidding me

YESSS SABINE GETS HER HELMET WHY HAS SHE BEEN FIGHTING W/O IT PLS WEAR HEAD PROTECTION

zombies ZOMBIES

omg morgan and ahsoka rematch this is great

ah i see theyre gonna make sabine use yhe force bc she dropper her saber

I CALLED IT sighhhhh

THANK YOU ive been wonder like "why dont they just chop the zombies in half and then they cant rly do anything but theh werent and now FINALLY

YAY JUMPING

AHSOKA AHSOKA UR MISSING UR FLIGHT

SABINE. SABINE. tHANK U I WAS SO SHOCKED SHE WOULD LEAVE AHSOKA LIKE THAT BUT SHE DIDNT

rip morgan 💔

EZRAS ALONE THERE WHAT THE HELL

nooo ezra should have done a more ridiculous voice on the comm pls 😔

HUYANG THANK GOD

here we go abt anakin again alright

THRAWN U BASTARD SHUT UP ABT AHSOKA

guys. guys this isnt funny theyre genuinely stuck there. GUYS. WHY. EZRA IS ALONE AGAIN.

was that fuckin morai or am i going insane

SHIN SHIN SHIN WHERE HAVE U BEEN is she gonnabecome the bandit leader or wtv

baylan what on earth

THE FATHER AND SON??? IS THE DAUGHTER HALF DESTROYED WHAT?????????

CHOPPER DONT TELL ME THATS WHO I THINK IT IS

oH MY FUCKING GOD EZRA AND HERA REUNITE AHHHHHDHDHDJFJJ IM ACTUALLY CRYING NOW

"its time to move on" ??? I BEG YOUR OARDON WHAT

sabine what did u feel TELL ME

R U SERIOUS we BETTER see kanan as a force ghost watching over hera and jacen AND EZRA in SEASON 2 WHICH WE BETTER GET OR I WILL RIOT

it is nice that anakins watching over ahsoka tho HES A GRANDMASTER NOW LOL

a few other thoughts:

- im glad sabine gets to keep her lightsaber, it rly is hers now

- i gyess im ok w ezra building a new saber? esp one so close to kanans 💔 hopefully it helps him relfect on the person he is now yknow

- lowkey sad morgan just got killed like that... THWRES SM POTENTIAL 4 HER CHARACTER NOW THAG SHE GOT MORE POWER AND STUFF LIKE

- HOW DID CHOPPER KNOW???

- why is there all the father son daughter stuff on peridea (and how did ezra not sense it in the force and explore it or smth like)

- ezra didnt seem surprised that thrawn had backup and the eye of sion and stuff so im assuming they explained what happened and he was just like "ok"

(maybe tbeh didnt mention sabines role in letting them get there oops)

- UUURHFHS NOW WE GAVE TO WAIT

-why didnt they give me a hera and ezra hug scene. THEY SHOULD HAVE RAN AT EACH OTHER CRYING (pls i hope they make the reunions just a little more like they wiuld have been during rebels yknow, when we get a zeb and ezra reunion there better be ATLEAST a hair ruffle from zeb or i will BE ANGRY)

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sunghoons-mole · 7 months

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for fans of stray kids - and zombies.

GENRE // apocalypse au , reader x badass!hyunjin (ft. Felix, Jisung, Jeongin and Bangchan)

WARNINGS // zombies, gruesome scenery, mentions of blood, mentions of dead people, use of weapons, emotional!!!

FROM THE AUTHOR // lol hi! im a big fan of zombies... but this fic might be a flop. it is a little rushed as well, apologies... oh well! i had fun writing it. that’s all that matters.

They’re everywhere.

Dozens of them, walking aimlessly, in search of their next bite.

You’d watched plenty of The Walking Dead with the guys, but seeing it happening in the world you knew and loved was indescribable.

A memory surfaces, one of you and Hyunjin. You’re both sitting on the couch, watching TWD without the rest of the guys. They’d be pissed if they knew, but it became a weekly tradition for you and Hyunjin to secretly watch ahead while the rest of them were away. It was a good way to actually be able to focus without the rowdiness of the boys - while also getting to spend some time with Hyunjin alone.

While you were captivated by the action and emotion you felt for each of the characters, Hyunjin simply laughed at the zombies, always sure to point out the missing logic. He was so quick to point out how none of it would ever be possible.

How nice that sounds right now.

You and Chan had spent the last month grieving the rest of the group, assuming they were dead. A few days after the world went to shit, you had found your way to Hyunjin’s house, hoping he had holed up there. It felt absolutely ridiculous to be using the skills you had learned from a zombie TV show, but it worked.

When you showed up, all of Hyunjin’s belongings were still there, as if he had just left for work and planned on coming home that evening. Nothing was out of place or looted like the rest of the world. Chan was holed up there, alone. He told you he was unable to find or contact anyone, but he was glad you showed up. This, of course, gave away you and Hyunjin’s secret relationship. Not that it mattered anymore. Secrets had no place anymore, and Chan had his suspicions anyway.

You wondered if Hyunjin had gone to look for you then, wishing you had stayed put. When the world lost its mind, technology was lost with it. Since there was no longer any cell service anywhere, you couldn’t even call him. Still, your phone was almost dead with no way to charge it, because you used it for one thing only: to listen to his last voicemail.

“I’ll see you tomorrow, love.” But he wouldn’t.

A month after finding Chan, you are fighting off some of the dead with a knife, checking the face of each one to make sure none of them are the boys, your family, or Hyunjin. Your phone died the night before, which means you can’t hear the voice of the man you love until you find him. The rage and sadness is good fuel for fighting, good for carrying on. It’s bittersweet, each time you stab one of those creatures you don’t recognize. There is a burst of hope, relief that it isn’t your friends in the faces of these animated corpses, but a punch in the gut realizing you still don’t know where they are.

Chan is sitting in the car several yards away, yelling your name.

You kill the last of the dead and pocket your weapon, walking towards the car slowly. Chan has the radio on, and there’s a faint voice coming through the speakers. Strange, since the emergency broadcasts had stopped coming through weeks ago - a crackling static became a public service announcement of complete silence. You weren’t sure there were any living left.

The closer you get, the more familiar the voice is, and you heart leaps with excitement.

Jeongin is reciting an address, coordinates, and a message.

“If you’re out there, please come find us. We have a safe place. It’s just me and Felix right now. We are waiting for you.”

Your heart sinks when you realize Hyunjin isn’t there. Chan grabs your arm as the message starts over.

“It’s recorded,” Chan whispers. “It could have been a while ago. Hyunjin and the others could be there now.”

You nod your head, sighing. “I really hope so, Channie.”

“Wake up, y/n.”

A hand on your shoulder brings you out of your slumber in the passenger seat, the smooth movement of the car and sunset through the window bringing the first comfort you’ve felt in a long time. Chan is shaking you, and you sit up, glancing out at the moving fields as the car moves. “Are we there?” You rub your eyes.

“Nearly.” Chan sounds hopeful, but as if he’s trying to hide it. A glance in the mirror shows a small herd that has formed behind the car, but it is a manageable size. “A few more turns.”

You hope they will still be there. Your heart is pounding out of your chest, as if it thought the harder it beat, the faster you’d get there.

Minutes that feel like hours pass, and finally Chan pulls up near a farm house. The place is surrounded by fencing, but there are still dead wandering the fields near the house. So many, in fact, that the herd behind you is nothing.

Your heart sinks again. “Is this the right house, Chan?”

Chan looks pale. “Yeah. It is.”

“Is it overrun? Are they still in there?” You don’t know why you’re asking. Chan doesn’t know any more than you do.

“Only one way to find out.” Chan turns the car off, eyeing the herd around us. A lot of them have noticed you’ve arrived, and started making their way to the car. “We need to hurry, though.”

“And what if the house is overrun, Chan?” Your eyes widen. “If none of it is safe, we’ll die.”

“We’ll come back to the car then.” Chan hands you the baseball bat from the backseat, opting to use his knife so you won’t have to get close to the dead. “Swing at anything that moves. Aim for the head, obviously. You still have your knife?”

You flash it at him, gulping. “I watched The Walking Dead too, you know. In fact, I watched each episode twice.”

“No time, y/n. We need to go. Now.” He reaches over, putting a hand on your cheek. “No dying.”

“No dying,” you agree, tears in your eyes. “And Chan…”

He doesn’t look away, his own eyes glassy. The weight on your chest and the panic rising in your throat make it hard for you to speak, but you manage. “Thank you for everything.”

Chan nods, not trusting himself to speak without breaking. He can’t break, not now. He needs to get both of you through the field and into that house.

He’ll make sure of it, or he’ll die trying.

Halfway across the field, you notice how nice the farmhouse looks as you take out a walker in front of you. It is exactly the type of house you used to dream of owning, and if not for the life-threatening situation you were in, you might even stop to admire it. But nothing would ever be the same.

You’re not sure where Chan is, but you trust him. You can’t worry about his whereabouts right now if you want to make it.

Your foot gets caught on something, and you nearly faceplant into the grass. The wind is knocked out of you, and you gasp. The bat rolls a few feet away.

You climb to your knees in search of the bat when two walkers approach you in front, and another in back. You can feel the panic setting in, altering your judgment. What were you supposed to do again? Where were you?

Where is Hyunjin?

“Y/n! The bat!” Chan’s voice comes from your left, followed by a growl and a stab. You glance over and he’s too far to reach you. You can’t see the bat in the tall grass. This is it.

Why did you think you could take on this many when there’s only two of you?

Three quick gunshots are fired in succession, taking out the three walkers surrounding you.

They came from the house…

You finally get on your feet, looking towards the farmhouse. Standing on the porch are four unmistakable figures.

Jisung is in a torn t-shirt, aiming a gun to your right. Felix is shirtless, sporting black pants, shooting any walker that comes near Chan. Jeongin is a few steps into the grass, hitting walkers with a metal pole.

And a few feet in front of Jeongin, in all black clothes and some shit-stomping boots is Hwang Hyunjin, aiming a sniper in your direction. His dark hair has grown long enough to pull into a ponytail, which you haven’t seen him do in a while.

The world seems to slow as he lowers his gun. He is too far for you to be able to read his face, but the way his shoulders move, you think he knows. You’re not some random people seeking refuge. It’s Chan. It’s you.

Hyunjin’s eyes water, recognizing the shape of you. You’re alive.

Your eyes water. He’s alive.

“Y/N!” Hyunjin shouts, his voice breaking.

You let out a sob, almost falling to your knees once more. If you want him, you’re going to have to stay up. You find the bat next to you, running towards the house, swinging wildly at anything that comes near you.

Hyunjin can’t tell if he feels his heart being torn into pieces, or being put back together. All he cares about is that you’re alive. You heard the message, the one recorded before he found Jeongin and Felix. And now you were just a short run away from him.

He takes out a few more walkers with his firearm, then drops it near the house and pulls out a knife of his own, sprinting towards you, stabbing every walker in sight to clear a path.

He doesn’t have to go far, because you’ve made it up to the house and pounced on him, wrapping your arms around him and sobbing loudly. He squeezes you so tight that you can’t breathe, but you no longer care. If you died right here in his embrace, you’d be content.

He quickly turns and runs toward the house, running through the door and into their living room. He can cry for you later. Right now all he cares about is getting you out of harm’s way. He sits you on the couch, taking a second to look at you, as if you’re a ghost in front of him, as if none of this is real.

“Stay here, y/n. Do NOT move.” His voice cracks, a sob threatening to escape his throat.

“No, Jinnie, pleas-”

“Stay here, y/n. I mean it.” Hyunjin runs out the door again, knife in hand, stopping to glance back at you to make sure you didn’t disappear.

The urge to run to the window is strong, but you remain put, letting the tears you were holding in fall away. He’s alive.

He’s alive. He’s alive. He’s alive.

Across the room is Hyunjin’s bag, which you recognize from when he was in school. It is undoubtedly filled with supplies, but what catches your eye is the small photo next to the bag. It’s wrinkled a bit, and a corner is torn off, but you know what it is.

A printed photo of you that Hyunjin had taken at the park. You were under some trees, in a sundress, the wind blowing through your hair as if it were a movie. Of all the things Hyunjin grabbed when he made a run for safety, a photo of you was one of them.

Your heart swells.

A few minutes later, the boys come inside, Hyunjin first, followed by Chan. Then Felix, Jeongin and Jisung.

Chan kneels in front of you, covered in blood. “Are you okay?”

You nod, hugging Chan tightly. “We did it.” He strokes your hair, burying his face in your shoulder.

When Chan backs away, Hyunjin stands in front of you, breathing heavy.

“Y/N. Fuck.”

He finally breaks down, sobbing into your neck. You hold him tightly, letting more tears fall.

The rest of the boys look emotional, too. They sit and catch their breaths in silence, exchanging knowing glances and sad smiles.

“If money was still valuable, I’d say you owe me twenty.” Jisung elbows Felix, who shakes his head.

Hyunjin lets out a chuckle, wiping his eyes. “They knew about us.”

“Chan did too.” You smile, brushing his tears away with your thumbs. He gives you that warm smile you love so much, and even though his eyes are bloodshot and his cheeks are wet, he still looks like the Hyunjin you fell in love with. He still smells like home, despite all he’s been through.

And even though the world is scary and uncertain, you know he’ll stop at nothing to protect you.

You’d do the same for him, and worse.

thanks for reading! with love, sunghoons-mole

#hwang hyunjin #hyunjin #stray kids #skz #stray kids fic #skz fic #hyunjin fic #dystopian fic #dystopian #zombies

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iheartcake123 · 2 years

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Hello! 😅

Could I request a gwinam x reader where the reader is the class president who is dating gwi and always looks out for everyone ,according to her gwinan has changed into a better person, just before hell broke out in the cafeteria she figures out about everything and also about him se*ual*ly h*rrasi*g eunji (who is probably her best friend)

Just something angsty with a happy ending:D

hi, this will be split into 2 parts! this is the first part for you <3 sorry it took so long :)

☁️liar-yoon gwi-nam☁️

warnings: mentions of sexual harassment, bullying, cursing and zombies

Masterlist

Part 1

y/n had noticed eunji’ sudden change in behaviour. she barely spoke to her anymore and avoided y/n like the plague.

she didn’t understand why, especially since they were best friends. she loved eunji like a sister but now it seemed like they were just strangers.

“im surprised to see you without your annoying boyfriend” gyeong-su teased as he and cheong-san approached her.

“yeah yeah, whatever….we aren’t together all the time” she rolled her eyes playfully while holding back a small laugh “anyways what can i do for you both? you guys aren’t usually the type to just randomly start a conversation with me so im guessing you need something”

“yeah..actually i was wondering if you could get on-jo’s name off of the late list. just for today though!” cheong-san explained with an awkward smile “well you see, usually it doesn’t bother me that i sometimes make her late but i don’t want to deal with her telling my mum again ”

“ah i will do my best to get her name off of the late list but i can’t promise anything as the gym teacher makes my life difficult too” y/n told him with a bright smile and he nodded in response.

“even if you try, it’s better than nothing..honestly, thank you” cheong-san smiled as he knew that y/n would most likely succeed in getting on-jo’ name removed from the list as she cared about her class mates and always went beyond for them.

when y/n arrived into class, she immediately sat in her seat and checked her phone.

she had gotten a good morning text from gwi-nam and she hadn’t yet replied so that’s what she did. a smile on her face as he replied instantly wishing her a good day and that she would see him at lunch.

“why are you smiling at your phone so much” nam-ra suddenly appeared and sat in the seat next to her.

“i was just messaging gwi-nam…he’s really sweet and he’s changed so much from the bully that he used to be” y/n told nam-ra to which she just nodded before pulling out a text book and beginning to study.

as she stretched, su-hyeok approached her desk and she immediately raised an eyebrow.

again he wasn’t usually someone who would start a conversation with her.

“have you spoken to eunji recently?” he questioned and y/n gave him a confused look.

“no…why? we don’t really speak anymore” she sat up straight to pay attention to him.

“but you were her best friend? anyways it doesn’t matter just- it’s just gwi-nam- this morning at the construction site- they were- look when you get a chance, speak to her, okay?” su-hyeok told the girl and she nodded in response.

a pit of nerves grew in her stomach.

was something happening with gwi-nam or eunji?

she didn’t know but she would definitely find out.

these were the moments where she wished she was in the other class with eunji and gwi-nam so that she could talk to them immediately but no she would have to wait until lunch.

when lunch finally came around, y/n speed walked to the classroom where eunji and gwi-nam were but gwi-nam was already gone.

she instead walked up to eunji, stopping her in her tracks.

eunji looked confused and hurt by this.

“can we speak please?” y/n asked with a small smile and eunji reluctantly nodded “thank you, let’s go to the rooftop”

as they made their way onto the rooftop, y/n noticed how nervous eunji was.

she visibly looked sad and wouldn’t look directly at y/n.

“how have you been?” y/n tried to break the awkward silence.

“what did you want to talk about?” eunji cut straight to the point causing y/n to let out a sigh.

“its just that we don’t talk anymore and you seem so sad these days..su-hyeok mentioned to me that-” y/n was suddenly cut off and eunji went wide eyed.

“what did su-hyeok tell you? he didn’t mention anything about me right?” eunji seemed panicked as she held onto y/n’s shoulders in urgency to find out what su-hyeok had told y/n.

“no, he just mentioned that i should talk to you…is everything okay? you know you can trust me with anything, you’re my best friend”

eunji let go of y/n’ shoulders before just staring at the floor holding back her tears.

“i can’t tell you..i don’t want to ruin your happiness. you’re my only friend and i just wish you were in my classes” eunji said quietly before gesturing to the girl in front of her to leave.

“i promise, you won’t ruin my happiness. just please tell me so that i can help you deal with whatever it is” y/n placed a hand on eunji’ shoulder.

eunji thought about it for a second but she just shook her head “please just leave me alone”

y/n usually would’ve kept trying but she knew eunji wouldn’t budge once she decided something so instead she gave up and sent eunji a small smile.

“okay..just know i care for you okay?” y/n turned on heel while eunji turned to walk and lean on the rooftop ledge.

y/n took once last glance at eunji who now had her back turned to y/n. on her school shirt there was writing on it and she couldn’t help but wonder who had written on eunji’ shirt.

y/n knew that eunji used to get bullied by myung-hwan but they hadn’t bothered her for a while. maybe they started again and that’s why she was so withdrawn from the friendship?

y/n didn’t know.

a soft sigh escaped y/n’ lips as she made her way down the stairs to walk go the cafeteria.

luckily the walk to the cafeteria was longer than usual as she was on the other side of the school, so this gave her time to think.

su-hyeok had mentioned gwi-nam when telling her to talk to eunji so she tried to think why that was.

was gwi-nam bullying eunji?

there’s no way as he’d changed, right?

he didn’t bully anyone anymore, right?

as she approached the cafeteria y/n saw su-hyeok making his way out and that was her opportunity.

“su-hyeok!” she called and quickly went up to him.

“hm? oh hey y/n” su-hyeok smiled and y/n returned it.

“can i ask you something…please?”

“go for it”

“earlier you mentioned gwi-nam and eunji at the construction site. did something happen?” y/n finally asked and she felt her heart beat race.

she hoped that nothing bad had happened.

“well..i saw myung-hwan bullying eunji and cheol-soo. gwi-nam was helping bully them and they took a video of eunji without her shirt on” su-hyeok then said and as su-hyeok said those words y/n felt her heart drop.

she was angry and hurt that gwi-nam would help do those things especially to her best friend.

he’d told her that he didn’t bully anyone anymore but here she was hearing that he was bullying people.

after quickly greeting su-hyeok goodbye y/n walked into the cafeteria and up to her boyfriend.

“took you long enough to finally join me” gwi-nam teased leaning in and kissing y/n’ cheek.

she faked a smile as she thought of a way to gently approach the subject of him being a bully again.

“aren’t you getting anything to eat?” gwi-nam then asked as be swallowed some rice.

“no im not hungry, um do you mind if i borrow your phone so that i can post a picture of us on your story?” y/n then said reaching for his phone that he kept hidden in his pocket.

“oh uh, can you do that later? i don’t want my phone to be taken away” gwi-nam gulped slightly and y/n raised an eyebrow.

“i’ll be quick, don’t worry” she sent him a smile before reaching over again except this time gwi-nam held her hand to stop it from getting the phone.

“come on, i said later okay?” gwi-nam was now visibly nervous and that was y/n’s confirmation.

he really had bullied eunji.

“you’re a liar” y/n then said retracting her hand and gwi-nam’ facial expression completely changed.

he was now confused.

“what are you talking about?” he questioned turning his full attention to her.

“you’re a liar. you told me you don’t bully people anymore but you’ve been bullying eunji…”

“i don’t know where you heard that from but-”

y/n let out an amused laugh.

if she didn’t, she probably would’ve started crying instead.

“you know that i really care for you and like you but instead-” y/n was suddenly cut off as student began flooding into the cafeteria screaming. she immediately stood up in shock as she watched people cry and scream in desperation. her heart began to beat fast as the glass soon broke and suddenly students started biting other students.

she was frozen and her body couldn’t move.

was what she was seeing really happening?

it was only when she felt a hand grab hers when she broke out from her frozen state.

gwi-nam was begging her to follow him and of course she did. he lead her through the cafeteria pushing away zombies and into the cooking area where he made the pair hide.

“listen to me y/n.” he whispered to her rubbing her hand as she was zoned out.

“th-those are zom-zombies” she breathed out eventually looking at gwi-nam.

it was an understatement to say that she was scared.

it was beyond scared at this point.

“we can’t stay here forever, when it gets quieter we need to leave okay?” he explained and she just nodded in response.

it was their best chance for survival.

#all of us are dead #kdrama imagine #all of us are dead imagines #writing #all of us are dead fic #all of us are dead x reader #aouad imagines #kdrama x reader #aouad x reader #gwi nam #gwi nam imagine #gwi nam imagines #gwi nam x reader

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ever since my fat cbee posts i have been on a roll [hi hello im the fat cbee anon here to say ive been sending so many anon asks its so funny but youve just got my brain rolling so much. 10/10 would anon again. always get addicted to my favorite blogs and send like 10 anons a week. dang it. i see a pattern.] anyway im not every single anon, but a chunk of em, yeah! love sending anons about my brain juices late at night and waking up and reading answers n stuff. always fun.

anyway hi can you imagine a Michael who is very much so malnourished when cbee first find him in the Nether. and like his ribs are showing and theres so many bones showing, which isnt a joke because he literally has a hole in his head where you can see his skull and see his bones n stuff. and when cbee takes him home Tubbo and Ranboo make sure to feed him so so much and food he enjoys and stuff. because Tubbo was malnourished as a kid and it was Not Fun. and Ranboo doesnt know much but they sure do know they dont like the look of rib cages peeking through skin and bony arms and gaunt faces [thats why they keep their fur long enough that it covers their ridges and bumps before they gain weight but also not too long because it is considered 'unruly' to have long fur, at least back when they were a child in the End (thats one of the only fragments they remember. think of it like the stigma around body hair on women/fem people.)]

and so eventually Michael starts gaining healthy weight, and all of a sudden, the bones that arent supposed to be visible through his skin [not the holes. hes part zombie i know but zombies aren't supposed to be really thin when someone is only part zombie.] and Tubbo and Ranboo have to find new dresses* and sweaters and pants n stuff for Michael because he's actually growing! i imagine he might be a bit stunted, not quite reaching his full height because of the lack of nutrients he had during a very important development stage for gods know how long, but he does grow, and thats all that matters. hes got healthy chub and hes not so fragile anymore.

*imagining cbee as parents who buy whatever clothes are cute and fit their children, completely ignoring the fact that dresses and skirts are traditionally girl clothes because have you seen the two. those are not cis and whoever thinks they are are silly. they let their children pick out whatever clothes they find cute and comfortable. so if Michael or Wizard or Bug [do Wizard and Bug even wear clothes... thats a weird question but i mean. only ever seen Bug with fur n stuff but no clothes.. whatever] wanna wear a pretty pink skirt or a t-shirt with monster trucks on it, cbee dont care. this is also partly because Tubbo and Ranboo werent entirely allowed to wear whatever they wanted when they were younger [mainly Tubbo but still] and they want their children to have to choice to pick

HAIIII ANON THIS ASK IS SO GOOD THANK YOU (also yes bug does infact wear clothing! Just their ref doesn’t have clothing LMAO i promise Beeduo give their kids clothing)

BUT YEAH THIS IS HONESTLY REALLY FUCKING CANON TO ME there’s NO way that Michael was getting properly fed in the Nether considering it was literally BY HERSELF and ALSO A BABY. And Tubbo would TOTALLY have that like “oh fuck i cant give this baby the same childhood of being malnourished that i had” thought yk (ranboo not realizing they’re malnourished makes me so sad but is so fucking accurate wow) this ask rules thank you

#michael uses all pronouns to me btw #asks #anonymous #ALSO YEAH C!BEE NOT CIS WOO

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wildglitch · 3 days

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A long Side tangent for the WIZ!Spidey x DCU AU

A longish post on what I think happened to the other dimension travelers. This is gonna be semi canon with the other heros! Timeline I sometimes mention. This means some of what I say is canon, some might be subject to change, while others I have decided to write total bs for.

And YK what the best part is? You get to figure out which one is which :D

Since this is gonna be focusing on a lot of other characters that aren't Peter, this is gonna be a bit longer so the characters can get at least one paragraph to them.

This is mostly gonna be off the top of my head since I only know what happens to Loki, T'challa and Bruce. The others I'm gonna figure out as we go, so we are doing this together

Anyways- let's start.

-Ok so lets break this into sections

Main canon: the one every post is talking about unless I say otherwise. Yk, the main au

Other Heros: the au where I add characters that didn't show up in the show, but canonically they do exist in the main MCU timeline so theoretically they could also survive. Yk, the Daredevil au I wrote a bit about where everyone dies, this is if they live

Absolut BS: Is there gonna be bs in the other sections? Yes. Is there gonna be anything serious in this one? Absolutely not. This is for those sweet non canon MCU characters. I try to stick to canon as much as possible, but sometimes I get an idea so good I wanna add it, but refuses cause I gotta lay in the bed I made for myself (it's fine lol). This is for stuff we know aren't canon or are very heavily implied not to be in the MCU. Yk, for funsies, (and cause team red is missing its degenerate, yes Im weak Im sorry! Deadpool you still aint canon to this until your movie comes out! You too Logan!)

With those out of the way, lets start of with the

Main Canon

-So, starting off simple are the people on the ship. T'achalla in my opinion, looking at the movies, is weaker than Peter. And since Peter dies in most of his crashes if there is no interference, the answer is clear to see. After all, the black guy always dies first :^

...MOVING ON-

No, uhh, to not just leave it like that cause, yes, it's sad- I like to think that if he dies then his ancestors and powers let him transcend a bit to the point of minor godhood. Meaning that if there were ever a godly meeting the avatars had to attend to, Peter would be in for a big surprise

-Scott, wtf happened to you bro-

He survives due to the fact he had the cloak of levitation, he has no clue what happened and due to his lower weight, gets blown away by the wind, never to be seen again. So sad

...anyways he ended up in a box-

No clue how he got there. He just knows that one minute he was disoriented as hell in the sky, the next he's stuck in some crate in some magic labyrinth with no hope of rescue. Long story short, he's stuck there for many, many months.

Scott: How Am I Still Alive!?

-Bruce is the Hulk when he gets chucked into the DCU, he's also at an old abandoned military base...why are there people here?

Ya so, apparently the abandoned base he was Hulking out at against a bunch of Zombies, wasn't so abandoned in the DCU. In Fact it's one of, if not the most top secret base there is in the U.S military. So imagine with me, this X foot tall green beast appears out of nowhere and is in some sort of rampage at this super secure military base. You're welcome, I just put Bruce on the Villains list. I can see a few JL members or maybe some YJ kids showing up and dealing with him. And since we know that Hulk is sentient enough to make friends and enemies, Hulk is sent to some top of the line prison while Bruce is unconscious in the back seat. The JL try to interrogate him, but they only get vage half formed sentences about being weak (not a good look) people (Valkyrie, his best bro, is very much missed) and a mission (protect spider...Batman filed that one away for later)

-Bucky...Ha! No

I've proven to myself that I like his character enough to make him important to Peter's Character and the Plot (since when is there plot-) so Ima save him for another post.

-Thor (+Rocket and Groot)

These 3 didn't get split up, Surprisingly. They end up traveling through Africa (yes, the whole thing) trying to find their way back. Thor in his depressive state, keeps fighting and trying to find a way to his brother, since he could tell that whatever happened to them, it happened because of Loki.

Rocket and Groot are just there, since they're aliens who have never been to Earth before, they are just treating it like that. Though they do know something happened and they aren't really in the same place as before, they aren't struggling as much as the Earth natives. Thor is also having an easier time, but he keeps forgetting he isn't well known here. It's actually a bit refreshing.

Think of it like a road trip DnD adventure as they travel through Africa then Europe then Asia, trying to find his brother but having no clue where to go. Saving people and gaining a sort of reputation as “That nice aussie that saves people'' alongside “The raccoon and Groot” (Everyone loves Groot)

Rocket Is a good dad and is just there protecting Groot and scamming people. And Groot discovers the internet. They continue to save people because that's what they did with their family, so they will continue to do that even if they can tell it's just the two of them again.

-Loki, my God…you sneaky shit-

When I tell you, Loki dropped in the middle of a league meeting. Im telling you, he dropped in the MIDDLE OF A LEAGUE MEETING! JL Light, JL Dark, YJ, the Titans, literally everyone was there! Why? 1. The league has a yearly meeting where they try to get every superhero team and hero esc people in the room so they can touch base. 2. Loki's magic…scared the hell out of them. The meeting was really soon and all of a sudden they get a really strong magic signature tearing reality apart? Yeah, they are gonna move the meeting up by a week to see what the heck is going on. Only for this British fuck to drop onto the table just ozzing out the energy they where Looking for. Yeah, you can bet all hell broke loose.

Loki gets locked in a cell on the tower as they try to figure out who he is, but they have absolutely no experience with his realitys magic so they can't get anything off of him. Some of the more godly inclined (Captain Marvel) can tell that he's a god from another universe, but comes to the conclusion that it's best to just let things play out.

Loki:...

CM:...

Loki: you’re quite the interesting child

CM: nOPE! You’re on your own. Good luck with that.

The hero's try interrogating him, trying to find out what he wants, and Loki is just like “nuh uh” and is just enjoying his time in his cell like the chaos god he is. Obviously he's playing all of them and getting info off of every single one of them, figuring out slowly where the other people could be and sending Peter to investigate the leads. Could he escape? Absolutely, he has walked to the kitchen more times than he cares to mention. Will he leave? No, he is in the most strategically useful place at the moment so he will stay there screwing with Batman until the League get bored of interrogating him. There are moments where they think he means no harm, and while that is true, it also means they might kick him from the tower, and he can't have that. Besides, scaring the Flash in front of everyone to keep his danger status is just so much fun.

And that everyone that should be in the Main Canon, onto

Canon Divergents: Other Heros.

Ok, so I like to think, personally, that everyone on this list died a horrible gruesome death before the episode started. But I can tell that some people like to keep them alive, and what is this if not just us having fun right? So this is a little “what if '' of the “what if ''. I don't know why they weren't in the episode, maybe they left, maybe they thought they were dead, maybe they were on another mission, who knows, you choose. But like I said, this is for fun so I’ll let you lil’ brains figure it out.

Lets start of with

-Kamala Khan. Ok so with this, Ima play with the timeline again. We never get confirmation if she blipped or not, but I don't think so(correct me if I'm wrong). So looking at her age I’d say she's around 16? In the year 2024 (holy shit thats this year-) so in 2018 when the blip/ the episode happened she would have been 10-11

You see my vision? Little 10 year old Kamala was possibly one of the youngest kids of the group, so her getting chucked into the DCU can only land her in one place. Foster care. You can make the argument that months of zombies made her jaded and able to survive the apocalypse and thus the streets considering I gave her the bangles. But I honestly think she was found right away and protected by everyone because of her age no matter the fact she has the bangle. She’s so small, it doesn't even fit her right. I think she's still a sweet, excitable little girl that is traumatized, but spent most of her time at the base being protected and cheering the others up.

So, her being this excitable and happy gets placed into many foster homes. But she also has trauma and issues so the family realizing she's not an “easy” kid sends her back, moving her around a lot. I can totally see Peter actually finding her but the only thing keeping him from getting to her is the constant address changes and his lack of funds.

-Darcy Lewis is truly in her 2 broke girls era as she takes the Identity of “Max” and starts working at a shitty Cafe.

-Moon Knight system

Remember how I said that only Jake was present for the Zombie Apocalypse? Well-

M: 8 MONTHS!?

S: Where are we!

M: 8 months!

S: What happened?

M: 8. Months.

S: Why weren't we here! Wait as second we- who are you 2?!

M: 8. Months…

S: Ahhhhhhhhh

J: *end me now* ( o_o)

Ya so instead of them trying to find the others, the 3 of them are actually trying to learn how to live with each other. The multiple Identities and accents are throwing Peter off

-Barton children

Ok Ima rapid fire this

Lila: somehow ends up with the arrows and being her fathers daughter, shows them up. Artimist likes her a lot

Cooper: He ends up in (you decide) city, and being his mothers son, starts doing some spy shit trying to find the others.

Nathen: lil’ baby somehow showed up at the Kents farm instead of his, and they sort of just …*adopt*. He's good friends with Jon.

Bonus points: Pizza dog is found as a Puppy by the kid and adopted as “emotional support” and “I must protect this poor dog, he doesn't have an eye for pete's sake!”

(These can not all happen, you gotta pick one kid for your hc cause I refuse to let all of the kids live no matter the au. The angst potential is the best part people)

-Last but not least Matt

He was found by a Church, the church sent him to the hospital, the hospital called him insane and sent by a psych ward, the psych ward said nope and sent him to arkham. He's pissed about it but like the reasonable guy he is, understands. Lots of the guys in there call him a “wanna be batman”.

He has no clue who that is but he is deeply offended.

I can totally see Peter finding him within a few days of looking and just going to visit him under the guise that he's his son.

Peter:...

Matt: …

Peter: *glare*

Matt: soooo, how have you been?

Peter: I Thought You Were Dead!

Peter cant get Matt out cause Matt keeps beating the other rouges up. Peter is so done with his shit and Matt regrets nothing. That 2 face piece of shit had it coming.

Bonus point for the Batfam finding out Peter’s “Father” is in arkham. Just Bruce and Matt having the most awkward silent meeting. Neither talk for like 15 minutes at first. It's glorious.

+Miles morales. Oh you thought I was done? Tf I am! He's canon to the MCU so I’m rolling with it. Timeline wise, I’d say he's about 6-8 years old give or take. He can either A: get the spider powers and survives just like Peter until they find him, and Peter taking him under his wing, or B: im being the only person Peter could save because…idk, maybe he was having a confrontation with Aaron at his apartment and it turns out Miles was there cause he wanted to go trick or treating with him and is wearing a spiderman custom, awww, and kinda awkward for the two (mostly Aaron). Zombies come in, and Aaron sends Miles with Peter because yk, good Uncle. Yeah that works-

Miles' face is planted right in the center of brooklyn and like the good boy he is, waits for someone he knows to find him, (if lost, wait at the spot you are until they find you). He tells people his guardian is Peter Parker, but since Peter is going under a different allies, they can't find him. But Miles is determined and decides that he needs to stay In Queens so that Peter can find him, he knows he will.

And that wraps up that part which leads us to

Total Bull Shit

Yep, this is for those sweet non MCU canon characters. (No other fandom ones though, I haven't fallen that far from grace) (with this au at leasts)

These are just for the sillies and won't be canon unless they somehow become canon to the MCU (*stares intensely at Deadpool and Wolverine* sooooon)

-Wade Wilson

We all have seen the trailers ok, I see him, he's coming, we have all waited for this. And not only is he coming to the MCU but his reasoning works really well with this fic. He's crossing dimensions to fix the timeline and shit and he somehow gets chucked into this storyline as he's doing it. With his awesome fourth wall breaks, I can just see him showing up in Gotham for a bit, causing shit, and breaking Matt out of Arkham because he wants to do the Team Red thing. I can totally see him being super excited about meeting his first spidey lol. And Peter and Matt are just in a constant state of “wtf” as they deal with this guy that is apparently from the same multiverse and Universe(?) as them. Also, apparently it shouldn't even be possible for them to be in this universe, so that's fun

They warm up to each other and end up having a bit of fun I swear. He wont stay for long cause I can see this as being like a quick side plot in both the AU and the movie as he tries to get back to whatever he's doing.

-Logan. He's there for like a Minute, he gets there trying to get wade back to whatever they are doing, and ends up getting stuck too. Peter and Matt help them get back to whatever they were doing and when they offer a way back to their home, they say no for a number of reasons. Logan still ends up giving them a dimension hopping thing just in case.

-Andrew!Spidey from the main timeline NWH. Techincally hes canon, but hes also kinda owned by Sony so ima let this slide. Hes there for like just a minunte ok- he gets pulled into Deadpools And Wolverings Shit and decides “Fuck it, we ball” and helps the out. He sees little WIZ!Peter and thinks, “Holy shit, I just saw you!” and tells Peter about the weird shit he just went through with the other version of him and Peter is just amazed. Like “wow, a world where my friends are alive, a world where no Zombies came and destroyed the lives of the people I love. A world where I got to have more time with aunt May….must be nice”

Sorry-

Also- *has flashbacks to Andrew Garfield and Ryan Renolds kissing and the canonical list of people Deadpool is allowed to cheat with. ( o_o)

DP: heya hot stuff

A!S: No.

DP: yes

Wiz!P: Wtf is happening

DD: Look away kid

*Deadpool and Spidey comic dynamic of full display*

-Harry Osborn.

Peter: Hey Harry, who are those guys?

Harry: idk, my dad is working with these biochemists for a company from Russia. I think the name was some Greek monster? I don't really care.

Peter: Oh ok, I'm gonna say hi to them

Harry: Sure, but be mindful of the creatures they’re working on

Peter: Got it!

Boom there’s your origin story. Peter just wanted to say hi to the nice looking Hydra agent and Harry let him.

Could we have him be hobgoblin alongside Peter when they are in gotham? Sure. Have it be like a nice spider that does no harm and his mean goblin bodyguard. Except it's the spider who can truly kick your ass. Also, just the absolut drama these 2 can have with each other is just *chefs kiss*

-Gwen Stacy

Just- just Gwen dude. Maybe she's from the DCU and they have a meet cute at a coffee shop. Maybe Peter Meets this super cute girl hiding out in a lab in the middle of the apocalypse. Maybe she's dead. Idk, idc, I love Gwen’s and Peter’s dynamic in TASM movies and I can see a traumatized dark humor version with these 2. Just give Peter his Girlfriend pls

-Johnny Storm is one of Peter's best superhero friends in the comics. Spidey's first appearance is also in a FF comic, so it just feels right. Just integrate that into the story and you're golden. I can see them having inside jokes and stuff no one will ever get cause “you had to be there”.

-Nova, because I'm pulling from my experience with the 2012 show. No, I bring him in because I think it could add not only to Peter's character but also rockets and groots, considering they just heard the Xandar was destroyed, and all of a sudden they find this kid with an old bucket. They’re gonna get some feels, small as they might be.

Also, the ultimate 2012 team may have treated Peter like shite, but with better writing and stuff, these 2 could have been good friends. Sadly that doesn't really translate that well in the show imo.

Uhhhhh, anyone else for this monster of a post? No. Ok cool-

Idk when I'm gonna post the next part of the main lore stuff, but I'm gonna post this and some DC p.o.v's to flesh out some stuff. I might also post a bit of art and another fic in between the posts.

This is too long- have fun with this while I go pass out for a bit lol

#peter parker #crossover #dcu #mcu #zombie au #au #im not tagging everyone #i dont hate myself that much #wiz!au #mcu x dc #what if #Im gonna figuer out the rest of the tags later #enjoy this word vomit ig #long post

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sillyengineerperson · 10 days

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My very official notes on Found Heaven by Conan Gray (but with added context because it was initially written for my friend who understands most of the references i make)

My thoughts while listenting to found heaven at 12am bc what even is sleep?

(also i have to get up a 4 to go to France🙃)

Right here we go song uno

Found heaven:

whoa snazz

Choir

Ahhhh

Michael Jackson much?

😍😍😍😍🥰

I LOVE THIS

OHMIGOD AHHHHHHH

THIS IS SO SNAZZY

ITS STRANGELY BIBLICAL

What???

I don't think its going to be my favourite but still slayyhth- edit: its so much better than I initially thought

Song dos

Never ending song:

we already know I love this (Context: yes i was dancing around in my kitchen to this when i was suposed to be revising for GCSEs)

Yaaaasdd vibes

I feel like it's GCSES AGAIN🥲(Context: this song came out in the first week of GCSEs so i listened to it a lot when i was revising and also the bus back home after an exam)

NOSTALGIA BUT WEIRD AND WITH TUNA MELTS (thats what I had for lunch most days during exams) (Context: I have very oddly specific feelings and vibes acociated with that period of my life)

Ooooooooonnnnnnn

Slay cone

Song tres

Fainted love:

Je suis scared

Its either going to be a yas queen slay or break me

ohhhbh

Me encanta

LOVE IT

SLaaaayyyyyyyy

Play it on toouurrr I beg

This is sooooooo good

Yes king I love you

After listening to this about a billion times more this song is absolutely EVERYTHING AHHHHHHHHHH

Song cuatro

Lonely dancers:

we know this is not my cup of tea (Context: im so sorry to everyone but I just don't like it that much. its still vibes though :) )

But the vibes are still there

So mini silent dance party in my room

🕺🕺🕺🕺🕺🕺🕺🕺🪩🪩🪩🕺🕺🕺🪩🪩🪩

Song cinco

Alley rose:

THIS SONG IS EVERYTHING

TIME TO CRY

AHHHHH❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️🌹🌹🌹💔💔💔

DONT LEAV ME HANGING ALONE AGAAINNNN

du du du du du on the piano

DOTN EEEEVEN CAREEEEE

😭😭😭

yes

beautiful

i love

Song seis

The final fight:

intrigued

I don't know

Hmmmmmm I'm worried

Oh silence

Is it supposed to be completely silent???

No its not something went wrong with my spotify 😂

I really sat there for a whole minute and a half waiting for something to happen

Right anyway

Oooooo drums

GUITAR

BASS

YES CONE

PREACH

NO DONT CRY

ME TOO

it's giving early 2000's movie montage scene where the main character has a huge revalation

He had his moment🙌

AHHH IT REMINDS ME OF THAT SONG FROM ZOMBIES 2 OR HSM 2 WHEN GABRIELLA LEAVES (Context: so in zombies the main characters have a song where its sort of a breakup song but also a thing where they're expressing how they don't feel like they fit in -which is a whole thing that I could rant about bc she literally thinks shes special for having white hair and obviously she's so oppressed because of that and then obviously the zombies have it so much easier even though there are literally laws that are in place to controll them even though they're completely safe and very human like now. I should not get this worked up over a disney channel movie- the song is called Gotta find where I belong. and then in HSM 2 I'm just refering to when Gabriella quits the country club and breaks up with troy)

Song siete

Miss you:

this better be absolutly heart wrenching

ooooooooo

Wut

Slay

He's a king

YES YES YES

his vocals are amazing

That was a straight vibe (edit from later: not straight like heterosexual. I mean it's jsut very vibey)

I'm still waiting for the saddest song of all time but he's killing it so far

Song ocho

Bourgeoisieses:

there's a whole process to typing that

um HELLO

OH MY GOODNESS

Music video when?

Kinda basic song structure (I have no idea what I meant by this) but it's soooooo good

play this on tour it's yes

Song nueve

Forever with me:

please be sad

don't ask why i want it to be sad

i don't know

YES

PIANO

I HAVE HIGH HOPES

YES YES YES

OHHHHHHHH

CONAN

NOT THE MAGIC SOUND

DONT BE SORRY

THIS IS BEAUTIFUL

OOOH HIGH NOTES

KEY CHANGE

AHHHHHHH

Kinda evil cone?

And whats with the wind sound?

Song diez

Eye of the night:

if it's not witchy eye of the tigeri'm sueing

that's all ive been expecting since i saw the name

whoa!!!

Bro am i wrong with my prediction though??!!😂

This is a vibe

It really is witchy eye of the tiger

🪩🪩🪩

🕺🕺🕺🕺🕺🕺🕺🕺🕺🕺🕺🕺🕺🕺🕺🕺🕺🕺🕺🕺🕺🕺🕺

GIUTARRRRRRR

AHHHH THE KEY CHANGE

HES ON ANOTHER LEVEL

literally 😏

Song once

Boys & girls:

bi anthem!??

maybe

yes

hello

Vibes

Yeah cone you're wrong they dont

Very vibes

Yeah no same

Okayyyyy

The vibes are there

substance maybe less (I really don't know what I thought I was hearing but my opionion has changed)

Loved it though

Song doce

Killing me:

I LOVERRR THIS SONGGGGG

ITS 2 AM

NO WE HAVENT

YES YOU DO

OOOOOOHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

YOURE KULLIBG ME

FREEREEE MEEEEEEE

YOURR UCH A GOI ACTOR

GO AWAY

OHHHHHHHHBHB

KILLING

LUCKY YOU ARRRRRAAREEEE

BU BU BU BU BU BU BU BU

BU BU BU BU BU BU

YOUR KILLING ME

OH I WANNA DIE

BUT YOU KEEP ME ALIVE

HUH

song trece

Winner:

final slay

This song is everything (I'm only just realising how many times i've said that)

AT MAKING ME FEEL WORSE

WINNNNEEEERRRRR

PEW PEW

WINEEEEEEEEERRRERERERRRR

SLAY PIANO

YOUR THE ONE WHOLE KET IT GET THIS BAAAAAD

YOUR CHAOS

WHHHHKKKKKOOOAAAJJAJHA

NIW YOU REALLY ARE THE WIIUUINNERRRRR

Laaaaaa laaa la la lalala laaaaa la

ahhhhhhh je suis deceased

Conan slay has slayed once again to slayingly produce another very very slay album

👏👏👏👏👏👏👏👏👏👏👏👏👏👏👏👏👏👏

I think right now my favourite of the new songs is fainted love

but yes

i need sleep bc i'm getting up in 3 hours

it's 1:17

ahhhhhhhh

okay

i need sleep

bye bye

🕺🕺

so that was it

my opinions have probably changed slightly but ahhhhhh this album is so good and i definitly have some more things to say about the songs that I've noticed but thats enough for now because I have a maths test to revise for

#found heaven #conan gray #coneeee #conehead #fainted love #alley rose #superache #never ending song #lonely dancers #cg3 #ohmugod #this album is so good #elly reviews music unhinged #elly reviews music

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trashmouth-richie · 22 days

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Ziggy you are a mum? Never knew that!

I try not to let all the tik tok mums get to me because i know half of it is scripted and fake for views but it does get to you sometime because boy do i not have my shit together compared to them.

What you said about losing your identity is real though, and trying to find that again whilst also being a mum is so freaking difficult.

And yeah these past few years since having my son have been the worst for my body image, like nothing is the same, and dropping the baby weight afterwards, even harder, like all I wear is over sized band tees and jeans basically, stopped dying my hair, rarely wear makeup etc

My writing on here is my escape, its where i can just be me and not have that mum label attached to me 24/7. But i am trying to find new ways to get back to me again this year and try get out of that post baby funk.

i am! my kids are 7 & 8 ❤️❤️

it is!!! like i feel like so much of our time is just worrying about whether the baby has this or that and if they’re happy and fed yknow? which duh is so important but you lose yourself in that process and it’s soooo sad and so hard to even realize that you’re just basically walking around like a zombie.

triggering content under the cut: depression, weight gain + loss, suicide ideation etc

i gained so much weight with my kids and being depressed it was terrible, i worked a job that’s i thought i loved but truly made me so miserable that i would have panic attacks on the way to work, throw up in my car, even thought about crashing my car so i wouldn’t have to go in.

i hated myself so so much i didn’t see the point in looking in mirrors or dressing nice.

now, i have a job where i can basically wear whatever i want so i take advantage of that, and it has helped so much. s4 of stranger things and joseph quinn have really opened my eyes to who i am and who ive been hiding away for yeeeears.

getting on the right medication, writing, finding good people to chat with that aren’t fucking insane dickesds— it all helped make me feel confident enough to want to have sex and to feel good and sexy while doing it.

tiktok moms make me feel so shitty lmaaao like? how are you that put together all the time? how do you enjoy scrubbing baseboards? i don’t get it, and a lot of the times i have to limit my time on tiktok because ill spiral out of control of hating myself.

truthfully— if it weren’t for lexapro and wellbutrin i wouldn’t be here today… i don’t do well with therapy but maybe that is something you could also look into?

i truly hope you find a good balance and are able to see the light out of the baby blues— im here if you ever wanna chat! i’m also on discord 😘

♥️♥️ don’t be a stranger

#ziggys asks #send me your secrets

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desperate2lose · 9 months

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hi, i’m Des. i haven’t had an @na/mi@ account since i was probably 14. that was the last time i was thin. all my life i have had weight issues, which i now know are due to PCOS (i’m ftm, have been for 12 yrs). the only 2 times i was ever thin were when i was 9 because i played sports, and when i was 14 because i was r3stricting. i’m 5’6, and i should be somewhere in the 120-150 range to be considered healthy. my lowest was 130 in high school. i’m currently at my highest, somewhere between 250-280. at about 18 i started ballooning, rapidly gaining weight no matter how much i worked out. since then i’ve rel@psed a couple times but it never stuck because i was so scared of being how i was in high school.

back then i was a zombie. due to mental health issues but also because of my ed. i was constantly tired and sad and i wanted to be a skeleton. i preferred being d3@d thin rather than fat and alive. i don’t feel that way anymore. i don’t want to be underw3ight, i don’t want to d!3. i want to be thin, i want to lose.

i’m aware that reverting to this lifestyle and r3stricting isn’t the healthy way to lose. however, it’s the only thing that has worked for me in the past. and i believe it’s the only way to regain my self control. i definitely b!nge sometimes for emotional reasons and i am not okay with that. whenever i’ve tried to diet in a “healthy” way, i fall off of it, or i don’t hold myself accountable enough.

i feel like i’m the type of person where if i say i’ll only eat 1200 cals it turns to 1500. if i say i’ll only eat omad it’ll end up being tmad. so my theory is that i have more than enough to lose, so if my goal is to eat n0thing, i’ll probably fail but still progress.

some things i’m trying to avoid:

• ending up malnourished

i plan on taking vitamins and if i do eat, making sure it’s the right type of food to get me thru my physical job/working out/life.

• my mental health declining

i’ve been working very hard on my mh and i’m not going to throw that away. so i’ll be tracking my moods and modifying what/how much i eat to keep myself stable.

• “⭐️vation mode”

i dont want to end up keeping my fat on because my body goes into this mode. so i’m gradually going to reduce my calories over probably 6 weeks.

• going under my ugw

if i even hit my ugw it’ll be a miracle, but i don’t want to become so @ddicted to r3stricting that i continue rather than maintaining if i eventually get there.

• my loved ones finding out

i plan on making it seem like im just changing my lifestyle. i don’t want to lie, so i’m hoping no one will notice.

• failing

pretty much the only perk of me being obese right now is that my doctor wants to put me on appetite suppressants. i just have to figure out which i’d rather have, do some bloodwork, and then i’m golden.

DISCLAIMERS

i’m not in the mindset to be swayed into not r3l@psing. so pls don’t try to convince me.

i’m not fatphobic. i don’t see anyone worth less no matter what their body looks like. this is solely about me and how i see myself.

i’m not into shaming/triggering each other on purpose to promote progress. you can do that but leave me out of it. if i see anyone insulting me, i’m blocking them, period.

i (in general, sometimes i have bad days) do not hate myself. i understand that this corner of the internet tends to have a lot of self hatred, sh, etc. that’s not where i am in life. this is strictly about w3ight to me. if you are sewer slidal, post sh, talk about sh, or constantly post self hatred, i probably won’t follow you. i hope you love yourself soon though.

any tips on how to lose/vitamins to take/recipes/etc are appreciated.

so thats basically it. im gonna be blogging some kind of mix between ana and d!et stuff. some healthy stuff. some not healthy stuff. i’m not trying to fit in any boxes, just trying to figure out what works for me because i am so fucking desperate to lose at this point.

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