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kythed · 3 years

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WELL R U GONNA TELL US WHAT THE TEEN MOVIE EXP WAS??? U CSNT LEAVE US HANGING LIKE THAT

HSHSHDHHDJD OKAY YEAH I GOTTA SPILL

I’m writing this as I’m in the airport lol (because I have to fly up to my uni before school starts for off season training)

aNYWAYS some background — I wasn’t cool in high school. (LMAO you guys are prob like: yeah gwen we know SHSHSH) but I was *kind of* well known because of sports and a small amount of academic clout, so somehow I got voted prom queen in senior year?? (man I swear I’m not the usual prom queen type but yEah,,,) and the guy who was prom king was a dude I’ve known since junior high. we were never super close but I tutored him in english a little, and in exchange he helped me with calculus HAHAH

also important: I had a puppy crush on him for all of high school, but he was kinda the school’s golden boy, and I knew I wouldn’t have a chance T-T so I just suffered in silence and helped edit his essays LOL

anyways, last night I went to a small birthday party for a friend of mine, but it ended earlier than expected, so I had some time to kill. at the party, my friends had ended up talking about Mr. Prom King for a bit (his name is luka) so he was on my mind,,, and so I VERY IMPULSIVELY texted him and asked if he was doing anything, and if not if he wanted to hang out HAHSJDJD IDK WHAT I WAS THINKING but he said yes so I drove the half hour to his house and picked him up even though we’ve literally never hung out before

AND OMFG IM SO APPALLED because my conversation starter when he was like “so how’ve you been?” was “uhhh… I mean, I’m okay — I was sick last week and my snot was literally green, it was so gross” HAHSHHSIWJSJSK but he just LAUGHED,,, and I kept making these terrible, awkward jokes and comments the whole time 😭😭 like at one point he was telling me how he has an addiction to chewing gum, and he used to get in trouble for chewing it all the time (even in bed) as a kid, so he learned to hide it under his tongue when his parents checked…… aND I JUST BLURTED OUT “so that must mean you have great tongue flexibility, huh?” HAHSJWKKSJD and I also told him I was planning on being a formula one racer if I failed out of school,,,,, the entire hour was just me embarrassing myself essentially

anyways aside from that — we got ice cream, and he literally lunged in front of me to pay for it which was a CHANGE from my ex HAHAH, and then when I went to go drop him home, he unbuckled and just kinda sat there, and we smiled at each other, and I was kinda thinking man I hope he kisses me bUt he didn’t *sad face* so then we just hugged awkwardly and I drove home

AND LIKE FIVE MINUTES AFTER I GOT HOME our mutual friend texted me like “DUDE YOU HUNG OUT WITH LUKA?? he’s been into you since like 8th grade lol, he told me he wanted to kiss you but thought it would be weird since you aren’t that close” aND I JUST — *fist clench* WHAT THE FUCK,,,,,, MAN,,,,,, HE HAD SIX YEARS TO SAY SOMETHING,,,,, AND WE FINALLY HUNG OUT THE NIGHT BEFORE IM LEAVING,,, AND I WONT SEE HIM AGAIN UNTIL CHRISTMAS,,,,, IM SO SADDDDD

tldr; turns out gwen’s unattainable high school crush liked her back the whole time and she’s not gonna see him again for months T-T

#WOW THAT WAS A FAT RANT #IM SORRY IM JUST EXCITED #AND UPSET #i won’t be on here for a while cuz I’m flying bUt I’ll see u guys later <333 #🐦🐦

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500sunstone · 5 years

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It's that time of the year again where the winter takes its full departure and spring is damn near!

Are you ready for the season of blooming plants, greener grasses, lusher trees, warmer weather, and awful pollen allergies? Come kick off and celebrate the arrival of spring with the community on March 16th for the second rendition of Spring with Sunny!

💛Details💛:

-Date: March 16th, 2019

-Time: 6:00 PM CST

-Location: Ice Tower, Realm Troll → Justin LightShade's Royal Playhouse

☀️Port Buses☀️:

-Justin LightShade (if you don't have me added already, add one of the other two)

-Adrian WinterWielder

-Jacqueline FrostFountain

All of my port buses will be here one hour prior.

🌻Events🌻:

-Swarm: The objective of the game is to be on the side with the least amount of people on it. The way it works is that I will ask an opinionated question that can be answered through the options I have provided. Everyone will DM me their answer, and I will send everyone to a corner of the room based on the answer they chose. After that, everyone has two opportunities to switch to another corner should they feel that their current one won't win them the round. During the switching period, everyone will DM me whether they want to switch or not, and if so, what corner they want to move to. After the final switch, everyone in the corner with the least amount of people will receive a pack. Choose wisely everytime! There are 3 questions in total, meaning that there are 3 opportunities for packs here. (Note: In the case that every corner has the same number of people, no one gets a pack.)

-Sun Run: Can you reach the goal faster than the other team? Everyone will get paired into duos for this event. Two pairs will race each other in an obstacle course. One person from each team will be at a halfway point, and when the other person reaches them, the other person will start racing. Every person in the team that wins receives a pack.

-The Sunny Williams Show: How well do you know this game? This event is in the format of a quiz game show. Everyone will be placed into a team that works collectively to gather the most points to win. To gain points for your team, you must answer a question correctly. Make sure you press the buzzer first to get the first opportunity to answer! Everyone in the winning team receives a pack. (Note: The length of this event and the number of people in your team is dependent upon the number of people in the meetup.)

-Sunchella: An amazing performance by the Crescent Moon Angelz is awaiting you in Sunchella. The girls will sing, and when you see "..." in the lyric, you fill in the blank with the correct word. The first person to say it will receive a pack. There are 4 opportunities for packs here.

-Spring Spits: (god help us all) Dish out some hot rhymes (i csnt believe i just typed that so formally) in this event of SWS. This event is a tournament that is decided through a rap battle. The audience picks the winner of each round, and the winner moves up until they are defeated. The winner of the tournament wins 3 packs.

-The Ides of Sunny: We may be celebrating the arrival of spring, but it's still winter! (no deadass by the time this meetup happens it still is) The Frost Brothers are here for their last arrival in Wu before their melting. Get ready for an all in one sacrifice and cleanse! We cleanse the realm as snowmen, bring some Wus back to the house, and sacrifice them to Mother Wu in our ceremonial area.

-Afterparty: Once all the chaos is over, we chill at my house. I have an area set up for the party. I may even give a few extra packs. Stay to find out.

🌼Extras🌼:

-Don't ask for packs. There are plenty of opportunities to receive a pack.

-No drama. Please.

-You're allowed to remove my port buses after the day is over.

-Pictures will go in the tag #springwithsunny2019!

i hope to see you all there, really! its been a while since ive hosted my last meetup (....which was last year's spring with sunny actually) and i would love to connect with some newer faces in the fandom and some of my followers! i really really like wiz community events (so much so that i even go to fansite events too and im not even in their community LMAO) and i just want to help bring us together more.

ill see you all then! i hope to see a ton of you there

#wizard101 #springwithsunny2019

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schaffas · 6 years

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anyways heres my thoughts on my first day of ritalin

- i was v relaxed. i have a mind that is like go go go go go 24/7 and always has been for like . as long as i can remember. and today it,,,, , , , wasnt? it was like . yeah this is how i should be living

- that said its v hard to adjust to suddenly having way lower anxiety levels than yoy have for like oh, say, 6 years of yr life . so there was a few times when i stopped and started just panicking a little over like,,,, that. idk exsctly what about it bc its 4:20 (aye) and i csnt form proper thoughts but... yeah

- i felt more organised just in my everything . like it just felt organised. which ige never been or felt. weird !!!!

- i noticed when i forgot things a lot more but it had a different calmer vibe. not the immediate sense od I HAVE TO FIND THIS OUT RIGJT FUCKING NOW but kust like wait what was that can u go back five words or like ah shit i forgot this word what was it u h h hh h h h h (i did it like twice while writing what i have so far lmao)

- i have . 0 appetite .

anyways thats all

#im on drugs yall

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time-to-be-a-sad-bitch · 4 years

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I don’t understand how to start the process of moving on like I have no idea where to start or what to do. I’ve come to terms with the fact that it’s over, I know when we talk it won’t change anything and we will still be broken up. Some part of me had some hope that that wouldn’t be the case but after we spoke about it while I was high she basically said it’s done now so I’m trying to accept that now.

I hope uni helps me because it will be a completely fresh start with new people and hopefully friends. I think they all seem pretty nice and fun so that will be a good distraction.

I really did think we would be together for so much longer I really didn’t see us breaking up this summer bc I thought we were so happy together but I guess I was wrong. I always tend to be wrong on how I’m feeling or thinking about this relationship haha.

But anyway it will be 3 weeks this week so we’re almost at a month which is so strange to think about.

I’ve put all her stuff away. All her things that I need to give back I’ve put in a bag. Things that she gave to me I’ve put away at the top of my cupboard and took out the K necklace and anniversary ring from the jewellery I was going to take to uni and now I’m just leaving it at home. I think I might take the origami notes so I can have something to cry about lmao and I have to take the pictures bc I csnt leave that at home. We need to sort out the sex stuff bc bloody hell that shit was expensive. And then I’ll just give all her stuff to my best friend to give her.

I don’t know if when I come down to Nottingham (if I go), if I should tell her or if I should go and see her at least once or something. I’m scared that if I move on and then I see her it’ll all start up again I guess. And what about if study abroad actually happens? I’m gonna be away for 6 months I should at least say bye in real life I guess? But then again she won’t be in my life like that anymore will she? I don’t know how long it will take me to move on and be able to be friends with her properly and stuff. Ugh

I hope she finds her inner peace and happiness soon bc she deserves it more than anyone. I just wish I could’ve been there for the journey. I know whoever she’s with next is going to be so lucky to call her theirs. They get to sleep next to her and cuddle her and kiss her forehead. They get to see her try be scary and failing in the cutest way possible. They get to see her get all dressed up and drink for clubbing and look absolutely stunning. They get to see her stressed out and overthinking every single thing she does but eventually getting to where she needs to go. They get to see her looking like a little boy 24/7 until she decides she wants to wear her hair out and straighten it. They get to be forced to give the last bite of food to her bc they know she wants it and she’s too cute to say no to. They get to go out to a fancy meal with her which I never got to. They will hopefully get to celebrate their 1 year anniversary and give each other presents with happiness and love like I never got to. They will get to tell her how much they love her and be able to kiss her and hug her again like I won’t be able to.

I wish I was her future but I can’t ever be again. I hope my future has more happiness in it. I’ve gone from being happy and confident in my sexuality to hating it. I’ve gone from being confident about my body for almost 3 years and now I hate it again. I’ve gone from being genuinely happy on most days to feeeling depressed every single day.

I hope things get better soon. I just want to let go now.

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