#it's okay - I'll make my peace with that

[marclef]

OKAY HELL YEAH THE POWER'S BACK ON HERE SO, VERY IMPORTANT ANNOUNCEMENT TO MAKE!!

SOME-FUCKING-HOW I'VE GOTTEN TO ✨300✨ FOLLOWERS!!!!!

I DO NOT KNOW HOW THIS IS POSSIBLE BUT, I AM BEYOND AMAZED BY THE SUPPORT AND LOVE YOU'VE ALL GIVEN ME SO THANK YOU SO MUCH!!!!! ❤❤❤ YOU'RE ALL TOO SWEET AND KIND AND I LOVE EVERY ONE OF YOU /PLAT 🤗

this came a lot sooner than i expected, so i didn't have the best of plans to celebrate... but i do have a good Babysitter Fakey to offer. i hope you like him 😊

and... some ramblings under the cut, if anyone cares about hearing me yell for a moment...

but.... let me just say that, moving my art onto Tumblr has been one of the best decisions i've ever made. the love and support from here compared to Instagram is unreal, and, something i never saw coming, i've actually made some real close friends here. and me being the socially-awkward weirdo i am, it really means a lot to me. you guys have been helping me feel not just better about myself, but helping me reach out and talk to others like me, it's just insane. i genuinely mean it, thank you guys so much. you're the best ❤😭❤

and another thing..... i've been a bit busy with stuff lately, but i promise i'm trying to work on stuff! i've got a few drawing asks i really need to work on, and as for my writing..... okay i still haven't started it. but i AM trying to figure out how best to write it, because i plan on doing both split parts AND drawings for it. i want to make sure it comes out the best it possibly can. but stay tuned, there's a lot i've got to finish up!

..... oh alright. one more bonus if you've made it this far. lo and behold: the very first art piece i ever posted to Tumblr, not thinking i'd be moving fully onto here hehe 😅 enjoy Peppino's old design in all its full glory ✨✨✨

ain't he a beaut'.

#ghghgggghhhhHH so much stuff to get to today!!! now that i have power back i can actually goddang do them!!! #but hey!! this was important!! it's always important to tell you all how much i love ya's!!! #now to try and power through some of those asks because I'VE BEEN SITTING ON THEM FOR A WHILE I'M SORRY 😭 #my art #pizza tower oc #pizza tower fake peppino #eyhm stuff #i'll make a seperate post of just the Fakey picture with no text too so you guys can enjoy it 😁 #okay got like 20 different things to go do now so i gotta go!!!! see ya and peace and love!!!

[bowserbabe]

@tmsource secret santa gift for @teresalisbns! Happy Holidays!

#tmsecretsanta2023 #the mentalist #robin tunney #i want to start making nicer looking gifs #but i don't know what i'm doing #i'm frustrated with some of this but i have to post or i'll die #YOU CAN'T GET BETTER IF YOU DON'T MAKE THINGS #yeah yeah just let me die in peace with my one awkwardly-colored lisbon-in-the-car gif #okay i have to post #this is a random selection of lisbon gifs! #the rhyme and reason was lost in the fire #hope somebody enjoys! #i made this

[sergle]

I kinda have the itch to make more floral self portraits again, but it feels more complicated now, with the knowledge that those pieces are the ones that most frequently get stolen. Used as social media content for other ppl’s onlyfans, (poorly) traced for clout, reposted in terf spaces, resold reprinted redrawn repackaged. And that’s without mentioning all the messages I’ve been getting about my body Post-Breast-Reduction-Gofundme. Like, am I still supposed to feel okay about putting my body out there?

#the ones I've already drawn- I've made my peace with them #and to an extent they don't feel like mine anymore #they also were made for a specific purpose and I feel like they accomplished that purpose. to an extent #I was trying to do something very specific for myself by making and posting those #but now I don't know #bc I see how the other ones get treated. and I think abt how people see me #and I'm just not sure #having the self portraits be Seen is the point of making them. but I don't know if having them seen does a net positive #for me or not. #sergle.txt #Part of me making my peace with it is going okay. if other people are going to monetize them then I'll do it too #and so the prints selling- that does serve me bc a bitch needs money. and it's true that people have said nice things about the pieces #but it's the other stuff that sticks in my mind more.

[kosovareasllani9]

I just find it hilarious that it's Kosse in the fight. Not Magda or Bjorn or Frido even but friends with almost everyone Kosovare Asllani.. like I know she's a hot head but she's always so composed and collected and polite to everyone.... Dare I say I'm kinda proud?? Go get em' you little bubble wrap butterfly!

#if you're gonna get into a fight just make sure not to injur your other wrist please and make sure your squad is next to you so you don't #end up in a stretcher okay?? you're not a fighter you're a peace keeper #although I'll admit she must be so over losing at this point she's like whatever have my other wrist just give me a gd medal #hash tag fighting is never a good look for anyone i know especially a captain #but it's Kosse I'm bias #swewnt #kosovare asllani #wwc23 #wwc 2023

[sillyabtmusic]

[ID: A GIF of multiple shots of Seoho from the kpop boy group "ONEUS" in a hallway lit only by pulsing red lights and lined by plants on either side. He's wearing a cropped, black, long sleeve shirt, black pants, and chains hanging from his belt loops. One shot is close up and shows him gazing into the camera, the second focuses on his stomach as his shirt lifts up, and the third shot is from further back showing him stretching his arms up, his shirt lifting and revealing his stomach. End ID]

seoho in no diggity (src)

#pulsing lights #oneus #foroneus #seoho #* my gifs #nkd.gif #oneus.gif #oneus.sh #this one looks much better on desktop cuz of the red lighting <33 i've noticed red lighting always gets pixelly on mobile in gifs #and okay look here's the thing. i made this one forever ago as a gift for someone and wasn't gonna post it by itself #the plan was 'oh i will just make more gifs from no diggity and then post it as a set and hide this in there' #but as much as i love no diggity the video is so visually chaotic i could not focus enough to determine good gif moments 😭 #so i'm shamelessly posting it by itself. after much consideration. peace and love <333 #i also debated not using the network tags because it's like. one gif. not a set. but idk i like it i think it is niceys so. :•) #it appears i'm rambling again. ah. my downfall in the tags #anways i'll attempt an actual no diggity set some other time because it's such a brain scratchy video because of its chaoticness

[theangrypomeranian]

me rn

#pom ponders #work woes #my ex work bestie is being brought back to the store #you know the one who lied TO MY FACE then proceeded to fuck me and current bestie over #I've apologized to her! multiple times! but she won't talk to me! #it's fine it's FINE my work life is just gonna be HELL #because she's gonna come in and charm everyone over and make me seem like the bitter asshole #i fucking give up okay i can't ever have peace in this fucking place #whatever whatever I'll deal with it i always do

[stellacadente]

hi Nico! I’m so sorry you’re dealing with this, I hope you’ll be okay and can take some time to yourself :( <3

thank youuu silver i really appreciate this!! i'll be okay, shit just isn't Fantastic rn been struggling w this and other stuff so like. it's not easy but i'll be fine i'm trying my best to take care of myself and find peace within myself which is the hardest place to find it but honestly i think the only one?? but yeah ly and i hope you're doing well 🩵

#the world's too fucked to find peace in it i've pretty much grown certain of that #and i don't even mean this as like... there's no hope and no good things #i just mean we have to find the good things and the good people and do what we can together to like #make things better and all live in the most comfortable and meaningful way possible? #community in the end is the answer to the question is there any hope for a peaceful and free and comfortable and happy life. there is if we #stick and work together l #SORRY this was a tangent. i'm just like. finding peace within myself and realizing more and more that what i need is other people #but not in the way i've always thought i needed them. and that i still feel i need them. in the most fucked up way i still feel like that #bc the way i've p much always interacted w others is thru the lenses of my mental illnesses so it's alwaysssss been so distorted #and damn isn't it hard to break free of that. w no therapy especially. but anyway this is a whole thing #which you didn't ask me abt sorry silver fjdbkrvkfbj #been in a very reflective mood lately. bc i'm struggling and need to find a way out so yeah #but THANK YOUU again and yeah dw i'll be fine i'm gonna do my best to be okay #asks #cheri #i don't think you have a preference name wise btw but if i'm wrong pls do let me know i've just been using cheri and silver interchangeably

[moe-broey]

I rhink one of the most haunting and disturbing OH I'VE. BREACHED CONTAINMENT moments was someone tagging my CYL results surprised Alfonse won and their vibe was like "I knew Alfonse is a fave of some but damn" like............. he........... sure is...... a fave of some. Um. Unrelated but have you looked at my blog for like ten seconds

#LIKE i'm not being an ass about it and i don't wanna vague and be petty cause that's def not what i'm feeling #if anything i just felt bad like. damn you had to learn this through me?????????? UNFORTUNATE. #it was a STARTLING REMINDER THAT ohhhhhhhhhh when i tag things for organization. #it also exists. thebthe maintags. supposedly. #also in my mind there are like maximum ten people here. and i was talking directly to them in my heart #honestly makes me so scared though like..... damn....... i must clog the hell out of the feh tags..... and the alfonse tag......... #i'm so sorry. #it does make me wonder if i've been blocked for being annoying. which!!!! i hope!!! #that if someone DID find me annoying or strongly disagreed w my takes like i would hope they blocked me!!!! #peace and love. you play in your corner i'll play in mine. #i just have to keep telling myself IT'S OKAY. IT'S OKAY TO BE ANNOYING I PROMISE #I PROMISE YOU WON'T BE SHOT AND KILLED FOR BEING ANNOYING I PROMISE ‼️‼️‼️‼️‼️

[musical-chick-13]

If people don't get themselves together, it's gonna force me to become a Makima stan, and trust me, that is not a world anyone wants to live in.

#if she loses. to HIM. of all fucking people. I will never know peace. and neither will anyone else probably. because I'm never gonna shut up #about it #listen. when a female character is so terrifying that even /I/ can't find it in my heart to make jokes about women's wrongs...you know #how effective of an Antagonist™ she must be #if we can get her to defeat. that guy. who I hate more than any character ever probably. I will never...okay I'm not going to say 'I'll #never ask you all for anything ever again' because I am absolutely going to keep being like this but. I'll do. something. idk. think of #celebratory ideas/activities. we can do it I believe in us. #In the Vents #'it's not that deep mel' I mean yeah probably not but have you considered that. I am tired. #above all else and in every possible way I am so so tired

[strangefable]

the realization that i'm not made to be loved has hit. i did love truly once. and i know it because i genuinely with all my heart wish him all the happiness in the world, even if it causes me pain to imagine him loving someone else.

never have i understood andersen's mermaid more. i too would turn myself into seafoam for someone i know full well doesn't love me back

#don't mind me just making some peace with reality today #the only love i'll ever have in my life will always be fictional #and i'm just going to have to be okay with that

[army-of-bee-assassins]

also even tho it's spring break i still have to work two days in the clinic office and one of my supervisors emailed this morning to ask if i could come in monday instead of friday bc of scheduling issues with someone else and i said yes. and like. i think this is a good decision bc then after wednesday (the other day i work) i can just enjoy the rest of my spring break instead of enjoying my spring break early and then having to like go back to work. but it means i have to wake up early tomorrow when i originally thought i wouldn't have to and that does make me sad

#i also deal so badly with last-minute change but i am trying to use good coping mechanisms!!! #i woke up to that email and my instinct was NO absolutely NOT i will say i have made plans already fuck them!! #and i was gonna email back to say no but then i was like okay let's think about it #logically it would be nice to get the work done earlier so i can enjoy spring break more #even though my heart was still like nooooo change Bad #so then i decided to make breakfast and eat and just chill for an hour or two before responding to the email #and lo and behold i have made my peace with this decision #now i'm just not looking forward to the lack of sleep because i slept in till like 11 today #and there's no way i'm going to bed at a reasonable hour tonight #it'll be fine though bc i'll have most of the rest of the week to recover - unlike a normal full school week when we're not on break #here is that grad school tag #j.txt

[xnervouscircus]

ngl i am right now wishing i'd watched the vm campaign not just so it would mean i'd watched the vm campaign but also so it'd give me realistic insight into how much from the campaign actually makes it into the animated show

bc i know i should temper my expectations for what will make it into tm9 animated series but i don't know how low i should keep those expectations

like i'm seeing a lot of excitement about seeing molly dress his dick up with eggs but since it didn't really wind up being plot-relevant, will the hospital heist even be included? (i'd like to think it will be just bc it's a fan favorite moment, but they do have FIVE HUNDRED AND FIFTY HOURS of content to streamline so idk)

just. thinking about swoleregard putting catatonic caleb on her shoulder. (and then immediately shrinking down to normal size.)

thinking about fjord rolling three natural ones in a row and completely failing at a carnival game.

thinking about jester painting a parasol for essek.

thinking about beau and nott's tree climbing race.

thinking about caleb casting seeming to force fjord to look like he's wearing a bathrobe like the rest of them--while also making the rest of the nein look like they're wearing normal clothes so suddenly fjord's the only one in a bathrobe.

just so many amazing little moments that would be gifts to see animated.

#come on amazon just go ahead and promise them they can animate all 550 hours #ahahaahahajrfhghg no it's fine it's okay i'll make my peace with streamlining #the mighty nein

[mishkakagehishka]

But anyway plans for tomorrow: i'll wake up and say i'm gonna study and then i won't, i'll have a breakdown while preparing lunch at 5pm and then try to study english while crying, go to bed at 3am having done nothing.

#damn guys i'm beginning to think i'm the problem #i am tho and that's okay #not everyone's built for this world yanno #i'm not even saying this to be edgy or depressed i made peace with it like aye fuck it #shrugs. i'll suffer and i'll take six years to finish a three year undergrad programme but whatevs. no big deal. #it's gonna be alright #on the bright side if i don't pass syntax i can't take syntax 2 so i'll have less classes to attend and less exams to sit #yknow? positive sides #it'll be alright. what's important is that i don't get myself to an attempt bc that'll make my dad sad and people talk bad about my parents

[the-acid-pear]

A MIMIR MUCHACHOS a mimir...

#luly talks #im always eepy until its bedtime.then im like heeheehoohoo what if i never slept again? 🤪 #but I've been very bored lately like everything is either too much or too little #I've been struggling to find inner peace NWHSNSHABS #okay i think I'll set my goal tomorrow to make some art. some silly comics. at least let em be SKETCHY who carss #no one cares i just want to put sumthin out there... and i will ! ! ! #bc i have some funny ideas its true its true i do #ina repetition mood if y'all dont seem to mind i am quite tired snd i love that stuff sooo much #feel like columbo going on a semi related rant but my ex blood fucking HATED when i repeated something a lot literally had #words banned bc it was driving her crazy which i find quite funny and symbolic of the disabled experience honestly #like for me to say the same words constantly was easy and comforting but for him it was EVIL and FUCKED UP #we all are so sifjfbfnf #im so tired okay im going to bed manifest some warm sheets and a kinder matress and all sorts of lovely things for me pls heaaart

[confinesofmy]

ohhh, having a clothesline was integral to my mental health & sense of well-being. i see (still confused, does not see).

#i reinstalled it in a new location so i can start using it again and hung a bunch of blankets up #can't do my clothes today because it's too late i'll have to wait until tomorrow #i feel a sense of peace. that is indescribable. #is it because i'm cosplaying my ancestors? is it because i'm in tune with the forces of the wind and sun? #what's the deal #why did that make me so happy #is it nostalgia from spring before last when everything was okay and i hadn't shattered yet #i really feel like i did something incredible today 🤔 like i've gotta bring this up in therapy this week bc it seems so pivotal #adam talks too much

[ihamtmus]

i will miss him :((((((

#i hope he's safe and i hope he adjusts well and i hope his time there as peaceful as can be #i will gradually be posting less and less about bts fyi except for my loooong queue #i think i need to change obsessions i can't and don't want to stay in this fandom without hobi #it was worth it for him but now i know they'll only keep making me angry when he's not here #and it's not worth it without him #i mean we'll see if it works because my interests don't change overnight and besides i know he's prepared some things for this time #and he's not even gone yet #but yeah it's something i've been thinking about #guess we'll see #i'm still gonna reblog everything hobi related i see i meant i'm not gonna be focusing on other members' projects as much #i'll always be a fan of hobi tho #i just hope he's okay and happy and does well and comes back safely :((( #my post #hobi #bts