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hellofromthe-otter-slide · 3 years

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prompts list asks!

(fandoms: choose from bly manor, hill house, spop, steven universe, suitor armor… or anything else we’ve talked about, lol)

angst 21, 43, 50

Hello, I would like to report a crime, because how dare you make me write this?

But also, enjoy.

(I also wrote this and didn't reread through it, so if there are any blaring mistakes, bear with me)

Prompts:

"Some things aren't meant to be"

"You two deserve each other"

"Why didn't you fight for us?"

Fic:

Jamie feels empty for weeks. Owen flies in from Paris, Henry comes to give his condolences, and Jamie plays along, but she feels nothing.

She figures at some point, it'll all be too much. The dam will break, and everything will come flooding in, but she holds it off.

She shakes hands.

She calls Dani's mom.

She lies to everyone.

She says that Dani was sick for a while, that it's good that Dani's done suffering.

And the dam holds steady. With every pity given her, every meal dropped off, every day that the shop stays closed, the dam doesn't burst.

She knew it wouldn't last forever.

She doesn't expect it to break as she enters the shop for the first time since she found Dani's note.

The blinds are pulled shut, casting an eerie darkness to wash over everything as sunlight tries so hard to break in. The plants droop and wilt, but Jamie barely notices them.

She walks to the back room and rummages through a stack of papers, looking for something that's so important until she finds the thing that finally breaks her.

It's a note from Dani on a Post-It stuck onto an order.

It's nothing, just a reminder, but Dani ended the message with a sloppily written heart and a small, "I love you," and Jamie sinks to her knees with the order clutched to her chest.

The dam breaks, and Jamie thinks that maybe some things aren't meant to be.

Her and Dani met at the worst possible time. Jamie was angry and weary of anyone willing to give her the time of day, and Dani was still seeing ghosts, and yet, they tried.

They tried while moving away from Bly and traveling the US. They tried while choosing to settle down in Vermont and start a shop they were afraid might fail. They tried while moving in together and building a life neither of them thought was possible, but ultimately, the Lady of the Lake was still there, and she couldn't stay quiet forever.

Slowly, the Lady of the Lake took Dani, and Jamie thought she could help Dani fight. She thought that if she loved Dani enough, if she felt everything for Dani, that she could maybe make it better, and she failed.

Dani is at the bottom of the lake at Bly, and Jamie is drowning under her own feelings, and she thinks that maybe they were always meant to be, because there was no hope for either of them.

The two of them deserved each other, because the two of them were doomed to suffer.

First it was Eddie, then it was the Lady of the Lake, and Dani couldn't survive the ghosts that followed her, and now Jamie is sure she can't survive without the one good thing life had given her.

Her heart constricts, and her lungs can barely fill with air as she tries to breathe around the sobs, but she doesn't care.

It hurts.

Everything hurts.

Losing Dani hurts.

Lying hurts.

The pitying stares hurt.

Pretending like she can go on hurts.

Thinking of years living while Dani lies wide-eyed under murky water hurts, because Jamie knows she has to keep on living.

It's what Dani would've wanted, but Dani isn't here to assure her that life is worth living.

Dani's gone, and Jamie's here, and the emptiness could only keep her safe for so long.

With it gone, Jamie feels everything that's been building for weeks, and despite all of the sadness, all of the despair, every bit of pain that's been building, anger breaks to the surface.

Jamie crumbles the piece of paper into a fist and throw it somewhere near the trash can and starts tearing the back room apart. Papers ends up on the floor, and the vase holding dead, weeping flowers ends up shattered against the wall, and Jamie lets everything out in the only way she really knows how.

Jamie sinks to her knees again, Dani's favorite mug somehow spared on the floor in front of her, and she picks it up.

"Why didn't you fight for us, Dani?" Jamie asks, her voice as broken as she feels, "I could've helped you fight for us."

Owen finds her there hours later, still crying, still holding that mug, and he helps her up, carefully helping her through the wreckage of her pain.

Even when they get to her bed, the one Dani was also in not too long ago, Jamie is too tired to think, too tired to remember nights with Dani right beside her.

#people ask me things?#renaissance dilettante #the haunting of bly manor #jamie taylor #dani clayton #damie #angst

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monsterkiss · 3 years

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🎫 here's a gush pass ^^ feel free to gush about whichever f/o you want, however much you want, then send this ask to 3 other selfshippers!! - starry-selfship

this gush pass has been sitting forever in my asks and now it’s time to use it...

let’s talk about catra from spop!

so, for a long time i wasn’t sure if she’s an f/o. i knew i liked her as a character a lot, she was one of my favorites, but was there anything else to it? just recently i ended up fixating on her hardcore and realized she’s a comfort character for sure! and... came to realize that yes, she’s an f/o! :D it took me some more time to figure out whether she’s platonic or romantic or something else, but i guess she’s a romantic f/o for me!

when i come across characters who have a canon partner (or... who i heavily ship with another character), it creates a dilemma. like, what do i do about their partner? sometimes i frankly just ship with a character alone, sometimes i go for polyamory with their partner too... in this case, so far, i don’t think i’m ready for polyamory with both catra and adora. i ship only with catra. i do love catradora, absolutely! what a great ship and i do ship it. but when it comes to selfshipping specifically, i can only ship with catra right now. it might change in the future, who knows! i actually imagine “my” catra to be almost entirely different from canon catra. it’s like an AU catra, though the details are vague.

what can i say about her? she’s a huge catgirl essentially lmao! a very angry and traumatized one too. i actually have yet to finish spop, i always struggle with finishing things... like i know how it ends more or less, but i still haven’t watched everything. :/ i hope i get to it sometime eventually.

i don’t know what else to say! catra’s presence has been a blessing to me. :D

#ask #cryptichobbit #long post #gif heavy #rambles #f/o: catra

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pockethep · 5 years

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Fandom Be Chill

I’ve seen a lot of people in the fandom, or at least Catradora shippers, doubting everything. (Both redemption and the ship) To which I say...WTF. You’ll never survive the winter with those weak opinions. Be like the theme song. Be Strong. Be Brave. Now I don’t mean to suddenly become an SPOP blog (I literally repost as my fandoms come and half of my blog is misc.) but I’m here to say some shit. Since ATLA is the one thing I’m sure everyone here has watched I’ll relate some stuff. (Sorry I don’t have direct quotes I’m tired and S3 has got me stressed)

Ready? Alright. Leggo!

Just to put it out there...Season 3 is probably my favorite season thus far. In terms of story, hyping up a threat, learning more about who we thought was the main villain, etc. It fulfilled all my needs. I can’t wait to see how all the relationships (Glimmer w/o her mom, Catra and Adora, and the Princess Alliance without a commander commander) play out. Even more so now that Shadow Weaver is chillin in Brightmoon.

That being said the dynamic of my ship is changed forever now.

There is nothing more dangerous than a character that has nothing to lose. Catra, who has thrown away all her connections and now fully severed the bond she has with Adora and the few people that actually liked her, has her fit that part perfectly. To relate her to everyones favorite redemption arc, Zuko, you could say this is her, for lack of better terms, Azula/Aang choice. When Catra pulled the switch it was possibly her first real choice. This is not to be said that every choice given to her was not a real choice but this was probably the first one with major bearings. (Though it could be argued that it was giving the sword back to Adora) Catra has been, for the most part, manipulated while she tries to manipulate other people. She is a tool. Even when she is doing what she thinks is her plan it ultimately serves to help Hordak or Shadow Weaver.

Going back to atla Zuko has the choice to help Aang or Azula just as Catra can pull the lever or not. It was likely that, for both cases, whichever side the characters help will triumph in that moment though for Catra it doesn’t seem to be the case. While Aang is gravely injured the portal causes massive destruction as it unravels reality, helping no one really.

This brings us to a major plot point for Catra: Failure. (Just look at her Crimson Waste speech! Like go off but...) Just as Aang and Zuko are the two characters who the series is shaped around Adora and Catra are too. The pairs are foils to each other but are very similar. Adora chooses her compassion for life/peace and her duty as She-ra over the Horde. Catra chooses the only place where she feels she’ll get any recognition and love over helping the Princess alliance/the world. While Adora’s “selfish” choice is framed as good, Catra’s “selfish” choice is made to be a bad decision.

Catra’s “betrayal” and choosing to open the portal is very much about Adora but it also isn’t. It isn’t about Hordak or any alliance or army. She is angry. She is confused. She is hurt. Everything always goes back to Adora. (The one who she can never beat and, when she does, causes her to lose the bigger picture. The one who Shadow Weaver, someone she put all her faith into, went back to. The one who was always put above her.) So she chooses an external force to try to cope and feel better. To screw the world over if it means winning one thing. Catra made her choice because she is flawed, like very very very flawed and “selfish” but she is human. (Well a magicat but you get the point)

It should be noted the horrors of abuse. Both of the most important figures in her life were abusive, Shadow Weaver more so as Hordak treats everyone as a pawn to get what he wants. Catra both projects it onto others, her manipulative nature and snarky/defensive comments, and internalizes it, her body language and what comes out everytime SW and Catra speak to each other. Adora does more internalizing, she holds it deep in herself and it is the source of her doubts and fears. That also being said Scorpia was her last rock, the one thing holding her in place because ultimately she does care for our favorite Scorpion girl. Now that Scorpia is scared of catra, or at least wary, Catra will be alone.

Zuko Alone.

Alright so finally. “When we reach our lowest point, we are open to the greatest change.” ~Avatar Aang

Now do you think, as season 3 took its course a sudden “Holy shit! Let me undergo a change in six episodes,” would’ve been fulfilling? Especially when Catra went through the best change possible this season. Now this is purely opinion but it is more fulfilling once a character has hit their lowest point for them to be redeemed. There are 4-5 more seasons left. Catra has hit rock bottom now and Hordak is not stupid, he may very well realize that she tricked him but, in his weakened state, I doubt he can/will kill her. As Entrapta said she is too useful. We may be seeing some Zuko Alone type stuff. My hopes is she leaves. She goes on some journey to find herself and about her magicat history, perhaps Beast Island as intended.

At the end of the day, like Zuko, she is an abused teen. She makes mistakes and does things that she will learn to regret. By the end of the series she will realize her mistake and seek to rectify all she has done, starting with her relationship with Adora. Or so I hope and and so I trust the SPOP Crew.

Few more things:

1. Glimmer saw what SW did to Catra. What do you think was going through her mind? Did she realize that Catra is hurt or did she just go along with it? Will she ask Adora about it?

2. Go stan Angella. Real MVP of the season.

3. Catra X Therapy comes before Catra X Adora.

4. Please trust the showrunners and Noelle especially and also don’t turnt his fandom into Voltron. For the love of god don’t. They are not responsible for making all your ships happen and you shouldn’t drop the show because a season didn’t turn out how you wanted it. There’s still more left, lots more. Keep trying in the least.

I might do more Spop stuff not sure. This was fun to get off my chest.

#she ra #spop #she ra season 3 spoilers #catra #adora #catradora #im going insane

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revasnaslan · 2 years

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A few for the characters ask

These ones are obvious but : Adora, Hordak, Entrapta! 💜

And since I've seen you reblog some Skyrim stuff : Ulfric Stormcloak, Ralof and Hadvar! 😁💙

HORDAK

First impression: he's exactly my type

Impression now: HE'S EVEN MORE MY TYPE THAN I INITIALLY THOUGHT

Favorite moment: I have so many I think it'd be impossible to list them all.

Idea for a story: [gestures wildly to where one fell verse] wof my beloved

Unpopular opinion: i'm not gonna get into it. I'm not really in the spop fandom anymore (just my own personal wof fandom) but I don't agree with like half the fanon there so make of that what you will I guess

Favorite relationship: him and entrapta, platonic or romantic doesn't matter

Favorite headcanon: purely self indulgent because Me Too Bud but his condition is something akin to an auto-immune disorder. his specifically targets his muscles which leads to his myriad of health issues as a side effect because organs like the heart are muscles.

ENTRAPTA

First impression: I'll admit I didn't really think much of her until S2 and my first rewatch right before S3 came out, mostly because I wasn't super into the show as my Now Fandom then as I was when S3 happened

Impression now: love her with my entire heart

Favorite moment: her entire imperfections are beautiful speech is still one of the show highlights imo

Idea for a story: I haven't thought about anything spop related besides wof in such a long time, but I still long for a fic where she rescues hordak that DOESN'T involve prime lusting over her instead of deciding she's on his hitlist... but alas I don't do canon compliant in this fandom anymore

Unpopular opinion: see hordak's answer... people in the spop fandom still follow me and I'm really not interested in getting into debates about the merits of xyz for this show anymore, so I'm gonna not

Favorite relationship: her and hordak, romantic or platonic

Favorite headcanon:

ADORA

First impression: same as entrapta, I didn't really have an opinion on her until I really got into the fandom c. S3

Impression now: she's one of the best characters in the entire show

Favorite moment: "You made your choice, NOW LIVE WITH IT"

Idea for a story: I still have that one story idea where she and catra are together post show, and catra slips back into her old habits because I don't believe for a second she's changed as a person, and adora is trying to rationalize this behavior because Well She's Changed but slowly realizes she's in an abusive relationship and it's actually hordak who helps her realize this. I'm never gonna write it ever because I don't want to be yelled at for what would be an extensively tagged fic, but it's an idea

Unpopular opinion: I don't have an opinion that's unpopular, I agree with most opinions that cross my dash about her.

Favorite relationship: romantic, her and scorpia, platonic her and the best friend squad

Favorite headcanon: the first one that comes to mind is the idea she has adhd

ULFRIC

First impression: I actually didn't realize the dude I was sitting next to was ulfric the first time I played................ probably because it took me forever to figure out how to turn on subtitles so i wasn't playing attention to ralof my first playthrough, so you can imagine my confusion when I got to windhelm and was like Who's This Fuck

Impression now: well i just found out in my most recent playthrough that the thalmor consider him an asset (an uncooperative one admittedly) and they were trying to save him at helgen to prolong the civil war... which just makes me want to shake him because idk how this dude can be in his fifties, know how the thalmor operate, not want to associate with them to the point elenwen is like Do Not Approach in his goddamn file, and not realize that he's playing right into their hands with his civil war. use your head ulfric.

Favorite moment: idk if it's a "favorite" moment necessarily, but from a writing standpoint, his duel with the high king being what really tore skyrim apart in the first place is so interesting to me from my perspective as a history major... because the civil war had been building since the markarth incident, mostly just skirmishes from my understanding, but like... historically that's how it always happens. it's relatively minor incidents until something Big like that happens, and then suddenly everybody is involved. I dig at skyrim a lot for its subpar writing but that is one thing I actually kind of like, even if nobody fanon or canon seem to actually be able to agree if it was honorable or not (for the record I am in the not camp because he used the Voice to win when torygg couldn't) but eh that's history for you.

Idea for a story: this is probably gonna get long winded, but the current wip that's holding my attention actually features him heavily because the main character is my nord dovahkiin... who is his bastard son who was conceived around the time of the markarth incident. ulfric and harald have a... tense relationship to put it mildly because ulfric never intended to have a kid that way in the first place, and he's been concerned with the growing tensions between the stormcloaks and empire/thalmor for pretty much harald's entire life. the only reason harald even ended up with him is because the thalmor found out about harald and approached harald's mother and his mother thought he'd be safer with ulfric than with her. i have never really considered ulfric to be the fatherly type, so their relationship is incredibly strained because ulfric is ridiculously pragmatic and has expectations which only get that much worse when harald is revealed to be dragonborn (which does not help when harald starts wondering if he even wants to be the chosen one in the first place).

Unpopular opinion: it's not that I don't think the man couldn't have potentially been like... a loving husband and father or whatever, I just think he's way too pragmatic and focused on what he perceives to be his duty and responsibility (i.e., freeing skyrim) to actually focus on that kind of stuff yknow? he could also stand to look inward and fix the shit going on in his own goddamn hold before he tries to be high king

Favorite relationship: canon-wise I don't really have one, although I do like his strained relationships with the greybeards, I think it's super interesting. I can't remember if arngeir comments on his use of the Voice for violence but I haven't gotten to the peace talk quest in my latest playthrough yet so I might have to see if there's anything to be said there.

Favorite headcanon: he probably falls asleep at his desk a lot because he's a workaholic who doesn't know what a bed is

RALOF

First impression: oh I didn't have an opinion on him first playthrough, he was just some guy like every other character who had been thrown at me so far

Impression now: one of the only reasons I would probably do the stormcloak questline again, which considering how much I hate the civil war questline, is very high praise

Favorite moment: not to meme but Hey You, You're Awake

Idea for a story: he features heavily in the fic I mentioned above since he and harald knew each other growing up (ralof's father was a stormcloak officer so he came to windhelm often with him as a child) and he's really harald's only actual friend who doesn't expect shit of him... also they're romantic interests because I say so 😌😌

Unpopular opinion: this is more to do with critiquing the stormcloaks as a whole, but I really hate how he's the only one who's not Like That 🙃🙃 I know why that is too and it's because if he was spouting tons of dogma at the beheadening nobody who played as anything other than a nord would've even thought of joining up with them. he's still pretty zealous but he's not talking shit about dark elves right out of the gate and is super encouraging no matter your background.

Favorite relationship: canon-wise I wish they had explored the fact he and hadvar seem to know each other and go way back. honestly I think it was a missed opportunity to not make them brothers, because that would play into the thesis that the civil war is tearing families apart and make it an actual thing??? because every single family is split evenly across the line, they're all either stormcloaks or empire and that really doesn't suit the story they're going for imo

Favorite headcanon: he's actually pretty young, probably isn't over 30, so he doesn't remember a world without the ban on talos worship.

HADVAR

First impression: he was just another character who was thrown at me with a name and I had already forgotten who Ulfric was so this should be fun

Impression now: I don't really have one because I've never actually done an Empire playthrough since I've only done the civil war questline all the way through like... once cause I hate it so much. He doesn't seem like a bad dude though.

Favorite moment: I do like how he seems genuinely sad he can't save you from the chopping block... I can only imagine how often that must happen to him :/

Idea for a story: see above with my ralof entry... I could probably make a genuinely compelling story about them being brothers who were torn apart by the civil war because one of them believed Empire Is Stability and the other bought into the stormcloak dogma.

Unpopular opinion: I don't really have opinions on the guy, but I guess I wish that he was written to argue more with the Imperial captain at the beginning against beheading you?? I think it would have made me more compelled to follow him, considering I never have since from a role-playing perspective, why would you follow a soldier of the army who just tried to chop your head off??

Favorite relationship: don't have one but again i do find his implied relationship with ralof to have some intrigue to it that they never expanded upon

Favorite headcanon: don't have one cause I haven't really thought about him too much.

#rev's rambling again #i'm actually surprised i wrote this much considering #the everything about the dragon game's character design #but hey there's only like five characters who have actual character so odds are good you'll have an opinion on one of them l #thankfully nobody has asked about one of my pathetic idiot men because there's several of those and i'm lowkey embarrassed about it 😔😔#mostly because of how goddamn predictable i was...............

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