#it’s hell

[theshadowrealmitself]

I would not do time loops correctly, I don’t think it would matter how many times I went through a loop, it would always weigh on me that any loop could be the one that I would have to deal with the consequences for, especially since people never know why they’re stuck in a loop in the beginning

I’d be that character that doesn’t do the same things every day, but I’d only change small stuff, like what I eat for lunch, never acknowledging that time is looping, just living my life as much as possible

Up until the other person who’s stuck in the loop notices for the first time that I’m also stuck when they barely notice the tiny detail of me sitting in a different spot because I never make a fuss and corners me like “why wouldn’t you say something???”

Because?? Obviously?? What if I do make an embarrassing fuss about being stuck in a time loop?? And everyone sees it?? And then the time loop breaks and everyone remembers that??? Hell no. My anxiety would never stand for that. I’d rather let the loop consume me.

#got shit to do in the morning #but even tho I was tired all day #I can’t get to sleep rn #it’s hell #no fandom #just musings

[gnarlystarships]

everytime i see any reference to Henry the 8th I get that fucking Henry the 8th song stuck in my head and then I have to decide if I want to listen to it to scratch the itch and then possibly make it stuck in my head even worse

#if you don’t know what song i’m talking about don’t look it up #this song was designed in a fucking lab to get stuck in your head #it’s HELL #it’s fun though. #TOO fun >:( #ograt

[quibbs126]

And you want to know what makes it worse? I don’t even have anything going on creatively in my mind either

I like to go on walks in the morning, around 30 minutes to an hour, depends on what I feel like (or the weather), and during that time, I listen to music and I think about scenarios in my head, like characters talking or a scenario they’re in. They could be characters of my own creation, they could be characters from a series I currently like. But usually, it goes with the vibe of whatever I’m listening to (or it devolves into something else, but that’s a gradual thing). But now, I can’t come up with really anything, and so I’m stuck revisiting whatever I came up with beforehand, and I can’t think of anything new. And like, it’s getting annoying, only being stuck with like, 3 things, not to mention I’m just repeating the conversations over and over again each time

I know that’s a weird, specific thing, but it’s a thing, and I thought it should mention it

But going to something more general that makes more sense, another thing is that I just haven’t made that much art. Like I’ve been doing less and less over time, and I know y’all know it. And I want to make art, I just can’t make myself, both out of lack of ability to force myself to, and because of a lack of creativity (which is what I’m focusing on here)

Or like for my fankids, I’ll be looking at my list, either in my notes or on Procreate, and I cannot make myself do anything with them. And I’m doing this with characters in general, I‘ll be looking at a blank page and have no clue what to do with it

And the current most infuriating thing, I can’t make new characters. Maybe I can push through making fankids, but I cannot make my own original characters, and I cannot create a new original story to work with. Sometimes I’ll have random ideas, and I’ll write them down, but I can’t do much with them. And what makes it infuriating is that I feel like I am on the cusp of something, some new thing should be happening (and at this point I need it for new ideas), but nothing’s coming up, the thoughts won’t form

I suppose related to that, I’m trying to redo the fusion project once more, but I can’t figure out where to start with the characters, and so I can’t do anything. I have ideas, like Berserk is making me think of something to do with the characters, but I don’t know what that something is, or how to achieve that thing. It had to do with each of the party characters and how they’re introduced and what they bring to the party, but the thoughts won’t form enough for me to understand what it is

That’s the main thing, thoughts are floating my head, there are points that formulate, but the refuse to connect into an actual line of thinking or creativity, and it’s infuriating!

None of that made sense, did it?

I noticed this on Sunday when I was out with my family for lunch. I had my iPad to draw, but I couldn’t think of anything to draw, so I just sat there, trying to think of something. I mean thankfully food came relatively fast, or else I’d be stuck there for ages in an infuriating creative limbo

#I said “infuriating” way too much #and I think this post made much less sense #but I need you to know my frustration #because I can’t take it #it’s hell #I want to draw I want to create #but I can’t #and I hate it #real life stuff #creativity #art struggles

[alexdoes-arthere]

Idk who made Iron Leaves’ moveset, stats, and ai but I hope you had to fight this thing over and over and over

#it’s hell #send help #average talks #pokemon scarlet and violet spoilers #tera raid battles

[lovecoredeity]

heyyyy is anyone willing to help me figure out outfits for character design reasons because I am #struggling

#deity dialogue #I wanna screammmm #it’s hell

[echoredacted]

You go from Zero to Bitchy quite quickly for someone who supposedly doesn't give a shit about anything or anyone...

Who the hell lit the Fuse on your metaphorical Tampon?

This place.

#it’s hell #redacted asmr #redacted echo #redactedverse #redacted asmr echo #redacted audio

[kawhh]

How long did this take me? Yes

#trevor zegras #anaheim ducks #nhl #edit #my edit #it took me 2 hours #it’s hell #I also hate it

[vessels-cape]

Going to the supermarket is like: wow this place is awful

#i’m too autistic for this #it’s hell

[sixcostumerefs]

there’s a commercial my TV keeps getting that says “see more” and EVERY SINGLE TIME I’m like? why is the TV talking about Seymour?

#it plays once per ~5 mins #most days a week #it’s hell #personal

[wintersera]

Why aren’t you feeling okay today

ehh lots of projects due in like 6 hours and im not even halfway done 😭

#✿kaye talks #never take any creative subjects in university #it’s hell

[swiftfiles]

i’m so so tired all day and then when i get into bed i can’t sleep

#it’s HELL

[ghostdrinkssoup]

hyperfixations are so weird because you never know how long it’ll last or if it’ll stick, you just hop on this train and keep going and going until eventually you run out of steam. sometimes it’ll only last a few weeks, other times several years. and sometimes it only happens once and never again, and other times it’ll return like an old flame you never stopped loving even after all these years. the key feature that defines a hyperfixation though is that you never know what kind it’ll be, only that you’re fixated on it Right Now and it has altered your biochemistry and you’ve never felt more insane

#sometimes I think something will turn into a larger hyperfixation and then all at once it disappears #and then sometimes I’m like huh I don’t think this’ll change me in any way— *becomes obsessed with it* #hyperfixations are so embarrassing fr I am constantly trying to censor myself so I don’t annoy the living crap out of everyone around me #even though it has eaten my brain and has consumed 99% of my thoughts #it’s HELL #txt #ghost speaks

[scavengerssuccotash]

This bad boy can fill so many P(L)OT HOLES!

#is this too niche #writing meme #writing problems #writing woes #pantser versus planner #I’m a pantser #it’s hell #personal #fanfic writers #fanfic writing #I FINALLY HAVE EVERYTHING FIGURED FUCKING OUT AND I FEEL LIKE GOD #I think this is the funniest meme I’ve ever created #this is it #I’ve peaked

[lizclipse]

it’s fun when my brain latches onto a thing and i can’t stop by that i mean it’s not fun and i’m going to bed at 4am on a work night

#i’m regularly going to bed late as well #my body clock is basically shifted later a few hours now #it’s hell #with elden ring i could cope #but #baldur's gate 3 #is so fucking good #like 24 hours into a save and haven’t left the first area #so much to find and explore

[neutron-stars-collision]

In two days imma be on the plane to Dubai, and then on to New Zealand. And that’s both fucking terrifying and insane 🙈

Praying I can actually get on that plane and then survive the 18h journey from Dubai to Christchurch. Because rn I’m doubting it

#it’s not great when you acquire severe fear of flying after 25 years of having no issues with planes #it’s hell #because like I know it’s probably gonna be fine #but at the same time I don’t know that #and I can’t stop thinking about the chances of severe turbulence or me having a panic attack #pray for me pls #personal bs

[crowcussion]

what if little 5’4” me went to karaoke and started singing death metal (yes for some reason i am capable of doing that)

#ink’s brain vomit #i’ll do a video of demonstration when everyone is awake #my family sleeps in for so long and i wake up early asf #it’s hell