#it's still stressful even this week

[hood-ex]

Trying to inject confrontational Dick in my veins so I can quit my job.

Outsiders #21

#it's funny bc like 5 minutes before i left for work this morning--i typed up a resignation letter #and then when i got to work i was like how the fuck do i even bring this up #so alas the resignation letter still sits in my bag #i don't even have another job lined up i'm literally just like fuck it i'll deliver pizzas at dominos if i have to #but why is the actual quitting part so harddd #it's like hey i know you're about to leave for work in 5 minutes but let me tell you some news that's going to stress you out for weeks

[puppyeared]

its so hard to watch time pass when things like careers and assignments exist. what do you mean im supposed to take that seriously

#I have an assignment that was due a week ago and I really really dont want to do it. I have to but i dont want to #im probably making it worse because my brain has built a wall around it so now i can’t do literally anything else until thats done. but #because I don’t want to do it I’m just kinda stuck. turns out this is what they meant when they said emotional regulation is part of #exec dysfunction.. I’ll have a thought like if I get a little bit of it done now i can get it over with. I can just submit something #and then not even 5 minutes later itll be like ugh but I have to draw all the assets out. I have to write things and make spreads ugh #and its just flopping between those two things. i hate it when ppl are like well how much time do you need to work on one thing #because BOY id love to know too. I’d love to know exactly when my brain wants to cooperate with me and work around that but I cant #even my period can’t decide when it wants to punch me in the stomach. which is kinda funny in the grand scheme of things but still #its so weird im just lying on my bed thinking abt all this like damn.. the time will pass anyways no matter what I decide to do.. damn…. #if I submit that assignment now and take the L I literally won’t die. it’ll just be a deduction on an assignment nobody will ask me about #I know this but I’m still stressing myself about it so my thoughts aren’t really connecting to my body. weird #maybe its because Im having a hard time looking forward to things. theres definitely a lot I should be living for but I don’t really feel #a strong attachment to it I guess? it’s been like this for a while with holidays and meeting with friends so I just don’t #I kinda figured its because im pretty passionless and its more like passing interest. but it’s not very fun when it feels like I’m going to #be living distraction to distraction for the next 70 years or so lol #idk it kind of feels like slowly bleeding out. which is funny because I actually did experience blood loss this week #had a 30 minute nosebleed and literally could not stand. also it felt like someone was pinching the back of my brain which was interesting #yapping #does this count as vent #vent #Ive just been making an oc carrd and contemplate changing my blog header for the past 3 days honestly

[floccinaucinihilipilificationa]

Are you still active on tumblr?

YES I am!! Sorry friends for dropping off the face of the earth, I got a job and I had to move and it was a lot. But I am less stressed now and I hope I can get back to posting more regularly!! I really missed it (ﾉ^ヮ^)ﾉ*:・ﾟ✧

I will never leave tumblr because there is no other place on the internet where I can tell people that 80% of the time when I try to introduce myself to someone in the office that I haven’t met yet I get so focused on smiling and holding eye contact that I forget the part where I actually have to introduce myself (°□°)

#HELLO FRIENDS #how are you!! I missed you! ᕕ( ᐛ )ᕗ #I hope you all had a good summer!! #mine was very nice even though there was a lot of stress and new things happening #suddenly there were so many adult things in my life that at the end of the day I just sat on the couch and watched decorating shows #I love decorating shows but today they showed this decorating competition and one woman had to decorate her whole bedroom coral #and then I knew it was time to go back #friends I've done so many new things the past few weeks!! I've really underestimated what this new chapter of my life would be like #it's very nice and I'm glad but I've never thought about things like insurance and taxes and parallel parking before #and I'm in a new apartment and everything!! ✧⁺⸜(●′▾‵●)⸝⁺✧ #it is a very good apartment but the landlord left us so many of their chairs #this does not sound like a problem but we also owned chairs before #so our chair number is doubled now #the kitchen is full of chairs the balcony is full of chairs #I've hidden two chairs behind the TV but I can still see their chair heads and then I feel bad because they do not deserve this #they should be roaming free #also rode a BIKE #they say you never forget how to ride a bike #but my secret is that I never really knew how to ride one #in Germany all students have to do a bicyle test in fourth grade and I was so bad that my teacher asked me #afterwards if I had tried to confuse the other students #I just said 'uh yes' and then he said ok and I passed with the worst bicyle grade of the whole school #I hade made 8 bicyle mistakes #I hope you're doing well friends!! see you soon!! #have a nice day :)

[squeakadeeks]

moodboard for this past week ❤️

#they should invent a grad school thats not fucking insane #i'm hanging in there but im the most unwell i've been in AWhile #this week was just horrible #there was already the freezer food incident but it also started off with a very severe pain episode thats putting me in constant woe #even mundane motion has been agonizing which is McAwesome bc we had a lab inspection which involved moving hundreds of pounds of equipment #during which we found a blackwidow and rats which we had to deal with and was a whole thing psychologically on top of the physical toll #the new class fiasco is still popping off and i had to respond to at this point over 400 emails in the fleeting moments outside of lab #AND A STUDENT TRIED TO FINANCIALLY BRIBE THEIR WAY INTO THE CLASS ? ?? ?? ????? #then the instructor wanted to use me as a guinea pig and i had to test new circuit boards but I wasnt given any time to do so properly #i had to test them plus get them operational and deal with my incoming students all in a frantic 10 minute window #im in charge of running our meetings too but the instructor was interrupting and having side conversations that made it really hard- #to train the other people on the new equipment in a smooth manner #which meant that a bunch of people had to keep me after to ask questions which made me late for my drs appointment #where i found out i cant get the new covid vaccine bc my heart and blood levels arnt stable enough #and joanns lost an expensive+critical fabric order of mine+i had to give a big presentation this week on my research that was stressful #and my inbox is still blowing up from being needed all over the place between teaching lab and classes and yall i am. so so tired. #im in so much pain and so stressed out #debating the ethics of turning into a pile of lint to escape my responsibilities and mortal frame

[l0ganberry]

I play Pony Town every now and then but today I decided to get creative.

I made Barnaby and Howdy!

I'm pretty proud of myself for these two since they're both my favorite. (For..... many reasons.)

There were even a few people I met in a server where there was more WH fans. Everyone is really really nice!

I mainly interacted with other people as Barnaby.

And then roleplayed as Howdy.

#Today was a really nice day #I've been art blocked lately so this is how I'm spending my time until then #school has been pretty stressful for these past few weeks but I think I'm slowly getting a hang of it. #let's see i guess. #I still need to find more fans though. #Especially another Barnaby. #I do plan on making all of the characters though #Since I only did Howdy and Barnaby #I haven't even seen a Poppy or Julie yet. #Anyways #pony town #rambles #welcome home #cute #howdy pillar #barnaby b beagle

[flamboyant-king]

Hey babes, sorry I've been dead, but I coulda been literally dead if I had not gone.

I didn't hurt myself and we're still figuring things out. I would love to share but I've already forgotten what I've learned. I hope I get more guidance and time for healing and learning on how to lead my life in a better direction than where I was. But that takes time and effort.

I hope to get some rest, get some support, and get it together. But right now, I don't think it's healthy for me to worry about art in the way I do now. I may not express it here, but trying to maintain my art endeavors/projects while there's so much bullshit going on backstage is not helping me. Especially since I'm not even obligated to do so. But trying to force myself to do something I am currently unable to do will just make me feel worse. I'll follow my dreams and passions one day, but I've been putting off the healing process for years.

So I guess it's better to get better now so I can get the ball rolling again. Why drive on a flat tire?

#i was in there for a week and ill continue partial hospitalization for a few weeks #i hope i learn more and i hope i get specific help to my issues. because whay i learned there didnt directly pertain to me #but having structured daily life felt nice. but it wasnt all relaxing because there were still responisibilites on the outside world #tapping on the window or calling me on the phone. chose the best time for a meltdown. i have taxes and credit card bills to take care of #but if i stress about it now ill jsut be going back to the ER and thats no good. the hospital was so cold dude im glad im home with blankets #this is mr octopus again. im glad i broguh hom to work. i went straight to er from work and if i had no plushie with me #i probably would have stayed longer or be even more mentally unstable and distressed. its good to have comfort items #i dont think i want to know ehat if be like without some kind of companion or grounding item with me. i dont want to imagine me without em #its okay to have a little friend with you. i would be so distraught. everyone loved me there #the nurses the patients the residents yhe social workers the students #mr. octopus made them happy because of his big smile and mine too. the people there did not expect the mass amoutns of stress and depression #in this bubbly happy baby witb a happy pink octopus. one of the patients thought it was the meds the happy pills they gave me #no im jsut naturally like this. or artificially like this. i still dont know how to express or understand my feelings #if what im showing is real or not because i know ill be the happiest in the room wherever i go. maybe its a front or a mask #but when im like that kinda hard to know whats really underneath. they always ask me if im okay but i turn to myself #and its nondescript like ive put a blanket over how i really feel. its weird. the bubbly energy is blinding. #words #mr octopus #mental health #doodles

[dndads-winter-gift-exchange]

Assignments Update!

Hey Doodlers! Exciting news- we're nearly finished with assignments!

After a lot of hard work on our end and patience from you, we're finally nearing the end of assignments. Which is so exciting!! We'll 100% be finished by the end of the day today, and will be sending them out tomorrow, January 5th, since it's getting pretty late for us and we want to be alert to make sure sending goes smoothly.

Thank you all for your kindness in dealing with the delays, we deeply appreciate it. We'll post when assignments start sending, and then post again when they're all sent out. We hope you're all as stoked as we are- go Doodlers!

#updates #info #important #i know we keep saying it over and over but we really and truly are excited for this to start. we know it's taking a bit longer #but hope that it turns out to be worth it to you all!! #(sammy here) my exhibit is bleeding a little more into things than i thought it would and it's 100% on me for not making more wiggle room #but at the same time there's not much that could have been done anyway. so yeah! #the current biggest problem is people maybe getting anxious over having less time and this event becoming stressful for them. which #is the last thing we want because this event is ALWAYS meant to be just. fun. #so we'll probably be making a poll soon asking if people would like us to push back our gifting week dates and by how much #so yeah! just to keep you all in the loop. i know not everyone reads tags but i figure a small heads up is probably nice #since i don't have the time to make a big post rn. basically things are coming and i swear we're doing all we can for this event #even if there have been delays. we're still very passionate. thank you and bye bye

[undertheredhood]

au where after some time being the red hood, jason realizes he wants to retire from being an anti-hero/vigilante and just live a normal life (or as normal as one can have when you’re the adopted son of batman).

but because he’s jason (an over-dramatic theatre nerd) he doesn’t go about retiring in a normal way. no, what he decides is the best way to leave vigilantism is to fake the red hood’s death, and what better way would it be if it happened during a confrontation with the joker (the joker obviously dies in this au, btw)?

after all, he chose the name to draw the joker out, wouldn’t it be kinda poetic if it ended with the joker as well? but of course like a dumbass, he doesn’t tell a soul what he’s planning, and when his plan goes exactly as he intended, his friends and family all think he’s dead.

jason shows up at the batcave a couple hours after his death in a t-shirt that says ‘i lived bitch!’ or something similar sipping on boba, and he’s wondering why everyone is looking at him like he’s a ghost (he forgot he didn’t tell anyone what he was planning on doing (jason might be insanely smart but sometimes he acts like a complete dumbass and i love that for him)).

(this was actually inspired by an angsty fanfic i read where jason actually did die after he faked being captured and killed the joker in an explosion (it can be found under the tag dead jason todd) or you can read it here!)

#batman #red hood #jason todd #jason peter todd #jason wayne #jason peter wayne #jason todd wayne #jason peter todd wayne #jason was never the angry robin #what he is tho is an over-dramatic nerd #jason todd is on a one-man mission to stress everyone out #bruce was hysterically sobbing when he thought jason was dead again #nobody lets jason leave the manor unaccompanied for the next six months #batfamily #bruce is happy at least one of his kids is leaving the family business #even though jason didn’t go about in the greatest way #ding dong! the clown is dead! #gotham throws a city-wide festival that lasts for two weeks when news of the joker’s death breaks out #jason todd is canonically a nerd and i will stand on this hill forever #despite leaving vigilantism for hood jason will still find ways to stress bruce out #jason becomes the favourite child by default because he’s living a normal life #jason goes to college and becomes a social worker in this au #which is a respectable profession that no one in the family will clown him for #despite being an adult jason gets grounded for a month for the stunt #imo if jason had lived he would’ve quit being a hero the moment he graduated from high school #jason todd is a menace #jason todd is an agent of chaos #in this au jason had been legally alive for almost a year before he put his plan into motion #jason todd ​shenanigans

[icewindandboringhorror]

a quite simple outfit, trying to use the little blue and white apron thing (which is actually a dress I think, that I just leave un-buttoned in the back and added an apron-like tie to lol)

#self #mori kei #jfashion #NOT really but like.. it's.. adjacent I guess.. forgive me .. I may try using tags again though I kind of got out of the habit ghhj #I need to be... Seen to some degree. I want to start selling clothes and sculptures again to recoup the costs of having to euthanize my cat #and stuff . but that won't be very successful if I have like.. 15 people to sell to lol... #the eternal Hermit Conflict where you hate attention and Being Percieved in general yet in todays capitalist society it is nearly #a necessity to have some form of social network or media presence especially in creative fields. etc. etc. ... kicking screaming wailing #sobbing so on and so forth.. tearfully punching the cold mossy stone walls of my evil wizard tower... #I was also thinking of maybe opening a few sculpture commission slots and maybe Tumblr Blazing that post or something #but.. again.... sobbing crying interacting with the general public oughhf ouuch -500 HP #why can't I just be approached by some wealthy 65 year old woman who is nonsensically infatuated with my art for no #reason and gives me like $10.000 a week for food and art supplies and etc. and I can go fuck off into a cabin in the middle of nowhere #in the uk and just be left alone to work on my projects without even needing to build any form of connections or social presence because I' #already set for life and can just get funding and connections whenever lol.. WHICH not to be ungrateful like obviously I still appreciate #anyone who follows and interacts with my posts. I dont mean it in a 'grrr fuck all of you imbeciles I wish I could delete my blog!!!' or #whatever hhjkjk.. I just mean it more in a like.. I am very socially inept and my mental illness gives me severe social issues so any situ #tion where I'm expected to self promote or network or interact with others generally is nightmarish and stressful for many many reasons #and if I could somehow skip that part and just go straight to being a famous author or somethin.. that would be cool. Which I know EVERYONE #hates networking and stuff but I mean like.. on a level most people could not possibly comprehend.. I am not just an 'introvert'. I am like #doctors declare me incapable of functioning in general society very poor mental health prognosis probably should have a caretaker at #some point type Hermit lol.. ANYWAY ghbhj... alas.. I also feel weird about the sculptures in terms of what to charge for them #and always have which is part of why I stopped selling them. If I charged a fair even like $15 an hour many of them would be like #close to $150+. and nobody is going to pay that for a decoration. that doesn't even factor in like.. supplies or time spent communicating/s #etching the concept (if a commission) etc. etc. I thought it'd be better to just auction them then and let people pay what they want inst #d of a set price but etsy doesnt allow auctions and is it weird to just.. link people to an Art Ebay or something lol.. #AAAANYWAY.. the outfit.. I still love these shoes. they're nice and a little Older Style looking. always into pastel florals too lol #(everything is thrifted as usual. excited about the shirt because it's so puffy! it was in the halloween section though ghjhj.. like when i #s october and they make the special aisle in goodwill for 'Costume' clothes even though theyre all just normal stuff I would wear ghg)

[swinging-stars-from-satellites]

please pray for me I feel like I'm falling apart

#somewhat surprisingly I mean physically #I have this one sensitive spot on my gums that off and on bothers me sometimes that's flaring up #and a swollen gland or smth in my neck -- again something that's happened before is probably caused by stress and always #goes away in a day or two #and I have been chugging water but I still feel dehydrated #amongst other things #I know it's probably stress from being in charge of a whole house and farm by myself for two weeks #(my usual gig is two dogs and two horses for four days at a time #) #allll of my issues can probably be explained by the stress of being Locationally Isolated but it's stressing me out #even MORE #like. help #anyway. #prayer request #Lu rambles

[kozidraws]

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#gonna ramble about irl here so people don't have to read it unless they want to #so because I got covid and couldn’t leave my bed I've essentially lost my job #I've told my manager I'm okay to go back to work #even if my body is still sore #but she's only given me a 3 hour shift a week #and you guessed it! #it's the late shift #the one where it takes me almost 2 hours to get home from #she's being so petty with me #and I am so behind in rent #I've applied for government assistance and I have a meeting with them tomorrow #I really hope they can help because I feel awful #I'm also annoyed at myself because I can't find my knee brace ANYWHERE #I thought I could find one for around $10 but nope! #the closest stores selling them are like $25+ so that's fun #I don't know when I'll be able to draw again #I'm so stressed again about money and secueing work #hopefully once I can get govt assistance at least I can enjoy life again #also I tried to ask the zine that still owes me money if they could finally send payment but they still keep delaying it with excuses #I'm so desperate it's shameful

[crescentfool]

with the year coming to a close, i hope that anyone who's reflecting about how the year went remembers to be kind and fair to themselves with how you evaluate the year as a whole.

i think there are definitely times when life throws things that are... Not So Great at you. whether if it's some external circumstance that surprised you, or maybe your mentality wasn't at it's best. i wish for anyone who's encountered those kinds of challenges to be able to triumph over them and be able to say that they got through it.

heck, it might still be a work in progress even though you've kept chipping away at it, and that's ok! the results will show themselves eventually as you work through it! and i hope that we can all remember to be patient with ourselves as we go through these processes (learning, healing, etc.), because damn, it can be frustrating when you feel like you're "not there yet."

knowing that life can be rough at times, i think it's unfair to yourself (and others) to discount and downplay any progress you've made this year- whether if it's something that you did for the first time, or maybe you came to a new understanding and insight that you didn't have in the previous year.

it's not to say that you should undermine the validity of your experience with hardship, but to take the time to remind yourself what makes life worth living. to recall what moments were the most satisfying to you- and use it to strengthen your resolve for the next year and beyond. no amount of hardship will ever take away from the fact that you deserve to have hope that things will get better.

i hope that looking back on the year, you don't leave out the things you cherish. that you can remember the good that came this year. whether if the small victories are things like meeting someone new, trying something out for the first time, or making some strides in a long-term project/obligation...!

i wish everyone a happy new year! may it be prosperous, and that your life can move in a direction that's close to what you want out of life. you're all going to do great! remember to congratulate yourself for what you did well! despite everything, you're still here, and that's wonderful. never forget that!

#lizzy speaks #hello everyone. i know that there are *checks calendar* still 20 days left of december and 2023 #but i've had a lot of strong emotions and feelings i've had to sort through as i've been thinking about how 2023 went for me #so a lot of what i've written here comes from the perspective of someone in their early 20s #it's like... a crash and burn from when you were a teenager thinking that you know everything #and realizing how big the world is and how many responsibilities there are #all while a feeling of overwhelm looms over as you try to sift your way through the world and adjust your understanding of it #for me i've definitely had an underlying thought that 'you should have your shit together by now why aren't you there yet' #and it's! not motivating! at all! to think that way. and it's made me more than ever want to be a friend to myself. to extend a patient- #kind voice to myself that reminds me that others are also trying to navigate these feelings and to accept that i'm not going to have an- #instantaneous understanding of how one goes about adulthood. and neither will they. even if they look 'put together.' #like... these people have also undergone similar stresses and along the way figured out how to navigate through that space #and personally i've found peace in knowing that there are people who are older than me. trusting that they've dealt with these things too i #some shape or form and that them living... being here.. is proof that we shall be fine in the end and that we will move past what plagues- #our mind. there's definitely been some... anger i've had this year that. school didnt teach me these things or skills!! i was so mad lol #but hey if we are little guys who are living on planet earth for the first time we shouldn't condemn ourselves to an unrealistic standard- #of going through life and being able to instantly do everything 'correctly' and know how everything works #i'm still working on improving that patience... and also trying to put in the work to understand these things. #in the midst of a very tough week for me i was tempted to say that 'nothing happened this year it was not productive' #but then i was like. that's. objectively not true if you just look at other things. also theres worth in life outside of 'productivity' #...i think i passed 20 tags at this point. but like. my favorite thing about 2023 was meeting so many cool awesome people! #who would've known that funny lil squid game could bring so many connections and friendships i cherish! #thank you so much! for being a part of my life and changing me for the better! for giving me many fond memories! #and i'm very grateful to anyone who supported me and my art this year... for sticking around even though i wished i could do more #it means the world to me knowing that there's proof that i exist and have touched someone's life in a positive way! thank you! truly! #ANYWAY. happy early new year. i hope everyone can nourish a friend in their head that extends acceptance and patience to themselves #as we try and make sense of the world together. there will be things that we don't understand yet! but one day we will! and it'll be like #wow! look how far i came! i'm okay! i'm alive! yipee! thank you for reading this post i made to get my feelings out! have a nice day!

[nudibutch]

i was finally able to have the house to myself for a bit today... brought all my dirty dishes out of my room and was able to tidy up a little bit without feeling weird

#by tidy up i mean put my dirty clothes into a hamper and my clean clothes onto the floor so i can reclaim my bed #i dont know why i feel so stressed taking dirty dishes out of my room with other ppl around #im self conscious. i think because my mom would get mad if she saw me doing it #and that leads to bad eating (not being able to eat) etc. #i took rlly poor care of myself this week.... but it felt like it just didnt slow down #i was barely able to feed myself cause there was just no time for grocery shopping #and i STILL need to grade tomorrow #bc thr fucking. kids. are so stupid. using chatgpt and making my head hurt #i cant wait to grocery shop tomorrow #i might try and get up early for it so theres no one around but we'll see #me saying 'i cant wait to grocery shop' u know its bad when i HATE grocery shopping #but this evening was wonderful... after a field trip day that was good for me (got sun on my face) i came home and washed my hair #and got cozy and played stardew valley and balatro #i'll do laundry tomorrow... grade... grocery shop... try and just relax #anyway ur still here. gives u a thanks 4 reading sticker

[no-light-left-on]

hi I am still not normal about how we never get much of an epilogue for Emily and Corvo in the second game we are told how the rule turned out and that Emily is the beloved empress now but nothing beyond that and I get that the entire game is very much built on that I get that the first game we have close relationship with Emily and become fond of the staff that work with the Loyalists so we feel alone because we do not quite see eye to eye with our allies and all we have left is this little innocent child that sees Corvo as someone who can do no wrong in this world which is strongly contrasted with the second game where Emily (or Corvo) has few trusted allies that they can actually rely on and it feels like a group of almost-friends working to dismantle the conspiracy but at the very end of it all Emily is all alone, even her return to the Tower is so much more grim, her taking down Delilah, the entirety of Dunwall- it all feels so incredibly and thoroughly isolating, she is all Alone now, and maybe that's why it bothers me so much to see the story end so abrupty.

it would've been so, so poetic if both the first and the second game ended with Corvo and Emily embracing

#li.txt #dh #sorry Im not okay about this I just #ahhh idk I cant quite explain it #but playing as Emily feels so much more lonely than corvo in the first game #she talks about saving corvo so much and we dont even get a hug #one thing that keeps coming to mind is silent hill 3 where heather goes through So So Much after her father is murdered #and when the final boss is beat she drops to her knees and breaks down #and I think Emily deserves a similar epilogue #the final release of all the stress and fear and anger #her freeing corvo and suddenly it clicks delilah is gone and her witches are gone and all the sigils drawn over the tower begin to fade #and it all hits her at once and she finally gets to cry it all out #because shes okay and meagan is okay and sokolov is okay and her father is okay and karnaca is okay #except they are not. because they all nearly died so many times and her father was trapped in stone and she had to see so much #she had to fight and survive all while unsure if it will lead to anything #all while she was worried for the people she loves because if she fails it means the few people she still has left will be gone too #she had to watch her mother die a second time and then hear the voice of her vengeful aunt for weeks taunting and mocking #(and she was her only family at the time and they could have been a family too. but that is too much to consider now) #i dunno. i just think she deserved a bit more there. just that one last hug from corvo before the game ends

[skidar]

Going to claw my own face off. The stupid unemployment office has been dragging me along for nearly 2 months. They do not respond to my many emails, they do not answer calls, leaving me on a phone tree with two irrelevant options to choose from and no human to talk to.

They're now trying to tell me I don't qualify for my weekly benefits (of which I still have not received ANYTHING since Feb 8th) from the last 2 weeks due to my freelance work. Which is shaky stability at best. I'm so stressed out.

UE services are a whopping joke. they can't even give me a guarantee that I'll be paid benefits for the weeks I could NOT claim because of THEIR site error. LET ALONE if I'll get paid at all.

My last two classes were good, luckily, but its all gone to rent. I still have supplies to restock -.-

I thought I could count on my unemployment benefits to at least lift the strain on living expenses but now I may get nothing at all cause I had a good commission week here or there. And yes I am TRYING to make art fulltime (mostly cause I CANNOT get any call backs for even shit tier jobs) but its hard with reach being what is is now. Just feel like the rug has been pulled from under me.

I'm trying to be a successful freelancer, I'm trying to run a good painting business but I am one person and losing steam with every new hurdle.

#I'm trying to not be stressed about this but I'm angry I even have to fight this hard for the pittance they offered me in the beginning. #I don't want to fight for a $300 check but that means I gotta try and earn that much more in comms every week #which feels freaking impossible right now #I'm just stressed #still applying for jobs and I'm lucky if I hear back with a rejection or notice that the position has been filled #Mostly I hear back nothing #not even a notice that the application has been received.

[little-pondhead]

DC Prompt:

Modern-day Batfam member (take your pick) gets swapped with their alternative self from The Adventures of Batman (1968) or one of the earlier comics. Everyone has to deal with the modern!Bat in the cartoon world, and the cartoon!Bat has to deal with the modern world.

———

Cartoon!Robin: Gee, Batman! We’re in a real pickle here! *proceeds to body a man with a comically large hammer*

Modern!Batman: I’m sure I can work with this. Damian, don’t stab your brother, you’re the older one now.

———

Modern!Nightwing: Old man, I love you, but sometimes violence is the answer. *proceeds to commit several war crimes that haven’t been invented yet*

Cartoon!Batman: what the f u c k

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It’s important to note I know absolutely nothing about this particular show or the earlier comics, I just thought it’d be really funny to see cartoon!Dick or someone else use cartoon logic on modern-day Gotham rogues.

#pondhead blurbs #dc #batman #robin #batman and robin #cartoon!Robin runs on cartoon logic and Tim is tearing his hair out trying to figure out the physics behind it #cartoon!batman is having a mental breakdown because now he knows his little boy is somehow even MORE violent #and just as cheery #Alfred come pick him up he’s scared #cartoon!batman is very stressed about how many kids his alternate self has #cartoon!Robin is delighted to find out how many siblings he now has #he’s still Damian’s favorite somehow #modern!Nightwing solves every cold case in GCPD’s archives within a week and demands Bruce takes a break