Sometimes I feel very sad that I didn’t just focus on one creative skill. I look at my art some days and go I wish I’d spent all my time making only that, because that way it would look better and I’d do more and it wouldn’t matter if I couldn’t write very well because my art would be amazing and I’d be able to make the stuff I really want to and maybe even get a job related to it and I wouldn’t feel like so much time was wasted. And often times it really does feel like you’re wasting time and everything is telling you to just pick something to focus on so it can mean something and you can never seem to pick one of anything.
And then other days I feel like an absolute GOD. Anyone else able to write your own fic and then draw art for it just because you can? Can you make an edit/amv after writing a silly little analysis post on the show/character that is so perfectly on beat and fits the lyrics and with transitions so slapping you get chills while watching? Can you write a short silly ditty on the guitar about how you’re feeling using the eight chords know and belt it out only a little bit off key then do a choppy little animation of your sona singing it?
I may not be the most skilled at all of the above, and it can be a little lonely to be a one man band who doesn’t play half as well as a lot of people out there, but when your power goes out or your wifi dies or you have a day off, everyone else is busy and you’re alone...
you play the best gosh dang music in existence
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VIVA LA VIDA COLDPLAY IS DUTCH’S SONG
I need to analyze the lyrics of the song I’m having an epiphany this is LITERALLY Dutch Van der linde THE SONG please you gotta understand me… under keep reading cuz I don’t wanna annoy everyone w this because it’s kind of long and I don’t wanna clog the tag up >_O
I used to rule the world
Seas would rise when I gave the word
Now in the morning, I sleep alone
Sweep the streets I used to own
okay those lines are SO Dutch like…. Him in the first game, him sleeping alone “now” after everything???? Sweeping the streets he used to own? Does this make sense? He used to be everything now he’s nothing he’s lost it all
One minute, I held the key
Next the walls were closed on me
REAL this so so real… like the way he became paranoid in chap6!!!! The walls were closing in on him both metaphorically in the disillusionment present in the gang as well as the law closing in on them and the age of cowboys in the Wild West ending
And I discovered that my castles stand
Upon pillars of salt and pillars of sand
THIS IS LITERALLY CHAPTER 6 DUTCH!!!! The castles is the gang!!! Arthur!!! The people he trusts!!!!! He begins to think his trust or whatever the word I’m looking for is standing on pillars of salt and sand??? Essentially saying they would betray him in the end???! FffffFUCK I’m having thoughts!!!!!!! He “discovered” it when it was really Micah singing in his ear about it!!!!
My missionaries in a foreign field
THIS IS SO THE GANG!!! The way everyone became disillusioned, the way everyone left, they left His field, they went to foreign fields outside the gang…. His missionaries are the gang, Arthur,,,, JOHNN!!!!!
Once you'd gone, there was never, never an honest word
And that was when I ruled the world
LORDDDDDDDFD the way this applies to both Dutch in the first and second games,,, the first line relating to after hoseas death there was never an honest word since it was the beginning of his downfall,, or the big spiral rather!!! Or it could be referring to after Arthur died and in the first game??? (Honestly the first option is better and wiser imo) and also the fact it’s “when I ruled the world” the fact after Hosea died Micah could worm his way into Dutch’s head,, and that’s when Micah convinced Dutch he was ruling the world when in reality he was tearing the gang apart
It was the wicked and wild wind
Blew down the doors to let me in
Shattered windows and the sound of drums
People couldn't believe what I'd become
OKAY HEAR ME OUT… the line about the wicked and wild wind is Micah, the doors being opened is like the darker side of Dutch, the nasty greedy monster esque side being “opened” by Micah? Like how he pried this version of Dutch once hidden away through a series of unfortunate events. AND THE LAST PART? It’s literally Arthur and the gang upon seeing what he turned into,,, or John in the first game meeting him again.. or in the epilogue of rdr2
Revolutionaries wait
For my head on a silver plate
Not much 2 say other than this can b interpreted as the people out to get Dutch… or maybe Arthur? Like him being a “revolutionary” going against Dutch, and in Dutch’s mind he wants his head on a silver plate? Like wanting him dead? Food 4 thought
Just a puppet on a lonely string
Oh, who would ever want to be king?
OKAY HERE ME OUT… Dutch’s line in rdr1 about them “finding another monster” when he’s gone..? Food for thought once again.. it just had the same vibes to me but idk how to explain it
For some reason, I can't explain
I know Saint Peter won't call my name
Never an honest word
But that was when I ruled the world
it kind of reminds me of uhmmm the idea of rdr1 Dutch looking back at the events of the first game? Like him reflecting on what he’s done? Especially the Saint Peter line when it’s like he’s accepting that he’s a bad person and he’s too far gone? Food 4 thought once again
ABALYSIS DONE😁😁😁😁
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Yeah. Impgan.
Just to extract tags on another post + get a chance to impapost in here, I just... I wish they would make sense to me in that way together, but they kind of... don't? To me, their relationship kind of transcends enemy-to-whatever-else-would-be-closer-than-that conventions, honestly. Their hatred is too layered, their begrudging respect too genuine, their ugly vulnerability too offputting. I am completely open to other people proposing a read on that dynamic that would make sense, kind of craving it even!!! But while I kind of sat around on this particular edge for a while, it just never actually made sense to me.
Fun fact: I initially assumed Litany would have Impgan undertones when I started writing it, and then realized that this just wasn't that. It was both far less and far more, and I just... I actually really like that sort of weird slow-cook kind of energy they generate around each other, how they manage the feat to dig out both the worst and the best out of each other, how they force each other to recognize their own ugliness and their own potential, and can't help but sympathize with each other too.
Also, to me, Impa is too... checked out of reality to engage with anyone on the mortal plane beyond Zelda. She just cannot match Ganondorf's boiling... everything, she's wayy too cold for that --and so when they meet, it doesn't have any corporal rage, it just fizzles out into vapor and an uncomfortable middle-ground where they can't really sustain their hatred for super long.
So, uhh. Not a pairing to me. But not.... not that either.
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