#it still doesn't feel real and like some cosmic joke and i hate those days where it really sinks in that this is my life and this is how

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#i'm so sad not rlly idek how i feel i hate mothers day and i hate how my life turned out and i can't believe that i'm me and i have to deal #with that for the rest of my life #been trying to avoid social media & i did a pretty good job until now lmfao #i can't believe my mom has been dead for almost 4 years and this is my 4th mothers day w/o her like wtf ???? #it still doesn't feel real and like some cosmic joke and i hate those days where it really sinks in that this is my life and this is how #it's always gonna be and there's nothing i can do about it #i hate grief it's stupid and i hate my stupid undiagnosable health problems #they don't make anything easier #wtf am i gonna do w my life #also i'm so fucking ugly & i do be ignoring it most of the time but the last couple days????? that shit has been hitting #nothing to do with anything but. w/e just venting #personal #i wanna fight everyone who's ever said life gets better ya'll lied #i miss my mom #she was a horrible mom actually #i will be in therapy for the rest of my life bc of. her <3 #but i miss her anyway #nothing more deancoded than that amirite ladies! #literally get help. #ok i'm done i've never used tagged like this lmfaooooo #i see the appeal now #bye