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flickerintwilights · 1 month

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on the road to hell

#hadestown #art #my art #tag ramble as promised:#firstly #i’ve been thinking about redoing this as digital art #(like - mostly the same but cleaner and with some of the details fixed) and probably will if i have time #because i like this composition a lot #but! for now i am oddly happy with how this turned out despite being traditional art/watercolor (no undo button. sobs.)#and it Is a noteworthy day for hadestown with lola tung and lillias white departing #(this is Not meant to celebrate them specifically - i used the obc as reference not them - i just think it’s a nice day symbolically)#so i thought i’d put this out. whatever. yknow.#oh a second thing i will say is that this was a great excuse to check out the slime tutorials on youtube #i spent like 9 or something hours on this :/ so. plenty of time to have things on in the background while i was working. we love slime #thirdly! two things i feel like are worth mentioning rq for Symbolism:#wait for me reprise (intro) originally having wedding procession imagery (from anaïs mitchell in working on a song)#is what first made me desperately want to put the flower/petals on the edges (it still fucking haunts me)#though it was a solid composition choice in general i think #and i mean. clearly the carnation should be prominent. it’s the carnation. from hadestown.#i don’t think the wedding procession reference comes across the way it turned out but that was the first thought #NEXT ouroboros. the snake devouring its own tail (i legitimately forgot that this was why i first drew the rattlesnake that way but #fundamentally i really did just want its tail and head to point to each other lmao)

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mytortoisegotstuckinatupperware · 4 months

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yes of course I was happy to get my adhd diagnosis at 20 for medication and definitely not because that meant I was one step closer to actually being a demigod

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lover-of-mine · 26 days

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I know no one gives a fuck about Oliver's actual ability to play basketball but the way he handles the ball, it's not the way someone playing it for fun or who tried to learn for a part plays, he actually knows how to play and I saw about 10 pictures and a video and I feel like I'm gonna die and when the episode drops I might have a stroke.

#basketball is my thing dude #you dont understand #the amount of below average dudes teenage me had a thing for because they were good in basketball and that made them hotter for me is #embarrassing #like legit theres nothing hotter for me than a guy being a good athlete and being good at basketball gives him more points #because it was my sport growing up #Oliver is already a solid 10 #i cant do this #i legitimately feel like im gonna pass out #i am sick tho so maybe its unrelated #but I'm hyperventilating #jesus fucking christ #thoughts thoughts thoughts #911 spoilers

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rpfisfine · 11 days

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aleksa's old dating profile.....

#it literally makes me feel like im having halluciations that im technically in his logical dating range currently in terms of age.#like.....omg..#boy boy #aleksa vulović #im asking my mutuals honestly if they would legitimately take a chance on him just going off of this photo alone with no further context.#bc i don't think i would be brave enough #also its dawning on me now that they probably just made this profile for the purpose of the video but im pretending that it was real

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fellhellion · 9 months

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Something something the spot’s goofy antics distract from how dangerous his own entitlement and resentment is

#I don’t want to be that guy but I feel a little bit like spot gets sanded down a tad into just the fact he’s funny #and he IS funny I get it. but what makes him scary is the power to lash out with his entitlement and resentment towards miles #it’s you did this TO ME (miles didn’t #he was busy getting pummeled by kingpin and then venom shocking him back and the building was being EVACUATED it’s literally no one’s fault #but spot’s that he was there AND miles didn’t even know he was there when the collider exploded)#so I’m owed the role that you made me into <- miles literally didn’t do this #I’m OWED being your nemesis because I created you <- when all of itsv is about its miles own choices that make him heroic and not the bite #spot can’t even take ownership of his own actions. he’s like oh IM not robbing you that’s the bank. well buddy I don’t see you robbing the #bank I see you harassing some guy owning a corner store #like I get it. ur a cosmic horror and it sucks capitalism is pushing u down and u can’t get a job but like OWN UP TO WHAT THE HELL YOU DO #LMAO #and even miles trying to genuinely reach out and say look I’m sorry I made u feel bad (even though this isn’t an owed apology) and spot #STILL is hellbent on breaking miles back for an imagined slight #I AM GOING TO KILL YOUR LITERAL FATHER BECAUSE I BLAME YOU FOR SOMETHING YOU DIDNT DO #like god lmao. he’s a fun silly villain but there’s legitimate anger and spite and RESENTMENT motivating him purely to try hurt miles back a #as* badly as he imagines miles hurt him. when it’s like dude. own tf up to who’s responsible here #I’m not angry at the spot btw I actually think he’s a fun villain but I think recognising that resentment is what makes him effective as a #*frightening* villain and one that poses legitimate danger #tunes talks spiderverse #apologies xinakwans ik u said you didn’t want to read any spot posts hopefully this snags on ur filtered content block shdjfjfk

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shegoesbyjoy · 4 months

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new year, new fic! featuring...

an exploration of kim's need for control and how that manifests itself in various ways, including how he grieves

my interpretation of eyes as a character (he's that "boy next door". to me. based on nothing except vibes—let me live ok)

a look at the careful relationship kim maintains with eyes's widow

a singular use of the language of flowers that took an absurdly long time to figure out because i was determined to make it realistically attainable during winter (surprise, there aren't a whole lot of meaning-laden flowers available during cold weather)

harry being vaguely unhinged as usual

really enjoyed writing this one. would love to hear your thoughts if you decide to give it a go—you can find it right here <3

#disco elysium #kim kitsuragi #harry du bois #eyes #eyes & kim #kim & eyes #kimharry #harrykim #disco elysium fanfiction #disco elysium fanfic #disco elysium fic #my fic #all my fellow glasses-wearers who live somewhere with cold weather you'll feel seen in this fic #p.s. i'm on a one-woman mission to remind people kim does in fact smile rather easily in the game so there's a good amount of that in here #he often gets characterized as a lot more dour than he actually is in canon and he doesn't deserve this #also the line about having a morbid sense of humour is directly inspired by kim going “4 maybe 5 months in the hospital” at the elevator #in my first playthrough this comment legitimately made me afraid to go into the elevator i thought i was gonna die and get a game over LOL

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compacflt · 8 months

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I was wondering if you had thoughts about how Ice and Mav's politics don't fully align with their actions? There was a post where you said Ice's politics are more socially liberal than Mav's but Mav is also the one who goes out to La Jolla to hit on guys before Ice, and later again when he's broken up with Ice, but Ice only goes out with women out of fear for his honor or whatever. Same with their respective thoughts on feminism, with Mav's mild respect for Charlie (telling Ice not all women fit the stereotype) but later Ice is the one who sends Juno to Mav's Top Gun class without telling him she's a woman and Ice has a respectful friendship with Juno. I think you said Ice is vaguely on the ace-aro spectrum (demi-homoromantic) which is a sort of fascinating irony that he doesn't have the words for it whereas Mav is the one with the theories about Ice's sexuality. Though with their hypocrisies and inconsistencies this all just feeds into their characterizations of the fact that they keep divorcing their actions from their spoken words from their identities.

okay going to take this point by point

1. yes i have addressed their politics in relation to their actions before, so maybe read this post and this post before you read this one, just to see where my other thoughts line up

2. gay republicans and conservatives do exist (at the very least certainly republicans and conservatives who have gay sex in secret)

3. before maverick is a political actor he is a human being, and the characterization that we are primarily given for him is that he is impulsive and reckless and doesn’t think through his actions. As ive written about many times before—from a story construction standpoint, his thoughtlessness is his number one most important character trait. He is both thoughtlessly dangerous (his hero’s “fatal flaw;” he can’t stop himself from making bad decisions) and thoughtlessly brilliant (the navy’s best and most daring and heroic pilot). He does what he wants without thinking about it; and he makes excuses and hollow promises whenever that plan doesn’t work out (“I know better than that. It will never ever happen again;” [it happens again] “I’m not gonna let you down. I promise.” [goose dies shortly thereafter]). His thoughtless impulsiveness overrides everything else. Maybe the act of having gay sex (to address your “he gets fucked in La Jolla before ice” point) is politically subversive, but for Maverick’s thoughtless character that we are shown in Top Gun, the most subversive possible thing would be to LABEL the gay sex and think through the consequences of it. To call a spade a spade and call himself gay or bi or queer or whatever. That would be the most subversive (and with mav, entirely unbelievable imo) possible thing. That takes conscious effort of thought, something maverick is near-incapable of doing. As long as he can get away with it without thinking about it, he’s politically in the clear, with regards to his character & character arc. If that makes sense. “Don’t think. Just do.” That’s literally his motto lmfao. He represents thoughtless action as an archetype; his politics come secondary to his desires

4. Their “respective thoughts on feminism” are divided into two camps: 1. “Professional as required by the law” and 2. “Sex pest mode.” They’re naval officers in the 1980s. Whether republican or democrat, that’s kind of par for the course. How men treat women can be a performance to other men. Any respect i made them show towards women had broader, more metatextual “need to move the conversation/story from A to B” reasoning behind it. See the first post I linked for much more on that.

5. i never said ice was on the ace/aro spectrum, or if i did i DEFINITELY meant it sarcastically. That could not be further from what i believe. This isn’t something I’ve ever discussed on this blog before, but a MASSIVE part of the philosophical discussion I’ve been trying to moderate within this project over the last year is the question— “do labels even work with characters under these very specific and extraordinarily extreme conditions and societal pressures?” It’s a question I took from my time studying early American history—the contexts of certain environments, and I would definitely count the elite officer ranks of the navy in the 90s and 2000s as one of these certain environments, simply Are Not Conducive to the easier (path of least resistance maybe) ways we civilians handle sexuality and friendship and trauma. There are so many variables and external and internal pressures within an environment like the upper ranks of career navy officers that sexual orientation labels lose all nuance and accuracy. I don’t think Ice (as i have written him) is gay. I don’t think he’s straight. I don’t think he’s bi. I think he’s an unlabelable product of too many variables for labels to have any effect on how he is perceived. Which, in our society built around labels and categories, is admittedly difficult to wrestle with. But doesn’t make it any less worth wrestling with.

6. Yes, ice and mav’s hypocrisy is the linchpin of the entire story.

They’re both trying to have their cake (“honor” and moral superiority based on the harmful traditional subjective morals arbitrated by elite navy officership) and eat it too (a fulfilling relationship with the love of their lives). & the point is that they cant. they have to settle for one.

#adam & eve can either stay in eden or eat from the tree of knowledge. but the moral authority told them not to eat; so they can’t have both #or—they can have both but they can’t ACKNOWLEDGE having both; they have to keep it a secret even from themselves. that way it’s not sin.#(the navy is ice/mav’s religious institution as i keep repeating)#re: ice and labels.#like i am both joking and not joking when i say he’s mavericksexual #simply because maverick represents both the guilt Ice must deal with re: the death of a friend #AND the recklessness that would inspire him to realize (in the actionable sense of the word) the full extent of his sexuality #no one else can do that. he and maverick were made for each other like that.#same thing where ice is the only one who can legitimize maverick in the eyes of their overbearing institution.#they’re made for each other in a way that imo transcends sexuality and labels.#I’m not going to touch the politics of ‘demi-‘ labels because i know people feel very strongly about it #and you come to me for Top Gun not necessarily my thoughts on modern identity politics #but suffice to say i don’t believe either ice or mav are demi anything.#they’re just guys. they’ve killed people and killed with each other and killed for each other. they don’t need labels. just let them be #tom iceman kazansky #pete maverick mitchell #top gun #icemav #top gun maverick #asks #edts notes #thanks for the ask! hope it isn’t coming off as aggressive or argumentative #* argumentative yes. you can argue with me.#but the labeling issue has been on my mind since DAY ONE & influenced much of how i wrote the story #human beings are so much more complex than most labels give us credit for

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fullscoreshenanigans · 2 months

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TPN Committee: Yeah we’re going to horribly truncate this anime adaption by cutting 50+ chapters, removing so much of the nuance people loved about the original story and make it the greatest disappointment of Winter 2021 after the first season was a critical darling, but as compensation you can have some REN Rights in the form of this album cover that wouldn't be out of place for a shoujo series

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sub-par-yakuza-memes · 2 months

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#ryu ga gotoku #rgg #yakuza meme #y0 #yakuza zero #yakuza 0 #kazuma kiryu #visible pores #young kiryu #it legitimately made me feel better when I noticed his

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skitskatdacat63 · 7 months

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Boy King Seb :D

#thank you to Grace for the idea of making his chivarly collar red bull instead <33333 #he was gonna have both collars but then making that one made me suffer so no not today #this was a lot of fun but also made me suffer. but i keep looking at it and being like AAAHHHHH BABY!!! BABY BOY!!!!!!!#can you believe i tried to do this in one night? i cant #i stopped and came back to it and was like 'no way you could do this in one sitting at 1 am'#this is kinda the ascended form of that very first sketch i made for this au! concentrated boy king sebby!!!#i say to myself i need to take a break from drawing complicated things but youll prob see a nando version of this in less than a week ;;;#okay about the drawing(i wrote good tags and then tumblr deleted them so these are a bit inferior AGH):#this is typical pouty seb but is also referenced off a specific pic from AD 2009(beloved)#its very important to me how emotionally open Seb is. im not sure the specific context of this. maybe after a triumph?#but instead of being that typical stoic serious detached kind of ruler; i like him being openly emotional(think AD 2010)#its important as well for his dichotomy with nando and how they choose to portray themselves #seb is very assured in himself and his rule vs. nando who is more insecure and bitter about his #so nando takes strides to portray himself in that more stoic calculating way bcs he feels like it helps him legitimize himself better #whereas seb has absolutely no care for outward public image and shows how he feels and is loved for it(nando hates it but loves it)#not that nando cant be fun and whimsical!! but to me he always seems a bit more mysterious; like i can never tell his true thoughts tbh #anyways i feel like ill finish 10 more drawings before i end up posting the lore pt 2 LMAO #its just a lot harder to organize and layout compared to part 1 which was just an explanation #pt2 would be a mix of more world building/characterization/anecdotes ive talked about with mutuals(LOVE YOU GUYS!!!)#i have a *lot* of ideas (gotta whip out my notes app every once in a while to write down stuff abt it) just hard to put into a coherent pos #sebastian vettel #f1 #formula 1 #f1 art #formula 1 art #f1 fanart #formula 1 fanart #catie.art.#*ill prob make a process post later if anyone is curious!! its fun to write abt my process and influences and such #boy king au

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narniangirl1994 · 1 year

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I really felt for Roman this episode. He was so excited for their new company and just wanted him and his siblings to strike out on their own - away from the shadow of their father for once - but was ultimately pressured into getting into another fight with their father and abandoning their original idea. He looked to Kendall in that first scene for guidance and validation about his branding opinions - clearly valuing his big brother's opinion amd maybe still doubting his own judgement. Then later he actually showed more wisdom and restraint when it came to their bid than Shiv and Kendall, but capitulated to their plan anyway (which will likely come back to bite them all in the butt). I'm interested to see where they take his character this season.. He's trying so hard to succeed with his siblings, but there is a lot working against him already 🥺

#succession #succession spoilers #roman roy #im usually a kendall girlie #but the focus on shiv and roman this episode really made me feel for them both #didn't get much of a peak into kendall's thinking this episode #so im hoping we get his perspective more in future eps #but i was impressed with how much i gave a shit about roman this ep #he def has scenes that really get me #like on the boat after he had just been held hostage and wanted to legitimately connect with his sibs #or how he comforted kendall after his confession #or how he went to get kendall from that random house where he was smoking meth or smth

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box-off · 1 year

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Emesis Blue changed my life, so here’s a fan art

#Emesis Blue is a masterpiece and I am in love with it!!#It legitimately made me think about my life #This animation made me feel more than actual movies #You know this weird feeling that you can feel only in your dreams? Well emesis blue made me feel it in real life and it was fantastic #If you like horror and sfm animation go watch emesis blue #emesis blue #TF2 #tf2 medic #box art

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mewtwo24 · 3 months

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I just watched s2 episode 10 in the english dub and I have to say. Nothing could have prepared me for Howard's delivery of that final scene where Xie Lian gets worked up about the truth coming out.

The just...sincerely agonized delivery of "That my words were the empty ramblings of a sad child!!" shook me to the core. The absolute self-loathing in that line, the raw emotion. The way concealing the truth was done to spare Lang Qianqiu but also at its heart was about Xie Lian's unresolved feelings of humiliation and shame, the way [redacted] did everything in his power to make Xie Lian lose faith in himself and the possibility of good prevailing in the world.

The way TGCF keeps me up at night, man...

#tgcf #xie lian #lang qianqiu #the runner-up line that devastated me too was: 'it's the least of what I DESERVE!!!'#i dont think there are words to describe how that made hua cheng feel knowing all that he does (from his time as wu ming)#legitimately its on the spectrum of mantis shrimp im guessing bc i can't fathom trying to put it into words either #the way xie lian won't stop punishing himself for wishing for better--for wishing for peace and collaboration--even 800 years later #the way he continues to take responsibility for all the wrongs others commit--the way he deems himself a failure ->#for things he simply could not change or did not purposefully incite. the way he won't stop punishing himself when things go wrong #i honestly cant get over how acutely xl feels like the result of gifted child syndrome #having all of these grandiose expectations placed on him and doing his utmost to uphold them at any cost #doing everything he can to the point of self-destruction to do the right thing #only to end up hated in the end when he proved to have limits--even as a god #and discarded despite his efforts; ultimately deemed worthless for not measuring up to what were impossible/rigged standards from the get g #and like . the way up to this point they made the creative decision to make xie lian's emotional range fairly static #not that he's unfeeling but that he doesn't tend to raise his voice or express anything extreme (for good reason)#until this precise moment where it all comes flying apart with so many old scars torn open #absolutely fantastic im on the ground #honestly i feel like i forget how difficult a decision this had to be for hua cheng #i mean naturally he chose this because he wanted xie lian absolved #and ultimately xie lian really does need to stop the self-flagellation--he takes it too far #but watching him tremble with fear haunted by the echoes of what he almost became #fucking cHRIST

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avianii · 6 months

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it's insane how doing fun things for a bit can improve your mood so much like I was so dead after Thursday and like all it took was playing a video game for an hour to make me feel less shitty and like....I did my homework after too???? instead of procrastinating??? shits wild lmao

#anii's random thoughts #legitimately made me feel so much better #even if there was a middle schooler screaming over voice chat #anyways i will be dead this week bc ICE in Lang and calc/physics/apush tests so mb if i go radio silent for a while after tomorrow :/

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wen-kexing-apologist · 2 months

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Having stayed up past my bedtime to finish Episode 7 of Twenty Five- Twenty One I would liked to take a moment to say:

Fuck you@lurkingshan for recommending this stupid fucking fencing show that keeps making me super fucking emotional in a vicious, endless cycle! How dare you make me sob in my living room at one am over a fucking referee call! I thought we were friends, how could you do this to me?!?! Do you harbor any guilt whatsoever knowing that I cried through all three of the episodes that I watched today!!

^Look at my beloved girl, look at her sobbing in the street. This is me, on my couch, right now. Look at what you have done to me!

Anyway, it may not be a BL but I do think everyone should watch Twenty Five Twenty One it is fantastic so far and it making my heart so full.

#this show is so good #the fencing is legitimate as well which makes me all the more emo #because on top of the actual emotions the show drags you through #I have done a bit of sword fighting in my day and those bout moments- the really impressive touches; the blade breaking; the contested call #i feel those so hard you don't even know #anyway this show makes me cry so much #which of course means everyone should watch it #shout out to shan for the recommendation #she was (once again and as always) right about this show #twenty five twenty one #twenty-five twenty-one #2521 #25 21 #Full disclosure I changed my tumblr profile picture to Hee-do 15-30 minutes in to Episode 1 because I knew I was gonna fall in love with he #and I was so incredibly correct #no regrets no hesitation i made the right call with that pfp

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celestial-sapphicss · 7 months

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reblog and put in tags the prominent musical artists phases in your life

#im just intrigued what music would consume you beyond repairrrrrr #if you're not acting a little crazy while consuming music are you really doing it right????#bon's queen gifset of sand made me think of this so bon if u see thissss #prior to 2013 i was a bollywood girlieeee and bollywood is almost entirely playback singing which an entire different thinggggh #2013 - enrique iglesias #2014 - maroon 5 #2015 - coldplay #2016 - sam smith #2017 - ed sheeran & calvin harris #2018 - Queen & george ezra #2019 - p!atd (i KNOW) & khalid #2020 - harry styles & idkhbtfm & troye sivan #2021 - billie eilish & conan gray & hozier #2022 to present - taylor swift #vi.txt #the embarrassment i feel when i remember some of the absolute unhinged stuff i have done in some of then phases AAAAAAAA #i have never truly been a normal fangirl smh especially as a fucking teenager #in class 9 my friends and i LEGITIMATELY CUT A BIRTHDAY CAKE for shahid kapoor IN THE CLASSROOM during recess infront of all #he wasn't even really that popular at the time WHICH IS EVEN MORE STUPID GOD THE THINGS I HAVE DONE #and like i wasn't even that big of a fan but my closest best friend at the time was into him hence so was i #although in hindsight it was just because i had started exhibiting gay feelings subconsciously but wE wErE jUsT tHe bEsTeSt oF fRiEnDs ufff #im not wiser of course i can be tempted to be that unhinged again #the reblog game is just an excuse for shitposting this in the tags tbh #idk why i am even making this post tho #only friends has rotted my brain tbh #ALSO in 2015-2017 the internet stand up comedy scene was booming in india and that phase was truly even more embarrassing for me #it was the reason i joined instagram and the CRINGE i feel when i sort my likes and comments from oldest to newest GOODNESSS #truly an insufferable fan rip my mom and my friends #such a core teenage girlhood (genderneutral) experience methinks #if this flops.....you never saw it heheh

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