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#it's the gay catholic guilt
jerseymuppet · 1 year
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gerard way never stood a chance hoeboy was born and raised in suburban north jersey which is objectively the worst part of the whole state and then he witnessed 9/11 before his brain was finished fully developing like no shit the guy kins joan of arc a second plane has hit the repressed catholic
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sphooney · 1 month
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i have to draw pepper sometimes because she is so me i love her
more toxic yuri on ur feed sighhhhhhh deal with it
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hecksupremechips · 8 months
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Ah but okay real talk as someone who’s been through the whole “being gay while having severe trauma from a religious upbringing” experience, the good omens season 2 ending is so fucking accurate to the emotional turmoil you go through when discovering your sexuality while simultaneously not wanting to go to hell
Like throughout the whole show, and specifically its highlighted many times in this season, Aziraphale is trying so hard to believe that God is inherently good and that straying from that path is inherently bad and unforgivable. Cuz that’s the shit you’re taught when raised catholic! And him constantly trying to prove that Crowley belongs in heaven instead of hell is his way of trying to save Crowley from damnation, and by extension, himself
So when Aziraphale gets the offer to earn his place back in heaven with Crowley by his side, of course he takes it. It means that they can both convert and finally be together without consequence! And fuck, that just rings so true to me because I just remember when I was younger the way I was so scared of turning away from god, and even though id try to convince myself that maybe being gay isn’t a sin, it didn’t help. So I pretty much thought that I could find a loophole where I could theoretically be gay, but I’d have to be an extremely devout Catholic in order to cancel it out and guarantee my spot in heaven. Just in case being gay was a sin. And that’s essentially what is happening here, Aziraphale found a loophole where he can be with Crowley AND saved from damnation, all he has to do is pledge loyalty to heaven and get Crowley to do the same
But Crowley knows better. He knows that it won’t work like that. Even if they can be together now without damnation, it won’t be worth it because this ideology is toxic. He’s traumatized and fed up with this way of thinking that guarantees you’ll be saved as long as you don’t ask questions. He’s heartbroken that Aziraphale WOULD want that for them when it’s caused both of them nothing but misery. He’s hurt that someone he loves thinks he has to do this so they can be together, given how much Crowley emphasizes that he wants nothing to do with it. It’s frustrating as hell to not be listened to, to have someone not understand that you’re significantly happier when you don’t have to constantly repress your identity to please some god who is, quite frankly, a complete asshole
And the part where they kiss and Crowley makes it quite clear that his stance won’t change, that he actually WANTS damnation if it means they can be together, and Aziraphale says “I forgive you”? OOF that hits so hard
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victorvanovocnydort · 2 months
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toilettransgenderism · 7 months
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The BEST LINE in the whole of good omens season two (this is definitely an exaggeration because I can't remember the whole script and there were some absolute BANGERS, "we've been talking for billions of years" UGH and "was that a travel sweet" and "but it's pretty" OH MY LORD "she had balls" I'M IN LOVE) is when Crowley says to Aziraphale "if Gabriel and Beelzebub can do it, go off together, then we can."
There's so so much to say. The fact he specifies "go off together". This isn't really a love confession. He's asking Aziraphale to reject heaven. Begging him. They have loved each other for millennia. He doesn't seem to think that an angel and a demon can't be IN LOVE, he just thinks that they can't GO OFF TOGETHER. LEAVE HEAVEN AND HELL BEHIND. BUT GABRIEL AND BEELZEBUB HAVE SHOWN HIM THAT THEY CAN. And he seems to think, or know, that Aziraphale loves him too.
I think this is the line I related to most. It's an experience all queer people will know, feeling empowered by seeing others like ourselves. Realising that we are not broken or alone in loving who we do, or being who we are.
But it's an analogy. (Idk if analogy is the right word I'm tired)
Crowley and Aziraphale don't have to worry about being gay, because in their world it simply isn't a problem. And I think that's why so many queer people are drawn to Good Omens, not because there are two men in love, or because David Tennant is fit (although I guess this also factors in) but because of the absolute denial of the idea that queerness is inherently wrong.
Anyway, um. Crowley KNOWS Aziraphale loves him. He's not confessing, he's asking if they can "be an us", and leave heaven and hell behind. But, despite everything he has seen, Aziraphale still believes heaven is good. Or at least believes he can make it good. (Which is another INCREDIBLE parallel with the real life problems of christianity in particular catholicism and the culture of brainwashing and guilt that comes with it. Thanks Neil. Genuinely. You broke everyone's heart but you're making me discover things about myself.)
The confession is almost forcing Crowley and Aziraphale to love each other like humans do, with the potential for loss. It forces them to love in preparation for them leaving heaven and hell behind. I think that's why it's so difficult for Crowley to speak to Aziraphale, because their love has gone unspoken, and Crowley already thought they were an "us". Only now is he discovering that his Angel still believes in heaven. Aziraphale isn't naive. He is in denial and filled with guilt, you can SEE THAT IN EVERYTHING HE DOES.
Anyway yeah!!! No one will read this but I needed to get it out of my system. If it makes no sense that's fine it made sense to me for at least 5 minutes.
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macaulaytwins · 11 months
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cruelseraph-art · 1 year
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girlbloggercrowley · 8 months
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reading the bible. so that my fix-it fic can be better
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lonelypew · 3 months
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cw - talk of religion + queerness
i’m not sure if anyone will see this but i rlly just need to vent for a minute and rather than keep it private id love for someone going thru this to connect with it/engage.
i’m a catholic. and im queer. and im not going to sugar coat it, i am struggling.
i’m young, and a girl who likes girls.
a girl who loves girls.
i’ve spent countless hours praying and crying in confession.
i’m lucky enough to have other queer catholics in my community but i simply cannot escape myself.
my priest is an old man, someone who says i’m confused. and i am. i cannot reject His words.
more than anything i wish to deny myself as so many saints before me. refuse to give into temptation and sin and to put Him above all.
but the hardest part for me is that this sin is soft.
this sin is cozy and warm and gentle and kind,
this sin is flowers, and freshly fallen snow, and a love that i’ve never experienced but dream about every waking moment.
this sin is idealized and safe and to deny it now, though for the greater good, is painful in ways i cannot describe. it feels like bits of my heart are breaking that never even fit in the first place.
my God is my everything, and the mere thought of denying Him or straying from His path is not an option.
my God is good and all knowing and i know He knows my pain. i hold nothing against Him.
i am plagued by a sin, a beauty unattainable. not an apple on a tree, but the very person to bite it.
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foolishpsychopomp · 1 month
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so sad that there are my lady of mercy haters in the world. could never be me </3
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theoryofwhatnow · 3 months
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nigel colbie and alex forbes are homophobic despite being raging faggots.
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azspicegirlstimeline · 9 months
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7/10/00 - geri performs at world pride roma, a gay pride event in rome, italy that was protested by the vatican. in her performance, halliwell dances with a preist as a middle finger to the catholic church.
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quemaiglesias · 3 months
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Padre nuestro, que estas en los cielos...
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astrangerlately · 2 years
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theinfinitedivides · 5 months
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still here sitting on this but. the first shot he fired for Ki Cheol was on instinct. his body follows his heart. the last shot he fired for Ki Cheol was on instinct. his body follows his heart. the barrel of the gun is still smoking. he cannot move. his body follows his heart.
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