#it's friendship what i mean is friendship dhskfhdkdb

[screamingay]

realized today that i feel a kind of love i thought i wasn't capable of feeling for most of my life until now..

#it's friendship what i mean is friendship dhskfhdkdb #but like the kind of friendship where u can talk abt ur sex lives casually and have a good time just eating lunch in a parked car together #i guess we've had that for a while and i have it with all 3 of them but i dont get to spend a day with them one on one often #and i guess ive never been able to accept that we had that kind of love until today #ive always said everyone should be a little bit in love w their friends but i dont think i realized just what it means to be in love w ur #best friend AS just a best friend until today #it's not some kind of crush it's just that she's smart and pretty and funny and has good taste in music and im so lucky shes my friend!!!!! #in high school i really took it to heart that romantic love was the highest form of love and i still yearn for that constantly of course #but it also led me to see friendship as somehow less valuable and also less attainable bc im a big scary dyke who cant just have friends #without making it weird or falling in love or whatever #but im just a person! who deserves friendship like that! and i havent been able to accept that until very recently #it's v nice to be finally be comfortable w my besties 🥺 #personal