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#it's really scary bc if what i think happened really did it explains why i was terrified of cis men for years
wolfiesmoon · 1 month
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Chocolate-covered strawberries
riddle x gn!reader
have u ever wanted to have a (totally definitely platonic with no romantic feelings involved, wdym? *wink wink*) sleepover w riddle? bcs if so, you might wanna read this
thanks to @chillpanda36 's plant related encouragement i am once again riddleposting (hope u dont mind being tagged >︿<)
I kinda got carried away and wrote waaaaay more than I thought i would
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"Wow, your room is so... swanky." you commented upon entering his room for the first time. It was decorated in checkerboard patterns and heart motifs, which was very fitting for the dorm of Heartslabyul.
You never expected him to actually agree when you jokingly suggested a sleepover, but you're definitely not complaining.
"Thank you. It was modeled after the Queen of Hearts' castle and has mostly stayed the same throughout the dorm's history. I only made a few adjustments to have it be better suited to me." he explained. Clearly, he took good care of the place since it looked very clean and organised.
"By the way, you won't collar me if I happen to break any of your weird rules by accident, will you?" you were still somewhat worried you'd have to sleep with that uncomfy collar around your neck.
"I will excuse you from the rules, just this once. But do not call the rules 'weird', as it is quite disrespectful to do so." he crossed his arms.
Well, atleast you're glad about that.
You placed down the little bag of stuff you brought with you just for this occasion. You got so excited you ended up planning out several activities for you and Riddle to do.
But first, you have pyjamas to change into! Riddle graciously offered to let you change in his bathroom. Even in there, everything is super clean and organised, almost to a scary degree. Somehow, you get the feeling that Riddle doesn't really know how to "have fun". In a 'casually messing around with firends' kinda way.
After changing into your pyjamas, you call out to Riddle to make sure he's done changing as well. Once he confirms he has, you exit his bathroom to find Riddle in an oversized, frilly pair of white pjyamas, the kind you'd find people wearing in the medieval times. Oh. My. God.
"Pffft.... You-" you had to pause to hold back from laughing. "You look like a starving victorian child." you couldn't help but point out the silly resemblance. The pjyamas brought the whole look together.
"I haven't the slightest clue what a victorian child is, but I am certainly not starving. Why must you constantly insult me with such strange phrases?" Oh, it makes sense he wouldn't get the comparison. And even if he did, you feel like he wouldn't be very amused.
"They aren't insults. Just little comparisons." You smiled innocently at him. While they are just comparisons in a sense, they are usually meant to rile him up a little bit. You just can't help but banter with anyone and everyone sometimes.
Riddle felt a slight shiver run down his spine since you reminded him of a certain someone who likes comparing people to sea creatures at that moment. Though your lovely smile didn't resemble his creepy grin at all.
Lovely... smile? What is he even thinking about right now?
"Are you... good? You're making a weird face." your voice snapped him out of it and he assured you he was perfectly fine. No cause for concern.
"You might not be starving, but are you in the mood for a little snack?" you tried your best to sound enticing, like you're mass advertising the little surprise you brought along with you.
"The rules state that-"
"I double-checked the dorm rules, don't worry. And I also know you don't like junk food, so I made sure my snack is on the healthier side. Sorry for interrupting you, by the way." you laughed awkwardly at his offended pout. But you weren't going to lie, his angry face wasn't intimidating or scary at all (atleast not right now). It gives off more of an 'angry little kitten' vibe to you. But you already made one silly comparison tonight so you feel like Riddle might appreciate this one even less.
"Well then. I'd like to know what it is." he actually seemed pretty interested in what you came up with. You dug around your bag, pulling out a packet of chocolate-covered strawberries.
"Feast your eyes on these bad boys!" the specific choice of chocolate-covered strawberries was a calculated one on your end. You had asked Trey about Riddle's food preferences before, but it was unrelated to this sleepover. You can only thank your past self (and Trey) for arming you with the valuable knowledge that Riddle likes strawberry tarts (and consequently strawberries, you hope).
"Oh. I suppose these look quite tasty." he was actually really pleasantly surprised about your choice of snack. It's surprisingly fit to his tastes.
How thoughtful of you...
"Here, have one!" you actually made homemade chocolate just for these. Trey gave you a good baking lesson on how to do that. So of course, you want him to be the first one to try!
He hesitates for a moment. Although the food you're giving him doesn't break any of the Queen's rules, it still feels off to be eating so late at night. Scheduled meals are so ingrained into his mind that he feels the sudden urge to reject the offer and go brush his teeth immediately.
But something strange blooms in his heart when he sees the excitement in your gaze and he submits, telling himself he'll do it just this once. For you.
He grabs one of the strawberries from the packet, slowly and hesitantly raising it to his mouth as if it were forbidden to eat. It still felt forbidden, no matter how many times he told himself it was fine to let loose sometimes.
"It's... delicious." he comments upon eating the entire strawberry.
"Oh, goodie! I was worried I messed up the chocolate, somehow." his eyes went slightly wide upon hearing that you made part of them yourself. He felt his chest tighten up slighly. In a good way.
"In that case, I shall have some more. And you eat them too, since you prepared them for this occasion." the two of you sat down on the edge of his bed, placing the strawberries in between you so you could both easily reach for them while talking.
You still made sure you swallowed the food before you talked though. To avoid a scolding about proper manners from Riddle.
"So, for this sleepover I was thinking we could try summoning a demon, playing board games, doing karaoke, watching a movie, playing 'would you rather', making a pillow fort, and-"
"What was that first one?" Riddle had never experienced a sleepover before, so he had no clue what people actually did in them but he always just imagined sleepovers were purely sleeping at eachother's houses, not doing anything BUT that. He could barely keep up with all of the things you were listing off, but the first one ESPECIALLY stumped him.
"Summoning a demon? Everyone tries that in sleepovers. Usually doesn't work." you shrugged casually, reaching for another strawberry.
"How... horrific. And utterly nonsensical. What joy do you get from doing something so horrible? Especially if you know it won't work?" he seemed genuinely stumped by the concept, which made you want to laugh but you held back since you didn't want to choke on a chocolate-covered strawberry. It would certainly be a way to go.
"It's about the thrill, Riddle. What if it actually works this time? You never know...." you whisper teasingly, like a narrarator in a horror movie.
"In that case, we are absolutely not doing that." he hates to admit it, but he's actually kind of worried a silly ritual might workmand is taking precautions right now to not let it happen at all.
"Hahaha, that's fine! We can do all the other stuff, then." you decided to take mercy on him after seeing how hard he's trying not to let it show that he's scared of demon summoning games. He reminds you of your friends on your first sleepover when you tried summoning a demon. All of you were acting tough and unbothered back then, but were deathly afraid and unable to sleep after.
When you reached for another strawberry, you just happened to grab Riddle's hand instead. Seems you were both going for the same one. Actually, that one's the final one!
"Oops... you go ahead and take it. I feel like I've had enough." you smiled awkwardly at him. Gosh, is it suddenly slightly hotter in here or is it just you?
"Thank you." Riddle looked away, turning his head so you wouldn't see his reddening face as he ate the final strawberry. He's kinda mad at himself for getting so flustered over an accidental hand hold. Your hand felt so... nice to hold. It would be so nice if he could hold it more often. Gah, what on earth is he thinking?! None of this is rational...
An awkward silence fills the room.
And you get a cheeky little idea.
You picked up a pillow from his bed and threw it at the back of his head.
"Hey. What do you think you are doing-HHMMF!" you threw another pillow, this time directly at his face as he turned around to scold you.
"PILLOW FIGHT!" you yelled out excitedly, already grabbing another pillow to defend yourself with as you scurried on the other side of his bed. You giggled at the way his entire face flushed red with anger.
"That was no fair! I was not prepared at all!" you totally caught Riddle off guard, but now he was prepared to have his revenge. He never had a pillow fight before, but if little kids are capable of having one, so is he. And he is quite confident that his magical abilities will give him the upper hand against you.
"Even if you were, I'd still win! They called me the pillow fight champion back in my world!" you throw a pillow at him, which he stops with his magic.
"Oh, we'll see about that. You've had quite enough of landing hits on me, I believe." he smirked confidently at you, feeling a childlike excitement running through his veins.
Now that he thinks about it, it has been a long long time since he has felt this excited and relaxed. Maybe it wouldn't be so bad to do this over and over and over again.
In moderation.
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theemissuniverse · 5 months
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HOW DARE YOU!!! WHAT DID KUNG LAO DO TO YOU TO DESERVE THAT ANGSTY ASS PIECE???? HELLO, I DEMAND A SECOND, THIRD, ALL THE PARTS AND HE GETS Y/N BACK BC WHAT THE FUCK!!!! IMA KNOCK YOU OUT, IM FEELING SO MANY THINGS RN!!!!
“MEANT TO BE” KUNG LAO X FEM!READER PART 2
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This is part 1
A/N : LMAOOO NOT YALL THREATENING ME. I’m going to make a part 3 next
WARNINGS : still angsty
MASTERLIST 1 , MASTERLIST 2
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There was a massive change in Kung Lao’s performance. When training, Kung Lao was actually letting Raiden beat him. That was when they knew things were bad.
Raiden slams Kung Lao down to the ground and Kung Lao had emotionless expression on his face. Raiden sighs. “You have to actually try, Lao.”
“What’s the point?”
Raiden helped Kung Lao up. Johnny and Kenshi both wandered to them. Johnny pats Kung Lao on the shoulder. “Why don’t you take five buddy?” Kung Lao shrugged and walked over to sit on the bench. “Okay…this is not good.”
“I’ve never seen him so upset over a woman before.” Raiden said. “He’s used to getting rejected.”
“Yeah well, they have been dating for awhile.” Kenshi stated. “What happened again? Kitana kissed Kung Lao?”
“Yes, but he didn’t kiss her back. I don’t think (Y/N) believes him.”
“We gotta get them back together.” Johnny said. “They’re meant to be together. I mean she’s the reason why Lao is actually tolerable now.”
Raiden nodded. “That is true…” The three turned their attention to Kung Lao who was holding the necklace he gave you. “I have a feeling this will get worse.”
Liu Kang walked over to them. When he noticed you weren’t around he was a bit confused. He looked over to Kung Lao. “Kung Lao, where is (Y/N)?”
“No, no, no!” The three shouted but it was too late.
Kung Lao started to cry again as he stared at the necklace. “I don’t know. Probably happier without me.”
The three sighed and Liu Kang looked confused. “What did I do?”
“(Y/N) broke up with Kung Lao.” Raiden explained.
Liu Kang had a look of sympathy. “That is unfortunate. I would’ve thought it not possible.”
When he said that, Johnny gave him a curious look. “What makes you say that?”
“In every timeline that I know of, the two are bound to be together.”
“If that’s the case then this is probably just a petty break.” Kenshi said.
“It is unlikely. (Y/N) does not tend to go back to relationships she deems as unfit for her.”
“What do we do?” Johnny asked the two. “We gotta get them back together. I can’t see him cry like this.”
They all turned their attention back at Kung Lao who was still sobbing with the necklace.
Raiden hated seeing Kung Lao like this. He was his best friend and it was just completely out of character. He didn’t know if Kung Lao would be okay without you. “Lord Liu Kang, where does (Y/N) stay at?” When Liu Kang looked unsure to say, Raiden felt the need to beg him. “Please Lord Liu Kang. You told me that in the other timeline, the roles were reversed. You were Kung Lao’s best friend. Which means that you know that him being like this is scary. Scary to me. Please.”
He had a point. Liu Kang knew that. He was in Raiden’s shoes at one point which meant he knew exactly what was going on with Kung Lao. It would take a lot to pull him out of the depression. “Alright.”
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When the three arrived at the house, they were confused. It was a really beaten down house in a bad neighborhood. You just didn’t seem like the type to live there.
“You sure we got the right place?” Johnny asked unsure of the area.
“We did.” Raiden simply said and knocked on the door.
The three waited patiently until the door was opened. “I don’t want your Girl Scout cookies-“ You stopped yourself when you had seen it was your three friends.
You looked like a mess. You had a dinghy robe on. You looked like you were dead. You had dried up ice cream around your lips.
“Sheesh. Break up face is not a good look on you.” Johnny said.
You huffed a little. “How the hell did you guys find me?”
Before anyone could say anything, you heard your mother speaking in the background. “Who’s at the door sweetie?”
“No one, mama!” You tried saying but it was too late. Your mother was already coming to the door in her wheelchair.
“Are you (Y/N)’s friends? I’m so glad you’ve finally stopped by. I was a little worried thinking she didn’t have any friends. Come on in.”
You sighed at your mother for having a big heart and opened your door wider so they could walk in.
When the three walked in, they weren’t expecting how small your house actually was. It was actually very neat and tidy.
They walked in further and saw a little girl, about eight years old running around the house. “No running! How many times do I have to tell you?” You yelled at your little sister.
Your sister, Presley, didn’t reply. She just looked at the men behind you. “Ooh. Are one of these boys your boyfriend?”
You hit her upside the head slightly before sitting on the couch. “No. And I don’t have a boyfriend anymore.”
“Wasn’t your boyfriend a descendant of a champion? And you broke up with him?” Presley said as if she couldn’t believe it.
You grabbed the ice cream that was on the table and sat back on the couch. “Go away. Play with dolls or something.”
Presley was about to walk out of the room until she reached to Johnny. She smiled brightly at him. “Hi. My name is Presley. I’ll be legal in 10 years if you wanna wait for me.”
Johnny laughed at what she said. You took off your slipper and threw it at her and she ran away. “Out!”
“Kids have low standards.” Kenshi said and Johnny smacked his shoulder.
You let out an annoyed grunt. “Sit down I guess or whatever. Mama, that’s Raiden, Johnny, and Kenshi.” You said, pointing at each one.
Johnny sat on your left side while Kenshi sat on your right. Raiden sat on a chair that was nearby.
Your mother came into the room and wheeled to you. She set a plate of cookies on the table. “I’d figure Earthrealm’s greatest fighters are hungry.”
“Sweet. Cookies.” Johnny grabbed a cookie off the plate and immediately started to eat it.
Raiden smiled at her. “Thank you, Ms. (L/N).”
“Oh please. Call me, Mama (L/N).”
“Mom. I love you but please go away. Forever.” You told her while eating the ice cream.
“Alright now. I’m just glad you’re being social.” Your mother said while going off into a different room. “And don’t be eating all my ice cream!”
Everyone turned their attention towards you. “You wanna tell me why you’re at my house intruding on my misery?” You asked them.
“(Y/N), we need you to snap out of this funky depression and go back to Kung Lao.” Johnny told you.
You scoffed. “Why would I do that?”
“Well for one, you’re obviously depressed.”
“I’ll get over it.”
“(Y/N), you’re eating ice cream out of the carton.”
You shrugged. “So?”
Raiden decided to speak. “According to Liu Kang in every timeline, you and Kung Lao end up together. That has to mean something right?”
“It will just be the first time this has happened then.”
“I can’t accept that.”
You sighed a little. You put your feet on the table and ate more of your ice cream. “What’s the point? He’ll find somebody better no way.”
Kenshi decided to chip in. “In Kung Lao’s world, there is no better. There’s only you.”
“Well he’s stupid because there is.”
That’s when Raiden thought about it for a moment. You had to be more upset about something. There was something else to all of this. “You’re not that upset about the kiss are you? Because he didn’t kiss her back. You’re upset about something else. What is it?” When he saw you stop eating ice cream, he knew he was nailing it. “What are you afraid of?”
You placed the spoon back in the carton and sighed to yourself. You couldn’t even meet him in his eyes because you were embarrassed. “What if he finds out the real me?”
“What’s the real you?” Kenshi asked.
“This house. My family. Everything is just so…different from his world.”
Raiden stood up from the chair and sat directly between you and Kenshi. “(Y/N), trust me, Kung Lao is the last guy to care about any of that.”
“Not to be that guy but he’s not exactly Mr. Millionaire himself.” Johnny added.
Raiden placed a hand over your shoulder. “He loves you for you and he’ll keep loving you. None of that matters.”
The feeling of regret consumed you. Did you make the biggest mistake of your life? What if you could never have him again?
Tears started to come out of your eyes. “Well it doesn’t matter because it’s over. Kitana won. She can have him.” You got up from the couch and walked into your room before closing the door.
The three of them sighed in unison. “Now what?” Johnny asked.
“We have convince Kung Lao he still has a shot.” Raiden said. “We have to tell him the truth. That (Y/N) believes she’s unworthy of him.”
“Okay, what about the Kitana thing?” Kenshi asked.
Johnny thought for a moment before the idea came to his head. “Raiden, go to Kung Lao and get into his head. Kenshi and I will go to Outworld to talk to Kitana.”
Raiden looked unsure. “You really think that’s going to work?”
“It has to.”
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the-moon-lullaby · 1 year
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Can you write How the hsl boys would comfort you after your bestfriend betrayed and ghosted you
The HSL boys comforting you after your « best friend » betrayed you
N/A: Oh man, betrayal from so-called "best friends" are the worst if you ask me. If anyone has been through this before or is currently going through that, please keep in mind that this says more about them than about you. You don't deserve this and no matter the circumstances, this is absolutely not your fault <3
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𝙲𝚊𝚜𝚝𝚒𝚎𝚕:
First things first, Castiel knows pretty well how does it feel like to be betrayed by someone you loved and trusted (I mean Debrah did him really wrong as we know)
Hence, even if he's a tease most of time, when you start telling him about what your so-called best friend did to you, he'll listen diligently
He wouldn't say much while you explain the situation but anger is starting to grow inside him
Because, that would make him mad
Once your done, he would totally let out some insults ( he would also  encourage you do the same as well because just let it out dear)
If you are crying, he'll probably be a bit disarmed as he's doesn't really know how to comfort people (he mostly deals with his problems on his own so looking for comfort is not something he's used to, let alone comforting someone else )
So he'll do what feels right to him which is taking you his arms while you calm down a little
If your best friend ghosted you after betraying you, he'll kinda be like "yeah they can f*ck off, you don't need this snake in your life anyway"
Honestly, even if somehow your "best friend" comes back and apologised, he'll still remember (and he'll be pissed if your forgive them because maybe you moved on but he hasn't lol)
He would totally take it personally because betrayal is a sensitive topic for him and the fact that it happened to you enrages him (bcs you don't deserve this treatment, who tf would do that ???)
If they attend school with you guys, he'll certainly throw them a death stare each time they pass by (and he knows how to look scary) but won't go talk to them or anything (even though he really wants to let them know what he thinks of them so if you give him a green light he might go and roast the shit out of them)
𝙻𝚢𝚜𝚊𝚗𝚍𝚎𝚛 :
You would tell him about the situation and he would listen without interrupting you 
If you’re crying while speaking, he’ll gently whip the tears off your cheeks
When you’re done, he would take you his arms for as long as you need to
He would find the words (because when does this man doesn’t know what to say-)
He would tell you that they didn’t deserve you anyway (and he’s right) and ask if you want to do something to change your mind
Would be up to do anything as long as it makes you smile
If they ghosted you after betraying you, he’ll be mad because not only they’ve hurt like that but they won’t even face the consequences ? Tsss cowards
The following days, he’ll try to be present for you as much as possible because he can only imagine the pain and how lonely you feel
I think that one of the reason why Lysander keep such has such a small circle of friends it’s because he knows that, personally, he would hurt like hell if someone he loved and trusted betrayed him (he has a sensible heart and always give his all in any relationship therefore this is probably the worst thing that could happen to him)
𝙰𝚛𝚖𝚒𝚗 :
Okay so Armin isn’t really a man of drama or at least that’s what it looks like 
However, his brother is Alexy (I think that says it all)
It means that he’s going to end up in the drama anyway so he’s kinda use to it (because as he already said it in the game Alexy’s would come to the rescue of his worst enemy so it’s not hard to imagine that Alexy already ended up trusting the wrong person and then went to Armin for comfort)
While you’re telling him about it, he would sometimes interrupt you by saying « No way ?! » or « That bitch » ‘cause yeah, even he (and he heard a lot of these stories before) did not expect your « best friend » to be such a snake
Then once you’re done telling him, he’ll do what he does when it happen with Alexy 
Be the better person ? Come on, we don’t believe in such things in this household
He’ll ask you if you want to take revenge and if you do, then you guys will be setting up some machiavelous plan
But if you don’t (and according to the circumstances you might be right because snakes like these aren’t worth the trouble, let alone a detention you know), he won’t insist 
He’ll probably ask you if you want to play some games to distract yourself and you’ll end gaming with Armin for hours and you’d have fun (he’s trying harder to make you laugh to cheer you up and that’s kind of sweet)
Even if you said that you didn’t want to take revenge or anything, he’ll never miss a chance to embarrass them 
Be prepare for him to make up some nasty and snarky remarks just for them
Others say it’s a childish thing to do but for Armin, he sees an opportunity to give them a taste of their medicine
𝙽𝚊𝚝𝚑𝚊𝚗𝚒𝚎𝚕 :
He didn’t expect it (in HSL he wasn’t yet in his « can’t trust anybody » phase and he was kinda new to the concept of friendship since he just got his freedom)
He’ll be pissed because Nath is loyal person so he can’t even understand how your best friend could even think of doing something like that 
He’ll hug you tight, he feels so sorry for you. He would ask you if you to talk a bit more about it and if you do, he’d listen. 
If you don’t well he’d find something else to do because he can’t stand to see you so upset
Would probably take you to see Blanche in hope that this would cheer you up and you would spend the entire afternoon at his place , with him by your side
Now, be the better person ? No, no. Unlike Armin, he wouldn’t straight up want to come up with a plan to put them down 
He’s the Student Body President so he’s not supposed to condone this kind of behaviour 
However you have to admit that his position offers some advantages 
People blindly trust his word and he might use it to his (and your) advantage 
He’ll go to them and be like « Oh yeah, you know that exam that counts for 80% of the final grade in this subject ? Well, I just heard that it was due for next week actually » (it’s not, it’s due in 2 days and we know that they didn’t study it since they thought they had time)
He’ll enjoy seeing their face literally crumbles during the test
After that he’ll only address to them with this passive-aggressive tone of his
𝙺𝚎𝚗𝚝𝚒𝚗 :
He would be as upset as you are (if not more)
I feel like Kentin is really empathetic (he’ll deny it to death but he do feel things very deeply and can easily get affected by other’s emotions especially if it’s someone he loves and cares about)
If you’re crying, he might end up crying with you because this is too much for him
He’d hug before you’re even done explaining the situation because you obviously need some comfort (and so does he)
When you both calmed down, he’ll be pissed
He wants to stand up for you and if you’d like him to, he’d totally go teach them a little lesson 
He’s not sure how he would manage to do that but that’s not going to stop him from trying 
Anything to make you feel better honestly 
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There you go ! Hope you liked it !
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booskwan · 2 months
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arirang radio highlights!
when junji picked up the camera for greetings nine goes “oh scary”
(the mc mentioned it’s been about 3 years since they last went on and asked if they’ve been doing well)
n: we haven’t been well
host: why why why?
n: we missed you! of course we haven’t been doing well we missed you!
jj: i don’t know if i can say this but
n: then don’t
jj: bc it’s kind of awkward. [something about his back being bad]
host: wow you already feel that (at your age)?
jj: so i think i should work out/exercise a bit
kb said in his heart [only] he’s still in his teens
host: [eng] i remember this actually ooo has no leader right? [kor] you don’t have a leader right? -*he probably brought this up bc it’s kind of unusual for groups to not have a leader but it does feel a bit….
kb: we do
yj: [we didn’t] but we have a new one!
m: while we were preparing for this comeback a new leader appeared
host: ah while preparing for this comeback? then…who is it
(yoojung and mill both ask who he thinks it is)
host: oh this is kinda difficult they’re all well spoken
m: go by feeling
host: by feeling…the way i see it….(looking at yoojung nine and rie’s side)ah!
jj: it seems like you’re excluding us (from the options)
n: *laughing* he didn’t look over there
m: please look at us too
host: oh i immediately went over to this (yj, n, rie) side! ah is the leader over here (jj, m, kb)?
n: no, no
kb: pls include us as candidates
n: [eng] choose one, choose one
host: honestly i was thinking it might be kyubin. he kind of has that pose
kb: did you see my age by any chance
host: oh no no no
(i think nine said something about kyubin’s hair going grey or him losing hair)
host: he’s kind of calm when he talks so [i thought it was him]
(everyone goes ahh)
host: oh was i right?
kb: it’s not me
n: rie please explain (who the leader is)
(kb and nine saying rie wanted to do it but-)
rie: i gave the chance up. our nine has a strong sense of responsibility and he already kind of took the position and said he wanted to try it and he’s well-behaved so i gave [the position] up.
host: ahh
rie: so now nine is the leader
host: [eng] nine is the leader! [kor] nine why did you want to do it?
n: [eng] ah because we want a leader [kor] we thought we needed a leader [eng] so i [kor] stepped up. i stepped up
host: [eng] i think he’s gonna be fantastic [kor] i think he’ll be a good leader!
(everyone agrees)
jj: i think he’s a leader who does his best
junji said with the stephanie situation mill was beside him and goes “hyung it’s stephanie, it’s stephanie”
yj: sungho said this to me “you kind of look young for your age.” i think that too
(he said that he hears it a lot)
yj: and the people around me when they hear kyubin’s actual age say that he looks young for his age
rie: what about junji
jj: unfortunately people dont tell me that. mom, dad. i love you
n: it’s like that for me too. when i go out [people say] i look older than kyubin
host: how do you feel when that happens?
n: how do i feel? i ask “are you sure?” with a scary gaze
(what is your dopamine lately)
m: for me of course the one that always is beside us, with an angel-like existence,
yj: me?
n: kyubinie?
m: lyons
host: i also thought you were gonna say kyubin. when do you feel dopamine most from fans?
m: this comeback lyons have been giving us so much love and we can always really feel it
kb: by any chance have you thought about repaying that love
m: i’m repaying it a lot. i’ll work hard. i’ll do well!
after the dopamine performance kb said he forgot the words for the first time
(nine is complaining again about mill not pursing his lips during the beyond kiss scene)
host: what did you do about it?
n: i went in like a gastroscrope and tried to find them (mill’s lips)
host: this is the first time i’ve heard something like this. seriously i’ve done this for 10 years and this is the first time i’ve heard people talk about a kiss scene. mill why did you do it like that? it’s a scene yk
m: i was so shy
n: [eng] so shy
host: ah it can be a little cute
n: [eng] so cute
host: if you have to do it again,
m&n: we did do it again
n: we shot a drama, called bump up business, and we had a kiss scene
host: before you do a kiss scene, do you have something you need to prepare?
n: ah of course i have it with me now
host: what is it?
yj: breath spray
n: *pulls out spray and uses it* [eng] and, kiss them
host: ah ok ok ok ok. so mill hadn’t prepared
n: yeah yeah he hadn’t prepared
host: but why are you prepared today, you don’t have a kiss scene?
n: you never know [eng] we prepare always we always prepare 🤷
rie: suddenly a kiss schedule with mill could come up
host: i think i’d run away like mill because im shy
n: [eng] its okay im so fast
host: what was the question
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me when people are hating on Ouma's actions in game like. I just support him, actually
Ves: REAL she looked good doing it
if it were me I would get more crazy for a lot more selfish reasons, and I would punch Kaito back sooner, good for him for keeping his eyes on the goal
fr fr, look at him in the closing argument, that's my babygirl
Ves: the closing argument artist thinks so too
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he did not have to go that hard but HE DID IT FOR ALL OF US. A HERO
haters will act like he's irrational, but he stuck out so long with no support system since he couldn't trust anyone and managed to play things off even when he was finally starting to lose his shit in a situation when it was reasonable for him to feel like this (tbh even fans make him often crack way more easily to make shipping content, when he's so resilient and then on the other hand not really lone wolfing it either bc he cooperated as much as he could) his way of going about things was smart, there isn't much else he could do, Tsumugi was setting up others to distrust him as well
Ves: AAAAAAAAAAAUGH!!! he did he lasted so fucking long in the worst possible situation he tried so HARD to cooperate and it just. did not work. if i think abt how quickly his plans fell apart i will explode i'd b doing so much worse in his situation
sometimes it's just like, you're talking about paranoia? trust and attachment issues? untreated mental illness? I think we have to be introduced, there's so much I could show you. I am not saying he doesn't have anything of the sort, but there's a lot more of reasonable justified distrust there, and still, it could be so much worse, trapping the next person who thoughtlessly assigns him diagnosis in a demonizing way in a room with me and making them listen to me rant about my failed relationships history for educational purposes
they will learn about all kinds of issues
Ves: it's trueee people act like he's so strange for breaking down but LIKE??? HE'S PRETTY NORMAL FOR THAT ACTUALLY???? he clearly already had Issues but the killing game was perfectly packaged to dig into those this is why DRS and UTDP mostly suck at characterizing him they're still stuck in the idea of him at his absolute worst he was nicer even in ch1 than he is in some of those events
[and then my amazing wife dropped this bomb, and she says I'm the smart one smh] Sini: The thing is, there’s him being shitty on purpose and him pretending to be the mastermind/making himself appear suspicious. There is a clear difference in how he acts. In DRS and UTDP he usually just comes across as playful. Yeah he’s a jackass, but I think his whole “bad guy” persona (the one we see in the beginning of the game) goes beyond the killing game. I see it as a way for him to protect himself, to push people away and not appear as vulnerable. As he’s said before, everyone always sees him as a villain so it’s the perfect role for him. I think that reasoning goes beyond what was happening to him in canon. I do agree his characterization could’ve used a bit more reworking, but I think for the most part they did a good job in showing how differently he acts in a peaceful setting in small ways. The fact that he never uses his scary sprites once or is seen to be more nice with characters like Mikan and Gonta. Especially with Gonta, where he seems to be more vulnerable around. And while this was probably just a mistake, I like to think him being shown as not as pale in DRS as a sign of him getting better. In a non killing game environment he seems to be doing pretty well for himself. But that’s what I believe, anyway
Ves: h that's really sweet actually,,,i may have been a LITTLE hard on the side modes. it's mostly the way he treats kiibo that drives me INSANE, the mikan n gonta stuff is [ok hand emoji].
Sini: Yeah, I agree. I can understand the Kiibo hate, but he doesn’t have to go as hard as he did in game. It’s not like there is a reason to suspect him. The only thing that could maybe explain it is maybe he suspects he could be tied to Monokuma? Since he, the Monokubz, and Monomi do exist here. He was rude to Monomi and seems to suspect her of being not what she seems ALSO, he’s always gonna be a little shit cause he’s a greedy whore. He wants attention and entertainment so badly.
Ves: THISSSSS it's so important i have seen so many people question why he does things where the answer is literally just that he wants attention like there is not always a plot sometimes he just wants shuuichi to chase him
Sini: That’s all there is to it He wants his crush to chase him like in his favourite novels Live the fantasy
Ves: it's part of why they're so good together!! shuuichi as a detective is v used to obsessing over details and giving his whole attention to something in the way kokichi wants HE'S A NERD THAT ALSO EXPLAINS MANY THINGS
Sini: They’re both nerds. Even more reason to why they are soulmates
Ves: kokichi receives the Detective Stare and goes TEEEEEHEE
Sini: IT’S HIS DREAM COME TRUE It’s just like anime! He’s living anime rn
Ves: i think his hair should curl up at the ends when he gets excited as a treat
Sini: To compliment Shuichi’s sentiment ahoge When he goes to his room after an exciting day with Shuichi, he flops on his bed, kicks his feet, and squeals into his pillow
I feel a little ashamed when reverse happens and I am posting something someone else started and I took over, but with this all I can say: follow @vespertin-y and leave nice comments for my wife so we can prove it to her that she is smart and her takes are divine.
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davenweenie · 1 year
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This is very self indulgent to make me feel better about my TS
I present to you:
Chase Davenport with Tourette’s
Chase started developing tics when he was 6. It started with shrugging, which was passed off as another odd behaviour bc Davenport is an oblivious dick.
His tics were only realised when they became more distracting to him and his siblings. Aka when he started to head jerk and exclaim randomly.
He diagnosed himself with Tourette’s because he’s just that smart. I have to give credit to Aster ( @firelitsparks ) for coming up with the ‘Chase diagnosing himself with things’ idea because it’s genius.
Adam has difficulty knowing when something is a tic and when it isn’t. Chase’s tics calling Adam names and then Adam being mean back because he thinks Chase is being mean on purpose is a prime example.
Trent and his cronies were so horrible to Chase about his tics that they sent him into a tic attack on his second week of school.
Trent calls him ‘parrot’ while bullying him because of Chase’s echolalia (repeating things that he has heard) and Chase hates it so much.
Adam has absolutely punched the shit out of Trent or anyone else that bullies Chase about his tics
Bree can make her body vibrate because of her superspeed which they’ve all figured out can help calm Chase’s tics down. So on a bad tic day Bree will let Chase lean against her and start to make her body vibrate. They’re not sure why it works but it does so they do it.
Leo built Chase a pair of noise cancelling headphones that were bionic hearing proof to help Chase out not only with his sensory issues but with his tics as well.
Adam has used himself as a weighted blanket before when Chase had a tic attack that lasted about 12 hours (no joke this happened to me and I ended up in hospital and had to be sedated, it’s scary shit)
On that note, Chase has had to be sedated because of his tics before. Adam and Bree were really scared because Chase was only 10 at the time and he had started to really badly hurt himself during a tic attack.
Tasha is so gentle with him on a bad tic day. She’ll make food that’s easy to eat for him and gets him water in a bottle that can’t be spilt.
She’ll push his hair out of his face and comfort him if he’s getting overwhelmed (I love Tasha 🫶)
Davenport used to blame Chase’s Tourette’s on his bionics and always called them glitches because he didn’t want to accept the fact that his ‘son’ is disabled. (I use the word son loosely because I don’t think Davenport ever really saw them as his kids, if he did they wouldn’t have been treated the way they were)
Douglas never mentioned Chase’s tics, not even when he started living in the Davenport-Dooley household because he didn’t need to. He knew what they were caused by and why they happened, the best thing to do was just ignore them or laugh with Chase if he had a particularly funny one.
Tesla and Einstein (Chase’s cats. Einstein belongs to Aster and Tesla was my cat hc that was inspired by Einstein) have a very deep understanding of Chase, including his tics. They will both cuddle up with him when they notice he’s struggling which will almost immediately help calm Chase’s tics down.
Kaz has never made a big deal of Chase’s tics and he makes him feel so comfortable. Chase almost cried the first time he’d had a tic attack around Kaz because he had been so good and knew exactly how to respond to it. Kaz explained that one of his siblings (holy shit why does he have 11) has anxiety tics so he’s grown up around people with tics.
Chase has a tic that makes him lean back really far, quite often resulting in him falling. People try to catch him all the time and most of the time succeed. Cooking in the kitchen? Someone has just had to catch Chase. Happen to be brushing your teeth at the same time as him? You’re gonna end up having to catch him. It’s turned into a bit of a game in the EF penthouse to see who can react the fastest to Chase nearly falling. Skylar and Bree are both in the lead. Chase loves them all dearly.
Because of a blocking tic (tonic or dystonic tics that interrupt motor/physical activity) Chase once got stuck hugging Adam. His tics had made him wrap his arms around Adam and then he got stuck there. He was so embarrassed because him and Adam never really hugged, they usually wrestled and beat each other up to show affection so it was a strange experience to be stuck hugging like that. Adam did try to pry Chase’s arms off him but there was no way around it without hurting Chase so they just sat there for a good half an hour before Chase’s arms loosened up.
I have a ton more of these if you want more. I might just do more anyway because it’s making me feel better about my tics. I’m in a bit of a flare up so I’m struggling a bit. I’ll be okay tho
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alwayzraven · 6 months
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Kardeşlerim Ep 99
Aybike went out to get some air and she saw the others, they just got back from Lydia's house. Asiye asked her if Berk is still upset with her. Aybike told her that they broke up. Asiye told her to tell him the truth about Elif being his sister but Aybike told her that it wasn't just that. She told her that Ayla did something bad and that her mom is also involved. She told her she can't explain to Berk why she is avoiding him.
Aybike:"Berk thought I wanted to beak up with him. Why would I want to break up with him? I love him so much".
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Aybike:"I wish I never found out about this"
Asiye comforted her 🥺❤️
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Aybike couldn't sleep, she was sitting in the living room. Oglucan asked Aybike if Berk did something to her but she said that she was the one who did something to him, it was her fault.
Ayla has a friend in Milan who sent her picture of a school her daughter goes to and Ayla showed them to Berk. Berk wasn't interested. Ayla was talking about looking for a house for them there and Elif came into the room. Elif asked them why they suddenly stopped talking when they saw her and Ayla told her that they didn't. Elif then went to make breakfast. Berk asked Ayla when she would tell Elif about them leaving. Ayla said she doesn't know. Berk told her that she has to tell her asap so Elif can plan accordingly. Ayla said that Elif got used to them and even her and Berk don't fight anymore. Berk said that she is actually a nice person. It's nice to see that Berk and Elif's relationship got better but I hope he finds out that she is his sister soon.
The Erens arrived to school before Berk. Aybike was looking for him in the lobby. Usually, he comes early and waits for her but this time he wasn't there 🥺 When Berk came, he said good morning to them and left. He didn't look at Aybike.
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Aybike:"He didn't even look at my face. Is this how it's going to be from now on?".
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Berk was sitting at the cafeteria telling Maher about what happened between him and Aybike and Maher didn't understand anything. I really miss Doruk 😭 He would've told him "Berko, don't worry, everything will be okay". Then Asiye came and told him that Aybike needs a literature book that she couldn't find at the library but Berk had it with him and he got mad. He called her childish bc she didn't come herself to talk to him and chose to send Asiye. Ngl, this scene was so funny to watch 😂 He was complaining about Aybike's behavior and Asiye stood there listening to him and she didn't know what to do 😂
Berk was about to leave school. It was raining. He took out his umbrella. Aybike was also about to leave and she saw Berk standing in the rain. Then she saw the yellow umbrella he was holding. 
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Flashback scene: Berk and Aybike were leaving the school together and it was raining outside.
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Berk:"Wait, wait, my love, look what I have here" and he got his umbrella out of his bag “Ta-da!”
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Aybike:” You have an umbrella with you?”
Berk:”I bought it when I went to France but I am using it for the first time with you so it has become even more valuable to me. This became romantic by the way”
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THIS LOOK RIGHT HERE! What is this? It screams I want to kiss you so bad 🔥🔥🔥
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Aybike:”It didn’t become romantic. Don’t say things like that, I think it became very scary”
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Berk:”Why would you say that? If anyone took a photo of us standing like this right now, it would clearly be the cover of a romantic movie."
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Aybike:”Okay Berk. I don’t like these things. What do I have to say to make you understand that?”
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Berk:”I know my love, I know that very well so let’s do this: I am going to stand here and scream ”I love you” so I can close the book of romance today”
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Aybike:”if this will be the last thing you do…..”
Then Berk gave her the umbrella and his bag and stood under the rain. Aybike told him that he will get drenched by the rain and tried to cover him with the umbrella but he told her not to do that. 
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Aybike”Okay, hurry up”
Berk cleared his throat.
Berk:”I love you!”
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Aybike:”Okay”
Berk:”I love you”
Aybike:”Berk, okay, okay, me too”
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Berk:”then you scream it too”
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Aybike:”Okay, I just said it, I love you”
Berk:”I can’t hear you, my love”
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Aybike:”I love you”
Berk (asking her to repeat after him):”I love you too”
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Aybike screaming:”Okay, I love you too! I am leaving, are you coming?”
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Berk:”I love you, my Aybike”
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Aybike was looking around her. I think she was shy 😂
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Berk:”Attaman school, I love this girl, Aybike Eren, so much”
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Aybike:”Okay I am leaving!”
Then she started walking away
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Berk:”Come over here”
Then he hugged her and kissed her ❤️
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Another missed opportunity for a kiss scene 🙄
Back to present day:
Berk turned and looked at Aybike then he threw the umbrella on the ground. He left the umbrella for her because he couldn’t just give it to her since they weren’t on speaking terms and he left 🥺
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Aybike looked at the umbrella and remembered how he screamed that he loved her under the rain.
Aybike:"I love you too, I still love you so much"
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She picked up the umbrella and took it home.
She sat on her bed with the umbrella in her hand. She was crying. Sengul came suddenly into her room and Aybike was startled so she threw the umbrella on the ground. Sengul told her to give her the umbrella. She asked her why she had it. Aybike asked her to leave her room but Sengul said that she's not leaving until she explains to her why she had that yellow umbrella.
Aybike:"It's Berk's umbrella! Okay? Berk's umbrella! We had good memories with this umbrella but do you know what he did today? He threw it on the ground like it was trash, because he was so angry at me, because we had to break up because of you and his mom "
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She thought Berk threw away the umbrella bc it reminded him of her but he left it on purpose for her bc Berk always takes care of Aybike even when they are not together 😭 
Sengul basically told her that she was exaggerating and that she didn't have to break up with Berk bc she wasn't the one who killed his mom. Aybike told her she can't look at Berk's face after Sengul took money from Ayla in exchange for her silence. Sengul stressed that she "borrowed" money from Ayla. Aybike said that no one understands her 😭 Then she hugged the forgive me bear.
I loved today's episode because they showed how Aybike was miserable without Berk. Ngl, I was waiting to see this since S3 and I can't believe it's happening. The flashback rain scene was SO PERFECT AND SO BEAUTIFUL ❤️
No teaser was released after the episode 😭 They are going to make us suffer since it's ep 100. I hope they are going to release a good tease and I hope the airport scene will be in it.
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stoned-eren · 5 months
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okay. im going to talk about the fnaf movie.
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SPOILERS UNDER READ MORE!!!
overall, i thought it was very good. somehow making a whole series of a video game condensed into 1.5 hrs is not something easy to do. i think with what they were working with, they executed it pretty well. costume design was superb, and the acting from josh hutcherson was amazing.
that being said, i did find some scenes didn't belong. for example the fort scene, though i'm sure many people have pointed that out already.
i felt like they were trying to tow the line between silly/cute and scary/suspenseful, but in my opinion i don't think they needed to do that? i think if they leaned in fully to the horror aspect it would have still been a very enjoyable experience.
the scenes with vanessa disappointed me, just a bit. it felt like she was only there to progress the story/exposition. and the fucking fort scene with her... in that scene, vanessa is like "oh freddy fazbears' is so fun yayayayay" and then literally in the next scene she's telling mike "if you ever come back here IM GOING TO SHOOT YOU" ???????????? like why? what did mike even do?
the old bf made an observation that william afton was just straight up not fleshed out, at least not as much as either one of us had hoped.
i personally think if they had just included like... a 5 minute scene of william afton on his killing spree (without outright showing william afton), it would have done alot for his character. i felt like he was just kind of thrown in there towards the end, which makes me sad bc william afton is such a unique character with sooo much backstory integral to the lore of fnaf, and it just felt like he was alluded to the whole movie? idk.
there were some questionable moments. it was funny how freddy literally just murders the aunt and no one even questions it? mike would have come home to a literal corpse in his house, how does he explain that to the police?
and it made me sad how little they showed of foxy. :( foxy is my all time favorite (i literally brought a giant stuffed foxy plush with me to the movie) and it felt like he was the most forgotten animatronic. bonnie seemed to be the main center of attention tbh, he was in almost every scene where the animatronics were. but it makes sense since scott cawthon thinks bonnie is the creepiest animatronic lol.
those are my main criticisms.
but i still loved it, very much so!
when the matpat cameo came on screen... it was a shocker. i gasped so loud. the people in the movie theater literally laughed at me lol bc i gasped SO LOUD, I COULDNT HELP IT i was so shocked. AND WHEN HE SAID ITS ONLY A THEORY???? i ate it up. idc if it's cheesy, I ATE IT UP.
also i thought it was cool that the movie is (i think but could be wrong) five nights long! a little easter egg that i thought was neat. the old bf pointed this out to me.
another nice touch is in the beginning of the movie when mike is reading that dream theory book. a good callback to matpat's dream theory on fnaf (you know the one). and it's also a good way to tie in what's currently happening to mike with his dreams in the movie.
i really appreciated the subtle little ways they tied in the movie with the games, like the little "it's me" in the mirror during the scene with mike in the security room. and foxy's humming!!!! i loved it i loved it i loved it! the little noises they used from the game made me so happy!
but yeah. i'll stop ranting bc i can go on forever lol. while it had it's flaws, i don't think they affected the overarching storyline.
this is it my gamers. eight years in the making, and this is the end result.
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my score? 4 cupcakes out of 5. :>
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i've been going thru everything that i own & mercilessly scrutinizing each n every item like not even a single square of toilet paper from any roll of toilet paper will escape my wrath i feel like jesus (me) at the gates of heaven (my room) during the rapture (right now) judging all of the people (belongings) still on earth (in my possession) and every fucking body is going straight to hell you're all sinners and it's too late to repent now the final trumpet has already sounded woe eternal.
anyways a few years ago my dad gave me this small box of stuff and i never looked thru it until now. what is any of this stuff and why did he give it to me?
a dropper/tincture(?) that's empty except for some white residue. printed label says it's 25i-nBOME & next to that (not visible in the pic) handwritten in black pen is "20 mg". this is the only thing that i know what it is, but somehow it's also the item that confuses me the most. i distinctly remember one summer asking my dad if he had ever done acid, and he said "no never have/never will" & went on this huge rant about how "it's a drug for crazy ppl—just look at your mom & grandma, they used to do acid all the time—explains a lot doesn't it?" i can't imagine any reason why he would have lied to me about that because, at the time that i asked him that, he knew but didn't care that i always had acid & would use it somewhat regularly (like he wasn't saying that to me in a moralizing way, he was just sharing his opinion & halfway joking). also, i've used meth with him before, so ofc he knows i wouldn't gaf even if he was seriously against any psychedelics. so what happened that he had an empty 25i-nBOME container & randomly gave it to me one day then never mentioned it ever? i'll always wonder, but i'll never ask...
the next thing is honestly scary as fuck to me. i have no clue what it could be. idk if y'all can read the words on the the black thing, but it says "BLIMPIE HUMIDIFIER". i googled it & if anything i'm even more confused now. i think maybe it's some kind of thing you're supposed to put in a bag of tobacco to keep it from drying out or something like that? not sure how it's supposed to work tho. and i assume that most ppl probably actually use it for weed, which makes sense bc my dad smokes weed literally 24/7. but what creeps me out about it is there's a crazy smell (idk how to describe it just it's strong & it's not very pleasant but not awful either, maybe like a chemical smell idk) as soon as u open the prescription bottle... and then there's whatever the fuck kind of residue on the sides of the container. looks like honeycomb or beeswax to me. not sure i just have a strong feeling that bees were somehow involved with whatever happened here. i almost wonder if this is a really normal weed thing like some kind of idk dabs or resin or rosin or whatever is the shit that the hardcore weed junkies smoke and if so thats fucked up i cant believe ppl are out here smoking ear wax off of nails with a blowtorch or whatever but that definitely seems like something my dad would do.
the last thing (3) says "LEWHIF" which according to google is like a recreational inhaler basically like apparently you use this to inhale dessert flavored air so i guess this is like what you might use if you want to vape but you can't because you have asthma. i don't really get the appeal but then again i don't have asthma so i guess this one isn't for me to understand...
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hawkinsp0st · 2 years
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no bc what makes the van scene so fucking tragic to me is i really feel that if will hadn’t been raised in a homophobic environment and had been truly able to say his feelings, then mike would have dropped everything. everything.
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i mean, first, will would’ve had to spell it out for mike. he would’ve had to look into his eyes and say “i love you the way that you love el, and i want you to love me the same way. i know you won’t, but i want that, and that’s why i’m so torn up. but i know that you can’t—“ but that makes it finally click for mike.
he immediately would have taken a deep breath and cut will off (with that expression on his face from when he nodded in response to ‘ur scared of losing her’)— “no. no, i love you too. that way. the fight el and i had… it was about… it was about love. that type of love.”
“oh, mike,” will says, eyes wet with regret and guilt. “i’m sorry, i didn’t mean to get in the middle of—to mess up what you and el—“
“stop saying that,” mike urges, eyes soft. “this isn’t your fault. none of this is your fault, will. it’s not…” mike squeezes his eyes shut in a hard blink for a moment. he’s got to say it, out loud, if he ever wants to admit it to el. “it’s not your fault i’m not in love with el.”
will’s breath is shaky, and the mood sober, as mike continues.
“i don’t know what’s going to happen when we find el. but this?” he scoffs, smiles, shakes his head, gestures between the two of them, relieved tears filling his eyes, because will has no clue what he just did for mike, that this is everything. “will, you have no idea. you have no fucking idea.”
he thinks of all the sleepless nights since will’s been in lenora. he thinks of the feeling he got when he spotted will out of the corner of his eye in the airport, will’s smile so bright it stunned him and he froze, and mike thought he had no choice but to force himself not to feel anything for risk of hurting el, for risk of being a horrible boyfriend—and, lying in the byers’ guest room that night, he let himself realize that it was also for fear of hurting will, making him uncomfortable because will wasn’t like that, and besides, he had thought, boys can’t want other boys that way, like how his dad had always pointed at it on the news and said “that’s not right.”
he wants to press on, wants to ask will how long. how long have you been holding this thing that just changed my entire life in ten seconds, sent everything crashing into place. how long have you been waiting to save me from myself.
but instead he only explains: “this makes it… worth it. how scary the future is, i mean,” mike continues, eyes downcast. “i still love her, you know… like, how i love my family. she is my family. she’s my best friend.”
will reaches out, hesitant, and puts his hand over mike’s. “she’s my family, too. none of us would be here without her. we’re going to find her,” will says nervously, “and we’re going to figure this out. together.”
mike smiles sadly and interlocks their fingers and they stay like that, thumbs occasionally rubbing over the other’s hand soothingly, until they get close to NINA. “together.”
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and it would have been that easy. you can’t tell me otherwise.
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waterloggedsoliloquy · 6 months
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i'm thinking about the kayak on the youghiogheny river when i was thirteen. i tried to write a poem about it once but it wasnt a very good one bc it was just me explaining what happened. this isnt that poem.
i can't remember it very much but the things i do remember are very clear. i remember the sunlight coming through the orange plastic of the kayak as it held me down. the water that was black by comparison. you know those herons that fish by creating a spot of shade with their wings? it was kind of like that, the water black in this one spot. no air pockets. just enough light to see bubbles by, like white outlines. but i dont know how much of that is stuff i imagined afterward. bc in the afterward was the river pebbles on the shore so close to my face as i was dragged upwards by the back of my lifejacket. i almost died with a lifejacket on, isnt that stupid? i remember hurling river water. and my dads friend who pulled me out sat there with me while i hurled and i was crying, but i suddenly stopped crying, like full-stop, like turning off a faucet. i remember that bc he called it weird. and i wiped my mouth and smiled at him and said i was fine now. i had to get back in the boat anyways to complete the kayaking trip.
when you drown its really really quiet. thats why youre supposed to watch your kids and your friends when you go swimming because most of the time a drowning person can't yell. you just go down and you're held down and by the time you realize what's happened to you, you're fighting a current heavier than anything. and it really is the heaviest thing you'll ever feel. when i was itty bitty i was playing in ohiopyle and a rapid was stronger than i was and it held me under. my eyes were open then too, it was a sunny day and the water was clear and i could see the sun sparkling through the wave that was cresting over my face. i didnt yell, or flail, i dont even remember panicking. then the shape of my dad came over and he blocked out the sun. and then pulled me up. he yelled at me, said that if i was in trouble like that i should cry for help, why didnt i do that? but it hadnt occurred to me, probably because it hadnt exactly hurt. logically i knew it was dangerous to be trapped under water, but without pain i couldnt have known how close i'd been. i don't think i could have yelled even if i thought to, though.
second time id almost drowned was in my cousins pool, elementary school. my abuelita had jumped in, fully clothed, to pull me out. that one had hurt. even the river years later hadn't hurt very much. my lungs felt like they were on fire and my throat stung from chlorine.
its weird to talk about these because it creates in me the same dread and apprehension that wells up every time i try to disclose abuse, even though nobody did anything to me, it wasnt anyone's fault. i was just a kid who hung out in rapids a lot and the grownups in my life thought i'd be alright on my own. but i still stall out on instinct, the part of my mind that keeps me from putting my hand on a hot stove. maybe my brain files away the drownings in the same folders as the abuse. these are the scary things, its probably labelled, these are the memories of when you were a child discovering what it meant to hurt and to die.
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ballad appreciation post
i’m so happy :D. i’ve watched ballad twice this week. the second time i watched it w my brothers i didn’t have anything to say about it bc i was mostly just on edge about not getting kicked out of the theatre but since i teased a breakup over this Boyfriend was on his best behavior so i actually got to watch the movie without anyone asking a million question a scene. in related news we have another lucy gray truther on our side. here are some of my thoughts
1. tom blyth opening screen …. i still got jumpscared seeing him in the nude
2. the way they pronounce lucy grays name still catches me off guard. i’ve been ignoring the “i” completely and just say “bard” in my head (yk bc she’s The Bard). with that being said i know the mayor was in like 2 scenes but i think he did a really good job picking out lucy grays name he looked crazy
3. hunter schafer is my eyebrow inspo. also i’ve mentioned this before w the bathing suits having a 1920s and 50s vibe but she’s giving 1940s to me. but obviously glamor 1940s not war ridden 1940s
4. watching this w someone who hasn’t read the book is so enjoyable. when lucy gray dropped the snake down mayfairs shirt Boyfriend got SO tense “waitwait did she just try to fuckin murder her??” god forbid women do anything
5. okay sorry but the first time i watched it i was trying not to smile (in a laugh-y way) when lucy grays singing part came on. when i read it i thought that part ate but actually seeing it was so different for some reason. i think this feeling might be amplified if you’ve never read the book bc my sister felt the exact same way she said it was kinda fuckin cringe. idk if it was just bc we were at home or she was just feeling silly but she started singing that one camp rock song that’s like “we can’t back down.” which ok yeah that was kinda lucy grays song in a nutshell but it kinda did piss me off bc the “you can kiss my ass!!!!” part was coming on soon and i was stressing over them missing it. also didnt lucy gray have a full on dance break in the book?? god. they should have kept that in
6. okay that scene where she bowed and d12’s nasty ass coal industry being in the background is still one of my fav scenes. ugh loved it
7. wovey idk what it was this time but when she was like “im rlly good at climbing” i almost burst into tears. guys she’s really good at climbing
8. hunter schafer literally killed this. i’d argue that tigris is just as much of a product of her environment as snow is but i don’t rlly know how to articulate that
9. speaking of the reading vs watching thing i mentioned earlier: it rlly jumped out with grandmaam. idk why but when i was reading it grandmaam was SO scary and intimidating to me but watching her so frail and skinny and slightly senile talk about how lucy gray is a killer just seemed so crazy. especially since we know snow believes her
10. “they’re gonna get bombed aren’t they” wtf i walk into every movie clueless how are ppl straight up predicting entire events. but again w the reading vs watching i was GAGGED when they got bombed in the book but in the movie it seemed weird?? like “get the camera on her” and then it just feels like they’re trying to take up space until the actual bombs land. but whatever im being so bitchy i wasn’t surprised bc i literally knew it was gonna happen
11. “i want coral making my latte” and i want tanner on the grill
12. i think it was tanner, but i rlly liked his outfit. i liked all their outfits actually. i’ve been watching so many reels abt the costume designer explaining her inspo for the costumes (like tigris and her 1940s glamor thing going on)
13. okay seriously why did they cut out the kiss… and then when they actually did kiss why did they have lucy gray pull away at first…… i know francis lawrence saying this was a love story was icky but he did a bad job at portraying that so maybe we were worried for nothing (jk we were worried for all the right reasons bc if i had a nickel for every time someone said “i thought they were gonna get married!” about lucy gray and snow i’d have two nickels. which isn’t a lot but it’s weird that it happened twice). also not to be a hater but snowbaird fans actually fucking irritate me. like the fans that are like “but what if it was wholesome 🥺🥺” what if lucy gray tried to kill him and he tried to kill her back? what if he managed to track her down and she bit him again? what if they hate each other so much that they’re only together bc they wanna see the other person suffer? what then
14. tbh seeing billy taupe made me feel a bit guilty ��😭. almost terminated my ao3 acc but i get that feeling every time someone mentions something im obsessed w in a very casual way so it wasn’t rlly that serious. also someone either on tiktok or insta was like “was i the only person who preferred snows curls to his buzz cut?” and i genuinely couldn’t tell if they were joking bc like. everyone prefers snows curls to his buzz cut. even snow prefers his curls to his buzzcut. with that being said billy taupe needed to lose the cap
15. ngl the ballad of lucy gray baird actually did make me cry a bit… lucy gray was only 16 she needed to be on tumblr
16. where’d she get that guitar from tho
17. i wish they would have kept in the tributes death parade. that part was icky
18. okay there was a scene where lucky had a drink and then he flicked something off it and pup (i think that was his name) flinched cos it landed on his neck that was so fucking funny i hate that this was the first time i noticed it
19. okay seriously why did they make dill get poisoned. also that cornocopia scene. hmph
20. the first time i watched it i remembered being really confused why lucky called mizzen Merciless Mizzen. but omg after he tried chasing lucy gray down in that vent i understood that was crazy of him. and it did seem like he was an actual teenager which actually made it more unsettling. i feel like rachel zegler has a baby face (i actually think she was 17 in west side story and she looks the exact same now) but mizzen’s actor sing singing her name was perfect
21. lamina at the beam… didn’t she manage to kill someone in the book??
22. “does this mean we get to go home??” god i wish
23. but also “please lucy i can’t have killed all of them for nothing” i liked that she didn’t call her lucy gray that was a nice touch. but also. what a crazy thing to ask. i wonder if she thought lucy gray would be chill w that
24. take this with a grain of salt i haven’t read the books in so long but when snow snuck up on lucy gray in the meadow didn’t she level her guitar at him and then be like “sorry lol i still have one foot in the arena :P” they should have had her hit him in the face w it
25. the old therebefore still hits. i wish they would have included scenes where snow is shown to genuinely dislike her songs like in the books. in the movies he seems more disinterested in what she’s doing which is still bad but also it doesn’t seem as overt as him literally hating on her for no fuckin reason. which i guess is bc we have no insight into his head, like i think someone pointed out that in the book and movie he cried over sejanus being dead but in the book we know it’s bc he was scared it was gonna be him next but in the movie it just looked like he was sad. which i get it he’s perceived as nice by other people but the audience is not supposed to be other ppl we know what his motives are. im not sure how that’d be solved, cos i guess it would be pretty annoying to have him voice his thoughts and you also don’t wanna spoon feed ur audience but like. idk. seems like something you’d wanna make super clear bc to me it didn’t seem like you were supposed to like / sympathize with him, but the way it was done kinda seemed half baked
26. speaking of that… Boyfriend did not get the memo that snow was fucking crazy. “i thought he was gonna marry lucy gray in d12” WHY? like why would you even think that. were u not paying attention during the hunger games trilogy marathon where would lucy gray fit into that. since my sister thought the exact same thing she tried being like “see? it’s confusing” but it actually isn’t. that’s still a better reaction than my brother he was actually being a fucking weirdo about it cos when snow found lucy grays scarf in the woods and then the snake bit him this mfer went “she tried to kill him” no!!! but i think there might be something to be said about how snow, completely sober, came to the same conclusion as my brother, who was so high he couldn’t even remember who sejanus was
27. okay that’s a lot of sibling lore so atp i think i better end the post. bye
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can i request reader who came from the outside and runs out of antidepressants as they stay with karl, but they never told him they need those ('bc the man who is kindly hiding you from the blood cult totally needs one more reason to kick you out and be done with you' the reader thinks) but karl notices the readers acting off
god this is how i feel about the fact I’m very likely giving up therapy soon. it’s scary suddenly not having something you need anymore and I’m having to deal with that every day. so this is mostly based on my own personal experience with depression and mental illness
gn!reader, depression, comfort
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Maybe it was the fact that you knew what was coming. Maybe the meds conveniently decided to stop working now that they were running out with no way to refill your prescription. You were kind of in the middle of nowhere right now. Maybe it was being in the middle of nowhere, in a remote village run by a tyrannical matriarch who either didn’t help anyone or actively made things worse. It would explain Karl’s mental state.
You hadn’t told Karl about your antidepressants. You hadn’t even taken them in front of him. He was letting you stay in the (relative) safety of his factory and now you had to try to act like nothing had changed. You didn’t need to give him a reason to throw you out.
But it felt so… final. You felt like you were slowly dying, and it wasn’t that big a stretch. If your depression and its various symptoms didn’t kill you, exile certainly would. Getting kicked out would mean death by hypothermia, exposure, an animal attack, a lycan attack, Miranda finding you, someone selling you out to her, and a whole host of other potential causes of death that made you feel worse than you already did.
As the days went by and the pill bottle was emptied, you grew tired and weary more often, your mood got worse, you ate less, and you got into arguments with Karl. You couldn’t maintain the illusion.
Eventually, he picked up on the other signs, not just how much you hated everything. And he sat you down in front of a plate of food and said, very straightforward, “Okay, what’s going on?”
“What do you mean?” you deadpanned.
“I mean you’ve been acting like me after I talk to Miranda for days,” he said. “You’ve hardly ate, I don’t think you showered last night, and I haven’t seen you smile in days. So I just want to know. If there’s something I can do, I’ll do it.”
“There’s nothing you can do,” you said. “Just pretend this never happened.”
“Why?”
“You won’t like me when I get like this.”
“Like what? What happened?”
“I’m out of antidepressants!”
You didn’t really care that you were yelling at him. You wanted him to push you away at this point.
“It’s… medicine. That keeps me from being like this all the time. Well, it gets worse than that. Depression can kill you. And now that I’ve run out and can’t get more… it just feels like I’m dying soon. You’re either gonna get sick of me and kick me out, or it’s gonna kill me.”
“Buttercup, I could never,” he said. “I’m not just going to leave you to fend for yourself.”
He got up and walked to your side of the table. “Come here.”
Karl hugged you, brushing a hand over the top of your head. You hugged back.
“I’ll think of something,” he said. “I’ll take care of you.”
“You don’t want that, Karl,” you said, tears blurring your vision.
“If it means we leave this dump together, it’s exactly what I want.”
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would you talk about shintaro's romantic relationships post str? im really curious about how what happens between shinaya breakups and after. how'd he hit on takane? how did they get together with kano? what does ayano think abt all of this?
ive had this ask in my inbox for like 3 weeks idk why cuz i love it but. ok u gotta hear me out for a second. im gonna repeat myself A LOT A LOT ALOT but i have a lot of fun doing that💗 this ended up super long because im sick in the head.
after shintaro and ayano break up shintaro is like. OK HE'S SPIRALING DOWN. but it's a lil more nuanced than that it's not that he reverts back and it is exactly the same as it was and he's just whining over ayano shut in his room. deep down and truthfully he's totally relieved. he wasn't ready to be in a relationship, just like ayano, and while this isn't the only reason for their relationship's demise it is basically the core problem, and out of it a million other problems are created.
during the time he's like. recovering. or whatever u wanna call it. he dooooes sort of revert back a lil bit to being a shut in but not really bc now there's everyone around and no one will let him actually do it LOL also he's definitely not as despaired as he was back then. and takane is there for him a lot. also haruka and momo and just generally the dan even if the mekatrio wanna kill him with hammers. sidenote on that i think ayano after cooling off she would explain it wasn't entirely shintaro's fault and she was also kind of a dickhead in the situation (ayano was projecting all her pain on one person and taking out her sadness and frustration solely on the relationship when she was really hurting abt literally everything else. this also wasn't fair to shintaro and she knows it) and mekatrio are like oh my god our sister doing wrong?!?!?! completely possible she is a person. continue <- except kano. we'll get back to him.
i think shintaro rather takes it as an excuse to finally break down as if he didn't have the right to before, a bit similarly to ayano he was in denial of all this baggage. like it was really a match made in hell LMAO but basically shintaro is STILL in denial even after breaking up while ayano is picking herself up which is why she even ends things in the first place
while he's in this state obviously takane's worrymeter chart goes off and breaks and explodes and shintaro sorta reverting triggers takane into sorta reverting so then theyre back to being alone in his room. LIKE i keep saying shintaro is terrified of the unknown, like he's seen the same thing over a hundred times and he can remember it all but this is new and it's very scary.
so it's comforting to be back in his room with takane. because thru it all he's also resenting takane because all this time they were supposed to be like this duo or whatever, like in ALL routes they're ALWAYS together she is always there with him and she just. cannot remember that. they were together for a year but for shintaro it was one year a hundred times and for takane it's JUST one year. their codependency comes from this, for shintaro it was so much more time and for takane even if for her it was really just a year she made shintaro her LIFE so it's just as heavy for both. sorry their friendship makes me so crazy
and when shintaro is off horribly dating ayano, haruka and takane are being normal and picking up where they left off and being cute and working on their problems together and etcetc like I've talked abt it in a post lol but basically harutaka drives shintaro crazy because he's like ohhhh my god why does SHE get this. why is takane managing so well. subconsciously ofc my man has NOT the emotional capacity to identify that feeling so he expresses it through live shintaro reaction. like as he and ayano go more and more downhill, takane is more and more self aware of their codependent dynamic and yknow WORKING ON IT. like its simultaneous how shintaro is losing both these relationships so fast at the same time.
so when the breakup happens and shintaro is NOT OK, of course takane puts a pause to everything and is by his side. for shintaro this is super comforting not because takane is there for him and she's helping but rather cuz. yes. THIS is what i know. THIS is comfortable. and as a plus to shintaro, takane reverting her progress probably means she reverts progress with haruka and that makes shintaro a little relieved he's just like thank god im not the only one fucking up💖 takane and i are 2 different sides of the same coin so she can't run she's just like me for real💖 that's just his sick narrative btw. in reality takane is totally aware of what's happening and overdue giving shintaro a smack in the head
like it WONT BE LIKE IT USED TO because THINGS ARE DIFFERENT!! takane cannot dedicate her life to shintaro and the fact he sort of expected her to do it again is insulting to her. like from shintaro its very unconscious he doesn't do it on purpose he just refuses to think outside this box of personal narrative he's built. its not like shintaro is being a dickhead like hey Live For Me Again he rather shows it in moments like, he's surprised when takane says she has to go bc she has work or bc she made plans with haruka, or how he will call her at any time unannounced and be like. hey on ur way here can u get more coke ok byeeee and she's like. it tells her he EXPECTS her to put him before everything like she used to and it pisses her off.
to rant a bit abt the "personal narrative" of shintaro. i think it's interesting that shintaro is essentially a very self centered character and kagepro is very meta in the way it treats him as a main character. because inside of kagepro, he really gets as much focus as any other character, they're all "main" character to us. its rather inside the story he plays a very important role therefore he is the protagonist and as the protagonist he puts an end to the story itself too. i think this is all interesting together and fun to dissect shintaro's character as inherently self centered because that's what the story is. it shows not only in the way he acts even without retaining activated, but he is really in the center of it, and the way he handles it in everyday life once this story is over and theyre free from a narrative in the first place, is self destructive (and fun. to me) because its not compatible to being a normal fucking person.
so yeah it IS taking him a bit to really LOOK at his friends and stop looking only for himself. technically he's lived a hundred doomed lives and now he's here trying out this one and again it is scary and new and well. he is trying to navigate thru it, even if not in the best ways. he takes takane totally for granted because of this. in the narrative she has always been his sidekick. she has been the second main character to him. she has always lived and served him in all timelines, in all the time theyve known each other that she can't remember and he can, takane has been ene and ene has always been his annoying lap dog he hates as much as he needs in order for the story to move forward. so takane also being her own person outside of him, moving on, finding love somewhere else and OUT LOUD tackling issues like hey we have a codependent dynamic going on we should work on, IS ALSO STRANGE AND HE DOESNT LIKE IT. he shuns it completely whenever takane brings it up, which she does a lot as time goes on. because time keeps going on. it keeps passing by. and everyone around him seems to be growing up and that's so infuriating and so terrifying and ayano dumping him is as much of a reality check as ayano asking him out in the first place, and he doesn't know what to do with it other than cry and thrive off the attention takane is giving him again
i think takane would try to do what she does and be silly as fuck to distract shintaro but this time also sorta mixed in with actual talking unlike how their dynamic used to be. not to repeat everything i just said but YEAH shintaro is taking her for granted, he already was but when he and ayano break up it sort of gets worse. the way takane isn't reacting how he expects her because she's... not playing a role, she is just a person. she is growing up and moving on and this serves as extremely horrifying as well so he. teehee. enter kano
kano enters the picture in between shinaya breakup and takane having enough. shintaro and takane still share this dynamic but shintaro keeps being forced to look at the reality of his situation and the way he's been self sabotaging all of these relationships and he haaaates it and i think while kano is dealing with all his own baggage he is SO mad at shintaro for his whole thing with ayano and kano is Very emotionally smart he just uses it for evil&malicious purposes and also he is so petty all his eq becomes constipated and destructive. but like he knows it. he knows he's hurting himself by approaching shintaro who he KNOWS he likes and he isn't even sure himself if he's approaching him because he likes him or because he hates him. kano has so many mixed feelings over shintaro especially in this scenario where a messy shinaya breakup takes place.
kano gets close to shintaro because he knows he's at his lowest. he tells himself it's to irritate him and to throw things on his face and just to be evil or just to watch him suffer from up close but shintaro's out here looking like a kicked puppy and kano is whipped So Bad he can't help IT!! but not even he knows with WHAT intention he approaches him with. and he hates himself for it bc auugghhhh ITS AYANOS EX FIRST AND FOREMOST AND HE HURT HER AND AYANO CAN DO NO WRONG NO MATTER WHAT SHE SAYS AND I HATE HIM but kano and ayano sharing their shit taste in guys is his demise. he likes shintaro dammit. so no matter WHY, he gets close and well they kiss a little.
from shintaro's side IVE SAID i dont think shintaro hates kano as popularly believed idk i think he's rather confused with him and even understands why he's so icky around him bc he's overprotective over ayano so like HE GETS IT. i think shintaro and kano get in this AUGGH SHUT UP IDIOT dynamic that goes both ways exactly here because shintaro isnt in a great headspace like always but now especially and kano is just a fucking asshole. so they hang out and its awful and also a relief to shintaro because it feels good to be finally held accountable. this is also how he feels when ayano breaks up with him, tho for her it's also mixed with so many other things like a reality check. that angry ayano is unfamiliar and strange and freaks him out. but when it was over it was a relief because it meant he was free of that relationship he didn't want to be in (entirely. of course ayano and shintaro love each other and get together because they wanted to, but sadly love is not enough sometimes) and he was also free of having to see sides of ayano he isn't comfortable with seeing yet
with kano that isn't a problem because he's always been a little shit so it's a win. also makes him feel responsible, also a win. but seeing shintaro be accepting of being at fault it makes kano so damn angry too like UGH WELL IT WASNT ENTIRELY UR FAULT!! AYANO ALSO DID THIS AND THAT like EXACTLY as ayano has been telling kano when kano kept antagonizing shintaro in their breakup, ayano keeps explaining her side of things and how she wasn't entirely innocent either. and kano doesn't wanna listen but still parrots all of it to shintaro when shintaro keeps having a pity party and shintaro's like wow. i never saw it like that... and kano's like WELL THATS WHAT ID SAY IF I DIDNT THINK ITS ALL UR FAULT. WHICH IT IS. U HURT MY SISTER WHO CAN DO NO WRONG I HATE YOU. I LITERALLY CANNOT STAND YOU and then they kiss. because theyre crazy.
anyways. also terrifying. 1. unfamiliar. 2. gay. so shintaro is losing his damn mind like the whole thing is his extended freak out about the narrative being over and living in the good ending basically lol. so at his wits end he IS INDEED going to takane. everything is falling apart and nothing makes sense and he can't feel grounded and he feels so sick all the time and THAT'S why he turns to takane. the one constant!!!
takane is the one constant. takane is who has always been there. and because he needs at least 1 more punch to be able to see clearly that's how he turns to her and "hits on her" as I've put it in the past LMAO i think that's very simplified but u asked specifically how he does this and man i wanna write it so bad in a fanfic like i keep saying but OK BASICALLY its not that he Hits On Her its rather that he's like talking to takane as if she hadn't made any progress like him . he's like what if we make ourselves a favor and u move back in my comp 💖and we live driving each other crazy forever 💖wouldnt that be crazy. and takanes like YES that WOULD be crazy. amd shintaro's like "RIGHT it would TOTALLY be crazy LOL!!! but erm. HEAR ME OUT" because he thinks she's still barely holding it together and assumes she's still obsessed with him which she isn't, i picture this happening one or two years after str so takane's like. living her best domestic harutaka life. she's FINE. and shintaro's talking to her like she isn't fine which has been pissing her off already from before but now its in one culminating moment. because it's ok to hold ur hand on the journey to heal but if u refuse to keep fucking walking listen eventually the person is just gonna let go of ur hand my man
he asks takane to live with him forever because of how terrifying the good ending is and in his stupid personal narrative she is also still struggling so win win!!! THE ROMANTIC ASPECT OF IT comes with ayano&kano being part of shintaro's love life and the 2 people who he's been driving himself crazy about and is using takane to distract himself. so he puts two and two together and is like well wouldn't it make sense?? as icky as it is??? to be with takane??? because he is stupid and i find this extremely comical. i dont know if he would actually fall in love with her i think it's rather that he convinces himself he is because it makes sense on paper to him. he probably writes down all these conjectures and nodding like well of course it makes sense. like all the people he knows are parts of a math problem or some shit LMAO
in this math haruka's (old) insecurities of takane choosing shintaro over him are included too. shintaro's mistake comes in the fact haruka&takane's relationship does not pass by him and he has a very simplistic and self centered view of it. in reality haruka isn't as insecure if at all by then, and takane has been trying to deattach from the dynamic with shintaro for a while now and instead is attempting to be regular friends. like haruka and takane are married mode by then, having grown as people and as a couple but shintaro is so stuck in time and in need to give everyone a role that works for him that he fails to acknowledge that detail which is WHY he can approach her so easily. he's like I've done the people math this Makes Sense and its Fine it will all work out in my favor. he's nervous and pathetic of course but he's delusional first and foremost. i think the "hits on her" is rather shintaro&takane having a very fucked up talk that escalates and takane gets angry very badly lol. I Will Write This.
erm. that's how it happens. i think as he talks to takane and it becomes clearer and clearer that she is NOT in the same page he begins to despair abt it because his carefully calculated social plan is finally falling apart. and with it being a 2x1 because it makes his friendship with haruka fall apart too who through it ALLL from ayano to takane to kano has been telling him SHINTARO YOU ARE SELF DESTRUCTIVE PLEASE BE CAREFUL. ive also gone over that in an ask but lol yeah💖😀
for what ayano thinks of it, ayano and shintaro are completely taking a break from each other during all this but i dont think she'd be angry. she's completely focusing on herself (in a good way unlike shintaro) and working on her own baggage so she's like aw. poor shintaro. haruka&takane are probably a bit annoyed at the reaction bc he's a dickhead but ayano probably puts it more in perspective. takanes like yeah but it doesnt mean i cant be angry. ayanos like yeah ur absolutely right im still furious with him😊 <- while looking like that. but ayano's an empath💗 so while she is angry and sees everyone is angry she's still like, despite it all they all love shintaro and hope he will take these things to finally better himself. it's very frustrating that shintaro only understands when he drives u to a point of screaming and crying and then u feel bad for him even though HES the one who drove u to that point. he will be ok he needs the company of someone who won't keep giving things to him and give nothing in return. he needs the company of someone who will do to him the same he does to everybody. that said kano has been hanging out with him A LOT.
kano is there for shintaro they both crash and explode together but somehow pick themselves and each other backup. like it's a whole thing💗 i think ayano is on top of everything she's like it will be UGLY. but it needs to be done💗
shintaro also gets a therapist😀 sorry if i have a delusional design and hcs for shintaro's therapist like she's an unnamed oc. whatever.
ayano is busy with herself to worry about shintaro's mess. she still does but not before she gives herself the time and space she needs. a talk between them after certain time has passed would be so interesting and do so much good to both. but heh. sorry did all that answer ur question
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nat-without-a-g · 2 months
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Hey guys hate to come back so soon to blab about more stuff that probably isn’t canon but it turns out I might have some ideas for who Scary’s dad is/what happened to him (these are two separate theories and one is more plausible than the other)— and this goes into actual spoilers territory for season 2 of DNDads
The throne, right? I know that Scary is probably able to sit on it because her power is Willy’s power and Willy gets his power from channeling it from the Doodler, so she already has that connection to Dood and has been strengthened up to handle it. This is just my theory as to how it works, though, because as far as I remember it’s never explained why the throne works on Scary.
Because it’s never explained, there’s a chance that the aforementioned assumption I had is dead wrong. Now, the number of times that Scary emphasizes talking about her birth dad does make me feel like it might be set-up for a punchline, like her dad is someone we know… and Normal’s family is able to commune with the Doodler on the throne because they have that innate connection to it.
So there is a chance, however small, that specifically Lark might be the dad of two different members of the cast.
I don’t have access to the patreon and i just joined the fandom like a week ago today so lmk if I sound batshit insane rn.
As a Lark enjoyer I do think that if this was somehow revealed to be true, it would officially make him the worst father of the cast. Scary did not deserve to feel abandoned by her dad and after all of lark’s talk of ‘preparing’ Normal he really just left her in the dust. Even if it was a situation of her forgetting him bc of code purple or something, it’s still really fucked up. Also Normal and Scary are around the same age, so he would have had to have had a partner around the time he slept with Rebecca which i think makes it so much worse—
Basically: this is an evil bad theory that would really recontextualize lark as a character and isn’t really funny enough for the cast to make canon… and yet it’s still possible as far as I know.
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epicslaymoment · 1 year
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never in a million years did i expect for my unrecognized childhood autistic traits to skyrocket by the time i reached my twenties. like i was expecting something to happen but not autistic burnout+. my traits and experiences have been increasingly getting harder to deal with since the end of middle school but still easy to mask in my late teens. looking back it's so obvious to spot the burnout, executive dysfunction, really diving deep into my special interests and making friends online, struggles with mental and physical health, agoraphobia, etc. though as you get older, the masking and stress really starts catching up with you til you can't hold it together anymore. it was bad enough in my teens but it's a whole nother level once ur an adult. making this post for the purpose of why i'm questioning and doubting my diagnosis yet i can recognize that these signs among all the others have been present since childhood and that i'm not making this up. i am autistic and i'm gonna have to start trusting myself and saying it w my whole chest. i've been neck-deep in burnout for 8-9 years and i've only just realized it. most of my friendships were not genuine and i just realized it. i see everything thru a different lens and it helps me to process things now that i'm able to remember things. all these specific moments in childhood friendships that have stuck out to me have been finally been explained. i keep learning and growing and it's so cool but so scary bc of the change as that also comes with lots of conflict. i can see why i did/do certain things and how things make me feel emotionally and physically when it comes to emotional processing. in school i was put into reading groups and tutorials but i was still looked over bc i didn't struggle nearly as much as the others. it's just like all my life i just felt so confused, behind, and so different and i'm still shocked no one ever said anything. but i was high masking and there wasn't as much info out then. but i still have felt very ignored and overlooked due to my masking, good grades, and quiet and sensitive personality. sometimes it really hits me that i'm actually autistic and i'm really unsure how to deal with that? i realize my struggles are still valid just because they're more prominent now and are noticeably impactful. my autism does significantly impact my life. i'm trying to get used to my new reality. things are good and bad at the same time. i don't think i will ever truly find balance but i am looking to see what works for me and how i can better accomodate myself in my life. whatever it takes i just am hoping for some peace, autonomy, healthy interpendence, fulfilled support needs and being able to advocate for myself/community.
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