#it's just how i feel

[coockie8]

I can't prove this, and I'm not even 100% sure about it, but I feel like there's some kind of connection between the growing lack of horror media designed for children and the antiship movement.

'Cause growing up watching shit like Goosebumps had nothing but a positive impact on my ability to tell the difference between fiction and reality, and I feel like kids not having access to age-appropriate dark media is definitely contributing to this pro-censorship epidemic happening online.

#again I'm not saying this is fact #it's just how I feel #no more reblog privileges #this was just me rambling it was not supposed to spark anything #if I could limit replies to specific posts I would #'cause oof #I was just rambling about something I noticed while my nephew was here and was interested in the possible relation to purity culture

[whileyoureinschoolidothisallday]

I actually REALLY dislike art that portrays dabi as a predatory person keeping touya suppressed or trapped or controlling him somehow. Like an afo and shiggy situation.

Dabi is a protector persona.

He cares about Touya more than anything else. His literal only purpose is to get vengeance FOR Touya. He’s his only reason for existing, the only thing his eyes are watching.

He’s literally the only adult that EVER cared that much about him. So like seeing depictions of him like hurting touya or like manipulating him in some way bother the fuck out of me and I get that it’s probably supposed to be more like self-hatred focused, like dabi hates his younger self for being fragile and weak and now he’s in charge or whatever but just....no thank you.

Nobody loves Touya more than Dabi

#touya todoroki #dabi #sorry I'm tagging this this isn't a callout or pointing to anyone specific I don't actually care what you draw #it's just how I feel #honestly I think convincing Dabi he can honor Touya by LIVING for him instead is gonna be a big factor in getting through to him

[moni-harmonia]

It's been a while since I last posted something... I just don't have anything to talk about.

Lately I've only been logging to do the events but nothing more. I don't want to explore right now. It's just too much content for me at the moment.

I guess I finally got tired, but more than that it's just there's nothing really that motivates me right now: no cool character that I wanna have or new story or events with characters that I care about.

I hope this changes in the next few months. I want to have a new character that motivates me to farm again, and a new Archon Quest that puts me in the mood to share my thoughts again.

I still love Genshin, but the formula has become repetitive and the fact that they still don't give us better rewards is disappointing.

#I don't want to sound negative #It's just how I feel #The content is still good #But it's not enough for me #Genshin Impact #mine

[sokkarockedya]

sweet dreams are made of bees

who am i to diss a bee

i travelled the world with seven bees

everybody's looking for some bees

#don't ask #i don't have an answer for you #it's just how i feel #okay?

[mushroomsleepy]

finn wolfhard gender envy is so real though

#finn wolfhard #stranger things #mike wheeler #haha sorry for posting this randomness #it's just how i feel

[neonhairspray]

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#completely different talk #now when i'm done with my exam all the hard feelings are resurfacing and I don't like it #for a couple of years now I've been feeling lonely not in a physical sense #but more in terms of bonds between people #and it only increased in the mid of last year or so #it's such an unpleasant feeling and the worst thing is that I don't know what to do about it #like... I cannot go asking people I know if they want to form a close bond with me #dating wise it's even worse #during the worst moments I think that I am probably an unlovable person and not deserving of romantic love #yes i know it sounds cringe and you can laugh about it #it's just how i feel #sorry for posting all the negativity on here again

[kateandanthonyaremyparents]

So after tonight I'm going to stop drinking alcohol, I've done it before with meat and with smoking, I know I can do this, it's for the best, because it's so unhealthy and therefore I want to do it.

Is it pathetic I'm feeling kind of sad to stop??

#well🙄 #it's just how i feel #gonna do it anywaysss

[zummar]

You took something from me

A hope you never gave

A ray of starlight you never meant shine

You took my belonging

My welcome

My love

And turned it away

And it hurts like i was broken

Like I was crushed and left to die

But nothing was your fault

A simple mistake

A slip of the tongue

A moment's bliss for thousands

But now it's gone

It healed something in me

It gave me a place to be

(What you got to be when you took it back)

Just me

Read the tags

#i know its stupid #But I can't get over this just like that #Misha 'coming out' #misha collins #lgbtq community #poetry crew #Poetry drabble #Don't be mad at me #It's just how I feel #I'll get over it #Not mad at him #He did the right thing #But I feel like I lost my hope #I am bi btw

[sylvies-kablooie]

i do unironically think the best artists of our generation are posting to get 20 notes and 3 reblogs btw. that fanfic with like 45 kudos is some of the best stuff ever written. those OCs you carry around have some of the richest backstories and worldbuilding someone has ever seen. please do not think that reaching only a few people when you post means your art isn't worth celebrating.

#i often wonder about how many things would be considered classic or high art had they only received the marketing #how many short films that were made for class could have been the most powerful thing you'd ever seen? if you'd seen them? #“you know the greatest films of all time were never made” etc etc #but like. these works of art ARE being made. it's just enjoyed by a smaller audience with equal impact though #i think about this one furry i used to follow on insta who had the coolest worldbuilding ever. it's been years. #thought prompted by that sketch of nimona from ten years ago that was just for a character design #posted to the creator's tumblr and now it's nominated for best animated feature film at the oscars #and by the genuine emotional reaction a fan comic made me feel. how much work had gone into it. how beautiful it was to me. #idk what to tag this but i hope whoever needs to hear it does #writing #writer #fandom #fandom culture #artist

[dirtytransmasc]

the men and boys are innocent too.

we cry "the innocent women and children" to appeal to the masses, to try and force their sympathy, but the men and boys are innocent too.

I have seen sons crying out for their mothers, their fathers, their siblings. I have seen them break down at the loss of their families. I have seen them cling to their dead and grieve.

I have seen fathers cradle their dead children, seen them kiss their faces and hold their little hands. I have seen them faint with grief when asked to identify the dead. I have seen them carry their sons and daughters. I have seen them fasting to provide what little they can for their families.

I have seen men and boys digging through the rubble with just their bare hands, I have seen them comforting strangers, playing with children, rocking them, hushing them, even if the face of such imminent danger. I have seen them cry, seen them grieve, seen them break down into each other's arms, seen them be selfless, beyond selfless, becoming something I don't have a word for.

I have seen the men who are doctors refuse to leave their patients, even when they have no medicine or supplies to give them, even when they're threatened with bombings. I have seen fathers who have lost all their children pick orphans up into their arms and proclaim them their child so they are not alone. I have seen men and boys digging pets out of the rubble.

the men are innocent too. the men and boys are being hurt and killed too. the men and boys are grieving too. the men and boys are scared too. the men and boys are fighting to save their people too. the men and boys deserve to be fought for too.

#I don't have words to describe how I feel for the men of Palestine #the things I have seen them do after everything they have been through goes so far beyond selfless #what do you call this? this prevailing goodness and willingness to give everything they have and more? what word even touches it? #I don't think there is one #islamophobia has conditioned us to see these men and boys as evil and dangerous #we see this in how we speak about Palestine #and we need to uncondition ourselves #they're just as innocent and of value and good as the women and children #so fight for them #they don't deserve this any more than the women and children #free palestine #palestine

[poorly-drawn-mdzs]

The math just adds up!

#dungeon meshi #falin touden #marcille donato #farcille #I always loved how chapter 27 ends with them both so bloody and 28 starts with them in the bath. #not just because of how iconic the bathtub moment is but because you know they had to scrap off so much gore first. #I think everyone in the party took a very long and methodical bath but Falin was basically *all* blood*. #Being covered in blood is one of those 'just girly things' that women deserve to stop being shamed about. #I just don't think Chilchuck is progressive enough. He probably made them take a bath first B*/ #Okay jestering aside I want to just highlight - #The magnitude of Marcille's joy at seeing her dearest friend again! Of holding her and sharing her presence in the same room! #Something about this reunion feels like a beautiful dream you are afraid of waking up from...

[charliebugz]

When Izzy first walked out I was worried that he would be made into a joke that the crew would laugh at

but then he started singing and the dancing began and I realized that he wasn’t meant to be a joke at all. This is the most open and happy we’ve ever seen Izzy and the show treated it that way. Not mocking him but instead celebrating this moment.

When we talk about queer representation it’s usually just focused on queer relationships, but what I love about this episode is it shows other sides of being queer. That moment where Izzy saw Wee John doing his makeup and had a realization that he wanted that too? That is what being queer means to me. The crew singing along and cheering for him? That is what being apart of the queer community means to me.

What i love about this show is that it shows queer joy, not in a sanitized way, but in away that is messy, beautiful, and without any mockery or shame.

#the fact i expected him to be made fun of just reflects how queer people are usually presented in media #i was preparing myself for an awkward scene full of secondhand embarrassment for izzy #but then it didn’t happen. And it just made me immediately feel so warm and fuzzy inside. #like he can express the not socially acceptable parts of himself and not be outcast for it #and that’s just so fantastical to me #our flag means death #ofmd #ofmd spoilers #our flag means death spoilers #ofmd s2e6 #izzy hands #rambling #i speak!

[inkskinned]

because sometimes there are invisible tests and invisible rules and you're just supposed to ... know the rule. someone you thought of as a friend asks you for book recommendations, so you give her a list of like 30 books, each with a brief blurb and why you like it. later, you find out she screenshotted the list and send it out to a group chat with the note: what an absolute freak can you believe this. you saw the responses: emojis where people are rolling over laughing. too much and obsessive and actually kind of creepy in the comments. you thought you'd been doing the right thing. she'd asked, right? an invisible rule: this is what happens when you get too excited.

you aren't supposed to laugh at your own jokes, so you don't, but then you're too serious. you're not supposed to be too loud, but then people say you're too quiet. you aren't supposed to get passionate about things, but then you're shy, boring. you aren't supposed to talk too much, but then people are mad when you're not good at replying.

you fold yourself into a prettier paper crane. since you never know what is "selfish" and what is "charity," you give yourself over, fully. you'd rather be empty and over-generous - you'd rather eat your own boundaries than have even one person believe that you're mean. since you don't know what the thing is that will make them hate you, you simply scrub yourself clean of any form of roughness. if you are perfect and smiling and funny, they can love you. if you are always there for them and never admit what's happening and never mention your past and never make them uncomfortable - you can make up for it. you can earn it.

don't fuck up. they're all testing you, always. they're tolerating you. whatever secret club happened, over a summer somewhere - during some activity you didn't get to attend - everyone else just... figured it out. like they got some kind of award or examination that allowed them to know how-to-be-normal. how to fit. and for the rest of your life, you've been playing catch-up. you've been trying to prove that - haha! you get it! that the joke they're telling, the people they are, the manual they got- yeah, you've totally read it.

if you can just divide yourself in two - the lovable one, and the one that is you - you can do this. you can walk the line. they can laugh and accept you. if you are always-balanced, never burdensome, a delight to have in class, champagne and glittering and never gawky or florescent or god-forbid cringe: you can get away with it.

you stare at your therapist, whom you can make jokes with, and who laughs at your jokes, because you are so fucking good at people-pleasing. you smile at her, and she asks you how you're doing, and you automatically say i'm good, thanks, how are you? while the answer swims somewhere in your little lizard brain:

how long have you been doing this now? mastering the art of your body and mind like you're piloting a puppet. has it worked? what do you mean that all you feel is... just exhausted. pick yourself up, the tightrope has no net. after all, you're cheating, somehow, but nobody seems to know you actually flunked the test. it's working!

aren't you happy yet?

#almost wrote the champagne line as ''effervescent'' but legit could not write it without saying ''effervescent like a snail'' #ah tumblr... #writeblr #warm up #idk . having trouble writing rn #ps i don't like to talk about it . it is my medical information. but before you ask. yes this is about being on the spectrum #i really don't like when ppl make my writing about how im [whatever ID]. i want it to ring true for the people who it rings true for #i don't want it to be like ''awwwww look at this person!!! she's the EXCEPTION!!! :)" ..... #no.... not really..... #idk something gross happens whenever i admit to certain conditions and i turn into like inspiration p*rnography #like yes they actually let us use keyboards these days #furthermore i just... dont feel comfortable talking about this part of me. i had too bad of a childhood. adhd is one thing... #this one im like. still coming to terms with. which is like. my own journey. #idk. just please be kind. some things are more private than others. this one feels private to me. #i do not know how to help others w/this . and i do not know how to help myself. i will talk about it if im ever ready. idk if that will #actually ever happen #ty in advance i love u im kissing you we are kissing somewhere on the spectrum

[gibbearish]

love when ppl defend the aggressive monetization of the internet with "what, do you just expect it to be free and them not make a profit???" like. yeah that would be really nice actually i would love that:)! thanks for asking

#yes i want things to be free like ??? that is not a weird desire #'but but it costs money to keep up' ok and? how is that my problem #the government has plenty of murder dollars they could reallocate a few to make internet services universal if they wanted #also these companies were perfectly capable of supporting themselves before the internet got drowned with ads so ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ #edit: muting notifs on this post bc new additions have kind of petered out #so no one feel bad about adding something someone else has said‚ it is not bothering me im just trying to keep my #notifs page cleanish lol #also since i saw some people are being redirected to read my tags: firstly hiiiiii this is a special secret message for you:3 #secondly i have learned since making this that the reason they were able to support themselves previously was because #of investors bankrolling everything #and theyre now finally realizing that theyre never going to actually make a profit and arent as willing to invest #however thats just a minor correction and doesnt change my overall point #once again. so many murder dollars #so thats why im just adding it here in the tags rather than making an actual correction #anyways . love yall 💕 #origibberish #bigger gibbers

[ravenclawboys]

#it's just how i feel #ttpd #midnights

[gerardpilled]

soooo much of the modern conception of gender is based around products and consumerism that people can’t even identify actual misogyny anymore. People reply to posts “It’s sexist to hate on something so many women enjoy” and that something would be a Stanley cup

#I feel like this stuff is gateway terfism because they just keep pushing the goalpost of what qualifies you as a woman 😭 #And it’s all imaginary and made up and based on how you look and what products make you look like that !!!