#it wld b easier if my bdd n ed were not kickig my ass at all times but wel <3 i dot thik shes ever leaving unless i participate in ed

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trauma givig me stupidass disorder again <3

#please i got home 2day n im fr missing being at family's rn when it was literal hell?? #like on god rn?? #feels so so weird n uncomfy being at ''my own'' place again too i an just -_- #giving the worm jn my brain shock therapy now i'n so so over it </3 #like ya whatevr prolonged abuse makes u uncomfy w better things n whatnot ik but wel. tis is just dumb as shit euther way i thik (: #moss.exe #tee bee ache its also bc being in a cabin without proper lik. heating n electricity n like drainage n water stuff sucks in general n ik it #would b less bad if i wasnt as isolated too but also i die around anyine ever also #n i canot afford an actual apartment lol <3 #iust feeling a litle funky rn <3 #hopig i will b able 2 adjust relativly quickly #i rly need mor social interaction tat is not lik. horriblenalso bc i have not had that more than lik. once in my life briefly n wel i thik #my brain is rotting at tis point #i dot mean isolated as in corona also i mean lik its in a rural area so thers lik. no one #n no oike street lights or anythig n that #idk <3 i cannot manage socialising i am so over humans being social creatures or whatevr lie shut up!! im trying to become a lizard n just #run on some walls #it wld b easier if my bdd n ed were not kickig my ass at all times but wel <3 i dot thik shes ever leaving unless i participate in ed #behaviour again which i canot <3 so what evr i will just die if i am witnessed #ed mention tw