#it's also pure joy at having dean back. it's also i wish i didn't have to leave right now. i wish i didn't have to leave you alone.

[ambiguousdisorderken]

10.03

#this is making every cell in my body rattle #dean must be feeling so much rn. he's just gotten back his full humanity. so many emotions inside of him #and he asks cas if he's back. cas says at least temporarily. #and then dean goes and says this. this. he is glad cas is back. and this is beyond grace talk. we are past that bit -although #as per usual they began having 2 convos. dean asking without asking for cas to stay and cas taking it as yes i am back being useful (powers #dean is so relieved. that was some scary as fuck shit. imagine him being driven to the point of killing his own brother. yikes. #and he is GLAD that cas is here. here to stop me from killing sam. here to save me yet again. here with me again. here here here. #and he says it. he just does. and it's him putting himself out there. it's dean saying cas this is your home of course i need you here #and it's fucked up. our lives are fucked up. but im glad you decided to come back for us. for me. #he's just saying it makes him happy to have cas back. it does him good. and he hopes cas understands everything he's trying to say #and cas is so so painfully obviously in love here.. #and he's hearing what dean says and ..that's hopefulness in his eyes #it's also pure joy at having dean back. it's also i wish i didn't have to leave right now. i wish i didn't have to leave you alone. #he's just loving and expecting nothing in return but radiating sheer adoration. dean is glad he's here. #and that just .. that's cas' heart exploding if he stays a second longer #supernatural #spn #spnedit #spn 10x03 #destiel #destieledit #deancas #dean winchester #castiel winchester #mine #ignore my all over the place take. i was just rambling