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#it's too much effort i don't really have to expend on something with no guarantee of return
idletransgenderfication
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me, a fool, submitting myself yet again to the mortifying ordeal of being known: maybe this time i'll receive the rewards of being loved :)
#spoilers: i won't
#ughhh i'm still just. not getting much out of my interactions with others
#i want to talk to people but i also don't want the pressure of having to hold a conversation
#when it feels like no one is really that interested in talking to me
#like idk i keep trying to reach out and put myself out there but it's incredibly difficult for me
#and i never get the attention or validation i want in return so i just end up feeling worse
#idk why i bother doing something so stressful when it never pays off
#i've been going to this lgbt group for a while but i think i'm just gonna stop
#i have too much to do and it's not a worthwhile use of my time
#3 hours and a missed dinner on a weekday night are a lot to spend on an outing that usually just makes me feel worse
#like sorry but i just don't have the resources to keep wasting on the chance i might actually get something out of it this time
#i try to be optimistic but at this point holding out hope here is just hurting me
#there's frankly far better uses of my time
#i don't care if it's isolating myself anymore all my attempts to connect with others miss the mark anyway
#people will either put effort into reaching out to me themselves or they won't i'm done trying to do it myself
#it's too much effort i don't really have to expend on something with no guarantee of return
#i have to be more pragmatic about things or i'll just run out of steam
#bee babbles
#vent
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