#it kind of broke my heart

[naturecalls111]

Me, consuming any other media ever: how can I make this about zosan

#nc111 talks #zosan #this is about me playing fe3h for the eighteen billionth time and finding little delusional concepts in sylvix that makes me go #'nod nod nod that's so zosan of them so true' #like objectively it really isn't zosan of them at all but sometimes I see it between the lines and I'm like oh zosan sunglasses emoji #if you dare me i can even find the lawlu in sylvix im so talented #I'm not even kidding if someone made a game out of turning things into zosan i would never lose #i had an ant infestation in my bathroom the other day and I made it about zosan #my brother was like WE HAVE BIGGER ISSUES THAN YOUR YAOI RIGHT NOW #like........ there is no bigger issue than my yaoi at any given moment.....ever.......... #whispers although I have to admit I enjoy the sylvix dynamic more than i do the zosa- *gets shot* #im so sorry there's just only so much bickering i can take before i'm like *smacks ship* I NEED YOU TO BE MORE BLATANTLY KIND TO EACH OTHER #In a way that doesn't feel so teeth-gritty or. well. OOC. LOL #Anyone who likes sylvix AND zosan will know what i mean I'm not going to explain it. iykyk #WAIT LMAO IM NOT DONE. EDIT: #when my first boyfriend broke up with me i was a melodramatic little shit about it #had a diary that i would like pour my heart into and the other day i came across it #and it's really telling that my first thought was “omg.... so zosan-” LIKE GIRL GET A GRIP YOU ARE DETACHING FROM REALITY #all for zosan CRIES ALL FOR ZOSAN...

[orcelito]

ok forreal. in trigun 98, vash singing Rem's song alone while looking at the stars & then Meryl joining in as she goes to sit with him... means So Much to me...

they are Everything...

#speculation nation #fanny watches trigun #trigun #vashmeryl #I CANNOT DENY IT IM A 98 VASHMERYL TRUTHER #this is probs legit one of my fav scenes in this anime. it was just so sweet... #vash agreeing that an idle life with the girls would be pretty nice... #& this being during the middle of his moral crisis post-legato... #vash singing rem's song alone broke my heart. and then meryl joining in gave me EMOTIONS... #they are... so sweet.... giving me Cavities man #trigun spoilers/ #Kind Of

[medicalunprofessional]

flood

~♫

#caligosto loboto #dr loboto #psychonauts #nightmaretheater #if you havent noticed i reaaally like flood by tool #this took 10 hours combined time of drawing 🕊️🕊️🕊️redid the sketch like 5 times lik #this is actually kind of personal to me…. #as a child i had a reeaaaallly oppressive fear of my house flooding #like. i couldnt bare to hear a faucet running. thats how bad it was #all those flood damage relief commercials on tv scared me. #i very distinctly rememebr on of a house flooding thru the floor vents very quickly. and at the end the front door broke down.. scary #the psychological damage young me endured from the commercials #also ignore the wonky perspedtive on the crib i kind of exploded after trying to perspective for like an hour straight #its okay. it works. geometry is just weird in the psychonauts world #sheds a tear #oh the horrors..!.!.!!.! yipes #this is my ‘bobo exposed heart image’ to the cycle knots fanbase. real ones would know #drawing this was an experience man #thats why i vanished for a bit… sorry. ‘hey johnny got into str-‘ dont care im making a masterpiece #okay enough rambling im sorry #tips down glasses. send post

[crazyspookies]

“You know that’s not one of your strong suits, right?“

#cyberpunk 2077 #cp77 #johnny silverhand #v #i had to take off his beard cause i was trying out some face textures #im not sure if i just...wasn't looking at him on my first playthorugh or mayb the beard was in the way and made him look more teasing #but i saw the smile this time and it broke my heart a little??? fond but also kind of sad #killed me dead #does he do this expression if you have a bad relationship with him??? #im really wondering now #nope he doesn't #he throws u on the floor lol maybe thats what happened in my first playthrough? #i didn't have a bad rel with him but he also does it if you cut him off with a pill at some point #and i *think* i did that once #my stuff

[itscuntingseason]

playing disco elysium again, but this time i'm really paying attention to all the side quests and making the most of it (i literally finished the game on day 5 in my first run), except i took on the case of "finding working class husband" and then i remembered..... the dead drunk guy i found during my first run :(

#text #disco elysium #my heart breaks for working class woman i was so sad when i realised who her husband was #that line of 'he is a kind and helpful man and he's also a drunk' #it's so painful when you know someone is caring and kind but they still suffer from addiction #working class woman #harry du bois #kim kitsuragi #her line about how his addiction just makes her feel so helpless broke me too

[katagawajr]

i don’t think i saw anyone post it, but this is the conversation haru has with yusuke about why her weapon of choice is an axe 🥺

(bonus:)

#persona 5 #haru okumura #yusuke kitagawa #I LOVE HARU LORE!!! ;-; #like.. haru believing that her dad telling her to stop chopping but letting her do it secretly was him being kind…. WAUUGHH #she deserves the world :’( poor girl… but yeah i didnt expect her to have specific weapon based lore it broke my heart

[american-belgian-waffle]

Might f*ck around and get a Dood tattoo

#I have depression #also i'm broke #all joke aside this show help me throught one of the worst time of my life and I kind of want a trace of it #and dood as a special place in my heart #dungeons and daddies #dndads #dndaddies #dood #the doodler

[mandyfem]

Those "four simple words" are stripping women of their rights,buddy.

It's also an incorrect statement.

If supporting trans rights is the most important thing you've done in your life so far,it's quite sad tbh.

He is a nerdy guy who used to discuss about videogames.

He began his transition 5 months ago and not to coddle him,but he said in a live that he lost his mum some years ago and now his dad is sick too.

This guy desperately needs someone to talk to so of course he would feel welcomed by a cult community that constantly love bombs you as long as you comply.

The trans movement preys on vulnerable people and it shows.

Transitioning isn't gonna alleviate your pain,work on how to build confidence and develop a personality! Therapy works.

(would work on this case at least)

#trans madness #gender critical #radical feminism #video #radblr #terfblr #male violence #radical feminist safe #moids #gender ideology #he still perpetuates patriarchy in a way or another by spewing trans bs so no pity for him #the cultists hype you up by giving u the false impression that you're doing something extraordinary #so ofc an awkward looking guy with no aspirations would be dragged in #it's so clear #may his mom rest in peace #she looked so beautiful and kind and full of will to live #it broke my heart

[windy-apple]

#bob odenkirk #brba #the comic relief lawyer guy broke my heart into a million pieces #anyway... #sauljimmy scene sunday #because he is still jimmy to me #kind of hypnotized by how long his fingers are in that second gif dont look at me #ginormous bob hands

[chilled-ice-cubes]

deon in intkot c1: kyaaaa~! i'm a human, but i'm a commander in the demon king's army?? i need to make sure they don't realise i'm just a weakling >_<

deon in intkot c161: i am alone in the world and have destroyed all the people who loved me unconditionally. i am a pawn in the games of those more powerful than me. i force myself to keep living for revenge and enact the cycle of violence on others because that's the only thing i know.

#adding 161 specifically bc that chapter broke my heart #the chapter where the rweche king parallels deon in asking if magic can bring the dead back to life was also. very. 😵‍💫 #anya.txt #intkot #i'm not that kind of talent

[lyriumsings]

baldurs gate is so funny it’s just

laezel &shadowheart: let’s break you outta this religious cult!

wyll & gale: let’s break you outta this unhealthy relationship!

astarion & karlach: let’s break the people who broke you!

that’s it that’s the game

#halsin is like let’s break you out of this monumental weight you keep putting on yourself #i could write pages on halsin tbh like #he really glosses over his own pain and like he’s not looked after #like the comments you can make about him being good for helping carry stuff #the way he can say ‘my heart can wound’ #if you end things with him and then take it back (i reloaded the save i just wanted to see DJSJS) #and it broke my heart like people just see him as this big strong guy to push responsibility on to #who can protect everyone all the time and he can but like no!! i’m protecting YOU get in my pocket #acknowledge your past trauma don’t gloss over it #he’s very similar to astarion imo #in the way that both kind of seem like they don’t need help #or act like it rather but to different extremes #halsin cares about everything all the time and shoulders the burden #astarion elected to not care about anything ever and preserve himself bc no one else would #i’m obsessed with their poly and how they both desperately need to be cared for in vastly different ways that are somehow still so similar #lyriumsings txt #bg3 #spoilers #anyway this was supposed to be a silly post i got lost in my feels DKSJDJDJS

[fvcking-panda]

Here's the thing:

Gareth is not canonically short, in fact, the actor who plays Gareth is actually around the same height than Noah Schnapp, both are in the average height.

BUT he looks smaller besides the Corroded Coffin members and that’s why everyone thought that Gwydion was short, but he’s kinda not, just has the bad luck to have a lot of giant co workers 💀

#this doesnt mean that you should put him tall in your hcs #im only saying this because is hillarious to me #but yeah Gareth has short king energy and i love it #but c'mon you have to admit is funny in perspective #anyway im gonna add the greatwise tag in this one because i realized that he and Noah share the same height by looking at it #and it broke my heart into a million of pieces 'cause i was so sure that we had the angry short chihuaha and the gigant kind trope #so i took the info and went with my hcs pretending it doesnt exist because Gareth is a short king idc #gareth stranger things #gareth emerson #gareth the great #greatwise #st4 vol2 #gwydion lashlee walton

[53v3nfrn5]

“So be careful and be kind”

Sadé Adu from ‘Somebody Already Broke My Heart’ (2000)

#sade #sade adu #helen folasade adu #somebody already broke my heart #music #music quotes #quotes #life quotes #kind #kindness #love

[thesadboy]

Fuck what the maesters and Jaehaehae have to say, I personally think that Saera and Viserra did  regularly bicker and fight as siblings do but they also did love and look out for each other. Let me have healthy sister relationships in the ASOIAF world for once.

#mine own postsss #ASoIaF #dexreadsbooks #dexreads asoiaf #saera targaryen #viserra targaryen #anti jaehaerys targaryen #jaehaehae can choke on his own dick tbh #all her sisters disliked her to some degree yeah but who doesn't feel that way towards their siblings? #I just get the vibe that they went out of their way to demonize Saera #who probs was just acting out due to being spoiled but also craving the attention her older siblings got :(( #it's common for toxic families to have golden children who can do no wrong and scapegoat children who always do everything wrong #not out of the question for Jaehaehae's family given the kind of parent he is #can you imagine how much saera's heart broke when she learned about viserra's death :(( #dexrants #fuck jaehaehae all my homies hat jaehaehae

[ctrl-lupin]

He's too nice!!

#see!! this!!!! this is what breaks my heart about twcfm!lupin !! #people say he's a darker version of lupin #but he's not!!!! he's really not!!!! #he's so nice and caring but he's been thrown into this dark dark world he has to survive in #and whereas jigen and fujiko both got deeply traumatized and turned toward violence #and goemon was forced into violence and is getting traumatized by it #lupin says no!!! i will still be kind!!! i will still help others even if it's not in my interest!!! #stop saying twcfm!lupin is a dark lupin!!! #twcfm is dark but lupin is still his happy go lucky chaotic self who helps people for no reason other than he can!! DESPITE IT ALL!!! #HHHHHHHHHHHHHH #this scene kind of broke me to be honest #lupin iii #twcfm #The Woman Called Fujiko Mine #takeshi koike

[mishapen-dear]

(ao3)

The worst thing, Bad knows, is the way that nothing changes. 

The clouds move slow across the sky, gentle giants on an eternal trek. The waters dance with fish; the brooks burble and sing. Grass grows. Sheep eat. Grass regrows. 

On, and on, and on, and on. 

Bad breathes in, slow, and holds it. 

It’s enough to go mad over. To become enraged for. To rip everything down just so that everything can match the- the keening lack in his heart. Grass grows. Grass has always grown. There is nothing that could ever stop grass from growing. 

His hands are curled into the ground at his sides. He clutches handfuls of the wretched plant and pulls, almost gently, and doesn’t snap a single blade.

He exhales, slow, and doesn’t inhale again. What point is there? He’s alone. No one will know whether or not he needs to breathe. He’s been alone before- days that Dapper doesn’t wake up, days where the other eggs are with their other parents. Days where he falls asleep in his chair and the ghosts are left to amuse themselves. He’s been alone before. 

He’s lost before. 

There is a sob in his throat. He refuses to let it out. It chokes him, and he takes another deep breath to try to settle it. 

There’s always- he misses Skeppy. Of course he misses Skeppy. He can’t lose Skeppy, but Skeppy isn’t here.

Dapper isn’t here. Pomme isn’t here. Richarlyson. Leo. Ramon. Chayanne. Tallulah. They’re-

Bad tears the grass out of the ground. He stares at his hands, dark claws curled around torn green plant. He tries to imagine the grass is white fur instead, but he can’t find the enthusiasm. That’s okay. The anger will be back later. 

He just- he can’t feel much beyond the loss, right now. The lack. The empty, quiet island where sheep eat grass and clouds keep moving and no eggs place any signs at all. That’s not okay, but he knows that, at least, will change. That’s how grief works. The world ends, and you end with it, and while you claw yourself up from the rubble the world ends again and sends you back under, and then again, and then again, but by the third go around you know what the tremors look like. You start to predict where it hurts the most. Then the world keeps ending but the ending just becomes a part of your world, and sometimes everything shakes but you shake with it and it’s not okay but it’s better. You get so used to the shaking that sometimes you forget that your world ever ended at all. 

How long will it take for him to forget them? 

Bad leans forwards, slowly, until he slumps into a miserable little puddle of limbs. He presses his cheek into the cool grass and when the sob rises up again he bites it back with teeth. The sun is blocked by a sombrero, now fallen awkwardly over his face, that Foolish had cheerfully placed on his head hours before. Bad doesn’t know why Foolish had put it there- except he does, and he’d seen it in the in the slightest tremor of Foolish’s smile, and so he’d kept it on. 

He can’t see them, but he can hear them laughing. Mouse, Jaiden, and Foolish, just around the corner. There have been so many people ‘just around the corner’ today. They’re so loud. They’re not the right type of loud. He feels guilty for the way that they’re comforting him, that he’s taking up their time, and then he feels angry that he feels guilty because he remembers the cage, and he knows what he really means to them, and-

They’re still here. The eggs are gone, and they’re still here. 

Forever isn’t here. 

Forever hasn’t given him a gift basket yet. 

…

…It doesn’t work. It’s a close thing, though- there’s a flicker of irritation at the thought of Forever’s awful, handsome face. Not anger, not nearly enough emotion to fill the void that is Bad’s heart, but maybe it could be. He’ll try again tomorrow. Isn’t that fun? Isn’t that something? There’s so much emotion he can’t feel any of it at all. 

Maybe it’s a bad dream. There were no remains. There was just Dapper’s top hat, and Pomme’s beret. No shell, no dead eggs. No eggs. It’s driving him mad, the maybe-yes maybe-no nature of his children’s fate.

He thinks, maybe, that tomorrow he will build a drill. 

Today, the world is dark beneath the sombrero, and the grass is scratchy and full of small twigs. Foolish laughs once, too loud. Automatically, Bad pushes himself up, because he knows Foolish, and knows how long he’s been away from the group, and he feels sick. He fumbles for his warpstone and- Foolish’s head pops around the corner- Bad freezes. Too late. 

Foolish looks at him, grin bright and neverending. Bad looks back. He can’t bring himself to say anything- he drops the sombrero at their feet. 

Foolish’s smile fades. Bad activates his warpstone again and, though the particles, he sees Foolish give him a sharp, left-handed salute. Bad can’t bite back his little laugh; Foolish knows him, too.

And then Foolish is gone. The world is purple. Then the world ends, once again, in Bad’s home. All of Dapper’s machines have stopped. Echoing noise to almost-echoing silence. Ah. Right. None of the island’s machines are working correctly. Bad will have to make a smaller drill. But he will build his drill, and he will dig, and he will find his son. 

“Dapper?” he calls, his voice cracking. The sound echoes. Only the animals answer back- they’re the only thing that stops the base from being completely silent. Grass grows. Sheep eat. Grass regrows. There’s so many animals here. What good company. It occurs to Bad, suddenly, that they’re good company. Dapper is gone, and his animals are still here, and Bad- 

He won’t kill Dapper’s pets. He is suddenly holding his scythe and he won’t hurt his son’s pets because he can’t trade them for his son and there’s a special sort of heartache to the fact that his son left behind instructions to machines that don’t work and so many animals that can’t keep Bad company the way Dapper kept him company and Bad- 

He’s holding his scythe. He’s holding the Sunshine Protector. He tries to take a breath but it comes out stuttery and he bites his tongue and. Dapper was-is always so sweet. He made Bonnie to keep Bad company, and Bad is always haunted by little ghosts but now most of all he is haunted by the love of his son. 

“Where are you?” His voice cracks on the third word. He stumbles to Dapper’s room and doesn’t think about the fact that they never got to build one for Pomme.  

The hole in his heart could swallow an island. 

Please don’t take- 

The scythe gets left outside. Bad can’t bear to look at it. Protector. There is a secure door in front of him that keeps nothing secure because now there is nothing to protect and Bad- 

-my sunshine away. 

He falls to his knees next to the empty bed. He chokes out, “I’m sorry I couldn’t protect you, Dapper.”

When the sob rises again, he lets it.

#qsmp #mishapen words #qsmp badboyhalo #first qsmp fic YIPPEEE #and its about #child death #and #angst #YIPPEEE #or child-missing lmao #i dont think the eggs are dead but i do think this is an uh oh #fun fact i started this a few weeks ago and then picked it up again after the uh. you know #VERY pleased with myself with my bbh read and predicting he'd be p quiet i love it when i can understand these weirdass cubes #the contradictions throughout weren't intentional until i realized they were happening and i leaned into it #i bet bad chose 'you are my sunshine' as a song for dapper SPECIFICALLY because then he could sing and cry about the second verse #after he lost his very fragile egg #which. i hope he never has to do that again that broke my fucking heart #he's just... qbad is an immortal who has grieved before but then he found skeppy and didnt have to keep grieving and now skeppy is gone and #his kids are gone and all he has left are his friends who he feels very betrayed by but who are all so. fucking kind about the loss #and they all lost their children but just like jaiden said he's like a third parent to all the eggs #he lost his kids and his bonus kids and he once sunk a city but what is the grief of thousands of strangers compared to the grief of #seven little eggs he loved so dearly #one little egg he would protect over skeppy #just....... idk its v late im gonna schedule this post i dont know if im making sense but the EGGS #the BADBOYHALO #the grief :c