#it's the reason i havent been as present recently!

[anonbeadraws]

The great thing about working on a graphic novel for Legendary Comics: Its a cool story that i love working on and it's gay and spooky and the writer memes with me The lame thing about working on a graphic novel for Legendary Comics: I CANT SHARE ALL THE GOOFY BAD SCRIBBLE THUMBNAILS WITH MY FRIENDS CAUSE OF NDA RULES

#this is how im telling yall that im doing a big fancy comic thing #via whining #it's the reason i havent been as present recently! #im gonna do my best to continue commissions at a decent pace #but im also determined not to burn out! #also hey i love you alll!!!

[freckliedan]

omfg so im reading your linguistics paper rn and im at the part where you talk about how its taboo to post abt the vday vid or dailybooths etc. but i feel like the chains have loosened over the years so to speak? cuz like, on twitter people have just. posted full dailybooth screenshots, or reference the 2009 phan song all the time which itself refs vday. and im wondering if thats like, because the community had gotten smaller after the dapg hiatus that ppl were more lax about it, or if it felt like dnp were more lax about it, or if these are all younger fans who werent aware of this etiquette at all but since so many younger fans have been joining like post coming out they just dont see it as taboo at all? some self-policing does still occur, specifically w ppl reposting dans nakedbooths, but its def not the case of YOU HAVE TO BE COMPLETELY SILENT ABOUT THIS anymore. i havent even finished reading yet but im enthralled

OOH thank you for the question i have so many thoughts on this actually. (context)

i think there's multiple reasons why the taboo on discussing the vday vid & other deleted social media things has grown lesser? under the cut bc i got wordy.

partially i'd chalk it up to the change in phandom demographics. like, there's a way lower proportion of us now who were around for the direct aftermath of the first major leak in 2012, or who even were a part of the phandom when a majority of folks had been present for that. things were so bad and painful then & in the era directly afterwards! people still learn about that but the knowledge of how bad things got is always going to be different from the lived experience.

so that's reason one: i think that within the fandom the strongest emotional reaction to the existence of the vday video & deleted social media posts will always exist in ppl who were around in 2011-2013 & similarly deeply ingrained in folks who joined right after that in 2014-15. and i think there's still a lot of us but there's also just like.. so many less of us now, too. the vast majority of my mutuals from 5 years ago have abandoned or deleted their blogs.

i do think another part of why things have gotten less taboo is bc it's no longer something that has the potential to out dan and phil/how directly they've acknowledged the social media posts (& to a lesser degree the vday vid)?

like. dan literally used screenshots that he almost certainly got from the phan directory in basically i'm gay. they acknowledged that the manchester eye meant something to them in giving the people what they want/witl (watched them at the same time, can't remember which had that in it). i know they knew how people would react to them mentioning iconic teen dalien moments in the big wheel in the sims.

there's also the fact that like... angry phil DMs/copyright strikes are a thing of the past? i'm not going to tell people where to find the vday video but it's stupidly easy to locate on more mainstream platforms at this point in time. shit, that brings me to another point: fans who joined more recently weren't around for the era where blogs were getting taken down for what they were posting. another reason it's more chill now.

like, the openness of the secret is like, something that makes seeking out the taboo less of a thrill?

but on the other hand! learning in detail abt the vday vid and old social media posts is something i think people find less necessary now? that used to be the most concrete like... phan proof. proof they were queer. and now that they're explicitly gay and openly together to the degree that they are it's like. the value of the information has lessened.

to go in a different direction. i definitely wouldn't call it a formalized etiquitte that the youngun's just don't know, especially when it comes to the social media posts—they've always circulated and even 5 years ago when i wrote that paper they were more openly talked about even tho the vday video wasn't (though again: 5 years ago was still wayyyyy more lax than 2013/14).

ultimately there's always just been so much clout tied up to knowing about the vday video & social media posts? so even though being too blatant has always been a taboo transgressing that norm with skill has also always been a phandom value.

i'm not going to get too far into the ways that dan and phil's fandom literacy and the fan response of archiving everything play into things bc i think i covered that well in my paper but yeah!

i don't have a good conclusion but: less % of the fandom being present for the aftermath of dnp being outed by the leak + greater aknowledgement of these subjects by dnp + less value for the information in the vday vid & deleted social media posts = more casual attitude towards vday vid & social media posts and a healthier phandom overall

#jam replies #jam thoughts #linguistics essay

[byjovewhataspend]

Are you willing to share crumbs about your Oc, GameShark? They just seem so interesting and I love the design for them!

oh sure!! ive been drawing him a few month and his design changed quickly, be warned

this was his initial sheet, when i was still drawing him more humanoid.

His quirk-- Tech Control

As long as hes touched something electrical in the last WEEK he can control it from a distance of about 2 blocks, but can sense where it is from much further.

The rules about what the specifics of 'control' is is pretty loosey goosey, but picture 'changing a radio station' or 'making a car turn around and drive to you when you try to flee the scene'. He can also touch an electric lock and make it open, or make your phone unlock and call him on speakerphone.

He picked his name because as a middle schooler he was just tearing UP the game arcades. It was just for fun but he got in trouble with a local hero that scolded him and told him to use his quirk for heroics instead.

Present Mic was still fairly new to the hero circuit and for whatever reason, Game Shark adored him! Present Mic had recently begun to teach at UA but Game Shark couldnt get in, sadly. He ended up in Seiai Academy instead, which is a little more lenient when it comes to non-combat focused quirks.

when he graduated he approached Present Mics agency already knowing how to run most everything radio related and offered himself as an all-around personal-assistant/sidekick/radio technician. Present Mic really didnt NEED him, so he he doesnt make anything easy on him

Hes a hard worker and really good at his job! he has proved his use and Present Mic adores him now, but he still causes trouble for fun.

Though he occasionally goes out with him on patrols or for larger-scale infiltrations, the sidekick aspect of Game Sharks job is MOSTLY to work from the base and communicate to him through an earpiece. A trick they have set up is for present mic to place an item that Game Shark controls and allow a villain to escape a densely populated area, then using his senses to direct Present Mic to them. This is also the most common reason Game Shark is called in to help other agencies without Mics inclusion.

Aesthetically, he wears those ear cuffs to protect from Present Mics voice, and is usually wearing red goggles or sunglasses to help with his own light sensitivity.

Finally: Present Mic fully believes he could be his own hero and is expecting him to quit sometime soon to start his own agency and is waiting for that moment, but he doesnt realize that Game Shark is actually considering quitting hero work entirely. Big Plotline i havent decided if i want to write or draw.

#game shark #present mic #oc #mha #bnha #my art #not so much crumbs as like 30% of everything XD #i love my oc what can i say??

[olderthannetfic]

I hope you dont mins me asking

But how would you suggest the best way to not be so anxious in fandoms these days.

It just seems like im going to be bullied out of fandom for even wanting to be in fandom. Regardless of the kind of content i like or how i like it. Its just seems like people who are in fandom dont want to themselves and not really about older or newer fans not wanting more new fans... Just.. They dont want fandom to exist at all anymore. If thta makes sense

Ive been in fandom for years but only recently bacame an adukt and now i really wanna start getting more involved.. I recently started a series oneshot fic thats gonna take alot of time.. But i havent even posted an actual chaoter yet and i am so afraid of gettijg a bunch of shit for it.

Its not meant to be anything explicit infact i made it very sfw bexause thats what i wanted.

But what of someone decides hey fuck you this sucks and now im going to make up reasons that your fic is (ableist, racist, homophobic stuff like that). And i just... I want to write.

Years ago i was in a much older fandom(transformers g1 if you can believe it) and it was so nice there. Maybe its because i was young but theres wasnt nearly so much anti bullshit that there is now especially in newer fandoms.

I know theres like block and ignore and delete comments but... I dont want to deal with it. And i probably know there isnt realky anytjing i can actually do about it

Its just so bad. I want to participate in fandom, but fandom is so terrible these days. Ive seen so many of my favorite artists fucking dissapear over being bullied for something they said years ago thats now considered "worthy of being tortured alive" for saying.

I just want it all to stop. I thought fandom would get better as it became more popular. Artists would have more freedom and stuff.

Instead im afraid im going to get bullied for a fucking teen rated gen fic with zero shipping, zero dark theme, and zero sex on the off chance someone thinks its not good enough. Suddenly its not appropriate for teenagers for some dumb reason

When i fucking was one two years ago. (like mate i was reading robot porn at ELEVEN)

Im so tired. I think the only good thing about the fandom im in is the fact the creators of the media are actually super chill and even supportive about fans selling fanworks and comms of characters and stuff

This was supoosed to be a simple question but ig im just so sick of how fandom is that i ended up ranting about it.

--

Getting more popular makes things much worse, not better.

But overall, anxiety is about you and your internal emotional state.

There was always danger of being attacked. It looks different now, but fear isn't more or less justified in the present day. The actual level of danger isn't the issue here.

[berry-hwa]

As per my suggestion...!!

heres the promised mermaid au fic!!! I might not ever finish it because theres a lot of worldbuilding and writing stuff that i dont have time for😔i havent looked over this in a while and it isnt beta read either so ignore any mistakes!! All that aside now, pls enjoy!!

Well, here I am.

Looking up, her expression hardly wavered at the luxurious and magnificent hotel she stood in front of.

Here it is. Tres Spades.

Her glance shifted low to the dark blue dress she wore specifically for the famous I.V.C held at the hotel. Her pearl necklace reflected the huge amount of light from both the inside and outside and her silk, white gloves held onto a matching white clutch. She wasn't gonna look like anyone present at the party, but she was fine with that. The party wasn't what was on her mind anyway, it didn't matter if she stood out or not.

All she had to do was get to the penthouse.

Walking through crowds and crowds of people, her white heels clicked with every step she took on the recently cleaned floor. As she reached the room the I.V.C was held at, she was suddenly startled by someone talking behind her.

"Woah! I've never seen you around here. Is this your first time attending the I.V.C perhaps?"

She spun around to find two men looking at her, their eyes not leaving hers. She recognized one of the two almost instantly.

"Oh! Why yes, this is my first time here. I was looking for Mr. Ichinomiya? He was supposed to escort me to the party." She flashed a radiant smile, hoping to catch the two off-guard. As she stared at them, she realized the identity of the second man who strangely wore a fedora hat.

"Oh! We're his accomplices, and I haven't heard anything about you from Mr. Ichinomiya...would you give us your name?" The blonde smiled, crossing his arms and waiting for an answer. Her heart slowly began beating faster as she thought of a made-up name.

"Misaki. My name is Misaki." She extended her hand out for a handshake, which the brunette took and gave the back of it a gentle kiss. Her heartbeat slowly went back to normal and her smile slightly fell.

"A beautiful name for a beautiful lady. My name is Mitsunari Baba, but you can call me Micchy or Mitsu for short. And you probably already know who my friend is." Baba glanced back and forth between the blonde and the woman.

"Of course, Kisaki Ota. I'd be ashamed if I didn't know who you were." She bowed and internally cringed, her patience slowly running low. She wasn't here to chat up some men...but, if they managed to get her up to the penthouse, at least the lying would be worth it.

"You flatter me Miss Misaki! Now, what was that about Mr. Ichinomiya escorting you to the I.V.C?"

"Ah, right. We talked over the phone weeks prior to the I.V.C, but he must have forgotten. He's a busy man after all, and so am I." Lying in situations as such was her specialty, but for some reason she felt as if she was being read easily. Can they tell?

"Boss is a very busy man. If you'd like, we could escort you around the I.V.C ourselves?" Baba gave her a handsome smile that would swoon women in her place, but she was barely phased. It wasn't her job to begin flirting with a thief.

She tried to shake off the unusual feeling she felt when she realized Ota's smile had also fallen a bit as he stared at her. Not at her, but her necklace specifically. The only explanation that sat right with her was that he'd been looking at it from an artist's point of view. She didn't know if he realized the necklace was made out of real pearls, however.

"I would appreciate it very much, Mitsunari." She smiled again for the sake of being polite.

From nearly getting lost in the sea of people to stumbling upon a mysterious looking hallway and being sold at a black market auction held in the basement of the hotel, she was only a few steps away from her goal. It didn't matter who bought her, she would escape them either way. Her eyes were set on finding one man and that man only. Her surprise when she heard she was sold to seat #100 came as a shock even to her. She fell right into the hands of the man she had her eyes on.

The cage she sat in had been carried all the way up to the penthouse, her heart racing as she realized how close she was to her target. Even if they didn't speak and wore masks, she knew exactly who the two men that carried her up there were as well.

And when she was brought in, she found herself face to face with him. Eisuke Ichinomiya.

"Who are you?"

"Boss, this is the lady that we-"

"If you let me out of this cage, I will tell you exactly who I am and what I'm doing here."

She stared at the five men who stared back at her. Her smile from earlier was replaced with a fierce gaze at Eisuke, who was staring at her cautiously.

"And how do we know you don't have any ulterior motives?" A strong looking man stood up which she quickly identified as Soryu, Eisuke's childhood friend and a mobster.

"If your security is good at checking whether or not people have weapons on them, then you don't have to be afraid Mr. Oh." She held her chin high and smiled internally at his slightly bewildered face.

"...You know who we are?" Eisuke spoke, eyebrows narrowing as he stared at her through his eyelashes. She could sense he was conflicted and a little confused.

"I know you all. And we'd be able to talk like normal people if you let me out of this cage," She crossed her arms, gaze not faltering as she stared back at Eisuke, "But we probably already know the phrase "normal people" doesn't suit you at all, right Ichinomiya?"

She saw his eyebrow twitch. As she guessed earlier, Baba and Ota took their masks off, their gazes switching back and forth between the woman and Eisuke.

"Is your definition of a succesful individual 'abnormal'?" Eisuke crossed his arms and took a sip of his wine, placing it on the table in front of him afterwards.

"I think we both know what I mean here." Her gaze went to the wine glass in front of him. Lowering her open palm, she aimed it directly at the glass before knocking it over, the wine spilling on Eisuke's leg.

All the men's eyes widened and Eisuke swiftly stood up, panic evident on his features.

"Eisuke, go!" Soryu suddenly yelled at him. Realizing he had to move as fast as he could, he dashed towards the staircase with a curse, managing to make it up before anyone could see anything.

When they made sure he was out of sight, everyone shot a glare at the woman. Only Ota seemed to stand still, still comprehending what had just happened.

"What the hell was that?" Soryu approached the cage, gun in hand now. The woman only grinned as the realization that she'd indeed found the man she was looking for began setting in.

"I think you know exactly what it was." Her fingers tapped at the golden cage as the mobster stared her down. She felt confident knowing she wouldn't be killed in that moment after what she did. They needed answers and she was aware of that. There was also no way they'd let her go unless they heard the full story, unless they didn't let her go at all. She was bought by them after all.

"I...don't get it. How did you knock over that glass?" Baba stared, still a little stunned. She rolled her eyes and glanced at the thief who was looking at her for an answer.

"I'm pretty sure you know that as well." Before looking away, she caught a glimpse of Ota looking almost...solemn, as he stared off into the distance.

"Come on now, you can't all play dumb. I'm here for one reason and one reason only."

"And that is?"

"Eisuke."

Soryu stared at her once more with a stern look on his face. Was he gonna let her out? She made it clear she'd explain everything if she was out of the cage...but how could he trust her like that? Especially when he didn't even know her name?

"Open the cage Mitsunari." A deep voice from the back spoke, the woman recognizing it as Mamoru's. At least he's not entirely stupid, as much as he is lazy.

Baba hesitantly reached into his pocket to take out a key, Soryu stepping away to make space. Opening the cage, the woman stepped out, arms crossed over one another. The men continued to stare at her for a moment before they heard footsteps coming from the staircase.

Her eyes immediately locked with Eisuke's as she looked up. He looked both furious and confused as he walked down each step.

"I'm gonna ask this one last time. Who are you and what are you doing here?" Making his way towards her, he stood in-between Baba and Soryu, eyes staring daggers into the woman. He only recieved a grin in return.

"I heard a siren call from miles away, and it lead me here in your hotel."

The CEO stared in pure confusion. He almost wanted to laugh at how ridiculous she sounded. A siren call. Is she for real?

Sure, it might not have sounded...that ridiculous, given the situation he was suddenly thrust into in less than twenty seconds. His eyes traveled to her neck adorned by the pearl necklace. He could feel his throat going dry even as he swallowed.

Those are real pearls.

And, sure, seeing real pearls hung on a string as an accessory wasn't the most unusual thing Eisuke had seen. But the way this woman was dressed bewildered him.

He estimated the cost of both her dress and heels were most probably around 200 dollars. Her gloves were made of silk, therefore they had to have been a little expensive. The pearls were what threw him off. A single, real white pearl was already expensive, but her necklace consisted of at least thirty pearls that varied in colors and shapes. He even recognized one of the rarest blue pearls hung onto the string, and he could feel the nervousness bubbling to the surface the more he stared.

"You've...gotta be kidding right?" The thief asked, gaze shifting to Eisuke who tried so hard to keep his expression as neutral as possible. Both him and Soryu were begining to catch onto the situation.

"I'm very serious. I came here specifically to talk to Eisuke, on behalf of my people."

"Your...people?" Puzzled, Soryu raised an eyebrow at her, his eyes now also shifting to look at Eisuke.

"I know what you are Eisuke. And we need your help." The woman's tone slowly morphed into one of pleading, as did her expression. Eisuke stared for what seemed like hours before sighing and turning his back to her.

"You have five minutes to explain."

"Five?!"

"Yes, only five."

She stared at his back as he walked over to the couch and sat down, Soryu and Baba following. She was glad she got the opportunity to talk...but five minutes? Really?!

"Alright I...just, do you mind bringing a glass of water?" Her gaze went to the artist who seemed to think about her question a little longer than he had to before nervously answering.

"Sure..." He put on a smile and strode over to the kitchen in the penthouse. Taking a deep breath before exhaling, her gaze returned to Eisuke who now sat on the couch, waiting for his explanation.

"First of all, I'd like to apologize for barging in all of a sudden and spilling wine on you. You were probably all confused and angry, especially you, Ichinomiya." Her heels clicked as she walked over to the four men, Eisuke's eyebrows forming into a frown as he recalled what happened.

"Apologize another time, get to your story." He swiftly crossed his legs and rest his chin in his palm as he waited for her to begin, as if he were a teacher about to listen to a student's excuse for a missed assignment.

By the time she stopped staring Eisuke down, Ota had come back with a glass of water as she'd asked. Funny how she has barely been here for five minutes and is ordering people around as if she owns the penthouse.

Thanking the artist, she set the glass down on the coffee table and waited for Ota to grab a seat, only for him to stand next to the couch Baba, Soryu and Eisuke sat on.

"As I said...I know what you are, Eisuke. Even if you might not know exactly what you are, we desperately need your help." She began, voice brave despite her slowly plummetting spirit.

"Who is this "we" you've been throwing around?" Baba exclaimed before getting interrupted by the woman.

"I'll get there. Let me explain."

"You fell into a pool when you were young in London...right?" She raised an eyebrow and looked at Eisuke for his reaction. He definitely didn't disappoint. His eyes went wide and he was now listening to her more cautiously, the nervous feeling on the verge of overflowing.

"You became a mermaid. Or...a merman. Otherwise known as a siren." She explained like she was some lunatic, but Eisuke knew better than to assume that when she was right. Except he had no idea what she meant by the siren part of it.

"How do you know any of this. Only my manager and some acquaintances are aware of what happened. How did you manage to find out what happened a decade ago?"

"That's not important. What is important is that I'm a real mermaid born at sea, and my people have and I have been threatened by the human race for years," She looked down, remembering the last moments with her family before they were taken from her, "They sacrificed themselves so I would stay alive and get help."

"It took you this long to find me?" Eisuke interrupted, his thoughts now racing. Had she been stalking him? Did she somehow bribe someone to tell her about him? What kind of help did she need exactly?

"I've known about you ever since you fell into that pool. You see, I'm from Britain myself, and all of us have known about you ever since that day." She explained briefly, not leaving any room for questions as she continued quickly afterwards.

"You're the first merman to have ever fallen in the pool in that cave in nearly sixty years. It just so happened that you became a siren on the day the last merman transformed 43 years before you did." She briefly caught a glimpse at Ota looking down at the floor as if he was holding something back. Did he wanna ask a question?

She decided to ignore it, passing it as just him being lost in his thoughts.

"This is...too much information," Eisuke rubbed his temple, her words barely registering. He was finally used to being this weird form of a human after so long, and suddenly there's so much information shoved into him it's almost too overwhelming.

"You think? You gave me five minutes to explain, I'm using that time wisely." She may have been aware of the conflicted situation he was in at that moment as he slowly took in what she was saying. Still though, she figured she might as well drop the bomb as quickly as she could, even if it confused Eisuke at first.

"We've been looking for a siren for years now due to our problems with the human race. And that just so happened to be you..."

Her frightless demeanor began to wear off, quickly replaced by someone in genuine need of help. Eisuke stared at her, her words still registering. So he was a siren. Was it good that he finally knew his identity after so many years? He certainly didn't feel any better knowing, that's for sure. What if she was lying?

"Can you prove to me in any way that you're telling the truth?"

The woman stared at him. Of course, Eisuke Ichinomiya of all people would never believe some girl suddenly showing up at his penthouse, telling him he was a damn siren and that there were real mer-people living in the sea with no proof. The whole story seemed like a sick joke. Even if she knew things many others hadn't known, even if she held information that Eisuke had never revealed publicly...he had to know.

"If you'll allow me to," She raised her open palm once more and focused her energy on the glass of water in front of her. Soon enough, they saw what looked like a bubble rise out of the glass. Eisuke knew she wasn't lying the moment he saw the "bubble" rise higher and higher, but still wanted to see what she would do. As the water reached her head, her hand suddenly dropped to her side, as did the bubble. The CEO's eyes widened as it splashed over her head and he was already begining to count down the seconds it took for her to transform. No sooner than that did Baba get up and rushed over to her, holding her up by her arms as her legs disappeared and were replaced by a sparkling blue tail.

"Is that enough proof for you, Ichinomiya?"

#voltage inc #love 365: find your story #love 365 #kbtbb #kissed by the baddest bidder #kbtbb soryu #kbtbb eisuke #kbtbb baba #kbtbb ota #kbtbb mamoru #eisuke ichinomiya #soryu oh #baba mitsunari #ota kisaki #mamoru kishi #sooo how are yall doingggg....its been a little whileee.... #i hope whoever read this enjoyed it!! enjoyed having u around here soldier #and now i will disappear for another few months. goodbai #kbtbb fanfic

[gammagoop]

my recent fixation has been the wings of fire book series since ive been rereading it, which i feel is not very related to any of my other interests and so i havent posted much about it. but i literally have “post whatever i want” in my bio so i’m not going to let the whims of an audience stop me any longer

all that to say heres some of my series opinions in the form of tierlists

(not including 3rd arc bc i havent gotten there on my reread and i dont remember it very well)

character tierlist! (added the legends: darkstalker characters manually since they weren’t in the tiermaker version)

notes:

mightyclaws is my background character fave. category 10 glup shitto event

i need to do a long post on how much i love whiteout. another day

i realy like clay in the first book and if he retained the same level of depth throughout the series he would be in the top tier-- its just that his writing makes him so shallow in the rest of the books it makes me so sad :[ i was listening (audiobook) to hidden kingdom and like. 90% of his lines/actions were about food and the other 10% were about protecting the other dragonets..... i related so much to his anxiety in the first book and his empathy and his ability to see both sides of things... gah. sad.

jambu is also one of my glup shittos. i love his whimsical ass

foeslayer is a hard one for me because she never did anything wrong she's just..... not as present as i wish she was. she's treated as a very vital character with how many large plot points hinge on her, but she doesnt have much agency herself. its stated a lot that she's extremely important to darkstalker but in the legends book we dont see much of them interacting? idk. i like her but she always feels so uninvolved

the 'beat you to death (funny)' tier is just for characters who i like on some level but are also pathetic and worms. out of that tier i like deathbringer the best and mastermind the worst

tier after that are for characters who i have a positive opinion on but not really a strong one. anemone and sora are more complicated, but i do generally like them. i really just feel bad for them if anything. i think i like clearsight more than the other characters in this tier, but she's not in the 'wonderful :D' tier because i dont think she has a very strong personality

the 'conflicting feelings' tier is kind of a trainwreck because it means a lot of things

obviously riptide is the outlier since he hasnt done anything nearly to the degrees of coral, glacier, and albatross-- but i do have conflicting feelings on him. riptide is completely inoffensive, hasn't done anything wrong, i just dont like him because he has no real reason to be in the story. like you could write him out very easily. his only purpose is to be a love interest for tsunami which is like...... gh. dude. she doesnt need one. if she's gonna have a romance it should come naturally. not "wow this seawing is handsome and also he's the first one ive properly met as well as a guy do im in love with him now" like girl do better

coral and glacier both have done bad things and obviously have bad intentions but also.... theyre not the worst. bad but not the worst.

albatross is a victim of emotional abuse and even though that doesnt justify his actions it does explain how they could have been negated

next 3 tiers are self-explanatory. i forgot to put her on there but queen vigilance goes in 'the grime beneath my shoe'

actually no i wanna talk about scarlet and battlewinner: i think the thing that i like about them is their theatrics. they bot have such a huge presence, like a disney villain. whenever i read scarlet dialogue it almost feels poorly written with how over-the-top she is but. no other character talks like that. its just how scarlet is. and i think thats so good. whereas battlewinner's situation conceptually is just cool as hell. i love how she struggles to speak because of the ice in her throat, her rage, the way she's hinted at but her reveal is completely unexpected...... very very good

no one likes morrowseer

when im in an emotional abuse and classism competition and my opponent is queen lagoon 😧

ship tierlist! (made on ms paint since i couldnt find any good ones on tiermaker. turned out to be nice since i can mess with the placement more)

notes:

top tier is /j i just dont really like how tui writes romance

i was kind of against glorybringer at first for the same reason i dont like tsunami/riptide but honestly it grew on me. their dynamic is so fun

anemome/tamarin is good i just think tamarin could do better if she wanted to. but i understand the "i can fix her" mentality and i do genuinely think tamarin could help anemone

sunny/fatespeaker is kind of a funny concept but also i can totally see it

i genuinely forgot turtlejou was a thing in canon ... it does not make sense to me. who came up with this. in the words of my friend "forced heterosexual on both parts tbh"

i love turtle and peril as friends so so so much if i saw someone romantically shipping them i feel like i could get mad

smolder/thorn is like if glorybringer was bad. mostly just because thorn can do way better than him. smolder and vermilion should kiss each other and bond over being wimp princes who havent actually done anything wrong themselves but bow to tyrant relatives to avoid getting killed

i dont know if this will be an unpopular take but clay and peril is such an awful ship. i like them as friends, i think theyre great as friends, but a romantic relationship between them would be so deeply unhealthy considering their situation. peril would be even more dependent and attached to him than she already is, and clay is not the kind of dragon who has an easy time saying 'no' to things. it would not be a malicious relationship in any way, but it would not be good for them. peril needs to learn how to live for herself, not for the approval of anyone else

okay thats all for today friends. thank you if you read all of my mismatched thoughts if you did ^_^ i love talking

#wings of fire #long post #wof #masontalking

[mulbruk]

newest flavor of "rotate my ocs around in my thinksponge" as of late is as follows (unoriginal concept do not steal (if you think it is good enough to steal please give me some of the money you make after stealing it (don't take the characters though they are so important to me and i love them (anyone in this thread sm-))))

so it's a game because of course it is. it presents itself as a dating sim and it starts out with you-the-player being rescued by the merry band of bounty hunters following unknown circumstances. you meet the captain and commander who let you know what's going on and tell you that they're ferrying you to your home planet. they then leave you to free-roam the ship and occupy yourself because they're busy bees and can't just sit and babysit you for the multiple-day trip back to your home. you get a little tutorial-thingy walking you through meeting your first crew member (haven't decided who yet but will probably be a "pick one" from a flexible list of three or so) and showing you a little UI of their likes/dislikes, quick facts, and other stuff that changes as you learn more about them and build up a relationship with them. you can still mosey about the ship and encounter other crew members and they might even help you learn some useful info for later, but it's pretty obvious that everyone besides the intro-date-people are locked out for now. your day culminates with you asking your chosen person on a date and it's pretty usual "pick the right dialog option" fare that goes very smoothly and is very hard to fumble, if even possible. day ends with a victory. you get a list of the viable crew members on the ship as a part of an updated menu, and there's a little heart w/ annotations next to the one you've successfully dated. also, the number 2.

when the next day should be rolling around, it's instead the same scenario as before from the beginning. you're prompted by the same tutorial-text-thingy to "date everyone on the ship to win!" and go through a pretty-much-the-same version of last time, except 1. you cannot date someone you've had a successful date with before, 2. you may unlock more dialog options based on knowledge from prior runs (within reason), and 3. more crew members are available for you to meet/try to date. specifically, ezra*, our beloved character whose main deal is remembering details that have been rewritten, is no longer busy doing maintenance in an inaccessible area, but is instead pretty consistently on the move doing maintenance in other, different inaccessible areas. day continues and you go on a second date - this time, if you flub the date (since that's now an option), you're given a prompt that either lets you restart from the beginning of the date or restart from the beginning of the day. on a successful date, the crew list menu updates accordingly, and the number ticker goes up by one.

(* the protagonist of the core series that this game would be a supplementary offshoot/irrelevant sidestory to. everyone say hello to her if you havent yet. she will be here often. one day i will figure out how she looks.)

"day" 3 follows the same pattern as the prior one (i'm gonna start calling these "runs" because they're not really days). you start each run with the same crew list as it stands and the same "date everyone on the ship to win!" instruction. options still change based on what you know, but it becomes clear by the fourth or fifth run that all of the changes to events are caused directly by ezra - ex. you might be introduced to a character at the start of a run because they were told by ezra that x-y-z thing was happening in the area and then whoopsie who's this stranger and oh-of-course i can show you around, blah blah. things culminate when you're on track to dating a crew member that's been locked until recently - kirra and/or hopscotch for sure, maybe someone else - an interaction happens that messes with your UI. you no longer see the cutesy date information, but rather things like species, roles on the ship, threat levels, and bounties for turning in or eliminating them. (kirra would probably recognize the tech in your eyes as some sort of scanner overlay and "accidentally" get rid of the filter that makes it look lovey-dovey. hopscotch would probably short-circuit it because she has her dumb little electro-glove and keeps zapping things lmao.)

haven't figured out the connective tissue from there (since i wanna tailor it to who you've been dating up until now) but ezra confronts you about much of what's been going on - you have an uncanny knowledge of things a stranger would have no right to know, you're successfully digging up the deep dark secrets of people that you meet literally the same day, you're getting dates from people that are not even interested in dating. she doesn't think you're up to anything good and is more than ready to kill you to protect everyone. when you're threatened and put in a position where you'd want to be fighting/bailing/begging for your life, all of your dialog options instead read "date everyone on the ship to win!" and you kinda just have to get killed! yippee! this actually ends the run despite not being a successful date (unless you're like cowboy beboy and you want someone who will just take you to the butterfly farm), but the counter does not increase.

next wakeup starts differently. you get the "date everyone on the ship to win!" and menu, but there's now split-vision where you can see a quick rundown (probably a kinda mean one) that's got ship roles/bounty info/weaknesses/other stuff like that. you wake up cornered by ezra and a bunch of other crew members all armed and ready, and they start interrogating you about who you are/what you're doing here/all that. you can't give any useful info because all the dialog options that would give those things away are all replaced with "date everyone on the ship to win!" (probably bleeding out of the text boxes themselves and running past the screen border for the flavor of it all). captain kills you with his funny little gun. run counter does not increase.

next wakeup: same split-menu, but before the "date everyone on the ship to win!" prompt, you get a different one. "you are being used. let's see if you're a pawn or a puppet." it's the same scenario as usual without ezra's meddling, but this time your UI displays both the dating shit and the spy shit. after the intro conversation with captain and commander (they do not remember anything about the last wakeup, nor can you pick any dialog options that reference anything besides usual relationship-buildy-attempty-things), you get another prompt telling you to go to ezra's room (which you have no business knowing how to get into, but the text tells you how) and get a specific item (which you'd have no business knowing what it is/where it's hidden - same soup). if you successfully do so, ezra enters the room and lets you know that the second set of instructions sent to you wasn't from the same source, but was from a friend of the crew. you're still on the same run as the one where she first confronted you, and that only she and you have any memory of previous attempts. she tells you that in your previous wakeup, the crew poked at your corpse and did some McScience on your corpse: your little UI thing is a surveillance augment that got put into you in a pretty sloppy way that didn't take your wellbeing into account. the conclusion she comes to is that you're just doing whatever you're told regardless of source, and someone took advantage of that at your detriment in an attempt to gain intel on the crew.

from there she breaks down what they know - you're being tasked with learning the crew's vulnerabilities by an external source, and you are entirely disposable to them. you aren't allowed to do any actions that are detrimental to your mission, including admitting there's something wrong/asking for help/bailing from life-threatening situations/so on. whatever is causing reality to do This Thing** is on loop to continue until the job is done, or until its power supply runs out in a frankly unreasonable number of reality-torsion-units (which would be unfathomably tiring for both ezra and yourself). since you've already gained actual knowledge about some of the other crew members, it's not enough to just stuff you up with phony info - the whole thang needs to be shut down. from here, you're set on the "puppet" path, and your goal is to use your remaining crew member "dates"/info sessions to learn a program killcode disguised as vital data. this has to be done carefully as you're not in control of what info your recorder-thingy deems important - it won't take obvious bait, and there's still the risk of accidentally learning the "correct" info. you're also at the mercy of your dialog options and are incapable of actions that directly sabotage your mission (asking about your past/how you got here, asking for help, revealing info about your mission or your augment, escaping from a "date," self-terminating to avoid accomplishing a task).

(** explicitly not a time loop because it has nothing to do with the concept of time. this would require a separate post from me. don't worry about it. trust me.)

if you decided not to follow the new set of instructions (going to ezra's room after captain kills you), you lock yourself into the "pawn" end path where you have to prevent ezra from sabotaging you while gaining more info on the crew's vulnerabilities (dating not necessarily required). your reward for succeeding is that the spy program transfers all its data to whoever-put-that-thang-in-you, you're killed by the crew shortly after rescue (bc ezra told them what was going on), and you don't have another wakeup or run because you've accomplished what you were sent there to do.

the "puppet" end is the good end, culminating in the counter-sabotaged info being sent and immediately bricking. you regain your free will and memories, recalling how you were abducted and had some inhibiting tech plopped into you, and then left as bait for the crew to find. you're understandably freaking out about all of this, but you're ensured that you're in safe hands and that the crew is going to get you home. the crew keeps you company - notably, they're more in-character and no longer under the influence of whatever realityfuckery was making them susceptible to oversharing - and you eventually manage to fall asleep despite all your worries. you wake up the following day and it's actually legitimately the following day, confirming that the loop is broken. ezra bonds with you over reality-torsion-fuckery for a little bit, apologizes for killing you that one time, and lets you know of the unfortunate side effects of having been through one of these. <meta: haven't solidified the name but tentatively i'm calling it a coil. would take another post to explain. don't worry about it.> she tells you that it's pretty fuckin bad going through a coil and being the only one who knows, but it's at least an opportunity for you to do the right thing, and she lets you know that you're not alone even if the people around you can't understand precisely what you're dealing with. you're eventually dropped back off at your home, and the crew leaves you with a communicator-thingy for emergencies (or if you ever need work done. or feel like helping out around the ship).

thend

#pango schlopprae

[cosmicdream222]

im literally kicking myself in the foot for not doing something more worthwhile with my existance... i never knew of manifesting until recent years and while society likes to say its never too late sometimes it feels like that is it too late cause to learn any skill you have to have already learnt the techniques then have good practice abilities on top of it, like you cant just waltz into a sport for instance and take a gold medal you have to do it step by step but to do that again im fucking regretting so much rn cant i just bash my head into a wall and slowly die? or music for instance cant just pick an instrument and be good at it right off the bat again shouldve just fucking picked something and stuck with it

also i never had the likes of tiktok or anything internet for entertainment when i was a kid so in a way it shouldve been perfect chance to really do smth but as always situations got in the way and im regretting existing a lot rn. like why so many ppl so good at their niches or whatever it is they choose to do and theres so much more available now than there was back then but i cant seem to pick a single damned thing that i could realistically do at my age and still feel accomplished bc id just end up feeling behind or regretting not doing it sooner

sorry for ranting abt myself there just if only there was time machine or a literal realistic way of shifting to another damned reality cause this aint it like why im wasting so much of it doing fck all? it should be shameful honestly but like at the same time its kind of impossible with current economy being so crappy

for instance if u want to own a business (which i would do if i could even afford one with my own money but then u got to ha e the job and the know how on running it) seriously my ancestors had so many more things that were successful in their lives and some did have businesses bc shops were affordable back then, education used to be affordable too and housing etc etc. id be more inclinced to then have a family of my own if that were the case but it is not soooooooooooooo then its like even if you want a bog standard job it can still take months just to get something basic. i once did manage to manifest a free bus ride and my teacher not coming to college for a few days but thats abt it. other than that lifes kinda average sadly its not the 1950s and elvis is still dead asf.............. not fair

the other thing that puzzles me and sorry for making this so long but if we are supposed to have had past lives a) why havent we known about it before now and b) how come some celebs dont reincarnate or do the celebs that pass away just get a free pass to heaven and decide to stay put? (in which case i wont blame them but its also not fair that i have to still exist... or fail to exist i should say)

My dude, I understand where you’re coming from and I have been where you are. But you say you wish there was a way to travel back in time or shift realities - there IS a way to shift realities, travel back in time, and live whatever kind of life you want. Seriously. That is the whole reason I created this blog!! So please read through all the information I’ve collected instead of just complaining ok? 😭

All of that stuff you mentioned about your current reality is an illusion. Time is an illusion. It does not matter what you’ve done in the past. The economy does not matter. Your present circumstances do not matter. Past lives only exist if you believe they do.

Look around tumblr at void, loa and shifting success stories. I have shared many of my favorites. People in very difficult circumstances have regularly completely change their lives overnight, wake up in new houses, shift to alternate realities, change their genders, change their ages, bring people back from the dead, to say the very least.

None of it matters because we live in the literal matrix - a VR simulation - and you can have anything you want NOW.

[beautiful-boy-bracket]

yellow & lime :] ?

yellow: most annoying part of running the tourney

okay SO strap in

for one, having to SCHEDULE polls, then WAIT for them to go up, then WAIT for them to be over, its the kind of. repetitiveness i think. and lack of patience.

for two, and this one is all /lh, people i voted for losing. what do you MEAN (in most recent example) Sesshomaru lost, he was one of the characters that actually filled the primary reason i was doing this (finding gender presentation envy). i am extra upset when it feels like that was actually on popularity (even though, lets be fair, theres no way to actually know) - like no! why are you voting for the character you should be voting for the character design!

for three. there havent been any of these people as of late. but i was losing a year off my lifespan every time i got another "um isnt it WEEEIRD to include MINORS in this".

but hey, youve given me a positive question too, lets end on that note

lime: who are you rooting for?

in the major bracket, im primarily rooting for Howl, but i will also be happy if Klavier wins

in the minor bracket, i was rooting for Xiao Yin, but then he lost in round 1 and i am still inconsolable (/lh) because even though i have no clue who he is he is the only guy who was so pretty that the note i left on him was in all caps. as of now, i am rooting for Argalia - he is closest to my personal taste out of the semifinalists

[selective-yellow]

this isn't really a big deal but I kinda can't stop thinking about it. I'm more bitter than anything

my little sister recently reached the year mark since she got her cancer diagnosis and in a month it'll be a year since the lump was successfully removed. her birthday is next month and we have a lot to celebrate!

late last year she went through about a month or so of chemo before stopping due to negative side effects (she is still undergoing other treatments, just not chemo). around this time my work went from "Maaaaybe yall can come in 3 times a week" to "minimum four days in the office no exception!!! *unless approved by HR" I immediately spoke with HR and told him everything, that I wanted the exception bc I did not want to risk my sister. Considering this was during the holidays (meaning lots of people would be traveling) and I was already the only one masking in the office while almost ALL of our covid safety measures had been laxed or out right removed, it felt even more urgent to me to just stay away. Not to mention my wife had some health issues at the time as well, so i had a few reasons to WFH. He understood and told me he would meet with my managers and see if they would approve it.

The funny thing though, I never actually got the exception. That was the last I spoke of it to anyone (no one at my work, save HR and one coworker who had shared with me her story of her chemo journey, knew about what was happening and to this day i still havent told anyone; I'm one of those people who will immediately burst into tears when I'm asked Are You Okay? and at the end of the day i just didnt want the attention) and since neither of my 3 office leaders reached out to me about my situation, I sort of had no choice but to assume they either didn't know/HR hadn't gotten around to them, or they DID know & my exception wasn't approved anyway. So I kept coming in and for months I just masked and stopped attending pretty much any work event. If it involved being together, I passed. I did what I could to just minimize contact as much as I could. occasionally i just said fuck it and stayed home whenever I just wanted to but for the most part I was still coming in, feeling bitter and alienated.

I guess I could have pushed and pushed them, but at that time I was pretty mentally beat down and didn't have the energy to argue what I thought at the time was a "sorry but no." besides, like I said, she ended up doing less chemo than we thought she would

eventually as time passed the urgency decreased bc she was better. Her health improved and we reached a point where we felt she wasn't at risk anymore - she went back to work, was going out like her old self and it was obvious she was healthy. I decided if she felt safe enough to go out, that was a weight I could take off my shoulders and work started going back to "normal"

I met with HR a few months ago to go over my "return to office" and, baffled, I told him I never actually got the exception and was still coming in. He basically just said, "Huh. Well that's great. Remember, four days. Bye!"

I still had no idea if my office leaders were ever told what was going on with me, as again not one of them spoke with me about it and my time in the office.

two weeks ago I had a meeting with my boss, and at the end he out of the blue asked how my little sister was feeling? I told him she was doing so much better, which is true and he was glad.

So he knew the whole time...?

I know he was going through a tough time too. 2022 was rough on him. But I was still???

So you knew.

It sort of floored me. Someone knew the whole time. Did my other managers know? Did they just assume someone else had talked to me? Was it just all miscommunication? Or did they decide being present in the office was more important? I can't say i was mentally present but at least I filled a desk huh

I dunno. I want to think it was just miscommunication. Or just an unfortunate oversight due to too many balls in the air. It happens.

But fuck man. My sister had cancer. The whole point of asking for an exception was to protect yourself or family members. those months were so miserable. I was so miserable at almost all times, I was crawling through every day just fully bitter and resentful that I couldn't be fucking safe at home. And I really hate knowing now that it didn't have to be that way at all.

#work woes #cancer mention

[uglypastels]

Ooo lucky you actually saw them. I wanted to but I was a late-ish fan and I could never afford to see them. But thats cool, did you cry? Were they perfect? (My younger self could never) And honestly yeah id feel superior too if I were you lol luckily within my friend group I was the only one that liked Niall so I felt superior as well lmao they all liked Harry or zayn. Liam was another underrated one.

We all had the shrine lmao mine was just everywhere, my whole room was just 1D or the wanted smh it wouldve been the the cherry on top of I had candles back then lol

I havent seen the tik tok, I should look for it tho somehow. I have a love hate relationship with tik tok. I just create unhealthy habits with things I swear. At least a girl could own the cringe lol I cant lol I took his lil face everywhere, a school field trip and everything, I even showed it off to my parents like they should be proud LMAO and I showed my friends who for some reason also wanted a head of their favorites like bro no you don't want that lol I wish I had the girls confidence to keep bring his cut out😂

Dude back then all the Zains were gettin it. My cousin who was a zayn stan also met a guy named zain irl like bruh she was all heart eyes just cuz of that. Its funny that thats no longer an original experience for her😆

Idk were just a special breed of people lol

I saw them in 2014 with 5sos as support act. It was peak everything. Its also the only concert i travellec abroad for (also my first ever concert haha) because when they were doing my local show i was at 8th grade camp which is a big thing so i couldnt miss that. I recently found my/my mom's videos from it and jesus the quality is not it. All just screams and the bass blasting off the speakers but god if it wasnt the best nigbt of my life

And no but i the name wasnt even the reason i had a crush 😭 he was tall and funny and i was a tween and was falling head over heels for any boy that paid an ounce of attention to me. The fact his name was zain just made it funny (we bonded for both having Z names. Slay)

I literally never met a liam fav im sorry he was not it for me

Ooh, also, in 8th grade we had to hold presentations about songs. And my bestie and i did Best Song Ever. Never did i have to prepair so little haha. We knew everything by heart, from info about the boys to the lyrics to the script of that bit at the beginning of the video and all the choreos. I remember they asked us to do it again because we danced along as we were watching the vid and i felt so proud because they all seemed genuinely impressed with our knowledge haha

#ranking the boys would be #1. louis #2. niall #3-4 zayn and harry (interchangable) #and then sorry to payno

[comradeboyhalo]

What do you think of the take that c!Bad was purged of the Egg's influence during the Red Banquet because he might have died when he pushed c!Skeppy into lava because of their soul-link, and therefore everything Bad did afterwards was 100% voluntary and he isn't a victim of the Egg whatsoever, just a purely selfish asshole? Apparently this is corroborated by the fact that Skeppy and Bad get along perfectly fine during L'Sandberg and seem to be working together, and therefore Bad got what he wanted from the Egg e.g. a positive relationship with Skeppy. 🤔 idk a lot of things about this take simply don't seem to add up, especially considering the current lore with Sam Bucket and the erratic behavior Bad has been exhibiting now that the Egg is free to get its hooks back into him.

hmm this is actually something im still trying to work out my feelings over. also DISCLAIMER: i havent reviewed or analyzed a lot of recent c!bbh streams so i might be forgetting some things!

its canonical that bad is still influenced by the egg, and that's pretty heavily implied, if not obviously stated in current streams. also, while skeppy is the reason bad gave himself up to the egg, it's not the reason bad was first influenced by the egg--that was due to repeated exposure near it while he was digging out the statue room. so i agree that it simply doesn't add up that bad is completely free of the egg.

that being said, i do believe that many of bad's actions post-banquet can be taken as his own. i can fully imagine non-possessed badboyhalo creating l'sandburg, especially seeing as none of his "threats" with lsandburg ever really carried through. that, for me, is a major difference between egg!bbh and normal bbh. egg!bbh tends to act on his violent thoughts, while non-possessed bbh usually only riles people up (see: not escalating lsandburg into war, never actually attacking tommy during the prime path war, general inactivity of the badlands). i could be wrong, but it seems that the egg is not very present in bad's mind all the time, especially pre-sam bucket.

post-banquet bad is probably the trickiest to analyze because, of course, we don't know just what is going on in his mind. but, in my opinion, i see a lot of his actions during lsandburg and the prison as a result of his guilt, and his fear in confronting said guilt. and, well...bad can be a selfish asshole. he has been a selfish asshole. he is a deeply sympathetic character but he's also very capable of fucking up, with and without the help of the egg.

tl;dr: in my opinion, c!bad is influenced by the egg. c!bad can also and will also be a menace without the egg's help.

#ask #also if this didnt answer ur question im sorry...thats on my reading comprehension

[synonymroll648]

hiiii hi so ik i havent been that present on tumblr recently but i saw you in my notifs just now and hey <3 ily btww <3

:"OOO this is. literally so wholesome omg. lyt <3333

hru?? anything you want to share?? do you want an axolotl picture for any reason at all?? (because axolotls are cute and you deserve good things??)

#also. your keefitz prompts for ten years of keeper made my brain explode btw #between you and river and cath i straight up kinda wanna write fics for YOUR guys' prompts and not one of mine smh #the golden prompt is kicking my ass because idk what events i specifially want to narrow the fic down to and i could go. sooooo big with #this fic but i have soooooo little time :( #and then there's the question of. do i. do i make keefitz background or extra background and do i give them a happy ending #or an ambiguous ending or a sad ending? #i do not know. plus there's another fic idea that's NOT the golden prompt fic that's haunting my brain instead which makes it hard to write #this fic >:(( #well. there's multiple fic ideas rotating like rotisserie chickens at all times but i'm particularly invested in one at the moment #ask #silveredviolets

[nhoongmeep]

Week 6

Risk Management

How might I use the Quality, Time & Risk Management techniques I learned about in class to improve my life? What do I want to do when I graduate? What existing risks are preventing me from succeeding in my plans? How do I mitigate those risks?

i think i can use thiss technique to manage my life projects better. As of now i have many many big personal projects that could last years and decades but the workload seems overwhelming. i havent had time to break it down and tackle it. not to say balancing everyday life, personal project, professional projects and studying. i think i could benefit to section everything into bite size and achievable tasks rather than 3 or 4 giant sections.

After graduations, im planning to further my studies into animation and game making, since Design Studies is a very general and overall Course, meaning i know a bit of everything but not particularly specialized in anything. My final directions is still animation, and illustrations, so im planning to study master in those. illustration is cool and more to my liking but im not sure if i can sustain myself by just being an illustrator, so I'm refocusing onto Animation, specially 2D animation. The reason why 2D and not 3D is bc i feel like in recent years the 3D animation industry has been oversaturated and asking for sth new, so they r developing the mix betwwen 2D and 3D or multimedium. And to be able to adapt to the everchanging and demanding industry, i have to had my basic first, therefore 2D animation. for me 3D is just a skill to add on the skillset, but to be really good and unique i have to start with 2D. so my plan for the near future is, getting internship in a 2D studio in Hanoi (Deedee animation would be great) > work to get experience first > once i feel like im all prepared and equipped with basic knowledge > animation master oversea (Singapore/France/England/Hongkong) > get a job in some animation studio and deveope my portfolio and personal project. During this plan i definitely have to develope some personal project to strengthen my portfolio. Honestly, im scared, I have all this plan but i dont know where to start and everything seems so overwhelming. i know i should start w bitesize baby step but it would be a lie if this isnt still overwhelming to me.

Anyway, project update

We just got update on the question list and the chosen brief in Dec 2nd, and it's Chuyện của Gấu. We r currently behind our schedule 2 week, so we will have to push our productivities up. I called for a quick meeting/ update to divide our workload and readjust our timeframe. also tell my team mate to do more research into BSNB, moonbear and Mường culture.

Our task curently

As of now, we divided into 2 group

task 1 - Calendar - Nhung Nguyen & Linh Dinh

task 2 - GIft box - Linh Tran & Mi Do

each person will get 4-5 tasks, this can be change accordingly in the future if anyone is/is not able to finish their task.

additional tasks: research and questions for client on BSNB fieldtrip

nhoong's personal task: communicate w clients and other leaders to agree on a day for the field trip; preparations and collect drafts from members and organize to present to client first draft on field trip

2 key dates this week:

9 Dec: client meeting 1 - Introductions and Hanoi zoo filedtrip

10 Dec: BSNB fieldtrip

[gontagokuhara]

Okay I finally just now got a break from work and holiday business right now to actually comment and reread the newest chapter of pointy objects and honestly, I absolutely love lore drops in this story so I'm still like screaming and crying and throwing up, you have so much skill when it comes to writing its insane omg

Anywho I stopped by to say that and ask a boring question! Just for clarification, when Maki and Kaede were being gay and messy in Fuyuhiko's house, that line "ducking beneath her dad's hesitant touch" for sure means Mondo right?? For a minute I thought it was referring to Fuyuhiko because he's her godfather. The family tree makes a lot more sense now though, but just for clarification's sake I'll ask! I definitely don't want to reach the point of questions where I'm treading into the spoiler zone, because every surprise and reveal in PO has made me scream and shout and let it all out.

hi hello! happy holidays, i'm glad you've got some time for yourself! <3

this did not start out as either a long Or lore heavy answer Whoopsies....there are no actual spoilers (beyond talking about the reveal in the most recent chapter) but i do skate around the concept, just a little

as to your question (which i don't think it's boring at all): kaede is meant to be referring to taka in that instance! the full relevant line is "…still just another traumatized demigod, ducking beneath her dad’s — not her godly parent’s, never him — hesitant touch..." the most recent chapter established mondo as maki's godly parent, the one that she is biologically related to, though both him and taka are equally her 'dad's. there's also a line that describes how taka has visited camp a handful of times, but the same isn't said of mondo, which is intentional.

as for why that is...it is alluded to, but i don't make explicit the reason. doing that now would get into slightly spoiler territory, but in rereading it, i do think someone could make a reasonable inference based on what was said in ch19, and also in things that have been touched on waaay back, as to why mondo isn't present in ways taka has been said to be. i'm keeping my wording vague because to be 100% honest, certain aspects of this lore are so deeply established and it's just been a given for Me in My head for so long that i forget sometimes what has been revealed and what quite hasn't yet, and funnily enough that's mostly in relation to the broader concept i'm referring to now. i don't want to drop something in passing in a reply and then end up with an inbox of "wait what?!?!?!" from unintentionally spoiling something 💀 good news is, on the maki front at least, i expect the why to be answered...relatively soon.

i will say, your mention of the family tree wrt: maki is relieving because in my planning docs. GOD what a mess. not necessarily for her but for All the kids and their parents. i havent tried to physically map it all yet but i will someday and it will probably kill me. the entirety of maki's has been stated or at least implied in-story though, so for clarification's sake:

taka and mondo (godly parent) are maki's fathers. mondo and fuyuhiko are good friends/"business partners" (lmfao). as a gesture of mutual respect/a showcase of their close bond, fuyuhiko was designated maki's godfather (in the traditional sense [but also to me, connorlizabeth bazwrites, as a dumbass nod to their gang/mob/yakuza connections]). and mondo was dubbed tenko's godfather by fuyuhiko (godly parent).

WOW this got long and so very very off topic Oopsie. however in rereading this 800 times it seems a waste not to post it when i've made sure there's no spoilers beyond what can be (imo) sussed out through a close reread (or what will become more relevant as more is revealed in canon). this has Also reminded me to give the most recent chapter a reread, as i plan to get started on 20 around new year, so thank you! hope the predictably massive word dump is worth <3

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Adobe Broke Photoshop in 2023 (October Update)

Back in July, I made a post detailing how bad Photoshop has gotten for me this year, which you can read here. But if you want a tldr version of it, following new years Photoshop stability and reliability has taken a nose dive with constant crashes that prevent auto recover from being as effective to glitches that make working in it a nightmare. Its been over 3 months since I made that post and I kinda wanted to do an update on how photoshop has been. Has it actually gotten better? Kind of but not really. In some ways, its gotten better, in others worse but generally not much has changed. I guess two positives that come to mind is that one of the afformention glitches I noted was patched up at some point in July, so I was able to update finally. Though, I didnt experience the backlash from not updating photoshop like I had in March (fuck you Adobe). And I havent been experiencing the left click lock as much, although thats more to do with me not doing certian commands that I found could trigger it than adobe actually being a good company and fixing it. There's a thread on the adobe forums about this issue, and according to one of most recent posts as of the 22nd, they run a photo company and have called Adobe support 5 times about this issue, and it seems that no one at Adobe knows about this glitch. Yes a billion dollar company who sells programs at inflated prices because they're "industry standard" knows nothing about a single bug that has been in the program for 6 months, but will gladly add in new features no one will use.

Now when I say things got worse, crashes started happening more frequently again in late September and Early October. But instead of happening weekly, they happened almost every fucking day. One day I would have a crash, the next day nothing would happen, before a crash happening the following day. And what was more crushing about this was that it happened while I was dealing with selections and flatting comic pages... whats funny about this is that not only can selections not be recovered if you close the file (even if you save), but can only be saved by pressing a seperate save button which has no keyboard commands. Which made these crashes more horrible than if I had been inking or sketching. Once again, I consulted the Adobe forums for help and once again, the solution was to update my gpu driver which was out of date. I don't think its the fact that I had already done this and nor that somehow, the driver I had been using since March was already out of date by September that makes this situation so ridiculous. But its the fact that I've pretty much had to bend over to change my pc just so I could run photoshop within the same year. In contrast to how things were before 2023 where I didn't have to do a single thing and photoshop ran fine. Its only this year that for some divine reason that the program decided to be shit to me.

So why was I still using it if it was so bad? It was because of my first Chapter. Around the time I had that initial post, I was still hard at work on finishing my comic's first Chapter which has taken me 4 years to complete. I had anticipated getting it done around that time, but due to burn out I ended up taking much longer, finishing it on October 13th. During those final few months, I decided that upon finish Chapter 1, I would be done with photoshop and moving onto a different art program for the rest of my comic. And that program ended up being Clip Studio Paint which I got as an early birthday present from my dad, following photoshop crashing on me two times in that day, the latter happening an hour after I took a break to calm myself down after the first crash....I wish I was making that up. I went with CSP due to the fact that most tapas artists I know use it and because of the many good things they've said about it. Its a pretty highly regarded program, and even if my motive for buying it wasn't because of Photoshop's "quirks", it has features that make producing comics much faster in CSP than in photoshop. So with CSP in my hands, you'd think the nightmare would be over, right?

You so, my plan was to use CSP for my comic starting with Chapter 2 but after spending some time in the program, I realized I probably wouldn't be knowledgeable enough or adapted to it enough just in time for me to start drawing Chapter 2 with a release date of early 2024. So in the end, I decided to wait until Chapter 3 to make the switch, while limiting myself to CSP for spur of the moment drawing ideas and illustrations. Yes, Photoshop has been a complete failure to me but I am way more experienced with it than with Clip Studio. I dont want there to be a potential quality drop following the most recent episode and I want to be sure I can use it before jumping into creating comics. This isnt like the switch from traditional to digital for my comic back in 2021, because I had already had more than a years worth of experience with photoshop and digital drawing by that time. Because of that, the switch wasn't as rough as it would've been if I had done it earlier. I was going to save this announcement for one my kofi 'comic corner' blogs (btw if you want to support me on kofi click here: https://ko-fi.com/kenthenugget) but Im making this post now so why the hell not. But for the time being, Im still going to be using photoshop for Chapter 2, and my character sheets of course. Given how long I spent on Chapter 1, you might think Im crazy for wanting to use the program for another 4 years but I don't anticipate this chapter taking as long, due to skill and because its much shorter in comparison.

Im not going to lie, I have mixed feelings on continuing to use Photoshop for my comic. On one hand, Im glad I wont need to worry about a potential quality drop but on the other, I dont know how long I can handle crashes and glitches that only seem to persist as time goes on. I'll just pray to God to give me strength during the drawing of Chapter 2 once I finish thumbnailing. Hopefully, I and photoshop will be able to last.....

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