#it's completely ridiculous that im worried about this honestly

[mondaymelon]

— 𝗷𝗲𝗮𝗹𝗼𝘂𝘀𝘆, 𝗷𝗲𝗮𝗹𝗼𝘂𝘀𝘆…♡

໒꒱ || :feat~ yandere!childe, dottore, scaramouche x gn!reader:

໒꒱ || cw: low and behold, jealousy, possessive + obsessive (who would’ve thought), oops he’s yandere mb, established relationship, dottore... chokes you? you’re his subordinate + dr*gging (scara) dont ask me what im doing i dont know either

⤷ “You’re mine, and I’ll make sure you won’t forget that.”

“Where were you yesterday night?”

CHILDE’s empty gaze lands on you and doesn’t let you leave it’s sight as soon as you walk through the door. You sense an air of displeasure surrounding your boyfriend as he leans back on the wall, arms crossed over his chest with his eyes fixtated on you. You haven’t done anything wrong, so why do you feel like a deer caught in headlights?

“I just went out with some friends…?” You aren’t sure of the source of his inexplicable anger, but you decide it’d be best not to trigger it.

“They treated me to some street food, and that was it, really…” It’s hard to elaborate further with the harbinger keeping completely silent, and his gaze feels like it’s piercing you.

He echoes a word that seems to have sparked his interest. “‘They?’” “Uhm- you know, Xingqiu, Chongyun, and Xiangling…”

Unconsciously, you let a brief smile cross your face at the mention of your good friends’ names, remembering the lively bustle of Liyue Harbor and the many laughs shared between the four of you.

It’s a sight that doesn’t escape Childe’s keen eye. Instantly, he’s three steps closer, with your chin raised in his gloved hand. “Wipe that smile off of your face, goddamnit.” He speaks through gritted teeth, though his harsh voice is obscured by the way his words come out as a soft hiss. His brows are furrowed, eyes flashing with annoyance as he pauses and takes in a deep breath.

“Wh…what’s with you? Don’t do those things so suddenly!” You yelp, attempting to move away only for your back to hit the wall.

The male only lets out a breathy laugh. “Ah, honestly, I don’t know what I’m doing either…” He’s much more reserved now, but you know him well enough to be aware of how he’s silently seething under the surface. “Archons, you’re a troublesome thing, aren’t you? To think affection would do such a thing to me… hah, what a thrill!” He glances up long enough for you to catch his twisted expression, eyes blown and a smile spreading across his face. “Jealousy, hm? Hahaha, oh how the troops would ridicule me if they knew!” He stops to take in a breath, his chest heaving up and down erratically. What a fool you’ve made me, darling.”

“Wh-What?” He’s moving closer, too close, his hot breath fanning your face.

“Look at me, you’ve made me a pliable idiot under your touch, haven’t you? Don’t even think about leaving now.”

“You don’t have to worry, all I’ll do is just make sure that pretty little head if yours doesn’t think about anything except me only.” ♡

“A friend, you say?”

DOTTORE has a quizzical look about him, as it’s rather odd how much amusement his crimson eyes hold. “Hmm, is that so?”

“Yes…?” You don’t know what has come over your boyfriend at the moment, but he ponders your words as if they hold a different meaning - which, they don’t. Something about the way he stares at you makes you feel like the guilty party… but you haven’t done anything wrong, have you?

“I need a name.” He whips out a small notebook out of seemingly nowhere, a pen also appearing in his hand.

“Oh, uhm-“ You momentarily pause, hesitant as you pictured the familiar fox-eared forest ranger. “He’s not exactly fond of the Fatui…”

The male lets out a hum, smile only spreading wider. “All the better. Explain him. Thoroughly.”

You frown. “Why are you so fixated on-“

You swallow your words as they’re interrupted by a sound that’s more akin to a bark than a  laugh. “Ahhh, I knew giving you my hand would be beneficial, just look how delightfully humorous you are!” He strides closer, one step, then another, effortlessly closing the space between the two of you. You can feel his red gaze through where it’s obstructed from the mask he always dons, and you have a feeling that his eyes are trained toward your every move. “Do you truly mean to say that I am not to ask of this ‘friend’ of yours?”

“It shouldn’t be of your concern…”

“Oh, but it is.” Dottore does what looks like a shrug, an action you certainly wouldn’t put past him. “Do I not have the right to monitor my partner’s actions? Who knows,” He steps even closer, his arms positioned in either side of you. “What kind of things you might be doing with this ‘friend’ of yours?”

“Dottore, what you’re implying right now is-!”

“My name sounds good in your mouth. You should say it more often.” Even in such a situation, he won’t stop his teasing mannerisms. “Ah, but perhaps you say his name much more often, don’t you?”

The words escape your mouth before you can halt them: “Tighnari isn’t!-“

“Tighnari, you said?” Dottore lets out a low chuckle, his voice giving way to his definite ecstasy. “Ah, so that’s his name? I’ll be sure to remember it. Hm, who knows, perhaps he’d make a wonderful subject of mine?”

“Why- Why are you doing this??”

“Isn’t it obvious, darling?” He’s shifted closer once more, and the very air you breathe feels suffocating. “I desire for you, and only you. Ahhhahah, you have me wrapped around your finger, don't you? Carve up my heart for all it matters, just be mine.” His fingers find his way around your throat, and it’s even harder to inhale than before. Dizzying black spots begin to grow larger, casting the edges of your vision into to darkness. “But in order for to us to live happily, together, I’ll have to make sure of things first… and first on the list…” A low growl makes its way out of his throat. “I’ll just need to make sure there won’t be any lasting regrets for you, hm? Just a few dead here and there, who’s really going to notice? After all…”

“I can’t have you running from my grasp, can I?” ♡

“Why didn’t you tell me that you’d be going out tonight?”

SCARAMOUCHE’s scornful glare is enough to make you cower where you stand in front of the door to his private quarters. His significantly short stature made it rather difficult for him to tower over you, but the deathly aura that surrounded the male was already more than enough.

“My apologies, sir. I was not aware that it was mandatory to inform you of my departure.” You give him a swift bow, casting your eyes to the floor. Several possibilities ran through your head. Perhaps he’d just settle for a rather harsh scolding, or maybe a social probation. Either way, a small part of you stirred in annoyance at your superior’s words. Nowhere in the trainee handbook had such a rule been written! You had heard the not quite so savory rumors of the 6th Harbinger numerous times before, and while they had never really proved to be a significant problem, the reason they had even surfaced in the first place was beginning to dawn on you.

“Where?” He raises his hand, a sign to lift your head. He’s being rather gracious today…? Perhaps he had been in a good mood - that is, until you soured it.

“I’m sorry, sir?”

“Where did you go?” There’s clear frustration in his tone for having to repeat himself.

“To the nearest marketplace. The soldiers in the east quadrant needed more supplies.”

“And you complied? You let them just push you around like that?

“Respectfully, sir, if I hadn’t, they would’ve done the same and pestered someone else. There was no task assigned to us-”

“Us?”

“I and another lieutenant, sir. He agreed to help me because-”

“Did I grant you the right to go with that scum?” It startles you, how much venom lies in his words. Posture stiffening, you manage to glance up, only to meet his burning violet gaze.

“Sir, I don’t underst-”

“Of course you don’t understand.” Something seems to suddenly come over the harbinger as he doubles over in his signature maniacal laughter. “You never understand, do you??”

You take a step back, only for your heel to hit the wall behind you. “Lord Scaramouche…?” For every quickened breath you take, he sways an inch closer.

“I’ve been sending you so many signs, doing nearly everything in my power to just make it so my affection would get through to that dense head of yours, but no, you still remain ignorant, ignorant for how much I’m willing to do for you! Anything and everything, no matter where and what. If it means words of praise from your mouth and your warmth touch, then any task is worth fulfilling.” The malice in his eyes dims slightly as he closes them, smiling at you brightly as he slides his hand into yours. His hand is cool, his skin smooth and unblemished, yet rigidly unnatural, the sharp angles of his joints proof of the way he was crafted into this world. A being… incapable of love…? No, the heartless being in front of you was certainly capable, and far too deeply immersed in the feeling. His lips brush against yours, yet darken dangerously when you shift your head away as an act of avoidance.

“Don’t be like that, not after all the trouble I’ve went through, just to ensure that you’ll finally be in my arms…” There’s a flash of light, a tendril of purple lightning, and all of a sudden, your limbs feel weak. You don’t know when you’ve collapsed onto the floor, or when you’ve been nestled into Lord Scaramouche’s arms, but you’re able to make out his words through the fog in your mind.

“Ah? It seems that the solution I slipped into your dinner proved to be quite potent. It’s a shame you won’t be seeing more of it, but alas, I can’t possibly keep you here any longer. Not when there are countless of those dogs salivating over the thought of you, those wretched vermin…” Sensation in your fingers, his lips against the back of your hand as he kisses it gently.

“There won’t be any need to worry anymore, darling. I’ll be all that you need.” ♡

(a/n) for you guys who were hoping for something soft n fluffy, sorry, please take this offering as an apology.

“Ah, I hate this feeling, whenever you hang out with them it’s just…”

“Are you… jealous?”

“What?? No, no way!! Don’t get the wrong idea, alright?”

“Don’t worry love, you are my one and only beloved, so please don’t worry about me leaving you, because rest assured, it will never happen.”

“I…😭🥹🥺🥺”

smoochy smooch the end !!

help i feel like the quality of my fanfic is just slowly degrading over time have i peaked is it just downhill from here am i growing to become old and wrinkled 😞

(oh… it’s been a while hasn’t it…. a month of unexcused absence… i was trying to post this early but the yandere theme made me reach a stalemate FUCKK IM SORRY ILL WRITE MORE PSPSPS IM SORRY FOR NEGLECTING ALL OF YOU WAAAH)

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[raineydays411]

My Fathers Daughter pt 10

A different perspective

Dick Grayson has always been used to being the first.

He was the first Robin, the first son, the first to be picked for almost anything.

Hell he was the first child as far as he knew. So imagine his surprise when he finds out his mother not only has a whole secret daughter, but one that she completely abandoned.

He could still hardly believe it.

He couldn't stop thinking about the night they found out about her. The look on Christine's face, it was one he's never seen before. The look of shock and almost disbelief, like she had seen a ghost.

In a way she did.

The ghost of the life she left behind with Tony and Y/n Stark. Now Christine was trying so desperately to revive it. As if she didn't murder it with her own hands. And while Dick himself had reservations with these actions, Christine was his mother before anything, and he was going to help her no matter what.

So here he was, standing outside the bedroom of his mothers long lost daughter, trying to figure out something to say. It shouldn't be too hard, seeing as Jason of all people managed to get you to open up.

And yet, here he is. Unable to muster up the courage to simply knock on the door.

"This is fucking ridiculous", Dick thinks to himself, "Just knock, what's the worst that can happen?"

Lost in his own thoughts, Dick didn't notice the shadow under the door, and was startled by the sudden swing of it opening and you standing there.

"I can hear your thinking over my music." You said a little annoyed," Is there something I can do for you or...?"

Dick blinked trying to gather all of his thoughts, he really didn't know what to say to you. This is the first time you've said more than three syllables to him.

You stared back, face revealing how uncomfortable you were getting with this prolonged eye contact.

"Riiiight, so im just gonna" You say taking steps to shut the door in his face

"Wait!" The raven haired man shouts, "Wait, please."

You stop with a sigh and open the door, inviting him in, " Alright, come on."

Dick walks in, looking around at the room that actually used to be his when he first moved in.

He mentions as much trying to break the awkward silence.

"Hm, and you were okay staying in a room that was copied from a dracula movie?" You say snarkily

"Well to be fair I was 12 and watched my parents die in front of me, I wasn't really looking at the decor." He says half joking.

You made a face and looked away, feeling even more awkward.

"Anyways, I just wanted to you know...see how you were settling in" Dick starts, " Its been a few months and it feels like we hardly even see you."

You pause, thinking of what to say. But before you even have a chance to say anything Dick continues.

"You know, moms really excited that you're here." He starts, " Honestly I don't think I've ever seen her this excited over anything. She's usually very level headed."

You stare at him

"I mean, you know how she is I suppose she is your mother too."

You stare

"I know she probably really missed you, she gets lonely sometimes you know? Everyone here usually has their own thing going on and we don't really get to see her as much."

Nothing from you

" Well, I guess she see's Damian more than any of us but that's because he's basically her baby."

Okay...that hurt

"I mean, I think he was the youngest when he came to use, I think he was like nine or something. And he was not the easiest to get along with. So don't worry that he hasn't warmed up to you yet."

You hum, already irritated with this conversation.

"He's also really protective of our mom, she's done alot to make sure their relationship is as good as it is." he says offhandedly, " Actually she's done it for all of us."

"Oh really?" You ask with no real intrest.

"Yeah! I remember one time when I was little she always made it a point to spend time with me even though she was so busy." He says fondly.

You decide to play along and remince on the memories that you buried long ago.

"You know, when I was younger, Christine used to take me out of school and take me to see ballet shows." You say with a slight smile, " I was in classes back then and loved watching the older girls dance."

Dick smiled, feeling as if he made some progress with you, " Really? I think she actually takes Cassie and Steph to those sometimes, you should ask to tag along I'm sure she'll love it."

You cringe, feeling another needle in your heart. Not even your memerioes were sacred.

"Yeah no thanks." You reply harshly, " I don't like ballet anymore."

Dick pauses, shocked at the sudden shift in atmosphere.

"I--"

And before he can say anything you cut him off, feigning a yawn

"Hey look, not that I don't love our little chats, but I am beat."

"Oh! right, sorry I guess it is getting a bit late.."Dick say hopping up from your bed and walking to the door, " Y/n, you know its really nice talking to you. You should try and open up more."

You smile sarcastically, " you know, something you and mother have in common is that you both like talking at me, not to me."

And with that you shut the door, promptly ending the conversation and sending Dick spiraling.

In fact, the statement bothered him so much that he went seeking a second opinion.

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"Yeah... I don't know how to help you man."

"Oh come on! Jason, you and her are like...bosom buddies or something."

"Bosom buddies? How old are you?" Jason scoffs, " Look, what you and everyone here doesn't understand is that Y/n has a family waiting for her. She's not going to except mom as her mom because her mom is still alive and well."

"But...technically our mom is her mom." Dick says hesitantly, " And if I were her I'd be thrilled to have my mom back."

"Dick. Your mom didn't abandon you for a different family." Jason says annoyed he's not getting it, "What the hell is wrong with you, you're usually so level headed about this stuff?"

Dick pauses.

To be honest he doesn't know why he's being so hard headed about the whole situation.

He knows that he doesn't like seeing his mother sad, and lately seeing her face when you reject every move she maked to make amends is heartbreaking to him.

That was his mother. The woman who took him in as her own when his biological parents died.

The same woman that stayed by his side no matter how moody, rude, and bratty he first acted when he first arrived. She took his grief on as her own and basically put him back together along with Bruce. He can still remember the night he considered her his mother.

He had just started out as Robin, and had just got back from patrol. It was a rough night.

First, it was the middle of autumn and raining heavily, he and Bruce weren't getting along this particular night and he overall was just having a bad night. So needless to day he was a little rougher with the baddies he was fighting tonight.

Bruce had already reprimanded him throughout the night about his unnecessary force but Dick did not want to hear it. It got so bad that Dick was just going off own his own without Batmans orders, and thats where the trouble began.

Dick had jumped the gun again, throwing himself into a fight with some drug dealers , not realizing that there were one too many for a fourteen year old to handle by himself. They quickly overpowered him, and ganged up on the poor boy.

He was given quite the beating before Batman caught up to him and basically saved him.

In pain and with a bruised ego, he had to listen to yet another lecture from the irritated (actually extremely worried) dark knight, and one from Alfred who was also extremely worried while he cleaned up the child.

He has finally marched to his room in a huff and after he shut the door, was finally able to reveal in the fact that he almost died. He was lost in thought, finally feeling the fear and pain in every move he made as he tried to crawl under the covers when he heard a knock on the door.

In she came, with a tray of goodies she personally made,staying home from a business trip he had known she was going to go on. She crawled into the bed with him, held him to her chest and allowed him to cry.

"You may be a big brave superhero" She said to him, " But here in this home, you're my son. My baby, and you are allowed to cry if you need to. I won't judge you. I won't say a word."

And he did. He cried.

He cried because he was hurting. He cried because he was angry. Angry because he was beat up. Because he was lectured all night. Because he missed his parents.

But most of all, because he felt as if he was forgetting them. He was having such a good time at the Wayne manor, grew to love the Waynes as the parents they intended to be to him. He felt as if he was betraying his parents. The parents that had raised him up to that point.

And here he was, laying cuddled up to Christine the same way he would with his mother. But at this point the two of them are blurring together, to the point where he can't tell where his mother ends and Christine starts.

This woman, took him in and wrapped him in love.

Love that he thought he would never feel again after that tragic night.

A love that, he honestly cannot imagine never having.

It was something that he couldn't begin to repay her. He wouldn't know how. Where to start.

Rekindling his mother with the daughter she lost. Gave up.

That was the least he could do. He'd do it for her.

But, after the conversation he had with Jason, he went home and thought about it. Actually really thought about it.

The year he came into the Wayne's lives, Christine stopped going on her business trips.

Not all at once, but she would push them back.

Usually because Dick had needed her.

She pushed her trips back until eventually, she just stopped going.

She hadn't said much, just saying that she realized that she was needed at home more than they needed her over there. But even at that age, Dick noticed she was sad. She kept her composure around the family, but once Dick had seen her crying in a pantry deleting something off her phone.

He had thought it was weird but after a few months she was okay.

No crying, no sadness.

And... now that he thinks about it. While he was being wrapped up in love there was another child in New York, who's life was being completely unraveled. All because of him.

And maybe...the reason he was trying so hard to rekindle you and Christine wasn't really because of Christine.

But because since that night, the night you were revealed to be her daughter, he did the math. And he just wanted to give you back the mother he unknowingly stole away from you.

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Hey if you’re still taking Kayce request, would love a jealous Kayce if you could :)

My Only Cowboy

Leaning my back against one of the wooden pens inside the barn Ryan and I were talking about something that happened when we went to the bar together the other night. Ryan and I were life long friends and had went to the same high school when we were teenagers. Footsteps approached the entrance of the barn where I turned my head in the direction seeing that it was my boyfriend Kayce. “What the hell we’re you doing with my girlfriend at a bar last night. Did he hurt you at all?” He stomped up asking Ryan more so than me. Moving past the new ranch hand I lifted my gaze up to look at my boyfriend. “Kayce. There’s nothing to worry about between me and Ryan. He’s a new ranch hand of your fathers and an old friend of mine.” Kayce and I had started dating after he divorced his wife Monica. He was having trouble getting his son Tate to school since his truck was broken down. I offered him a ride and he offered to buy me dinner as a thank you. Somehow we ended up finding a lot in common.

Ryan shrugged his shoulders confused at what was happening exactly between us. I honestly didn’t know why Kayce seemed upset over this. “Kayce, I don’t know what you are thinking is going on. Y/n and I are just friends. We met up and she said that she was working out as the same place as I did.” Kanye stomped up turning his hand into a fist punching Ryan straight in the face. He collapsed onto the floor quickly getting to his feet taking a swing at the younger Dutton son where they ended up fighting until I shoved myself in between them. Holding my hands up I glanced between the pair raising my voice at them. “Kayce, enough alright. I don’t know what this is all about but you’re being completely ridiculous-“ He cut me off throwing his arms up shouting at me, I saw some tears slip out when his voice cracked in response. “Im jealous of him Y/n. I am jealous that you might find my family crazy and leave with Ryan. I can’t - I don’t want to go through another divorce and put Tate through something like that!” Blinking my eyes I was taken back by his words. I would have never thought he was the jealous insecure type.

“Kayce, come with me. We need to talk about this.” Grabbing his forearm I dragged him out of the barn and through the main house until we got into his bedroom slamming the door behind my back. “What makes you think that I would want to date Ryan when I am with you. I mean I am completely in love with you, Kayce Dutton. You are the only cowboy for me!” He blinked his eyes a few times slowly striding up to me cradling my face in his hands grinning through some tears. “You are in love with me…really in love with me. I thought…but you two are so close. I was just jealous…I’m so sorry.” Leaning up on my toes I smiled wrapping my arms around his neck kissing him deeply. He leans into the kiss tugging me closer until I jump up wrapping my legs around his waist. The kiss got heated where we fell back onto the bed panting heavily while we started to remove our clothes in a hurry. “I love you too Y/n. Maybe I should get jealous for often if this is the result.” Pressing my lips to his in a long kiss he smirked back to my reply. “Sssh Dutton. Don’t ruin the moment. You’ve got nothing to be jealous over.”

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[fugos-lil-fork]

Hey! Can i please request bucci gang + trish headcannon where they have been dating g/n s/o for few months now, but s/o has been canceling dates for another bucci gang member and they starts to feel like s/o doesn’t love them anymore, but s/o has secretly planned a suprise party for them!😭❤️

Im sorry if the request is too much! You can ignore if you don’t wanna write this!😗❤️

Have nice day/night🫶

It's alright! It's not too much! Tysm for the request! I hope you have a good day as well! (´ ▽｀).。ｏ♡

~➗🍓🍊🐞⏳🔫🤐~

Bucci Gang with s/o avoiding them to plan a surprise party!

Abbacchio;

He is quick to feel hurt about you avoiding him

Without knowing what's going on, he thinks this is your way of informing him that you're losing interest in him

He, himself, still was a bit in disbelief that someone like you could love someone like him

So, deep down inside, he almost expected a day like this would come-

And so, he began distancing himself from you as well

Sometimes even ignoring you when you did have the time to interact with him

You were quick to catch on

Unfortunately, because if this you had to break the surprise party to him before actually showing it to him-

He's so disappointed in himself-

He felt both ridiculous for thinking you would do such a thing

But also thought you were ridiculous for thinking he would like a surprise party-

Nevertheless, it all ended with awkward chuckles and soft apologies and a gentle kiss

He appreciated the gesture of you trying to throw him a party.

But request for them not to be a surprise ever again-

And you reassure him that you'd never hurt him in such a way

In the end he's just very happy and glad to know that he still has you

♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡

Bruno;

His first response is to worry about you

He thinks maybe there's something going on with you that you're afraid to share and therefore are avoiding him in order to not say anything

Tries to approach you to ask you what's wrong or to ask if you could at least talk to him later

Unfortunately, you'll continue to excuse yourself from such conversations-

Eventually he convinces himself to just let you be

Maybe you just need time by yourself

Maybe you'll come to him when you're ready

Soon enough you did come to him, but apperently not to talk but rather to take him somewhere

He tries to talk to you while you're rushing him to your destination

However, he's soon cut off by everyone else jumping out cheering "Surprise!" And wishing him a happy birthday

He's unbelievably happy and humbled

He's quick to realize why you've been distant

He tells you he genuinely thought something was wrong so he's glad to see you were just planning a surprise party for him

You reassure him if something ever were to be wrong, he'd be the first to know

♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡

Mista;

He was actually pretty chill about it

Shrugged your actions off

He figured you were probably busy or had other more important stuff to do

Hell, he even forgot to ask you what was up later on-

He just had completely convinced himself that you simply had other things to do-

So, it was definitely a bombshell when you revealed his surprise birthday party to him

He was immediately excited and thanked you repeatedly for the surprise

Definitely pulls you into a kiss as well

Then tells you he honestly thought you had just been busy doing something else

But was glad to see that he was that thing you were so busy about!

♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡

Narancia;

He gets pouty

Then makes it his official mission to try to get you to pay attention to him and quit avoiding him

But you make it harder for him to interact with you

In which case he begins to get upset

He starts to think that you're going to eventually leave him behind because your too busy for him

He ends up basically moping around

Battling his own thoughts.

Maybe you aren't leaving him.

Maybe you really are busy.

He definitely isn't very happy with himself thinking such things about you

And once you get his attention by asking him to follow you, those negative thoughts quickly begin to be lifted

Once you surprise him he's unbelievably overjoyed

Quickly tackles you into a hug and smothers you with kisses

Absolutely praising you for your hard work on planning everything out

And profusely thanking you for the surprise

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Fugo;

He's confused with your actions

Why are you avoiding him?

If you're busy you could just tell him

Rather than straight up avoiding him

He gets a bit pissy over this

But then that grumpiness turns into fear

Had he done something to you that you didn't approve on by accident?

Did he say something to you that you didn't like by accident?

He also begins to put some distance between the two of you

Believing maybe he did do something wrong and needed to give you time to talk to him again

You start to notice how distant he's becoming and approach him about it

You quickly explain he didn't do anything wrong but that you have something to show him

Once presenting him with the surprise he's completely taken a back

While he definitely cherishes the surprise party

Even though he also doesn't like surprise parties but he'll suck it up just for you-

He requests that next time to just make up a reason as to why you can't interact rather than make him worry-

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Giorno;

He's also confused

Though, unlike Fugo, he doesn't get upset

He draws the conclusion that you most likely have something important to deal with and can't talk at the moment

At least that was his most rational explanation

However, he did find it odd that you couldn't just quickly tell him that

It would be better than just straight up ignoring him

Nonetheless, he actually tells you, himself, to just go talk to him whenever you have the time

He'll always be waiting for you after all

And soon enough you did go to him

But not just to talk, rather take him somewhere as well

The poor boy had no idea how to react to his surprise party

Just kinda stood there for a bit before politely thanking everyone and especially you for the gesture

Can't help but give you a peck on the cheek as a thank you for the party

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Trish;

She's offended-

Why would you avoid her?

She definitely doesn't think she's done anything to hurt you!

Or maybe she did?-

Starts to worry-

She tries to push the thoughts away though

But she can't figure out why you'd be avoiding her

You two trusted each other with everything, if something was wrong you'd tell her

Right?

She hesitantly tries to get you to talk to her but you always excuse yourself before she can get anything out

Eventually though, you came up to her wanting to take her somewhere

She kinda was grumpy about the request though

After all that time avoiding her, you really had the nerve to ask her to go somewhere with talking about how you had been acting?

Fine, but only because she loves you-

She reluctantly follows you just to be absolutely amazed by her surprise party

She turns to hug you tightly and give you a kiss

But then immediately scolds you about avoiding her-

Nevertheless, she loves her surprise and you!

♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡

#golden wind headcanons #vento aureo headcanons #jjba headcanons #golden wind x reader #vento aureo x reader #bucci gang headcanon #bucci gang x reader #bucci gang #leone abbacchio x reader #abbacchio x reader #abbacchio headcanons #bruno bucciarati x reader #bruno bucciarati headcanons #guido mista x reader #mista x reader #guido mista headcanons #mista headcanons #narancia ghirga x reader #narancia x reader #narancia headcanons #pannacotta fugo x reader #fugo x reader #fugo headcanons #giorno giovanna x reader #giorno x reader #giorno headcanons #trish una x reader #trish una headcanons #jjba x reader #vento auero headcanons

[ransomdemands]

i am in the mood to be touched very intimately and "innocently" i think. i know this is unsafe in practice and should not be tried out or anything, but i have fantasies of someone taking their time rubbing testosterone gel all over my pussy. whispering soft praises into my ear about how well it's working and how deep my voice has gotten. playing with my sensitive cock far more than necessary, fingers hot and relentless over slippery, reddened skin.

shushing me when i protest that it's feeling a little weird, using their free arm to keep my thighs open when i start to struggle against their grip and squirm because of how fucking good it feels, even though this is just an innocent activity. just one friend helping out another.

clapping my hands over my mouth when they ridicule me for cumming all over their fingers, calling me a pervert who can't control himself even though forcing me to lose control was their intention all along.

-🦷

“You want help with the gel? Sure I can do that. Take your pants off and come sit”

I gesture to my lap, and snort at your blushing stammering.

“I need to be able to reach man, get over it and come sit”

As you gingerly sit in my lap, I drag your hips back, pulling you flush against my chest, holding you against me with one arm across your shoulders. I’m certain you can feel my bulge through my jeans, pressing against your ass. Moving your legs easily I hook your knees over mine and spread my legs open, forcing yours wide. I chuckle at your whimper as I admire your pink flushed pussy. I silently note how wet you are, almost dripping.

“Now relax, im going to spread the gel onto your cock now, — ooh yeah im sure it’s cold huh, don’t worry it’ll warm up in a sec.”

I rub the gel into your cock, with one finger, tracing your and down your length with it. I can tell how aroused you are as your cock stiffens under my hand.

“I’m gonna rub it in now ok?”

Using all four fingers I rub the gel down across your pussy. You buck up into my hand and I shush you gently, telling you I need to make sure it’s rubbed in properly. I take my time, admiring your soft wet folds, tracing my fingers all across your beautiful cunt. I can feel my own cock stiffen under my packer as I feel every inch of you. I press my lips to your ear, before speaking again

“Yknow what man, honestly, this gel is working so well for you, your dick is getting so big now and your voice? Fuck even your little whimpers are getting deeper, you’re so masculine…”

I trail off is my cock twitches in my pants, god you really are. And I have you all to my self, spread out so perfectly for me.

I start to rub your cock more insistently, tight hard circles. You whine and ask me what I’m doing, surely I don’t need to keep going. I kiss your temple and tell you I’m just rubbing it into your dick, I need to be vigorous to stimulate growth right?

Your hips start bucking into my hand involuntarily and your whines get louder and louder until I clamp my hand over your mouth.

“Shhh, you’re being so loud, I’m just rubbing in your tgel, there’s no need to make such a fuss. Why are you squirming so much anyway you’re making it hard, I’ll have to rub harder”

I feel you moan into my hand as I rub harder tighter circles into your cock, all the while asking you why you’re being so dramatic over just some gel, and why you can’t just keep still for me. I rub you hard, keeping your legs spread wide for me, your dripping pussy completely exposed. And I feel you scream as I make you cum.

“Umm… dude, did you just cum?, that’s kind of weird, cumming while you’re in my lap like this? I know I was touching your cock but dude, seriously? What kind of pervert comes all over their friend like that It wasn’t gonna be weird and you made it super weird”

My hand on your mouth muffles your protests but I can tell from the flush down to your chest how embarrassed you are.

“You… you might have to make it up to me”

I drag my fingers down across your pussy before pressing two fingers inside.

“I can think of some ways you could do that” I growl into your ear pumping my fingers in and out of your twitching hole.

“I mean if you’re gonna cum like a slut then you might as well keep going right? Cum again and again”

I am fingering you in earnest now setting a rough pace and grinding my hand against your sensitive overstimulated cock. Your eyes roll back as you realize I have no intention of letting you go. Not for a while at least.

#ransomanswers #🦷 anon #asks #I thought about this one a lot #I hope you like it #cause … I did #ransomwrites #from my notes: the t gel is not the same as dht cream and shouldn’t be applied to mucous membranes #always follow your doctors instructions with medication #this is just a fantasy

[hongrizoon]

Empty promises...empty dreams

Empty promises..empty dreams - [ angst ]

spotify playlist - masterlist

-- summary: In a cruel and unfair world, two best friends are trying to survive together, not knowing what might happen along the way. Sadly, one doesn't notice the struggles of the other, turning a blind eye to her struggles.

-- genre: angst

-- word count: 1,081

content warnings: angst

mars notes. i honestly thought of this mid-coding class, it's based on a few things that have happened in my life (just the separation of me and my best friend the rest is complete fiction!!). this took me a few hours to make so i hope you enjoy it, i haven't written something in so long so i apologize if it's not to liking. i hope you enjoy this <3

There wasn't anything that could've possibly gone wrong in their lives. Well, at least that's what they thought. And they were wrong. Very wrong.

These two have always been inseparable, their bond is forged in the fires of adversity. They grew up together in a bleak neighborhood, a place where hope was a distant dream, a place where they always clung to each other for support, for comfort, as they slowly navigated through the treacherous "waters" of poverty and despair hand in hand. As they grew older, life became increasingly merciless. The weight of responsibilities pressed down on their shoulders, threatening to crush their spirits. But they always fought to survive, scraping by on a meager wages and shattered dreams.

Chiyo, with his cheerful spirit, always refused to succumb to the darkness. He worked tirelessly, using his determination as a beacon of hope in their bleak existence. Yet, with every step forward, it seemed like the world pushed him two steps back. Bills piled up like an insurmountable mountain, and the weight of his burdens threatened to suffocate him.

On the other hand...Akari seemed to glide through life effortlessly. Blessed with good looks and charm, opportunities seemed to fall right into her hands like ripe fruit from a tree. But beneath all that radiant facade, Akari harbored her own demons, who were invisible to the outside world.

As the days turned into weeks, and weeks into months, a growing chasm began to form between these two friends.... Where once there had been laughter and camaraderie, now lay a silent divide, obscured by unspoken resentments and unacknowledged pain.

current time: 5:43 pm - location: Chiyo's apartment

A knock on the door. Chiyo sighs, setting the pen down and walks over to open it. Akari stands there, her hair styled flawlessly, a designer purse slung over her shoulder.

"Hey..you busy?" Akari spoke softly, waiting for his reply.

Chiyo steps aside to let her in, Akari scanning the room, a flicker of discomfort crossing her face.

"Just paperwork. Im trying to untangle this mess of late fees." Chiyo sighed and closed the door behind Akari.

Akari avoided his gaze.

"Ugh, tell me about it. My cable bill went up again. Ridiculous, right?" Akari scoffed, and Chiyo forced a smile.

"Yeah, real pain. So, what brings you by?" Chiyo cleared his throat. Akari hesitates, but then reaches into her purse and pulls out two tickets. "I got us tickets to that new rooftop bar everyone's been buzzing about. Remember how we used to dream of these places? Thought it'd be fun to go, catch up." Akari smiled a bit, not noticing how Chiyo's smile faded as he stared at the tickets. "That's....really nice of you, Akari. But i can't afford something like that right now." He gestures at the pile of bills on the table, and Akari's smile falters. "Oh come on, Chiyo. Don't worry about the money. Consider this my treat!" She tried to lighten up the mood, but Chiyo just shakes his head. "It's not just the money, im swamped with extra shifts all weekend--"

Akari throws her hands up in frustration. "Always with the work! When was the last time you let yourself relax? We haven't had a decent night out in forever!"

"Maybe that's because things are different now, Akari. Life doesn't stop throwing punches just because we want a break." Chiyo groaned and sat on the couch, silence hung heavy in the air. Akari looks around the room again, her eyes are filled with a complicated mix of emotions. "I...I miss how things used to be. We used to face everything together. Remember when we'd pool our last few bucks for a single slice of pizza, and it felt like a feast?"

Chiyo's face softens. "Yeah, we were good at that. Back then, it felt like we could overcome anything, as long as we had each other."

"So why does it feel so different now?" Akari frowns.

"Maybe life took us down different paths. You seem to be doing well by yourself, Akari. I'm happy for you. Truly." Chiyo sighs, looking down at his hands.

Akari steps closer to him, her eyes searching his face. "But what about you, Chiyo? Are you happy?"

A long beat. Chiyo forces another smile. "Hey, i'm still standing, right? That's gotta count for something. Besides, you know me. Always gotta keep chasing that little flicker of hope!"

Akari nods slowly, forcing a smile. "Maybe we just need to find our way back to each other. Like we used to."

Chiyo looked up, noticing tears on Akari's face. "Or.. maybe it's better of if we go our separate ways.."

"S-separate ways? After everything?" Akari's voice trembled.

Chiyo avoided her gaze, focusing on the worn texture of the couch. "Maybe that's what life does, Akari. It stretches us thin and tears us apart at the seams. Sometimes, letting go is the only way to keep from being ripped in half. " His voice was raspy, his words laced with a quiet despair that mirrored the bleakness of the room. Akari took a step back, her designer purse suddenly feeling like a burden.

"But... we used to be a team! Remember? We promised to face everything together, no matter how bad it got!" She reached out, her hand hovering in the space between them, but Chiyo didn't reach back.

"Promises are easy when your bellies are full and your dreams are bright. But reality, Akari... reality has a way of dimming that light." A single tear escaped his eye, tracing a path down his cheek. Akari's hand dropped to her side, her smile replaced with a grimace of defeat.

"So... this is it then? This is goodbye?!" Akari snapped.

Chiyo closed his eyes, a single, choked sob escaping his lips. "Maybe for now. Maybe forever" His voice sounded barely like a whisper.

Akari turned away, her shoulders slumped. Without another word, she walked towards the door, leaving behind the echoes of their broken promises in the silent apartment. Chiyo remained on the couch, the weight of their fractured bond settling heavily upon him, a stark reminder that even the strongest friendships can crumble under the relentless pressure of life.

The once vibrant rooftop bar tickets lay forgotten on the table, a cruel reminder of a future that would never be. All that remained was the cold comfort of a flickering hope, now dimmer than ever, struggling to survive in the desolate landscape of their shattered dreams.

this was focused on Chiyo's part, if you want to see Akari's part don't be afraid to tell me <3

do ya'll want me to make more stories/one-shots/wtv? i can write them with idols if you wish as well, idk :/

#hongrizoon #light angst #original character #i need a life #what am i going to do #angsty content #im bored #help me

[rayasland]

I'm sorry but your post about Aging Up characters delegitimises hundreds upon thousands of fanfictions across all fandoms and is a ridiculous ask. You're basically asking all fans to only write about the adult characters in NSFW situations - even if the teen character is now an adult in the fic??? So we can't explore how the teen now struggles with life as an adult, including new adventures or settings, because its somehow problematic??? I can assure you authors aren't picturing kids when writing Aged Up fics, the point and the intent is to explore how they'd function in different/challenging situations, not if their homework needs to be in on time. I understand your intent- you're coming at this topic from a place of worry- but bullying fanfic writers is just going to silence all forms of fandom. We're cannibalising each other enough as it is, and your words are doing more harm than good

uve completely got it all wrong. ur saying u understand but ur sending this long ass paragraph and that says otherwise. im actually getting pissed.

how is bringing attention to smth thats been happening for a while now gonna be labelled as “bullying..?” a bit confusing. im not forcing no one to stop writing abt minors, if u wanna live ur life writing about kids despite knowing its pedophilic, do as u wish. like i said im 1. bringing to light how wrong it is 2. seeing how many ppl will agree. im not bullying anyone either so idk wtf ur on abt. all i can say abt that is that u must be real fucking sensitive if u think that was bullying bro. cannot wait to see how u react to real life bullying!

i cant even lie how u gon write a paragraph of pure yap😭😭

its okay to write kid characters experiencing real life things that could happen to literally anyone(non-sexual), i never said u couldnt. whats not okay and what i completely disagree on is blatantly writing porn about them. "i understand your intent!" mm sure, and i understand what you’re saying is that its okay to write them having sex?? bc it's something that they can "explore as an adult"? you’re okay with a child experiencing that? regardless of whether they're real or not??? honestly you’re js trying to justify ur weird ass behaviour and its as clear as day. also… tbh, why r u acting as if sexual activities are the only ways a minor aged up as an adult can explore or wtf that means??? pretty sure theres a million other ways so maybe get ur mind out of the gutter.

tf was the point of that message? that why you asked anonymously? bc YOU YOURSELF know posting that is pedophilic behavior disguised behind ur so called moral ambiguity by bringing in other shit that only justifies writing porn about A CHILD??

u wanna be dramatic about "bullying fanfic writers," "cannibalizing each other," and my words doing more harm than good? how about you get a fucking life you self righteous pedophile. like okay, sure fine we'll let it slide. and then we should let real-person fictional literature porn about a child slide. and then we should let porn videos and drawings of little kids slide. and then we should normalize minor + adult relationships so that everyone can have a chance regardless of their age because experiencing something is better because it makes both parties understand!

in all forms!! incest, pedophilic, power imbalances, rape from randoms on the street, in our schools, in the transports, out in public, in private, in our homes, when we're young! when we're old! when we don't know what's between anyone else's legs! they a boy? they a girl? they both? they none? even better! honestly if ur reading that kinda shit and r actually getting off to it, please seek help. and if u STILL after reading all this have no idea why its not okay, use google or read the comments and reblogs on the actual post and go talk nonsense at them bc im not going to be responding to whatever bs u have to say in response.

[flowerflowerflo]

ྀི ୨ embarrassment ୧ ྀི

...is a social construct designed to make us feel bad by those who cant handle their own mistakes & or shortcomings.

seriously. like. it baffles me how people are still living in the mindset where they let embarrassment become anything more for them than a concept.

୨୧ embarrassment

- a feeling of self-consciousness, shame, or awkwardness.

embarrassment is perfectly normal. it happens to everyone because we all make mistakes. but some people let embarrassment and the fear of embarrassment consume them and the choices they make far too much, far too often.

♡ which leads me onto my first point; it is completely normal. everybody makes mistakes. this is our first time in this life and we are all learning & growing with our every choice, every action, every decision <3 remember that the next time youre panicking and freaking out because you made a mistake.

♡ its never that deep. i like to try be gentle w this stuff but lemme tell u straight no one actually cares . im serious,, like babes no one gives a shit honestly 😭😭 and your mentality should be the same. people remember this stuff n laugh for 5 mins and then theyre back to their life. and if they hang on to it for longer then theyre the one who should be embarrassed.. get a life pls??

♡ similar to what i said a moment ago , its. never. that. deep. laugh it off !!!!! giggle !!!!!! laugh about it !!!!!!!! nobody cares !!!!!! this shows that it doesnt faze you and this shows how confident you are within yourself that you dont let silly little mistakes bother you because they do not matter.

♡ when it comes to your interests, please never be embarrassed about these. this is something ive struggled with since i was little but never never never be embarassed of the things that bring you joy. if they arent hurting anyone and are perfectly okay you should never be embarrassed ab that. it makes you happy. why should you be ashamed of that for someone else???🩷

♡ has someone ever said something to you? made u doubt urself? then you get embarrassed ab it???? dont. do not even go there. i ws so insecure before (i know😭😭) and couldnt hold a single opinion for myself but when you know who tf you are you wont be doubting yourself for anyone ml.

♡ so... you wanna pursue your dreams but ur too embarrassed. ur too embarrassed and worried "what if this doesnt work" "what if it doesnt happen" n whatever other dumb shit ur worried abt and scared to outgrow your surroundings and evolve. wow. you know how silly that sounds? so.. like.. let me get this straight... youre telling me... that youre not doing what you love... for the sake of someone else or some silly little doubts????wow. you get one life n youre doing that. GET IT TOGETHER BABES. GET REAL. WHY WOULD U SABOTAGE URSELF LIKE THAT????? YOURE WORTH SO MUCH MORE THAN THAT LIKE 😭😭🩷🩷🩷🩷

♡ understand that peoples perceptions of you are often reflections of themselves just like your perceptions of others are often reflections of yourself. they think its embarrassing because they know for a fact deep down that theyd be too embarrassed and self conscious to do it themselves.

♡ and then watch the way they'll all come crawling back apologising and grovelling the moment you're rich and successful and got everything you ever wanted.. all because you had the confidence to trust in yourself and pursue what you wanted without listening to their self doubts. <3

♡ reverse psychology. "why r u doing that" "thats so cringey" why r u so wrapped up in my business? thats so cringey

♡ overall, confidence, strong self concept & trusting in your ability to bounce back from anything are the three main things that will never let you wallow in this silly little emotion again. embarrassment is like a pitiful, more insignificant, ridiculous version of fear. if ur gonna be scared then b scared of something worth ur time babe ur more than that <33

#girlblogging #wonyoungism #it girl #pink pilates princess #self care #self improvement #thewizardliz #mindset #song jia #that girl #self concept #confidence #glow up era #dream girl #loassumption #loa tumblr #loa blog

[ankhisms]

have experienced what feels like 800 emotions in rapid succession on a rollercoaster today and it hasnt even really been a bad day honestly or anything im fine you know how it is

my mood swings have just been a lot stronger than they usually are since thats one of the biggest things my meds are for theyre like supposed to be a mood swing stabelizer but anyway

something that im aware is related to my more severe paranoia and obsessive compulsive issues but is less severe and more just adjacent to those is like being scared that im somehow a hypocrite about various random things or that im somehow secretly an awful horrible person who hurts people and does bad things without me even realizing that im doing that. im also aware that this very much stems from the way my abuser treated me and also the behavior of ""friends"" i had when i was younger who just now as im older i realize honestly didnt even like me and kept me around to make fun of me and be cruel to me together as a kind of group bonding thing.

which sucks because when im doing self soothing techniques and trying to calm myself down or even just approaching these thoughts and talking myself thru things it can be hard to counter the fear of "what if my friends or people i know in general actually talk together about how im an awful person and they hate me or talk together about how ive done something wrong without telling me?" with "no thats not fair or true and not based in reality" because it very much WAS reality for me. not in the sense of me having done something "wrong" in the past with those ""friends"" but like them being cruel to me and making fun of me when i wasnt around and the things i did ""wrong"" were just my autistic traits and other symptoms of my various mental things especially during that period of my life where i was completely unmedicated and had just gotten away from my abuser and was still in the awful school environment of being harrassed every single day.

anyway its really like. i know i shouldnt worry about this, rationally i know this. but just because i know something isnt rational it doesnt make my brain stop obsessively thinking about it so its like i could see someone saying "i hate when people go to the moon and jump up and down and sing the abcs" (ridiculous example bc i cant think of anything else) and i could at first go oh yeah i get that and like their post but then my brain will go but what if ive done that without realizing it and they see me liking their post and they go "ugh rey this post is about YOU and people like you and youre such a hypocrite and dont even know it" and the spiral begins. and in the end i guess all of this just goes to show that having people pretend to be friends with you only to hate you and ridicule you and pick apart every little thing you do behind your back really fucks you up.

also thinking about the ex close friend who cut me off out of nowhere with no explanation for seemingly no reason about a year or so ago now and ive continued to have kind of taking off the rose tinted glasses moments where i loved and cherished this friend so much that i excused how shitty they treated me at different times. not at all saying they are or were a bad person or that there was any abuse going on or anything like that but im just realizing that we both come from dysfunctional abusive families and we both have our own physical and mental problems and so throughout our friendship we both mightve not made the best choices or couldve handled things better and im not exempt from that. but also i realized that he would not tell me if i had done something to upset him and it would be like a guessing game for me and would really stress me out and make me feel awful

and its like. now as im older i would want to be able to talk things out and understand what had happened and be able to apologize and work on doing better. and in general thats something i really try my best on like i think in the past i would really get stuck in obsessively overthinking in self analyzing and get into moral obsessive compulsive spirals that just ended up hurting myself more than helping me grow, and anyway i always want to be able to step back and look at myself and my actions and be willing to listen if someone tells me ive done something hurtful or that i need to re-examine my behavior and beliefs, i think im pretty good at listening to people about stuff like that and have gotten much better about not falling into those spirals i just mentioned and examining myself in smaller healthier doses

but at the same time i do really get worried that people just arent telling me that theyre upset with me or that ive done something wrong or hurt them in some way. i really just want to be a good friend to people and i dont want people to be scared of coming to me and talking with me if ive done something to hurt them or to just talk about things with me in general and i dont want people to think im so fragile and mentally fucked up that theyd be scared of upsetting me by telling me id done something hurtful and letting it fester instead. i dont want to hurt people i want to spend my life making people happy and helping people and being a good friend, thats what i want most out of my relationships in life overall. i want to make people feel content and happy and safe.

but idk i just get scared. please be honest with me be upfront with me be blunt with me even i know im traumatized but i wont shatter into a million pieces if you tell me youre upset with me ill appreciate you being honest about it and ill stop whatever it was i was doing or work on it. i know im bad with social cues bc of autism and if i misunderstand something or say something inappropriate/out of my lane due to this please just tell me yknow

i really hate that my brain is like this and that having been abused and mistreated in the past has made me struggle like this because i want to trust that people arent talking badly about me or angry with me secretly i dont want to be so paranoid i dont want people to feel like they cant be honest with me or that im made of glass and that ill shatter if they tell me theyre upset with me, i want to trust that the people in my life like me and dont secretly hate me and im really trying hard but paranoia isnt something i can just magically wave away yknow its something im probably going to be dealing with for most of my life and im always kind of scared that people are going to get tired of my paranoia

despite living in survival mode constantly i still love all the people in my life a lot and i just want everyone to be happy and safe and i always wish there was more i could do to help everyone and i want everyone to be able to thrive and to be living comfortably and have all their needs met and to get all the help they need i love everyone a lot i want everyone to be okay and yeah

have also been majorly overthinking about if i want to do something that im being vague about as i ramble about it which i know is silly and its not even like something bad or negative but i just keep overthinking about the possible what if scenarios of oh what if i do this and they react really badly and cut me off and never want to talk to me again and due to this im also unfortunately like overthinking most things recently and being even MORE scared than usual of coming off as weird or being weird and making people uncomfortable but aint that just the way yknow. ill either do it or ill be a coward

anyway besides that my days been pretty decent its a lovely early autumn day. after typing this all i realized im probably feeling super emotional and weird because i just started my period lmao but thanks if you read this i love u mwah

[firewoodfigs]

some quick life updates before i yeet myself off to bed and trick my body into a regular sleep cycle: 

bali was great!!! i miss it terribly already. the people were lovely and the beaches were lovely and it was just nice to finally get away from this claustrophobic island of a country after nearly three!!! miserable!!! years!!! it was low-key exhausting because we fit so much into four days - we literally woke up at six in the morning on the third day to take a ferry to nusa penida (me, plagued by motion sickness: dear Lord take this cup away from me) and then did stuff like hike a ton in the tropical blistering heat and snorkel in ridiculously choppy waters. fun fact: I actually can’t swim so LMAO but well *shrugs* here I am... I say this calmly but in reality I was choking on seawater and yelling at my bf HAHAHAHA 

coming back home was super stressful because 4/9 of us who went on the trip got covid lol. I was fretting so hard on the flight home bcs my bf was shivering and breaking out in cold sweat from a fever that just came out of nowhere and the plane did not have BLANKETS because it was a transit flight. what. anyways when we landed and checked our phones one of our friends was like, “fuck, I’m positive”, and we were like, fuuuuuck. I was so sure we got it because all 9 of us shared a burger the night before, so we self-isolated for a few days just to be safe, but it turned out to just be stomach flu on my bf’s end. (I somehow got out miraculously unscathed...) 

also because I got bombarded with work the past two weeks bcs it was my beloved coworker’s turn to go on holiday after me... it was rough, man. I think I worked till or past midnight most days (although I generally try to take Wednesday and Friday nights off for Mental HealthTM) but honestly I'm just happy to not be fired because it was just me and my boss holding the fort together and i’m pretty sure I sent him trash at some point but he was genuinely so nice about it. like, he sent me an email with super detailed feedback and was like, don’t worry, it’s not stuff I expected you to know because it’s super technical, but just keep trying and you’ll get better and I was like yo... thanks... /cryingindaclub

I turned 25 recently and it is just. quarter life crisis ahoy. HELP. I need Taylor swift to write a song about being 25 and knowing nothing at all. actually I just need Dr Swift to drop a new album because I've listened to folklore and evermore so many times that it’s starting to feel a little repetitive and. idk. mad (woman) 

royai week completely slipped my mind with everything that’s been going on and my submissions will probably be really tardy (if they even get finished at all HAHAH) but the prompts this year have been really nudging me back towards writing again. they’re INCREDIBLE!!! I can’t wait to see how everyone interprets it - I'm sure it’ll be fantastic. i have to confess I've been kinda out of fma/royai lately bcs I've been working on other original stuff (also because my latest obsession is Star Wars LOL but this fandom was truly one of the best things that happened to me in 2020 and it’s just really nice to see everyone coming together again for the best week of the year. genuinely feels like Christmas in the summer but instead of mistletoe we have fic. what’s not to love?

anyways yeah tldr idk if I'll end up participating but I'm really looking forward to see what everyone has in store!!! x

ALRIGHT im off to bed take care and stay hydrated and safe mates I’m sending yall all my love to conquer the upcoming week <3 

[felidaefatigue]

massively mixed feelings on these ai trends and idk what to do with the conflicting emotions

Ik at least a small part of it has to be admittedly like... bitterness? which is never a very good justification so I want to acknowledge it and sweep it aside.  But it is real. the like.. dreamy aesthetic one i dont mind so much for this point because its really easy to recognize but the new ai “art” program that you can input prompts into and it creates a whole thing from scratch- That one gives me a bit of a squick because like... The average person online is ATROCIOUS at recognizing the differences between different media and is SUPER SUPER easily fooled by like, photorealism ad digital manipulations and stuff *already* and I can pROMISE you majority of people wont know when they are looking at a completely AI fabricated image. 

I dont think that the tech isnt *really fucking cool* and that it shouldn’t be used- I can actually think of a ton of applications where it would be really really useful for people in all sorts of fields and skill levels- and I’d love to see it used honestly. 

But what I dont like is that like... slow making art forms and like, techniques that require a LOT of time and skill to hone are ALREADY massively undervalued and being replaced by things that take 0.2 seconds to do with AI and program help now and its like... Very very disheartening as someone who tends to gravitate towards process heavy things. Because speed will always be prioritized in a capitalist environment, these tools will replace artists, and that is a good thing for like, individuals wanting to improve their personal gains, and will make a lot of things way easier for people both skilled and unskilled in visuals generation. Which isnt entirely a bad thing. But it almost assures that like, concept artists and illustrators and stuff will be out of a lot of jobs because like. Why pay someone to go to school to learn to paint it and pay them an hourly wage or contract when you can type it into a program and get a believable image in 30 seconds.  And also like. As much as im very anti-gatekeeping art for like, learning and skill sharing and stuff. I am a little gate-keepy on who should be making art for profit. and ONLY. ONNNNNLLLYYYY. because I worry about the environmental costs of people *producing* just to make money. We create so many objects that just Do Not need to exist and are contributing to massive industries that are decimating the environment. And like I’m not talking abt people making art their passionate abt. Im talking abt like, etsy digital asset resellers and shit. People who make 1000 different merch objects just to diversify their passive income and dont really care abt who is buyig it or why?  Like its admittedly a little pretentious sure but like. It’s also just I have a STUPID sensitivity to the responsibility opf the individual to a point where its honestly ridiculous. I refuse to make art in the medium my degree is in because the environmental cost to the environment involved in being reliant on mining and oil and gas skeeves me out too much lol. which is kinda silly. because you cat really escape it. But I also like. dont have any art to make in that medium that I think the world NEEDS that justifies that. so like. why bother. Where as working in linoleum, its biodegradable, paper is compostable. Like sure its still not ideal and shipping and all that is still a huge impact and inks still require mining. But its a Way more even load of cause and effect so it doesnt make me feel as horrid y’know?  anyway sidetracked. Point being sometimes things being easier and more available isnt like. great. and i really would like to see society push towards *less* and slower more mindful, well researched creation rather than just dopamine seeking creative impulses and monetization. 

[rianafying]

you know what the thing is? the thing is that i can feel that i am better, so much better, but not done. i’m not there, i haven’t healed, and i don’t know if there is a destination called healed or if it’s an eternal journey. but i feel terribly lonely and incapable today. but still completely full of hope and patience. because i have had the most wonderful time so far this year and i know that it’s just a matter of time before i feel better again. i just have to rest before my strength returns. it’s been a rough life but i’ve been kind and patient and resilient, and i’ve made it out mostly. i’m in the good times now. the worst is in the past. i could be as happy as anyone else. i could be in love, i’m fulfilling my dreams. i’ll fail and i’ll lose and i’ll get back up. i just need to wait this out. this terrible blip in my good life. it is making me want to overeat to drown out my misery but i’m trying to eat the normal amount. trying to eat well, and to take care of myself. i feel kind of unattractive lately. and i can’t find the energy to do my beautifying ritual. i actually haven’t taken a shower in two days, i don’t think this will turn into a depressive episode but honestly if it does i’ll manage. i’ve been through so much worse. this is my journal and i don’t have to worry about how i look or sound in here because i know my intentions are and have always been good. i just want the best for myself and everyone else. if hyping myself is what i need, that is what i will do. i’m ridiculously hot, i’m driven and im talented and im capable, and im creative, thoughtful, kind, resilient, and i deserve to be happy. i love myself. that’s the only love i really need, my own. and my inner child is upset this week and i will handle her with care. everything is going to be okay, i am safe, i healthy, im trying my best. that is the most anyone can do. i dont need anyone else to understand me. i’m going to be okay. my friends love me, my sister loves me, i am appreciated and missed and i love them. this is my place in the world. i deserve to stay alive and eat and sleep and study and to fail and learn from my mistakes. i’ll take care of my health again and as a bonus, im not starting from square one this time. my room is relatively clean. my finances are good. my fridge is stocked. my rent and bills are paid. it’s going to be okay.

and about not feeling like i’m good enough or capable enough, well nobody is born capable, people learn and i can learn and i can get better. it’s just a matter of learning more and practicing more, and it’s all so much easier when my mental health is better.

i’ve been eating through my telstra data like crazy. but what can a girl do you know. gotta use the internet. anyway, i’m trying to get up and do something. i don’t really want to bed rot. and as useless as it might seem to get dressed and go out, i should still do it, even if it doesn’t make me feel better. my heart is sad, i can physically feel it. can’t let a stranger make me this sad. ever. this is not who we are. we’re cool and fun and strong!!!!! everything will be okay!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! im literally happier than most people i know. and not in an ignorant and oblivious way. i’m happy in a reborn after a thousand painful deaths kind of way. i’ve made my peace with this world kind of way. i have found my place in the family of things kind of way. to love live even when i have no taste for it kind of way. not just despite the misery but because of it.

and besides i can use this sadness to my advantage. really listen to the sad playlists and let the songs hit.

#personal #journal entry #poetry #goodness #naarm

[444newbeginnings]

Didn't date check my last post before coming to write this one so ill see after, how long its been. Im falling apart.... theres so much to say and honestly im too tired to even explain. Im going to see my primary care doctor this friday (black friday) and im going to see if she can refer me to a therapist on my insurance. I have never been this low in my life and life is really kicking my ass. My relationship is good when its good and very bad when its bad. No matter how i try to explain it or approach things, i keep ending up sweeping my feelings under a mat and atp its extremely noticeable. Like someone trying to hide a stack of books under a thin bed sheet. It looks ridiculous, right? Which is one of the places i feel all this anger stems from. Yes i have trauma and baggage that I am processing and healing from, which i am aware. But, its also the fact that she doesn't get it. I can't say anything or express my feelings (the not so good ones) without it hurting hurt feelings or making her feel attacked or making her feel like im pointing the finger or making her feel like im only worried about myself or making her feel like she's taken for granted/unappreciated. Granted, i try my hardest to refrain from making her feel any of those ways and try to keep them in mind instead of chucking it up to her just crying wolf in situations that start from me coming to express myself. The problem is though that my feelings usually dont get addressed. And if they do, they're already hurt by then and even more hurt by the way the conversation goes when i try to express them. I try to explain it and she thinks "everything with you has a list or rules or is like wikipedia" (her words). I would much rather her go back to saying i talk to much. Yes some things are just hard to hear and sometimes there isn't an easy way to share an honest feeling. I get that. I try to make her get that. Just because it hurts to hear doesn't mean im in the wrong for saying it. Granted, I KNOW the situations where this doesn't apply!!! Me saying something smart or sarcastically , in a way that obviously would hurt someones feelings or that i know for a fact could have been said differently, does not fall under this. She however does not know the difference. Her words hurt especially when it feels like what and how she said something, is completely unnecessary. Example: the other morning, when she came back from the bathroom i tried to get cuddles because i hate just jumping out of the bed immediately in the morning or into our phones, the day, whatever, without some kind of moment to ourselves, a good morning, a how are you feelings, a check in. I make a comment, jokingly, and say well maybe if you weren't on your phone we could take a minute to cuddle. Saying it to say like get off your phone and love me. She looks at me and says "im on my phone because we're stressed and behind on billls and im checking my application replies (something of that nature but definitely on quote we're stressed and behind on bills). I thought that entire sentence was completely hurtful and unnecessary, not to mention me having a whole emotional breakdown about me feeling fucked up about our situation and me feelings like im drowning and not wanting to be here just for you to turn around, look me in my eye and say that?? The very next day.. it really hurt my feelings. Then when i try to explain the fact that maybe you shouldn't just throw things up in the conversation like that after having said emotional breakdown, im giving too many rules and list and im never satisfied. Its about your insensitivity. You can really be an asshole sometimes, at the worst times. I just dont get it. I know im not a mean or nasty person, especially not for you to carry me that way with the things you say to me. Yes when im angry and we're arguing, im a monster. Which i can acknowledge and i try my hardest not to be and still trying to work on it. Hopefully the therapist will help with that part but outside of that, im not this ungrateful, snappy, mean person you make me feel like .......

[talktoten-a]

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#it's completely ridiculous that im worried about this honestly #like i know im good at what i do and it will be fine #but i worry somehow that im an imposter whose laziness will be uncovered at the last moment #and ill not flunk out - they wouldn't flunk me - but i'll get a grade which is not #the probably unrealistic one ive got stuck in my head as The Only Acceptable Outcome #it is so unhealthy that i do this to myself i hope you all know #it is ridiculous that i sit here and pressure & pressure & pressure & pressure #the problem is i know for sure 100% that i could get that grade if i wanted it badly enough. like if i just put in the work #because ive got it before #and so there's not a 'grade to beat' it's just a grade to match or else i was somehow more lazy or less motivated or im just not cut out #for research #all of these things are not true. I am very motivated #look at this sheer amount of pressure #the concern is that i will be this pressured and this motivated and it will still amount to Less Than #and still #i know that this time next year ill think how silly it was i was worried #bc it's not really in my control at this point what people will mark me. i am good and i am trying and that's the control ive got #so ill just keep on pushing on #honestly i just sort of have to try to not psych myself out #im getting worried because it's really easy to write these sections of my dissertation and i feel like it should be harder #and so im like ??? maybe im missing something??? maybe im an imposter ???? maybe this is terrible rubbish????? #we'll have to find out this time come november

[keisl0vergirl]

bts reacting to you being “cancelled” for ridiculous reasons

[pairings] bts x reader (separate)

[genre] fluff, slight angst??

[warnings] mentions of online hate

[authors note] notice how twitter is a recurring theme in all of them? yeah.

Kim Seokjin — Smiling at another member

this all started when jin went on vlive and showed the BTS of their recent music video

he invited you to join and of course, you said yes

when you got there jin was busy ranting about his makeup so you decided to let him be

taehyung was on his phone in the back and you went over to greet him

however, when you did you smiled

now it wasn’t anything special

just a normal smile . like :) not ;)

after finally getting jins attention, he showed you to the fans and gave you a hug

nothing out of the ordinary

but when you got home you checked your phone and saw your twitter was blowing up

apparently a fan made an innocent edit of your interaction with tae during the live

and it got blown out of proportion

now you were being accused of cheating on jin???

and with taehyung of all people???

you didn’t bother engaging in it so you turned off your phone and went about with your day

when dating someone as famous as jin, it wasn’t surprising to see this

however jin thought otherwise

he was furious

it wasn’t the first time something like this had happened

he raced over to your house expecting you to be in tears about the accusations and hate you were receiving

but when he burst through the door he saw you watching Netflix and eating some food you had just ordered

“jin?? what are you doing here? is something wrong?”

“aah, nothing is wrong.” he gave you a nervous smile

“uh okayy… do you want some?”

he joined you, also ignoring his phone

but don’t get it confused

he still posted a picture of you and him making cute faces on twitter and weverse

“MY love <333”

Min Yoongi — Walking away from paparazzi when you had something to do

with yoongi you had a private relationship for roughly 5 months before it was exposed

yoongi was mad about the weird comments you got

but they slowed down after a while

your personal life was invaded quite a bit but you didn’t mind

it was something you got used to rather quickly

but that didn’t mean you liked being on camera

even if it was one of the boys recording, you would try your hardest to stay out of the frame

making it clear that the recording life wasn’t for you

at all.

so when you came out of a store on your way to your mothers house and saw reporters and paparazzi outside…

you already knew what was going to happen

once they caught sight of you

they went feral

“miss y/n what do you have to say about BTS’s recent song?” “how’s your relationship with yoongi?” “did you hear about the rumours? yoongi was sighted getting cosy with another woman. do you have anything to say about it?”

of course you heard the rumours but there was nothing to be angry or upset about

you completely trusted yoongi and everyone knew he was head over heels for you

“u-uh… sorry but i have somewhere i need to be, im sorry” you smiled and scuffled off to your car

you could hear the distant shouts as you drove away

but you didn’t think anything of it

3 hours later and yoongi wouldn’t stop calling you

he wasn’t in the country so it was lowkey concerning

“hey, what’s up?” “you haven’t seen what they’re saying on twitter?” “what? no. you know i don’t use twitter.”

he sighed, shuffling heard from his line

“….why? is everything okay?”

“yeah. it’s just… people were saying some stuff about you running away from the reporters earlier.”

“oh.”

“don’t worry i have people dealing with it right now.” he grumbled

a smile printed itself on your lips, “it’s okay, honestly. as long as you’re good, im fine.”

there was a distant shout from the other side of the phone, something along the lines of practice and being late

“ah y/n i have to go but i’ll call you later. i love you.”

“i love you too, have fun.”

“will do.”

Jung Hoseok — Pranking him

something that kept you and hoseoks relationship exciting was the pranks you often pulled on one another

it was a war he started and wouldn’t let end

the pranks varied from feeding each other extremely salty foods to randomly making the water in the shower freezing cold

the last prank he pulled on you resulted in you having to give multiple flower stores large boxes of flowers

he had hired someone to drop off 10,000 roses in your house

a “romantic” gesture as he called it

you let it peacefully pass and moved on

until he began complaining about his hair dye washing out

you swear you could hear heaven singing

an opportunity handed directly to you

so you bought some pink hair dye and waited for him to leave the house, eventually mixing it in with his usual shampoo

said shampoo was conveniently purple so the colour difference wasn’t too noticeable

hoseok showered and boom.

came out looking pretty <33 with his new hair

he wasn’t particularly angry about it, more shocked that you managed to pull it off

but once the shock wore off, you could tell he loved it

it wasn’t the reaction you was initially going for but hey

seeing him cheesing made you cheese

“y/niee this is cuteeee”

he pulled out his phone and took selfies ready to showcase his new hairstyle to the world

deciding on twitter, he posted a selfie with the caption “my y/n pranked me ;(( #newhair<3 #ilookgood”

this wasn’t the first time your prank war was mentioned online, the topic coming up in a run!bts episode months ago

but when the fans saw what you did, they were livid

with the hashtags he added you would think people wouldn’t take it so seriously

but damn

you and hoseok didn’t take the hate personally

people always had something to say and blocking it out was easier than engaging in it

he wanted to post another tweet defending you but you told him no

silly comments weren’t going to ruin your one free day with your boyfriend

“hoseok, babe, trust me it’s not that bad. hate doesn’t affect me, never has and never will”

he stared at you with hearts in his eyes

everything you did was so admirable to him

“it’s my fault, i wanna help”

“you can help by making dinner while i find a movie for us to watch”

“yes ma’am” he gave you a heart warming smile and tight hug before scurrying off to the kitchen

Kim Namjoon — Calling out the people who were stalking you

now it may seem like you caused this

but really it wasn’t your fault

you were going about your day, as usual

then you noticed a group of girls look at their phones and point at you

it wasn’t odd, but it didn’t make it feel any better

they didn’t even care to whisper so you heard everything about they said

everything.

from being namjoons girlfriend to hoping to find out where you live incase namjoon, or anyone for that matter, was visiting you

walking on and praying they would lose sight of you, you continued doing what you was doing

but it was clear that they weren’t planning on letting you go

eventually you managed to get some help from a security guard who noticed them following you

instead of ignoring the issue

like always

you went to twitter to peacefully express your thoughts

“hey guys, i know you don’t mean anything bad by it but i’d really like it if people stopped following me when im doing personal things. it’s not a nice feeling to hear people talk about exposing my private life for no reason. again I’m not mad, but please stop <33.”

within minutes, your tweet blew up setting off a chain reaction of hate

“she goes out with someone famous and automatically thinks she’s famous🤣🤣. girl byeeee” 1.56K likes, 459 Retweets, 619 Replies

..wut.

you groaned and moved on, not wanting to dwell on it for too long

namjoon was also unaware of what you posted until yoongi texted him the tweet

once he saw the replies, he was ready to pop off

but as the leader, he was always expected to keep a calm head and leave a good impression on people

so he called you, letting your calm demeanour replace the fury he previously felt

once he knew you weren’t hurt and made arrangements for you to stay at the dorms for a couple of days, he went to weverse to express his feelings

“Please respect Y/N’s privacy. I know you all want to meet her and get to know her but please respect her boundaries.”

of course many comments were deleted after namjoons post and you received more support than ever

Park Jimin — Being too busy to go on vlive

people always wondered how you and jimins relationship survived

it’s like your schedules were made to clash

when you have a free week, jimin would be on tour or busy with photoshoots/concerts. when he had a free week, you would be swarmed with work

it was like a match made in hell

but you somehow made it work

when the public found out about one of the most loved bts boys being in a relationship, they were in need of seeing who this person was

eventually they met you and things were alright

until jimins birthday rolled around

fans were pressuring you to join his birthday live

even after you said that you would be busy

now you didn’t say busy with work (because you were planning a getaway weekend for just you and jimin)

but the internet assumed otherwise

and of course, you were accused of pushing him to the side

one account even posted clips of you “prioritising” the other boys over him

like what??

you didn’t even know you were getting hate until you overheard the boys talking about you

“i don’t think she knows, i haven’t seen her look at her phone all day.” jungkook chuckled

“yeah she hasn’t seen it, we all know she would’ve went off if she did” jin smiled

“seen what?” you butted in, more confused than worried

“people are saying that you don’t really like jimin, you only want his fame and clout” namjoon cautiously mumbled

“hm, that’s nice” you walked away

“oh no”

you were ready to get your phone and fight fire with even hotter fire

but when you heard jimin mention you on his celebration vlive, you paused

“"are you upset that y/n was too busy with work to celebrate your birthday?" who said she was busy with work? she’s trying to plan a surprise for me and keep it a secret, but im smarter than her so i know everything” he giggled, knowing you would argue about his last comment

but hey, maybe you didn’t need to say anything after all

Kim Taehyung — Dying your hair and accidentally matching with another member

this had to be one of the weirdest experiences you’ve been through

it started when you woke up and got tired of your natural black hair, wanting something more exciting

after contemplating, you decided on a cute lighter brown

it had been a while since you saw the boys in person so this would be a nice surprise for them all

especially tae, he always got hyped when you changed your hair but this would be your first time dying it

after purchasing the dye, you carefully followed the instructions, being extra cautious when you got to your roots

but you succeeded and was pleased with the results

you left your natural hair in a puff, not applying any extra products as your head was still sensitive

you meet up with the guys and it’s safe to say that they were shocked

but in a good way

tae had screamed and chased you when he caught a glimpse of the new hair

he squeezed the life out of you once he caught up to you

even after he let everyone greet you, he couldn’t take his eyes off of you

basically hypnotised by your beauty

it was jungkook who first made the connection to you matching with hoseok

after joking about it you all disregarded the topic and tae took you to the side to take selfies with you

(ones he couldn’t stop looking at when he left the city for a couple of days)

he posted two on weverse (one of you two and one with everyone) and left it as that

until someone decided to zoom in and crop you next to hoseok, tweeting “they’re matching hair colours?? isn’t that a couple thing???”

the tweet gained a lot of traction because it came from a user with a relatively large following

eventually it was trending and almost everyone was talking about it

however the rumours didn’t last long considering everyone knew that you were taehyungs soulmate

but even that didn’t stop a flood of hate comments coming your way

it’s pretty clear that taehyung doesn’t have an issue with expressing his emotions about certain situations

his post on weverse said it all

“🤮🤮🤮🤮no”

Jeon Jungkook — Listening to a Kpop song from another band

jungkook decided to do quick vlive in his hotel when you were still in the room, chilling on his bed

he knew people missed talking to him so he was excited to talk to ARMY and see what was going on

it was a normal live, he would sometimes check on you to see if you needed anything but nothing too interesting

you were scrolling on tiktok with your airpods in, not wanting to impose too much

a tiktok with the song love shot by exo popped up and you quietly sang along in background, not realising that jungkook had turned his attention back to you

he smiled at your voice, “she has a pretty voice, right? she doesn’t like it when i say it but im sure she can’t ignore ARMY :)”

well people took notice in your voice

not specifically your voice but the song you were singing

apparently, singing a song from a band that was a rival to your boyfriend’s was a crime

…

the tweets came the second jk ended the live

one of the hate comments even came from an account that followed and posted exo

in all honesty it wasn’t that big of a deal, more ridiculous than angering

jungkook still took the time to get the tweets deleted and reported

as he should .

© 2021 all rights reserved.

#bts x reader #bts fanfiction #bts fluff #jungkook x reader #taehyung x reader #jimin x reader #namjoon x reader #hoseok x reader #min yoongi x reader #kim seokjin x reader #bts angst #jungkook angst #taehyung angst #bts scenarios #bts headcanons #bts reactions #ot7 fluff #ot7 x yn

[jeonggukieverse]

Hey could you please request 8,24 and 25 with jungkook. Like an established au fic that's like fluff, crack and more fluff with like a pinch of angst maybe😅

Thanks tho! I love your fics and i literally wait for the let the games begin fic cause it's so captivating!

You’re Mine, I don’t share

Pairing: Jungkook x Reader (ft Kim Taehyung x Park Jimin)

Genre: Established Relationship, Office Party AU

Warnings: Fluff, Crack, smut, teasing, angst if you squint

Word count: 4.7k+

A/N: Hi Anon, hope you enjoy it I had a blast writing it! I made this one halloween themed and I’m not very good at writing smut so if that part sucked, im sorry <33

Prompts:

8 “Why are you so jealous?”

24 “You’re so fucking hot when you’re mad”

25 “You’re mine. I don’t share”

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“Not to be cocky or anything but I think we look stunning” You stated as you stared at both of your reflections in the mirror

“I think you look sexy in your short little dress. I look absolutely fucking ridiculous” rebutted the tall figure next to you as he adjusted his thin green tights.

You could tell that Jungkook was going to be in a sulky mood for the rest of the evening. But you honestly couldn’t understand why! He literally looked adorable.

“Well, I won fair and square so wipe that sulk off your face and smile ‘Peter’. You should be happy, you and Peter Pan have so much in common. Both of you refuse to grow up, it’s a perfect fit”

“Oh, ha ha ha, very funny ‘Tinkerbelle’.” He droned sarcastically “I think the method of flipping a coin to decide what we do is a little outdated now, don’t you agree? I think we should do one year I choose a costume and one year you choose a costume. Cause my idea of me being Bob Ross and you being a Happy Little Tree would have been such a fucking good idea. Such a missed opportunity.”

“First of all, Jeon Jungkook, flipping a coin was YOUR choice and second of all if we would have gone with your idea, I would have wanted to be Bob Ross”

“Baby, I don’t think that’s a path you wanna go down with me. You don’t exactly radiate Bob Ross energy. Do you remember when we went to that art class? You painted for 5 minutes and then got mad and quit because your clouds looked like little sheep?”

You wanted to argue back with a point that would completely disprove his last statement…but you couldn’t cause he was right. You weren’t an artistic type

“No comment?” He asked bending down slightly so he was eye level with you. There he stood with his eyebrow raised looking as handsome as the day you first met.

“No comment” you relented as he giggled at how cute you were.

You and Jungkook had started dating 4 years ago. You were actually introduced through your work friend Jimin. You remember one day asking him about who in the Simpsons would be most likely to survive a zombie apocalypse and Jimin chuckled at your question stating that it was ‘totally something Jungkook would ask’. This intrigued you so Jimin worked his magic and managed to set up a blind date for both of you.

You wished you could say that the date was lovely and it was totally love at first sight but it wasn’t. He was 10 minutes late so that already left a sour taste in your mouth, he avoided all kinds of eye contact with you and any questions you asked him were received with short one-word replies. It was obvious to you that this guy was not interested in you at all, which was a huge shame cause he was so attractive.

You remember standing outside of the restaurant waiting in silence next to him while you both waited for your cab. He was stiff and stoic and you could feel the awkwardness radiating off of him. You think he could sense that you felt this so he started throwing his house key up in the air and catching them as a way to distract himself. This was working like a charm up until the 5th throw in which Jungkook missed his keys and they fell with a loud clank to the pavement. No worries. He did as he would normally do and bent to pick them up. All was normal until you and Jungkook both paused upon hearing a loud tear rip through the silence. You both paused and you slowly panned your eyes over to him revealing a pair of red iron man underwear poking through the tear in his dress trousers.

You let out an audible gasp as your hands flew over your mouth in shock and horror. Jungkook mirrored your response and gasped and stood up, his had quickly flew to cover the rip. He spun around to face you, his face now perfectly matching his underwear in colour. You both stared at each other and before you could hold back you let out a roaring laugh. You couldn’t control it, tears rolled down your face and your stomach began to constrict and tighten. You tried to breathe as normally as possible but this proved to be almost impossible. You desperately tried to compose yourself as to not humiliate the poor boy any further but you were completely unable to. Through your tear drenched lashes you managed to peek at Jungkook. To your surprise, his expression echoed yours. He too was letting out uncontainable belly laughter at his own unfortunate situation.

You both giggled for about 5 minutes until your laughter subsided and you were able to ask if he was okay. He said yes and explained he was happy it broke the ice between you two cause he had been so nervous over dinner. This made a lot more sense to you, he wasn’t being rude, he was just socially awkward.

You both decided to try your first date again in a few days over pizza and a movie instead of a fancy restaurant and it was perfect. And you and Jungkook had been inseparable ever since.

“What kind of job holds a company Halloween party anyways?”

“Well, since Jimin became regional manager, we have office parties for pretty much anything and everything now. Halloween, Valentine’s Day even National Pet Day”

“That guy just likes the have an excuse to drink” Jungkook chuckled as he searched for his car keys.

Tonight, was a very rare occurrence. Jungkook almost never accompanied you to one of your work events, he prefers to spend evenings in on his own. But when he had heard there were going to be games and mini competitions, his little bunny ears perked up. Your boyfriend never ever shied away from a competition.

“Okay, I’m ready Kookie, let’s go”

“If you call me that in front of your work friends, I’ll sue you”

You giggle at him. Tonight, was going to be fun. You could just feel it.

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You arrived at the venue and you were met with the bass of the music and an array of bright costumes. You had only been inside for 2 minutes and you had seen two Harley Quinn’s, 6 witches and so many (too many) bunnies. Not to say that yours and Jungkook’s costumes were the most creative but it was obvious that you’d both put effort in and that put a little glow of pride in your chest.

“I’m gonna need alcohol if I’m gonna get through this.” Jungkook lent down and spoke in your ear. This made you giggle.

“Okay, but be careful babe your starting to sound like our DLF Jimin”

“DLF?”

“Dear little friend”

“_____ I love you but if I ever hear you call me that again you’re totally fired”

You heard a familiar voice pipe up from behind you.

Jimin was a man that liked to put on an absolutely extravagant show. He was eccentric, loud, colourful and extremely flashy. So, when your eyes met his figure and saw his elaborate ringmaster costume you were impressed but not surprised.

“A circus leader Jimin? Is that some kind of subliminal message towards your staff members?” you teased

“I mean, you said it _____, not me.” He shrugged his shoulders with a cheeky smile plastered on his face

“And you managed to drag our little hermit out of the house? You really are the girl that can do anything, huh?”

“Ha ha you’re both just absolute comedians tonight. Im gonna go get a round of drinks while you short people chit chat. Want anything specific?” Jungkook asked.

“Vodka lemonade for me please. And I know Jimin will drink anything with an alcohol percentage”

Jimin gasped as his hand flew to his chest theatrically “You know me far too well”.

The three of you let out a chorus of laughs before your boyfriend disappeared to get the drinks.

“Hey, really though, thanks for getting him out the house. I know he’s a homebody but it makes me happy to know that he’s more comfortable coming out of his shell now. Before he met you, my dude never came out. I’m happy you two idiots met each other.”

Jimin’s sincerity took you off guard but you smiled anyway and instinctively wrapped your arms around him and gave him a hug. Because, although you knew Jimin LOVED to tease him, you knew that he cared for Jungkook very dearly. They had both grown up together and were extremely close. The more you got to know Jungkook, you felt more grateful towards Jimin that he would trust you with Jungkook’s heart.

Your moment with Jimin was interrupted by another voice.

“Wow, cheating on me in the middle of the work party? I thought we had more than that _____?”

“Kim Taehyung, what the hell are you supposed to be?”

He stood before you and Jimin in and orange wig, with 3 pieces of bread around his neck as a necklace

“I’m a ginger bread man”

“That is the funniest shit I’ve ever heard in my life. You mind is completely unmatched Tae”

Jimin nodded in agreement.

“What are you supposed to be? Some little elf?”

“No. Im Tinkerbelle and Jungkook is Peter Pan”

“Ooh, the boyfriend is here? Im excited to meet him” Taehyung raised his eyebrows up and down.

Tae was your absolute rock at work. You both co managed the same department. Life would have been a disaster at work if you didn’t have each other to balance things out. You were a good team that were willing to go above and beyond for each other cause not only were you friends but you respected each other as professionals in your field. That’s why your team was the most profitable in the company.

As a joke, your team started referring to you as the work husband and wife cause you were literally joined at the hip. The title tickled both of you cause you were in love with Jungkook and Taehyung was dating Jimin in secret. But you both found the title amusing so it just kind of stuck.

“Yeah, he should be back in a minute. Don’t tease my man, Kim Taehyung! Jungkook can get pretty jealous if provoked.”

“Let’s see how jealous we can get him then. Just between me and you”

Tae leaned down to whisper in your ear “Jealous sex, hits different”

“Tae!” you wheezed wile smacking him in the arm.

The universe liked the idea of teasing Jungkook cause it had brought him back over to you just in time to see Taehyung whispering in your ear and you giggling at whatever he had said. Jungkook trusted you completely but he wasn’t blind. Taehyung was a very attractive man and he couldn’t help but feel a little intimidated.

“Hi baby, here’s your drink. You too Jimin”

“Thanks, Kookie, Im gonna have to leave you guys now I need to get the games started” Jimin said to you all. Just as he walked away, he shot Taehyung a knowing look that said ‘behave yourself’.

No one but you knew about Tae and Jimin. Although Jimin was very into knowing about everyone else’s relationships, he was very private about his own. The only reason you knew was because Tae was the complete opposite, he told you straight away when him and Jimin started dating. It was sweet and you were happy for them. Jimin turned beat red when you told him you knew but you assured him that you would let him tell Jungkook when he was ready. This put him at ease. Cause Jimin was a cautious lover, he hated introducing his friends to someone unless he was 100% seriously in love. So, you respected that boundary and let Jimin do things in his own time.

“Who’s this?” Jungkook asked, unable to play it cool anymore as he stared as Tae’s arm wrapped around your waist. I mean, he lasted 10 seconds before asking, that’s a new record.

“I’m the work husband” Taehyung chuckled, hand reaching towards Jungkook’s. Jungkook instinctually followed suit and shook Taehyungs hand.

“Work husband?”

“Yeah basically, to _____, I just do everything you do you but at work” Tae chuckled

You felt Jungkook stiffen next to you for a brief second before he regained his composure. You had seen Jungkook get slightly jealous before but no one had ever teased him the way you knew Tae was going to. Really, you should have put a stop to it but you’d be lying If part of you wasn’t excited to see how things would pan out. So that’s what you did, you just let Taehyung play his little game with Jungkook.

“Ah I see hahah. Well, not everything obviously.” Said Jungkook. It was more of a suggestive question rather than a statement.

Before Taehyung could respond he was interrupted by the hissing of a microphone.

“Ladies and gentlemen, you all look stunning this evening. I trust you’ve all got acquainted and comfortable? Good! So now the fun can start! Jimin spoke with the air of showmanship that could rivel any real ringmaster.

“Tonight, for our first game, I’m gonna need you to split into pairs”

Taehyung took this as his opportunity to ruffle Jungkook’s feathers even more. He grabbed your arm and hooked it around his.

Before Jungkook could object, Tae sad:

“Sorry home boyfriend, im gonna have to borrow our girl for the evening. We work best as a team. Isn’t that right wifey?”

Jungkook looked at you, expecting you to shove Tae off of you and run back to him. But to his surprise you did no such thing.

“Right! We can totally win this! You don’t mind do you baby? It’s just that, as this is a work setting, I know how Tae and I will work together. I’m sure Jimin will want to be partners with you anyway. It’ll be more fun like this” you teased

You saw Jungkook’s jaw tighten. Through gritted teeth and a plastic smile, he said:

“Sure baby, have fun”

He was seething! Taehyung secretly squeezed your arm, seemingly happy as well that his plan was working.

“Oh, we will, good luck green tights” Sang Tae while he pulled you closer to where Jimin was stood.

You looked back at Jungkook and he stared daggers into you while his tongue prodded his inner cheek. Oh crap, you’d never seen him this agitated, it sent a chill up your spine and a familiar warm feeling down to your core.

Focus _____! You’ve got to get through these games.

The first game was dunking for apples. The rules were, 2 buckets were filled with water and 6 apples. The players must kneel down next to each bucket and try to catch the apples with their mouths only. The first player to take out all 6 apples wins. Seems like a fairly simple friendly game, right? Sure, but you knew your boyfriend. You knew how competitive he was and you knew that after the mood you had put him in, this game was going to be anything but friendly.

The games began and 3 rounds had gone before it was yours and Tae’s turn and of course: it was You and Tae vs Jimin and Jungkook.

Tae and Jimin went first.

The two men kneeled down with their hands behind their back. The buzzer sounded and they were off! Water splashed all over the place as the two men dunked and dived to grab the apples. You couldn’t focus on them though, cause your eyes were drawn to your boyfriend who was stood directly across from you. He smirked at you cause he knew that you were just as competitive as him. You stared back at him before mouthing:

‘you’re going down, Jeon?!’

You rolled your eyes at him, he hated when you did that. You watched as his eyes squinted at you. He stayed like that for a few seconds before tilting his head and raising his eyebrows almost as if you accept your challenge.

When your attention was pulled back to the game, Jimin had managed to snag his last apple.

The crowed around you cheered for him as he stood up arms raised in the air to receive his praises. Typical Jimin. So dramatic.

The game was reset and now it was your turn. You kneeled next to Jungkook and awaited the sound of the buzzer.

“Good luck, baby” he murmured.

The game itself was a blur. There was a flurry of water and red apples bombarding your vision. You dunked and bobbed as fast as you could, not even counting the apples you managed to snag between your teeth. You dunked your head into the bucket to search for more but there were none. You pulled your head back to look for your eyes only to be met with just water. You had done it! You’d won!

You stood up and cheered along with your co-workers. Jungkook stood up too in defeat. You knew you gave Jungkook a lot of shit for being competitive but you were exactly the same way.

Taehyung ran over to you and engulfed you in a bear hug. He leaned in so only you and Jungkook could hear and said:

“I knew you had a talented mouth, _____”

This was the last fucking straw for Jungkook. He pushed Taehyung off you. Jungkook wasn’t violent but you could tell that he wouldn’t hesitate to hurt Taehyung. You jumped in between them as subtly as you could as to not create a scene and whispered to Jungkook.

“Baby, let’s go home”

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The drive home was silent. The anger that radiated off of Jungkook was unlike anything you’d ever seen before. Had you taken things a bit too far?

When you arrived home, Jungkook stepped out of the car first. He walked straight to the door and didn’t look back at you. He did wait though, he waited to feel you walk up behind him before unlocking the door.

Your intention was to immediately walk in and apologise but that’s not want happened. Before you could even utter a word Jungkook crashed his lips hungrily on to yours.

“I’ve waited the whole evening to finally be able to do this.” He spoke gently before he bit into your lower lip. That caused a moan to be released from your mouth and you instinctively pressed your hips forward into his. Jungkook groaned at the friction this movement caused and he continued to grind his crotch into yours. “Why the fuck would you make me wear tights? Hmm? Seeing you in that little fucking dress all night has had me harder than ice. I went to the bathroom 6 times to try and fix it.” Jungkook nuzzled his head in the crook of your neck and pressed needy kisses against your skin.

“But I could’ve helped you, Kookie.”

“No. I didn’t want to interrupt you and your fucking work husband.” He grunted, his soft voice a few seconds ago long forgotten. He stopped his loving kisses, picked you up bridal style and caried you up the stairs to your shared bedroom as if you weighed nothing.

Jungkook literally threw you onto the bed before slamming the door shut. The noise made you jump but that was soon forgotten as you watched him throw his green hat across the room and he began to hurriedly remove his shirt. You bit your lower lip in anticipation of what was to come, or who was to come.

Your eyes didn’t leave Jungkook, not even for a second. He threw his shirt next to his hat and began unbuckling his belt at a teasingly slow pace. He stepped out of his shorts and tights while you continued to roam your eyes over his well-toned body until you took in the sight of his bulge. You moistened your lips with your tongue, unable to stop staring at his erection with a shy excited smile.

“Let’s see if you can still smile after I’m finished with you.” Jungkook walked over to you and crawled over the bed until he was kneeling between your legs. “And another fucking matter, why did you have to wear this fucking dress? Take it off, now” he ordered. You obeyed without a second thought. You pulled the dress over your head and shoved it next to you on the bed. Now that your breasts were completely on display, he wasted no time and grabbed them roughly, one in each hand.

“This night could’ve perfect.” Jungkook pinched your erect nipples between his thumb and index finger while peppering quick kisses along your jawline and down your neck. “Fun games, free drinks, chill music. It could have been a nice night for you and I. Couldn’t it baby? But no, you would rather play pretend with that fucker.”

He aggressively sucked on the soft flesh of your neck, remembering how Taehyung kept his arm wrapped around you. How your skin made contact with his practically the whole night. You let out a gasp when Jungkook pushed you down on the mattress, tore your dress into two pieces and threw it in a corner along with his clothes.

“Baby! Was that really necessary? I really liked that costume” you complained because this really was your favourite Halloween outfit and you thought your boyfriend liked it too.

“We’ll be something else next year sweetheart, don’t worry. That dress has been tainted now. Too much of Taehyungs DNA is on it, you can’t wear it again. Besides, you look much better naked anyways.” You giggled at how ridiculously jealous he was.

He groaned now that you were laying just with your panties on in front of him. Jungkook could never get enough of the sight of you, no matter how often he has seen you like this.

He travelled his right hand down to your core while his left hand massaged your breast. He kissed his way along your collarbone and down your chest until he reached your breasts. His mouth began to plant kisses around your nipple while his left hand pinched the other.

"J-Jungkook... please.” Your voice quivered under his touch, hoping he will touch you soon where you needed him the most. Jungkook continued the caress of your breasts while attacking your nipple. His right hand that now rested on your waist, travelled further down your body until it reached the hem of your panties. Jungkook made a motion as if he was going to pull your panties down but stopped when he saw you biting your lip.

“Not yet, sweetheart.” Jungkook’s hand now cupped your crotch, moaning when he felt that your panties were soaked with arousal. You let out a whimper. “How can you already be that wet? Hmm?”

“Has anyone else ever made you wet like this?” He asked. Although his voice was teasing, you knew that he expected an answer. This idea was confirmed when you didn’t reply and he softly began singing his teeth into your nipple.

“Ah... n-no” you whimpered as he bit into our breasts. “O-Only y-you can make me this wet.” You stuttered.

“And only I can make you moan this loud?” He rubbed his crotch against your thigh, trying to gain any kind of friction. “Oh, fuck it...” Jungkook pulled away from you to rip his underwear off. His cock sprang free and bounced up a bit so it tapped his abdomen. He also wasted no time in ripping your panties off as well.

“I’ve waited for this the whole night.” Jungkook pants heavily and laid now fully on top of you. He kisses you passionately while rubbing the tip of his cock along your folds. Both of your arousals now coating each other and the feeling was a kind of bliss mixed with torture. You wanted him inside you. You needed it.

“Please stop teasing.” you begged as he continued to circle his tip around your entrance. From the teasing smirk plastered on his face, he had no intention of stopping his own little game yet.

“You want me to fuck you?” He whispered into your ear before nuzzling his head again into the crook of your neck. “Who do you belong to?”

“You” you gasped as you felt his tip slowly start to edge into you.

“That’s right, again, who’s are you?”

“Yours” moaned as you felt him sliding in you at an agonisingly slow pace.

“Remember that”

Your whining was the only response he needed before shoving his whole length into you and without giving you time to adjust, Jungkook began to thrust into you. His pace was slow but the power in each stroke was overwhelming every sense you had.

Your hands began to move to his hair, you began to pull at his dark roots to find some release and stop yourself from moaning too loud. But Jungkook grabbed you by your wrists and shoved them over your head.

“No touching. You’ve not been a very good girl today. You were perfectly happy to jump in the arms of another man, what makes you think you deserve to touch me?” His lips curved into a mocking smile, his hips still rocking into you.

“Jesus Christ, you’re so fucking hot when you’re mad. Please Jeon, go faster” you pleaded

“You want me to go faster?” After you nodded eagerly, he murmured “I will give you what you want but I don’t wanna hear any complaints tomorrow morning.”

With that being said, he began to thrust into you restlessly. He hit your sweet spot over and over again and sent you over the edge.

“J-Jungkook!” you shouted his name over and over again. It was like music to his ears. Only his name was allowed to fall from that talented mouth of yours.

“Tell me again baby. With that sweet voice of yours: who do you belong to?” Jungkook groaned loudly, his thrusts getting sloppier the faster he approached his climax.

With his right hand he reached down between your legs and circled with his fingers around your clit before pinching it between his fingers.

“T-To you...” You melted under his touch and gasped for air when he began to rub your clit. “I o-only belong to y-you, Jungkook.”

“That’s right. Nobody can fuck you like this. No one can fuck you like I can. You’re mine. I don’t share.” He thrusts faster into you until you were a moaning mess under him. When he pinched your clit again you clenched hard around him and pressed the back of your head into the pillow as you had your orgasm.

“Oh f-fuck, you’re so tight for me.” Jungkook groaned loudly and bit his lower lip. “I-I’m gonna cum” With one final thrust, he released his load inside of you and rode his high out with sloppy movements.

Jungkook collapsed on top of you, and buried his head into the crook of your neck while panting. “That was truly amazing.”

“We should definitely do this again.” You chuckled lightly while petting his sweaty locks. “Even though I probably will be sore tomorrow.”

“Ay, I said no complaints!” He jested

“Baby, you know there is nothing going on between Tae and I right?”

“Of course. Besides, I don’t thing you’d have a job anymore if Jimin found out you were sleeping with his boyfriend.”

You paused.

He knew? He knew this whole fucking time?!This little fucker

“Then why were you so jealous?” you questioned, looking down at him.

“I get jealous when you showed anyone other than me affection. But his mouth skills comment gave me just the excuse I needed to drag you home and fuck the life out of you. I needed it, especially after seeing you in that little green dress all night.” He responded as if it was the most normal thing in the world.

You laughed at his antics and gave him a kiss on the top of his head.

You loved this man. You loved him so much

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