#it’s probably benign but you can’t know till you scan

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#y’all I’ve been really fucking going through it and life is v hard to live right now #my anxiety has been astronomical and I keep having panic attacks which I never used to have until like two months ago #yesterday I went to the ER cause it was so bad- like my entire body went numb and I really really thought I was gonna die #last week I found a lump in my breast and I’ve been so fucking scared- I have a mammogram scheduled tomorrow #it’s probably benign but you can’t know till you scan #also they’re going to be doing a lot of looking at my heart too cause there’s might be something wrong there #I also might be diabetic who knows #all I know is that this last week has been complete torture #I’m amazingly gifted to have my boyfriend though caus he’s been a saint through all of this #It’s 1am and I’m so exhausted and weak so he actually climbed into the shower with me and helped me bathe #he is so kind and gentle and everything I could ever ask for #an ex of mine told me no one would ever want to take care of me if I got too sick or weak and for years I’ve had that stuck in my head #but now my boy proves that wrong every single day and especially today #he was so gentle with my head and god I’m so fucjing lucky to have him #pray for me y’all #likes charge or whatever lol